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Waking Up Lumpy

Wake up grumpy
tired
much older than yesterday.

Day fifty-seven,
an irrationally
not nice
non-round number,
since defiantly challenging daughter,
with the contextual right-brain unhealthy intelligence
of a sociopathic alligator,
last came home from school
or anywhere without me.

Remembering her school’s response
when I suggested her six-hours-per-day aide
five days per week
not be switched out every week
or two.
She doesn’t do well with transitions
including interpersonal change,
lack of power to control
a significant Other’s time
to stay
and go.

While aware this is an issue,
their larger concern was burn-out.
Aides couldn’t tolerate the intensity
of her hostility
and constant need
need
need for attention,
for food,
for distraction,
for action,
for…

Wondering how the best of her school supporters
would feel after 228 consecutive
six-hour shifts

Without any supervisor
capable of reassuring me
or him
or her
or them
or us
of how many more to go
without adequate social distancing
within our lumpy quarantine space.

No possible reassurance
or warning
we’re just getting started,
about to end,
over the hump,
or not so much,
actually.

Perfect.

Definite only about feeling humped out
and jumped in
lack of ease,
sucked out potential for unguarded rest.

Feeling sorry for myself,
yes,
but also for her,
and for all of us
who have taken risks
to give long-term care
where receiving care in response
is not a reasonable
or compassionate
expectation of hope-filled ways,
faithful truths,
loving lives

Quietly waking up grumpy
in unsolidarity
unsolitary confinement.

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Why Capitalism Failed

I’m reading a publication of Yale Press,
a “centrist” polemic against the LeftBrain’s libertarian excesses,
and against RightBrain’s sinister shadow
of totalitarian uniformity
playing nihilistic lose/lose
on a global interpersonal
public sector stage three
of nationalistic climate annihilation,

Where RightBrain’s win/win golden shadow
prefers indigenously universal integrity,
communion of ancient multicultural diversity,
playing democratically healthy win/win games
on an intrapersonal through global climate stage four
of 20-20 revolutionary peace
as also restoring LeftBrain cognitive bicameral consciousness.

Here I’m finding a Roman Catholic skewed analysis
of a “sexual revolution”
as sinister shadow
of Enlightenment attraction to individual freedoms
over social responsibility
and even public sector moral rules
of natural/spiritual law.

While I can see and feel historic accuracy here,
at the same time
this Liberalism
as described
is not at all the Liberal Religion I experience in UU,
or even the Liberal Education
I receive and give
in compassionate win/win dialogue
and everyday conversation.

Nor is this misnomer for Patriarchal Capitalism
what I experience with Friends
and in mature mainline Christian meetings
communions
sanctuaries from win/lose zero-sum
Business As Monoculturally Usual
way too theoretical and theo-unlogical and transcendent
to inform everyday natural communication,
much less ecologically healthy relationships.

Nor is libertine sexualized pathology
what I have experienced in the Liberal multicultural love
of compassionate Earth,
multiculturally interdependent EarthTribes,
and ecologically healthy inter-relationships
of natural/spiritual compassion.

The Liberal I am concerned about conserving,
and the Liberals I celebrate multicultural communion with,
are strongly
emotionally committed
co-invested in Earth
and natural law
and spiritual order
as an interdependently freeing web
connecting egalitarian dignity
of all
God’s/Goddesses’/Earth’s
living healthyLeft/wealthyRight
minded-hearted
polypathic
polyphonic
polynomials not-not ZeroSum
becoming bicamerally ego/eco
yang/yin
nature/spirit
secular/sacred liberated lovers
of integrally conservational co-passions.

This Liberal I would myself, with others, conserve
for healthy purpose,
The Liberals I conservatively know
in my own reserved
yet internally changing
creolizing
transubstantiating
co-acclimating
co-passioning way,
would no more let go of our interdependent web
of Earth’s truthful
trusting
and beautiful nature/spirit nondual interface
of Enlightenment,
than grab hold too conservatively
too tightly to individual rights to speak and do
that would infringe on Others’ rights
to freely listen to transparent truths
and behave with openness to change
for growing healthier and wealthier and wiser
vulnerably interdependent Beauty Paradise.

Which, if I recall,
takes us back,
full circle,
to the internally felt Light
that originally
and democratic constitutionally
sparks individual RightBrain Enlightenment Eras,
interdependent nutritional augmentation of organic health-webs,
in response to
LeftBrain Industrial-Weaponed Violent Revolutions,
autonomous capitalism’s fragmentation
born of white male privileged apartheid.

What is midway central
is also narrow-way double-bound
egalitarian Left nature
co-arising
interdependent Right holonic spirit.

Now that’s in the book Iain McGilchrist wrote
and Yale Press also published.

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When Federal Abuse Trumps State Health Policy

When is a practice
of separating unprivileged families
not a policy?

When a healthy democratic bicameral nation
never would
nor should
nor could
approve any such policy

Clearly
transparently the opposite of
health and happiness
equity and cooperative ecopolitical
basic human dignity
and family values
intent.

When is an ad hoc administrative despotic practice
not also a privileged fascist attack
on integrity of social health
to sustain mendacity of private wealth
as long as climate pathologically possible.

What is the opposite of multicultural rapture
love
health
happiness
trust
democracy
family-oriented health care
giving and receiving policies
procedures
practices?

Regardless of party affiliation
and independent thinking and feeling,
It still remains orthodox
that democracies
must be liberal with love
and health restoring justice

And stingy,
conservative with anger
fear
hate
terror
bullying anti-family
anti-unprivileged pathologies,
vengeful and mendacious injustice
deprivation
neglect
separating what God has conjoined
abuse of mortal sovereignty.

If a practice is not healthy enough
for privileged you
and your privileged kids,
then it is worthy of a
child abuse and neglect public policy
against it.

 

 

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