Brown satin
and warm latin passions
unveil to reveal
a powerful white black tool
Polyculturally vulnerable
enlightening school
Multiculturally transparent
empowering rule
For reforming privileged sensory
thoughts
And reverse-flowing predative sensual
feelings.
When you and your wife visited,
you shared a question asked by a pastor
of a raped
and thereby pregnant
vulnerably young and questioning parishioner.
“If your unborn child survived
his first year
and walked back into your home
do you think you would still want to kill him?”
Probably not,
I’m thinking.
And,
perhaps more pastorally significant
and responsible,
how can we, in resilient compassion for ourselves
and for those who trespass against us
mitigate sacred rage
against ancient sins of our predative Fathers?
The next morning
over coffee and breakfast
your wife told a surprising story
of meeting a woman
in a Carolina church basement
who boldly claimed to be
an unapologetic pagan
Certainly not repenting;
more like recruiting
UnStraight out proud wiki
without thinking that might be an appropriate sin
for inviting healing prayer
rather than embracing
as if possessing a pure and virtuous soul
matriarchally regathering
HolyEarthPeace Spirits.
Your wife’s response
cautiously avoided Retribution Is Mine!
weaponized words,
another patriarchal sin of our historied Fathers
“I don’t think I’ve ever heard anyone say that before”
right out in public
toward lunchtime on a bright spring day
and certainly not in a ChristChurch basement
I silently wondered why your wife did not seem to feel
this pagan should be aborted
Stoned to death
or at least hanged
for defying the Good News
of Straight White King James
colonizing Jesus.
If there was a conversation about how many pagans may feel
about abortion of healthy tribal lives
or Great White Father rape,
or the somewhat wider history
of patriarchal predation against matriarchal wisdom
she did not mention such old crone witchery
Studying dark theistic codes of dueling history
usually tolerating abortions of Othered human lives
for exceptional survival reasons
emerging throughout traumatic transition years
for various viciously circling reasons
A well-capitalized
verbally articulate
personalized monotheistic God
might appear to be against
polytheistic Muses and Witches and Goddesses
within EarthTribe mind-spirited space,
political place,
economic race
On the Othered,
and safely aborted, hand
pantheistic spiritual commitments
supporting multicultural
animistic
pantheistic
panentheistic
polycultural respect
may more resiliently redevelop
sacred
sentient
holy spirited life
at the EarthTribal
universally uniting EarthPeace level
of sacred passion
Respect for our interdependent thriving lives
does not mean we are not also
abortionists to survive the trauma
of invasive felt predations,
biological
and ecological
and theological
and political.
Divine respect for co-infested fertile life
might include respect for death
and gratitude for EarthTribe lives sacrificed
As we hold hands
and bow our heads
with gratitude
for hungry stomachs satisfied,
for sacred quenching waters,
outs and ins of healthy bodies,
backs and forths of wealthy minds
With trust our thirst
for tribal trust
does not imply that when and what I swallow,
I abort
And do not also co-invest
in this our cooperative resilience
Health care giving
and receiving
EarthTribe sentient wealth
Respect for dark
deeply raging
patriarchal trauma
does not imply
disrespect for more therapeutic
matriarchal light.
And just so,
I reversely suppose,
universal peace
uniting holy spirited respect
for resilient
brilliant sentient life
Does not imply
disrespect for trauma,
despair
and death
Which I had been struggling with
when you and your wife visited,
and you shared your story
of a raped
and thereby pregnant
young and traumatized parishioner.
Thoughts with feelings
worthy of engaging
to achieve humanity’s full potential
Perhaps
in part
because these memory thoughts
about feelings
are impossible to resiliently achieve
as individuals:
Peace
Integrity
Health
Love
Compassion
Communion
Grace
Sacred Wealth
Beauty
And
because EarthTribal Loyalty
is impossible to achieve
as merely red-blooded
anthrosupremacists:
Sacred Trust
Hope for Beauty
Omniscient Enlightenment
Omnipresent Empowerment
Omnipotent EcoPolitical Power
one win/win moment
in eternal bilateral time
Impossible Polyphonic Resonance
for global Polypathic Peace
preventing win/lose anthrosupremacist
ecodical trauma
Restoring EarthCare Justice
to achieve EarthTribal Resilience.
Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
I must learn to trust
Earth’s future more
Both Father Sun’s timeless
rounds of enlightenment
and Mother Earth’s
codependent rhythms
regenerating empowerment
And this trusting more
implies unlearning
letting go of trauma’s lessons
in surviving hale and hearty
RightWing distrust
Unenlightened AnthroElitism
within our CommonEnglish languaged voice
and without other physically iconic sounds
and sights
and smells
and tastes
Feelings that matter more
than mere white privileged noise
for self-regenerative thrival
much more healthy
than mere pathic
militaristic
narcissistic survival
If we would
together,
rediscover sacred Beauty
CoPassion
CoInvested in integrity’s historic
pre-historic win/win revival
and future multiculturing
nonverbal nonviolent
communication potential.
Search me
for my life’s meaning
An earnest search
for social value,
if not economic,
or ecological,
or nutritional,
I guess
when minds remind mortal
Ends maybe measured
in positive communication
Frequencies of win/win
strategic resolution
development
engagement
Growing deeply embedded layers
of communal
organic
green/blue Earth resonance
Searching me
for strong
and flexible
inside/outside-resilience
Searching me
for Earth’s healthiest
and safest mean balance
Searching me
for my life’s highest
and best health
and wealth
of purpose
Searching Sacred We…
Divide and conquer debates
favor win/lose competitions
as sometimes vicious over-investment
in defeating healthy democracy
to conquer public-square power space
not particularly sublime
While compassionate discussions
favor win/win cooperation
as virtuous co-investment
in green communion
circling co-empathic sharing time
Becoming complexly nuanced
beyond any tolerable hot red point
of static Business As Usual stuck
redundantly building stale uniformity lists
from LeftBrains preferring to hear
strong straight white self-defense
protagonist voices
Drowning out Other
while dragging out streams
of degenerating non-communication
Unhealthy anthro-supremacist
viciously polarizing
and repolarizing
Dissociating and ruminating dark rabbit holes
for hiding capital competing heads
while our ecocidal ideations destroy
fragile health care systems,
insurance and natural defense industries
food and potable water production and preservation
and water-front real estate values
Further dividing
and polarizing debates
favoring winner survives all competitions
and vicious viral over-investment
in defeating healthy democratic trust
to conquer public-square power space
by fostering active distrust of Other,
not particularly sublime
While more regenerative discussions
favor win/win ecofeminist cooperation
as virtuous co-investment
in green communion
circling compassion’s sharing time.
Complex 1
for and of
chaotic not 0.
We may need to tolerate
survival of the win/lose fittest
1.
And yet want to invite
thrival of the win/win fit-in-ingest
cooperative co-invested
0
Co-arising dipolar
round correlating golden health
and win/win safety rules
for healthy-wombed
pregnant 0
Sentient non-0 souls
verbally dominant bodies
knowing 1’s own mind
1 knows
0-ego soul
+knows
and can not(-) yet feel
not not tipping points
Dipolar co-arising
co-investing in-between fully resilient
1/0 double-bound win/win
and empty entropic
x pole defines y hole
refines 1x
confines 0 not(-) yintegrity
loves fine yang 1(+)
As empty sentient minds
erupt embodied sensory feelings
Past 1 ego positive memories
evoke eco-future not-0
Earth-souled images
Complex bipolar 1’s
for space and of time
1 body and 0 mind
chaotic not empty hole
whole round spiraling 0
zone communion systems.
I have a body,
own an organic body,
yet I am a mindbody
as ego’s inside identity
embraces outside systemic context
Communication
with my body
yet a communing mindbody
inter/intra-communicating organism
Musician
within my body
yet a musing
win/win healthy
resiliently co-resonant MindBody
spiritually led
yet naturally following
Consciousness
my sacred mind has a secular body
yet ego
is also a sacred ego/eco-logical body,
depending on whether you perceive Self
as in toward out
and/or from outside
toward inside courageous
and curious ego
At least on our better days
and in peak trauma-free moments
of win/win co-empathically enlightened
empowering spiritually natural co-investments
Co-operating
sacred mind
de-segregating organically safe
and healthy
Inter/intra-communicating
bicamerally balancing
win/win compassion’s bodhisattva,
transparent mind’s vulnerable body
for resilient EarthTribe communionation.
It’s weird
and sometimes wild
living with a non-LeftBrain verbal dominant
aspiring child,
now young adult
I find myself waiting for him
to nonverbally connect
and correct me
about my patriarchal domineering
economic and political ableist sins
of RightBrain felt omission
from commercial value
and, perhaps worse,
my passionately sacred co-messianic
self-responsible
unconditional co-enabling
sins of RightBrain depressive
trauma approach/avoid
ambivalent
obsessive/compulsive
commission
and reiterative recommission.
And
he never disappoints
going to the right
felt point
Could no more lie
or steal
than feel envy
fueling greed
for tomorrow’s self-sufficient hopes
and egocentric dreams
At night
when we sleep,
if not before
then after an overpowering seizure
He can explain to me
No ancient spiritual 1 experience
could be other than HereNow natural 0 feeling
linear and yet circular
regeneratively enspiraling
Without LeftBrain dominant
defensive weapons
1 protagonist neither can
nor would
nor should
retool and lavishly display 0 word voices
outside inadequately disabled numeric language
for nonverbal co-passion’s inside images
Sensory receptive memories,
cause-effect singular explanations
and co-arising circular narratives
of co-redemptive recycling
spiraling vicious
and virtuous
negative 1 bipolarity
and not-not positive non-0 dipolarity
co-arising appositional circles
Not divorcing physical Nature
outside abled bodies
from not just metaphysical
Spirit inside minds
Deep listening back through neurosystemic compassion
wet and warm
and dispassion
darkly parched and cold
bilateral multicultural
multigenerational
poly-paradigmatic
panentheistic
enthymematic health and safe feelings
making and remaking
neurosystemic distinctions
Integrity’s RightOriginal Mind
passion for outside health
and safe internal wealth
co-regeneration
Win/Win default
poly-passioned balance
bilateral
Ego Yang Verbal Left
stern deep-voiced patriarchal
sacred co-passioning
Eco Yintegral NonVerbal Right
pre-bicameral Taoist humming
indigenously outflowing
growing wise CoPassion
For positive-health EarthMother
warm comforting wet wombs
sacred surrounding
positive-wealth AnthroChild
co-operatively panentheistic
wild
belly laughing co-empathic passion
Internally sung and danced
oral wu-wei wisdom traditions
of body/mind
nature/spirit
out/inside formation
flowing co-relational balance
synergetic harmony
symphony
resonant integrity
Grows wiser pre-verbal
cooperatively positive health
than multigenerational
disabling apartheid nightmares
of polypathic abuse
and monoculturing neglect
Anticipating inside/outside mortal
-1/-0 lose/lose
universal cold
and feverishly hot tremors
predicting dark disuniting trauma.
It feels weird post-peak,
and sometimes wild,
continuing to sacredly aspire
to merit this gift
RightMind panentheistic survival
of LeftBrain talking
ego-monotheistic thriving
exclusive AnthroSpeaking salvation stories
Living
and apparently dying
repeatedly
with a non-LeftBrain verbal prominent
aspiring child,
now contentedly sleeping
in compassionate comfort
and organically warm
sacred joy
Hopefully
dreaming that we feel pleasantly weird,
sometimes provoking wild belly laughs,
feeling free outside a LeftBrain verbal dominant
label,
name,
+1 inside v -0 outside frame
EitherSacred Or SecularizedDisEnfranchisedOther
possibly unhealthy and unsafe
win/lose competitive imbalance
Preferring
RightMind prominent
warm and wet wombed compassion
emerging -(-0) inside/outside +1
equitable development dreamwork
emergent compassion conversations
Weird
and sometimes wild
living within a non-LeftBrain verbal
monoculturally dominant
Instead,
a more Here/Now
timelessly balancing
copassioning moment
of in/out-digenous
resiliently peaceful wisdom
To choose soulmates
health wealthy
and wisely
As they choose
to dream with you.
My most important priority
for personal inside health care
is polycultural outside
EarthCare
Environmentally cooperative
divine health caring enlightenment
empowering humane safe
sufficient wealth care.
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