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Speaking From Felt Experience

Enjoying Earth’s promised land
of compassionate
multicultural communion,
we share a preference for deep
rich soil
and fertile green-blue
resonating surf

As our bodies adjust
to rocky and prickly
either me
or not me space

And our minds flow
back and forth
through gooey both “me”
and organic neurosensory “we”
peace searching times
of glad/bad memory,
healthy peak and unwealthy valley
remembering felt body trauma
and mindfully resilient therapies

Inhaling Earth’s past sacred unions
Exhaling into conjoined future
compassionate communion.

These reflections came to mind
this morning
as I recalled a recent clergy question:

“What did you FEEL
when you first read
this proposal for a change
in our corporate
orthodox
Universal Salvific
and Unitarian CoRedemptive
liberated feminist tradition.”

I remember listening for neuro-sensexually
enlightened language
for distinguishing core
empowered/disempowered Feelings
primally limited to:

Glad-anticipating win/win peak mind/body experiences
Bad-anxious about lose/lose dualdark valley experiences
Sad-depressed about my own win/lose long-term chances
Mad-about suppressed short-term survival
odds against overpowering PatriarchalGod’s
timeless dispassion.

My gladness trying to thrive
despite an unholy trinity
responding to trauma history
of multigenerational peak/valley surfing
change

Transitions
in glad health opportunities
reforming bad unease
sad disease
mad missing ease
invoking dissociative
neuro-sensexual despair
informing future opportunities
for compassionate repair.

Out of twenty
LeftBrain verbal dominant responses
to this spirited natural feelings question,
only two mentioned feelings
underlying
predicting positive
and negative
and ambivalent thoughts.

One said both glad about opportunity
for deep communal dialogue
and sad about lowly lay victims
speaking against too powerful and unenlightened
religious professional orchestrations

Us v them rhetoric
creating a polarizing culture
of win/lose
0-sum
closed-off
competitive
destabilizing trauma

Lack of EarthPeace
and Restorative Justice
in the deep rich soil
and fertile green-blue surf
of nature-spirited communion
opportunities for peak dialogical experiences
of LeftMind/RightBody
enlightened/empowering
FatherSun/MotherEarth co-passionate
revival.

Another wise woman elder responded
with “confused”
which encompasses,
without resonantly resolving,
all of Glad and Bad
Sad and Mad
chaotic flowing mind
feeling toxically disembodied
from sacred healing peace
restoring EarthTribe Justice
co-passionate mission statements
EarthTribe healing vocations.

What no one said
was “compassion”
for the romantic-comedy of peak experienced Glad
and the traumatic-tragedy of dark valley experienced
Bad’s
short-term Mad
and long-term chronic Sad
Lose/Lose absence
of healthy
enlightened
messianic minds

Surfing through empowered
co-redemptive neurosensory
bodhisattva bodies
of spiritual/natural
mental/physical
co-passionate communicators

Win/win naturally resilient
co-mediating spiritual practicers
rooted in peak experiences
of comprehensive synergetic feelings
more resiliently Glad
than dispassionately Bad

Speaking our restorative justice
free and co-responsive win/win
searching truths
to patriarchal/capitalist
win/lose systemic trauma.

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Same Old Solo Song and Lonely Thanksgiving Dance

A mental health difference
between being stuck
in an impoverished designation
and being stuck
trying to merely survive
with mostly “Loser” marginalization
dehydration
ancient locked-up degeneration

Feels like same difference
between economic red-lined
unenlightened Othering
smothering suppression
and flat-lined politically disempowering
oppression

Feels like a thoughtful distinction
with a felt difference
between stuck
in a LeftBrain dominant
win/lose survivalist
Either/Or neurosystemic instinctive imposition

And slowly becoming unstuck
through a more joyful mind/body journey
developing win-left/win-right
thought/felt polycultural
universal/uniting
Integral Therapeutic 1/0
re-nouned/non-verbal
ReStorative Peace Communion
double-binary
inside/outside reconnecting
bi-genderal neuro-systems

As sacred as the hell
of 0-sum impoverishment
and less secular than the heaven
falsely
and monotonously ego-1 promised
by LeftBrain dominant
thrival of the monochromatic mightiest
seriously constipated prominent
Patriarchal-Capitalist
monocultural supremacists,
who won’t even freely give
a hit
for win/win 1/0 peak experience
co-thrival.

Pretending their root chakra systems
don’t degeneratively stink

Predative practitioners
of EarthTribe’s
desecrating
violently colonizing
nationalistic
Straight White privileged
historic monotheistic drama
secularizing
regeneratively compromising
the 1-Elite v 0-NonElite
unGolden-Ruled co-mediators

Win/lose v win/win
sub-optimal 1 v 0
bi-gendered polypathic
bipolar polymathic experience
systemically disorganizing
and miscommunicating trauma;
rather than nonviolently communionating
systemic win/win therapeuic
polyculturing co-passionate i
well-sung hung
and brilliant wellness wombed
resilient compassionate dance
vertical and horizontal
body and mind
space and time
EarthTribal passionate interventions

Restorative justice intentions,
conservatively liberating green
ego/Yang eco/Yintegral
Universal/Unitarian
root systemic chakra
win/win health and safety
neurosystemically co-binary
SunLight
and EarthEmpowering
bipartisan communicating
mono-1/poly-0 soul
root chakra
ecopolitical EarthTribal
neurosystemic
organic
sacred life

Is also synergetic love
win/win cooperative
co-invested
co-empathic
healthy Left
and safe-felt environmental Right

Liberating/conservational wings
emotional/nutritional expressions
inside-mind/outside-body communications
healthy co-passionate

Dipolar co-arising
resiliently safe biosystems

Singing more duets
while dancing in warm
sometimes wet
and wild,
win/win virtuous
1/0 co-binary passion circles.
fueled by 1/0 root chakra
spiraling reconnecting cycles
sometimes lonely courage
all times eternal
revolving healthy curiosity.

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Singing Out Of Key

I feel like I’m trying to sing
slow win/win
in universal C-major
key of resonance
while you are trying to resiliently dance
fast and furious win/lose
in disuniting F-sharp keys
of in-between dissonance

And
almost G-whiz,
I don’t know
what to do
and not do
to fix you

For not yet trusting
my C-major intent
is also our win/win center
of cooperative mainstream
leftbrain dominant
co-invested resilient narratives
for restoring co-passionate
peaceful
ecological light
and power relationships

Polynomial harmonies
polycultural symphonies
polyphonic rhapsodies
F-sharp tragedies
embracing C-major comedies

Family
and Earth-friendly cobinaries,
DNA spirals
of fractal cooperative
win/win co-investment
in mind-healthy and body-safe
dialectical circles
of growing healthy emergence

Integral regenerative practice
practice
practice full-octave
co-passionate keys
of truth-beauty
bicameral health-wealth culture

Best sung and danced
polyculturally
communally
ego/eco
inside/outside-friendly

Singing universal C-major,
dancing together
spiraling sway
way past B-sharp
about positive dissonance
merging into transforming
cooperative
co-invested
full-circle resonance.

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Secrets of Muses

Wonder
is like Joy
except more below the waist
and less above,
said the Muse
to the Choreographer.

Awe
accompanies Wonder
and yet feels more silent bass
and less trembling treble
cleft,
said the Choreographer
to the RightHand dominant
Composer

Joy sings
overflowing Awesome pelvic dance
more above the neck
and less wondrously below
our DarkWhole sacred chakra
of deep lusty Integrity,
said the Masseur
to the multiculturing Muse,
face down on his table.

Wonder
is like Joy
except more below the waist
and less above,
repeated the Muse
to his hopeful Choreographer.

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Sundays Free Of Should

Remember the Sabbath
to keep it holy
free of Shoulds.

A should-free cathedral
of intimate athleticism
romantic
exotic
ecstatic
euphoric
erotic

Exhausts this sabbath light
at long last
widely dawning deeply stronger
and resiliently handsome
dark as night

In virtuously enlightening response
to Saturnight’s weekly exorcism
annihilating
exhausting
expiring

Yet another weekday week
weak slow-groan degenerjism

Darkly precipitating
sweaty penetrating night seductive mares
aggravating
congregating
irritating
neighing
sedating
constipating

All my life
I’ve been waiting for you
my Sunday not not should
embrace every daytime athlete
with unconditional
warm felt regard

Up on two feet
with spiritually natural intent
of sabbath hot passions
including,
but not exclusively hoarding,
frontal poles
and backside holes

Balancing sabbaths neurosensory integrity
extending virally out and virtuously circling in
stretching strength
of bilateral heart pumps
and lung inflations
and limb elations
stretching Sunday loves
and bipartisan 1 plunging into 0
every polynomial weekday
binomial cooperative
co-invested
convexly concaved
not-not straight but spiraling round
wholesome inside/outside balance

In co-empathic sabbath passions
free of shaming Others
preaching teaching virginal should not
remember SaturNightMare’s
BlackHole peak experience
anticipating this new athletic Sunday Service

ReMembering
ReIncarnating
ReLigioning Sabbath
to keep it holy
free of Othering Shoulds.

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Deep Valleys

Perilous fall risks
these double-binding thoughts
with feelings still nascently attached
positive and negative,
often complexly ambiguous
as an old variegated sock
chew toy

Stumbled over in emotive colored sequences
contrasting tasteful language
comparing visions sweet and sour,
bland touch not grand
but better than feeling bitter
qualitative resonant/dissonant scales
of magnificent maleficence
and malicious magnificence

Narrow
overflowing personally compelling
dispelling private passions
remain within a high and wide
yet deep and narrow
multigenerational polyculture
of co-empathic compassion

To heal sacred MaternalEarth
and thereby correlate
all Her multiculturing
divinely languaged
singularly health-hearted
dizzying slip-shod business

Positive and negative
universal uniting
and severing
ecopolitically co-invested emotions

Eco-logically restorative
climate resilient growing
peaceful co-messymanic valleys
of resonant reconnection

As reliable as an old
hand knit pair
of variegated socks
before repurposed
as sacred scented chewtoys.

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Enabling Empathy

It’s weird
and sometimes wild
living with a non-LeftBrain verbal dominant
aspiring child,
now young adult

I find myself waiting for him
to nonverbally connect
and correct me
about my patriarchal domineering
economic and political ableist sins
of RightBrain felt omission
from commercial value
and, perhaps worse,
my passionately sacred co-messianic
self-responsible
unconditional co-enabling
sins of RightBrain depressive
trauma approach/avoid
ambivalent
obsessive/compulsive
commission
and reiterative recommission.

And
he never disappoints
going to the right
felt point

Could no more lie
or steal
than feel envy
fueling greed
for tomorrow’s self-sufficient hopes
and egocentric dreams

At night
when we sleep,
if not before
then after an overpowering seizure
He can explain to me

No ancient spiritual 1 experience
could be other than HereNow natural 0 feeling
linear and yet circular
regeneratively enspiraling

Without LeftBrain dominant
defensive weapons
1 protagonist neither can
nor would
nor should
retool and lavishly display 0 word voices
outside inadequately disabled numeric language
for nonverbal co-passion’s inside images

Sensory receptive memories,
cause-effect singular explanations
and co-arising circular narratives
of co-redemptive recycling
spiraling vicious
and virtuous
negative 1 bipolarity
and not-not positive non-0 dipolarity
co-arising appositional circles

Not divorcing physical Nature
outside abled bodies
from not just metaphysical
Spirit inside minds

Deep listening back through neurosystemic compassion
wet and warm
and dispassion
darkly parched and cold
bilateral multicultural
multigenerational
poly-paradigmatic
panentheistic
enthymematic health and safe feelings
making and remaking
neurosystemic distinctions

Integrity’s RightOriginal Mind
passion for outside health
and safe internal wealth
co-regeneration

Win/Win default
poly-passioned balance
bilateral

Ego Yang Verbal Left
stern deep-voiced patriarchal
sacred co-passioning
Eco Yintegral NonVerbal Right
pre-bicameral Taoist humming
indigenously outflowing
growing wise CoPassion

For positive-health EarthMother
warm comforting wet wombs
sacred surrounding
positive-wealth AnthroChild
co-operatively panentheistic
wild
belly laughing co-empathic passion

Internally sung and danced
oral wu-wei wisdom traditions
of body/mind
nature/spirit
out/inside formation
flowing co-relational balance
synergetic harmony
symphony
resonant integrity

Grows wiser pre-verbal
cooperatively positive health
than multigenerational
disabling apartheid nightmares
of polypathic abuse
and monoculturing neglect

Anticipating inside/outside mortal
-1/-0 lose/lose
universal cold
and feverishly hot tremors
predicting dark disuniting trauma.

It feels weird post-peak,
and sometimes wild,
continuing to sacredly aspire
to merit this gift

RightMind panentheistic survival
of LeftBrain talking
ego-monotheistic thriving
exclusive AnthroSpeaking salvation stories

Living
and apparently dying
repeatedly
with a non-LeftBrain verbal prominent
aspiring child,
now contentedly sleeping
in compassionate comfort
and organically warm
sacred joy

Hopefully
dreaming that we feel pleasantly weird,
sometimes provoking wild belly laughs,
feeling free outside a LeftBrain verbal dominant
label,
name,
+1 inside v -0 outside frame
EitherSacred Or SecularizedDisEnfranchisedOther
possibly unhealthy and unsafe
win/lose competitive imbalance

Preferring
RightMind prominent
warm and wet wombed compassion
emerging -(-0) inside/outside +1
equitable development dreamwork
emergent compassion conversations

Weird
and sometimes wild
living within a non-LeftBrain verbal
monoculturally dominant

Instead,
a more Here/Now
timelessly balancing
copassioning moment
of in/out-digenous
resiliently peaceful wisdom

To choose soulmates
health wealthy
and wisely

As they choose
to dream with you.

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DisEngaging Privilege

ReEngaging Integrity

How might the ego-narrative
of a sacred Tree
speak most profoundly
of old growth economic
and political
environmental trauma?

How might MotherTrees
avoid sacred Self-serving
by secularizing Other-deserving
separating and unequal
StraightWhiteMonoTheisticMale privilege
to punish
disturbing chronic anxiety
approach/avoid issues of mind/spirit integrity
about being personally fed and bred
through not healthy best separate,
but more co-related,
and not a sustainably healthy organism
or wealthy unequal organization
AND [more saliently sacred]

A historically patriarchal-capitalist
LeftBrain verbal monoculturing
anthro-supremacist vendetta
against the unconditionally warm co-passionate
communion communication
expected of a MotherTree
in a healthy, robust forest

Constantly repurposed
and mined
and pumped
and glorified,
grasped
and let go,
squeezed in
and freely exhaled,
to embrace
and release
Other’s Mother MinoriTree narratives

To discover what Her AnthroTree words
and nomials
variables uncovered
and co-relationships
recovered
positive and negative correlations
balanced and rebalancing
exclamatory peak
and declamatory valleyed phrases

Her ecocidal non-applause pause
might betray
negative core EarthLife feelings
emerging slow-grown
Anthro-panentheistic
inter-religious
multiculturing
creolizing
co-passion

And monotheistic despairing loneliness
of self-love EarthLoss of Life
eternal isolation

Of love and monoculturing hate
and fear and polycultural rebate

Of Win/Win surprising Aha! peak experiences,
ecstatic and/or exotic and/or erotic,
and Win/Lose frustrations
and sadness
about kinda stupid malevolent competitions,
while prying for more therapeutically peaceful
outcomes.

How might the TreeEgo’s trauma narrative
disengage from ecocidal Lose/Lose despair
to search for deeper roots
toward Earth health care
through restoring therapeutic justice
and cooperative peace repair

Restoring ego/communal
bilateral
bipartisan
cooperative TaxPayer-Ego/Eco Justice

Embracing universal warm
unconditional health care values

Discovering
uncovering extended pre-historical family trees
recovering from Othered long-suffering
win/lose
sawdusted up
stress-ringed
drought and buggy matriarchal histories

Suffering win/lose servants
shading EarthTrauma blisterings

To recover systemic win/win health care
forest re-constitutional optimization
and co-invested resilience
in this inter-religious polyculture
of multiculturally co-rooted
deep learning CoMediators

She may hear
what AnthroTribe is feeling
and She cares about our empowerment
and S/He is curious about
our potential sacred meaning
co-invested
enlightenment
of a MinoriTree’s Trauma
Therapeutic ReHashed
Smashed EarthHistory.

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Blue Brush Witness

As she lays down her blue brush
in a blue-trimmed cream
dream stone basin
of darkening water

She realizes
inside voice has been thinking
about double negative paradox
as -x/-y
can’t win pathology

Of way too much Patriarchal Capitalist
dogmatic Business As Boorishly Usual,
monochromatic
monopolistic
monocultural
monotheistic

Describing
and prescribing her
BusyMess
is cruel
cold
calculating dismissal
disregard
don’t matter

Let her splatter!
while he eats
his white survival cake

Mindlessly unwoke
to future predative
desecration issues
promoting and marketing
trauma-inflation corporations
inviting frequent-flyer
evangelically missioned Narcissists

Who probably don’t think much
of a universal peak salvation experience
yet do feel deeply united,
maybe even energetically synergetic,
about their own sacred memories
of EarthMother’s original Win/Win
multi-colored co-invested
warm wet unconditionally cooperative
co-relationships

Through time’s changing
hue and culture and cry
LeftBrain verbally emerging
too dominant

Thereby, curiosity remains difficult to contain
to deeply listen for feelings to explain
this sound and sight for blue brushes
tinting her slowly turning water
growing
blueing
flowing sadly
back through Patriarchal
Capitalist
anthroprivileged time

Emerging blue
and grey
darkening ecocide.

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TransGendered Upgrade

Imagine the protagonist
in your messianic adult
ego-story of therapeutic development
is a Father,
And your antagonist
is FeMale Othered,
more second class
poor in Enlightened Spirit
for commercial grade empowerment

Left behind by win/lose competitive
thus self-defensive
power hoarding monotheism
with AnthroPrivileged face
and exclusive sacred grace.

Now,
reverse imagine
to remember your protagonist
warm, wet-wombed empowering
by nurturing Mother,
And your antagonist,
a self-defensive Othering
Father Narcissist.

Notice how our internal Protagonist expectations
images
memories
hopes and fears
ambitions and careers
significantly change
between expected Male v Female overpowers
mono-egotistic
to dominate personal
and political
and economic
and LeftBrain dominant
educated capitalist enlightenment.

Now,
also notice,
if we dare,
our internal Antagonist concerns
and Othering win/lose issues,
including self-protective sensory tissues,
balancing in-between
respected Female/Male cooperative
win/win transcendent cooperative powers

TranSubvstantiating indigenous wisdom
of co-invested supreme secularized Yang
and sacred serene Yintegral co-empowering Protagonists

Expounding
and mentoring
ecofeminist green therapy
far beyond mere StraightWhite NonPolitically InCorrest
nor sacred PanEntheistically True
Trusted

CoEmpathic Red and Blue
Cooperative Green-Capitalized Transcendentalists
mindful

That all EarthTribe organic residents
came from some sacred place
Matriarchal.

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