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Sad Kindness

Neither happiness or sadness
can preclude each other’s continued personal
political
and economic,
social
and psychological,
sensory
and neurological potentiality

If only because sadness
has something to teach us
about happy health
and sad pathology,

About EarthCentric virtuous circles
competing with AnthroPrivileged vicious exploitation,

About this possibility of creative
and regenerative
v destructive
and degenerative
climate tensions,
chronic intentions
competing against
healthy win
wealthy wintegral attention

If only because MotherTrees
and other EarthFeminists
are not the only virtuous circling rings
slow-growing revolutionary spirals
capable of merging
imagining
remembering
reconnecting
restoring green justice Pleasures
in Eden’s MotherTree ReGenesis
of both win/win Health
and epic win/lose to lose/lose
Pathology of Extraction

Cannot preclude each other’s continued
InFormative
restorative justice and green peace potentiality

If only because climate pandemic pathology
has something to social
political
economic win/lose distancing
teach us about happy anticipation v sad anxiety,

About win/win v win/lose ecopolitical strategy,
leftwing multiculture-valuing healthy global democracy
v rightwing monoculturing
straight white privileged
evangelistic AnthroSelf-righteousness

Sadly willing to compromise
current and future regenerations
of green resilient
global community,
co-passionately happy communication,
sacred communion.

Economic kleptocracy
hiding between anti-green libertarianism
and AnthroNationalistic Patriotism
sadly EarthBound unfreedom to commit fully
to Earth’s multiculturally
polyculturally healthy GreenPeace
and Freedom from rightwing fundamentalistic
either/or
win individualism or lose to interdependent socialism,

Ruminating unhealthy All or Nothing self-redemption stories
confusing disvalues for uniformity
with social values for unity,

Defaulting stuckness in debates
competing for military-industrialized supremacy
for resiliently strong values felt
within flowing interdependent dialogical waves
of pre-historically timeless
win/win values
for Whole EarthSystemic Patriotism

Still happily hidden
in dipolar co-arising apposition,
in-between positive wonder
and negative awe,
between economic potential
for global climate health
and local ecologically integrating,
multiculturally interdependent political wealth

Of gladness
for ecofeminist kindness
and not so many pandemic
patriarchal climates
of unhealthy
autonomously depressing
social distancing
divisive
deductive
reductive
left v right winged sadness.

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CoEmpathic Experience

Could what we believe
is our neurological humane nature,
growing up
and cooperatively out
from LoseMe/LoseWe depressions
about ourselves
and our subculturally dynamic environments,
toward WinMe/LoseWe capitalistic patriarchalism,
toward WinMe/WinWe nurturing co-empathic communication,

Also feel
as if theologically new ancient redblooded spiritual
flowing up
and cooperatively out
ecological green/blue energy
growing from retributive injustice guilt and shame
toward WinEgo/WinEco absorbing compassion,
ego/eco-political EarthTribe healing
healthy nature of wealthy spirituality?

Could what we believe
is our positive/negative multi-regenerational
psychological internal nature

Have grown from
our ecological prime EarthMother Attachment,
flowing divine ZeroSum individuating energy
growing from discontinuous detached WinMe/LoseWe
post-partum dark experience
toward Win/Win eco-political healing
green new deal healthy
internal/external nature

Of wealthy holistic healing
health/wealth multicultural
multigenerational
multi-pathic
polyphonic
meta-euphoric experience?

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An Anxiously Anticipated Event

Dear John,

All day
yesterday
I loaded up with a cascading river
of mixed anxiety and anticipation
about what to safely and kindly,
transparently and vulnerably
compassionately, so non-violently, share
communicate;

Which narrative tributaries to choose
within this vast spacetime stream
of choices
directions
felt depressions and erections.

Do you remember
communication theory
framed as Rhetorical Events?

Our initial walk and talk,
eating together,
rather than my refrigerator foraging
brunchtime usual rawfood practice,
is a graced green,
rain giving way to blue, memory for me,
and, I hope, for we
these sacred walking
secular talking
people.

Successful rhetorical events,
as I recall,
and have co-passionately experienced
with ecstatic thrills
and mysterious chills of anticipation,
wanting more and more
cascading throughout my too isolated life,

Are cooperatively held spaces
resonant and verbal and non-verbal places
longing to become resilient
as ultra-violet light
in phosphorescent mystical night,
bright
and warm
without ballistic fright,
inviting sounds of sight.

So I drove home
basking in such rich
potentially resilient
transparent and vulnerable
articulate yet impassioned
felt experience
confirming all my own ego’s grand theories
about win/win non-violent
Rhetorical compassioning
Events.

My anxieties spoke later
about mutual physical
natural, yet also spiritual,
attraction–
this smell and taste neurological chemistry
of touch exhaling
to co-empathically predict
our romantically felt quality
inhaling integrity’s great resilient passions,
shared loves
communal,
deeply green cooperative,
that rhetorical day
as true and beautiful for us.

It has been thirty years
since my last first date,
with a man who became my unanticipated husband,
partner
spouse
lover
quarreler
critic
listener
emotive voice
co-investor
political ally
communicator
miscommunicator
long-term rhetorical event
cooperative space-holder,
mediator
not really quite green enough
for resonant felt
and thought co-passionate experience
near our end
of cohabitation.

Nearly half my lifetime,
thirty years,
and I feel anxious
I have not yet learned
appropriate new old person rules
of transparency
and vulnerability
to be clear
and kind,
compassionately clear
about my natural/spiritual
physical/metaphysical attractions,
anticipations,
anxieties.

When I last dated
a gay encounter of the first kind
either ended nakedly together
or with a scheduled second date
with a bed
or a sling
or a deserted moonlit beach
front and center on our anticipated menu

Or ended in disaster,
no connection,
no further warm and resonant communication,
no passing green light Go!

I did not “date”
men who lived so very far away,
out of state,
unless one of us was planning to relocate
or both of us were anticipating
an extremely resonant
one hot night stand
lying down together,
exploring all the vertical
and horizontal dances
we could imagine ever wishing we had done
to further gather
future’s warm anticipations.

I am anxious
because I do not want to disappoint you
or me
about our embodied
non-verbal communication
and passion together.

My own nakedness
lies nowhere near my vulnerable
and transparent self-esteem
as was the case
when I last dated
and I do not know
what to do
and not do
with that.

I have no mentors,
no wise teachers,
no therapeutic facilitators,
no sex therapist
to talk and touch me through
this anxiety.

But, I do anticipate
an unfortunate comparison
I met on our silvered dating site
the same day I first heard you
connect climate pathological effects
with capitalistic causes,
which immediately won my curiosity
to know
just how deeply knowing
we might go
together,
and not apart.

I met another singer
another meditator
another deeply
physically connected
to Taoist sensory communication
yangly verbal and yin non-verbal,

More physically incarnated
and less metaphysically abstract
less theoretical
merely rhetorical
more mature
aged
connected like wine with cheese
and re-connected
than my own experience
in how to mutually
yet maturely
please.

Last evening we talked.
His voice sings and rings,
warmly chills and quietly thrills.

And, he is closer.
Teaches dance.
We anticipate learning together
how to tango horizontally
without creating an entangled mess
at our ripe old average age
of 69

Which,
when I last dated
was a cooperatively rhetorical
erotic position
and not an age
which we sensually anticipated
without great anxiety
about resilience
of sensual resonance.

For me,
this need not be a win or lose,
either-or situation.
Even less so
if I thought the two of you
would appreciate each other
in this partner searching
lifeline rivered
shivered way,
but that is not what I would anticipate
either of you would say.

So, that is what is on my mind
and heart
and root chakras
this another deep green
ego-centering
and ecosystemic rhetorical day.

Said my vertical horizontal way,
physical and metaphysical
natural and spiritual
secular and sacred
love with you
and hell to pay,
anxiously anticipating
your kind
non-maligned
response.

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Fame Not Required

My great challenge for fruitful wisdom paths
is credentialed expertise.

My obstacle to polypathic health
is self-aggrandizing comfort,
cheap ease.

Obstacles to resilient compassion
have more to do with impatient “kindness”
than diligently interdependent pursuits
of transparently vulnerable
integrity
of deep and wide resonance, seeking consilience
of cooperative wisdom.

When my wisdom circles
of dialogue
discussion
sacred discernment
turn to topics of public administration,
political science,
persuasion theory,
nonviolent communication systems,
positive psychology,
multicultural mediation,
cooperative economics,
game theory,
systems theory,
group theory,
attachment theory,
polyvagal theory,
experiential math,
permaculture design,
comparative religion,
Restorative Justice,

When these tools
within my belt of personal knowledge
are invited to work cooperatively together
to achieve resilient
and resonant
multicultural wisdom,

Problems begin when I expect
to speak unilaterally
and to be listened to,
settling for sufficiency of my credentialed expertise,
my zero-zone experience,
my health-wealth advocacy,
rather than searching for shared wisdom
educational
developmental
formative
sociological
neurological
ecological
theological
geological
biological…

Cooperative fame prefers
becoming known
for our active love of one another
exhaling out
to encompass all wisdom circles

More powerful
healthier
wealthier
and famous
rather than infamous
punishingly ideological
monoculturing squares.

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Random Acts of Kindness

Random acts of kindness
and mercy
are right-brain experienced
as healthy invitations to stretch kindness
throughout all nature/spirit boundaries,
secular/sacred midways.

Random stories and kind myths of diverse cultures
have been transactionally told and retold
and transcendently heard
and transubstantiated as mercifully reheard.

Are marriage myths
merely derivative transactions
arranged between patriarchal super senior partners?
Or also a sacred transcendental logos experience
between dyadic
mutually communicating
climaxing
creatures?

Natures yang with yin
spirits out and in
noticing and prioritizing win/win
co-acclimating all events secular down
and sacred up
transcendent love, multipaths
co-relational poly-binomials
for deeper yet wider transactions
than a superficial economic justice,
where wins equal losses.

So too with birth memories
double-bonding only mother and infant
in a transactional immediate way
of felt needs for mutual survival
and yet inclusive of all EarthMother’s
sacred transcendent nature
and EarthBaby’s secular transactional spirited
energetic positive potential.

This mythic marriage of yin-oriented transcendental experience
of win/win empowering interdependence
and yang-strong transactional analysis
of economic and ecological
and theological and metapower win/win integrity
unfolds in stories,
omnipresent nurturing myths,
omnipotently healthy logos
resiliently co-acclimating

Life’s transcendental love
of win/win health outcomes
and win/lose curious confusions
and fear of reactive lose/lose images

Also Earth’s transactional meta-win/win experience
communing co-empathic climatic feelings
win/lose environmental survival needs
win/win thrival wants
active ecological/theological bilateral hopes,
multicultural faiths,
polycultural eternity
timeless double-bonding transcendent loves

Like transactional re-birth experiences
into transcendental marriage
changing stories,
co-acclimating healthy in-between myths
growing resilient ego/eco-logos

Active
and not the least bit incidentally fragmented
when ego/eco-coincidental

Like rebirth
into timeless win/win marriage,
carriage to re-marriage,
transactional transport
into transcendent win/win communion experience.

Random transactions of kindness
becoming healthy transcendental stretches
into wealthiest co-relational communions,
temporary through eternal marriages,
rebirths into everyday interdependent webs
of kind integrity.

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Excuse Me!

Excuse me!
my son’s bus driver exclaimed
as I walked away this morning.
I had not finished putting his safety harness on.

Excuse me,
without exclaiming,
means please cut me some slack,
I need to break into your flow of unconsciousness.

My curiosity about apparent invisibility
may exceed your courage for immediately present transparency,
intimacy,
focus,
accessibility,
grace
and less denial of dark powers toward absorbing self and other losses.

Excuse me,
unexclaimed,
unplugged may invite my love
and acceptance of what we cannot independently improve.

But, don’t dismiss me
also lies exclaiming dormant,
waiting in revolutionary disordering wings,
sometimes because lack of curiosity
about needs and wants of others
threatens to get in my own ego’s way,
harming, neglecting those within speaking distance here and now,
and many more not yet loud enough
for me to hear full-voiced disenchantment.

Excuse me!
exclaimed
leans more to RightWing
“Don’t dismiss my Business As Usual
Yang competition powers!”
then
“Would you do me a LeftWing yin paid-forward favor?”
To stop ego self-promoting
your internal short-term needs and rantish feelings
long enough to make love with some WinWin cooperation

MotherEarth
and all Her sacred tribes of history
are waiting for us to hear,
waiting for my excuse,
exploring future health dreams together.

Here with you
and Now as me exclaiming
longing for Earth climate ecstasy,
personal and public,
sacred and secular,
spiritual and natural
Excuse me, please
and thank you in advance
of further climate pathologies.

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Love Fuels Integrity

Love feeds integrity
Like Creators grow creation
Like integrity breeds Love.

Psychotherapeutic co-mentoring,
brought to ecotherapeutic scale,
calls for cultural revolutions
inside outside political scientific volutions,
attractions,
resonance,
love,
synergy,
integrity…

Like revisiting outside green multicultural evolutions,
Tree branch and root restorations
of resilient polypathic political peace,
Both/And tipping points of re-creative contrasting
Former Either/Or bipolar issues
for therapeutically resilient LeftBranch/RightRoot healing.

In both
ego-restoration and ecotherapy,
Our strongest defense against climate pathology trending
Business As Violently Usual
Win/Lose dualistic suboptimization
is to actively re-invest in WinWin cooperative nondual offensives,
non-violently co-arising root-healthy
branch-wealthy
ego/eco-systems.

When our therapeutic tree theology
becomes limited only by our pro-ecology WinWin experience
of prime vital Zero
perpetually cooperative interrelationship,
then we see and hear back and forth in timeless wu-wei.

Integrity, personal and theological-ecological
economic and political,
does require Secular and Sacred honesty
Yet need not preclude multicultural kindness,
GoldenRule ego/eco-consciousness integrity
continuing our WinWin therapeutic journey
together.

 

 

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Kindness Between Lovers

Cooperative kindness to others
is a fake kindness
if this liberating word or freeing action
compromises your own integrity,
which is disintegrating thereby,
an unkindness
to your own healthy Ego with Other relationship.

WinLose compromising kindness toward all Others
is not a healthy bicameral kindness
because such white lie words and actions
compromise Earth’s WinWin wealth
of sacred integrity.

Left v Right Brain disintegrity of words and actions
pathological, not even LeftBrain rational,
within my own Ego/Eco bilateral
Inside/Outside healthy integrity.

My sensory-neural map
of and for cooperative kindness
is not necessarily your organic farm integrity territory,
spanning LoseLose past Here
toward WinWin future RightBrain optimization Now,
by reducing Right ecoconsciousness

Of each ego deducting form
faking induced co-empathic kindness
that would overpower shame’s blaming feelings.

LeftBrain verbal secular kind consciousness for Trust
in co-tensioned presence
with RightBrain sacred copresent nonverbal awareness.

Our ecologically nutritional systems
organically digest/eliminate
Whole Open climate systemic stories
are also our humane WinWin
theological metaphysical natures
favoring healthy historic-sacred
WinWin Grace
over LoseLose DeGeneration
anti-development of health-wealth
deep learning kind integrity narratives

And ecometrically Positive Polynomials
equivalently contrasted against Not(Not PolyPhonic)
Zero Kindness Zones
WinYang = Win YinYin
bilateral
binomial
bicameral EgoSelf/Other ZeroSoul consciousness,
co-empathic + = double negative,
as light = dualdark cosmology,
nurturing resonantly resilient non-violence.

A secular LoseLose map
is not the sacred WinWin kind custodial territory.

WinLose capitalist patriarchal media
are not our WinWin bicamerally cooperative
health/wealth message.

The dance is not the nonverbal kindness song,
Our song unseen
unheard
disintegrating
without our health-advocating
rain-kind grace dance.

Conflict is not my cooperative FireCircle outcome,
and cooperatives cannot be consensus born
without conflict,
as atheist LoseLose theoreticians
cannot emerge
without prior ecotheistic WinWin
nutritional-matriarchal experience
of Truth/Beauty ZeroZone kindness.

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Fugitives of Justice

Thank god I finally was caught and cited
for doing something that I didn’t do.

Just think how much worse I would feel
if I actually had done it,
as I have done so many stupid thoughtless things
without getting caught,
at least not by the judicial system.

I hope it all balances out
and at least I can face the music
knowing of my innocence this time,
and continue hiding all my negligent guilts from other times,
failing to read bedtime stories when they could have helped,
failing to remember to touch with kindness
especially when hurts could thereby be healed.

We sometimes confuse reasonable human error,
perhaps negligent in the absence of other stressful distractions,
with deliberately choosing to respond to damage
with full-willed intent,
to actively evade responsibility for damage,
for life’s victimizing owies.

And sometimes our front line justice system,
we have both inherited and created
to leave for our children to suffer against
and rejoice with,
further fuels this confused misunderstanding
confuses poor communication and human error
with taking high risk evasive action
far outweighing positive,
far less time and money invested,
opportunities to act
in a more socially acceptable spirit of cooperation
by exercising a basic Golden Rule orientation
to self-with-other governance.
When this happens, we evade credibility,
to too quickly embrace criminalizing responsibility,
perhaps due to our own overly-paranoid imaginations.

Communication.
Economic and political life is all about misunderstood messages
and sending out clear, consistent, redundantly positive messages.

Would any right mind,
when asked by a witness to a car door ding,
“You’re going to leave your number on their windshield aren’t you?”
would anyone fully insured,
totally sober
with a pen and paper in the car,
truly respond to that question with a “no”
and then drive calmly and slowly off,
leaving plenty of time for multiple witnesses to get a plate number?

Maybe.
Maybe if he had looked at the cherry red truck
and could not see damage
that portended a visit for needed cosmetic repair.

Then again,
maybe the witness only asked this question
in the silence of her own imagination
or out loud but at a level of discreet volume
restricted so only she and those with her could hear.
After all,
you don’t want to confront a crazy stranger
in a busy parking lot
who just might need some help
coping with his psychotic daughter
having an ill-timed manic episode,
laughing hysterically while blasting Ella Fitzgerald
singing “Love For Sale” across the medical center’s parking lot
right?
Or wrong?
Or maybe something in between?

Who are the victims here
and is there even one that could not have been made stronger
and healthier
with and by a stronger spirit of cooperation?
Thereby making it even more likely
that next time,
next place,
next cherry red truck,
next victims of life’s little transitional challenges
will get things better,
rather than climatically worse.

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Conspiracies of Kindness

Pronoia’s Paradise of CoEmpathic Trust
is what happens in
and on
and as a holonic soul of
Earth
when we expect,
anticipate,
the absence of Business As Usual (BAU) Paranoia.

Paranoia is the mutual suffering in fear
and concomitant chronic anger management
and ambivalent self-hatred
of LeftBrain dominant
anthrocentric-languaged enculturation,
non-expectation,
absence of active RightBrain agapic love
for Pronoia,
an EarthTribe originally intended
with co-empathic political, economic,
as ecologically bilateral trust.

EarthTribe’s Pronoia Cooperative
conducting relationships and transactions of Basic Trust Attendance,
as empathic faith anticipated within mental health itself,
the Positive Psychology progenitor of Gratitude.

Gratitude for Earth’s kindness
is the belief/feeling medicine,
Moose/Owl Medicine,
for arriving in Pronoia internal paradise.

The larger landscaped challenge for us
is how to arrive in Beloved Communities of Pronoia Paradise,
Basic Trust Cooperatives (BAC),
rather than continuing on so much with BAU,
monopolistic anti-trusts.

For this,
we would best Pay-Gratitude-Forward,
actively love the positives you can hunt and gather today,
plant and harvest for tomorrow,
to starve the BAU negative cultural weeds
of competing Paranoias in yourself,
as in Other.

Both states of becoming are highly co-empathic,
and therefore autonomically contagious,
but paranoia feeds on anger, fear, and hate,
while pronoia feeds on good humor, beauty, and co-empathic ecologic,
(0)-balanced dipolar co-arising political/economic trust,
anticipation of pregnant Earth’s richly fertile,
fluid,
nearly timelessly reincarnating possibilities
for even further polypathic integrity
of becoming
evolving TaoTime OurSelves.

So let us say Grace together
by sharing our complex responses
to “Who are you?”
List your magical powers
and scratches and dents of suffering character,
lost opportunities to have become someone else,
comprising who you are so far,
your conjoining toward this climatic time and place
of co-celebrating grace
you bring to us,
and we bring to you,
this banquet of mutually pronoiac feeding
on who we are becoming
gracious nutrients,
this meal of pronoiac communing on grace ourselves
and what grace has brought to this table
this day,
this now,
this incarnation of co-empathic divinely gorgeous trust
in Earth’s fertile conspiracies of kindness.

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