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Complicated Relationships

In complicated relationships,
and complex story telling
with regeneratively developing
and degeneratively undeveloping characters,

Personalities with powers to inflict harmful
punishment,
and healing
forgiveness,

Shunning
and harassment
or compassion,

Neglect
and abuse
or solidarity,

Who switches from and
to positive
to negative,
and back again
first
and last

Depends on where and when we choose to begin
our journey down selective memory’s avenue
of speaking and reacting
and not listening and responding,

But this primary choice
of Alpha and Omega point
is further influenced
by what we choose to notice
and assume is perceivable,
malleable,
alive

And what we fail to remember
to reconnect
to return again
to restore
to omit
to set aside
to assume

Among all our political and economic
civil and uncivil history of individual relationships
and family systems
and community networks
and EarthTribe polycultural species
come and gone before
on Earth’s round revolving stages
of unfolding
unraveling

And refolding
reforming
redeeming
rewinding
regenerating
restoring historic healthy relationships.

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Liberating Addiction

I need to talk about addictions,
about my addiction issues,
and maybe yours.

Addiction gets a deserved bad rap
but that doesn’t mean we have no more
than mean-spirited possibilities.

Our first addiction,
and, for the lucky ones,
the functional extended multigenerational
multicultural families
and liberating tribes,
also the last,
is love.

Love,
hidden or wide unwalled open
for another human,
another species,
another culture,
another part of Earth,
and other, costly
medicinal substitutes,

Drugs and alcohol,
guns and loud danger,
cars and sex,
coffee
and comfort
and convenience,
beauty
and enlightenment
and luxury,
notoriety
and money
and security,
all poor substitutes
for the nurturing feel
and natural touch,
nutritional smell and taste,
native sight and sounds
of love.

I have two issues
with addiction.
One is my obsessive-compulsive need
for my next, even better, fix
what’s broken.

I find it humbling
to be cravenly overpowered
by physical and mental,
natural and spiritual, want,

By my longing to climax
resiliently
resonantly
universally embraced by Earth’s most incarnate
and eternal
esteem,
communion,
co-passion.

But, physical addiction
can be softened,
eased,
healed more readily
and stadily
if not for my shame
and hide in the closet
self-judgment,

If not for my weak
and sinful shadow nature,
My need to hide
my darkest fruit truths
about not being in control
of my own autonomous will power.

And, so it is,
I hide my greatest weakness,
my greatest internalized enemy,
and thereby feed and water feelings
of guilt,
self-blame shame,

A failure to grow vulnerable love for others
I cannot see in naked love
and truth
and transparent beauty
because I fear to meet judging eyes
and minds,
voices
conserving dismissive choices.

Secret addictions
have all my darkest powers
of steadfast
and cyclical disempowerment.

Acknowledged addictions
I can call out courageously,
then curiously explore
with my housemates,
neighbors,
teachers and parents,
children and listeners,
supportive groups of similar addicts,
medicating absence of love’s
spiritual wealth
without natural walls.

Fears and angers spoken
and named
thereby weaken
as love swells
for positive addiction,

Which, as long as not risked
stays absent,
even from our healing selves
grasping mercy
for becoming merely mortal
and expecting my birthright
of a health wealthy society
good faith community
family
with multicultural addiction values
and unlovely disvalues

Summarized in GoldenRule behaviors
and positively addicted open
vulnerable
transparent
courageous
actively curious gratitude
attitudes of cooperative disclosure.

This power of my unhealthy addictions
lies more heavily in hiding my self
secret depressions
repressions
suppressions
dark impressions
that true and beautiful,
resonant and resilient love
is too far above
my emotional pay scale,
worthy of our co-redemption,

Too big a reach
to try to open up again,
to share my weak addictions
and strong compulsions
to feel and touch
taste and see
where love was lost
while pursuing lesser
hidden things.

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What’s In My Soup?

An important political
and economic issue,
at least for me:

What do I nurture?
What do we invest
and reinvest in?

If this Taoist “jaw” of Great TippingPoint Green Transition
toward Earth’s vast climate healthy wealth
must nurture LeftBrain Yang dominant red
Team competitions with,
and not against,
nationalism’s StraightWhiteMale violent privilege,
then how do EarthResidents also,
and more RightBrain primordially,
nurture Earth’s dipolar co-arising recreation?

Do I even try to nurture natural spirit investments,
conscientious re-ligion,
re-connections of
and for
cooperative secular/sacred reconciliations,
natural/spiritual remunerations,
yang/yin bilaterally restoring
Earth’s vast regenerative,
nonviolently communal,
ego/eco-NonZero balancing emergent Zone
of Heaven/Earth revolving

Co-empathic,
co-gravitating,
co-arising dipolar bicameral communication,
polypathic health/wealth developing systems
for nurturing RightBrain mercy
with LeftBrain restorative justice,
cooperative solidarity
with pro-active hope

That our most transcendent ego-liberal freedoms
remain systemically centered
for nurturing Earth’s Great Green Transitional interdependence

Of species,
guilds,
tribes,
forests,
meadows,
of living spirit/nature
ego/ecosystems,

Articulating,
expressing,
reincarnating,
nonviolently communicating
revisions to win/win ParadiseLost
through win/lose LeftBrain dominant

Woundedness,
separation,
deduction,
division,
reduction,
repression,
suppression,
depression

More afraid of lose/lose nihilistic
degenerative futures

Than angry about loss of
WinHealthy Yang Capital CoInvestments
to WinWealthy Yintegrity
of Earth’s Great Reverse
ReTransitional 20/20 AntiPandemic Promise

Eco-nomial-logically ego-renatured
conscientiously re-ligioning
Poli-Nomial-Culturally eco-nurtured

As HeavenLight’s wealthiest EgoPromise
re-nurtures
EarthPower’s healthiest Pleasure.

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Fragrance v Odor

My new forest and park neighbors,
mostly birds
squirrels
and strangely curious
and ravenous rabbits,

Have become accustomed to,
spoiled by,
fragrant green sanctuary
ancient fertile memories.

But, today
our neighborly horse farm
must be cleaning house.
This smells of too rich compost
upstaging even more gracious green.

This downgrade
calls to me
recalling former toxic smells,
fossil fuel exhausting,
were sooo… much more degenerative.

Horsey compost
lies between love’s light life fragrance
and dark skinned death
of odorous Earth.

Yet, comparing distances
between green forest
and horse fragrance
and transported stinky fractures
through sacred climates ecological
resonant and resilient airs
and gusts
and breezes,

Comparative distances
continuously,
yet consecutively, change
what one might argue
is a contrasting wealth of difference,
+1, to -1, with midway
horse-powered zero neutral

Feels more like two-thirds healthy fragrance
and only one third toxic

Feels closer to three-fourths salient
to one-fourth punitive memory
from here
and now perspective,

Feels closer to seven-eighths
to one-eighth formerly deranged
of a revolutionary
resonantly regenerative
fractalling
resiliently redundant
multicultural sensory/spiritual
nurturing
re-communicating natural octave
of Golden Ratio/Rule comparison,

At last
resiliently resonant.

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Wanted: Master of Awe and Wonder

From birth,
I,
and perhaps others
from rebirth,
seek a spiritual master

With profound male maturity
to connect spiritual mastery
with natural sensory mastering events,
narratives,
non-verbal
and verbal relationships
bonding
double-binding
birthing
and rebirthing co-passionate story,
mundane
and cosmic events
integrally felt and known together–
impossible apart

With mature disciple
disciplined reception
masterfully given
potential for mutual pleasure
to please me,
compassion’s please
pleasing perpetual integrity,

A journey from local
through global,
back
and forth,
in
and out,
rising
and falling again

Immensely deep
and dark
wide multiculturing explosions,
preferred master powers
imploding copassionate integrity,

Of felt sensory awareness,
sensually touched consciousness
spiritually grasping enlightenment
sexually gracing co-empowerment.

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UnNatural Climates

Speaking of climate health
and multicultural wealth,…

Yes. You have a question?…

Were you here for our previous session?…

No, I mean our most recent dialogue,
published just before this one….

OK.
Well, we were speaking of,
while deep listening to,
natural health systems
and spiritually nurturing ecopolitical wealth networks….

Natural climate health
and spiritual,
multiculturing conservational
conversational wealth,
of whole organic
open living systems
temporally unidirectional,
yet spacetime ZeroZone multilaterally
polypathic leftbrain
and polyphonic rightbrain….

Yes.
Thank you for your questions.
Anyone else?

OK, so I will assume those still present
and silently contemplating
were here for our prior guided dialogue
about non-violent communication
with religious rightwing dualists
fundamentalists
evangelically leftbrain dominant
monoculturally sinful and/or ignorant

Of a crucial difference,
severance,
double-binding oppositional bipolar divide,
a barrier to mutually helpful communication
we experience
between a sacred, theological experience
of reconnecting
reknotting
religion

And a secularized natural ecological relationship
of disconnecting
segregated
degenerating
privileged
violently closed
monoculturally supremacist
anti-religious dogmatic theory
of supremely autonomous anthropocentrism…

Yes,
like only humans
could live fully in Heaven
as on healthy Earth.

Which is much more about violently sinful nature
and fear of natural-spiritual sensory compassion
and closed system mortality
and anti-holistic
open handed eco-political democratic experience
within multicultural spirit optimization networks,

Leftwing/rightwing
bicamerally non-violent communication,
compassionate communion,
cooperative dialogue
restoring EarthTribe
natural health with spiritual wealth
democratic discernment

Speaking of climate health
and multicultural wealth….

Yes.
More, rather than less,
where we left off
in our prior right on
dialogical session.

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UnNatural Generalists

I am more of a generalist
than a specialist
on nature
and on nurture,
on secular
and on sacred,
on ecological healthy relationships
and on theological interdependence.

Still,
like most reflective beings,
nourishing my interconnected rightbrain
while understudying leftbrain dominance
as a species
finding our spiritual natures
mysteriously segregated
from more natural nurturings.

Martha Rogers,
nurse educator extraordinaire,
describes me,
and you,
as whole,
open,
and, like all living natural systems,
temporally unidirectional.

Although, perhaps an important difference
between rightbrain spiritual
and leftbrain natural lives
of reflective bicameral awareness
is our capacity for imagining
temporal bidirectionality–

Enspirited time imagined running
forward and back again
from today’s starting point
or last night’s
or tomorrow’s

Especially when leftbrain comes into active verbal dialogue
planning healthy networks,
designing wealthy
natural/spiritual nurturing
yang/yin
left/right
ego/eco-systems
of non-violently secular and natural,
AND compassionately sacred and spiritual

Whole
Open
polypathic/polyphonic
living generalist paradigms
for active/reflective
restorative justice healing dialogue

Applicable to both natural climate health
and spiritual multiculturing wealth.

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My Esteemed Teacher

My esteemed Rinpoche
repeatedly impresses upon me
Our humane democratic vocation
to become an enlightened individual.

Which sounds like a monoculturing lot,
for absorbent
co-acclimating residents and guests
of Earth’s cooperative hermitage,
To accomplish
in solitude,
in one semi-lifetime,
demi-deathtime.

While this seems ambiguously troubling,
I feel more at peace
whenever this Rinpoche tells a salvation story
about one highly evolved,
on a scale of enlightened
through thoroughly disempowered.

The protagonist,
usually with some environmental antagonist,
always a highly enlightened individual
with compelling curiosity
returning dividends
in deep listening for natural empowerment
as also spiritual enlightenment,
integrity’s win/win potential
not not polynomially balancing
healthiest default outcome.

Rinpoches
and student bodhisattvas
and messianic followers,
disciples and pilgrimage story tellers,
multicultural mediators
between disciples and story tellers,
polycultural healers of empirical monocultures,
nurses,
midwives,
systems designers,
ecosystemic nutritional communication designers,
compassion therapeutic green and black lives matter teams,
Either/Or Theoretical and Both/And Experiential Mathematicians
and win/win group non-violent communication facilitators,
1/0 double not(not) ego(eco)-binary polypathic hermits,
nonviolently nonverbally communicating dancers,
choreographers,
artists,
unmartial flowing sculpture
complementary dynamic yang/yin balance artists,
sensory/sexual metaphysical/physical feelers,
theological/ecological smellers
and multicultural story tellers,
pne guy’s taste
is not another mother’s smell,
restorative justice healing non-violent communication touchers,
multicultural verbal
and pre-verbal
and non-verbal
and anti-opposition verbal
climate communicators,
deep listeners,

Researching cooperative eco-politics
of healthy green democratic EarthJustice

With my esteemed Rinpoche,
repeatedly impressing upon me
Our humane democratic
green cooperative vocation
to become an enlightened individual
empowered
health and safety
full-living

EarthJustice
Democratic Mass/Energy
Space/Time
Yin/Yang Tribe

Composing your individual DNA’s ego
through extended spacetime DNA/RNA
1/0 co-binary bicameral bilateral binomial family
health/wealthy
physical/metaphysical
GoldenRule win/win
EgoEarth/EcoHeaven
empowering/enlightening
bio/neuro-systemic choice
to speak naturally
while listening spiritually
to outside/inside voices;

To voices
about esteemed GreenYang
and BlackYin
energy choices

EcoFeminist advocated
by my esteemed Rinpoche,
repeatedly impresing upon me
Our humane green democratic vocation
to become an enlightened-yinblack repressed individual
within one HealthyGreen/WealthyBlack
bilaterally informed/exflowing
space/time EarthTribe.

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Packing Up

Moving out feels much sadder
than moving in, more gladder–
which is poor grammar
for severance of love’s embodied glamour.

Packing up
feels more like packing in
and down,
cutting ties with my own stage,
this playful working space,
for everyday self
and other witnessing life
love
hate
joy
anger
courage
fear
healing
suffering

Not a fabulously grand stage
but my intimate memories
triggered by damp basement
through dusty attic,
inside resonant
and outside growing resilient,
front yard exhibitions
and back yard more inhibited glimmers
and shivers,
dimmers
and emotive rivers

Moving out
without regard for loss
feels too surgical,
masochistic,
violent,
silent shriek of bad faith
loss,
divestment from personal
political
economic
cultural placement
more sacredly cherished
than secularly calculated
in clock time to move on.

My best therapeutic intent
to know I leave this tiny spot of Earth
at least as healthy
and beautiful
as I have found her
while unpacking
in her abandoned
neglected
bramble thorned sadness
inviting my hope-filled gladness
too few years ago.

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Ecological Prosperity

Growing up on God’s impoverishing family farm,
he learned to hide his work
in tissues of unearthly privacy.

Regenerating in Earth’s richly resonant nutrition,
she recovered her playful avocations
in ecosystemic response
to global over-grasping issues
of under-conscious
her/his-storied
positive domesticity

Over-privatized
so powers under-privileged;
personalized
so shy of compelling
retelling publicity

Earth camouflaged
democratically healthy ecopolitics,
co-empowering
co-operating
co-generating
co-laterally co-investing
co-systemic
ego/eco-analogical
co-passion.

Growing out on Earth’s extending family farm,
he learned to share his playful work
with issues of unEarthly
inhumane
left-hemispheric primacy.

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