S/he was angry
never fully feeling
it was her time to fly,
even if alone.
And now afraid
this is his time
to die
never having known
quite
how to fly together.
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Sacred Grows Integrity
Natural Sacraments
Emerge from what sacred center,
committed to integrity’s potential
become more resilient,
and not fragile
More nature-soul evolving
Earth’s deepest
widest
longest
roundest
mountainous
dark valleyed sacraments
of light and power.
Gandhi regenerated
humane love lives on
and
inhumane hate
abuse
bigotry
patriarchal colonization
do not.
Even lesser losses
tend to shadow fade
across therapeutic rememorizing space
and laws of positive passion
Bodhisattva ruling
warm wombed pregnant co-attachment
across unconditional win/win
peak messianic experience
of panentheistic timeless time,
wonder of light
awe of deep dark power.
“It gives me ineffable joy
to go on
trying to prove that”
love lives on
where hate cannot.
Gandhi,
affirming integrity’s sacred meaning
cooperates with therapeutic bloom,
and not hate’s Loser doom
Win/Lose uncivil wars
and internal traumas
and Othering 0-sum competitive history
of disintegrating ecopolitical hostility
cannot destroy
our NonZero root chakra Soul
Curiously
constantly
resiliently
resonantly inviting EarthJustice
Peace within
as without
only one orthodox way to live
yet a legion of ways to die,
biologically
ecologically
politically
economically
spiritually
naturally
unnaturally
unspiritually
ZeroSum Capitalistically
yet
pregnant NonZero Soulfully
Sacred Round Integrity
embracing Secular Civil Equity
as universal passion
invites unitarian compassion
as beloved
as bilateral breathing
love-life rivered
shivered
shimmering…
anticipating warm empathic regard.
This personal, intimate project
of becoming fully humane
holonically reflects Earth’s divine project
into panentheistic Spirit’s nature:
integral EarthTribe transcendence.
From what pantheistic soul
does inter-religious commitment
become more therapeutic,
and less traumatic?
Healing intimately transcendent potential,
Sacred Integrity’s naturally spiritual,
Earth conservationally liberal
universal life–unitarian love
healthy multisensory
peak experience
merging resilient
Bodhisattva synergy
of EarthTribe sacraments.
Secrets of Muses
Wonder
is like Joy
except more below the waist
and less above,
said the Muse
to the Choreographer.
Awe
accompanies Wonder
and yet feels more silent bass
and less trembling treble
cleft,
said the Choreographer
to the RightHand dominant
Composer
Joy sings
overflowing Awesome pelvic dance
more above the neck
and less wondrously below
our DarkWhole sacred chakra
of deep lusty Integrity,
said the Masseur
to the multiculturing Muse,
face down on his table.
Wonder
is like Joy
except more below the waist
and less above,
repeated the Muse
to his hopeful Choreographer.
Warm Acceptance
How would Earth create
and reconnect
regenerate
a species still needing ecological acceptance?
This need to be accepted
and accepting what cannot be win/win changed
just yet
in troubled
and troubling relationships
This need for acceptance
is born of trauma,
past experiences
not being accepted
as is,
not feeling appreciated,
not unconditionally cherished
warmly accompanied,
touched
by win/win communication
Not tolerating chronic
win/lose aggressive
patriarchal capitalism
as the best RightWing weapon
fighting wars
against economic
and political Appreciation,
nonviolent communication,
compassionate invention
for trauma prevention.
If babies
and marriages
are made in Heaven,
then we should not be surprised
when they are aborted
while surviving silent
secluded
obsessive-compulsive
patriarchal-colonizing Hell
on ecocidal Earth
Which may speak out for warm acceptance
rather than continuing cold
impatient tolerance
for LeftBrain AnthroSupremacist
fears of dark and shameful
idolatrous
and/or spoiled brat inadequacy
To learn why Earth has created
LeftBrain verbal dominance
for reconnecting
regenerating
a species still needing ecological acceptance,
unconditional warm regard
for MotherEarth
Restoring sacred Justice
Touched by Her trust
for Yang external Truths
with Yin internal Beauty
thought and felt accompanied
compassionate
Self and Other
warm NonZero-Soul Acceptance
Is a whole lot healthier
and environmentally safer
than cold Zero-Sum
patriarchal-corporate
competitions for Tolerance.
Feeling Up For Equality
I appreciate the popular democratic intention:
Equality for All.
I might appreicate a more specific,
but perhaps no less populated,
intention:
Equality for all victims
survivors
outlying thrivers
of Straight White Patriarchal privileged
mentally unhealthy Trauma.
I wonder if a more wholesome masculinity
is a renewed ecofeminist
panentheistic health care face
of past Patriarchal-Capitalist
ZeroSum Closed System
unfortunate RightWing embrace
in the face
of global glooming ecocide.
Flying Gayly Free
This Earth’s a place we call our own
When we can stand with Her lands
And look within great loves we’ve known
For hope that we might share command.
Like strong gods above the sky
Soaring sacred from on high
We long for all Earth’s tribes to be
Without a loss, straight trauma free.
Queer love invokes a distant sigh
Inside gray clouds full of rain
Yet we will always hope to know
Earth’s journey ends without pain.
We spin swiftly round light’s way
All too soon love’s yesterday.
We might grow through shades of blue
Queer dreams cut shy of love felt true.
So lust’s a song we all could share
A gift for love’s sweet self care.
For when we know Earth’s gay brings light
Great spirit roars deep darkest night.
Like rain’s bow up in the sky
Love has taught queens how to fly.
This Earth will bless what we have been
And never could be lost
as flat again.
Tomorrow’s Warm Integrity
What love we could become
still breathing
could never actively restore
what I have stolen
silently
and you have thrown away
more protesting loudly
What I have stolen
could never be worth more
than all your warm felt passions
Compassion freely given
and I have coldly paid
to not feel again
It feels so easy to love you
more than me,
and I have always loved you most
when I can know,
without self doubt,
you might again love Us
As we are today,
unlike yesterday’s diversions
and not yet quite as great
as tomorrow’s still open gate.
Abortive Trauma Tales
When you and your wife visited,
you shared a question asked by a pastor
of a raped
and thereby pregnant
vulnerably young and questioning parishioner.
“If your unborn child survived
his first year
and walked back into your home
do you think you would still want to kill him?”
Probably not,
I’m thinking.
And,
perhaps more pastorally significant
and responsible,
how can we, in resilient compassion for ourselves
and for those who trespass against us
mitigate sacred rage
against ancient sins of our predative Fathers?
The next morning
over coffee and breakfast
your wife told a surprising story
of meeting a woman
in a Carolina church basement
who boldly claimed to be
an unapologetic pagan
Certainly not repenting;
more like recruiting
UnStraight out proud wiki
without thinking that might be an appropriate sin
for inviting healing prayer
rather than embracing
as if possessing a pure and virtuous soul
matriarchally regathering
HolyEarthPeace Spirits.
Your wife’s response
cautiously avoided Retribution Is Mine!
weaponized words,
another patriarchal sin of our historied Fathers
“I don’t think I’ve ever heard anyone say that before”
right out in public
toward lunchtime on a bright spring day
and certainly not in a ChristChurch basement
I silently wondered why your wife did not seem to feel
this pagan should be aborted
Stoned to death
or at least hanged
for defying the Good News
of Straight White King James
colonizing Jesus.
If there was a conversation about how many pagans may feel
about abortion of healthy tribal lives
or Great White Father rape,
or the somewhat wider history
of patriarchal predation against matriarchal wisdom
she did not mention such old crone witchery
Studying dark theistic codes of dueling history
usually tolerating abortions of Othered human lives
for exceptional survival reasons
emerging throughout traumatic transition years
for various viciously circling reasons
A well-capitalized
verbally articulate
personalized monotheistic God
might appear to be against
polytheistic Muses and Witches and Goddesses
within EarthTribe mind-spirited space,
political place,
economic race
On the Othered,
and safely aborted, hand
pantheistic spiritual commitments
supporting multicultural
animistic
pantheistic
panentheistic
polycultural respect
may more resiliently redevelop
sacred
sentient
holy spirited life
at the EarthTribal
universally uniting EarthPeace level
of sacred passion
Respect for our interdependent thriving lives
does not mean we are not also
abortionists to survive the trauma
of invasive felt predations,
biological
and ecological
and theological
and political.
Divine respect for co-infested fertile life
might include respect for death
and gratitude for EarthTribe lives sacrificed
As we hold hands
and bow our heads
with gratitude
for hungry stomachs satisfied,
for sacred quenching waters,
outs and ins of healthy bodies,
backs and forths of wealthy minds
With trust our thirst
for tribal trust
does not imply that when and what I swallow,
I abort
And do not also co-invest
in this our cooperative resilience
Health care giving
and receiving
EarthTribe sentient wealth
Respect for dark
deeply raging
patriarchal trauma
does not imply
disrespect for more therapeutic
matriarchal light.
And just so,
I reversely suppose,
universal peace
uniting holy spirited respect
for resilient
brilliant sentient life
Does not imply
disrespect for trauma,
despair
and death
Which I had been struggling with
when you and your wife visited,
and you shared your story
of a raped
and thereby pregnant
young and traumatized parishioner.
RePurposing Life
Life invites deeply sacred purpose
when Love widely integrates
enlightened meaning
within co-invested minds,
passion,
from balanced bodies,
co-operating integrity,
of healthy wealth’s
most resilient potential.
Enabling Empathy
It’s weird
and sometimes wild
living with a non-LeftBrain verbal dominant
aspiring child,
now young adult
I find myself waiting for him
to nonverbally connect
and correct me
about my patriarchal domineering
economic and political ableist sins
of RightBrain felt omission
from commercial value
and, perhaps worse,
my passionately sacred co-messianic
self-responsible
unconditional co-enabling
sins of RightBrain depressive
trauma approach/avoid
ambivalent
obsessive/compulsive
commission
and reiterative recommission.
And
he never disappoints
going to the right
felt point
Could no more lie
or steal
than feel envy
fueling greed
for tomorrow’s self-sufficient hopes
and egocentric dreams
At night
when we sleep,
if not before
then after an overpowering seizure
He can explain to me
No ancient spiritual 1 experience
could be other than HereNow natural 0 feeling
linear and yet circular
regeneratively enspiraling
Without LeftBrain dominant
defensive weapons
1 protagonist neither can
nor would
nor should
retool and lavishly display 0 word voices
outside inadequately disabled numeric language
for nonverbal co-passion’s inside images
Sensory receptive memories,
cause-effect singular explanations
and co-arising circular narratives
of co-redemptive recycling
spiraling vicious
and virtuous
negative 1 bipolarity
and not-not positive non-0 dipolarity
co-arising appositional circles
Not divorcing physical Nature
outside abled bodies
from not just metaphysical
Spirit inside minds
Deep listening back through neurosystemic compassion
wet and warm
and dispassion
darkly parched and cold
bilateral multicultural
multigenerational
poly-paradigmatic
panentheistic
enthymematic health and safe feelings
making and remaking
neurosystemic distinctions
Integrity’s RightOriginal Mind
passion for outside health
and safe internal wealth
co-regeneration
Win/Win default
poly-passioned balance
bilateral
Ego Yang Verbal Left
stern deep-voiced patriarchal
sacred co-passioning
Eco Yintegral NonVerbal Right
pre-bicameral Taoist humming
indigenously outflowing
growing wise CoPassion
For positive-health EarthMother
warm comforting wet wombs
sacred surrounding
positive-wealth AnthroChild
co-operatively panentheistic
wild
belly laughing co-empathic passion
Internally sung and danced
oral wu-wei wisdom traditions
of body/mind
nature/spirit
out/inside formation
flowing co-relational balance
synergetic harmony
symphony
resonant integrity
Grows wiser pre-verbal
cooperatively positive health
than multigenerational
disabling apartheid nightmares
of polypathic abuse
and monoculturing neglect
Anticipating inside/outside mortal
-1/-0 lose/lose
universal cold
and feverishly hot tremors
predicting dark disuniting trauma.
It feels weird post-peak,
and sometimes wild,
continuing to sacredly aspire
to merit this gift
RightMind panentheistic survival
of LeftBrain talking
ego-monotheistic thriving
exclusive AnthroSpeaking salvation stories
Living
and apparently dying
repeatedly
with a non-LeftBrain verbal prominent
aspiring child,
now contentedly sleeping
in compassionate comfort
and organically warm
sacred joy
Hopefully
dreaming that we feel pleasantly weird,
sometimes provoking wild belly laughs,
feeling free outside a LeftBrain verbal dominant
label,
name,
+1 inside v -0 outside frame
EitherSacred Or SecularizedDisEnfranchisedOther
possibly unhealthy and unsafe
win/lose competitive imbalance
Preferring
RightMind prominent
warm and wet wombed compassion
emerging -(-0) inside/outside +1
equitable development dreamwork
emergent compassion conversations
Weird
and sometimes wild
living within a non-LeftBrain verbal
monoculturally dominant
Instead,
a more Here/Now
timelessly balancing
copassioning moment
of in/out-digenous
resiliently peaceful wisdom
To choose soulmates
health wealthy
and wisely
As they choose
to dream with you.
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