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Resilient Peak Experiences

Gayla Speak Experiences
promote healing events
not intended to contribute to trauma
drama narratives.

Stories we tell
and trust
and thrust
and softly smile about
when we dare to leave
our stiff
stiffling closets.

RedYang
universal dominants
friendly feasting
with BlueYintegral
unitarian intent

Together praising massively thick
and deeply embedded polarities
of nearly omnipotent
erect and hard patrimony
loving MotherEarth’s holy matrimonies,
compassion

Transcending monotheistic challenging attitudes
failing to question long-term outcomes
of dubious commercial
graphic success,
LeftBrain dominant anthrosupremacism
on top
of Others,
unstraight
unmale
unwhite.

YangPole hot resilience
cannot sustain
without YinHole warm
wet
passionately inviting
fully dilated resonance

WuWei balance
of divinely favored Versatility
engaging neurosystemic respect
for healthy work and play shop sharing,
nakedly transparent
vulnerable wealthy caring
for integrity’s warm
unconditionally impassioned
potential

To not feel bought
and sold,
short-term rented
or long-term leased

Instead both offering
and receiving
Pole/Hole equity
co-empathically felt
and touched
by peak impassioned
sacred communion values

Wanting therapeutic fairness
to eliminate all mundane
no talent
no appreciation drama
in our cooperative
pantheistic sex lives
loves
lusts

Creating
and recreating,
spreading
and retightening,
a cooperative
healthy
sacred nutritional space

For rethinking our peak
orgasmic win/win experiences
when we felt mountainous
rolling climaxes
and deep valleyed seizures
flowing out
and out
encompassing peace

Lost in ecstasy
present to awesome YangPoles
and wondrous Yintegrity.

Scenes sensory developed
from natural roots
seen through spirited hearts

Longing to both host
and guest,
give
and receive again

Through joy of warm memory
and sad loss of peak intensity,
elation
despite risk
of subsequent depression,
transcending invitations
and farewells

Domesticated LeftMind enlightenment
and Wild RightBodied empowerment
together
reproducing root systemic Yintegrity
of natural health
and spiritual safety

Trauma prevention
by means of
Therapy optimization,
flowering Yang/Yin
Pole/Hole
Top/Bottom
curious dipolar co-arisings
of co-empathic consciousness

Erect conservation
engaging liberation,
Orthodox monotheistic worship
and Heterodox panentheistic communion,
Monocultural hot Redness
and cool Green
polycultural awareness,
Anthro-autocracy
and EarthTribe-democracy,
Monopolistic cathedrals
and EcoFeminist sacred outdoor space,
Good-humored human hypocrisy
and health-wealthy divine integrity

LeftBrain’s fascination
with both trusted Pole
and beautiful Hole
satisfies
as either lonely Pole
or isolated Hole
could not

Trained by anal-rejecting
well-endowed envying
anthrosupremacists
to achieve best
and brightest light
through patriarchal-capitalist means
and SWM privileged ways

To bless our
RightBrain indigenous
wise bicameral hearts,
re-membering
and re-imaging
double-binding
co-arisings

Both Pole and Holistic
And Win/Win nondualistic
peak climatic experiences

Yintegrally therapeutic,
so Yang trauma free
resilient wellbeing narratives
for holistic Holes
and panentheistic Poles
wherever we may sniff
and search
and find
co-gravitating dipolarities

Enlightening Left-Dominant
and empowering Right-Recessive
wise healthy wealth
of well-formed
fluid Paradise.

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Warm Acceptance

How would Earth create
and reconnect
regenerate
a species still needing ecological acceptance?

This need to be accepted
and accepting what cannot be win/win changed
just yet
in troubled
and troubling relationships

This need for acceptance
is born of trauma,
past experiences
not being accepted
as is,
not feeling appreciated,
not unconditionally cherished
warmly accompanied,
touched
by win/win communication

Not tolerating chronic
win/lose aggressive
patriarchal capitalism
as the best RightWing weapon
fighting wars
against economic
and political Appreciation,
nonviolent communication,
compassionate invention
for trauma prevention.

If babies
and marriages
are made in Heaven,
then we should not be surprised
when they are aborted
while surviving silent
secluded
obsessive-compulsive
patriarchal-colonizing Hell
on ecocidal Earth

Which may speak out for warm acceptance
rather than continuing cold
impatient tolerance
for LeftBrain AnthroSupremacist
fears of dark and shameful
idolatrous
and/or spoiled brat inadequacy

To learn why Earth has created
LeftBrain verbal dominance
for reconnecting
regenerating
a species still needing ecological acceptance,
unconditional warm regard
for MotherEarth
Restoring sacred Justice

Touched by Her trust
for Yang external Truths
with Yin internal Beauty
thought and felt accompanied
compassionate
Self and Other
warm NonZero-Soul Acceptance

Is a whole lot healthier
and environmentally safer
than cold Zero-Sum
patriarchal-corporate
competitions for Tolerance.

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Dancing Pequot River

Flying free
in rooftop ecstasy

Raptor’s wings direct
with feathered pins strong, erect
swelling mountain chests
then wings
brought safely down
protecting Earth’s
most sacred wounds.

Standing Yang
with wings wide spread
Left then Right
rebalancing

Bent over filling in Yin’s flow
extending gratitude for out
bold attitude brought back in
for more sincere
out wanting more
more
more sacred practice
mindful praxis
moving axis

Practice makes Yang
with Yin
happy together once again
in this million hole
with pole
extravagant excursion
upstream North
growing deep down South
flowing in/out surfing mouth

Dancing round root chakra
river source
to up reach
down stream right
to left dividing swings
gone sacred South

River’s needy mouth
to feed
time’s seas
of timeless pirate peaks
opposing valleyed surf
inhaling exhaled needs

Healthy seasons too tidal full
swelling now and why and how
toward empty skies

Anthrocentric light
invites this ecocical night,
upstream
patriarchal might
toward down wombed times
round cycling source
of Great White Father fright

Root wise spread out predation
penetrating river’s source
shifting toward rich mountain rivered valleys
flowing up
then down White streaming pole
with Black uncovered silenced hole,
designing doublebinding
God-dressed nature’s inspiring views

Inviting dawn’s
past sunrise dance
sweeping light
round downstream
falling failing
EarthTribe’s meager
flowing sacred
rivered night

Flying free
on rooftop ecstasy.

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Healthy Caring Systems

Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
I must learn to trust
Earth’s future more

Both Father Sun’s timeless
rounds of enlightenment
and Mother Earth’s
codependent rhythms
regenerating rich
empowering
soulful soil

And this trusting more
impels healing trauma’s lessons,
surviving hale and hearty lust
for too RightWing earned distrust

Unenlightened AnthroElitism
within our CommonEnglish languaged voice
while dismissing other naturally iconic sounds
and physical sights,
sacred smells
and mental tastes

Feelings that matter more
than mere white privileged noise
degenerating ego v eco-other
for mere win today
lose survival tomorrow

Much less anthro-resilient healthy
this RightFright Yang v yin militaristic
narcissistic AnthroSurvival

And we could also regenerate
more Yang/Yintegrally together,
rediscover strong and sacred Beauty
peak experience passions

CoInvested integrity’s historic
win/win therapeutic revival,
future multiculturing
verbal and nonverbal
compassionately thriving
and not merely nonviolently surviving
1/0 double-binary bipartisan polypaths
polynomial +1P=(-,-)0P, Tao wu-wei bilateral balance
0/1 cisbinary communication’s
deepest
and most peak
health (1 Universe)
wealth (0 Full/Empty Synergetic Ego/EcoBalancing)
bipartisan ecopolitical health care potential.

That is where we left off yesterday;
and today let us reconsider a related question
about more personal peak experience outcomes
of a health care bipartisan co-governing system.

First, we notice that robust polycultural systems
of win/win thrival
will always be negatively correlated with
exhausted monocultural failing Lose/Lose chaos

despair
trauma
chronic stress
degeneration
death
entropy
lack of any imaginable and/or remembered system

Re-articulating integrity’s most sacred,
and sometimes sexy,
peak regenerative experiences

Feeding our LeftBrain need for EitherYangly Yes
Or TooYinnish Yes and not yet know

Consistency with prior experiential
labeling of penetrating history.

What are our universal characteristics
defining and refining caring systems?

Sounds like we may be speaking nonviolently
of spacious and NowTimed compassion
and co-investment,
and active curiosity.

That works for me,
so let’s go one LeftBrain dominant step
further into verbally defining
what we might all agree
we win/win intend
to successfully differentiate
our health care resilient thrival systems
from our pathological uncare
unfelt lack of any non-degenerative
LoseLose chaos
entropy
despair
trauma
chronic ego/ecocidal
lack of unconditional
warm regard,
retributive blaming
and shaming
straight white monotheistic
monopolizing core panentheistic values
monoculturing neurosystemic despair
depression
oppression
full-spectral Win/Win suppression
of integrity’s compassionate
warm and caring
systemic potential

This recontextualing process
follows an ecological perception principle (EPP)
that it is not polyvagally possible to imagine
or remember ever feeling a caring system
that could co-incidentally be nonverbally noticed
much less defined
or even moderately refined
as any something
or non-peak co-relationally felt event.

Lack of warm unconditional win/win
sacred panentheistic regard
may feel as chronically anxious
as trying to re-imagine
an uncaring entropic
cold as a closed
non-systemic
vacuum of exflowing
information.

What we are capable of appreciating,
deeply rooted in ecological
and biological experience,
are Caring Systems
and not uncaring non-systems.

To define systems feels challenging
because systems, including organic
and Whole
and Open
and Universal Healthy Caring Systems,
all feel so overwhelmingly
and perhaps sacredly comprehensive,
synergetically complex.

Within your own neurosystemic framework,
maturing,
robustly thriving,
perhaps even enjoying elegant
and/or multiculturally exotic
and/or polyculturally erotic
peak Aha! Win/Win
Yang/Yintegral co-balancing experiences

As appositionally contrasted
against a monochromatic win now to lose tomorrow
or win EarthHealth Care Systems tomorrow
by sacrificing AnthroWealth Care Systems today

False dichotomies
nurture chronic trauma,
fear and retribution,
fire and thunder,
conspiracy theories,
like the witchhunt
or the devil
made me addictively
and obsessively,
sometimes violently,
sometimes greedily,
sometimes abusively,
sometimes neglectfully,
always anthro-narcissistically
think it
say it
do it to Eco-You

Lose/Win Dissociated
from interdependently nurtured
and anti-spiritually natured
independent Win/Lose surviving
Ego-Me

Here
in cooperative home
and Now
in my 71st revolutionary round

Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
deep and widely learning
to trust Earth’s curiously sacred
and courageous
peak health
and valley of integral wealth
win/win health care systemic
Yang InFormation
and Yintegral OutFlow

Networks of not-not
double-binding neurosystemic apposition,
sadly anxious
and gladly anticipating more nonviolent dialogue,
less win/lose zero-sum debate
for and against future’s EarthTribal WinWin gains
rethriving positive regeneration thoughts

Less conservatively unbalanced
degenerative negative
anti-eco/pantheo-logical feelings,
Ego Monotheistic Nature v Eco PanEntheistic Polycultural Spirit

More resident of EarthCare Global Peace Systems
cooperative, so not just competitively capitalistic
ecosystemically co-invested in continental/oceanic balance,
so less win/lose survival of one sovereign entitled nation

Or species
straight white male privileged
LeftBrain verbally dominant
anthrosupremacist win/lose or lose/win
karmic conspiracy anxious theories

Not yet anticipating
more deeply integral possibilities

Health caring systems
invite LeftBrain integrity’s inclusive
secular-1/sacred-0
ecotheistic EarthTribe
interreligious multiculturing wealth
caring compassion systems

Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
sharing trust
in EarthTribe’s health
wealthy ecofeminist future.

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My Black God

My Black God
is real as I could imagine
worrying about defective White People
vulnerable to skin cancer
and fading water-front real estate values
in His traumatic WhiteWashed Anthropocene.

My Black God
is strong as I could imagine
on my luckiest bipolar day
and lustiest bipartisan night.

My Black God
is Source and Soul
and, hopefully, humane
ReSource and RePurposing Spirit

(But, you know…
not necessarily always
business as usual Vanilla)

My Black God
celebrates sacred peak experiences
wherever these may be
nonviolently communioned
and found,
perhaps briefly bound,
with mutually informed consent
to insatiable surprises.

My Black God
holds no boundaries
to multicultural curiosity
about every co-passionate touch,
brown smell,
EarthMan tasty
randy thoughts
with age-appropriate visual stimulation,
simulations deep resounding
regeneratively physical
and mental wealth
of how Father’s Time flies
when having fecund fun
robustly resonant
overglowing
peak neurosystemic spasms,
rhythms,
punctuations,
postures,
positions
and cooperatively friendly repositions
climate and cultural adjustments
hoping for resilient regenerations

My Black God
of universally poignant
urgently cooperative physical health
aerobic exercise
verbal and not so much talking stretch
horizontal
and sometimes vertical dance
and compassionately cooperative care
not the least bit trauma giving
is also best climax receiving
sacred communion.

My Black God
follows this sacred Yang gift,
however briefly,
with holistically restored
unconditional warm regard
sacred sexual peace,
Informed and OutFlowing JustUs Justice
received and given,
driven toward

My Black God
of compassion’s AnthroScenic period
of ReStorative Justice
after a whole lotta
NonViolent Sacred,
sometimes flirtatious and sexy,
Communication.

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Claiming Grace Out Proud

Giving thanks
for insight
outside normal space
grows more grace
than taking from fertile Earth
without gratitude
thoughtless everyday attitude.

We give thanks
gathered here today
for all God’s edibles
and ornaments
surpassing even sacred platitudes,
obscure beatitudes.

I give thanks
for this our timeless gathering
of family
proclaimed, not defamed
together more holy felt
than severed when apart.

Taking from Earth
without gratitude
heartless attitude
slow grows groaning grace,
our disturbing pace
before this silent pause

this sacred space
for giving thanks.

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Dad’s Privileged Song

This sacred son
was not born to dance
or sing
or speak.

He will never read the paper
or earn his first green dollar
or sow
what success
more leftbrain enabled
hope to reap.

But, he is love.
His fashion fills compassion
He brings peace
And when he touches with his eyes
or reaches with his hand
to touch me
I am at last healed
enough

And then I know
why I was born to dance
and sing
and speak
this great and glad felt
and touching wisdom
of romance.

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Who Is “I”?

I have a body,
own an organic body,
yet I am a mindbody
as ego’s inside identity
embraces outside systemic context

Communication
with my body
yet a communing mindbody
inter/intra-communicating organism

Musician
within my body
yet a musing
win/win healthy
resiliently co-resonant MindBody
spiritually led
yet naturally following

Consciousness
my sacred mind has a secular body
yet ego
is also a sacred ego/eco-logical body,
depending on whether you perceive Self
as in toward out
and/or from outside
toward inside courageous
and curious ego

At least on our better days
and in peak trauma-free moments
of win/win co-empathically enlightened
empowering spiritually natural co-investments

Co-operating
sacred mind
de-segregating organically safe
and healthy

Inter/intra-communicating
bicamerally balancing
win/win compassion’s bodhisattva,
transparent mind’s vulnerable body
for resilient EarthTribe communionation.

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EmPowering Medication

A problem with breath-focused sitting
eyes hooded
closed down sensory receptor meditation,
in my peak omnipotent mindful experience

This inside passive form of seeking resilience
presumes we consistently care
about furthering our
health care vocations,
organically sacred to some,
merely biological to more chronically traumatized
emotionally challenged
by histories
of neglect
and/or multigenerational mysteries
of emotional/verbal
physical/nonverbal abuse
disregard
bullying

The opposite of nonviolent communication
to restore egojustice
and repair trauma damage
to panentheistic
yintegral ecopeace

Which is the opposite
of monotheistic
yang-supremacist ecocide

As enlightened resonance
of Sun Worship
is to dark dissonance
against Earth empowering
resilient Win/Win
health care meditation systems,
physically active
and metaphysically robust movement,
music,
mindful,
therapeutic empowering
co-passionate peak neurosensory
resilient inside/outside
meditation systems
for enlightening
co-empowering
exhausting, but not manic,
exhilarating, but sustainable
intense, but not anxious
anticipations of time-sufficient
left/right bicameral
thought/felt resiliently sacred
restorative justice

Organic co-passioning
timeless warm round
expansive light empowering
all forming and flowing
inter-religious interconnections
in-between natural/spiritual regenerations
of co-operative
co-governing
co-mediating
co-invested ecopolitical
robust and resilient
EarthTribe peace.

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Anticipating Diversity

Diversity explores
both resonant and opposing positions
with nearly predative anticipation

And such perversely curious
reverse revisioning diversity deplores
with monoculturing anxiety
quietly crossed
and boldly violated boundaries
of personal
and familial
and municipal
and EarthTribal
indigenous integrity

Sacred space expands mindfully perceived
unless this Business As Traumatically Usual place
is too lose/lose dark
and I am too win/win blind
to keep faith with dimming starlight

Celestial Glitter Rivered Ways
majestic
yet ominously silent Spirits
of ancient silvered sentient bright

Yet momentary mortal time
feels reflective light received
sufficiently reassuring
mythically alluring
for transient transportive pleasure
and tenderly insufficient
for full-colored organic measure
of integrity’s potential Paradise.

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