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Red and Green Christians

Let’s start with a fundamental flaw of fundamentalist fake-Christianity,
a literary flaw within literal non-interpretation of historical creation
and sacred development.

This is true of radical jihadist Moslims as well,
although we both know you think you’re more special
and politically and morally correct,
so, we can stay focused
on Christian evangelical faith communities
in the United States,
especially in Red-dominant States.

True
effective
pure
loyal
faithful
integrated
mature Christian conservators of God’s peace and divine love justice
must stop interpreting the words and teachings
and moral-sexual code for healthy v pathological activities
as if JesusChrist had a dualistic view of Spirit,
of Abba
or of human nature as a whole
separated from Earth’s nature,
and as if He lived within a Trinitarian GodHead metaphysical Universe
without a JesusChrist humane-divine nondual Body.

If you truly have the faith of a mustard seed
that JesusChrist taught and lived
in a nondual humane-divine MindBody,
then this explicitly invites us to consider nonduality,
both divine spirit
and humane sacred
conjoining this interdependent Body of Christ
on Earth.

When Jesus says
Why do you worry about stupid stuff
because God made sacred flowers too
and which of you
is arrayed with that much festive splendor,
that diversity of color and beauty and Grace,
a truly Christian evangelist of this nondual teaching,
would not respond with:

“Oh, right,
but that’s just generic secular natural organisms
and physiological development processes,
but not about how God the Creator Father
arrays humanizing nature.”

That separation of Earth’s natural systems
from sacred humanizing spirits
you will not find in Jesus’ words or teachings
or metaphysical code
or moral v immoral law and order of restorative grace.

Although Trinitarianism,
and the dualism separating
Holy Spirits against secularizing Fallen nature
and patriarchal economic and political aristocratic-plutocratic dominance
against matriarchal EarthMother planters and harvesters,
those annoying motherly nurturing issues,
were alive and well
when Roman Catholic St. Jerome
was playing eeny, meany, miserly moe
with sacred stories
and parables
and poetry
and history of God’s inspiring voices,

And dualistic competitive assumptions were still there,
only now starting to military-industrialize
the entire complexion of intriguing inspiring voices
for Holy Wars and Crusades
when the newer King James Interpretation of sacred history,
literature and stories,
parables,
crucifixions,
baptisms,
violence,
sickness and disease,
floods and holocausts,
wars and burning cities with innocent children included
came into your evangelical dualistic minds
and shared fundamentalist culture of Red.

So what?
you have probably already asked.

With this error,
with this lack of personal
and political
and economic integrity,
you have harmed me,
and you have probably insulted my evangelical Christian mother,
who raised me to love
as deeply and widely
as Jesus nondually loved all Earth,
all Earth’s polycultural and multicultural diversity,
as part of one already redeemed
interdependent Body of Grace.

Grace is for those who just say Yes to love
wherever we see love invited,
one arrayed with God’s love,
with CreatorGod’s relationship with each hair
on each head,
with constantly counting all those drab, yet sacred, sparrows,
and wherever hairs are to be even most inconveniently found.

To believe otherwise,
that this sacred reign of God
on this Earth
in this time of Great Transitional Climate Change
is to interpret the words and teachings of JesusChrist
as if He did not mean them literally
of nature as spirit
and spirit as nature.

That he did not literally mean
He invites us to replace addiction to deadly blood sacrifice politics
with a cooperative economy of grace,
Earth as nondual gift,
life as fundamental gratitude
for those natural and spiritual arrayed gifts
available for eyes that see,
ears that hear.

As available as universal baptism of living waters
flowing through our veins
feeding and nurturing even the flowers
with their most festive arrays
and those drab sparrows
and all that inconvenient hair,
even when teased and bleached
to near extinction.

You have harmed me
in a way that forces you to see me
as a person who chose to become sinfully gay,
while actually having been born sacredly heterosexual.

I know this is not true about me,
or about any person with a gender preference
I have ever known
well enough to ask them:

Did you choose to be, whatever?
When did you choose to become, whatever?
Would you still be you
if the prepubescent you
had chosen to become otherwise?
Did it ever even occur to you
that you had a choice
of whom to find attractive
in either an erotic or agapic way?

If you had been given a choice,
If God came down from Heaven
maybe even in a dream
and said,
“OK, it’s time to choose,
those hairs are about to emerge from new places,
Who won this battle?”
How could you choose
to exchange the gifts you were conceived with?

So now,
if you’re following this most unlikely hypothesis
of gender identity choice,
If I didn’t choose this,
then I was recruited
by my very much happy heterosexual
evangelical fundamentalist Christian parents.

Even my evangelical Christian older brother and sister,
and my Unitarian Universalist younger sister,
who agree on not much,
will all tell you
that this recruiting thing
did not happen to me.

My older siblings
are in this sad position,
Either I chose to become homosexually perverse,
deliberately choosing a life of sin,
ostrasization
criminalization
victimization,
despite all persuasive evidence of everyone I trusted and loved
during my pre-adolescent years,
or there is a dualistic interpretation of JesusChrist’s words and teachings
that they have assumed was actually there in scripture,
but in fact they falsely believe is there
because they have been religiously indoctrinated
to deny their own spiritual-historical experience
of grace.

To deny our own histories
and herstories of truth,
loyalty to sacred integrity of our internal natural
and external spiritual
sacred climates of loving healthy love
with hating pathologically competitive hatreds.

Restorative healing grace
invites economies of polyculturing love
and these are not to become confused with
retributive justice politics
of dualistic injustices and war-
and hate-mongering.

Imagine growing up in a world
where Jesus taught you must grow up into mature polysexuality
and this was accepted and presumably experienced as true
by all you loved and trusted
except you,
hopelessly heterosexual only.

We would sing
“Onward Christian Soldiers
marching off to war…”
and you would worry
how you might possibly stay under range
of our automatic rifle fire.

That is the harm you have brought to me
through not believing in the nonduality of Earth’s Matriarchal Nature
and God’s Holy Spirit
as per the literal nature-spirit teachings
and parables of JesusChrist.

And this is the retributive monotheistic harm
you have brought into this Nation’s sacred patriotic commitment
to protect and conserve grace-arrayed beauty and health
of this Mother Land
and all of Earth’s sacred interdependent multicultures
of internal
and for external
climates of health
through less competitive dualistic pathologies.

All are invited to restore justice and peace
to turn away from OldSchool retributive injustice
and not-so-divinely inspired violence,
to vocations of healing
and not for judgments against others,
as if any one way of becoming
were not replete with multiculturing truth
and polypathic nondual sacred loves.

Imagine you were born into a RedState
where only you could see in full color,
but you have read experiences of GreenStates
in full polycultural glory.
Would you believe God is calling you
to punish all those who could only see in black and white?
Or inviting you to restore your RedState
to GreenState Traditional Arrays of Grace?

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Restoring Sacred Grace

Redistributing Natural Karma

Therapeutic economies of multicultural grace
regeneratively pushing through
Punitive politics of retribution for monoculturing sin,
degenerative harm,
pathology,
victimizing fellow Earth residents
of grace
and positive Earth karma.

In Genesis
we can discern three distinct,
though overlapping, oral traditions.

In at least one of these,
Eden has a Tree of Life and Death,
which human nature is invited to share
with all Creator God’s sacred creations.

But,
we also find a forbidden Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil,
Grace and Punishment,
therapeutic restoration and divinely-inspired retribution.

From this second tree,
Yang with Yin
absorbed Yang v Yin;
our Great Transition Fall
from Infinite Paradise
as Eden,
a place of and for unmitigated Grace,
yet within finite extinguishing global Space.

Since then greedy monoculturing weeds
suck up far more than their democratic fair share
of baptismal waters for healing,
intended for polyculturally balancing egosystems
living within harmonic climate ecosystems.

In human nature’s sacred-right and secular-left
bi-hemispheric eyes,
we find Red distinguishing cones.
And also, appositional Blue contrasting cones.
And,
between these two prime relational ways of seeing
evolving root restorative systems
and color wheels
are newer wu-wei cones,
balancing purple with appositional yellow.

Imagine this regenerative diversity full spectral,
from Red Thymine
through Blue Cytosine
toward Purple Adenine
with Yellow Guanine,
full spiral emerging LifeTree-Strings
and extinguishing finite Death’s nondual dark shadows;

A double-binding Tree
emerging from polyculturing Good
sacredly evolving through five past monoculturing extinctions
of Evil.

Live secular-red
with Evil sacred-blue, dualdark, double-binding sensory-neural equivalence,
Yang with Yin
aware of our SunGod and Sacred EarthMother
bicamerally unraveling through overshot competitive leadership
toward this sixth Great Transitional Extinction,
while all other creatures
continue seeing only in black-extinction
and white-emergent radiance,
grey-blues,
and sometimes super-emergent Red,
blood Red wombs,
horizontal dawns and dusks of life and death
engorged with healthy oxygen
then Blue restoring flow
back toward hearts and bilateral minds
of Live and Evil body WinWin Trees
and forests
and communities
and nation-states
and nature-spirit color circle cultures,
Great Transitional EnCulturations,

Aware of restorative good sacred potential
and retributive evil secularizing potential
of monocultural anthro-centrism,
ego-centric hubris,
Business As Usual
of ego/eco bicameral imbalance,
Yang v Yin,
Win v Lose,
Live v Evil,

ReStorative Multiculturing Therapy
against continuing
ReTributive Punishment
of co-victimized SuppressedYin Holonic Fractal
ReStorations
ReVolutions
2020 ReVisionary EcoPolitical Balance.

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Mustard Seed Paradise

Fundamentalists
Evangelists
Jihadists
HolyWar and Final Judgment and RoughLove Advocates
against infidels and other, more domesticated, sinners:

Put down your Bibles and Korans,
written to grow love
and not weapons for bleary-eyed bullies.

You spend too much time reading and thinking
and arguing
to let your spiritual emotions swell and grow love.

Instead,
pick up a small recycled brown paper bag
of healthy
fertile
organic mustard seeds.

Learn faith with them,
that together you might grow
to know
this radiant reign of God’s Eternal Light and NonDual Dark.

Plant them into Advent darkness,
care for them,
water them
and not the tarish tearing weeds
of envy and supremacy,
hypocrisy and punishing misjudgment,
superstition
and hope for antiEarth anti-logical magic,
nightmares and violence,
anger and fear-mongering,
Old Testament blood sacrifices
and enslavement to false fascist idols
as if these were large enough
to contain the wisdom of one regenerative mustard seed,
sprouting radiant love for God’s sun
and Mother Earth’s baptismal waters,
fueling our shared root restorative ecosystem.

Harvest these therapeutic cultures of health
and gratitude
and grace,
make spicy brown mustard with them.
Serve to and from your students
and children
and mentees
on homemade 7-Grain ReGenerate Manna.

Wait for Paradise
to flow through your mouths,
down your throats,
into your communion stomachs.

If your kids are faithful and loving goats,
watch them wag their tails,
wages of love and not sin,
in gratitude for Grace.

If human
help us listen to,
and speak,
and write better tales
for restorative healing of love,
omnipresent as a mustard seed’s integrity
of each moment’s sacred with secular potential.

And if you should learn faith as one of these kids,
your tail
and tales
will wag truer,
and far more grace-filling effective
and affective
and infective
and reflective
too.

Then you may be safe to return
to your holier-with-you gardening books
on how to grow histories of love
without sinning against faith
of a mustard seed.

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Red and TrueBlue Family–4

Dear Siblings Three,

At least three of us four
have survived this first round
of sharing our seeing Reds
and our  feeling Blues.

At this point
I imagine our eldest sister
reading with interest,
and/or possibly contempt,
and holding all these things
in her heart and mind.

The other three of us,
two Blue,
elder Brother Red,
each have told our stories,
reviewed our positions
during this first year
of the Trump CEO
Public Sector Administration,
USA.

I did not find an explicitly stated value
or disvalue
shared by all three of us.

There are, of course,
several values and disvalues shared by the two Blues,
Kerry and me,
and two disvalues
shared by RedMike and BlueKerry
are loss of freedom
and loss of safety.
And, although I didn’t say so,
I would certainly put these two
squarely in my disvalues column
as well.

Integrity is a positive value
mentioned by both RedMike and BlueGerald, me.
While BlueKerry does not use the word
I know her well enough to appreciate
this also fits transparently within her values lens
just as venality and mendacious subterfuge
are disvalues
both Blue and Red CoHeld,
and yet too often targeted
by cash-fed multinational media.

Apparently
as we love integrity
we are also fascinated by its evil opposites,
like Lot’s wife
looking over her climate holocaust shoulder
when it would be way better for her health
to dwell on the PromisedLand in front of her.

Blue responses
emphasize health care giving
and sacred gift economy receiving,
restorative justice and peace,
and ecological education
as therapeutic values.

Mike’s Red response
emphasizes moral code,
law and order,
retributive justice
and defensive technologies and personnel
as more saliently held values.

Yet,
these are apparent differences of priority,
not necessarily oppositional Win-Lose differences.
Points of contrast invite comparison
and need not predict disloyalty of mutual incompatibility.

To my surprise,
and dismay,
I do see some points where active RedValues
seem to also be active BlueDisValues,
double-binding Win-Lose Boundary Issues:

RED / BLUE
Divine rulership-authority / degenerate monoculturing climates, cultures
Military strength / loss of global and national safety thru violence
Monocultural intent, monopolistic monotheism / sacred polyculturalism

As I look at these three,
they begin to look like three faces
of one tension
within a shared Sacred PolyPathic Intention:
Retributive blood justice through crusading JustWars
conjoining
Restorative EcoJustice through BiLateral PeaceMaking.
Old Testaments
within New Grace Contexts.

From a Red evangelical Christian frame,
this takes me back to Jesus Christ’s
prime Messianic message
and function
and purpose:
Jesus came to save this entire creolizing Earth
through Abba’s restorative grace economy,
baptism through living water and full enlightenment,
healthy light transubstantiating His Judaic Law and Order
retributive sacred justice through blood sacrifice Traditions,
through just-wars and OldSchool self-righteous jihads
and military might of Caesar’s commodifying Win-Lose coin,
colonizing violence all now washing away
by baptism of Messianic-Bodhisattva redemption,
polypathically sacred,
polyphonically sung and danced
by and through rivers of sacred world-citizen enlightenment,
bilaterally cooperative spiritual experience
of polyculturing Grace
for a world so loved
God created
to regenerate Christ’s EarthBound Eden,
perpetually reborning.

First Nation’s creolizing sacred healthy invitation,
multicultures of and for Earth gratitude,
is Second Constitution’s colonizing,
and King James Bible-rooted,
EnLightenment Intent,
away from monotheistic totalitarianism of Royal Rulership
in favor of polyphonic truths of grace
in democratically evolving cooperative trust,

Father of ego’s Hope,
Son of Earth’s Great Transitional Faith in MultiCulturing Grace,
Spirit of (0)Tao Primal Relationship
humane/divine
through ReStorative EgoPeace
within Sacred EcoJustice
as nature-spirit mentored
by MotherEarth.

So, now I bow
in Taoist-Christian gratitude
for these our gifts
and invite our minds and hearts
to speak through One Grace Way,
bicameral Truth,
bilateral times in loving Life
restoring Eden’s global ReGenesis.

When I was a fundamentalist egocentric child,
I listened and spoke as an innocent child asking Why?
When we ecopolitically mature into One Body of Bodhisattva-Christ,
we speak polypathically
and dream polyphonically
to ask Why Not?

In Jesus’ eternally transubstantiating Name
and Word
and Way
and Truth
and Timeless Life,
Your Brother Gerald,
inviting our most generous 2020 responses
of and for mutual democratic trust
in divinely generous truths
we all can share on Earth
as in Eden’s Heavenly Promise.

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Faithful to Love

For Paul,
originally Saul,
and first generation Christians,
growing in spiritual development
and natural Body of Christ health
begins with hope,
becoming cooperative faith
in potentials not yet seen
or smelled
or felt,
emerging full-blown love without monoculturing
sectarian limits,
even without monotheistic limited anthro-centric imaginations
living fully within four-dimensional SpaceTime
RealTime equivalence.

For Enlightenment ForeFathers,
and Sacred Matriarchal Mothers,
and their first generation democratically developing kids,
worried about past and future plutocratic threats
to our MotherLand,
while growing in spiritual and natural
and political and economic health,
begins with three core values:

1. Life, which is not yet threatening climates and landscapes of death.
Cause for positive Earth-patriotic hope.

2. Liberty,
which is freedom from competing dissonance,
decay,
degeneration,
death.
Cause for good news faith in mutual cooperativity,
for WinWin
nonzero-sum,
positive emerging ecopolitical outcomes.

3. Pursuit of happiness,
which is freedom from pathology,
violence,
retributional punishments,
terrorizing military-industrializing mutually assured destruction
of ourselves,
our kids,
our planet
through ballistic technologies
designed against ego and eco-sacred peace therapies

And designed for adding further strength to already plutocratic threats
against stronger trusted multicultural global non-totalitarian democracy,
love of benign cooperativity,
between individuals and nations and species,
both natural and spiritual cultures of health care giving
and restorative justice as peace receiving
Grace of love
to grow further multicultures
of EarthTribe Enlightenment Happiness,
both Sacred and secular
Positive Health-Love.

These are what our parents meant to share with us,
our schools intended to listen for within us
to restore healthy democratic trust and hope,
responsible freedoms of good multiculturing faith,
authoritative secular/sacred research
in these ecopolitics of loving cooperative global happiness,
for first generation gospel tellers
through Enlightenment progenitors of democratic Welfare
to create a more perfect Union
without plutocratic,
fascist,
or fundamentalist monoculturing uniformity,
dissonance,
decay,
degeneration of PureLove’s perfecting Happiness.

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EnLightening ReLigions

Religiosity is the culture-bound pretension
of religious relational function.

Religious is to spiritually healthy function
as religion
creed
faith system, idolatrous or divine,
is to spiritual form,
structure,
ecosystemic or pathologically other-unwise.

Spirit is to natural health functions,
mental and physical and sacred,
as nature
ecology
active positive hope systems
are to natural form,
polypathic structures,
polyphonic themes of Wisdom Literature,
EcoLogos Paradigms of Health,
Sacred Ecology
for Earth’s ReStorative Ego/EcoJustice.

Bilateral Win v Lose religiosity dysfunctions
within each bicameral WinWin religion
represent evil absence of sacred ecological Form,
ExeGenesis
ReGenesis,
Alpha through Beta-Omega.

YangUniverse
with YinSquared bilateral speed
of FatherTime’s polypathic enlightenment.

ReligiousLeft with Integrity of SacredRight
co-arising nondual healthy spirit-nature PolyCultural YangFunction
Optimization,
meeting Continuous Quality Improvement
WinWin EcoPolitical Performance Standards,
weighed on MotherEarth’s Scales
of ReStorative EcoJustice grace paid forward
for Ego/Eco Peace through globally cooperative gratitude
in regenerative return.

PolyCultural Religion,
YinYin (0)-BiLateral Souls,
Absence of DualDark Bright
Double-Binding NotNot = WinWin BiCamerality,
Positive Psychology
of EgoLeft Secular Patriarchal Dominance
restoring
EcoElder SacredRight Matriarchal
Memories of NotJustYang-NotJustYin EquiValent
(0)Sum EarthMothers,
swimming through oceanic salt-rivers
of sacred baptismal SpaceTime.

WinLose (0)-Sum Reiterative Justice Religiosity
of suboptimizing EgoSystems
are merely more secularizing Business As Usual
for WinWin ReStorative Justice and Peace
Spirits with Natures,
Metaphysical Nurturers with Physical Naturers,
Yin-Fractal DoubleBound Matriarchal Circle-Octaves
with YangUniversalSpace = YinSquared BiLateral Time’s Spiraling
ReVolutionary-ReStorative Spiritual Grace Intent.

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When Time Went Live

Neurology asks
How does our bicameral brain
and bilateral neural-system work,
both positive and negative?

Meanwhile, form greets function.
Psychology asks
What can minds with bodies tell us
about who we were,
who we are,
and those whom we might become,
and prefer not to become?
Because to do so would be even more pathological;
negative psychology
is pathological psychology.

But,
both neurology and psychology
assume this same radically fundamental spectrum
of regenerative health
through degenerative pathology
of physical and metaphysical climates
for landscapes
internal and external,
positively cooperative
on through too competitively dissonant.

Ultimately,
neurological psychology
reweaves how our healthy ego-systems work
sometimes optimally,
too often minimally,
toward whom and what
and when and where
and even why
we would most regeneratively become
together.

On time saw live, sacred;
no emit was evil, desecration;
neurologically anti-healthy negative psychology.

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Saw and waS Infinity Trees

To be a true and pure and faithful evangelical fundamentalist,
whether of good faith exegetical religions
or bad faith eisegetical hatreds of other cultures and races and genders, etc.,
fascism and fundamentalism
are rooted in pre-linguistic literalism,
stories built from feelings of sacred orthodox senses
and secular notnot nonsenses,

But you should not need to be an anti-radical hater
to grow and nurture a rooted in fundamentals progressivist,
activist,
farmer,
colonizer,
missionary,
an over-zealous weed with monoculturing leadership intentions,
a xenophobic polyculture baiter,
or anti-pagan predator,
PostMillennial Crusader
for Christ or Allah
for Divine Totalitarianism or HateMongering Fascism,
for anyone or anything you truly believe
could become omnipotently healthy and sacred.

To become radical
requires going into pre-linguistic roots
of spirituality
as also embodied naturality.
To come from story-tellers and mentors
of the fundamentals for,
speakers and listeners to,
ecological parables
written in divine sunlight
and ultra-violet radiantly cosmic
octaved love-evoluting voice.

To become a patriotic loyalist
of and for,
by and through,
was and saw
We are not sufficiently acceptable,
not restorative agents for true justice and loyal peace,
not self or other optimizing ecopolitical outcomes,
to confuse patriotic with remaining prehistorically anti-matriotic,
anti-feminist WinWin Principles
of NonZero Sum Earth
as Fallen Eden
broken promise of Allah’s ConJoining Paradise
of and for,
by and through,
saw and was

Polypathically polycultural (0)-Soul
nondualistic sacred through secular
multi-paradigmatically
developing cultures of sacred ecological health
which are also PostMillennial EcoPolitical CoOperatives
of and for
by and through
saw and was

This fundamentally sacred
radically secular
Prime Relational
bicameral as bilateral as binomial
You and Me
from the same co-incidental tragedy/notnot comedy
WinWin DoubleBound Appositional Tree
of (0)-SpaceTime
(0)-Tao RealTime
of and for
by and through
saw and was
Ego/Eco-Infinity.

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Death of Dreams

Our children must not die
before their parents
or parental dreams die with them.

And, for those without children,
this is easily empathized
because our dreams must not die
before we do.

Without them
our best selves have already left
whatever misery and boredom remains
for further degenerating absence of purpose.

As our own remaining children
step into young adulthood
wise parents often continue listening
for their dreams.

In this way,
as our own immortal dreams and fantasies fade,
younger dreams become our own extending future.

Here,
in the imperative parental vocation
of restoring therapeutic justice
and peace to dream love’s future,
is where I hear resounding
Millennial Generation Silence

Absence of healthy economic and political dreams
for healing over-heated competing climates
and landscapes.

Restoring inclusive predator and prey recycling justice
and healthy pre-recycling parenting
and dreams of timeless youth
all begin with loving to know Why?

If you have parented a healthy verbal two year old,
you may remember
these challenges of Why
and concomitant insufficiencies of time
to sufficiently reply
Why not?

Why do we dream in language
and icons of mythic sacred relationship?

Why do I dream
of a revolving Fallen Eden
evolving restorative forest-garden relationships,
sacred and secular Paradise Dreams
revisited
revised
rewinding
reweaving Millennial ReGeneration Dreams?

Healthy ecopolitical futures
still Yang with Yin eating from fruit trees
of Sacred Loving Dreams
and Secularized NonDual DarkDeath
we cooperatively own and appositionally manage
root systemically together

ReStorative Yang EdenSpace
with ReDistributive Flowing YinNurture Time–
spiraling bilateral timeless Mythic EcoLogosed Times
of and for PostMillennial Therapeutic Dreams
asking how and when
and cooperating where already
and why not?

A healthy parent
must not lose sacred-secular Dreams
or we all die dreamless forever,
retributing further anger
and fearing frustrating injustice
language and icons of unweaving Earth
fallen eternally to burn
for asking God WhyNot?

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PolyBoxes of Tradition

I faced alarming paradoxes
as I headed toward puberty.

First,
my King James Bible-belting parents,
extended family,
and all-hopelessly-WHITE farm community
taught me

God loves me
and all the children,
red and yellow,
and black almost as much as white.

That felt good
but then I learned God hates me
because I became queerly obsessed
with hot guys,
and not hot girls.
So, God created me
so He could hate me.
That seemed like poor planning to me,
and I was still in fifth grade.

Then I learned that God had given me two extraordinary gifts:
Possibly unmeasurable intelligence,
and so,
my grade-school principal warned
my evangelical farmer parents,
we were not to be surprised
if I was and saw this Earth
in a somewhat different way.

My second gift
was the envy of all good Bible-belted teenagers.
I could sing with the angels.

So,
the God of Infinite Love
is my Creator
and I am His Frankenstein Queer
with a mind and singing voice to soar,
full of Grace.

You and I might both be surprised
how long it took to figure out
Something is very wrong with this picture,
and I don’t think it is just me.
It was merely everyone else I knew and trusted
in that Bible-belted time.

So I sang for them in full voice
but gave as little voice to my sexuality as possible.
I wrote papers and test responses
in full A+ voice
but told no one
I knew they were asking wrong questions
for me to answer with full-versed integrity,

Free to sing with David and Jonathon
free of magic superstitions
standing in for mythic polypathic wisdom
of Solomon

Not to divide innocent organic Promise
God has conjoined as Love
of and for children,
red and yellow,
black and white,
gay and lesbian,
bisexual and transgender

And, yes, even straight-faced
Bible-belting out Hate
and Supremacist Evangelical Christian Colonizing InBred Correctness,
while continuing to give birth
to hidden,
shamed and blamed queer Grace
of a Loving God
polypathically immense,
deep and wide,
future through past
regeneratively just
and peaceful
and wickedly funny

Because if we cannot laugh at our egocentric stupidities,
then we must cry out for cosmic tragedy.

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