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Seeking Assurance

I am sad
and need reassurance
this choice was not bad
at the time of searching
Home’s new-found voice,
and is not bad
now,
and will not be bad
and sad
in my shortening future.

Diminishing now
into year by year forecasts,
no longer this seventieth decade
by assured next decade
sensing less reassured choices
may matter no longer than month
by sad and glad
life insurance payment
month.

When will I seize
my last happy budding Spring?

Will I recognize Her
when She whole-sum comes
to spread Her good
choice
seeds?

I am mad
to have purchased
a distressed property condo
and need soothing
by a distressed New England
rusty industrial historic community
on a distressed EarthTribe continent
on a distressed Earth crust
wet with rising
and thickening
sickening salt water.

I need way more
regenerative EarthHealth
systemic reassurance

Some better organized cooperative ownership,
stewardship,
management,
organic gardening,
co-invested harvesting
multicultural
and polyculturally robust
nonviolent communication.

I need expanding green
ecofeminist bicameral network
reassurance
I won’t die alone and sad
distressed
traumatized
chronically stressed
clinically depressed
politically repressed
economically Patriarchal-Capitalist suppressed
into win/lose arguments
competitive consumer markets
retail sales
on formerly sacred offering plates.

I feel sad
Christianity
and Islam
and Judaism
are so often for sale
to the lowest
capital survivalist fear-mongerer,
monocultural anthro-supremacist,
anti-godly
StraightWhiteMale
historically royal privilegedest.

I feel bad
that nonviolent communication,
trusting in HealthyDemocracy dialogue
more than SicKleptocracy debate
to divide and separate,

That Compassion Deep Learning Therapy
is seldom applied
to Presidential Cooperative Dialogues,
to BiPartisan Green EcoPolicy Conventions
for healthiest international
continential
national
state
county
and/or local levels
of organizing our EarthTribe CoOperative Habitats,
organically co-invested
like any healthy regenerative body
property
mind
soul
nature
systemic antiracist spirit

Not quite so distressed
as this condominium association
I invested in last year
and foolishly graduated
into a successful election
to a kinda right wing
real estate fascist
clearly not green cooperative WOKE
executive board of toothless
so unsmiling
sad
mad
feeling bad
Patriarchal-Capitalist Directors

Expecting CondoMinions
to hold our breath
till cost-ineffective budgets
stop overheating
and exploding toward bankruptcy,

Systemically unravelling
while absentee owners
thoughtlessly protect their polished sharpened nails
admiring their gleaming hard right reach
toward God’s great individualistic inspiring destiny
in this RealProperty Land
where cash
and Straight White Patriarchs
are historically-correct
monoculturing Kings

Feeling climate casualty sad,

Needing reassurance
next year’s profits,
and preferably next quarter’s,
will continue to outpace
egregiously inflated
and taxed socialistic costs.

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Healthy Empowering Economics

I was a Taoist
philosophically and spiritually
metaphysically and physically
long before my Public Administration classes.

Which may be poignantly of interest
because the original Taoist teacher,
LaoTse,
taught sensory experiences
of Yang-testosterone energy
and Yin-estrogen synergy
for a bicameral governing audience
with questions about how to empower egocenters red/yellow
and ecosystems blue/green
equitably,
as democratically healthy as possible,
while avoiding libertine chaos.

One of the most useful,
and curious, DeepLearnings
that emerged in these Public Health Governance classes
with Public Wealth Management professors
is the yang/yin interplay
between capitalist economics,
with a profound Western monopoly on defining “value,”
AND democratic politics
of self and Other,
Me and We,
empowerment objectives.

When RightWing economic conservatives
look at the Constitution,
They see YangPatriarchal scripture
demanding sacred fealty,
defining orthodox hierarchical structures
to achieve “stay in the nationalistic competitive Black”
and bottom-line financial balance
between outgoing investments
and incoming returns
in experienced social
cultural
historically accumulating
nationalistic GNP value,
and don’t worry so much
about Earth’s capacity to repair
gross nationalistic consumption;

As if democratic virtue
is a free market bankable investment
for the personal governing pleasure
of those most successful
at capitalism’s win/lose game
of empowering/disempowering patriarchal
monotheistic straight-white values.

On the other hand,
LeftWing political liberals
step into embodied
full-sensory mindbody circles
to listen for Yin-ecofeminist
historical/cultural wisdom

Refining multicultural revolving spirals
of democratic power to cooperatively achieve
“you don’t always have to color within dogmatic lines”
in basic black
or business grey
or maybe brown
or navy blue conservatism,
and also notice top-line integral balance
between outgoing economic empowerment
and incoming democratic returns
in co-empathic
globally multiculturing
historically inter-weaving
EarthTribe deep cooperative listening skills

As if democratic health
is a revolutionary blue/green/yellow/red/purple/orange
multi-regenerational co-investment language
for interpersonal pleasure governing
those most successful
with capitalizing on Yang’s testosteroned win/win strengths
for deep learning
enlightening Yintegral ecofeminist
ecopolitically encircling
revolving
repurposing
reweaving
regenerative values.

Bankable cooperative re-investments
for ecosystemic present
and future Turquoise/Ultra-NonViolent regenerations
of self/Other governing
multiculturally intelligent
communicators.

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From Our Front Porch

Porches,
attached decks,
patios,
intimate places for alfresco,

These make a difference
between a fortressed house
and a transparent home,
between an ego castle
and an eco-habitat.

We also spread rhododendron bushes
and hostas,
flowers and ferns
around our stone
and concrete bound foundations.

We want stable defenses
but prefer to camouflage houses
in organic color,
life giving and taking shapes.

These boundary vistas
speak of heart felt reminders
our habitat is rooted
in Earth’s wilderness

In vulnerability
hidden from transparency
except with those who share our sacred space
inside
and upon,
within our co-passioned present time,

Presence bonding,
double-binding,
re-membering past wildness
anticipating future re-generative
re-storative
re-habituating
re-acclimating
re-bounding win/lose less
for more win/win paradise

Just barely 2020 visible
and silently audible
and fresco fragranced
and tasted,
felt
and so nearly touched
longing into belonging
on our cooperatively-owned front porch.

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Universal-Unitarian Trinity of Zero

Atheism,
for a Taoist
and for U-Us
and Zeroists,
and Not ZeroSumists,
and Positive ZeroZone Therapists,
is synonymous with Agnosticism
and maybe Gnostic BiCameral Consciousness.

Healthy skeptics,
but not pessimists,
Agnostics understand how win/lose leftbrain either/or dominant
intelligent people
confuse Atheism with AntiTheism
but do not internally suffer from these competing
and ambivalent
anxious
depressing confusions.

For both a Taoist philosopher-writer-composer-musician-muse
and a UU multicultural Truth/Power lover,
it feels unbalanced to be open only to appreciating Universal Theists
and closed to the unitarian
interdependently egalitarian AntiTheists among us,
all potential allies along life’s loving theological
ecologically co-relational journey

Just as it is Left with Right hemisphere wrong, both thought and felt,
to accept a culturally reinforced Thesis
but not a multiculturally contextual
appositional
compare and contrast AntiThesis,
like YangStrength with YinFlow,
like Left with Right bilateral unwinged communion,
like Outside with Inside climate solidarity,
like Left Privilege with or against Dark Fragility,
like Elite cooperatively with
or competitively against NonElite,
like Win/Win with Lose/Lose spectral re/de-generativity,
like Ego WealthyIdentity with and against EcoSystemic Healthy Individuation…

Between internal MonoTheistic Spirit
and external AntiTheistic Nature
lies a multicultural pandemic of economic
investing/divesting theologies

Our subjective
and objectively felt personal knowledge
win/lose evolves,
lose/lose revolves,
win/win resolves

I’ve noticed, so far,
along my UU-Taoist journey:
PolyTheism
PanTheism
Zeroism
PanEnthemematic Communionism
MultiCultural Win/Win ReGenerativism
Health/Wealth Nature/Spirit CoOperativism,
sadly, Win/Lose Capitalism

And have no doubt
we will, across eternal time
and timeless space
know and grow
unknown and despised and revised
many more variations
on this Yang/Yin
Thesis/AntiThesis
EgalitarianUniverse Rights / InterdependentUnity Responsibilities
LeftBrain Dominant / RightBrain Prominent
WarmThoughts with FluidFeelings
dipolar co-arising
Ego-Theo-Eco-triumvirate
trinitarian without capital
heady
egotistic
narcissistic over-investment in Trumpistic Triumphalism
of leftbrain autonomous illusion

Truth and Beauty and Trust
actively looking for
easier not not co-passion themes
of past faith
with future hope
for today’s sufficient love.

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Stories Are Not Songs

But songs are a musical story.

I know a difference
between telling a story
and voicing these same lyrics
of anxiety and ease,
of bearing and healing injustices,
medicine for well-earned peace.

I feel a difference
between progressive story telling,
between historically accurate autobiography,
and singing cultural passion narratives,
felt experiences,
perennial sensory moments
of nutrition and starvation,
light and dark,
health and pathology,
resilience and fragility,
privilege and responsibility,
resonance and ongoing anxiety,
harmony and yet mystery,
acceptance and hidden avoidance,
integrity, yet irritating dissonant echoes
either empowering verbs
or neither un-nouned knowns
win/lose explicating with shy win/win implications

Why grateful Yes!
suggests, more hesitantly Not Not Yet?

Being, yet still becoming
Left with indigenously
endemically
regeneratively curious Right
earned ease.

I know a difference
does not mean I can make sense of it.

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