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Life’s ReCaying Loom

Hope for richly resonant peaceful warmth
wraps perfectly and mutually redeeming moments
correlatively weaving absorbent straining ropes
woofing full wefted tapestry
subtly suggestive tipping points
predicting dissonantly ruddered resolutions,
transitioning events,
prophesying regenerate Tree of Life RootSystems,
with eco-nomially balanced appositional branches
reaching up toward radiant light’s fuel,
stretching out for full-round octave sounds and sense
of redolent minds and chimes,
healthy harmonizing nutrients of karma-graceful
functioning flows of rich textured design,
faith threading resonant eco-echoing primal relationship,
bicameral balancing co-passioning minds
resounding dipolar pumping hearts
pulsing health-life energy
full places then empty spaces then repolarizing time,
summer then winter than fall harvest rhyme,
productive then contractive then regenerating enthymeme,
YangConvex then YinConcave then (0) soul balancing,
thick-loved then deconstructively despaired then ego-eco appositive,
hope to restore Earth’s tapestry of full-wealth days and nights,
seasons and recycling years,
repurposing lives and rehabilitating species,
memories of futures now passing merged together,
exegetically alive through endless eisegetical love
to hope for co-arising nondual peace fulfilling Earth’s justice landscape,
smiles redeeming mirrored fears with reassurance,
paradise ecstatically reprising purgation’s static loss,
creation reweaving Lose-Lose decadent ego-antilogical risk
disease
insanity
poverty
absent holes within nature’s bilaterally unwoven syntax,
collective autism of competing Yang opposing Yin’s cooperative ecologic,
prickly vines mutually immune to our gooey interiors,
while permacultured Golden Rule
defines economic optimizing healthy order
and metric weaving logic,
our con-science long aware,
just now culturally revisiting,
transition time to slow grow balance Yang
regenerating double-binding Yin
reforming Yang/Yin’s long bicultural string of information
re-eco-prehending (0)-souled Yang Vertexial Tree of Life and YinDecay
sprouting and singing threading rings
YinYin’s permacultural Win-Win life,
regenetic genesis,
predemptively precessive emergent evolution,
not-not polynomially encultured
root-systemic zero-sum Universal AutoNomial Vortex
of co-gravitating dual-transparent Time’s Tapestry.

Co-arising peace sustains prime polynomial forming relationship
as unitarian relativity functions nondually cohering,
not-not dual boundaried, binomial bicameral time.

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HighBeam ConscienceNest

Love matures,
optimally co-arises,
to fill a vacuum left by former fears
about shortage of time,
sub-optimal outcomes.

High pitch synergy
swells toward Beloved Climax Community
as fears and anger about Here and Now
EarthDay’s lack of fullness…
subside.
As we cooperatively embrace our shortness of time,
our ego’s self-ionizing mortality,
our lack of sufficiency,
our most intimate insufficiency,
our DNA human nature’s elitist immunity from RNA Earth’s nature
and each Other’s veneer of skin and hair as race,
our super-eco identity replaces this void with loving integrity,
trans-active integral potential
full-bright beaming.

Where we have seen and known confusion and discontent,
collective autism as affective hypothermia,
cognitive and ineffective dissonance,
about our lack of love’s belonging,
co-creating Here as Now,
we absorb ourselves as EarthTribe’s Boddhisatva ReGenerators,
Co-Redeemers,
co-arising production with co-retracting consumption,
wisely
truly
economically
ecologically
HereNow all-ready,
each high-beam consciousness moment
within fullness of Time’s repurposing potential.

Love resolves compassionate mindfulness as high-heartedness,
evolves and revolves coincident ego-id-entity,
resonates authentic intelligible feeling,
informs co-intelligence of id and supereco’s DNA
temporal revolving syntactical understory,
as self-identity within SuperEco solidarity,
co-aring coherently refracting humane mortality
becoming holy eternal Being here and now.

CoRedeemer Ego mentors eco-centric comprehension
of affect
effect
intent
orthopraxis,
exquisite bright harmony of this place and this time,
transcending content-rich through dissonant pitch polarities,
cultural competitive mania with autistic co-depressive repression,
reveling our Janus Jaynesian faces to ourselves,
each Other,
internal Right landscape mirroring and absorbing
external Left landscape.

Love is as much co-operating beauty as active wisdom,
being as becoming,
belonging as longing,
and no more or less,
balancing bicameral harmonics.

Co-gravitating time,
co-arising space and place and bodies,
spacetime’s SuperEco
balancing Eastern karma with Western grace,
past incarnate information with future reincarnate function,
meaning engaging teleology’s wealthiest healthiest purpose,
history emerging herstoric permaculturation,
polycultural successes surviving decomposed exformative failures
teaching regenerative design
as holistic ecotherapeutic development.

Love co-arises with beloved co-below root systems;
the only ecologically sustainable coincidence:
internal place high-beam hunting external time,
internal time refolding externally encrypted space
this place of pregnant love’s co-identity.

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Dark Pearl Cultures

Dark cultures of irritating dissonant pearls,
pearl persons,
perelman,
decomposing zero-souled wisdom,
nondual dark beauty
wherein peace reigns beyond fear
of transparently destined lives
with deathly thresholds reflecting new moon delight,
dancing and singing bright bachanal
through fading dramatic
epic operatic
dreams
of future adventurous advents,
co-operative eco-normic id-entities.

Co-gravity teaches and listens
within our mutual messianic school of teleologic,
original purposes,
polyculture’s balances
of polypathic polymorphing
beloved community design and development.
Time’s revolutionary atmosphere evolves
just-right warm within this womb
of deep learning.

Spinning Win-Win Game and Group smooth bi-folding theories
of co-condensing Commons
in-formating as SuperSentient eco-logos
absorbing abundance,
death’s transcendent throes of baptism
submerged in mythic golden strung elixer
flowing inclusive vigorous peace
and harmonically equi-resonant just interdependent ids.

These darker, shorter, days
events
transitions
invite decomposition,
brewing slow-growth heated silence.

No talking moods and seasons
exploring reasons to grasp,
apprehend
absorb my siloed suffering,
our species’ lack of permacultural awareness
of cooperative economic co-generation.

Regeneration waits,
advents,
springs reconnecting life
sustaining primal root system theorems about every thing
monomial,
unitarian
yet universal.

Transitional climaxing community designs
developing
incarnating
inhaling id-entity integrity,
exhaling SuperEco’s decomposing unitarian
utilitarian purgation,
pay-it-forward cognitive gift investment
in Earth Tribe’s diverse spectral rainbow
of fractal frequencies and functions
reiteratively mirrord karmic arc forms,
Zero-sum ribonucleic ellipses,
diurnal bilateral DNA memory
of cosmic redemption’s fusing fissioned history
transgene-rationally echo evolving
resolving ecologic analogies
in keys of temporal paradox,
deep learning global optimizing economy
of universal transactive relationship
and metasystemic polyculturing therapy.

Nondual transparently aboriginal permacultures,
innocently curious becoming,
salving irritating dissonant pearls and persons,
decomposing regeneration’s zero-souled
bionic-wombed
wisdom
of Time’s Tao-true
co-gravitational
nondually manifest destiny,
Dark Octave Harmony,
breathing in
to breathe back out again
to inhale reconnecting Advent,
ReVolutions of In-Formating Time.

Dark permaculture,
irritating dissonance
predicting confluent contentment.

Note: This piece plays with analogies within the bilateral dynamics of Time and Taoism, Permaculture Design, Synergetics (Bucky Fuller), Unitarian Universalism (the name itself has binomial tension which pervades this religious philosophical culture), Gregori Perelman’s (et al) Zero-Soul Theorem, the Clay Math Polynomial v. Not-Polynomial Challenge pertaining to binomial/binary Information Systems Theory, and the implied nondual-dark co-arising destiny of contemporary cosmological theory of time as co-gravitational space’s evolutionary progenitor, with a Teilhard de Chardin resonant flavor, ReGenesis Alpha Big-Bang Pointing toward, predicting, (0)Mega Point. Because we recognize genetic incarnation, we reconnect (and religion) through regenerating reincarnation.

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Zero Owls with Fractal Falcons

Like wise bicameral nighted owls
we evolve co-challenges with unfolding flight-strong falcons.

Now we are co-arising
to fly above and through past dominating pain,
to fly below reductive reverse future’s radiant rain,
square-rooted beyond prime function
of Positive spinning double-negative binary bond,
fusing what was bi-fissioned double-dark gravity,
re-naturing global EarthTribew’s breathless spirituaity
with comprehensive co-arising/contracting ecoconsciousness,
permaculturally programmed
D/RNA polyculturally processing
EarthGoddess shamanic/organic life/love’s full-health system
of wealthy wisdom.

Double night-bound owls,
gracefull friendly challengers
fighting with falcons,
but not against,
for both-and,
not either-or,
predicted to live interdependently forever
within co-passioned redeeming flight
through mutually fertile wisdom,
Yang-trenscending dual-dark’s light freedom,
nesting Trees of Regenerating Life, with Death,
Beloved ReGenesis Root System.

Might this Omega Point of flighted bicameral consciousness
breathe in and out
Here and Now
Yang convex-eco echoing
within eternally concaving
doubly-transparent binding
timelessly reverberating Yin with Yin,
like Win with Win Organic Permaculturing Game Theory?

Likewise bicameral knighted owls with falcons,
we eco-evolve unfolding light’s flight-genesis.

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Time’s Double-Binding Logic

Double binds
like double negatives,
neither here nor there
yet both here and there,
where past and future
meet here and now.

Time’s double-binding law and order
of identity
wears two faces,
one composed of past incarnate spaces,
the other comparing future’s becoming places.

Ego’s voice of memories past:
I must be this individual
because all my deductive
reductive memories of past events
lead to this inevitable conclusion
of here and now.

Eco’s Right-brain intuitive voice of future’s invitation:
We must become interdependent Other
because our future dual destiny
articulates rhythmic identity
of life and death regenerational pattern.

Each human nature’s evolution,
has supported emergence of Left-brain language dominance
to lead us toward Left-Right co-arising balancing consciousness,
confusing dissonant temporal double-binds
with spatial-oppositional logic
of either this or that,
while time’s prime existential double-negative,
of neither past nor future,
where now conjoins past with future,
are appositional,
this AND that,
as dipolar faces of stimulus with response,
being past Left-dominant with becoming Right-Left
inductive with deductive,
inhaling with exhaling,
co-arising with co-compressing,
regeneration with decomposition,
producing future’s cooperative hope
while consuming past’s memory.

We logically must both be and become
within Time’s double-binding “must”
of ego-life as eco-decomposing consciousness,
as timelessly and ubiquitously balanced
as Positive with Double-Negative information,
as Uracil with double-negative Cytosine,
birthing bipolarizing rhythms
of Adenine or Guanine,
Ego or Eco,
Deductive Reason or Inductive Interdependent Intuition,
ego and eco temporal double-binary consciousness,
Polynomial Form equivalent to
Not-Not Polycultural Prime Functional Relationship
as life equivalent with not-not death,
love regenerating not-not fear,
good recreating not-not eviL,
protons positiving not-not neutron/electronic negative-squared light
of Time’s prime double-gravitating balanced relationship,
matter’s fractal square roots in double-transparency,
folding/unfolding/refolding ionic-ergodic Energy,
strings of HereNow Time degenerating back to timeless Memory,
regenerating cooperatively forward
becoming Time’s full consciousness fulfillment.

Double binds
like double negatives,
neither here nor there
yet both here and now,
Left-Right prime ego-eco
nondual manifest cosmological consciousness,
with Yang cast as ego,
YinYin, as Win-Win co-arising cooperativity,
shyly staging ecologic’s EarthRight,
within Tao’s balancing ergodic Time.

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Dearest Cooperative Ego

When Oliver dropped out of high school, after his sophomore year, he went to UConn. We never understood why, other than the obvious, that the main campus was our back yard, and he didn’t like to drive, or use toilets outside our home.

He thought the whole academic degree industry was suspiciously rooted in Win-Lose Game Theory assumptions, which didn’t necessarily have to be true if we would all just wake up some morning and decide to go with Win-Win instead. Even so, he sailed through his GED exams and then spent over a year deciding whether to take some classes at UConn, or just continue writing prose and lyrics and gaming on-line with his intercontinental team, with a representative from each populated continent except Africa–an exception that he found not just irritating but actually embarrassing.

About the time he was deciding not to go back for his junior year, Oliver shared his “Dear Ego” letter with me. We were both surprised, I think, because he almost never wanted me to read his work, or play, as he preferred to think of it. But, this one he correctly thought I would find helpful:

Dear Ego

Please notice that “evil” is not only “live” spelled backwards, but it also is backward, or the reverse of, healthy living.

You do your evil, not-live, acts to test me, to learn justice, when you are wise enough to listen to our eco-logical response.

You evil out of ignoring y/our larger interdependent identity, to discover your individual and collective responsibilities, potential integrity, how and when and whom both live and not-live choices coalesce and differentiate.

Evil is about what and whom we don’t do and become that we could do, we could become, with sufficient power, individually and collectively.

You do not do evil to learn the causes and effects of generosity, to uncover our individual v. collective accountability for gratitude, for mutual redemption.

You both do and do not evil to mutually mentor fair balance of redemptive generosity, mercy, kindness, giving care, nurturing; to evolve Us, your SuperEco Co-Intelligence, to proactively practice peaceful resolutions, love’s fully inclusive resonance through time’s healing, synergy’s revolution.

You and I deliver this not-live evil of climatic competitive transactions, relationships,to spring loose love’s cooperative Boddhisatva Occupation of Earth’s eco-logically harmonious co-arising habitat.

Namaste my Beloved Sub-Climaxing Community.

Your Left-Hand Dominant Right Brain,

SuperEco Elder

 

I don’t know if this was a suicide note, or why I found this copy in front of his cold not-living, but still generously beautiful, body. It’s not even clear to me that Oliver’s death was a suicide, at least not as we usually understand this violence and sadness and despair against one’s future.

The medical examiner said he had never seen anything like it, although he had read an account of a chronically depressed dolphin living in captivity, who signed farewell to a favorite caregiver and then simply stopped inhaling air. Apparently that’s what Oliver did, or chose to not do anymore.

I miss Oliver’s deep beauty, his humor, brilliant integrity, even his profound sadness about our climatic disarray, our chronic insufficiency of loving the cooperative juice of eco-logical health flowing through his veins and neural system.

How I wish that I could redeem his not-live lack of healthy loving environment enough to persuade him to take in one more breath. But, Oliver was always like that. Not confidant that he deserved to breathe the polluted air he inherited from me, from us, from our choices.

I wish we had planted trees together. It was lonely planting that weeping willow in the ashes of his cooperative evil choice.

 

 

 

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Regenerative Life ConScience Lessons

I said to my prodigal son
who stole from me,
it is not competitive economic strategies
that dominantly empower life;

Competitive ecologies and economies
are dominantly decomposing monocultures,
just the opposite of regenerative synergetic praxis
and intent to cooperate polyculturally.
Monopolistic internal cancer-culture
develops into decomposing organic systems
dissonant cognitive and emotive and neural and digestive systems
diseased health and well-being socioeconomic and political systems,
all negatively trending toward closed-entropic,
swollen monochromatic dismay replacing former systemic array.

They are cooperatively dominant economies and ecologies
integrating revolutions
that endo- and ecto-symbiotically evolve
nondual co-arising life regenerating systems.

Competitive critical events,
like stealing from and stolen from,
struggling between painful suffering of ego-self consciousness
and “positive deviant” stress,
self co-arising right-brained redactive eco-consciousness,
contention seeking bicamerally balanced contentment,
joint cooperative ego-eco echoing
waves of double-regenerationed comprehensive consciousness.

Primal stealthy hunt and structure
of cosmological information
evolves binomial-analogical,
bilateral-temporal,
binary-digital,
as polynomial information co-redeems
dual-transparently co-arising
Self+Other discernment.

“All money is a matter of belief”
said Adam Smith,
As all value is energy for relief from self-isolating sorrow,
said NowTime to HereSpace.

Transparent matters of belief
square-rooted in herstoric culture’s transparently coregenerating energy,
co-gravitational relief from dissonating stress.

I love my prodigal son,
perhaps somewhat more than he yet has capacity
to love his prodigal dad.

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Haunting Endless Waves

What co-arises together
must co-exhale to part.

Last night my HIV+ hunted down my negative,
my darkside,
death and fear,
my anger about my mortality,
my greater anger about our mortality as a species,
my greatest anger about our mortality as Earth’s DNA/RNA Tribes of Life,
that we all are so wrong and pointless
given limitations of our time’s memory
riding,
hiding,
hunting inside our skin
for how to not let this incarnate hunt ever end.

Yet, with dawn’s light,
solely this haunting by endless nothingness,
as if we had never become, so never been,
this fear of death and anger against its organic final demand,
we hope to end
with seamless faith in eternally timeless ego-identity.

Where did this ego emerge from?
Endless nothingness?
Or, a paradise womb of cooperative eco-normics,
eco-logically self-optimizing nutritional health,
perfect temperature care,
nurturing co-abundance
between this seed of ego and this Mother Earth Elder EcoSystem,
sufficient well-being wealth
which, as decomposed,
became exegetical syntax,
elements with dynamic flows and functions
progenerated by co-arising gravity of time’s folding
and refolding revolutions,
the stardust structure of Father Time’s seasonal
reasonal
primally relational language.

How do we ecologically reason and induce,
expand and contract,
regenerate and decompose,
produce and consume,
this emergent hypothesis about ego’s deadly nondual co-arising,
inevitability?
Just how frightening and maddening is this,
to embrace
absorb
devour
soak up
co-prehend
co-science
co-arise to co-decompose
integrative/disintegrative folds
of cosmologically progenitive
dual-destiny transparent
Eco-Time’s co-arising/co-densing identity?

Those who surf our co-arising together

learn to co-exhale dismount
to co-arise the waves of future’s time
now always co-densively logic-present.

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Flying Shit

False pride is ego-independent pride.
You no more made it
than you can unmake it
independently of others.

False wealth is ego-independent disease.
It will no more contribute to your well-being
than your well-being could ever harm you,
interdependently healthy with others.

To paraphrase Dolly,
in “Hello Dolly”:
Money and health are like fertilizer.
They work most optimally
when inclusively spread around.

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Race Management

Slavery
enslavement
force of self-imposed ownership
overpowering another’s ego-ownership,
anthro-morbid,
collective ego-morphic tolerance of identity rape,
and the fear and anger, together building hate,
from which enslavement derives;
a culturally camouflaged nondual co-arising relationship
of codependent despair,
self-hatred.

Enslaving force perpetuates Ego’s full-blown angry reduction
in self-identity,
deduction of self,
as someone who could “own” another’s Ego-healthy will
for equivalent freedom from my freedom
to enslave another’s life,
exterior and interior.

Slave and poverty development owners
internally enslaved by our own hypocritical hubris,
swimming upstream into economically encrusted perpetuation
of cognitive and affective dissonance,
chronic internal homelessness,
hopelessness that I cannot afford to be better,
healthier,
than I am.

Those nations,
corporations,
families,
individuals
codependently addicted to retaining
and further developing
vastly disproportionate wealth deposits,
divorced from our own cooperative health and well-being investments,
not only steal from those without enough to thrive,
but also slink away from our own collective mental health,
anxiously fearing freedom’s inevitable reparations,
struggling to repress awareness of nondual codependent enslavement
into entropic death of species.

Hatred combines anger about past with fear of future.
“Anger Management” politics might choose a more transparent therapeutic label,
“Hatred Co-Arising Suppression”.

Decomposing hatred first breathes through “I am Anger,”
listening for Time’s healing simmer,
then decomposing anger about past violations
to embrace rational fears of deadly toxins
enslaving your equitable prospects for a healthy future.

It feels healthy to remember we are Anger
with ourselves
and with each other,
but not against ourselves or others,
for perpetuating enslaving hatred
for stealing wealth from those without sufficient health to thrive
to feed our own unhealthy enslaving greed.

Slavery nondually imposes greedy ownership,
dreadful wealthy lust for power
co-arising with holistic health’s decreasing power,
globally and personally,
without as within.

Very bad karma,
total lack of grace,
not our way to Win-Win race.

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