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Father’s Day Reflections

It is 2 pm
on a hot and humid Sunday
in June.

I am cleaning walls
and floors,
cabinets
and doors,
and laying newly steamed rugs
in a new place
of one floor living
more suitably down-sized
from three floor struggling
for my disabled son
and aging me.

My husband
for the past twenty four years
calls with Happy Father’s Day!

This, like an anniversary ritual,
surprising reminder between us two Dads
not sure how we are doing
together.
But, better than apart.

Surprised,
I admitted
my failure to remember
perhaps because,
for me,
for us?
everyday is fathers’ day
and night
of secularized care taking

As every mothers’ day
and night
may become sacred care giving

As schools of male
and female,
more precisely male or female,
fish fail to remember
wet climates breathe water
in and out again,
care filling
and care emptying,
care giving
and care taking
within mundane
everyday habitual atmosphere
on this living
enculturing Earth

Which lives healthier
as we become more everyday
compassionate care givers
and takers
listening in
and speaking out
for our present
past
and future Earth
and EarthTribes,

Interdependent species
Organic holonic bodies
Extending multicultural families
Humane repopulations
at appropriately grateful scale
for peaceful
nutritional
energetic, yet care-full,
EarthJustice
Sometimes my unlanguaged son
sounds like a constipated chicken
trying to lay a great egg.
Yet he also roars
like an anticipating rooster
toward the light,
raising and praising east
and up and out
and west,
eager for this new caretaking
every Earth day.

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It Feels Unfair

It feels unfair,
the doctor said,
to blame all pathological -isms
on LeftBrain dominating
NorthWestern enculturation;

Too geopolitically ecological,
too globally sweeping,
where my reason looks
for biological neurology,
more inside linguistic powers
more intimate.

But, both neurology and ecology,
both natural biology and spiritual theology,
these four each and all agree,
whether secular or sacred paradigm
for discernment,

Monocultural ecosystems
divest of originally healthier
polyculturally robust wealth,
resilience,
multicultural resonance,
harmonic compassion.

So it is with LeftBrain dominant egos,
monotheistic dominated ego,
securely enslaved servants
divest of originally healthier
multicultural
robustly cooperative,
and compassionately felt,
true polypathic wealth,

Trusting
liberal cultural-istic phobias
conjoin with
conservative historical-isms
to regenerate more democratically robust
global ruminations,
discernments,
political power and light dialogue,
cooperative investment.

Yes,
well,… the doctor responded,
racism
and colonialism,
and capitalism,
and sexism,
and anthropocentrism,
and egotism,
and ageism,
and even omnipotent monopolistic monotheism
feel unfair as well.

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Daddy Dreams

Strange dreams last night
include gathering enthusiastic consumers
to shepherd and possibly own
cheaply decaying properties,
ghettoes of hopelessness,
ungodliness.

And, later,
an all male bacchanal
of real estate agents,
toned agencies for commercial acquisition,
surrounded by witnessing properties
of no sensory interest
to any realtime guy,
straight or gay
or in-between.

Gathered to teach their purchasers’ desire
and demise
while getting naked
in a boorishly unsexy way,
while dispassionately watching
in time’s eternal mirror.

They
and our witnessing
and witnessed properties
nakedly longing for resilient sensuality
and settling for this brief
spasmodic climax
of Time’s young adult male supremacy
over realtime commodified markets

Iconic of mass mediated
male mattered
sexuality,

Visual
and, at best,
marginally sensual

Inviting touch without true feeling,
sight without warm hearing,
natural taste without spiritual fragrance,
being without belonging,
mass without energy
yang without yin
space without sufficient time
to dream,
remember
regenerate
resonate
resolve
dissolve,

Breathe in
as out
invites Earth’s new dawn

PostViral 2020

If I were to shamelessly indulge what should remain hidden in 0/0 mystery, and boldly attempt to interpret this dream, which, of course, I would never publicly admit, I would timidly guess these dreams could be about defining patriarchalism as a world view in which sensuality could not remain connected  and valued as an ecologically and theologically relevant form of intelligence, perhaps even ecofeminist wisdom of profound ego/eco-therapeutic merit.
strange dreams last…

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Stretching Health Care

My oldest friend,
and older, too,
has a daily yoga practice
of self-care,
which I would healthier emulate.

But, when I mentioned this
as rich in comparison
with my own brief leg stretches
while tube-feeding my son,
and occasional too brief dancing
and jumping
with my cerebral palsied daughter,

He responds
to my neglect of self care
with self-deprecating acclaim
for my daily investment
in young adult bodies
inhabiting wounded child concerns.

I recognize this response
in literature of sacred messiahs
and family health care martyrs
and extended family matriarchs
and secular ecofeminist mentors
of selflessness,
ego annihilation,
empty nesters,
nonself-investors.

While all such roleplays,
diurnal through eternal,
are counter-cultural,
with redemptive value
and stretching of compassion,

I question their/our capacity for resilience
as even the most cooperative
win/win co-invested economist
would question total eco-investment
through absolute ego-divestment,
outgoing care for health
while bleeding out all internal wealth
of energy
power
light.

Yoga stretches internal minds
to resonantly balance
external bodies
fully re-creating
co-acclimating
resonant resilience.

This stretching,
toning
touching
feeling
balancing
centering
communicating
cooperative empowering
compassionate enlightening
I could do with my son
and my daughter
daily,
and perhaps timelessly,
with sufficient commitment
and imagination,
creativity
and regenerative health
intent to optimize
our shared systemic wealth

Stretching from where we are
toward when we will become
together in shared passion.

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Thoughtless Thoroughfares

The main currents of thought
are feelings about relationships,
positive
and negative climates,
sometimes obscured
confused
by double-binding negatives
incuriously set aside
as merely bad news
and systemic evils

Like racism
applied to oneself
as victim of prejudice
is not reverse racism,
not multicultural intelligence,
for egos steeped
shaped
secured by StraightWhiteMale
supremely valued labeling,

Like sexism
applied to oneself as victim
is not reverse sexism,
is not vulnerability,
for patriarchally wounded souls,

Like fascism
applied to victimized losers
and lepers
and thugs
is not reverse fascism,
does not further healthy democracy,
for aristocratically wounded kleptocrats.

The main stereotypes of thought
are feelings:
About positive healthy relationship,
wealthy attachments,
compassion
empowering left and enlightening right,
liberal resonance
conserving inclusive resilience;
And about negative lack thereof.

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Creative Teachers

Compassionate Students

Left hemisphere’s cognitive nature of mind
emulates Right hemisphere’s inductive spirit
of creation
and destruction,
regeneration
and degeneration,
and all doubly-resonant tipping points
balancing analogous metaphors in-between.

For these disciples,
polypathic travelers,
perpetual emigrants into spirit
and immigrants from secularized
mundane
under-valued nature,
students of ecosystemic resilience,
Earth’s yang nature is Master
and yin spirit is Mistress
with unflagging strength of an oak
and complex flowing grace
of a willow,

Both rooted
and further rooting
from original NonZero Sum seeds
of integrity’s sacred potential
down,

And reaching
leafing
flowering
compassion climaxing
from ZeroSum DNA origins
up

Through heart and mind
and on down
round again to
and from
many regenerations of feet
for reproducing healthy DNA roots
of sacred Earth’s rememory.

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Family Memory Daze

My family
remembered now
and in our projected
integral future,
in this eco-political body
of spirited
natural Earth,

Birthing
and dying,
regenerating
and degenerating,
easing
and diseasing,
healthy
and pathological,
good humored
and bad hearted,

Unconsciously contemplating,
co-template-recreating
cooperative memorable days
and deep matriotic nights.

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Earth’s Potential

There is only integrity
of time’s potential,
regenerative
more life enlightening
than degenerative,
death darkening,
disintegration
entropic,
absence of integrity.

There is only health
of Earth’s potential,
regenerative wealth
more empowering
than impoverishing, punishing
diseased,
uneased,
absence of ease,
nonviolent spirited peace
restoring spiraling natured justice.

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Integrity’s Keys

“The key to finding a happy balance
in modern lives
is simplicity.”
Sogyal Rinpoche, Tibetan Book of Living and Dying

A health wealthy key
to finding empowering balance
is synergetic simplicity.

Cooperation is simple
where competition is more complex.

Synergy restores peace;
dissociative energy punishes past injustices.

Complex synergetic patterns are beautiful;
chaotic entropic enervation is darkly dissonant.

Synergetic simplicity invites integrity;
capitalistic competitions consume
and produce self v other unraveling.

Integrity empowers further courageous curiosity;
dissonance disturbs past aggressive discouragement.

A wealthy health power
exploring integrity
embraces compassionate simplicity.

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Growing Up Divided

Growing up in twentieth century USA,
without a recent immigrant history,
nor a Native American indigenous heritage,
just another in-between victim
of Straight WesternWhite Male privilege,

I recall a smirky fuss
about Eastern mind/body connection,
pseudo-science,
nondual
nonviolent
inscrutable
paradoxical
unrealistic philosophy,
meditation as if medication.

It did not occur to me,
in my enthusiastically extractive
and exhausting youth,
that in the East,
Buddhist and Taoist teachers
might have indulged
in a smirky fuss

About Western mind v body disconnection,
secular science severed from sacred arts,
dualistic divine spirit v corrupt nature theology,
just war theories
rooted in retributive justice theory
instead of restorative peace experience;
body medication
without mind meditation.

In my more enthusiastically inclusive
and creative-tensioned age,
it occurs to bicameral mindbody me,
that Eastern ecosystemic connection
is also Western ego-recentering compassion,
experienced by Left-dominant hemispheres
as felt by Right-prominent
mind/body biospheres,

Searching for why binomial structures
religiously emerge from organic co-relational nomials,
dynamic spirit/natured variables,
inside/outside co-determinate sociables,
analogy,
theological ecology.

Polynomials,
western polypathic autonomous variables
and eastern polyphonic relationships,
Earth double-binding polyvagal dancing bodies
wrapped around,
and developing through,
revolving polymorphic minds
equally not not polynomially independent,
free,
liberated,
communal saints
and divided sinners.

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