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Fear of Success

Fear of personal
and disconnecting
ego-success
feels reasonable to me

Too much adulating feedback
from old friends vaguely envious
that I would place myself above
and before them
sacrifices integrity
more resonant with us,
immersed in ecosystemic success,
embodied health,
resilient Earth-rooted wealth.

Children
especially straight white physically-privileged adolescents,
have grown self-empowerment rights
to autonomous personal lifestyle differences,
risks of failure,
opportunities toward narcissism,
as contested by parents
who often have our own anthropocentric issues
about humane success and failure.

Democratically grateful adults
have grown rights to self-determination
responsibility of personal con-science
consciousness authority
over-against God/Gaia,

Completing the circle
of young developing secular ego-systems
competing
rather than cooperatively owning and managing
appreciating immersion within
sacred ecosystemic Earth.

Perhaps LeftBrain’s WinLose risk
is also RightBrain’s WinWin opportunity
to aspire toward resilient God/Gaianess,
as bicamerally GoldenRuled together
ego/eco-systemic nest.

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She Thinks About Fame

She thinks about fear
with quick step of right foot

And thinks about why
as she swings with strong left

Why she can’t think
of a name
When he’s deep in his greed
for more fame.

Should it not be the case
famous greed has a face?
This greed for His fame
should have Her blazed name
for His infamous Self

Hidden
yet naked
green greed of Her ego-less
to be known
and renowned,
pre-nouned
and revered.

She thinks about envy
to be set apart
with slower right steps
toward most famous of all
on His left.

She worries Her right
to collectively fight
to forget her DearLord’s clearly wrong
infamous death,
A long-term event
in autonomous greed
known only in crossing
His terrorizing Left

He longs for omnipotence
She knows as lack
of changing endurance.

He belongs omnipresently right
She feels nowhere left
to polypathically go.

He wants righteous omniscience
She fears nothing left to learn

Where greed envy colonies
greet Her past sullen deeds
and furious inflamations
wrestling with fear
stepped out and in right
of fame’s polyphonic refining destinations
steeped left

Marching and arching
preening while gleaning
knitting while needing
sleeping while slurping
faming while lurking
blaming in shaming
disgusting and lusting
crusting while rusting
lacking more lucking

Infamous need
to find absence of greed
in original silent green
win/win ultra-nonviolet
Her passioning seeds
His humbling tombed greeds.

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Einstein Speaks

Old Albert was frustrated.

He knew his famous ego-identity came from this solar eco-system
with four interdependent dimensional voices.

He felt his own original moment began with ZeroSum nutritional balance
between eco-centered womb
and emerging ego-centered identity,

And, he felt he would soon return
to some mysterious Zero DeadZone identity
as an interdependent eco-relative inter/outer-relationship
formerly languaged
and autonomously identified organic system,

But, Albert couldn’t quite articulate
his lifetime longed for universal theory
of early interdependent metric
geometric
ecometric ego/eco-bilateral co-relativity function.

Old Albert knew he was losing his cherished mind
to dementia,
and he knew from a lifetime of deep meditation,
if he thought out loud in words
he might better remember
what he called “Thought Experiment” medications
for his universally commodified cognitive LeftBrain
and his affective effluent unitarian-flowing RightBrain

Imaging 3D spatial revolving change
in 4D temporal-fractal whole-system revolutions
of wave-linear eco-systemic childhood memories,
like co-relational DNA
bilateral internal strings
of historic trans-regenerative images
in 4D interweaving undulations of nurturing rhythm.

So, Albert mumbled to himself
in universal-stage whispers
others might hear
but not comprehend,

Not because Albert hoped to obfuscate communication just yet,
but to help his ego LeftBrain language
develop and retain what he still felt could be new re-memories
as his burning metric vocation
to resolve Earth’s interdependently fertile history
at least within his own RightBrain’s feeling
of synergetic accomplishment,

Old Albert still looked for bicameral resolution
of troubling absent complete integrity
of math and science
symmetric arts of interdependent theory
through healthy WinWin
and not pathological LoseLose language

Ancient voices of metric natured ecosystems
and isometric spiritual ego-meditations
inspired by infant memories
of some distantly not-not polynomial 4D Paradise,

Some warm wet womb
composed of dual dark fecundity
from which he had ego/eco
patriarchal/matriarchal robustly emerged

Until now
in Albert’s last organically autonomous days,
reduced to speaking his internal meditations
out loud
on his smaller ego-centered fragmentary stage voice
hoping to remember
what both his Left and Right communicating networks
used to universally and interdependently hope to become
togethering

ZeroZone potential integrity
paid forward cooperatively EarthCentric,
nutritional ego-economic synergy
and eco-empowering meditating/medicating
not ZeroSum universally interdependent
WinWin ego/eco-consciousness.

Go ahead,
Albert mumbled,
Left to silent Right dominantly-prominently interdependent,
start with classic discernment,
“If I were to die tomorrow,
what would I hope to have universally accomplished
during my unitarian ego/eco-relational life?
Whether as a professional Integral Universal 4D Designer,
or a more Regenerative EarthJustice Green Advocate,
or more of an everyday avocation,
a DiPolar CoArising Multicultural Landscaper.”

Later,
we actively hope,
after he had entirely run through his LeftBrain languaged punch list
of imaged RightBrain eco-relational ideas,
Albert may have moved on to,
“If I were to die tomorrow,
if everyone I know and love were to die with me,
voiceless tomorrow,
what would we mumbling hope to have accomplished
more articulately together
during our ego/eco-cooperatively compassionate 4D lives?”

Whether as resilient WinWin integral health-passioned landscapes,
biotic natural/spiritual ego/ecosystems,
or mere ego-fragmented
LoseLose nihilistic
economically disempowered disease disasters
having finally arrived at our LeftBrain deductively logical
tragically autonomous
self-unfulfilling ZeroSum prophecy.

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Bad GoodNews

I find at least one difference
between owning water and energy outright
and co-owning water and energy delivery systems,
transport infrastructures.

The latter is cooperatively optimal.
The former is resiliently impossible,
unsustainable hubris.

I also find it not necessarily true
that colonization can never end–
For individuals,
families,
schools,
prisons,
faith communities,
municipal communities,
corporations,
economic and political communities,
gardens and farms,
nation-states.

Colonization may end in cannibalism,
too Yangish monocultural,
fascism,
too Yangish totalitarian,
and it may Yin begin again WinWin
in new PositivEnergy regeneration
with NotNot sacred degeneration

BiLaterally CoArising
through ZeroZone creolization,
mutual subsidiarity,
organic guilds of integrity.

Colonization is about predative/prey relationships
in which any one participant
can pretend to only be
an autonomously winning
responsible and authoritative
water and energy owning and privileged
Predator

Yet,
creolization, not pre-revolutionary colonization,
all Energy,
watered or not,
co-arises both
reborn baptism regenerations Past
and transubstantiating
co-enlightening roles Future.

In my own limited experience
we build a healthy interdependent marriage
of Yang SolarEnergy
with Yin EarthWater
as partners,
my colonized water and energetic properties,
outside-eco and inside-ego
We and I.

Where house with land
become my extended home
ZeroZone for co-creolizing enrichment
seasonally slow grown
over time’s speeding experience
of home as family water and energy extensions.

I manage our spirit water minds
and we re-emerge our
cooperative creator mind energy-map
recreating
reweaving
our reforesting rooted historic cultures,
deep learning subclimates,
ecology of LeftNature’s
organic health EcoBody
merging
sacred theology
of RightSpirit’s WiseElder
ego-strategic wealth–
abundantly CoPresent
EgoEco Marriage.

My Ego’s awe
with EarthHabitat’s sacred greening synergetic wonder,
Ego/EcoTranscendent Revolution
ongoing
speeding HereNow Time

Right here now
on my front porch perch
watching my LeftWing organic garden grow
into out of Yin-sequestered diminished closet
to invite you
through PositivEnergy and health-watered me

To cooperatively own
our
EarthTribe healthing property,
our healthing vibrant
watered ergodic property rights
with left co-responsibilities
to undernourished green ecofeminists
of all species

Choking
thirsting
in past and present and future climate pathologies
of badfaith believing
we might compete successfully
to autonomously own
Earth’s immortal water and/or PositivEnergy
without negative entropic outcomes
like drought
and global frightening lightening bolts,
fields of predative
Negative
Energy
and other badnews Climate Pathologies
of RightWing, without Left, totalitarian intent

An impossible
unnatural
anti-spiritual way
to fly away
well-watered
PositivEnergy
ego/eco logical education.

I find at least one similarity
between communicating inside yin-water and outside yang-energy
and cooperatively owning water and energy delivery systems,
transport infrastructures.

The latter is ecopolitically optimal for EarthTribe.
The former is resiliently possible,
sustainable ego/eco cooperative integrity.

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Death Within Life

I have learned about external death,
absence of life,
found beyond this body’s borders of place and time,
outside Ego’s hunting season of here and now.
But, news to me,
whether good or bad I still can’t quite say
or think,
death lurking within,
stalking,
tempting,
discouraging,
dissonating,
decomposing,
deducing,
enthymematically implicating,
adventurously waiting for freestyle swimming
in polycultured octave lights and sound
of gravitating rainspiral frequencies,
soaring flight of dark-fearless insight.

We each evolve holons of SuperEco’s Universe,
RNA Identity,
interdependent
yet fully complete
within each eternal moment
of Prime Relationship
between space and time,
Yang and Yin,
Uracil and Cytosine,
Ego and darkly fertile Earth resonant Eco-Comprehension
Polyculturing Compost,
exegetical Commons of
mind and heart,
nature and spirit,
divine and human coincidental present,
Presence,
interdependent gift of karmic grace,
wu wei peace greeting
meeting just-sufficient
sublimely intimate exquisite forms
of Here and Now.

Internal death implies our more comprehensive integrity
of timelessly cooperative potential,
free of fear of siloed failure,
silent screaming dissonance,
diseased autonomy of heart
and eisegetic isolated mind.
Love as synergy of life and death,
confluence and dissonance;
lack of full metasystemic morphosis,
incomplete transductive love,
creates fantasies,
illusion and mythos,
language and liturgy,
mindful heartfelt freedom
limned and boundaried,
defined by incarnating power flow and function
in this time and place,
both dissonantly disturbing and warmly resonant narratives
unfolding culture’s nutrients,
hidden within history’s hard-bound evolving covers.

 

 

 

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