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Watering Terror

I’m so confused,
raised to believe cooperative love overpowers competing fears
about scarcity of time,
and other resources,
and anger about past over- and under-valuing of myself
as a regenerative resource,
Presence,
raised to believe the Golden Rule
is most effectively applied to all life,
as cooperative ecologically regenerative potential,
I don’t see how it could be OK
to run a national political campaign
assuming I will confuse the taking of life for nutritional needs
as less humane than the taking of life for punishment and retributive needs,
death-debt owed for death-taken,
if only it were possible to kill
this discultured clan of terrorists
repeatedly
for each and every innocent life taken
with such unholy cynicism as anti-life hopeless degenerates.

I find this violence-begets-violence nowhere else
in any ecosystem,
anything that could possibly be called a sustainable system,
in any form of nature,
other than humane nature as de-natured humanity.

However, now that I think of it,
perhaps we do see something of its kind
in diseased and over-crowded populations,
literally eating their young.

We often call this “rabidity”,
as individuals,
families,
tribes,
swarming in a monocultural snarl,
turn on each other
begin unprovoked cannibalism,
prey on each other,
perhaps as a form of punishment or retribution
for past angers and fears only these terrorist champions of chaos
can see
and feel;
a mounting prescient culture of mutual disregard and antipathy,
immunity,
trending toward Lose-Lose sociopolitical economic and ecological
outcomes.

Still,
is it wise to sanction violence to be perpetrated by others
on our behalf,
at any scale,
for any reason?
How is abuse and neglect of death-producing miscreants
not hypocritical
for a person who believes in the power of cooperative love
as a more effective Golden Rule
than “Beat Others down before they Win more than you”?
Does this intend to include anything but monocultural AnthroCentric overcrowding, more violence,
more dissonance,
trending toward decomposition of all Earth’s systems?

Am I to invest
or disinvest
in a competing human race
or a humanizing regenerate space and time?
Or, is it something MidWay between,
sometimes competing anger and fear might be Teachers,
I suppose,
although still not the best choice-makers.
Perhaps we could leave cooperative balancing
of Tipping Point decomposition
and analysis of therapeutic/toxic trends,
within exclusive charge of CoArising Love as Golden Rule choice-making;
choosing whether or not to disinvest in regenerative health potential values of a life,
or a biosystem,
an ecosystem,
to optimally invest in Earth’s regenerating health and vitality.

Yet, Earth does not necessarily
always and at all times,
water humane flowers
to starve the weeds.
More often, weeds starve flowers of water
as Crusading Christians starved diversity of intelligence
through violent ex-communication.

So, if these interdependently organic
cooperating relationships
between and within individuals,
families of weeds,
tribes of flowers,
nations and planets,
and the ecobalance of co-arising space with time
are what we seem to love,
then why do we suboptimize with Win-Lose economic and political choices
to compete with each other
for livelihood
sense of vocational value,
for power to declare war on each other,
the right to abuse and neglect and ex-communicate each other,
as if Earth’s evolutionary journey
is not historically rooted
in cooperative regenerate enculturation,
as any of life’s surviving cells
could quickly attest,
even under threat of ex-communication.

It is difficult for me to find any faith
or even hope
in the belief that Earth produced this humanizing race
toward degenerating dissonance
and overly-competitive Win to Lose strategies
of Left-brain cultural and language
and political and economic
dominance.

It feels less confusing to me
to comprehend we are ecoconsciously co-loving each other
in a rapidly overpopulating monocultural species
with humane researching and incubating
emergently embryonic cooperative aspirations
to optimize WorldWide Win-Win ecosystemic networks,
to balance Left with Right mindbody co-mentoring intelligence,
harmonizing all our bicameral systemic information,
issuing inductive from Heaven’s TransParent Cloud
and deductive from Earth’s RNA icons
of recreate intelligence,
form with co-arising cooperative function,
noun as verb,
and harmonic-octave frequencies
in 4-square Prime Sequential Relationship,
both co-gravitational temporal with thermodynamic spatial,
Yang OVER yin-squared = c-squared ecoconsciousness
of Universal TransParent (0) Metric Balance.

Perhaps, then, it is less confusing to me
to think about how to invest more wisely
in non-violent empathy of Basic Attendance
to notice and listen with still-centered mindbody,
empathically absorbing claustrophobic fear and anger
saturating toxic terror that my life,
therefore your life,
has no ego-intrinsic value
because LeftEgo is too dissonantly dominant
over Right EcoEarth Regenerational Analogic
CoEmpathic Arising Function,
so my death, therefore your death,
has no Earth-intrinsic regenerative value or disvalue.

From this position
I cannot see Allah as ReGenerator Power and Flow,
Form with NatureFunction,
Love with Synergetic Intent,
TransParent Empathic Elational Present
Concave Place within Convex Culture
through Time’s bilaterally co-gravitational eco-normative lens.

How is any directive to starve and/or neglect and/or kill
not what Christians have known as ex-communication
unto decomposing degeneration?
Dissonance struggling against dissonance,
when we could choose to emerge mutually-resonant regenerators,
re-communicative poly-empathic optimizers,
co-mentoring enriching Earth-regenerate soil
reforesting our rivers for clean water,
repurposing our mutual immunity
as mutual subsidiarity within
Earth,
EcoTribe,
RNA/DNA solidarity.
These three held together into perpetuity,
Earth Tribal ReSolution.

 

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Mad About Schooling

Why do I feel like school visits
are usually a waste of time,
and mental health visits,
too,
or is it visiting in general
that bothers me?

What I will see
and smell
and hear
and touch
is only what you feel safe to show me.

Your best professional face
when you are in charge of your environment
of yourself,
and all is as it would best be
in your safe and healthy presence.

Yet what I need to see
is how this place,
these people,
this teacher or therapist or mentor,
or would-be lover,
responds
to my child’s anger and fear,
to my own anger about how they have
and have not
been treated in our past,
to your own angers about your past,
fears about life’s future
for yourself
for your kids,
for these other caregivers.

How will you respond
the 99th time my daughter shits on herself
then laughs while you wipe her nasty stinky ass,
berated by her own memories
of past such humiliations?
Hope you too might find humor
in your dialectic co-arising therapeutic intent,
your Positive Psychology presence
in this moment of bicameral empathy.

Just how good might it feel
to give a smack on the ass
of all angry-fearfilled,
chronically stressed
and sleep deprived,
too-often critical-event PTSD
co-victims of human life’s unkind
and in-humane culture and history?

How do you think that choice
would not hurt both of you,
all of us,
where you could choose to live fully
in this bicamerally loving moment
of empathic Right-brained eco-consciousness,
synergetic multisystemic practice
with full-loving intent
when and where most needed
and neglected
and abused.

Abuse of professional love,
reminds of angers about life’s inhumane injustice,
depressing fears of death’s too soon
peaceful resonance.

Visiting schools for therapeutic Present life
has little to reveal about where we PastAnger-FutureFear live
24/7.

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A River Flows Through

A river flows through this fold of life,
sometimes too turbulent,
occasionally too still
even for older established streams
with sluggish circulation currency
nearly to our shore of oceanic
sea’s streaming into one surfing surface
tidal stream,
our great river of rivers
flowing and surfing out and up
and back and forth
surging and slugging
stressing and struggling
with our undertow
need to flow
back home again,
to when this river’s story began
to flow through this unfolding life.

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Death by Light

We each step into
then through
an isolating silo threshold
of Zero-static flatline,
EgoDeath counter-defining
EcoLove for timeless life.

EgoDeath
an opening
a return to dominating EcoOther
primal identity becoming cellularly disorganized,
sub-organically interdependent chaos,
whole-system universal body-as-mind
pointless-centric
Zero-RNA-fractal/square-root
of light (c = +P = +Yang = +Eulerian Prime Function)
comprehensively ecoconscious ex-formating telligence.

EgoDeath,
an invitation to faith
in
through
by
of
with TransParency of eco’s dark matter balancing dark energy.

EcoLove,
transparency of co-gravitational Time,
Zero-souled
(0)-summed Win-Win,
universally timeless quintessential uniting placeholder,
yang “dark” matter
shadowing hydrogen
as yinyin’s “dualdark” energy
implicately foreshadows helium’s understory
of Earth’s ancestral permaculturing Tree,
ergodically-ionically harmonic-rooted
fractally-seasonally-dynamically branching Time.

And,
with these decomposing definitions vaguely swirling in place,
EcoLove Yin turns to EgoDeath Yang
to race:
“Seems if you’re not messin’ with me
then you’re bleedin’ me blind,
and usually both…
But, when we play nice,
inside and out,
then we can’t imagine
why anybody would think or feel or even hope
they could sell this ecstasy
of EgoDeath.”

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Rise Up Islamic Sisters

Rise up
my African Sisters
speak your truths
of intimacy and death
internal monopolizations of feeling desperately dark
suffocating
with hatred and fear and anger
about your man,
your brother
about your here and now lack of relationship.

Listen up
Islamic Sisters
to these Sisters of Perpetual Wisdom
of self-and-other emancipation:

Husband,
your intimacy and passions
fill me with emptiness and longing
rather than fertility and belonging.

Husband,
you treat your milk cows
and that lazy ass dog with all her pups
better than you treat me.

Brother,
your fascination with hatred
technologies of deadly anger,
your greed for Lose-Lose attention
and respect
replace your comprehension of dignity
and producing life-giving outcomes
to regenerate attention,
interest,
consciousness of positive values
within our ancient culture, spirit, religion,
passing forward to our children’s hope and faith
balancing life with death,
in cooperative favor and support
for this deep ecological love
of intimacy and respect
and mutual cooperative hospitality,
we call “Allah” together
co-messiahs
linked through time and space
of regenerating hope.

Sisters
speak your international
yet intimate truths
of good and evil
life and death
regeneration of abundantly warm feelings
and decompositional analysis
of where your young men go so astray
of what is Islamic-normative
to be fully human
to become a man
worthy of our Splendid Sisters.

Author’s note:

Perhaps it is just me, and, if so, then I am about to expose my embarrassingly remedial ignorance once again. But, ISIS and all the “Islamic” hatred and anger of which they have become iconic, feels like an overwhelmingly young to middle-aged male dominated late adolescent cultural gasp reacting against the comparative freedom and wisdom of  a cooperative and egalitarian society with emergent strong polycultural values, whether tribal, or nationally, or even religiously, labeled.

If so, then perhaps Islamic women will peacefully engage their own cooperative internal revolution, speaking honestly and bravely and truthfully to their brothers, even their husbands, but probably not their fathers. That could get a girl killed in some unfortunate places where Allah’s sense of inclusive faithfulness and solidarity as sacred Host feels climatically absent in this suffering time.

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Beyond Death’s Honor and Disgrace

Alpha

To live beyond death
we must know life beyond honor and disgrace.

Not “must” in the injunctive sense of “thou shalt”
but a more dusty must of logical integrity.

Midway

Those who know do not speak
beyond communication as active listening.
Those who only speak, without listening, do not know.
Fill up knowing’s silent apertures,
Close logic’s open-systemic doors,
Dull awareness of smooth-structured double-boundaries,
edges,
Untie double-knotted tangles of conscience,
Soften comprehensive consciousness
to radiate co-enculturally bleaching light–
This is co-arising with co-decaying unitarian mysticism.

Then love and hatred cannot change our ecoing egoselves,
Profit and loss cannot overwhelm polycultured Earth Tribe.
Honor and disgrace cannot effect and affect and defect us.
Therefore we eternally co-mentor power-optimizing regeneration.

Omega

How do permacultural farmers respond to bad environmental karma
arcing back across all four seasons
inviting devolution’s sometimes too personal demise
of crops, nutrients, healthy wealth of resources,
seeds of hope?

Why do darkness and death stalk,
shadow us,
cast dusky gloom across culture’s future expectations,
declaring each alient,
too egocentric for life’s eternal repurposing
of economic probabilities,
of rationally co-redeeming praxis?

What can we do,
how can we respond to sub-optimizing stimuli
advancing in our ego hearts,
private minds,
personal body-enculturation,
weeding our language?

Nutritional inflow and outflow streams
intentionally co-optimize economics,
willing systems of hopeful eccentric Win-Lose ecologies,
consumption of mortality dissonant from infinite production,
decomposition without active, yet peacefully contented, designs
for regenerative response,
ignoring co-redemptive resonance of co-arising universal intelligence.

Monocultural intentions and pretensions
seek total exponential supremacy
withour our self/other marginalizin boundary
where and when and why polycultural ecotherapy
seeks zero-summed integrity
of mutual mentoring primal relationships–
between id and supereco,
between yinyin and yang,
between right-inductive and left-deductive hemispheres,
between physical-human Self
and metaphysical-sacred synergizing Self/Other.

Death’s monopolistic economic assumptions,
like monocultural ecological identity,
more fruitfully and forcefully revolutioned
as polycultural challenges
to re-ligion re-sonant balance
harmonic frequencies of non-dual revolutions
reconnect dissonant decay with confluent cay,
disformation with information
where we have already become
polyculturally found outside silos of over-specialized blind alleys,
with what remains of inductive integrity’s co-analogical potential.

To live beyond death
we must know life as eco-logical integrity.
To regenerate as eco-identity
we must decompose, release, redeem ego-id-entity.

Note: The Midway section of this piece is a post-millennial transliteration of Laotse’s “Beyond Honor and Disgrace” which can be found in Lin Yutang’s “The Wisdom of Laotse”, p. 257, Modern Library, 1948.

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Bucky’s Wealth of Information

Universal information,
like forms of multisystemic diversity,
is composed of fractal syntax,
primally illustrated by noticing RNA,
then DNA,
binomially re-cognizing bilateral temporal memory
as formative id-entity.

Polynomial is to in-form-ionization
as polycultural outcomes are to universal
organic
life-systemic
syntax.

Not-Not Poynomial unitarianism
is both entropic and synergetic-fractal Time bilateral.

Not-Polynomial is neutronic-entropic.

While Double-Negative-Binding Polynomial ex-form-bionization
re-connects double-transparently gravitational ergodic
with ionic/bionic balancing primal syntropic relationship.

Neutronic bipolar information exerts, exforms, exhumes, exhales
a bicameral balancing influence
within our neural systems,
seeking Left-Right dual-transparent-equivalent confluence,
deductive with inductive,
masculine with feminist.

In absence of this abundant neutral Win-Win
neural system normativity,
Ego-Left deductive
remains in diverse stages
of critical-event cognitive/affective/uneffective dissonance,
which can lead to autistic chronic dissonant patterns
of harmonic chaos
between Left’s deductive sensory receptors
and Right’s inductive Elder-RNA Zero-Commons Centric
fractal syntaxed memory storage
and eco-identity patterns,
seasonal as reasonal rhythms
of permacultural optimization regenesis
and co-operative development of Whole Earth organics.

Why do we fear,
self-immunizing subsistence,
mutual resistance?

Why do we love
eco-centric co-arising surrender,
mending,
tending spacetime’s brilliantly fractal-syntactic
synaptic burning bushes of divine humane genius,
natural-spiritual pilot lights,
unveiling polypathic intuition of abundant consciousness?

This HereNow Transmillennial ReGeneration
Be-Longing Co-Redeemers as Co-Operative Global Commune,
with economic Zero-Sum Commons values,
engage positive Zero-Centric ecopsychological practice,
humor’s common sense of permacultural
self-perpetuating redesign
of double-knotting naughty negatives
to produce reproductive positives,
reconnecting what could not not become,
both more and less than already is co-relational.

Co-Revolutionary Boddhisatva Mentors:
breathe in with out
our polynomially double-binding universal fractals
of EcoLogic,
tri-metric seasonal spacetimes of logical redevelopment
unfolding outstretched universal uniting breathe
of time with eco-depth,
re-creation through double-negation
of Winter’s bilateral-temporal discontenting
decomposition,
reverse facing regenerative eco-open analogical systems.

What did we think could not be co-incidental
co-arising/co-gravitating
about rhythms of dissonance
and epicentering patterns
of ecology’s Zero-Balancing
as P=NNP
as Yang=YinYin,
Win-Win co-operative economics?

Nondual co-arising revolution,
building ecological and economic cooperative networks
for positive ecopsychological
polycultural investment,
to cool our post-climatic brow
trending toward flat-line deadly endo/ectosymbiotic trends
of devolving
decomposing competition
between AllEarth’s Health
and HumanNatured Wealth.

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Dr. A Wattson’s EC(O)-Arising Response

Double-binding Win-Win
nondual manifest destiny of health
as wealth of eco-consciousness,
like double-transparency of ecologic’s Yang,
with eco-normic YinYin-square-rooted
c-squared = e-squared = Language-squared,
Positive OVER AND WITH double-negative
subjective/objective Time’s decomposing binomials.

“Instead of giving our children
clear and explicit explanations
of the game-rules of the community,
we befuddle them hopelessly
because we–as adults–were once
so befuddled, and,
remaining so,
do not understand the [Win-Lose] game
we are playing.”
(Alan Watts)

“It is an attitude of [win-lose] scarcity,
not of [win-win] abundance,
that has led to the depletion of our natural commons.
Competition and the accumulation of more than one needs
are the natural response
to a perceived scarcity of resources.
The obscene overcomsumption and waste
of our society
arise from our poverty:
the deficit of being that afflicts
the discrete and separate self,
the scarcity of money
in an interest-based system,
the poverty of relationship
that comes from the severance
of our ties to community
and to nature,
the relentless pressure to do anything,
anything at all,
to make a living.”
(Charles Eisenstein)

A double-bind game
is a game with self-contradictory
win-win rules,
a game destined toward perpetual self transcen-dance–
like trying to invent
a perpetual-motion machine
in terms of Fullerian Synergetics.

The social double-bind game
can be phrased in several ways:

The first rule of this game
is it is not not a game.

Everyone must not not play.

You must not not love us.

You must go on not not polyculturally self-optimizing.

Be yourself, but play a deductively consistent
and inductively acceptable role.

Mentor your eco-self and be not unnatural.

Do not try to be not sincere.

Essentially, this game is a demand
for spontaneous behavior of certain “must”s.
Living,
loving,
being natural or sincere–
all these require a degree of balancing spontaneous forms
of co-operation, behavior:
they happen “of themselves”
automatically,
like digesting food or growing hair.
As soon as they are not forced
they acquire that natural,
uncontrived,
and “truth” atmosphere
which everyone explores–
strong and healthy
like flowers
and nutritious
like mature vine ripened wine
of wisdom.

Life and love generate effort,
but effort will not generate them.

Faith–
in life,
in other people,
in Earth’s abundance,
as in oneself–
is the attitude of allowing the spontaneous
to be spontaneous,
in its own way
and in its own time.

Faith is always a gamble
because life itself is a win-win gambling game
with what must appear,
in the losing aspect of our game,
to be colossal stakes.
But to take the gamble
out of the game,
to try to make winning a sustained certainty,
is to achieve a certainty
which is indeed co-arising/decomposing life.

From this bicameral win-win double-binding view
of Project ReGenesis
as balanced harmonic-optimizing organic econsciousness,
imperative for death-through-life memory maintenance,
healthy sustenance
and identity fulfillment,
rather than lose-lose playing out
across an oppositional spectrum,
with appositional polarities of confluence
struggling with cognitive-deductive dissonance,
generically analogical,
both ecologically and economically,
more primally than secondary spaciated Language,
enculturing an oppositional spectrum
as Good v. eviL
mirroring ReGenetic Tree RightSideDown Root Systems
of Health/Wealth Live reversing Die.

Notes:

Eisenstein quote is from p. 247, “Sacred Economics”, 2011, Evolver Editions.

The large majority of this piece reverses Alan Watts’ description of double-bind enculturation. The quote is from p. 73, “The Book On the Taboo Against Knowing Who You Are,” 1966, Vintage Books–1989 edition. The double-bind game rules and description are largely direct quotes (pp. 73-4) but in “reverse voice.” That is, I have reversed Watts’ description of Win-Lose ecological and cosmological assumptions, into Win-Win permacultural optimization principles, basically changing Watts’ positives into double-negatives, to reconvey his negative dissonance descriptors as a more neutrally Left-Right balancing experience of healthy systemic potential for confluence within dissonance. The end result seems to be appositionally confluent with Watts’ socioeconomic and cultural concern, while simultaneously unveiling the win-win potential hidden within lose-lose economic and cultural praxis, as so grimly outlined by Eisenstein (which is basically a solution-focused exposition, not to be missed by those looking for positive macroeconomic alternatives to Business As Usual)..

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Beyond Death and Dissonance

Full loving lasting life
lies beyond death,
claims Laotse,
a move beyond Left-brained domination
of ego-languaged self-identity,
choosing, branching, emerging
cosmic co-arising/co-conflating eco-dentity;

A double-bound timeless invitation
into mutual subsidiarity
of Plan A-Eco/PlanB-Ego harmonic,
synergetic balance.

In this space of comprehensive bicameral consciousness
we embrace appositional rhythm and dance
of eco-ego’s co-arising
and co-exhaling transitions
and trends
with equanimity of compassion,
identifying primarily and primally
with our Commons,
this co-gravitational Ground of Becoming with Being;

Becoming humane as reverse-mirrored phase
of being inclusively,
polyculturally,
cosmically,
comprehensively
co-divinely interdependent,
healthy prime relationship of exceptionless
timeless abundance,
even through death’s transition window.

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Haunting Endless Waves

What co-arises together
must co-exhale to part.

Last night my HIV+ hunted down my negative,
my darkside,
death and fear,
my anger about my mortality,
my greater anger about our mortality as a species,
my greatest anger about our mortality as Earth’s DNA/RNA Tribes of Life,
that we all are so wrong and pointless
given limitations of our time’s memory
riding,
hiding,
hunting inside our skin
for how to not let this incarnate hunt ever end.

Yet, with dawn’s light,
solely this haunting by endless nothingness,
as if we had never become, so never been,
this fear of death and anger against its organic final demand,
we hope to end
with seamless faith in eternally timeless ego-identity.

Where did this ego emerge from?
Endless nothingness?
Or, a paradise womb of cooperative eco-normics,
eco-logically self-optimizing nutritional health,
perfect temperature care,
nurturing co-abundance
between this seed of ego and this Mother Earth Elder EcoSystem,
sufficient well-being wealth
which, as decomposed,
became exegetical syntax,
elements with dynamic flows and functions
progenerated by co-arising gravity of time’s folding
and refolding revolutions,
the stardust structure of Father Time’s seasonal
reasonal
primally relational language.

How do we ecologically reason and induce,
expand and contract,
regenerate and decompose,
produce and consume,
this emergent hypothesis about ego’s deadly nondual co-arising,
inevitability?
Just how frightening and maddening is this,
to embrace
absorb
devour
soak up
co-prehend
co-science
co-arise to co-decompose
integrative/disintegrative folds
of cosmologically progenitive
dual-destiny transparent
Eco-Time’s co-arising/co-densing identity?

Those who surf our co-arising together

learn to co-exhale dismount
to co-arise the waves of future’s time
now always co-densively logic-present.

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