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Seeking Sanctuary

Diaspora Dwellings

On my way into our sanctuary
this past Sunday morning
a woman I had met in choir
was strangely inclined
to share her family history.

Her dad came over from Ireland
because he wanted better opportunities
for his healthy future.

Here he meets his wife
and they have kids
who also have kids
now living the post-millennial nightmare
of what the TrumpCard worshiping U.S.
has most degeneratively isolationist become.

I mentioned that I had never been.
My made-in-Ireland newsboy hat
had only hung in U.S. pubs,
mostly not so green as we might wish,
and had only covered my North American dreams
of a more robust wealth
of future health
for myself
and my African American husband
and our four adopted brown-skin wounded kids
with mental and physical,
mind and body,
spirit and soul uncompetitive challenges.

Challenges now further threatened by bleak climate choices
to pursue RightWing Business As Assault
Competitions to extract Earth’s ecofeminist original values
faster
and faster
and harder thrusting against naked wombs,
angry and filled with fear
we cannot hoard enough power
against the Great Winter
of our own LeftBrain dominant
paranoid prophecy.

And increasingly schizophrenic,
don’t you sometimes inside-outside Voices think?
My new fellow diaspora migrant added,
cooperatively curious,
and not at all competitively overpowering.

Before cars
and planes
and trains,
Before carriages
and carts
and wheels
Irish moms and dads would never have imagined
their homes
as other than our future home,
as other than great-great grandkids home
as it was on into a distant WiseElder
health-rooting past projecting future health.

Diaspora dreams
would have been just for tribal survival reasons,
I suppose.
Which sounds eerily like how I feel
about my kids WiseElder future prospects
challenged by angry supremacist voices,
classically un-evangelical,
philosophically dividing sinful ego-natures
from virtuous eco-spirits…

Yet these are what God originally created together…
Well, I get sidetracked
when I gaze into this awesome abyss
of LeftBrain’s curious diaspora nature
returning to RightBrain spiritual sanctuary
of what paradise Earth could become
after Her diaspora integrity returns.

Where our children can EarthTribe thrive again
by cooperative work and play with our conservative challenges
mental and physical
theological and ecological
spiritual and natural
secular and sacred
liberal healthy while conserving wealth
of deep learning democracy
for challenged diaspora solidarity.

I think about leaving the U.S.
especially in the last couple weeks,
and the last couple years,
now that I think of empty hearts and diamonds adulation
while never once mentioning darker promises
of clubs
and non-elite spades for burying our drowned
and burned
and shot.

This feels less and less like a healthy
safe
cooperative democracy for my wounded diaspora kids
to learn how to play WinWin games
rather than WinLose patriarchal lies
against the cultural wealth potential of equality
for matriarchal
WiseElder
ecofeminist
healthy RightBrain curious climates…

Inclusive of wounded,
voiceless,
brown-skinned children.

Precisely.
Me Too,
my Irish diaspora friend
sadly added,
thinking about her own adult children
increasingly uncomfortable about their distance
dissonance
and lack of hope in co-investment,
fading faith in loyalty to EarthTribe’s diaspora
cooperatively engaging our co-migrating selves.

But my own dad’s
and mom’s journey
began in the MidWest,
and their mom and dads came from Europe,
and their moms and dads
came from migrant EarthTribes
before carriages
and carts
and diaspora enabling wheels.

Where could we go
that could guarantee safe and healthy water,
regenerate soil,
fresh and liberally democratic conserving sanctuary,
bicamerally resonant consciousness,
robust ecological with theological WinWin culture,
cooperative egalitarian intent and design,
restorative justice,
peace for planet,
plants,
and people?

I assume that’s a rhetorical diaspora question.

She invited me to a potluck dinner
in her non-Irish home.

I continued my journey
into our migrant gathering sanctuary,
wondering about souls and wonder and imagination
before curious carriages
and courageous carts
and even simple wheels,
when horses and trees were our whispering neighbors
and prophets predicting healthy grass and water
satisfying next seven regenerations
of challenged children
hoping for their healthy chances
to become tomorrow’s WiseElder sanctuaries.

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ProLife Chemistry

Our ways toward life and death
pass on visually nutritious and toxic
re-imagined experience

Perhaps serotonin fueling transmissions
switched on and off
through living and dying stories
spin in and out of perennial cultures again reborn
through oral memories of life spoken courageously
and death whispered darkly curious.

Could Paradise serotonin memories
speak through multi-regenerational cultural orthodoxy?

Paradise song and dance
Left and Right
cooperative-growing health and wealth DNA memories
of operatic epic transitions back
toward health-wealth stories,
revolutionary resilient reveries
of new Paradise resolutions,

Paradise opportunities for uncovering sacred grace
within this secularizing as commodifying place,
4Dimensioned RealTime Earth win/win SpaceTime
HereNow ZeroDimension
Fractal integrity’s potential
enthymematic Prime (0)
not-not = WinWin CoRelational
CoArising nonduality
HumaneLeft/DivineRight
multiculturally revolutionary ZeroZone
Original Health/Wealth Intent.

In WinWin designed co-creation
we are each active inviters
into and out of our shared ZeroZone health care
co-responsible givers and receivers,
producers and consumers,
teachers and learners,
speakers and listeners,
for climate brokenness within and without

Cultural fracture divisions,
orthodox elites and eisegetical not-elites growing
in this Win/Lose imagined as nutritionally dominant
anti-ecological co-operative nurturing
anti-Win/Win theological natural/spiritual world.

We are this post-millennial inside/outside revolution generation
tracing theological serotonin steps back
and forth
for patiently healing one another,
ego- and ecotherapeutically reclaiming
our bodhisattva co-messianic storied place
within natural/spiritual EarthTribe’s co-creation.

Our ways toward serotonin life and death
pass on visually nutritious and toxic
re-imagined PositivEnergy Democracy experience.

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Listeners With Power

Messengers
are seldom the most powerful voices
in Earth’s wombed room.

Listeners,
whether intrapersonal individuals
or interpersonal incorporated persons
and both,
listening to the most diverse voices
usually become cooperatively empowered
advocates for Earth’s open rooms
birthing eco/theo-logical Grace
from within God’s re-creating history
as above Gaia’s Paradise
cooperatively heard muses,
colors of vibrant heart music.

Ego sung and Eco-danced
with messengers
solar
and lunar
and in-between
co-arising transubstantiations
gathering revolutionary therapeutic powers
for health of multiculturing happiness

Buzzing messengers,
joy-filled sin-clear angels,
silent but lively superpowers
becoming cooperatively re-invested
in polypathic listening,
then polyphonic speaking,
then polycultural re-listening again
then polynomially re-iterating yet again
then multiculturally listening
to eco-messengers
actively healing ego-listeners
cooperating yet again.

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Theory of Health Story Development

They say society’s heart
is changed by story
and not by theory.

But what is history
if not also a theory about evidence
for healthy and pathological stories?
Experiences,
narratives,
parables,
analogies,
ecologies,
theologies
with active Yang EgoSubjects
and yin Eco Understories
favoring healthy WinWin ego/ecological theory

Entering the last half of 2018,
nearly perfect 2020 climate stress vision
reverse revolves toward PositivEnergy democratic stories
and notnot competing NegativeEntropic
wiki demonic devolutionary chaos
and nihilistic
badfaith theory.

ZeroZone
ZeroPrime core co-axial phase
revolutionary reversing organic frequencies
toward past Open Whole System
climate consciousness
advocating GroupTheory bilateral balance
of symmetrically special HereNow
SpaceTime 4DynamicDimensional Case
Universal Set Theory

ZeroZone Games, maybe even historical sainted stories,
with long-standing WinLose Patriarchal/Matriarchal Health Issues
despite WinWin polycultural outcomes
of therapeutic integrity theories,
bicameral +/- LeftYang grateful with +/+ RightYin
spinning through bilateral precessive/recessive
ZeroPhase

Whether squared
and when fractal
bilateral
dipolar
holonic twoness
rebirths new appositional secular outside
nature daily and seasonal organic functions
with sacred inside ecological spirit of light
and NewMoon dark
Yang SummerHeavens
smiling down
on Yin-EarthTribe
matriarchal/patriarchal
her/his-storied twonesses

As Nature/Spirit co-conspirators,
Body/Minds
interdependently appositional
nondual
co-axially co-invested
regenerate/degenerate spinnage
of theoretical ecology stories
about nutritional journeys
toward healthy wealth
and pathological thirst for beloved ego-belonging.

Light within dualdark yin stuck
in stagnant claustrophobic timeless limbo,
grief for anthrocentric past shared sins
against the least among us

Double negative reiterating anti-forward flow
amounting to reverse matriarchal herstoric pathological tensions–
absence of confluent fertility
love
grace.

EarthTribe DNA theoretical dreams
pulsing two-ness,
producing Ego ZeroZone 4D spacetime
Health-phase primal fourfold
prime bilateral holonic
root relational creation story

Warning
and inviting HereNow
to win symmetric beauty
inter-related EightStep
4/4
Yin/Yang polypathic eight-folded
integral EarthUniversal Story
of untold health-synergetic
integral choices
wealth optimizing environments

BiLateral light co-investing sciences
of healthy ZeroZone EgoTruth balancing
co-messianic redemption narratives

PastHere inviting and conducting FutureNow
WinWin long-term
minus LoseLose short-term
unfolding EarthTribe’s Golden yang with yin
co-arising rules
for telling wholesome ZeroZone becoming stories

Special CoArising Integrity 2020 Revolutions
present case studies
for healing Universal WinLose issues
while co-inviting WinWin resolutions
Left Here Ego with Right Now EcoPolitics

Of natural/spiritual TippingPoints
co-arising
SpiritualRight with SecularLeft
nondual in-between parables
co-axial Narrow Deep Learning wu-wei

ZeroZone resilient
notnot ZeroSum MultiCultural Theories
told within WinWin resonantly victorious history

Half a revolutionary 2020 quantum,
transubstantiating natural/spiritual millennium
produces
half a Yang/Yin co-dominant spin

AND

One RightBrain WiseElder Holonic EarthTribe Story
equals
Yin notnot polynomial/YangPlus
equals
YinYin Win v YangLose
fake anthrocentric supremacy
of LeftBrain dominating numerators
bicamerally divided
by Yang v Yin bilateral twoness ecology
patriarchal theology
ethology of nature theories
more elite than spirit experience,
more orthodoxically deductive substantiated

Convexly individuated truths
overwhelming concavely felt harmonies
of rhythm and seasonal nutritional pattern
Yin/Yang co-resonant
ZeroZone revolutionary rebirths
of 2020 Truth/Beauty

Ego/Eco
Health/Wealth
Win/Win
universal-integral quantum theory
breathing in PositivEnergy light
to breathe out,
disinvest of,
NegativEntropic dualdark fear and terrori xenophobic
anthrocentric inside-voiced supremacist stories
of Ego v EcoPolitical chronic nightmares.

More outdoor polycultural voices might say
a multiculture’s heart and cooperative mind
are changed by health stories
of wealth-revolutioning
eco/theo-logical WinWin theories.

 

Influenced by Buckminster Fuller, especially Synergetics 2, p. 448.

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SecularMinds CoArising SacredHearts

In our Physics Departments
our most salient awareness
grows
of those nature-spirit entities
most easily seen
and heard
and smelled
as animated and animating,
sometimes more,
sometimes less,
in our daily ritualistic lives
of solids
and liquids
and gases
and plasma
and bilateral neural pathways
of interdependent communication.

In our MetaPhysics Department,
still moldering behind neglected ivied walls,
emerges a nondual Universe of deductive Earth sciences
and inductive Paradise nurturing arts
expressing polypathic co-arising philosophies
rooted in ecological sensory experience
of the successfully regenerating Ages.

Even beings not yet seen
or heard
or still smelled as vibrantly animated,
and sometimes not so much,
more exegetically static Traditions,
defined through BusinessAsUsual LeftBrain dominance,
in fact are both becoming and unbecoming
if only at a rock-hard atomic 4D primal spacetime
Principle of Reverse notnot double-binding perception,
imagination,
memory,
dreams inductively shared
across time as distant framed nutritional/toxic spaces.

We are multi-tiered cooperative nesting-unresting,
folding-unfolding,
weaving-reweaving-unraveling
diverse natural-spiritual experientialists
following our sacred 4-dimensional SpaceTime
imaginary field of positive faith
reiteratively repeating across
and back reverting
bicameral minds
following inductive diastatic-diastolic valleyed heartbeats,
yin nurture-flows.

We are capable of empathizing with exterior look and feel,
interior sound and taste and touch
and nutritional v toxic patterns
of animated becoming-unbecoming threat.

Emerging together toward Left-Right cooperative diastatic Win-Win maturity,
post-millennial wisdom polypaths,
and yet also still deducing-reducing degenerative
InvestLessEGONow-InvestMoreECOLater
LeftBrain dominant
ecopolitical bad-news trends.

This egosystemic inside empathy
aligns with ecosystemic outside co-animated empathy capacity,
exercised and disciplined toward harmonic,
resonant coherence,
Avoiding cognitive-affective
bilaterally dissonant
chronic malforming depressions
and critical climate and landscape dismays,

Harmony unfolds ego-mountains
and folds following dense-intense valleys of eco-values,
nutritional health-trails,
and refold revolutions thereby regenerate creolizing potential,
restorative views of profound integrity’s re-animating potential
of and for ecopolitical and personal and familial justice
within and without,
inside yin and outside yang,
co-animating presence
of SacredGaian Earth.

Does all animation matter?
Do each life and death matter?

To some
and for some
and for some regenerative v degenerative purposes,
these answers are Yes!,
or at least open to maybe yes,
rather than merely not animated yet
and also not any nature-spirit more.

Even a hypothetical Yes
to intentionally co-animate empathic faith
in
and for
and with
and from
all creations
and recreations,
generations
and regenerations,
past through present toward future
could re-animate more positive karma
and karma-yogis,
grace
and grateful CoRedeemers
as sacred WinWin ecopolitical Love
of shared EarthTribe Vocation.

CoAnimating Love creolizes Synergy ourselves,
reasonable, and yet also sacredly wondrous,
good faith
in positive hope
for Paradise MultiCulturing Loves.

Radically revolutionary democratic Loves
not yet fully animated here and nationalistic
and egotistic
and anthropocentric now,
still in restorative ego/eco-therapeutic
constant changing climates
of YangLeft Humane–YinRight Divine
co-redeeming
ReVolutioning Processes
of humbling universal gratitude
to be,
to have become,
to continue,
as part of this Great Reweaving Story,
Moment
Now

A Story most fundamentally told
in both LeftBrain Physics PolyPathic Departments
and a cooperative-economized RightBrain
MetaPhysics PolyPhonic Department
bilaterally bicameral,
Secular
and yet wondrously Sacred CoAnimating Narrative.

Prose
but also Poetry.

Song
but also Rhythm and Blues
and Reds
and Greens Dance
of Dawning Winters
and Dusking Harvests
and all animating thermodynamics between.

GoldenRule Science
but also GoldenRatio Art.

Natural
but also Spiritual.

Deductive
but also Inductive.

ExternalMind
but also InternalHeart.

Breathing in Yang
but also breathing out YinYin,
WinWin Revolutionary EquiValence,

ReStoring Justice
but also Reweaving NonViolent Peace.

ReForesting Earth
but also Gaian SacredParadise.

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Therapeutic Creation Stories

A lovely outcome for our recreational journey,
or Way
or Truths,
or LoveLives,
whichever you prefer to pick out
from among this graced array,
tells a multi-generational creation story
of cosmic sacred ecology
and Earth’s evolution revolutions,
drawing on and with
scientific deductive knowledge
both sacred ecology relevant
and issue moving
and sometimes tissue-grabbing
for covering tragic anti-creation nightmares
bringing saltwater tears of healing
for hungry eyes and ears
to avoid further angers and dualdark fears.

We emerge an intensely spiraling creation story
in polyphonic color
evoking awe and wonder,
fear-mongering pathologies
and yet also joy
for redistributing longing and belonging
and restoring responsibility
for divinely humane Therapeutic Stories.

This Universal Creation Story
is a dramatic tragic-comedy,
an opera of operations
and cooperations.

Throughout billions of years
of evolution,
with five prior periods of EarthBound revolutionary extinctions,
Yang-SunGod triumph
and Yin-MotherEarth disaster
have remained a wu-wei narrow-way
mid-way hairsbreadth and depth away
from restoring justice and peace
with each Sacred Ecological Other.

Yang violence technologies
and Yin re-creative arts
remain climatically pervasive.

Restoring capacities of YangSpace
with YinTime
to organize and re-organize ourselves
is sacredly and secularly remarkable–
from information of first atoms
through exformation of emergent sacred double-binding loves
of Universal ReGeneration.

We become part of our Therapeutic Creation Stories
to recognize energy released
in the alpha-beginning
finally,
in sacred divine humans
both CoMessianic Yin and Bodhisattva Yang,
become LeftBrain capable
and RightBrain reflective on
exploring our journey across Time
as God of Synergetic CoArising Change.

Fundamentals of Yin’s hydrogen flow
and radicals of Yang’s oxygen radiance
have become a vibrant health-restoring
Sacred MotherEarth,
with EarthTribes capable
of restoring how this has happened
and to imagine a health-sustaining future
of GreenPeace as ReStorative Ego/EcoJustice.

Reawakening,
reborning
redeeming
regenerating
into our prime relationship
with this Sacred Cosmos
is our medication means
of reengaging ecopolitical life.

This Therapeutic Journey of the Universe
reconnects more deeply and widely and centeredly
with EgoUniverse,
with the Eden and Paradise Creation and MortalFall Stories
of which we are each
a YangLeft against YinRight part,
written across each
secular-sacred heart,
deductive-inductive mind
Left-Right restorative cotherapists.

In ReStorative PermaCulturing Design
we appreciate beginning with needs
for sustaining human witness, agency
within this restorative,
co-redemptive gift-economy
nutritional nurturing planet.

This re-integrating sacred-secular creation story
of AlphaOriginal Intent
and subsequent health care development
of universally restorative design
of Earth,
and of holy-holonic humans
could inspire 2020 reweaving vision
for this time of emergent climates
of revolutionary extinction.

This Creation Story
gifts us with a sensory-neural Commons,
an evolutionary heritage
of and for restorative healing
and shared healthy polygenetic lineages,
both patriarchal and matriarchal,
both Earth-patriotic secular
and matriotic Sacred-PolyPathic Wombing.

Renewed understanding
of the health regenerative kinship
we share with all forms of living Creations,
with all life forms and co-relational functions,
establishes radical foundational fundamentals
for rediscovering our Common Root Systemic past
sustaining our ego/eco-systemic Future Creation Story.

Inspired by scientific reviews
of nested cellular interdependence–
yin-galaxies
with yang-stars,
planets
with ecosystemic restorative climates
thirsty for ecojustice as GreenPeace–
we ecopolitically sense
how personally we are each woven into
this holonic fabric of Universal Journey.

We are each a potential WinWin part
of this ongoing timeless Wu-Wei
between Yang’s ReTributive Strengths through deduction
and Yin’s ReStorative Healing
through sacred double-bound systemic bilateral induction.

From this Creation/Desecration Story
we sense our current degenerative pathologies,
habits against All Sacred EarthTribes of Life,
against our own multigenerational futures,
reiterative injustices not sustainable
in journeys of and for Therapeutic Creation Stories.

In this Revolutionary Extinction framework
the retributive damage human nature is causing
is criminally immense,
genocide of EarthTribe’s ReCreation Journey,
cataclysmic violent revolution
against Common GreenPeace Senses.

We recognize sacred ecological,
cooperative economic,
and restorative social change
as not only legally necessary
to protect multigenerational democracy-empowering Constitutions,
but ethically and morally and aesthetically
and affectively and effectively and infectively
necessary for healing ourselves.

This requires expanding our restorative justice frame
and broadening our permacultural worldview
for health restorative projects
ecopolitical health-wealth optimizing plans.

We are already in this Therapeutic Creation Story,
doing this
as we recreate
these Permaculture Design and Restorative Justice foundations
for Sacred MotherEarth’s reforesting of healthy purpose,
sacred ego/eco-justice futures.

 

Inspired by Mary Evelyn Tucker and Brian Thomas Swimme, “The Goal: Providing an Integrating Story”, pp. 56-57, Spiritual Ecology, ed. by Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee.

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This Is UnFinished Feminist Us

It’s peaceful here in my backyard.
The crows sound happy
with warm October sunlight.

I just read about a deadly gathering in Las Vegas.
Absence of sun-drenched peace.
Inconvenient this time of lost loss.
Death is always inconvenient,
even when invited.

A veteran,
about my age,
this shooter.

I feel like it took more than one
to hold and fire this mental illness rifle.
In a sad and guilty complicit sense,
we have collectively achieved what we bought
and sold
and settled for.

This malformed soldier
is a remnant of what most believed we needed to create,
back in the 60s,
brainwashed into believing
we were protecting wives and kids, somehow
by killing Vietnamese husbands
and many times their wives
and napalmed children,
trees,
forest.

Not exactly breeding ground for growing healthy minds
and well-armed bodies.

I dimly and darkly recall
a much earlier disagreement
with the new commander of the U.S. Navy’s
Officers Candidate School.
A first woman commandant,
something atrociously surprising to men-only militia violence,
similar to Medea
planning an angry hostile life.

This earlier time also started peacefully alone,
but inside,
waiting to be called in to her office,
at the beginning of her second week
in her new exalted position
over new violence-empowered candidates.

I had just completed a gratuitous violence first week of abuse
and militarily precise neglect,
as ruthlessly systematic as racism,
in frigid first week of January,
Rhode Island.
We were so close to the Atlantic
it felt like we were in the ocean.

We had also been frigidly outside,
and hotly inside,
yelled at,
systematically starved,
force marched in gusty zero-degree 3 AM darkness
without coats or hats or gloves,
in fact I think we were in our boxers and Tshirts one night,
due to someone’s sin of omission,
whether contrived on schedule
or spontaneously erupting
from pneumonia reduced and disabled minds,
I do not know.

The hardest part for me
was less than two hours sleep per night.
Industrially guaranteed to reduce oneself to crazy.

When I was first ushered in
for my early exit interview
by none other than her Military Medea Mightiness,
she took one look at miserably civilian dressed me
and asked why would I think it appropriate to disrespect her
by not bothering to show up in uniform.

I started to mention that I had never been issued one
when she told my keeper
that we needed to do an about face
and try again when I looked right.
Or at least as righter
as I might become.

So, he had to go out among my now-former classmates
to beg and borrow,
hopefully he didn’t steal,
boots and belts and pants and shirt and hat.
Later that same long and tedious day
I was once again summoned
for a second shoot.

She wanted to know
why I thought it was OK
to be the first to go
from this new class of officer candidates.
Did my recruiter not explain about this first hazing week?

Well no,
in fact I thought he told me hazing is illegal
in most States.
We develop soldiers;
we don’t grow bullies.

I understand you didn’t make a total ass of yourself.
So if you want to change your mind,
now that we turned the heat back on
and keep the lights off all night
and have turned the verbal abuse down a notch,
or maybe two,
I might be willing to listen
if you beg me nicely to stay here
with us in Navy Officer Paradise.

No thanks,
said I,
I’m already quite disgusted enough
by your shocking lack of even militarized intelligence
to see this as a navy not invested in preserving,
much less protecting,
real live humanity
hanging onto some semblance of sanity.

Oh but you see
this is not true.
Our rules of first week operationalization
are to save your sorry ass
because,
as we all know,
teamwork builds through ego assassinations.

Well no,
actually,
your own recent research on these issues
lies at my fingertips.
Required reading for psych and communication majors,
attitude change and persuasion students
where I hail from in Michigan.

It is a clear and present common threat to survival
that most quickly grows cooperative trust and teamwork,
cooperative co-investments,
especially among those who have learned to trust and respect each other,
including for our recognized
and understood and
appreciated diversity
of talents.
and shared sufficient simplicity of sleep
and active co-listening for harmonic voices.
Or maybe that was just for choirs
and military orchestras.

Well this is fake news to me!
she exclaimed in her sternly patriotic face.

I believe you,
which is why
I want out
of this absence of healthy care
and any semblance of sanity,
disloyal to my family’s investment,
my nation’s rational self-governing future,
and anathema to Sacred Mother Earth.

Are you Native American,
asked she,
as if she couldn’t care less or more.

No more or less than you
I would surmise.

It came as no surprise
when she eagerly accepted
my request to be relieved
of further dishonored service
and cast aside my various borrowed parts
because of ecopolitical leaders
confusing noble grace of unity
with bare-knuckled
bare-headed
frozen uniformity.

I wonder how the Green Beret shooter
in lost loss of Las Vegas
might have suffered from this same sad loss
of militarized teamwork disabilitization,
chronic and critical climates of constant stress.

When the enemy is down
and out of sight,
we cannot afford to have disaffected grunts
sit on angry-fearfilled butts
rethinking who is truly in my ego team’s best interest
and whom we might agree to take out next,
because healthy mental care giving and receiving
has nothing to do with formation
of militarizing violence.

In this same way,
a Presidential God Bless You,
twittered to victims of our own militarizing violent formations,
feels so empty,
fake as the blesser
would do even lesser
mental health care and receiving
for all God’s militarizing
and industrious We Win
So You Must Lose
soldier candidates in deformation,
but also neglected children
and trees,
and starlight
which could bring us together
in one mind of great thanksgiving.

 

So I was feeling badly,
sad,
because I share our mutually complicit status
for my compatriot’s difficult terrorizing
chronic stress disordering
time.
I too have been there,
lost there,
to a more moderate extent.
I just walked away.

I wish I had done more at the time
in the Navy’s January frigid spaces
against cooperative ecopolitics,
about being of more general use
if fascist critical events of the mid-seventies had been recorded,
freezing dark military-academic preparation time
industriously repeating
away from deforesting further virgin ecofeminist Vietnam forests
and their matriarchally cooperative villages,
to become watched on YouTube
by all prospective soldiers
and NRA advocates,
by patriotic nationalists,
thinking about possible antecedents,
before Bad Ol’ Daddy’s Country-Western Concert
went so very wrong.

I wish we could have recorded
this matriarchal confused and frightened patriotic
loyal commandantish face
when I shared with her
I felt ecofeminist disgraced
by her
Bitch!
Shoot at me again and I will Take You Out!!!
defacement,
in a most homophobic frozen officious place
of mutually inflicted terror.

So then I was feeling a bit more glad,
but still sad
I had not actually said more,
done more,
so I began trimming my twining tendrils
enveloping what’s left of uprooted deadwood trees
malingering in my back lot
and having a rough go of it
as my hedging shears
are no longer what once they were.

As usual,
I tend to speak with my plant recruits
and candidates for future flaming victories,
and felt required,
“I apologize
for this jab
and grab
and pull
and pushy ecopolitics,
but Mommy needs sharper,
and probably newer,
scissors for shutting up her
RightBrain EcoFeminist Diva Voice.

Apologizing to the entire human race”
of potential soldiers and ballistic deadwood downsizers
for your not yet having seen
that anti-feminist patriotic face
glare me back into space
with timeless time exclaiming
BITCH!
Shoot your GLBT EcoFeminist mouth OFF AT ME?
I DON’T military anti-ANTIfeminist THINK SO;

but I wonder how I feel about being this predator
in this eternal frame of egopolitical ignorance,
lack of cooperative military research
and economic-educational-formational intelligence gathering.

As I continued with hacking scissors
and played-out ecofeminist sawsall balls off
and the big manly Yang chopper offer
with their underdog heads!
I kept going back to those January freezing eyes.

IF LOOKS COULD KILL!!!
BITCH!!!!!
YOU DO NOT KNOW ME
and think you can punk your gay white ecofeminist butt
in my guest chair
and think your MidWest Academic BullCrap
will even so much as reach one
WinWin Ping of inspiration
aspiration
hope,
YOU DON’T KNOW ME!
I might have majored in BullDike Fascist Terrorism!
YOU DO NOT KNOW ME!!!

and maybe I don’t either.
Who wants to be that angry lose-lose antagonist
of military industrial absence of intelligence,
would you?

I wish this imaginary spacetime scene had played out
in RealTime frames just that audio way,
but even without sound,
with just her
I AM NOT YOUR BITCH!
but you are not going to be mine
either.

She could not sign those exit papers fast enough,
continues visual only images
of how I still feel,
more or less
about these tangled vines
and tough deadwoods
hanging out in my wanna be ecofeminist backyard.

I will chop them up
and paint them
into diva totem poles
and frames
in which ecofeminists
always play in YouTube Blue and Green Estates
of most polyculturally
matriarchal peace in this back lot solitude,

Although occasionally the patriarchal husband
makes a cameo appearance
for a few All Lives Matter Moments,

But usually just me,
in an early October day
preferring to forget dark frigid January anti-feminist nightmares
of militarized neglect
of basic health assurance and safety
delivered by angry matriarchal commandants,
and hedging shear divas,
depending on which lens is in play,
the full-staged historical tragedy
within my more personal back lot comedy.

 

It’s still peaceful here in my backyard.
The crows have flown off
warning descent of warm October sunlight.

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