Paranoia feeds on dark roots.
In full bloom, everything and everyone that happens against me
happens for a sinister conspiratorial reason.
This is my felt conjecture,
to which I respond
by struggling against trust
in Other’s monopolistic monocultural Wins,
so I might survive to tolerate
yet another scrappy day of paranoia.
Pronoia feeds on everything and everyone
not out to get me
but more in to let me
happen for a blessed season
with which I am invested to resonate,
including my fair share of struggling with,
but not against,
my WinLose enculturation
so we might thrive to mutually WinWin
yet another multiculturing
polypathic
Beloved Community Way.
This is our primal ecopolitical choice,
Both-And over Either-Or,
made each moment in time’s evolving articulation
deep learning incarnation
of days and nights
within this not-paranoia and not-pronoia
in-between identity,
risk with opportunity
conjectural life.
Conservative LeftBrain Either-Or
sees a bipolar world
of either I am saved
or demonic,
either I am part of the solution
or part of the problem,
either I am True
or I am False,
only pretending to be True
to get you to become False.
Liberating Elder RightBrain Both-And
fluid feelings
multi-sensually engage in a dipolar EarthTribe
in which I experience pronoia on healthy days
and paranoia on more challenging days,
I am an integral and authentic organic part
of EarthTribe’s living win/win resolution
and part of an irreligious ecocidal global problem,
I sometimes feel unconditional warm regard
with peak win/win opportunities to Trust
and usually also feel win/lose risks of MisTrust
and occasionally paranoid panic
with deep dissociative valleys
of shadows
of death,
lose/lose despairing DisTrust.
But, even should this become bipartisan political science,
bicameral neuropsychology,
bilaterally conjectured co-intelligence,
let us not delude ourselves into a hypnotic state of academic neutrality,
ambivalently pretending either choice is equally healthy,
when ecocidal outcomes are so clearly etched in patriarchal bones
of troubling dissociative history.
Love’s mutual promise clearly points toward evolutions
embracing elegant polyculturally resonant
healthy democratic systems furthering win/win wealth,
while paranoid fundamentalist God v Man terror
degenerates toward further traumatic pathology,
afraid of our own anthro-suprema-cast
dark blaming mind v shameful body
Conjecturing fundamentally irreligious
punishing
paranoid shadows.
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