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Resilient Peak Experiences

Gayla Speak Experiences
promote healing events
not intended to contribute to trauma
drama narratives.

Stories we tell
and trust
and thrust
and softly smile about
when we dare to leave
our stiff
stiffling closets.

RedYang
universal dominants
friendly feasting
with BlueYintegral
unitarian intent

Together praising massively thick
and deeply embedded polarities
of nearly omnipotent
erect and hard patrimony
loving MotherEarth’s holy matrimonies,
compassion

Transcending monotheistic challenging attitudes
failing to question long-term outcomes
of dubious commercial
graphic success,
LeftBrain dominant anthrosupremacism
on top
of Others,
unstraight
unmale
unwhite.

YangPole hot resilience
cannot sustain
without YinHole warm
wet
passionately inviting
fully dilated resonance

WuWei balance
of divinely favored Versatility
engaging neurosystemic respect
for healthy work and play shop sharing,
nakedly transparent
vulnerable wealthy caring
for integrity’s warm
unconditionally impassioned
potential

To not feel bought
and sold,
short-term rented
or long-term leased

Instead both offering
and receiving
Pole/Hole equity
co-empathically felt
and touched
by peak impassioned
sacred communion values

Wanting therapeutic fairness
to eliminate all mundane
no talent
no appreciation drama
in our cooperative
pantheistic sex lives
loves
lusts

Creating
and recreating,
spreading
and retightening,
a cooperative
healthy
sacred nutritional space

For rethinking our peak
orgasmic win/win experiences
when we felt mountainous
rolling climaxes
and deep valleyed seizures
flowing out
and out
encompassing peace

Lost in ecstasy
present to awesome YangPoles
and wondrous Yintegrity.

Scenes sensory developed
from natural roots
seen through spirited hearts

Longing to both host
and guest,
give
and receive again

Through joy of warm memory
and sad loss of peak intensity,
elation
despite risk
of subsequent depression,
transcending invitations
and farewells

Domesticated LeftMind enlightenment
and Wild RightBodied empowerment
together
reproducing root systemic Yintegrity
of natural health
and spiritual safety

Trauma prevention
by means of
Therapy optimization,
flowering Yang/Yin
Pole/Hole
Top/Bottom
curious dipolar co-arisings
of co-empathic consciousness

Erect conservation
engaging liberation,
Orthodox monotheistic worship
and Heterodox panentheistic communion,
Monocultural hot Redness
and cool Green
polycultural awareness,
Anthro-autocracy
and EarthTribe-democracy,
Monopolistic cathedrals
and EcoFeminist sacred outdoor space,
Good-humored human hypocrisy
and health-wealthy divine integrity

LeftBrain’s fascination
with both trusted Pole
and beautiful Hole
satisfies
as either lonely Pole
or isolated Hole
could not

Trained by anal-rejecting
well-endowed envying
anthrosupremacists
to achieve best
and brightest light
through patriarchal-capitalist means
and SWM privileged ways

To bless our
RightBrain indigenous
wise bicameral hearts,
re-membering
and re-imaging
double-binding
co-arisings

Both Pole and Holistic
And Win/Win nondualistic
peak climatic experiences

Yintegrally therapeutic,
so Yang trauma free
resilient wellbeing narratives
for holistic Holes
and panentheistic Poles
wherever we may sniff
and search
and find
co-gravitating dipolarities

Enlightening Left-Dominant
and empowering Right-Recessive
wise healthy wealth
of well-formed
fluid Paradise.

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Sacred Grows Integrity

Natural Sacraments

Emerge from what sacred center,
committed to integrity’s potential
become more resilient,
and not fragile

More nature-soul evolving
Earth’s deepest
widest
longest
roundest
mountainous
dark valleyed sacraments
of light and power.

Gandhi regenerated
humane love lives on
and
inhumane hate
abuse
bigotry
patriarchal colonization
do not.

Even lesser losses
tend to shadow fade
across therapeutic rememorizing space
and laws of positive passion

Bodhisattva ruling
warm wombed pregnant co-attachment
across unconditional win/win
peak messianic experience
of panentheistic timeless time,
wonder of light
awe of deep dark power.

“It gives me ineffable joy
to go on
trying to prove that”
love lives on
where hate cannot.

Gandhi,
affirming integrity’s sacred meaning
cooperates with therapeutic bloom,
and not hate’s Loser doom

Win/Lose uncivil wars
and internal traumas
and Othering 0-sum competitive history
of disintegrating ecopolitical hostility
cannot destroy
our NonZero root chakra Soul

Curiously
constantly
resiliently
resonantly inviting EarthJustice

Peace within
as without
only one orthodox way to live
yet a legion of ways to die,
biologically
ecologically
politically
economically
spiritually
naturally
unnaturally
unspiritually

ZeroSum Capitalistically
yet
pregnant NonZero Soulfully

Sacred Round Integrity
embracing Secular Civil Equity
as universal passion
invites unitarian compassion
as beloved
as bilateral breathing
love-life rivered
shivered
shimmering…
anticipating warm empathic regard.

This personal, intimate project
of becoming fully humane
holonically reflects Earth’s divine project
into panentheistic Spirit’s nature:
integral EarthTribe transcendence.

From what pantheistic soul
does inter-religious commitment
become more therapeutic,
and less traumatic?

Healing intimately transcendent potential,
Sacred Integrity’s naturally spiritual,
Earth conservationally liberal
universal life–unitarian love
healthy multisensory
peak experience
merging resilient
Bodhisattva synergy
of EarthTribe sacraments.

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Warm Acceptance

How would Earth create
and reconnect
regenerate
a species still needing ecological acceptance?

This need to be accepted
and accepting what cannot be win/win changed
just yet
in troubled
and troubling relationships

This need for acceptance
is born of trauma,
past experiences
not being accepted
as is,
not feeling appreciated,
not unconditionally cherished
warmly accompanied,
touched
by win/win communication

Not tolerating chronic
win/lose aggressive
patriarchal capitalism
as the best RightWing weapon
fighting wars
against economic
and political Appreciation,
nonviolent communication,
compassionate invention
for trauma prevention.

If babies
and marriages
are made in Heaven,
then we should not be surprised
when they are aborted
while surviving silent
secluded
obsessive-compulsive
patriarchal-colonizing Hell
on ecocidal Earth

Which may speak out for warm acceptance
rather than continuing cold
impatient tolerance
for LeftBrain AnthroSupremacist
fears of dark and shameful
idolatrous
and/or spoiled brat inadequacy

To learn why Earth has created
LeftBrain verbal dominance
for reconnecting
regenerating
a species still needing ecological acceptance,
unconditional warm regard
for MotherEarth
Restoring sacred Justice

Touched by Her trust
for Yang external Truths
with Yin internal Beauty
thought and felt accompanied
compassionate
Self and Other
warm NonZero-Soul Acceptance

Is a whole lot healthier
and environmentally safer
than cold Zero-Sum
patriarchal-corporate
competitions for Tolerance.

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Sundays Free Of Should

Remember the Sabbath
to keep it holy
free of Shoulds.

A should-free cathedral
of intimate athleticism
romantic
exotic
ecstatic
euphoric
erotic

Exhausts this sabbath light
at long last
widely dawning deeply stronger
and resiliently handsome
dark as night

In virtuously enlightening response
to Saturnight’s weekly exorcism
annihilating
exhausting
expiring

Yet another weekday week
weak slow-groan degenerjism

Darkly precipitating
sweaty penetrating night seductive mares
aggravating
congregating
irritating
neighing
sedating
constipating

All my life
I’ve been waiting for you
my Sunday not not should
embrace every daytime athlete
with unconditional
warm felt regard

Up on two feet
with spiritually natural intent
of sabbath hot passions
including,
but not exclusively hoarding,
frontal poles
and backside holes

Balancing sabbaths neurosensory integrity
extending virally out and virtuously circling in
stretching strength
of bilateral heart pumps
and lung inflations
and limb elations
stretching Sunday loves
and bipartisan 1 plunging into 0
every polynomial weekday
binomial cooperative
co-invested
convexly concaved
not-not straight but spiraling round
wholesome inside/outside balance

In co-empathic sabbath passions
free of shaming Others
preaching teaching virginal should not
remember SaturNightMare’s
BlackHole peak experience
anticipating this new athletic Sunday Service

ReMembering
ReIncarnating
ReLigioning Sabbath
to keep it holy
free of Othering Shoulds.

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Appropriately Polite Company

It seems maniacal,
Black Rabbit Hole easy
kinda sleazy
to sexualize every thought

And, yet,
all too easy
to desexualize
to decontextualize
multisensory feelings
deep and widely organic
roots from ancient EarthMother wisdom

Sometimes polycultural transparency above
conjoining multicultural vulnerability below
give peak orgasmic conversational sway

To passion’s Left/Right co-balancing day
of protruding Yang verbal dominance
seducing Yintegrity’s river-valleyed
eagerly inviting pre-verbal
pregnant wombs of co-invested
cooperative win/win interests
in peak and valley neurosystemic
indigenous traditions,
spiritedly natural

Seldom known to partisan politics
and weaponized capitalistic
colonizing rapacious prominence
of patriarchal nationalistic populism

As if, somehow,
matriarchal EarthTribe integrity
of deeply thought/felt hearts
with womanist
deep valley ecopolitical minds
were less morally appropriate
than indecent ecocidal exposure.

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SmokyBrown Passions

Brown satin
and warm latin passions
unveil to reveal
a powerful white black tool

Polyculturally vulnerable
enlightening school

Multiculturally transparent
empowering rule

For reforming privileged sensory
thoughts

And reverse-flowing predative sensual
feelings.

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Abortive Trauma Tales

When you and your wife visited,
you shared a question asked by a pastor
of a raped
and thereby pregnant
vulnerably young and questioning parishioner.

“If your unborn child survived
his first year
and walked back into your home
do you think you would still want to kill him?”

Probably not,
I’m thinking.
And,
perhaps more pastorally significant
and responsible,
how can we, in resilient compassion for ourselves
and for those who trespass against us
mitigate sacred rage
against ancient sins of our predative Fathers?

The next morning
over coffee and breakfast
your wife told a surprising story
of meeting a woman
in a Carolina church basement
who boldly claimed to be
an unapologetic pagan

Certainly not repenting;
more like recruiting

UnStraight out proud wiki
without thinking that might be an appropriate sin
for inviting healing prayer
rather than embracing
as if possessing a pure and virtuous soul
matriarchally regathering
HolyEarthPeace Spirits.

Your wife’s response
cautiously avoided Retribution Is Mine!
weaponized words,
another patriarchal sin of our historied Fathers

“I don’t think I’ve ever heard anyone say that before”
right out in public
toward lunchtime on a bright spring day
and certainly not in a ChristChurch basement

I silently wondered why your wife did not seem to feel
this pagan should be aborted

Stoned to death
or at least hanged
for defying the Good News
of Straight White King James
colonizing Jesus.

If there was a conversation about how many pagans may feel
about abortion of healthy tribal lives
or Great White Father rape,
or the somewhat wider history
of patriarchal predation against matriarchal wisdom
she did not mention such old crone witchery

Studying dark theistic codes of dueling history
usually tolerating abortions of Othered human lives
for exceptional survival reasons
emerging throughout traumatic transition years
for various viciously circling reasons

A well-capitalized
verbally articulate
personalized monotheistic God
might appear to be against
polytheistic Muses and Witches and Goddesses
within EarthTribe mind-spirited space,
political place,
economic race

On the Othered,
and safely aborted, hand
pantheistic spiritual commitments
supporting multicultural
animistic
pantheistic
panentheistic
polycultural respect
may more resiliently redevelop
sacred
sentient
holy spirited life
at the EarthTribal
universally uniting EarthPeace level
of sacred passion

Respect for our interdependent thriving lives
does not mean we are not also
abortionists to survive the trauma
of invasive felt predations,
biological
and ecological
and theological
and political.

Divine respect for co-infested fertile life
might include respect for death
and gratitude for EarthTribe lives sacrificed

As we hold hands
and bow our heads
with gratitude
for hungry stomachs satisfied,
for sacred quenching waters,
outs and ins of healthy bodies,
backs and forths of wealthy minds

With trust our thirst
for tribal trust
does not imply that when and what I swallow,
I abort

And do not also co-invest
in this our cooperative resilience

Health care giving
and receiving
EarthTribe sentient wealth

Respect for dark
deeply raging
patriarchal trauma
does not imply
disrespect for more therapeutic
matriarchal light.

And just so,
I reversely suppose,
universal peace
uniting holy spirited respect
for resilient
brilliant sentient life

Does not imply
disrespect for trauma,
despair
and death

Which I had been struggling with
when you and your wife visited,
and you shared your story
of a raped
and thereby pregnant
young and traumatized parishioner.

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ReGenerating ReVolitions

Warm holes
anticipating slick poles

Wet holes
embracing warm poles

Bipolar linear dark division
flowing downriver nurture valleys
Dipolar round visions
forming mountainous spiral hierarchies
naturally uprising

Ecofeminist journeys inward
Egofatherist conquests
growing outward
and upward

Deep waiting
vulnerable black holiness
before highest transparent
widely diverse
best practice polarities

Wet warm birthing wombs
then dry cold dying tombs

Worm downward holes
wet upward trying poles

Wet yintegrity holes
engaging just right yang poles

As 0
embraces 1
organic revolution.

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Redemptive Economics

Economies of cooperative redemption,
like taking turns licking melting ice cream cones,
favorably contrast to
stingier economies of personal private
sticky and prickly ownership

Including feeling entitled to purchase
whatever and whomever
I can afford to buy or rent
in cash up front
or through a commercial commodifying
installment plan product
with interest paid out
to a not personally invested corporate banker

So often straight white He
with legal right to demand full repayment
on my unfortunate self-overextended
imbalance.

Economies of competitive secular development,
rather than sacred cooperative resonance,
sadly and madly contrast
compete against
empowering richer economies
of compassionate and resilient stewardship
not entitled to purchase sacred Earth

Nor to shop for bargain basement llands
and seas
and laborers
unpaid for cooperative working foundations
win/win playing
and designing co-creators
copassionately co-invested
in sacred polycultural joy relationships
in
and on
and now sadly under
our future gladly flying over and around
ecologies of win/win wealth

Co-invested
co-redemptive
permaculturally healthy
and robust enlightened financial systems
producing politically empowering
passionately resilient outcomes.

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Enabling Empathy

It’s weird
and sometimes wild
living with a non-LeftBrain verbal dominant
aspiring child,
now young adult

I find myself waiting for him
to nonverbally connect
and correct me
about my patriarchal domineering
economic and political ableist sins
of RightBrain felt omission
from commercial value
and, perhaps worse,
my passionately sacred co-messianic
self-responsible
unconditional co-enabling
sins of RightBrain depressive
trauma approach/avoid
ambivalent
obsessive/compulsive
commission
and reiterative recommission.

And
he never disappoints
going to the right
felt point

Could no more lie
or steal
than feel envy
fueling greed
for tomorrow’s self-sufficient hopes
and egocentric dreams

At night
when we sleep,
if not before
then after an overpowering seizure
He can explain to me

No ancient spiritual 1 experience
could be other than HereNow natural 0 feeling
linear and yet circular
regeneratively enspiraling

Without LeftBrain dominant
defensive weapons
1 protagonist neither can
nor would
nor should
retool and lavishly display 0 word voices
outside inadequately disabled numeric language
for nonverbal co-passion’s inside images

Sensory receptive memories,
cause-effect singular explanations
and co-arising circular narratives
of co-redemptive recycling
spiraling vicious
and virtuous
negative 1 bipolarity
and not-not positive non-0 dipolarity
co-arising appositional circles

Not divorcing physical Nature
outside abled bodies
from not just metaphysical
Spirit inside minds

Deep listening back through neurosystemic compassion
wet and warm
and dispassion
darkly parched and cold
bilateral multicultural
multigenerational
poly-paradigmatic
panentheistic
enthymematic health and safe feelings
making and remaking
neurosystemic distinctions

Integrity’s RightOriginal Mind
passion for outside health
and safe internal wealth
co-regeneration

Win/Win default
poly-passioned balance
bilateral

Ego Yang Verbal Left
stern deep-voiced patriarchal
sacred co-passioning
Eco Yintegral NonVerbal Right
pre-bicameral Taoist humming
indigenously outflowing
growing wise CoPassion

For positive-health EarthMother
warm comforting wet wombs
sacred surrounding
positive-wealth AnthroChild
co-operatively panentheistic
wild
belly laughing co-empathic passion

Internally sung and danced
oral wu-wei wisdom traditions
of body/mind
nature/spirit
out/inside formation
flowing co-relational balance
synergetic harmony
symphony
resonant integrity

Grows wiser pre-verbal
cooperatively positive health
than multigenerational
disabling apartheid nightmares
of polypathic abuse
and monoculturing neglect

Anticipating inside/outside mortal
-1/-0 lose/lose
universal cold
and feverishly hot tremors
predicting dark disuniting trauma.

It feels weird post-peak,
and sometimes wild,
continuing to sacredly aspire
to merit this gift

RightMind panentheistic survival
of LeftBrain talking
ego-monotheistic thriving
exclusive AnthroSpeaking salvation stories

Living
and apparently dying
repeatedly
with a non-LeftBrain verbal prominent
aspiring child,
now contentedly sleeping
in compassionate comfort
and organically warm
sacred joy

Hopefully
dreaming that we feel pleasantly weird,
sometimes provoking wild belly laughs,
feeling free outside a LeftBrain verbal dominant
label,
name,
+1 inside v -0 outside frame
EitherSacred Or SecularizedDisEnfranchisedOther
possibly unhealthy and unsafe
win/lose competitive imbalance

Preferring
RightMind prominent
warm and wet wombed compassion
emerging -(-0) inside/outside +1
equitable development dreamwork
emergent compassion conversations

Weird
and sometimes wild
living within a non-LeftBrain verbal
monoculturally dominant

Instead,
a more Here/Now
timelessly balancing
copassioning moment
of in/out-digenous
resiliently peaceful wisdom

To choose soulmates
health wealthy
and wisely

As they choose
to dream with you.

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