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The Powder-Free Vinyl Exam Glove

It occasionally occurs to me,

as I distractedly remove my right dominant
Powder-Free Vinyl Exam Glove,
after yet another young adult diaper change,

Perhaps getting lovingly laid
by a lifetime committed
caring and passionately consenting peer
filled with warm compassion,
active hope for tomorrow
would not be the worst conjoining thing
that could happen to neuro-alternatively-challenged intelligent beings
childishly preferring win/win cooperative outcomes
derived from compassionate climaxing thought-feelings together
while experiencing full-sensory resonant mental health.

Then again,
I suppose the same
powder-free examervation might apply
to economic and political narcissists,
and patriarchal double-binary
co-disassociative left v right hemispheres
runaway debating between lonely older aescetics
ordained to fulfill male dominant sublimation
through yin-recessive win/win co-passion’s ostracization,
diminution,
fragmentation,
cognitive-affective dissonance.

And then I wonder
how long will it take
to re-sacralize humane non-elite poop
as richly robust future compost
best for black gold richly embedded fertility,
as I race and gender and age
to throw out plastic scat bags,
filled with cotton and plastic diapers
and under/overpads,
and right dominant
Powder-Free Vinyl Exam Gloves.

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Analogical Suggestion

Left:
What I have been suggesting…

Right:
You may call your reasoning “suggestion”
but that makes your voice no less urgent,
intrusive,
explicit as an analogy
suggests metaphoric interdependence.

Left:
What I might support–
We all live in and on double-binding Earth
double-binary mindscaped
and body-acting
motion suffering and pleasured natures
ego-identified,

And, right-hemisphere spirits of regenerate DNA strings and webs,
primal attachments
and pre- and re-attachments,
trusts
and mistrusts
and distrusts
and active restoring retrusts;

Double-binary bilaterals
like Yang power and Yintegrity,
like One known and Zero felt
like Ego being and EcoPolitical becoming,
like Resilient win/lose dissonance and Resonant win/win confluence,
like PolyPath egos toward PolyPhonic eco-muses,
like complex Polynomials regenerating not(not) MultiCultural His/HerStory,
like Horizontal equations and DeepVertical intersectionality,
like 3D Atoms and 4D spiraling WaveLinears,
like Space spheres and BiLateral Time global networks,
like InFormation unfinishably alive
and ExFlowation phishing life and death co-arisings.

Right:
[Warm co-passionate co-presence,
active listening,
responsive hope,
curiously immortal courage…]

Are we safer together than apart?
Do we mutually matter?
Are we still actively whom EarthTribes
are win/win becoming integrity?

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This InBetween Climate

This in-between place
and time
and space
is queer.

Neither the straightforward seer
of new beginnings
nor the recalcitrant rear
of old sweet and sour endings.

Bicameral climates of transition
listen for our most humane imaged left
and see through our most divine beauty right
symbiosis,
complexly bilateral metaphor,
secular and sacred transubstantiation
substantiating disempowering empowerment of creolization,
of co-investments, elite and non-elite,
of left investors
co-arising right effluent divestment
away from competing capital-headed
Business As Usual

In-between lose/lose alpha-point of birth
and win/win omega warm felt beauty
harmonious destiny,

Sacredly holistic resonance
co-passioning left-hemisphere resilient liturgies

Of songs verbally and non-verbally danced
rhythms entranced
co-gravitating with and toward trans-regenerative stories
of competitively deep curious and queer cooperations,
steeped in-between courageous analogical health
as meta-phonic wealth,

Ecologically robust polypaths
toward polyphonic metaphor.

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PolyPaths Toward WarmFelt Metaphonics

A childhood memory warmly reminds

A game of Where’s the Thimble,
hidden by a gang of siblings,
or just one strategic sister,
left for me to rightly find
as I wander through our living room,
following bilateral cues,

You’re cold,
freezing really.
Now you’re getting warmer.
No, not that way,
toward winter.
Now you’re getting hot…
now boiling,
burning up!

Temperature
changing through time
as metaphor
for sacred thimble climates
hidden among spatial options.

When thinking analogically,
a left-brain comparative contrast communication culture
sounds like resonantly fed
warm nutrition,
feeding and watering social hunger
and thirst left upon righteousness

While miscommunication,
deliberate mendacity
ruins our cooperative game,
analogous to toxicity,
pathological fragmentation,
predicting further degenerative disarray,
poor menu planning,
lack of win/win co-intentional play.

Meanwhile,
if feeling metaphorically,
a right-brain both/and comparative integrity
looking for a healthier re-enculturation process,
a more holistically satisfying experience,
climax
culmination where two or more frames of reference,
trees of paradigm relationship,
are not only thought of as side-by-side, either/or
but also felt as inward nuclei, root systems
co-passioning outward climate boundary gates
breathing in/out
nutrition/extraction.

Here, nutrients
well-digested
may also feel robust and happy,
healthy warm communication,
becoming warmer communion,
tropical creolization,
radical metaphor, yes,
but, much more significantly fundamental,
seminal for all win/win healthy global species,
metaphonic rhapsody,
polypathic polyphonics.

As left-brain polynomials
are ecologically
and theologically
and egologically
and ethologically not(not) potentially co-operative
polynomial integrity

As ZeroZone’s entropic in-between emptiness
predicts timeless intersectionally communicating fullness
of Alpha/Omega scripts
humane/divine
secular/sacred
ego/eco
YangPower/Yintegrity.

But, said the right-brain the(0)logist
to the left-brain ec(o)logist,
“Why might this be so?”

Why might left-brain’s ego-centering life
become love’s left/right win/win ocean
of DNA fractal potentialities?

Regenerative win/lose life’s global multicultural love
caring through warm cooperative theists,
reverse bilaterally refined
by not despairing, competitive atheists
longing for community,
not quite so much unfeeling entropy,
cold ecological relative analogy
of warm and full
theologically humane/divine immanent relationship.

Polyphonic polypaths
shout cold against analogical famine,
metaphoric numbness.

Resolutions
compare win/lose problems
to win/win solutions
in sacred stories of and about ego-lives
metaphors for epic trans-regenerational loves
suffering cold history
in search of warm thimbled happiness.

Competitive co-arising analogies
need not suppress cooperating metaphors
where warm regenerate acceptance
is not cold bad news tolerance
of competitively mendacious mediations
against brothers and sisters,
cousins,
future aunts and uncles,
extending metaphoric families
of EarthTribes
turning and returning polycultural integrity
encouraging warm resonant faith
within good news living resilient rooms
and networks of global health/wealth communication.

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Polyphonic Metaphor

Sacred music and liturgies
are not merely leaves and flowers
produced by complex and richly branched
and sub-branched analogies,
between ecological and theological root metaphors
of co-arising nurture;
between naturaLeft and spiritualRight co-experience
of Earth’s spiraling revolutionary nutrition;
East to West horizoned
healthy light intention.

Each regeneration absorbing fertile flowering fruit
to recreate communal caring communication
climax
through primal musical vibrant metaphor
of ego-death mortality
compassioned yintegrity
repurposed into regenerational eco-lives,
past through future win/win epic intentions,
virtuous virality of EarthTribe’s manic DNA
for thriving health
as wealthy Yangish solo anthems.

Each courageous ego
a metaphor for Earth’s curiously spiraling revolution
iconic of DNA’s bilaterally rising and falling structural evolution,
curved waves
yang and yin spherical iconic metaphors
for left and right cranial hemispheres
emerging informed by patriarchal Western predative history
and nondualistically reformed Eastern enculturation
cooperatively co-parasitic;

Creolizing curious white light supremacy
as not not color multicultural sublimation,
monocultural suppression,
both/and polyphonic and polypathic
right-brain resonant
so also left-brain super-resilient
multicultural ecological co-empowering
monocultural theology
supplanting ego’s pursuit of monotheistic disempowering
from-above wealth

Of communally sung and danced metaphor,
sacred silent
replete with secular vibrations,
seductive and reductive,
inductive and deductive
co-arising ego/eco-sublime
metaphoric muse
of cultured octave scale
and tone
and hue;
vibrating tables of eight-fold elements
eco/theo-logically metaphonic
cooperative caring communion
both/and disunion.

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Repurposing Life and Death

Life or death
is a left-brain dominant cultural assumption,
While right-brain is more comfortable
with life and death,
health and pathology,
nuance of co-arising dipolarity.

Environmentalists
shout for sustainability!
Ecologists calmly advocate
polycultural energy resilience
to recreate wealthier dynamic ecosystems

While warm psychologists
and embracing psychiatrists
listen for co-relational resonance within
and between
healthy cooperative ego-systems.

But,
resonance between egos
not so robustly,
democratically healthy,
might also develop unfortunately viral,
vicious feedback loops
of negative,
toxic communication
festering monocultural missions
of supremacist degenerativity;
more of a persistently narcissistic weed patch
than a resonant right-brain
and resilient left-brain
ego/eco-system.

I recently read that viruses
can be as dead
static
zero-dynamic absent exchange of energy,
a tiny pebble,
but, when placed in a friendly organic environment,
come back to life,
rebirth resonance,
if not life/death recycling resilience.

Physicists,
sounding more like cool metaphysicists,
report subatomic particles are affluently indestructible
and effluently destructible,
depending on whether we observe as a functional part of a whole
or as a structured whole of an energy flowing past through future part.

Immortal because an unchanging co-related potentiality
within any one static moment of unimage-able time,
and yet mortal
as a constantly changing process
of co-acclimating energy exchange,
transitioning into transformation
into retransitioning.

Resilient
when spatially imaged as individual function,
secular,
autonomous,
independent sub-structure co-relational constancy
within a linear line of temporal events,
not resonantly,
sacredly fulfilled,
sufficient,
satisfying
as complete viral extending family
into spatial interdependence.

Resonantly alive
when resilience
flows toward positive healthy,
co-relational intent,
and not confused with persistent fragmentation
flowing out into dispersed
despaired
evaporating lose/lose potentialities,
monocultiuring weed patch autocratic,
self-aggrandizing intent,

Which matures into rabidity,
feeds on our own young,
future generations,
and, finally, on our own extremities
until democratic viral death
remains autonomously,
irresiliently silent
still
without hope
for life
or even further death
of life-giving species.

Which may all have something,
and nothing,
to do with why the most positively viral economic
and political
and social
and psychological
and analogical
and ethological
and metaphysical enlivening environmentalists
resonantly speak up and out!!
for optimizing sustained
dynamic
co-relational
co-arising
co-present resilience of cooperative intent!!
to optimize all climates
advocating multicultural exclamation points!!
of life and death and repurposing life…

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BiNomial Communion

Children,
and the occasional healthy adult,
wonder why we say
Love grows more powerful than hate,
And why ecologists say
Multicultural ecosystems grow more resiliently
than post-climaxed monocultures
degeneratively fragmenting,

And yet we have these LeftBrain dominant either-or attitudes,
zero-sum evolutionary platitudes,
that differences in cultures
and religions
and species
and tribes
are more important to us
than our polyculturing
creolizing
intersections of polypathic similarities.

What our left brains discover
as natural analogy,
sometimes elaborate branching trees
of nutritionally co-relational ecology,
our right brains have prehistorically felt urged to uncover
as underlying spiritual metaphor,
dynamically ethological
secular purpose recovering
sacred meaning re-exploring.

LeftBrain:
I think I agree
with nondualistic Buddhists
that communication,
like nutrition,
can be punishingly fragmenting
or healthily integrating,
and usually diverse choices,
verbal and non-verbal,
outside and inside in-between.

RightBrain:
I feel we do not disagree.
Yet your way of sensing
seems awkward and reversed,
As communication is part of nutrition,
not only an ecological relationship
but a polypathic naturing/nurturing metaphor
for detached feeling climates
and primally attached multicultures
of resilient left either/or analogy, lie-group testing,
resonant right both/and metaphor.

LeftBrain:
It is awkward
to both metaphysically think
and physically feel
this left/right co-arising dipolar way
narrow
with deep learning metaphoric width, sweeping breadth
of dynamically sacred,
eternally timeless,
statically secular,
reductively deductive
co-relational space.

RightBrain:
I’m feeling like you need to have the last word again.

LeftBrain:
Bicamerally right analogy
so left metaphonic communion;
health as happiness
wealth of integrity.

RightBrain:
(non-verbally non-articulated) [Synergy]

LeftBrain:
I can still hear you,
you know.
This is an inside win/win game,
so none of your non-verbal feeling tricks
are effective for non-communication.

RightBrain:
LeftBrain:
OK,
so I can’t see or hear that,
but I know I’m ego-safe
and we still ecopolitically matter
co-arisingly dipolar
together.

RightBrain:

LeftBrain:
Hmmm…
Children,
and the occasional healthy adult,
wonder why we say
Love grows more powerful than hate,
Yet act and feel capital invested
the other competing way around.

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Slow-Cooked Conversion Stories

I was raised in one of those white nationalist churches,
passing itself off as a Christian evangelical Bible church,
where “evangelical” meant fundamental
and “fundamental” meant we did not interpret scripture
but accepted it as God’s literal trans-historical Word
of universal white male dominant
Bible thumping supremacy,
transcendently un-changing like…
like…
like nothing I’ve ever seen or heard
or smelled or tasted

Which is why we call not-Him-or-Her “God”
and not “SuperEgo”
or multicultural “Gaia”

Or anything else.
It turns out “God”
is a bit like not saying Valdemore’s name;
As Yahweh
is more about the ambiguously missing vowels
than their YHWH
YYXY
Either/Or-Both/And
bicameral structure.

Anyway, enough about sacred bisensory ecology.
While at People’s Bible Church
I was told, by all the white heterosexual adults
supporting and educating me
that being born again is not a gradual thing,
like growing into a pubescent body,
but instant,
like convenient oatmeal
or inferior mashed potatoes.

If I could not say,
with one hundred percent persuasion,
that I was reborn in Christ
on May 8, 1964
at 2:53 PM
Eastern Savings Time,
Just as I was originally born
on May 8, 1952
at 2:53 A.M.,
much to my mother’s inconvenience–
finished just in time to get home
to our dairy farm
for an unleisurely visit with “The Girls”
during her morning milking parlor gig–
Then the deviant
devilish mark of Satan
still clouds my not so milky white
not straight enough
not truly pure soul.

Such instant and yet resilient grace
felt unlikely to me.

I did not instantly lose hope
for a hot SantaDaddy
sliding down our family chimney
emerging from the family wood-burning furnace,
scorched of unnecessary
and superfluous clothes
to give me all the fruited manly gifts
I have felt so empty without
warm and wet accompaniment,
accomplishment.

Gradually,
over several years of neglecting this Santa myth
as cultural fantasy,
I did not wake up on May 8, 1956,
at 2:53 A.M.
and announce to all those not listening,
“I no longer believe in Santa Claus.”

De-mythification progress
seems to take me
about as long as my left-brain
dominating commodification process
took to grow into queer adolescence,
feeling unsafe,
unwanted,
with a best case possible future
of invisible insignificance,
hidden deeply beneath healthy humility.

Just as it took awhile to comfortably acclimate
to the toothlessness of myth,
It took me all my development years
on into late adolescence
to be sure that I would never safely
or resiliently convert
into a heterosexual.

When we were mutually experimenting grade school boys
during not much sleep overs
I was sure we shared the same destiny–
future heterosexuals,
Mr. Cleavers,
Mr. Smiths
not all too fascinated with Mr. Johnsons.

I didn’t suddenly realize,
“Oops. I failed to convert.”
Maybe I was a late bloomer,
just as some girls get pubes
and teats
and mensies later on
which seemed like more unfair girl pressure
than just sprouting new hair in old moist places
and growing at least somewhat less girlish voices.

Just as there was no May 8, 2:53 P.M.
of any year
when I knew,
“OK, that’s it.
It’s done growing
in both length and width.”
I had no day or night
when I said,
“OK, that’s it.
I choose to be queer”
so I can be the target of hate crimes,
bad jokes,
white Christian heterosexual predators,
bigoted employers,
homophobic police
and teachers
and parents
and siblings,
and preachers

Fully capable of witnessing against me
the exact date, time, and year
they began their life long love affair
with white male Jesus Christ,
straight (presumably) Jewish carpenter’s apprentice,
Son of God and…
and…
God,
who finished creating Earth,
and at least our entire Solar System,
exactly seven days
after He started, on May 8th
at 2:53 A.M.,
year 0000.

I have developed health-considered faith
in win/win progressive processes.
I accept that faith actively hopes in unseen relationships,
unheard communications,
unnoticed actions and reactions.

Still,
I find an always changing
transparent
vulnerable,
courageously curious difference
between left-brain statements of verbal instant faith,
and right/left-brain emerging lifeskill learnings
conversions
healings
redemptively felt economies,
salvific co-relational powers,

And I have trouble believing
that such ubiquitous differences
between slow-grown processive maturation
and imitative instant role-playing
is only accessible to queers,
white, black, brown, red, purple, green, or ultra-violet,
born on May 8, 1952
at 2:53 A.M.
much to the inconvenience
of busy heterosexual
pre-millennial dairy farmers.

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Are We Safe?

Am I safe?
Do I matter?

Are we safe?
Do we matter?

Am I sustainably healthy?
Do I resonantly matter enough?
to survive win/lose evolutionary assumptions
about history,
to thrive within win/win multicultural wealth.

According to the amygdala center
of our Default Mode Network
bicameral in/ex-formation processor,
“Am I safe?”
we originally ask of EarthMother womb,
While “Do I matter enough to survive?”
MotherEarth asks of still individuating me/we.

Climate and multicultural trends
premillennially presumed to answer “Yes!”
to both questions
optimistically predicting win/lose evolution
would lead,
through MotherEarth’s manifestly destined reach,
toward win/win Alpha/Omega Tipping Point Balance,
ZeroParadise organic zones
of multicultural design
for enriched polyculturing global outcomes.

But,
in this post-millennial Time,
Whose mighty Yang Amygdala
does not answer these same questions
with a crippling and troubling,
dissonant “No!”?

I am not safe
from inhumane mortality of life,
for cooperatively interdependent species,
for survivable Earth history
for continuing communication,
for complexly organized organic relationship.

Do I matter?
to survival history of Earth,
to thrival win/win multicultural economies
regenerationally reborn by EarthMothers
of all colors
and stripes
and spots
haired and furred,
wooled and feathered,
shelled and fish-scaled.

Are we safe?
How deeply
and extensively
do we matter
to Earth’s living history?
to GaiaEarth’s healthy multicultural outcomes
and incomes,
divestments and investments,
detachments and attachments,
degenerations and regenerations,
entropy and energy?

Why are we safe/not safe?
How do we matter/not matter?

What is the historic significance of communication;
the multicultural transcendence of relationship?

Why are we health
communicating?
How do we widely
and deeply wealth
rooted relationships?

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WombManish Conclusions

I would feel our way
toward green restoring justice Earth

Designing integral peace
through Default Mediating Networks
remediating LeftBrain dominant
win/lose thoughts
sniffing toward retribution
before settling into stagnant
self-satisfied
smug silence,
substituting for cooperatively restoring peace.

My resolution opportunities
are as HUGE as my cognitive dissonance stuckness,

What competitive difference could I possibly not make,
pre-structure,
autonomously build,
perennially fight for
and against?

Bicameral Taoists assume
presume
consume
either/or intellectual
and both/and moral commitment,
thought, yet felt,
natural, yet spiritual,
ecological, yet theological,
polypathic, yet polyphonically robust,
most viralish resilient, when also virtuously resonant.

My deep twinned
twining
inter-regenerational natural spirit
demands win/win modeled responses
profoundly left/right bilaterally intersectional.

I find myself
a retributive justice victim
while planning to become
a restorative peace advocate.

My ego has problems
our ecosystem has pathology;
My egosystem finds warm wet wombed resolutions
our economic re-creations would win/win resolve.

My litany of personal care
sacred vocations
siloed intentions
each day
grows longer than
all my competing days
and cooperatively-held nights.

My rainbow communion
has a deliberate monocultural divestment cause,
shaped by centuries of left-brain patriarchal extraction
benefiting producers with greatest capital resources
for purchasing further empowerment.

This is ego-centrism
narcissism
denialism
fundamentalism
dualism
nihilism defined by alienated Other,
and capitalism refined by supremacist We.

My litany of dying places,
formerly sacred spaces,
now objectively and subjectively less healthy wealthed,
less integral,
more win/lose evolving
toward lose/lose devolution,
combine to predict climate failure,
within
as without,
ego-unhealthy
as eco-unwealthy.

I travel deeply within
uncovering my own complicit
explicit win/lose structures
of left-brain over-power,
self-authorization,
competitive organization
right-brain abusive
and degeneratively fragmenting EarthSoul
within without,
universally unitarian.

With courage
and curiosity
and more cooperative conviction
and commitment to interdependent dignity
equality
multicultural intersectionality,
I remain invincibly invisible
united within
and whereby
Energy’s vast universal democracy.

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