Sometimes,
not often enough,
I connect with all the good Ones
who grow so much in me
And
when we re-member these times
lost in right now space,
We gather no grand finale harvest
But remain so very grateful
for whom We have been
and where We have gone
and when We might romp once again
before this time’s curious end.
Bending just, and unjustly, around
life’s next grateful
fateful
corner,
Zero summing all these great Ones
who grow so much in graceful We.
Anxiety pulls toward distraction
delusion
un-communication
As anticipation pulls toward absorption
in monoculturing illusions
and/or polyculturing illustrations of interdependence,
miscommunication
and/or bilateral,
or even multicultural communication,
The Earth’s rapid climate degeneration,
now rolling out faster with private transport
and industrialized meat and poultry farming,
and longer with artificial light
and factories birthing plastic products
all night,
moves into a revolutionary height
of global anxiety,
democratically felt
But aristocratically denied
by win/lose devolutionary monocultural leaders
not familiar with win/win revolutionary
polycultural outcomes
multicultural incomes
multigenerational regenerators
meta-morphic appositional (not win/lose oppositional)
dipolar (not bipolarized)
co-arising (and co-gravitating) feelers
thinkers
meditators
grassroots permaculture designers
restoring down to top
AND top to down non-violent communicating justice mediators,
All healers of toxic subclimate
and monocultural win/lose
either/or leftbrain dominant thinking,
are also, at our best,
bicameral ego/eco-systemic anticipators
of win/win global green peace
New through indigenously experienced win/win raptures,
Heaven as Earth organic gardens.
Dear John,
All day
yesterday
I loaded up with a cascading river
of mixed anxiety and anticipation
about what to safely and kindly,
transparently and vulnerably
compassionately, so non-violently, share
communicate;
Which narrative tributaries to choose
within this vast spacetime stream
of choices
directions
felt depressions and erections.
Do you remember
communication theory
framed as Rhetorical Events?
Our initial walk and talk,
eating together,
rather than my refrigerator foraging
brunchtime usual rawfood practice,
is a graced green,
rain giving way to blue, memory for me,
and, I hope, for we
these sacred walking
secular talking
people.
Successful rhetorical events,
as I recall,
and have co-passionately experienced
with ecstatic thrills
and mysterious chills of anticipation,
wanting more and more
cascading throughout my too isolated life,
Are cooperatively held spaces
resonant and verbal and non-verbal places
longing to become resilient
as ultra-violet light
in phosphorescent mystical night,
bright
and warm
without ballistic fright,
inviting sounds of sight.
So I drove home
basking in such rich
potentially resilient
transparent and vulnerable
articulate yet impassioned
felt experience
confirming all my own ego’s grand theories
about win/win non-violent
Rhetorical compassioning
Events.
My anxieties spoke later
about mutual physical
natural, yet also spiritual,
attraction–
this smell and taste neurological chemistry
of touch exhaling
to co-empathically predict
our romantically felt quality
inhaling integrity’s great resilient passions,
shared loves
communal,
deeply green cooperative,
that rhetorical day
as true and beautiful for us.
It has been thirty years
since my last first date,
with a man who became my unanticipated husband,
partner
spouse
lover
quarreler
critic
listener
emotive voice
co-investor
political ally
communicator
miscommunicator
long-term rhetorical event
cooperative space-holder,
mediator
not really quite green enough
for resonant felt
and thought co-passionate experience
near our end
of cohabitation.
Nearly half my lifetime,
thirty years,
and I feel anxious
I have not yet learned
appropriate new old person rules
of transparency
and vulnerability
to be clear
and kind,
compassionately clear
about my natural/spiritual
physical/metaphysical attractions,
anticipations,
anxieties.
When I last dated
a gay encounter of the first kind
either ended nakedly together
or with a scheduled second date
with a bed
or a sling
or a deserted moonlit beach
front and center on our anticipated menu
Or ended in disaster,
no connection,
no further warm and resonant communication,
no passing green light Go!
I did not “date”
men who lived so very far away,
out of state,
unless one of us was planning to relocate
or both of us were anticipating
an extremely resonant
one hot night stand
lying down together,
exploring all the vertical
and horizontal dances
we could imagine ever wishing we had done
to further gather
future’s warm anticipations.
I am anxious
because I do not want to disappoint you
or me
about our embodied
non-verbal communication
and passion together.
My own nakedness
lies nowhere near my vulnerable
and transparent self-esteem
as was the case
when I last dated
and I do not know
what to do
and not do
with that.
I have no mentors,
no wise teachers,
no therapeutic facilitators,
no sex therapist
to talk and touch me through
this anxiety.
But, I do anticipate
an unfortunate comparison
I met on our silvered dating site
the same day I first heard you
connect climate pathological effects
with capitalistic causes,
which immediately won my curiosity
to know
just how deeply knowing
we might go
together,
and not apart.
I met another singer
another meditator
another deeply
physically connected
to Taoist sensory communication
yangly verbal and yin non-verbal,
More physically incarnated
and less metaphysically abstract
less theoretical
merely rhetorical
more mature
aged
connected like wine with cheese
and re-connected
than my own experience
in how to mutually
yet maturely
please.
Last evening we talked.
His voice sings and rings,
warmly chills and quietly thrills.
And, he is closer.
Teaches dance.
We anticipate learning together
how to tango horizontally
without creating an entangled mess
at our ripe old average age
of 69
Which,
when I last dated
was a cooperatively rhetorical
erotic position
and not an age
which we sensually anticipated
without great anxiety
about resilience
of sensual resonance.
For me,
this need not be a win or lose,
either-or situation.
Even less so
if I thought the two of you
would appreciate each other
in this partner searching
lifeline rivered
shivered way,
but that is not what I would anticipate
either of you would say.
So, that is what is on my mind
and heart
and root chakras
this another deep green
ego-centering
and ecosystemic rhetorical day.
Said my vertical horizontal way,
physical and metaphysical
natural and spiritual
secular and sacred
love with you
and hell to pay,
anxiously anticipating
your kind
non-maligned
response.
Capitalism
is an economic strategy
and/or theory
that harbors no inefficient room
for healthy democratic love,
to live or die trying
(and not slowly fade away
not trying)
and for concomitant
co-arising
co-relational
positive correlational
ego/eco-relational
co-passionate
compassionate
wealthy multicultural values.
Cooperativism
is an inclusive incorporating culture,
with an economic systemic plan,
a politically healthy theory
rooted in democratic
and robust multicultural
win/win privileged values.
Expectations of cruel
and unusual win/lose punishment
strategies for fake
disempowering
undemocratic justice
is what runaway cascading capitalists
dream of drowning in
each nightmare night
of winners v losers politics.
Anticipation of kind
and natural/spiritual win/win rewards
for restoring Earth’s healthy green justice
is what cooperativists
wake up to
each co-arising economically buoyant
democratic dawn
Of ecosystemic RightHemisphere rest
prevailing over
anthro-centric LeftHemisphere restlessness
about Yang global
v Yin spinal spiraling
health empowering emphasis
of multiculturally cooperative patriotism
over monoculturing capitalist fealty.
Eastern non-violent communion teachers
pass along a sacred tradition
that enlightened moments
of healthy integral life
predict wealth optimizing death
of future moments
for verbal left-hemisphere dominant
society of Man v Woman,
Yang v Yin
Left v Right bicameral
bilateral co-arising
Life/Death balancing resilience,
regenerate/degenerate
Organic/ergodic
ionic/bionic/ironic good-humored energy
electing electrically transporting wealth
of non-violent choices
to more resonantly balance
decisions toward propulsion
with repulsion,
More fully leaving discontinuous acts
and dissociative scenes
and dissonant communication
for indigenous multicultural Turquoised
ultra-nonviolet
ancient full moon celebrations
Vacationing at enspirited home
within sensory sexual climaxes
without residual sensual needs
to transport further aggression
where good win/win healthiest wealth
could not return toward red and angry life
on Earth’s most beautiful green/blue
frames restoring Justice
In EarthTribe’s multicultural society
at Peace,
rest,
Just distant enough from efficient death
to remember intimate generosity
transporting communions
recalling richest green/blue Life
for healthy non-violent EarthSystems.
Revolving Earth knows
from ancient sense-sexual
life experience
That we,
as global EarthTribe regenerators,
do simultaneously experience
seasons of summer north
and winter south,
That we do
already know
and financially appreciate
dualistic capitalism West
and nondualistic Both/And communion
ancient indigenous East multiculturalism,
That we are
already bicameral
Either/Or deductive Left bipolar hemispheric
and Both/And inductive Right dipolar spheric,
That triangulation
of health care choices,
win/win
win/lose
lose/lose
has many warm and healthy,
safe and wealthy,
therapeutic empowering
enlightening systemic voices.
Lying under the dynamic heart
of ancient theological reflection
is experience,
as is true of any resonant theology
of ecological relationships
between resonant feelings
and resilient energies;
Experience
and ecological reflection about
compassionate
spiritually-felt communion,
touch
sensations
pressures
and plunges
of win/win universal relationships.
A theological term
for this heightened
and deepened
and widened cooperative
contemplative management
and ownership
and mutual becoming together
sacred experience
is “transubstantiation”
Of exterior wine
as also interior blood shared,
Of natural bread
as also spiritual embodiment,
Of Yang health energy
as also Yin wealth
of win/win light flow
between
and among visualized
smelled
tasted
felt
shared sensory chakras,
Of exterior nature
as also interior spirit,
Of secular bipolar experience
and ecological reflection,
as also sacred dipolar transposition,
co-empathic
bilateral
both/and compassion,
and theological/ecological
spiritual/natural energy
for co-embodied healthy contemplation
Of outside being
as also inside becoming
compassionate win/win communion
sacredly together
urgently needed,
and climatically wanted
even more than co-emergently needed
seeded,
co-invested
much more than segregated apart,
antagonistically win/lose co-divested.
Transubstantiation of health care communion
empowerment politics,
Love overwhelming
economically unenlightened win/lose competitions
for more prevention of future
individualistic
anthropocentric
nationalistic pathologies.
Transubstantiation,
like communion,
the ultimate win/win
therapeutic
ego/eco-political experience;
resonant Right
resilient Left.
I’m not sure what Freud’s Pleasure Principle is all about,
or was about Health and Safety;
Whether it’s in
or out,
Whether hedonistic
and narcissistic
or the mundane
secular
capitalist
corporate product
of efficient sexual therapy
and heartless entertainments.
Whether the Principle is applicable
only to secular masters
for optimal “sacred rights” experience
Or also accessible to sacred slaves
as our secularized vocation
to provide for our nasty property owners,
Whether it is the primary purpose
of capitalism’s efficient,
if ruthlessly competitive,
corporate monocultural deformation
into post-climax apathy
and cynicism
and cruel and unusual punishments,
Yet, somehow,
as I merge into this stream
of organic fossils
still miraculously refueling,
I am sure this Pleasure Principle,
Beacon of Health and Safety Bliss,
Paradise Pursuit
Could only be entered
by those wise enough to recognize
it is cooperatively
globally
multiculturally owned,
managed interfaith communion,
interdependently experienced
and multiplied
Into raptures
of organic/cosmic
internal/external climates
of and for personal
political
economic
ecological
theological
neurological win/win Climax
Of spaciated bilateral Time
dynamically equals revolutionary bicameral Space
in NonZero-Sum
open-holistic yet still emergent
equipoise waves
of self/other co-conscious
co-passionate
co-empathic
co-intentional
co-operative comm-union comm-unication.
Well,
thanks for sharing all that.
De nada;
my Pleasure.
The problem with positive psychology,
said the good doctor,
it is too social science squishy,
not leftbrain prickly enough
for natural science pathologists
proctologists
urologists
cardiologists
and invasive neurologists.
I must concede
not prickly enough
indeed
said the polyvagal systems neurologist,
but sometimes premature complexity
looks like yet another chaos theory,
and sometimes spiritual prepowerment
feels like merely natural enlightenment
yet deja vu,
and sometimes too bilaterally sticky
predicts co-arising redundant dipolarity,
Neurological bilateral structures
of left meets right hemispheres
as West greets East
multicultural mediation
as ego hugs ecosystemic health-rooted trees
of reverse hierarchical
above Truth lies downside Beauty.
Mesmerizing,
I’m sure,
temporized the Earth Therapist,
while human nature
military-industrializes ancient cooperative relationships
the remainder of EarthTribes
continue to evolve and emerge,
breathe out and in
bilateral gooey prickles
social and natural
metaphysical and physical
ecosystemically informed egocenters,
communitarian capitals,
well-timed spatial places
Not knotted polyvagal positive theories
of EarthMother’s original neurological root systems,
bicamerally restructuring
to emerge new leftbrain capital-invested upstarts
of deductive
reductive
extractive
either/or dominant thinking
When too engorged,
unilaterally engaged,
prejudicially divested,
unknotted,
untied,
profoundly detached
yang v yin pathology
for sufficiently prickly/gooey
mountainous river valleys of in-between
ego/ecometric bardos balance
Living/dying
inside outside EarthTribe
cooperative bilateral empathy
ecologically theological,
naturally social sacred,
historically multicultural,
anciently new green organic age,
biological neuro-system flowing
Fractal DNA
primal four dimensional spacetime
not ZeroSum
ZeroCore
prickly full of Either/Or bilaterals
and gooey Both/And bicameral
not not empty
enthymematic reiterations
of prickly force Yang
and gooey flow Yin,
win/lose exploration
and win/win absorption,
exhaling capitals
and inhaling communions,
natural empowering light
and social enlightening beauty
of positive eco-political psychology.
Outside of spiritually empowering meditation
is nature’s organic liturgy
of creation
more positively enlightening
than degenerative dogma.
Within liturgical ritual
awaits spirited medication
healing win v lose,
left v right,
yang v yin,
inhale v exhale,
ego v eco
inside v outside
below v above
before v after wounds,
Reconnecting our bicameral
bilateral
binomial potential
for win/win resolutions,
resiliently resonant
Natural sacraments
causing effective causes
with spirited
regenerating intent
holy
as holonic
iconically interconnected
Analogous metaphors
inside ecological theologies
outside neurological biology,
phylogenic history of regenerators
enlightening empowerment,
once again
resiliently secular/sacred resonance.
