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Listening for Sustainability

My daughter,
with Fetal Alcohol crippling emotional intelligence damage
and Cerebral Palsy perpetual TerribleTwo
“is too many,
because Earth is all about ego-defiant me”
has taught herself
to attach her lips,
and sometimes her wet licking tongue
when she is feeling particularly needy
and/or playful
or maybe just hungry,
to my male dominant capitalist-head
when she needs to feel noticed
attached
connected
invested in
better.

This Saturday morning
she commits the unpardonable sin
of waking up before seven a.m.
Eleven is closer to her business as usual.

After bath and costuming,
both accomplished with as little support from me,
autonomously distracted, as possible,
she goes to our kitchen
to watch her favorite animated song and dance loops
on It’s All About You
Tube.

I am hanging out with my son,
also with cerebral palsy,
but unable to walk without balancing assistance
and unable to talk in either direction,
talk back or proclaim forth,
which is more his sister’s favorite skill set.

After a few minutes
of only slightly compromised peace
this sunny summer Saturday morning,
the daughter comes in
to demand her support staff (me)
prepare her royal breakfast (immediately).

I invite her to self-serve.

She says No!
repeatedly
while I remind her
she is capable of going to the freezer,
extracting one microwave pancake and sausage
on a stick,
wrapping it in one square of paper towel,
opening the microwave door,
placing it on the rotating glass plate inside,
closing the door,
pushing 1, 0, 0,
waiting for the ding,
and removing her breakfast by holding the stick,
waiting for it to cool,
removing the paper towel,
and devouring the pancake,
then the sausage,
as usual.

She responds
I want you to do it.

I respond
I want you to do it.

“No, Help me!”

“I am helping you!”

“No!
You do it; not me!”

“Why?”

“Because I”m watching my tablet.”

“And I’m trying to meditate
and write!”

“No! Help me!”

So, I ask for a time out.
We have been at this same impasse countless times.
It’s a ritual,
obsessive and compulsively lose/lose.
We are both not listening
while we are also not meditating
and watching
and writing healthier song and dance stories.

What’s happening here?
You know you can make your own breakfast.
Is this about not wanting to be alone?
Do you want me to show you
how crazy I am about you?

“Can I have a kiss?”

And then we do the “my lips on your head”
And “my head on your lips” ritual.
I give her a back and shoulder massage
while she has her therapeutic attachment breakfast.

My daughter smiles,
leaves the room without further demands,
goes back to the freezer,
pulls out a Blanketed Pig
on a stick…

I go back to writing
about resilience
and remediating potential lose/lose Earth climates
and emotionally cooperative reparations.

My son goes back to sleep,
having had a good belly laugh
at our curiously outspoken craziness,
reminding me
Curiosity is a more effective left-hemisphere tool
than working hard to feel right-hemisphere patience
in the face of apparent weapons
wielded by alien win/lose forces
in an otherwise win/win potentiated
interactive ego/eco-system.

He sits up,
groaning
repeatedly,
until I re-emerge
aware
He needs a diaper change,
on this peaceful sunny summer Saturday morning
riding still-revolving climates of Earth
re-creating green-blue-red
ultra-nonviolent win/win living systems
of actively communicating co-enlightenment.

Maybe we’ll have lunch on the backyard deck
under our barn red umbrella
as the Thames River continues to flow downstream
from northern stars
toward southern sun sustaining states.

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Paying CreatorEarth Back

I hear at least two national conversations
that seem mutually contradictory
and equally impossible,
or at least revolutionarily improbable
as compared to normal win/lose capital extractive
hoarding habits
in robust cooperative investment accounts,
business as not necessarily healthiness usual.

I listen to “Third World” people of color
and colonization-enslavement history
more recent than the white serfs
and spear-carriers
of my own “First World” long-term memories.

Pleas for remediation
precede unpleasant declarations of independence
precede demands for remuneration, please?

But what does remediation look like,
sound like,
feel like
in the fracturing face of ongoing resource acquisition?

How are demands for independence
from First World aristocracy
different, and the same,
compared to demands of interdependence
for ecotherapy of win/lose global climates?
Internally heading south
in a negative lose/lose external way
and a pathological internal,
left-hemisphere capital-headed,
narcissistic way to play

Courageous warrior
against our own right-hemisphere curious feelings,
emotional win/win intelligence,
attachment within this interdependent web
womb of healthy EarthMother
creative regeneration stories
for ego-healing
ecotherapeutic remediation.

How would we begin to afford
to heal our win/lose capitalism colonizing history?

How could we undo past degenerative evolutions
of multiculturally thriving bioregions,
health-wealthy robust ecosystems,
ecofeminist cooperative healers,
peace-warrior creators
“carrying all the eggs,”
nutritional communication womb carriers,
yin-flow remediators of extractive historical violence
against each First through Third World other
and in capitalistically defined wealth
at war with compassionately refined health
of cooperative win/win
ego/eco-therapeutic systems within

And anthro/Earth-therapeutic global
through local
healing win/win systems health-wealth
secular-sacred
left-right
yang-yin
fragmenting remunerative new birth trends
as integrity regenerative.

Perhaps declaring my own interdependent attachment
with She Who Carries All Earth’s Eggs
begins my internal reparation
remediation
remuneration
for all the left-hemisphere dominant capitalistic win/lose games
I have loved
simply by honoring my Father over Mother

Rather than restoring my cooperatively interdependent EarthMother
bothNature/andNurture healthy co-arising circular first
and FatherSun
left-hemisphere enlightenment
eitherLight/orDark wealthy deductive
linear cause/effect second.

 

 

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Resilient Health Care Systems

Competitive economic experience
breeds business as usual
capital-growing cultures
with a special preference historical
for white privilege patriarchal
remembering and designing
left-brain dominant educational systems.

Cooperative ecological economies
breed more organic networks
of permacultural health
and nutrition
and communication experience,
with a special historical preference
for ecofeminist Earth-empowered
deep learning
listening
noticing prime primal attachment relationships
between internal ego-
and external eco-
systemic balance,
harmony,
interdependent equity,

RightBrain HealthWealth Prominent ,
liberal leftwing progressive,
freedom from isolated loneliness,
depression,
repression,
suppression,
AND
LeftBrain WealthHealth Dominant,
conservative rightwing defensive,
freedom to impressively
robustly
compassionately
nutritiously thrive

without eating the less brilliantly aristocratic help

and remembering to at least say
Please and Thank You and You Are Welcome,
is where civil rights end
and co-responsively begin.

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On Health We Agree

Earth History, lectured Fr. Time,
has always favored leftbrain culture,
too either/or bipolar
to rightbrain’s more both/and interdependent way
of feeling and touching,
hearing before seeing and speaking
in rhyming reason,
not out of season.

It was leftbrain’s technology of coins
that led to capital value economic systems
severed from nutritional ethics of ecological relationship
connection
co-attachment
of leftbrain healthy intentions
with rightbrain wealthy sensations

For secular thoughts and sacred feelings
surrounding
embracing
inviting physical integrity
with metaphysical sweet spots
longing for climax
regenerativity
resonance
resilience.

Our leftbrain cognitions
reasons
awareness
remain culturally suspicious
of rightbrain’s primordial ecofeminist wildness,
attachment to both/and interdependent webs
where leftbrain would liberally build, at healthy best,
egalitarian walls of fragmentation
between identities of loyal egocentric
anthrocentric wealthy nations

Now composed of rightbrain under-educated
under-formed atrophy
of rightbrain both/and co-passions,
healthy-wealth of eco-political family empowerment Time

For MotherEarth and I
to reconnect healthy rapture
with wealthy liberal resilience,
both/and attachment feelings
with either/or discernment revolutions
less industrial
so more organic,
less patriarch competitive
so more ecofeminist cooperative,
less colonizing divestment of under-performing rightbrain properties,
so more robust creolizing transubstantiations
of communal left/right
ego/eco
health/wealth compassion therapies

Balancing nutritional polycultures within
while harmonizing health/wealth climates without.

EarthMother co-responds,
My sacred creation story is this same integrity’s potential future,
but begins win/win upon Fr. Time…

On this we agree,
writes and prints,
publishes then promulgates Fr. EnLightening Time
to and for and with all EarthMother’s fertile tribes
capable of listening
and remembering multiculturing DNA’s regenerate history,

LeftBrain colonization appropriates aggressively
anthropocentrically
monoculturally
industrially commodifying EarthMother’s healthy wealth,

Exercising supreme ecopolitical control
over Earth’s multiculturally compassionate webs
of polypathic future regenerations
reknitting
reweaving
restoring leftbrain natural health
with rightbrain spiritual wealth,

Favoring cooperative capital co-investments
over competitive
either/or
capitalism unholy divestments
from Earth Rights and Responsive Responsibilities
of all sacred communing
climaxing EarthTribes.

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Spiritual Culture Association

WellBeing,
personal and political,
economic and ecological,
comes in at least two colors,
maybe four,
possibly octaved more,
but for every listening then speaking you,
natural health
green-blue,
and spiritual wealth
red-blooded true.

Natural health
longs for individual freedom
for nutritional,
nourishing,
nurtured rights
of cooperatively creolizing life
toward more wins winning climax climates
and long-term polycultural outcomes.

Spiritual wealth
belongs securely in interdependent polypathic webs
of family extending back past historic MayFlowers
and indigenous FireCircles
to DNA eco-governing couplings

Synergy
emergent integrity
in revolutionary surprising healthy multicultural ways
and making means resilient
brilliantly safe and secure health
from generations past
for regenerating future climate win/win sustainability,
inside-ego and outside-eco
co-present awareness,
self/other conscious attachment,
re-connection.

Individual health rights
and collective wealth responsibilities,
freedoms, both to and fro, equally co-responsive
and secure wealth of health
interdependently optimal;

Two color culture faces
of one civil and communal covenant
within healthy climate
historic revolutionary multicultures,

Earth health rights
for responsible
cooperatively managed resource wealth,

Ultra-nonviolent
global communi-nation,
through less defecation
of EarthMother red co-attachments fueling spirits within
MotherEarth green-blue integrity potentiating natures without;

GreenBlue
co-inviting ReStorativeRed.

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Outside Health Habitats

Many of our most integral
holistic
spiritual,
re-ligioning,
re-connecting,
loyal pursuits
lead us on an individual
inside well-worn faithful path
that monoculturally separates
internal inside climate issues
from Earth’s vast extended family
outdoor voices
of concern and comfort.

Higher multiculturing
multi-generational
poly-regenerational truths
are also deeply sensed
outside inside quiet contemplation,
alone within four straight flat walls,
autonomously separate fragments
of global life/death epic issues

Inside silent still
contemplating past rounds
fired by negative Muses of DeGenerative Change
draws distorting hard distraught
fundamental flat walled lines
boxing in sad egos
trapped inside eco-habitat outdoor stifling
and freezing
toxic separation
within/without
severing our win/win rightbrain inside voice
from our win/lose left outside choices
as if two oppositionally defiant climate issues.

As if we are condemned to an unsustainable
bipolar
duality of mind
more chronically dispassionate
than a singular
creative dipolarity
of heart/mind
felt/thought
trust/truth

Pursuing
inviting our win/win ego/eco-nutritional truths
physically-sensually whole,
while severed from outside voices,
harmonic and dissonant muses,
longing for in/out communion,
diminishes emerging full rhapsodic chords,
Earth-sung moments
achieving wider stretching intimacy
engagement
climax

Integrity with those ecologically around us
theologically and historically within us,
healthy and pathological cultures
win/win and lose/lose,
living and dying climates
and all becomings
win/lose rounds of compromised win/win inside/outside change
in-between harmonic intervals
of full-octave Earth scale resonance,
resiliently polypathic.

Inside creations
grow more resiliently healthy
when surrounded by supportive outside meditations,
medication,
ego’s ecotherapy of healthy choice.

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Gospel Rewrites

I think, and sometimes fear,
we have two ways, maybe more,
to read the four holy gospels,
and any sacred scripture,
and any regeneration/degeneration story
of creative tension,
win/win sweet spot future aspirations
midst win/lose historic raw spots
of past experience.

We can read Earth’s inspired articulations
as a book of spiritually correct answers,
removed from complex historical-cultural context
in a move toward fundamentally correct creed development
for moral
and political
and economic
and ecological correctness.

And/or
we can listen for Earth’s expirations
and inspirations,
reading and listening to naturally spiritual correcting questions,
embedded in universal historical
and uniting multicultural content
of fundamentally healthy development
for resiliently robust climates
and cultures,
timeless times of spiraling revolutionary win/win
ego/eco-logical balance corrections.

If we too readily approach sacred scripture for morally correct answers,
we are likely to forget
divine purpose seeks better,
more inclusive,
inviting,
transparent,
vulnerable,
courageous and curious health questions.

 

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Personal Politics

Often,
personal issues are not entirely about some violation of rights,
but also about politically empowering responsibilities
to cooperatively take care of ourselves,
our healthy/unhealthy families,
our neighborhoods and local communities,
our faith communities and eco-villages,
our states and nations
and oceans and international associations,
our competitive cooperatively-owned commons
and economic corporations
and ecological organic incorporations.

Often,
personal issues
are our greatest political health opportunities
to invite compassionate democracy
by letting go of competitive disempowering degenerative evolution theories,
to invite rightbrain consilience
by letting go of left brain cognitive/affective detachment dissonance.

Often,
personal rights issues
are also political healthy wealth responsibilities.

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Feeling is Believing

To feel is to believe
without reason.
To realize is to believe
with reason.

To feel is to believe
in a spiritual inside touch,
surprising humor
torrential flood
without conscious reason.

To realize is to believe
in my natural inside reach,
surprising good and bad subconscious humors,
rumors,
tumors,
torrential potential soul flood,
with both ecological-left secular
and theological-right sacred reasons
for healthy v pathological seasons
of life,
love,
lush subclimates of harmonic compassion.

 

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Following Our Rules

In our Sharing Circles
we have a ground rule
to share a one speaker at a time floor
and unitarian silent listening support

And rules to not verbally share uninvited commentary
suggestions
agreements or disagreements
during, and after,
this formalized Circle.

Speakers are invited to share from experience only,
not from someone else’s story,
experiential and/or theoretical,
parental and/or academic,
personal and/or professional.

This is a Closed Circle
of verbal communications,
a rhetorically autonomous inside job
only silently noting our egalitarian
nonjudgmental
side by sideness
of authority
responsibility
compassion;

Help,
Thanks,
Wow!;

Truth,
Beauty,
Silent Passion…

If we are a composition,
we enter an historic symphony of solo voices
implicitly singing our universality
experiencing time’s nurturing
and severing qualities
and relentlessly insufficient quantity,
except when anyone else is speaking
business as too coldly
or too warmly
usual.

In our Reading Circles
our implicit ground rule culture differs
more in favor of the spontaneous spoken word,
this good news,
extemporaneous,
and bad fake news,
distemper-odious,
gospel we scribe together,

Usually one voice leading
a sustained melodic theme,
sometimes harmonic and splendid,
sometimes dissonant and diminished,
inviting in compassionate responses,
major and minor,
listening for counter-melodies,
for analogies
metaphors
curious oxymorons,
outrageous internal pun fun,
rhymes
and maybe the occasional reason,
held with soft determination
and not hard determinism.

Participants are invited to share
harmonic voices of MeToo
and to gently question why
my own dissonantly deviant choice
traps me in feeling detached,
uncertain,
less certain,
more certain we must be missing
some counter-balancing dirge of risk
and full-circle opportunities
for evolving peaceful revolutions.

We sing in Open Circle rounds
of theory meets experience
greets political philosophy
and primal attachment theory
applications to all relationships
ego logical and unlogical and anti-logical
and dis-passionate,
conscious and unconscious and suppressed consciousness
and more dispassion,
and ecological and ecosystemic
and healthy climate logical
for growing reading circles
into speaking and listening communion rounds
of timeless symphonic conversation,
dia-logos about favored/unflavored mythos.

Cooperative conveners
encourage each other
to speak from felt experience
of belief and disbelief
in some published teacher’s expression of experience
with timeless patience and time-heavy impatience,
of joy and sorrow,
courage and curiosity,
compassion and dispassion,
intimacy and repulsion,
about some subject’s story,

Where it does and does not meet our own time
chosen and not chosen
political and personal
economic and ecological
natural and spiritual
secular and sacred
regressive and progressive
inhaled and exhaled
patriarchal and matriarchal
competitive and cooperative
vulnerable and transparent
longing and belonging

New yet old
wealthy when healthy,
democratic when not kleptocratic,
integral when not fragmenting,
unitarian when not too universally closed
to further sacred gospel co-inspirations,
co-passion,
co-presence,

Timeless unity
yet eternal open university,

Secure rounds
yet within freeing surrounds,

Cultural sweet spots
within historic raw plots.

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