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Witnessing at the Mall

I’m at the mall
waiting for my new lenses
to find their inside home
in my old frames,

Hopefully
not like new wine
in old
opaque
outside skins.

I try to engage
with an anthro-war story,
“The Invisible Woman”

Feeling myself silently camouflaged
in a sedate sitting area
sparsely inhabited only by my eyes
searching
and ears
spying

Listening for what invisible witnesses
hear
and empathically feel

“In wartime,
trusting the wrong person
can prove fatal.”

How much safer is trust
in peace time?
anthro-dominated
industriously capitalized.

Does living Earth
even feel like peace time?

Or Business As Usual
domestic abuse,
neglect,
silent, but not really nonviolent,
atrophy?

Degenerating entropy?
of a human child’s boundless curiosity,
enthusiastic health,
win/win wellbeing
luminosity.

“Virginia…
will do everything in her power
to avenge the brave people
she lost.”

Is the only important difference
between brave patriotic people
and innocent victims of autocracy
a sacred v secular division
between anxious war
sacredly declared
and every shopping day
peace deal making
between secularized
competing consumer diplomats

Perpetually undeclaring
rights of conscientious
personal bodies
to remain innocent
of ballistic
nihilistic
trauma producing
and stress consuming intent.

Is hero-worship the only moral distinction
between society’s righteous reactionary revenge
and personal power’s need,
want,
self-righteous entitled greed
to avenge?

“Virginia knows,
now more than ever,
that failure is not an option.”

A lot of pressure
stress
fear
anger
internal oppression
when mortality
and disempowering defeat
and disabling wounds
physical and mental,
natural and spiritual,
are not an option

When power is a weapon
wielded over OtherTribes
and cannot be a tool
kindly and carefully offered
without Othering.

Like seeing
with win/win restorative lenses
in old win/lose traumatized
Business As Usual
anthrosupremacist frames

For spying how exhausted I am
by silently witnessing
uncivil
anthro-war stories.

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Internal Dialogue

I have an internally repetitious desire,
need,
want,
to seek reassurance

Not so much about,
Am I the fairest/ugliest of Them all?

But, lately,
more maturely,
rationally,
calmly and yet curiously,
compassionately,

Am I healthy?
How am I healthy/unhealthy?
spiritually/mentally
naturally/physically
politically/personally

Meanwhile,
nonverbal rightbrain gut-felt instincts
follow a similar light toward healthy purpose,
but more intuitively systemic
than leftbrain verbal analysis.

If healthy consciousness,
then when,
where,
and why are we most safe
and least unsafe?

An appreciation/depreciation question
of healthy rational purpose,
or not

Rational, yes
but also,
more deeply,
a felt personal curiosity quest
for safe compassionate meaning
in relationship to
and from
EarthTribal
drawn-to-the-light
progenitors

Our indigenously wise
felt fellow
hearty
hardy
hale anthro-familials,
co-passionate organic environmentals,
edibles
and ornamentals

Mountain forest transcendent spaces
and river valleyed mellow
intimate meadows,
neighboring animals,
hospitably animated delicious insects,
singing birds
and fat and happy
yet clearly athletic
beasts

Bisexual flowers
and bilateral branch and root
universal health
and unitarian safety systems

Bipartisan public health enlightening
and safety empowering servants

Bilateral co-passionate
personal and systemically political
intelligence

Binomially resonant
resilient
repetitive
Left-secular-health/Right-sacred-wealth
feelings
of why MeWe
needs ego/ecosystemically win/win
safe thrival
and endless curiosity
about win/lose survivalist
unsafe risks
compromises
monoculturing egocentric
anthrosupremacist values

Predicting how lefthemisphere thinks
autonomously notices
individually processes NonZero Zone
is never ego-apartheid healthy
and always win/lose compromised,
potentially traumatized
for lack of abundantly democratic compassion
not autocratically virulent.

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Growing Trust

We do not listen
or learn,
sing
or dance easily
when we do not feel safe

When we are not sure we can trust
the voices not speaking and listening
with us,
but speaking over us,
around us,
against us,
beyond us,
without apparently caring about us

Our Lose/Lose
through Win/Lose
through Lose/Lose
neurosystemic imaginations
are triggered by toxic anxieties

Trauma anticipations
infilling vast lands
and oceans
of omnipresent win/lose uncertainty

Reinforced by capital investment
and patriarchal LeftBrain dominance
in our would-be deeply green
sacred GaiaFeminist
compassionate listening
learning dialogue
in-between cooperative thought
and compassionate feelings

Longing for healthier
safer
more resonant
and resilient
educational systems

Engendering the robust trust
that builds
and maintains healthy democratic
nonviolent communication
for restoring EarthJustice.

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When UnGifted

“A gift is different from something you buy, possessed of meaning outside its material boundaries. You never dishonor the gift.” Robin Wall Kimmerer

A social gift,
a gift for compassionate verbal
and nonverbal communication,
a healing gift,
is different from personal cash investment,

Possessed,
sometimes haunting, gifts
with sacred meaning
timelessly transcending
secular
egocentered
anthrosupremacist
monopolistic double standards,
double gifted/ungifted boundaries.

Healthy inter-religious
interdependent
creolizing polycultures
societies
nation-states
restorative justice systems
regenerative green peace networks,
never dishonor whole-sum gifts as tools for
and not weapons against

Trashed as ballast
for Great Straight White Father’s
unfortunately necessary wars,
originally sinful threats,
collateral human resource damage
of the also-rans
ungifted
unpowerful
disposable

Justified despite thereby losing environmental health
and losing active hope
for resiliently gifted human peace.

It is harder for an unstraight
unwhite
unmale nonbinary child
to emerge from genderphobia
feeling sensually gifted
neurosystemically cherished
wanted as is
than it is for a gifted matriarch
to sing and dance
feeling cherished
(and not marketed)
in transcendent eyes
of a God-needled gatekeeper.

A wounded gift
is different from some Thing
we try to buy
because multicultural integrity
is too high a climate health price
for Patriarchal
Corporate RedRight Capitalists
to stop hoarding Earth’s
Cooperative BountyCircled
Multiculturally Valued Gifts.

A sacred Blue/Green non-binary child gift
asks something of us
not quite so RightRed dominant
mishanding healthier non-binary sway
toward bicamerally balancing intelligence

Taoistic
Zeroistic
WinWin Game Theoretic
and Organic Systems Therapeutic
nonviolently gifted communicators,
green EarthTribe full-sensory educators,
ecofeminist theologians,
poetically prophetic ecologians,
compassionately multiculturally proficient
as not not gifted Positive You

Tipping straight up
as down dipolar gift appointed
Me/SystemicWe
multiculturally therapeutic
co-empathic resonance

PolyCultural EarthJustice resilience gifts
have always 1/0 binary DNA spiraled
through YangStrength/YintegralFlow

Sun enlightening/Earth empowering,
LeftGreen/RightBlue seasoned
red sky boundary reasons
for morning mourning warning
while red sky at night
dimly follows,
sailor’s gifted delight

East yintegrally dawns
on each cooperative living system
throughout Her resilient emergence
to this YangNow/YinHere
Speaking/Deep Listening
bipartisan healing opportunity

To reconnect
and reverse monoculturing powers
spoken in Yang v Yin competitive sexualized dissonance
transposed to sensory LeftGreen/RightRed
ultraviolet neurosensory confluence

Panentheistic
synergetic goddess senses
for regenerative religious gifts
and resonantly co-empathic
sensory-sexual win/win shifts
communed through health-systemic trust
in cooperative
pay back Earth forward thriving democracy

Built
developed
gifted
in cooperative win/win ownership
alternative economies
ecologies wherein those thriving
with the most nutritional value
in autumn’s harvest Earth-gift season
are those most generously delighted
to share next spring’s seeds
and nuts,

Roots
and winter’s roosting eggs
as widely gifted
and deeply co-invested
as possible

To reassure each gifted Other
that our intended wealthy climate
and personal ego healthcare chances
are way win/win way
better together
than win/lose ungifted
unwanted
unlovely drifting apart

Toward Lose/Lose nihilism,
ecopolitical genocide,
militantly RedRight fascist dominant
Whole EarthSystemic ecocide.

But, at least
no one will ever force RedRight you
to reconsider queers
and transexuals
and ecofeminist women
as if, just perhaps,
also sacred gifts

Or, at least not reconsider giftedness
of anyone you know was,
or is…

You know…
that OTHER wounded
ungifted
ungraced
curiously displaced

In MotherEarth’s healthy
regenerating gifted
Wealthy Life is Love Revival.

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Parsing Partisanship

Gay Rights are not Civil Rights
grabs my Yahoo facetime
fast-paced news rhyme

Civil Rights are not just Gay Rights
on my administrative time
bounces back a Left WhiteHouse reprise
that Civil Rights
include Gay Rights
as a necessary subset,
but not multiculturally sufficient anthem
to cooperative network define
a green ecosystemally co-passionate refinement

Sacredly inspired divine,
panentheistically supported,
indigenously wise
green party spirited natural civil rights

Are not
uncivil capitalist
straight Anglo Corporate Rights
are not particularly humane Civil Rights

Grabs my bilateral
dipolar-coarising attention
consciousness
awareness
green woke upness
ecofeminist positive
also means healthy and safe awakeness

“Gay Rights”
by your definition
on my Right,

Are those also “Women’s Rights”?

And/or “Lesbian Civil Rights”?

What about “Transgender Rights”?
if you are a tadpole
or a flower,

Would that be OK for you?

What about “Anal Intercourse Rights?”
for mammals?

Then there’s the ever popular
“Abortion Rights”
for trees
dropping her nutty egg seeds
before their time
in times of drought
and fire
and sensual deprivation;
lack of environmental support.

Could “Civil Rights”
include “Bisexual Rights”?

Would these be “Up-To-Half-Homosexual Heterosexual Rights”?

Or, more simply,
less schizophrenically
less blatantly half secular/half sacred
less curiously half wiki-spiritual/half natural

Not quite so mentally unhealthy
bipolar RightWing dominant
parsing
and non-parsing
rumination
ruination
of what might have been
bicameral “Healthy Democracy Rights”

Which are not UnCivil Rights
of AnthroSupremacists
to commit ecocide

While LeftWing
RightBrain repressives
wonder why their RightWing God’s
LeftBrain dominant monotheistic
monoculturalism
defines conservatism only negatively,
uncreatively,
degeneratively,
dissociatively,
dissonantly,

As economically
and politically needed
to reassure us
LeftBrain
Straight AngloCorporate worldview
on restoring EarthRights to Basic Climate Thrival
really must lack Win/Win green
emotive
contextual civil rights intelligence
of the average
woke up synergetic ecofeminist.

Regardless of species
doing their basic sensing
and complex feeling
personal
and global
and tribal
and familial
and multigenerational
and polycultural
and panentheistic
and systemically integral
sacred health care
organic civil rights homework

Which is what I was supposed to be doing
when
Gay Rights are not Civil Rights
grabs my Yahoo facetime
fast-paced news rhyme
and it’s not yet dawning
Sabbath spacetime.

Sunday morning nap time
is not uncivil screen time
for writing not really news rhymes.

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When CoEmpathic

When I feel compassion
with my positive needs
for love
health
trust
safety,

When I feel compassion
for my negative fears
wounds
negative fortress wants
to overpower perceived threats
against my egocentric compromises
with ruthless capitalism,
soulless patriarchalism,
strategic genocide,
extractive ecocide,
smug and heartless anthrosupremacy,
aggressively diseased LeftBrain dominance
inside my ruminating self
as schizophrenically viral
outside Those Evil People
voices
without kind choices,

When I feel compassion
with my healthy integral potential
and for my pathological capacity
to do more harm
to further wound EarthTribal consciousness
to militarize my fearmongering
and angry repressive words,

When I feel compassion
as the guy who loves listening
to friends and family
excited about our multigenerational attachments
to multicolored
and fabulously gay designed
and exotically sexy fragrant flowers

Is also the coempathizing guy
who shares DNA
and bicameral neurosystemic flow structures
with Vladimir Putin
and those who voted for him,
with Adolph Hitler
and those who voted for him,
Donald Trump
and those who voted for him,
Mitch McConnell
and those who voted for his Party,
and possibly even Representative Marjorie Taylor Greene,
and those Georgians who voted for her
bad blond self-image

Which is decidedly not Green
in any feminist compassionate
organically cooperative
and co-empathically engaged way,
and means to truth
and healthy resilient life

Maybe,
as I have sometimes whispered,
not-green Greene is a toxic infestment
machine
planted by an alien aryan planet

When I feel compassion
what do I need?
want?
crave?

CoEmpathic cooperation
and healthy co-investment,
experiences of win/win strategic game playing,
celebrating our resonant
positive
social neurological systems
for restorative health
for cooperative
long-term
EarthTribe safety.

When I feel compassion
for my engaged side
AND my dark and ominous potential
to fail in my own indigenous
humane
natural/spiritual development potential,

Then I can at least laugh
with my own creative conspiracy theories
and against my own tragic Earth-destructive
Mutually Assured Destruction,
MADness that might take out humanity

Or,
even worse,
eradicate Earth’s wild
and domesticated flowers.

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Feeling Anxious

When I feel anxious,
threatened,
endangered by mortal loss
of an immortality
never organically promised
for perpetual pleasures of compassion,

When I feel anxious
aging toward permanent disability
before my Wise Elder fruition
returns to brain fog
from which I came
in embryonic form
and flow
and function,

When I feel anxious
about unmerited,
or,
even worse,
merited infamy
as my destiny
rather than fame
fortune
flowering time,
what do I need?
want?
crave for pleasure
purpose
practice
praxis
just protocol
performance
peace persistence
proper procedures,
and, perhaps,
sacred organic meaning?

When I feel anxious
do I need
deep verbal and non-verbal connections
to those who share a home
with still embodied me?

Do I want reconnections
with healthy neighbors
co-cultivating an intentional
conscious
aware
woke
win/win curiously active
healthy and safe
green eco-political community?
resiliently resonant communion?
co-passionate communication network?

Does my own internal RightHemisphere
need healthy and safe communion
while my own activist LeftHemisphere
wants to restore justice
through nonviolent communication
between multiculturally informed,
prescient win/win community mediators?

Do I seek fellow hearty
and healthy Me/We sighted
and cited
home-sited organizers?
committed, yet playful, musicians,
political poets,
cooperative co-investors
in healthy democracy
resilient
resonant
buoyant EarthTribe advocates
combining party lines
for win/win strategic thrival

When I feel anxious
do I also need
to solitary write
or sing and dance,
or hum
quietly alone
with no witness
but my own?

When feeling anxious
slowly turns
to considering curious anticipation
beyond dark dread,
must I always remain quite so shy?
about intimacy,
hesitant to publish internal dialogue
free of censoring
potentially consensual fear
about patriarchal capitalist
investments in LeftHemisphere
white privileged
straight male dominance
as the healthy-safe opposite
of conspiracy theories
and transcendently divine
dogmas justifying inhumane
punishments.

When I feel free
to anticipate
our safe and healthy
EarthTribe future,
do I seek
Polycultural Cooperative Investments?
formed by Elder Indigenous Mind,
panentheistically sacred memory
co-empathically robust
health speaking
nonverbally felt
deeply resilient
nutritious
deep nurturing
positive socio-psychological
eco-political
multiculturing wealth.

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THAT Talk

So!
Well…

ummm….

When you are,
someday,
experiencing coitus
of some generic buzzy kind
common to all species
of loving life,

And you are about to have
a peak
polysensory
full mindbodied experience…

Excuse me for interrupting,
but I think you mean a peak
polyphonic engagement
or maybe
a polyvagal peak win/win default moment
in a neurosystemic
kinda pleasant
transportive
enlightening and empowering
serotonin and dopamining way.

Yes.
Both/And
All of the Above,
speaking with polycultural compassionate
nonviolent communication intent

And,
more back to the less LeftBrain verbal
original focus,
cooperatively acting,
co-investing
in a poly-lateral
compassion story game
you hope might never need to end,
alone again,
yet waiting for a repeat,
active hope
embodied wealth
whole-sum happiness regained

This sometimes ritualized
regenerative
sensory pleasure praxis
goes back in time
and out to include all Earth’s
regenerative
polyculturally self/other co-governing
Ego/Eco BiCameral Systems

YangLeft/YinRight
positive dialogue
between non-apartisan engagers,
mindbody co-investors.

Yet, to speak of Living Green/Blue Balance
of Earth’s healthiest wealth
as any living body of co-relationships
told and retold throughout
our global history

Now retold without shame
or punishment
assuming Sacred EarthMother’s
regenerative
holonic polyentheistic nature
spirit is to put an all-encompassing
multiculturally regenerative win/win meme
ahead of monoculturing
predative YangBang memory

As to how we win/win co-passionately got here
and feel mutually engaged
when, as global green health allies,
we stay focused on Earth,

Most sacredly pleasurable
Light yintegrity mysteries
and Power yang natural histories

Of our original non-zero polysensory
polymathic bilateral zeroism

PoliCulturally Light Hot!
and subversive Wet Empowering
regenerative
fast and slow-grown
peak resilient experiences

So,
yes,
THAT!
ongoing nonviolent talk

About procreative
health-wealth
mostly pre-verbal care
in pleasantly cooperative
deeply and widely engaging
thriving sensory relationships
of EarthTribe loving
regenerative revolutionaries.

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Abyss of EarthTribe Bliss

Tears of joy
are so much sweeter
than tears
and fears of sorrow

Yet no more resonantly
or less dissonantly
salty

With EarthTribe’s life-giving womb
recreating
oceanic awe,

Deeply organic
whole-sum
wandering wonder.

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Sometimes People Share

Sometimes pandemic people share
pieces of our unspeakable personal story

That no health care worker,
sex therapist player,
or green resonant systems organizer
wants to hear,
much less smell,
or touch,
or deeply feel…

I flinch, sometimes.

Wince.

Maybe flirt with longer-term
dissociation,
to protect myself
from suicide
to protect ourselves
from ecocide.

Make sure I’m OK
for now
right left here

And agree with my hurting
therapeutic parenting
wounded child
revisiting this past
and present chronic stress
including emotional panic
premonitions
of darkly changing
monocultures
and corporate monopoly
money decapitated
by compassionate EarthTribe
commitment to green cooperative
integrity

And agree with my hurting adult child
to resist this emotional panic premonition,
inhaled trauma,
physical mental
natural spiritual
shamed and blamed
punished and neglected
disempowered and unenlightened
unless revisited
for further bilateral reflection

To wonder how this bad news
from good people places
is OK to tolerate,
absorb
engage with active curiosity
hope
good humored faith
soon as we can figure
what to do with all those unemployed
and too often unemployable
soldiers

Later,
no rush
about defusing the nuclear bombs,
unrushed by unpatriotic fear
that climate degeneration
isn’t also an awkward
forecast for nationalistic
America First
post-pandemic economic depression

For now,
return to deeply listen
for internal trauma,
loss,
suffering
as yet avoided

Nightmares of Lose/Lose
final
mortal
terror
so far avoided
on our U.S. watch
and witness when Other
karma turns toward Us.

But, again,
no worries,
no knotted panties,
no habitual sad-lined lines

Inconvenient
and unseemly
despite longer-term property
and embodied health concerns
about global economic dysfunction,
disturbingly addictive,
spiritually seductive,
physically superlative
self-entertaining medications

Avoiding deep dark meditations
with even more win/lose despair
that slow-grown suicide
feels interpersonally familiar
walking heavily through
yellowing
drying
burning
flooding
eroding
melting ecocide
remembering,

But,
who is this
remembering witness
who flinches?
And is s/he
the same Yintegral green voice
compassionately speaking
that We are co-empathically OK
for now
left right here

But reserve a StraightWhite Privileged choice
to revisit again
as soon as this wounded ecofeminist child
takes this chance
to speak HiStory’s Trauma

And re-imagine together
how we will,
next global warming climate post-pandemic,
re-support each Other
with compassion
and cooperative corporate co-investment

Knowing we will always do long-term battle
together Flinching
while co-arising
ego-centric hurting Voices
making less than Win/Win
health-wealth therapeutically optimizing
BiLaterally CoIntelligent Choices

Not really accessible
when on the darker side
of physical/spiritual addictive substance empathy
flowing somewhere between
temporary dopamined up serotonin escape,

Flirting with sacred suicide ideas
and afflicted by nihilistic despair
of globally disempowering
and locally unenlightened
ecocide.

But, again,
who is this governing witness voice?
this supremely indigenous
EarthTribal choice?

Who sings a full resonant hope
for future healthcare
choosing blue/green resilient
revolving EarthDay
for, and from,
a full whole systemic
nonzero-sum
ecofeminist Win/Win choice

For more YangStrong
Yintegral Flow balance,
polyphonic harmonies of light,
synergetic equities for cooperative power.

Sometimes people share
winter hibernating gardens
of dualdark
not-not despair
double-binding
ego/eco-cidal.

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