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Freedom to Taste and See
Our green campus favorite
MuseSpeech Teacher
always hosted outside seminars
at noon,
Sharp!
And served chocolates
while mentoring
Her systemic theology
“Doesn’t get on well
with academic secularized ecology
we have
and have not
personally experienced.”
This is today’s thesis
and antithesis
for engaging stories
of synergetic peak experiences,
amusing EarthBright passions,
peace-warrior beauty,
scents of sage sensed joy.
S/he mediates lunchtime vocations
inviting us to try again
replacing all our “mono” orthodox theories,
with “poly” orthopraxis
to reconsider
healthy freedoms
shamelessly uncovered
through personal experience.
Trading in monotheistic theories
for polytheistic compassion
Monocultural nationalism
for polycultural globalism
Mono-polistic win/lose contention
for poly-polistic win/win intention.
As our internal clocks
move from ZeroSoul search
to OneSum find,
s/he concisely
and precisely creolizes
resilient bipartisan
transparency
through less transient opportunities
for curiosity
“Thank you for investing this lunchtime
with me
and each sacred Other
to learn to listen
before speaking nighttime’s questions,
wondering and wandering on
and on
about why tumescent monotheistic poles
most always feel so happy
to taste and smell
our officious pantheistic holes.”
Not Yet Time For Peace
Mistaking mere pluralism
for resonant polyculturalism
Is like mistaking chaos
for resilient complexity
Competitive darkness
and degenerative
confusion
for cooperative light
regenerating
consciousness
Free from win/lose
capital-driven anxiety,
Free toward win/win
co-invested anticipation
Dipolar coarising
Left/Right
UpMight/DownTight
root chakra balance
Resonantly resilient
Joy
of sacred unscared
unscorched Earth
Tribes timeless
unboundaried
win/win paradise
co-invested peace
Warm wombed
embrace.
Healthy Caring Systems
Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
I must learn to trust
Earth’s future more
Both Father Sun’s timeless
rounds of enlightenment
and Mother Earth’s
codependent rhythms
regenerating rich
empowering
soulful soil
And this trusting more
impels healing trauma’s lessons,
surviving hale and hearty lust
for too RightWing earned distrust
Unenlightened AnthroElitism
within our CommonEnglish languaged voice
while dismissing other naturally iconic sounds
and physical sights,
sacred smells
and mental tastes
Feelings that matter more
than mere white privileged noise
degenerating ego v eco-other
for mere win today
lose survival tomorrow
Much less anthro-resilient healthy
this RightFright Yang v yin militaristic
narcissistic AnthroSurvival
And we could also regenerate
more Yang/Yintegrally together,
rediscover strong and sacred Beauty
peak experience passions
CoInvested integrity’s historic
win/win therapeutic revival,
future multiculturing
verbal and nonverbal
compassionately thriving
and not merely nonviolently surviving
1/0 double-binary bipartisan polypaths
polynomial +1P=(-,-)0P, Tao wu-wei bilateral balance
0/1 cisbinary communication’s
deepest
and most peak
health (1 Universe)
wealth (0 Full/Empty Synergetic Ego/EcoBalancing)
bipartisan ecopolitical health care potential.
That is where we left off yesterday;
and today let us reconsider a related question
about more personal peak experience outcomes
of a health care bipartisan co-governing system.
First, we notice that robust polycultural systems
of win/win thrival
will always be negatively correlated with
exhausted monocultural failing Lose/Lose chaos
despair
trauma
chronic stress
degeneration
death
entropy
lack of any imaginable and/or remembered system
Re-articulating integrity’s most sacred,
and sometimes sexy,
peak regenerative experiences
Feeding our LeftBrain need for EitherYangly Yes
Or TooYinnish Yes and not yet know
Consistency with prior experiential
labeling of penetrating history.
What are our universal characteristics
defining and refining caring systems?
Sounds like we may be speaking nonviolently
of spacious and NowTimed compassion
and co-investment,
and active curiosity.
That works for me,
so let’s go one LeftBrain dominant step
further into verbally defining
what we might all agree
we win/win intend
to successfully differentiate
our health care resilient thrival systems
from our pathological uncare
unfelt lack of any non-degenerative
LoseLose chaos
entropy
despair
trauma
chronic ego/ecocidal
lack of unconditional
warm regard,
retributive blaming
and shaming
straight white monotheistic
monopolizing core panentheistic values
monoculturing neurosystemic despair
depression
oppression
full-spectral Win/Win suppression
of integrity’s compassionate
warm and caring
systemic potential
This recontextualing process
follows an ecological perception principle (EPP)
that it is not polyvagally possible to imagine
or remember ever feeling a caring system
that could co-incidentally be nonverbally noticed
much less defined
or even moderately refined
as any something
or non-peak co-relationally felt event.
Lack of warm unconditional win/win
sacred panentheistic regard
may feel as chronically anxious
as trying to re-imagine
an uncaring entropic
cold as a closed
non-systemic
vacuum of exflowing
information.
What we are capable of appreciating,
deeply rooted in ecological
and biological experience,
are Caring Systems
and not uncaring non-systems.
To define systems feels challenging
because systems, including organic
and Whole
and Open
and Universal Healthy Caring Systems,
all feel so overwhelmingly
and perhaps sacredly comprehensive,
synergetically complex.
Within your own neurosystemic framework,
maturing,
robustly thriving,
perhaps even enjoying elegant
and/or multiculturally exotic
and/or polyculturally erotic
peak Aha! Win/Win
Yang/Yintegral co-balancing experiences
As appositionally contrasted
against a monochromatic win now to lose tomorrow
or win EarthHealth Care Systems tomorrow
by sacrificing AnthroWealth Care Systems today
False dichotomies
nurture chronic trauma,
fear and retribution,
fire and thunder,
conspiracy theories,
like the witchhunt
or the devil
made me addictively
and obsessively,
sometimes violently,
sometimes greedily,
sometimes abusively,
sometimes neglectfully,
always anthro-narcissistically
think it
say it
do it to Eco-You
Lose/Win Dissociated
from interdependently nurtured
and anti-spiritually natured
independent Win/Lose surviving
Ego-Me
Here
in cooperative home
and Now
in my 71st revolutionary round
Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
deep and widely learning
to trust Earth’s curiously sacred
and courageous
peak health
and valley of integral wealth
win/win health care systemic
Yang InFormation
and Yintegral OutFlow
Networks of not-not
double-binding neurosystemic apposition,
sadly anxious
and gladly anticipating more nonviolent dialogue,
less win/lose zero-sum debate
for and against future’s EarthTribal WinWin gains
rethriving positive regeneration thoughts
Less conservatively unbalanced
degenerative negative
anti-eco/pantheo-logical feelings,
Ego Monotheistic Nature v Eco PanEntheistic Polycultural Spirit
More resident of EarthCare Global Peace Systems
cooperative, so not just competitively capitalistic
ecosystemically co-invested in continental/oceanic balance,
so less win/lose survival of one sovereign entitled nation
Or species
straight white male privileged
LeftBrain verbally dominant
anthrosupremacist win/lose or lose/win
karmic conspiracy anxious theories
Not yet anticipating
more deeply integral possibilities
Health caring systems
invite LeftBrain integrity’s inclusive
secular-1/sacred-0
ecotheistic EarthTribe
interreligious multiculturing wealth
caring compassion systems
Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
sharing trust
in EarthTribe’s health
wealthy ecofeminist future.
Healthy Caring
Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
I must learn to trust
Earth’s future more
Both Father Sun’s timeless
rounds of enlightenment
and Mother Earth’s
codependent rhythms
regenerating empowerment
And this trusting more
implies unlearning
letting go of trauma’s lessons
in surviving hale and hearty
RightWing distrust
Unenlightened AnthroElitism
within our CommonEnglish languaged voice
and without other physically iconic sounds
and sights
and smells
and tastes
Feelings that matter more
than mere white privileged noise
for self-regenerative thrival
much more healthy
than mere pathic
militaristic
narcissistic survival
If we would
together,
rediscover sacred Beauty
CoPassion
CoInvested in integrity’s historic
pre-historic win/win revival
and future multiculturing
nonverbal nonviolent
communication potential.
DisOrdered Sons and Fathers
May all sacred,
but not quite omnipotent,
fathers learn this day
as we impatiently correct
our stress-disordered sons
That respect is earned,
so maybe disrespect is too
positive and negative layered
for and against authority
for and sometimes restlessly against
repeating Business As Usual
white middle-class dadisms:
You snooze
you lose
May apply to your lethargic
chronically anxious
thuggish
couch-surfing
cannabis-fed son
And yet feels counter-intuitive
for babies
and us great grandads
who need our outside rest
away from commercial
too lit up
and loud
and relentlessly plastic
inhumane degradations
In such a rabidly anxious hurry
to wait for inevitable pandemics
and genocide,
floods
hurricanes
tsunamis
forest fires
drought
dry river beds
famine
insomnia
rabidity
Taking a snooze
feels like a healthy alternative to:
capitalist narcissism
anthropocentric monotheism
monoculturing nationalism
painful survivalist isolation
demented diseases
species extinctions
anthro-supremacist
safety and defense-oriented males
on a bad day
in a depressing moment
Become
yackity yack disrespectful
feeling privileged to rightwing exclusively define
“real [and not indefensively stupid] men.”
Yet quietly hiding
under these sacredly respected
and secular unrespectful unsuspecting layers
of diverse manhood hues and cues
and patriarchal cultures
Capital invested climates
prefer cooperative integrity
over dormant faith-based respect
and creatively traumatic disrespect
and unenlightened
stress-triggered unrespect
dis-integrity
Desecrating sacred solidarity feelings
learned today
as synergetic need/want supportive
communication systems
sometimes impatiently correcting
my pre- and post-traumatic
stress disordered father
son.
Empowering LifeStories
What is the main difference
between the life time of a star
and your personal trauma history?
Could it be for you,
as for me?
How long we take
to get from regenerative beginnings
in dark caved holy humble
BlackHole wombs
to degenerative desecrations
and/or therapeutic inside/outside
resonantly peaceful
light empowering ends.
What is your main difference
between personal liberation
from inside traumatic deliberation
AND outside avoiding condemnation?
At all inhibiting costs to Self
prohibitive costs to Others
disposable property costs to sacred MotherTrees
and other indigenous
sentient
residential non-taxpayers
Not to become confused
with Trumpian
“Vengeance is StraightWhiteMaleCapitalist Mine!!!”
All Narcissistic Mine!!!!!!!!!
which is the white privileged noise
of a NON-indigenous
parasitic
residential non-taxpayer
Who does not know the main difference
between the life time of a star
and His monotheistic personal trauma history.
Earth Hugging
What could I do?
What to do
when your biological,
and even formerly sober ecological,
relationships suddenly veer insanely romantic?
Or worse,
mistrustful
and yet
not always distrustful,
or not,
maybe deeper sadness
and occasional manic gladness
emerging inclusively wider questions
of approach and/or avoid
Both romantic
and yet soberly pedantic
sometimes before,
to plan, for after
feeling up
and/or sore
predicts anxiously down,
as genocide
predicts ecocide,
as biological attraction
follows ecological co-invested transaction
secular lust
must be felt sacred just
to know need for win/win romance
from greed for a winner take all
anthroprivileged chance
to flex power
without sharing light,
capital wealth
without nutritional health,
disvalues of Yang infestment
without Yintegral co-investment values
predation
without co-operative elation
My rabid rabbit hole
suddenly re-opening inter-religiously
grasping indigenously divine romantic
mystery
or sacred nomadic history
not told
or remembered
When mother trees
and father limbs
felt sexy
and bark,
like skin,
felt consensual,
ecologically curious
and biologically courageous
Mystically nondualistic
Yanged up healthy
and yet also,
more kinda ecofeminist
Yintegral safe sex
yet curiously pantheistic MotherEarth
[is, and is not my sacred EarthMother]
outrageously romantic wombing
What to do when
win/win romantic co-investments
don’t go green cooperative ecstatic
resiliently resonating peak experience?
Instead, may feel not just egotistic
but also HumanPredative
pedantic privilege
more than ecologically resilient
and/or romantically brilliant,
depending, I suppose,
on which side of the secular courage
v sacred curiosity
I may feel,
and need,
and want this day
Worshipping manly mountains
and crouching in warm breezed grassy valleys
multiculturally enlightening
and polyculturally empowering
New ego/eco-logical systemic questions
about what to do
when One dominating monotheistic
StraightWhiteMale
dogmatically scripted
incorporated
religion in Power
And yet
disproportionately GrandMother funded
and nurtured
and fed
while marginalized,
still feeling disenfranchised
and stuck
On what to do
when your biological
and even formerly ecological
sacred relationships
suddenly veer insanely win/win romantic
I suppose it has something to do with
avoiding your personal slam-bam purposes
to feed and breed
our EarthRevival slow-grown
inspiraling cooperative
deep sacred meaning
is also highest and best mindbody use,
not abuse
Tipping WuWei toward
P = N(NP)
equitable chance
of ego/eco-systemic
win/win resilient
bio/eco-logical resonant
brilliance,
as LeftBrain Either/Or
Light v Dark
is to RightBrain Both/And
+1/-(-0)= PolyMathic EcoPolitical Equity
Expressed in
polyvagal neuro-systemic communication
polypathic eco-systemic not not mental health systemic
natural/spiritual
thought/felt trauma prevention
internal/external resonant affection
resiliently romantic
good health humored
co-inspiring balance issues
Which keep obsessively
and compulsively,
defensively
and liberally
avoiding
and approaching
fleeing courage
and fighting/freezing curiosity
looping back
to what should I do
when my biological health
fights my former ecological wealth
of co-empathic communication systems,
suddenly and insanely veering
pan-sensory win/win romantic?
Seems a whole lot more
than merely not so win/lose traumatic.
Porky Problems
A porky problem
worth resolving
Is our scientifically hoggish evolutionary
survivalist assumption
that all Creatures that Matter
would highest and best
usefully support AnthroPrivileged
rabidly expanding WealthCare
EcoPolitical Systems
Monopolizing EarthMother’s breastmilk
and extracting fertile fuel
from her commercialized
and marginalized,
raped
and enslaved tits.
Pigs in a mud-warmed pond
experience a health care system
without monotheistic meaning
and not intending
or pretending
any monopoly rights to embodied pleasure,
much less spiritualized Paradise
As deeply as we can communicate
only AnthroGods and their Goddess Concubines
believe in our immortal EarthRights
to entitled lives that exclusively matter
for EarthMother’s healthiest wealth
resilient solidarity
and resonant synergy.
Swine, by compassionate comparison,
gladly show us
more resilient thrival instincts
than avoiding the Killing Butcher
by feeding and pushing our piglets
toward a capital-fueled Trauma Machine
As any pig would know,
survival of the fattest
is not necessarily as enlightened
or empowering
as we might
whole herd EarthTribe
together sacred grow
In cooperative mindfulness,
EarthTribal integrity,
solid
resilient synergy,
with the copassionate mindfulness
of a mystified
post-partum sow.
Dark
Dark chances,
unhealthy and unsafe trauma
HiStories
Degenerating predative dogmas
not wanting to let go of ballistics
even for dawning light’s sacred promise
to grab full-immersion hold
and heal dark mythologies
lose now and again later ecologies
repeat rehearsed
inside-only voiced
dark passion narratives
Speaking out alarmed Betrayal
from those you were taught to Trust–
[it was Her job!
I have an unconditional contract
on a warm wet naturally wombed
and spiritually unwounded
birthright!
Defying Other’s Anger
about my gift-economy Hypocrisy
about my sacred Golden Rule restriction
win/win positive aspiration,
invoked by nature’s spiritual
Hippocratic Oath
to at least do no damage
losing trusted breath in
so losing full breath back out
again
and again
and repeat breathlessly again.
My own most difficult,
occasionally traumatic,
distressingly long, slow
letting go transition
Feels almost inevitably headed
for natural health-Lose
spiritual health-Lose
despair
Unless we all keep trying our best,
not just me
cleaning up your mess
to suffering servant impress
All us AnthroPrivileged victims
aware of traumatic over-populated
rabid traumatic
and pandemic health risks,
and runaway
emerging PTSD
and dementia
and suicide
and matricide
and ecocide
Make it almost impossible
to respect ourselves
yet not fear
retributive justice officers
and judges
and monolithic Yang-Jehovah
Dispensing punishments and fines
and shame
and blame
where the only obvious victim
I can see
is me.
My dark protagonist continues
to be victimized,
even now in aging memories
Every day past light
leads, at dusk,
to dark future
leads, at dawn,
to soon past light…
Yet my attachment to enlightenment
encourages me to disregard
co-arising dipolar dark empowerments
bicamerally re-associated
Yet awkwardly, sometimes
with high-risk trauma histories
monoculturally LeftBrain
EgoCentric predative Yang
AnthroPrivileged Voices
stuck on healthy and safe past orthodox
value systems
personal
and economic
and political
and separate and unequal
bi-sensory
and anti-sexual competitive dogmatic traditions
Not spiritually or naturally learning
so not wanting to let go
even for dawning light’s healthy promise
to grab resilient hold
and heal dark
post-traumatic lose/lose
zero-sum global
ecocidal winterish nightmares
Dipolar co-arising
unconditional warm sun rising
well-moisturized
copassionately co-invested day dreams
and horizontal dances,
core-chakra interpersonal win/win
exercises
nonviolent practice
practice
practice
Until we get our cooperative peak experience
sacredly awesome
and restorative ecojustice
left and right again
BiLateral
BiCameral creolization
in timeless tides
of over-swelling
regenerativity
Not quite
so bleakly alone
trapped in silent screaming stark
Dark.
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