This sacred son
was not born to dance
or sing
or speak.
He will never read the paper
or earn his first green dollar
or sow
what success
more leftbrain enabled
hope to reap.
But, he is love.
His fashion fills compassion
He brings peace
And when he touches with his eyes
or reaches with his hand
to touch me
I am at last healed
enough
And then I know
why I was born to dance
and sing
and speak
this great and glad felt
and touching wisdom
of romance.
I was bruised by dogmatically non-evangelical
Christ monotheistic Jehovah judgmental bad faith
of divine powers
equally entitled
to generously create love
and selfishly act out of jealousy
divine punishment for unfaithful sins
of worship omission
and secularizing commission
Prescribed by the inspired
and kleptocratically negotiated
Greek
and Latin
and English transubstantiations
of AnthroSupremacist visions
speaking
and singing
and dancing
in white male dominant translations
Royal capital is holy
next to divine monopolistic inspiration
of presumably omniscient sacred values
captured by scribes
and conserved by councils
of presumably straight white orthodox
literate males
representing ecclesial royalty
Featuring Jewish Saul
turned Christ Active Revivalist Paul
writing self-governance purification letters
suggesting that ecclesial rituals
of a polytheistic sensual nature
are the opposite
of our most monotheistic spiritual
yet HolySpirit EarthMatriarchal mindful
sacred panentheistic experiences.
I am also more metaphysically resonant
as a YangNatural/YinSpiritual co-passion Taoist
believing through deep listening
to my (and possibly our)
deepest restorative regenerous justice
Yang/Yin co-operative communication intentions
throughout male/female co-investing reproductive
cause-effect linear days
and co-empathic
regeneratively resilient
lunar recircling nights
CoPassioning
yintegral humane sexuality
as our deepest,
highest
and best sacred sensory practice
positive synergy practice
health wealthing practice
till we get ourselves
Yang in and Yintegral out
depolarizing balance
resiliently Left/Right
co-empathic
resonant dialogical praxis
Bodhisattva
co-messianic
co-passionate Left/Right
internal/external communionation
practice
verbally positive thoughts
and metaphysical theories
about nonverbal healthy felt
nonviolent physical feelings.
Don’t want to be stuck
in the Trauma Prevention Department.
Don’t want to work that hard
on dogmatic compartments
for politically correct CAPITAL INVESTMENT
governments
over-investing in cautionary
conditional
chronic win/lose mistrustful
competitive dissonant miscommunications
and excommunication
which is counterproductive
for best Trauma Prevention practice
Of mindful-civil cooperative warm regard
AND co-investments in
EarTherapeutic Community Resilience.
I do want resilience to be free minded
in a compassionate
healing
and attentive way
To re-awake,
at least in the intimate privacy
of my own imagined MusicTherapy video,
a more youthful
possibly kinda lustful
want and need to sing and dance
For some extravagantly hot romance
inspiring love songs
To MotherTrees
practicing Earth mindful
sacred MoonDance motion skills
Chill
No nasty military commodified drills
for Trauma Perpetuation
Reviving soulful sensory want to play
win/win economic and political
peak experiences
all day
Often on some water shore,
a river valley waiting with anticipation
for just this one last gasp more
economically correcting
by power and light reconnecting
Unconditionally positive warm
well-moisturized humane bodies
co-invested
in co-operative
co-empathic passions
for universal health
and unitarian EarthTribe safety
Is probably not more
win/lose competitive
LeftBrain dominating monocultural worship
of monotheistic AnthroVerbal Supremacy
afraid to listen and speak nonviolently
about our need to deny
our apparent desecrating vocation
propelling EarthMatricide
Which is why I am feeling overwhelmed
and don’t want to be stuck
in the Trauma Prevention Department
So, I was wondering
could you direct me
to the Restorative Resilience Department?
It must be
I fear
some small wayside closeted
indigenous wisdom compartment,
probably dusty
from lack of use
during the monotheistic hegemony era
blessing straight white industrial
and commercial
and agricultural
and financial
and labor forced predations.
Restorative Resilience Department…
Not sure if that would be the Psych Ward
for Trauma Management
or Public Health and Safety
My constituents are MotherTrees.
Do we have any Public Health and Safety plans
or programs
or policies
or procedures
or practices
to restore their neural root
and branch resilience?
I ask
because I know the therapists
and administrators at the Psych Ward
and they don’t have a clue
about resilience planning.
Way too busy
managing trauma
anxiety
depression
chronic stress
overwhelming the Trauma Prevention Department
Which is why I’m feeling stuck,
not having a lot of luck
finding anyone who gives a…
outside the apparently missing
Restorative Resilience Department
of Mindful Corrections
and more positive redirections.
I’m working on this Systems Theory
All existing formal religious traditions
and informal spiritual experience
of Great Sacred EcoLogical Transitions
[e.g. Blue Holocene to
Green AnthroScene]
Originally,
through our divine monotheistic
and/or polytheistic
and/or atheistic naturalistic
shared one root curiosity system
of healthy resilient enculturing nutrition:
“I’ll believe it
when I can see it,
or hear it,
or maybe safe to smell it,
but probably not safe to taste it,
feel it
Feel spiritually interested
and/or naturally disinterested
in my own personal sensual peak
and valley inside experiences,
yet also our professional education
and empowerment-driven
unconditional integrity
of warm cooperative
co-invested win/win therapeutic intent
Born of body/mind neural root systems
and delivered for
restoring wounded sacred Earth’s
indigenous Physical Resilient HealthSystems
are also MetaPhysically Resonant
Mental Win/Win Synergetic FaithSystems
ReInterReLigionReFlecting
Yang/Yin BiPartisan Balancing
Natural Economies of Resilient Health Justice
also produce Spiritually Resonant Wealth
of Peace
AnthroPrivileged,
but not competitive ZeroSum;
more Whole Open Holistic
green cooperative
FatherSun
LeftBrain dominant
verbal enlightening
do not emerge from
Closed MonoCulturally Defensive Systems
dipolar co-arising
Sacred Organically Receptive MotherEarth
RightHemisphere prominent multisensory
indigenously nature/spirit rooted
natural economic nutritional health
systems:
cooperative Win/Win
positive sacred co-relationship thrival
robustly complex networks
win/lose survivalist competitive
ecopolitical apartheid corporate transactions
lose/lose negative desecrating trauma-despair
chaotic anti-communion fading egosystems
bipolar not-not polynomially unbalanced
degenerating
Sacred MotherEarth
spiritually panentheistic
naturally synergetic
ergodic co-balancing energy
positive-1/not negative-0
AnthroPrivileged bicameral balancing health care
neuro-sensory communication systems
Remembering
matriarchal ancient-lined
ringed
circling
spiraling birthing
baptismal waters
within universal
unconditional
unitarian co-empowering
Original Win/Win EarthMother
peak emergent health is wealth
warm and wet womb
formed and flowing
integral spacetime rebalancing
1-Yang/0-Yintegral co-balancing
Whole Open HealthSystems
incubating mutual warm regard
For bilateral sacred enlightened peaks
umbilically reconnecting
co-empowering valleys
Panentheistically still lurking
in all current quietly mindful
through past nutritional faith-based traditions,
this quiet cooperatively co-invested hope
against all win/lose treasons
of win/win healthy resilient
love reasons
PolyCultural positive perception
was originally rooted in
natural food and elimination
and reproductive
ecological resilient co-operating systems,
organisms,
biospheres surrounding ego-core identity systems,
plants and living planets.
Sure,
in this more modern monotheistic branch
of ancient faith traditions
on our Tree of Sacred Indigenous Knowledge,
predative privileged light
and evangelical right
to identify
quantify
define and refine
percentage of God’s sacred
humane individuation
As compared against
a monoculturing GoldRuled Standard
StraightWhiteMale supremacist
LeftBrain nouned
monotheistic renouned right to control
exclusive sacred narratives
of divine light’s full manly power
to control all warm nutritioning
water co-gravitating ReSources
Lurking quietly
in poetry and psalms
and parables
of matriarchal sacred history
Rooted in nature-based
oral traditions,
psalmody
indigenous nondualistic wisdom literature
Not quite so over-invested
in militarized religious war events
witnessed
and victimizing
in potential win/win ways often ignored
by global ecological history
To write down mythology
and passion narratives
and bodhisattva cooperative
green co-invested
restorative justice healing ceremonies,
passion story telling
Vulnerably personal
and yet transparently professional
ego/ecosystemic open
natural mindbody healthcare
resilient history
iconic, sometimes ironically,
of spiritual eco-panentheistic
indigenous wisdom
Gaian wealthcare synergetic
ancient EarthGoddess integrity
of neuro-organic resonant mystery
Still playing with Her win/win
faith-based resilient
EarthJustice theory
Trauma-informed remains
for explaining to a win/win undamaged child
wondering, in face of emergent ecocide,
why would sacred MotherEarth
think it was a good highest and best use
of valuable organic real estate
to over invest in AnthroPrivilege?
So, I’m playing with this win/win
restoring healthy
wealth co-optimizing
empowering and enlightening
Yang/Yin bilateral ego/eco-resiliently felt
brilliant win/win re-connecting
neurosystemic ancient thrival
organic systems history
of AnthroPrivileged
positive co-relational
lurking sacred mystery theory.
ReEngaging Integrity
How might the ego-narrative
of a sacred Tree
speak most profoundly
of old growth economic
and political
environmental trauma?
How might MotherTrees
avoid sacred Self-serving
by secularizing Other-deserving
separating and unequal
StraightWhiteMonoTheisticMale privilege
to punish
disturbing chronic anxiety
approach/avoid issues of mind/spirit integrity
about being personally fed and bred
through not healthy best separate,
but more co-related,
and not a sustainably healthy organism
or wealthy unequal organization
AND [more saliently sacred]
A historically patriarchal-capitalist
LeftBrain verbal monoculturing
anthro-supremacist vendetta
against the unconditionally warm co-passionate
communion communication
expected of a MotherTree
in a healthy, robust forest
Constantly repurposed
and mined
and pumped
and glorified,
grasped
and let go,
squeezed in
and freely exhaled,
to embrace
and release
Other’s Mother MinoriTree narratives
To discover what Her AnthroTree words
and nomials
variables uncovered
and co-relationships
recovered
positive and negative correlations
balanced and rebalancing
exclamatory peak
and declamatory valleyed phrases
Her ecocidal non-applause pause
might betray
negative core EarthLife feelings
emerging slow-grown
Anthro-panentheistic
inter-religious
multiculturing
creolizing
co-passion
And monotheistic despairing loneliness
of self-love EarthLoss of Life
eternal isolation
Of love and monoculturing hate
and fear and polycultural rebate
Of Win/Win surprising Aha! peak experiences,
ecstatic and/or exotic and/or erotic,
and Win/Lose frustrations
and sadness
about kinda stupid malevolent competitions,
while prying for more therapeutically peaceful
outcomes.
How might the TreeEgo’s trauma narrative
disengage from ecocidal Lose/Lose despair
to search for deeper roots
toward Earth health care
through restoring therapeutic justice
and cooperative peace repair
Restoring ego/communal
bilateral
bipartisan
cooperative TaxPayer-Ego/Eco Justice
Embracing universal warm
unconditional health care values
Discovering
uncovering extended pre-historical family trees
recovering from Othered long-suffering
win/lose
sawdusted up
stress-ringed
drought and buggy matriarchal histories
Suffering win/lose servants
shading EarthTrauma blisterings
To recover systemic win/win health care
forest re-constitutional optimization
and co-invested resilience
in this inter-religious polyculture
of multiculturally co-rooted
deep learning CoMediators
She may hear
what AnthroTribe is feeling
and She cares about our empowerment
and S/He is curious about
our potential sacred meaning
co-invested
enlightenment
of a MinoriTree’s Trauma
Therapeutic ReHashed
Smashed EarthHistory.
As she lays down her blue brush
in a blue-trimmed cream
dream stone basin
of darkening water
She realizes
inside voice has been thinking
about double negative paradox
as -x/-y
can’t win pathology
Of way too much Patriarchal Capitalist
dogmatic Business As Boorishly Usual,
monochromatic
monopolistic
monocultural
monotheistic
Describing
and prescribing her
BusyMess
is cruel
cold
calculating dismissal
disregard
don’t matter
Let her splatter!
while he eats
his white survival cake
Mindlessly unwoke
to future predative
desecration issues
promoting and marketing
trauma-inflation corporations
inviting frequent-flyer
evangelically missioned Narcissists
Who probably don’t think much
of a universal peak salvation experience
yet do feel deeply united,
maybe even energetically synergetic,
about their own sacred memories
of EarthMother’s original Win/Win
multi-colored co-invested
warm wet unconditionally cooperative
co-relationships
Through time’s changing
hue and culture and cry
LeftBrain verbally emerging
too dominant
Thereby, curiosity remains difficult to contain
to deeply listen for feelings to explain
this sound and sight for blue brushes
tinting her slowly turning water
growing
blueing
flowing sadly
back through Patriarchal
Capitalist
anthroprivileged time
Emerging blue
and grey
darkening ecocide.
Dark chances,
unhealthy and unsafe trauma
HiStories
Degenerating predative dogmas
not wanting to let go of ballistics
even for dawning light’s sacred promise
to grab full-immersion hold
and heal dark mythologies
lose now and again later ecologies
repeat rehearsed
inside-only voiced
dark passion narratives
Speaking out alarmed Betrayal
from those you were taught to Trust–
[it was Her job!
I have an unconditional contract
on a warm wet naturally wombed
and spiritually unwounded
birthright!
Defying Other’s Anger
about my gift-economy Hypocrisy
about my sacred Golden Rule restriction
win/win positive aspiration,
invoked by nature’s spiritual
Hippocratic Oath
to at least do no damage
losing trusted breath in
so losing full breath back out
again
and again
and repeat breathlessly again.
My own most difficult,
occasionally traumatic,
distressingly long, slow
letting go transition
Feels almost inevitably headed
for natural health-Lose
spiritual health-Lose
despair
Unless we all keep trying our best,
not just me
cleaning up your mess
to suffering servant impress
All us AnthroPrivileged victims
aware of traumatic over-populated
rabid traumatic
and pandemic health risks,
and runaway
emerging PTSD
and dementia
and suicide
and matricide
and ecocide
Make it almost impossible
to respect ourselves
yet not fear
retributive justice officers
and judges
and monolithic Yang-Jehovah
Dispensing punishments and fines
and shame
and blame
where the only obvious victim
I can see
is me.
My dark protagonist continues
to be victimized,
even now in aging memories
Every day past light
leads, at dusk,
to dark future
leads, at dawn,
to soon past light…
Yet my attachment to enlightenment
encourages me to disregard
co-arising dipolar dark empowerments
bicamerally re-associated
Yet awkwardly, sometimes
with high-risk trauma histories
monoculturally LeftBrain
EgoCentric predative Yang
AnthroPrivileged Voices
stuck on healthy and safe past orthodox
value systems
personal
and economic
and political
and separate and unequal
bi-sensory
and anti-sexual competitive dogmatic traditions
Not spiritually or naturally learning
so not wanting to let go
even for dawning light’s healthy promise
to grab resilient hold
and heal dark
post-traumatic lose/lose
zero-sum global
ecocidal winterish nightmares
Dipolar co-arising
unconditional warm sun rising
well-moisturized
copassionately co-invested day dreams
and horizontal dances,
core-chakra interpersonal win/win
exercises
nonviolent practice
practice
practice
Until we get our cooperative peak experience
sacredly awesome
and restorative ecojustice
left and right again
BiLateral
BiCameral creolization
in timeless tides
of over-swelling
regenerativity
Not quite
so bleakly alone
trapped in silent screaming stark
Dark.
Dear Old Joe,
I have found a retiring fascination
with right nature conserving
and yet very wrong
left-handed spiritual answers
Messengers to invite
more deeply recreating
natural outside
spiritual inside
co-arising questions
Unanswered lifespan queeriosities
about important Earth health
and personal ego-safe wealth
preservation matters
that sound liberating
yet feel conservational,
like Purple
to economic red v blue legislators
and Turquoise
to political cold blues bullies
turning toward less bruising green
co-redemptively bipartisan again
Old man lifespan matters
we might both recall
win/win post-traumatically
bipartisan creolizing repositions
overlapping personal love-felt
recreative song
and sensory (including sexual)
sacred ritual dance
and recreation events
naked and transparent
indigenously anthro-vulnerable
seeking deep win/win resilience
Cuz you ain’t dead,
yet.
Anyway,
sacred synergetic images
are, upon long-grown reflection,
spatial
and 4D spiraling Special.
Now recognizing
LeftBrain associated
Other downgrading
traditional dogmatic
and eerily un-ecological values,
And yet we continue searching
integrity’s potential
for ego-recentering
cooperative health
co-investing ambitious wealth
Of sacred co-empathic,
nearly timeless historical curiosity,
past through future extending
as my own lifespan has unraveled
with ego-trauma/eco-therapy
integral creolizing potential
For recognizing
LeftBrain monoculturally dominant
AnthroSupremacist verbal Capitalizing
competitive devolutionary win/lose
Natural Physical Theory
Not respectfully attending
indigenously cooperative
double-binding binomials
Like EgoTrauma v EcoTherapeutic
co-arising dipolar synergies
unconditionally positive win/win
Open Whole EarthRestoring
cooperatively copassioned
mindfulness
Of better WhiteHouse
and garden
and beekeeping
Global peace health
includes local sacred
creolizing cooperative wealth
Measured in robustly co-invested
tax-base capital infested
purple-spirited
and turquoise natured
wealth of polycultural climate-healing
Intends restoring health relationships
and not so much judgmental
StraightWhite Paternalistic
Capitalized and thereby Secularized
retributively punishing
traumatizing Court and Police and Military
Extract, BlowUp, Indenture
WinLose Prison Systems
Lack of RightFelt
health and safety
neurosystemic win/win
spirited-mind/natural-body
warm, and sometimes wet,
pro-life wisdom matters,
catchers and batters
circles and flatters
conserving intentions
and liberating splatters
from the Council on Cooperative CoGovernance
Her dark
impatient inside AntiGonist declares
left out right in face of
a polyculturally sublime
ProWithiGistic voice within,
if S/He only vulnerably dared
to risk her dark impatience:
I did not choose
to lose
my masculinity
To no longer
and wider grow
against you
just as you could not choose
to lose mistrust
against EcoWe
Aunt defying Uncle Agony
Pitching out
and catching
Anti/Pro BiCameraRolls
of ecstasy
Which reminds me
my dear,
although a bit queer,
a rhyme I recall
never having heard
or ever read
about Royal Leer:
Who feels quite strongly
and yet wrongly
that Queen Allure
invites Royal Leer
to lure
wildly winning spinning
ProWithiGist radically sad
misconclusions
Further flaming and feathering
Aunt Agonist’s unchosen
inevitable
WinLose troubling
bipolar competitive relationships
Robustly fanned
and GoldenRule unplanned
by evolutionary
theory of secularized might
makes Patriarchal Capitalists right
to be Aunt Agonist desecrating
learing
lusting to destroy
without ecological
or sacred reason
for such treason
against binomially co-arising
lusty dipolarity
But, I’m not your AntiGonistic colonizing threat
story today
and I am your ProWithiGist creolizing therapy
opportunity tomorrow
Luring
ProWithiGists alluring
masochistic maids
to please your dissociative
trauma-distressed
fertility undressed
a not-so-yucky
fornicating mess
AntiGonistic excommunications
grow win/lose pressures
leering elsewhere
appearing to lure divorce,
apartheid,
secularizing monotheistic
segregation
and not not sacred expand-theistic
integration.
As all AuntAgonist drag queens know,
Patriarchal Acquisitive Leering (PAL)
inappropriately overpowers
what might have been
an Alluring exhibition
of gracefully embodied health
and safe with AuntEartha’s
ProWithiGist mental wealth.
Includes AuntEartha’s indigenous wisdom:
It is not nice
to lure wild AntiGonist voyeurs
into more cooperatively,
vulnerably,
transparently,
transportedly unchosen
unconditional regard
for restoring
and restorying
a more resonant Aunt Agony’s
whole open systemic climate
supporting nonviolent
and warmly compassionate
and sometimes kinda wet
sacred communion
Tipping sacred/secular tables seductively
in-between Alluring ProWithiGist Saints
and Leering AntiGonist Kings
And lusty
crusty AuntAgonist
drag queens.
I might feel grand
aspiring to omnipotent
omniscience
Whereupon omnipresence
might feel less necessary,
or even possible,
or desirable
In a secularized
reduced
dissociated apartheid,
sacred Us v sinful Them
An omnipotently inflammatory place
for every Other individual thing
and all Other routine
and orthodox Things,
Omnipresent capital events
in anonymously rational
linear
fundamentally dualistic frames
Either sacred Me
or secularized You
will win our antagonistic win/lose
evolving worldview news
Preferably reduced from
supremely anthro-privileged
down deep into
my ego’s highest omnipotent potential
best win/win omniscience sacredly encircled
to ubiquitously favor
least global cost
and most localized efficient
ego/eco healthcare
resonant balance
In a way not omnipotently possible
nor omnipresently invited
nor yet omnisciently compassioned
If only we were more adept
at losing win/lose
and playing win/win
Gods and Goddesses,
OmniPresent Icons
and OmniPotent Idols
Inviting sacred Gaian EcoFeminist spaces,
omnisciently omnipotent places,
unconditionally disregarding
LeftBrain Iconic Narks
Phallic Idols,
profit prophets
for Narcissists Unanimous.
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