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BodyMinds of Christ

My gay white boyhood
struggled with the theological problem
of personally appreciating heterosexual superiority
sacred stories
and multiply mistranslated word-choices
of Jesus Christ

Within a Christian
monotheistic
evangelically triumphalist doctrine.

This personal mindbody intimacy problem
may be iconic
unveiling my personal distancing of untrusted
homophobic
StraightWhiteMales

Felt to be unsafe predators
unhealthily patriarchal
patristic
politically nationalistic
blind to white upper-class systemic privilege,
sacrilegiously win/lose competitive
Capitalistic LeftBrain dominant
white northern
and anti-polytheistic western
anthrosupremacists.

Rather than embracing more Holy Spirited
green
co-operative ecofeminist
healthy living and safe loving
polycultural communion alternatives

Within JesusChrist’s same iconic EarthTribal
neuro-sensory recognition of a divinely intuitive
panentheistic Spirit for restoring Peace

Encompassing
Winning LeftBrain truth,
healthy life,
wealthy resilient Ways
to also Win
RightBrain yintegral balance,
beauty,
nondualistic flow of iconic intuitions,
positive peak sacramental experience,
everyday co-passioning feelings

Of warm
wet
wombed co-attachment
within our universally polycultural
neuro-sensory
ecofeminist panentheistic sacred networks
of compassionate
polytheistic Self/Other pre-cognition

of ego/ecosystemic balance,
integrity,
polypathic intuitive Win/Wins
BodyEgo-Core/SacredMind
eco-messianic

Bilateral flow
of nonviolent HolySpirit
multiculturally universal communion,
verbal LeftBrain dominant associated communication
from Elder polytheistic RightBrain
re-connected
re-connecting unitarian ego-passion
with ecosystemic personal peak recontextualized
ecological polypathic theology
of nondualistic communion

Humane left-verbal
Divine right-nonverbal
mind/body fullness

Reiterating bicameral healthy
natural/spiritual
body/mind
nondualistic development

Education
experiential formation,
theological enculturation,
historically nonpatriarchal
non-capitalist
ecofeminist nutrition-rooted core ecopolitical
body/mind
nature/spirit RightBrain both holy and segregated

Panentheistic peak co-passioning intentional experience
neuro-sensory (including bilaterally sexual) practiced
Self/Other interdependently co-empathic
co-arising dipolar cognitive/intuitive re-connection.

RightBrain both/and feeling
willing to transubstantiate,
cooperatively incarnate Non-0 Zone
1 eternal Yang/Yintegral body/mind
nature/spirit
thought/feeling of
messianic/bodhisattva Christ

Ego/Ecosystemic co-binary
interdependent Either/Or
Yang AND Yin,
not Yang v Yin,
1 AND 0
western and eastern holy spirited
loving polycultural sacred co-operative experiences
Ego/EcoFeminist MotherEarth interdependently tribal
nutritiously nurturing health/wealth resilient care
green restorative systems
communion peace networks

Rooted in panentheistic intuitive peak experiences
neuro-systemic rooted icons
of Sun’s original enlightenment
giving loving birth
rebirth
reweaving Earth’s interdependent
nutritional
ecopolitical neuro-systemic
win/win co-empowerment

Polycultural becomings
of eco/theological
body/mind value
for healthy life as wealthy love
in tipping point tension with,
and not against,
merely atheistic Beings
of win/lose competitive
StraightWhiteWesternMale
LeftBrain privileged disvalues.

We share Left/Right
1/0
Yang/Yintegral
cognitive/intuitive
informed/exflowing
being/becoming
health/wealth panentheistic intentions
within this One mind/body of JesusChrist’s
WHoly Open Nature/Spirit EarthTribe System

Both/And Elder RightBrain compassion,
not so much Either/Or LeftBrain dominant
Patriarchal-Capitalist predations

Against LGBTQ panentheistic complexities
struggled with the theological problem
of personally experiencing ecofeminist sacred stories
and multiply translated word-choices
of God is Love
Gaian Prince of Health/Wealth Peace
humane/divine
co-passionately bicameral
Jesus/Christ

Within a Christian
monotheistic
monopolistic
monocultural
monochromatic
evangelically triumphalist doctrine
of dualistic anthrosupremacism.

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Love Begets Resilience

Back in our preverbal day
of healthy regenerating time,
indigenous wisdom
pursued peak experiences
of cooperative pleasure,
deep co-empathic embrace.

Sometimes,
especially when this pleasure was sustained,
euphoric,
ejaculatory
and reverberating in cycles
of deep wombed ecstasy,
procreation happened,
preferably in the spring
when new life is more likely to thrive
with bountiful rain
and lusty bullfrog refrains.

Not until later did monotheistic minds
decontextualize procreative purposes
from pro-ecstatic deep dark intimate meanings

Co-gravitations
dipolar co-arisings
coupling erotic organisms
regenerating co-passionate feelings
evolving love’s healthy ecological intent
to regenerate outward together
before degenerating inward apart.

Love is a pleasant feeling,
and a healthy wealth principle
of recreative compassion,
enlivenment.

A principle of ecological integrity
describes,
without dismembered dogmatic prescriptions,
these regenerative healthy ways
truths
trusts
in which living communions
thrive on this sacred planet

Interdependent networks
of cells
organisms
bioregions
ecosystems
EarthTribal species,
multigenerational families

Find our co-identities
while also compelling MeWe
individual/cultural
health/wealthy relationships
win/win egocentric within
AND with ecohabitat Others

Loving integrity reigns
within humanity’s historical context
of compassionate win/win integral
multicultural
polycultural systems surrounding Earth,
spring raining down upon Earth birth,
breezing across and warmly through,
sunlighting our days
and star studding shared nights.

Finding balance between one’s ego,
our individual cooperative win/win narratives,
and those of compassionate Others
represents EarthTribe’s win/lose wounded heart
of passion
love
unconditioned warm
and wet mesmerized regard
for mutual pleasure
pressure
passion
pulling and pushing
precognitive integrity.

In my curious stories
of win/win love,
when my deepest darkly hidden desire
includes my Other partner
enjoying our neuro-sensory
greatest
healthiest
robust
playful happiness,
some resonant relationship
more contextually co-empathic
profoundly unitarian
and multiculturally universal
than a personal procreative intention
happily emerges.

Right to Left bicameral climaxes
are not so much for a creative future purpose
as swimming in multisensory recreative meaning
here
for passion now,
embodied
for compassioning minds,
neurosystemic wholesome space
for EarthTribal regenerating
eternally connected
timeless time

In storming
maelstrom moments,
new expanding love stories
become

Fundamental flowing nature/spirit
body/mind narratives
re-membering how we have become
healthy alive,
enlivened,
undeadened.

This multisensory neuro-system
of regenerating contagious achievement
in cooperative win/win
ego-health/eco-wealth global networks
is where re-ligioning
re-connecting
re-membering
re-weaving
re-lusting
re-creating freedom
of compassionate verbal
and nonverbal communicating egos
hope to become co-invested curiosity

Resiliently harmonizing
biosystemically resonating
within Earth’s whole open
win/lose risk-avoidant
cooperative beauty/pleasure seeking
eco/theo-logical
embodied left
and sacred right
bilaterally resilient mind.

Note: This piece is in appreciative dialogue with Andreas Weber’s Matter & Desire: An Erotic Ecology, especially the first paragraph on p. 9.

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What is THAT about?

Truthfully,
and kinda depressing,
I can’t “manage” anger
any better than fear
and contagious distrust
and nearly constant anxiety
and chronic depression.

In nonviolent communication practice circles,
peace networks,
organic therapeutic systems,
“curiosity” slowly grows ascendent
as “patience” to resist negative feelings
and “impatience” with shameless Others
and not so blameless Selves
fades off into a less used lexicon.

Impatience about expressing anger,
verbally and nonverbally,
evokes LeftBrain dominant
patriarchal
capitalist
corporate management models
for hierarchically oppressive
suppressive
repressive
not really impressive
humorless control.

Curiosity about deep therapeutic win/win potential
for evolving healthcare competencies
comes from a political economy
of co-operative compassion

NOT: intimidating
and frightening scarcity
of control
sufficient to guarantee
a never-ending expansion
of ego-engorgement
through solitary
deductive
reductive
dualistic non-enlightenment
segregating the StraightWhiteMale
corporate well-capitalized WINners
from us unstraight
unwhite
unmale frightening
and yet uppity LOSErs

Apparently LeftBrain incapable
of managing our anger issues,
sometimes frightened by vulnerability
and emotional transparency
yet quietly curious about compassion
and neuro-sensory peak
RightBrain prominent
interdependent
co-empathic
co-invested peak spiritual experiences
biological
ecological
theologically transcendent

Exploding boundaries of autonomous ego-defensiveness
and, possibly, even Either/Or,
LeftBrain dominant Cause
OR RightBrain felt Effect,
StraightWhite monotheistic
Capital-theistic compunctions,
monoculturally supremacist,
macroeconomic win/lose predative,
pathologically angry and frightening
terrorized global apartisan politics.

Remarkably unfazed
by climax-trending ecocide
and degenerative patriarchal
capitalist
LeftBrain narcissistic
snarky
Us v Them genocide

Unconscious about our lack of control
to manage our viral global anger
while spiritually and naturally,
theologically and ecologically,
dying
from lack of win/win curious
green cooperative thrival.

Truthfully,
and kinda depressing,
we can’t “manage” anger
any better than climate fear
and contagious EarthTribal distrust
and nearly constant neuro-systemic anxiety
and chronic LeftBrain dominant
divisive depression.

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Natural Matters/Spiritual Desires

Natural sensory matter
organizes spiritual deep desires
metaphorically co-infested
co-invested
co-arising healthy space
wealth of timeless time
mindfully
playfully polynomial

Positives
more than equal not pathologies
naturally outside
remains not not spiritual inside
poly-estatic
panentheistic
polynomials
not not polycultural wisdom
polyphonically polypathic

LeftBrain thought
is an internally perceiving sense

Like right-brain implicit spiritual feelings
for deep inside win/win healing
not win/lose hurting
and not-not lose/lose
Yang hurting v healing Yintegrity,
colonizing v creolizing,
conquering v liberating,
controlling v freeing,
YangStrength v YinFlow,
hierarchical monocultural bandwidth
resisting integral polycultural depth

ReOpening
CoPassionate sunlight evolution
and green/blue Earth revolution

TransPartisan
EnLightenment and EmPowerment
wu-wei indigenous wisdom

Of natural sensory matter
re-organicizing spiritual deep desires
metaphonically co-infested
co-invested organic systems
co-arising healthy space
wealth of timeless time
mindfully
playfully polynomial
not not polypathically health humored
self/other optimizing wealth
of cosmically blissful laughter.

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Deep Estuaries

Behind Summer’s fullness
richness,
nutritional and nurturing sunlight
empowering bounty

Lies another deep
darker sacred truth
of EarthTribe’s inevitable mortality,
death
loss
cosmic stress
universal trauma

MonoTheistic distrust,
disaster,
despair
of patriarchal supremacy

MonoPolistic colonizing,
divisive,
aggressive,
violent,
rapacious,
racist,
sexist
climatic pathology

MonoCulturing Straight Western Male
historic white
protagonist light

Against deep dark green
ecofeminist
co-passionate
co-empathic
co-arising bicameral
panentheistic empowering
harmonic mindful balance.
EarthTribal enlightenment.

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Sacred Origins

That first black and white
grainy
strangely fluid
floating
flat screen view
of the early developing individual
inside EarthMother’s womb

Reminds me
of that first
full-spectrum green and blue
strangely white cloudy
moistly floating
slowly revolving
flat screen view
of home planet
still developing
evolving
revolving Earth.

A LeftBrain dominant individual worldview
from a RightBrain bilaterally individuating
Self/Mother
Home/Other
co-arising contextual perspective.

I find it difficult
to see these embryonic becomings
as if emerging from
monotheistic v panentheistic
ego-transcendent v ecosystemic immanent
imminent
degeneratively emergent
anxious Original Sin.

Original corruption,
degeneratively mortal design
implies our Creator,
our recreative natural/spiritual processes,
our Yangish MonoGod,
our Yintegral PanEntheistic regenerativity,

Made an anthropomorphic
inhumane
unloving
win v lose
zero-sum calculated mistake

Original Sin
concludes that humane spirituality
is dualistically severed
from divinity’s naturally regenerative
integral
organic
synergetically co-relational
win/win potential
before any umbilical cord
is surgically severed.

This, in turn,
confuses a LeftBrain dominant
either true or false
way of competitively adding v subtracting
win/win multiplying nonviolent regenerative health
for both mother and child,
Earth and her EarthTribes

Back before white privileged
LeftBrain dominant males
disproportionately developed English,

Further back
before linguistic empowered language
evolved from economically enlightened
numeric quantification
scale
organic rhythm
syncretic nurturing pace
integral sacred felt space
curiously intrigued
emergent win/win
co-relational
metric
fractal DNA patterns
of co-attaching
healthy co-investments

Infant organic neurosystems already knew
Earth’s bilateral inspiring intelligence
was troubled
when the following were no longer nondualistically sensed
as self-referencing
regenerative
integral
synonymous win/win experiences:

life as love
resilience supporting resonance
nature outsiding inside spirit
body-mind
EgoBaby/EarthSystemicMother

Passionate compassion
humane-divine
secular-sacred
ego-ecosystem
autonomy of interdependence
oneness of zero
linearity of spiraling circles
fullness of empty

Historic Culture
justice of peace
equity of integrity

Health optimizing wealth
Me of We
individual relationship
colonizing creolization
competitive cooperation
Either/Or reconsidering Both/And
linear bipolarity co-arising circular dipolarity

Prescriptive Thoughts emerging from descriptive Feelings
cognition of intuition
perceiving EarthTribe receiving
secular space throughout sacred time

Imagining my journey
since my first black and white
prematurely grey grainy
strangely fluid
floating
flat screen worldview
of ego-home planet
still developing
evolving
revolving
health wealthing
sacred
full-spectrum
spiraling MotherEarth.

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Therapeutic Performance

Talk therapy
among braver angels
and curious devilish advocates,

Evolves natural contemplative thoughts
felt sacredly neuro-systemic
reconnecting sensory consciousness
and mindful sexual experience
with worldviews recombining
Liberal Truth and Conserving Beauty
in co-empathic compassion

Nonviolently hopeful
win/win bicameral intelligence
exploring why

And healthy when

And safely now
remembering all those many public times
I have found relief from anxiety
and depression
and silent panic,
when performing sacred word
and sung gospel lyrics,
on a raised universal stage
of punishing judges,
angry blamers,
potential shamers,
angry jealous demonizers

Sitting naked
as any other mammal,
trying not to think about mating
or hunger abating
or thirst creating
transparent
and vulnerable needs
for effective
and safe
mindbody root communications.

Eastern and Western mystics
both multiculturally speak
and deeply listen
to internal causes of ego suffering
as clinging to past naked loser
embarrassing victimization
predicting inevitable failure
to win/win cooperatively thrive.

Not letting go
of our individual
autonomously
privately
shamefully wounded naked
and dependent child

Unable to grasp
through sufficient public health
and safely clothed
cared for experience

Unable to trust
love’s ultimately victorious possibilities
of win/win adult healthy
co-empathic
neuro-sensory peak experiences

Of joy,
contentment,
healthy peace,
nurturance,
fullness without gluttony,
abundance without naked insufficiency
felt as sustainable developmental progress

Of life synonymous with love
vulnerably enlightened
nakedly empowering
widely speaking
while deeply listening
for cooperative
inclusive
naked EarthTribe memories
polyculturally good-humored
as regeneratively accessible
embodied
micro-economies of tribally
co-invested thrival

Liberally free to love
in nakedly erotic summers
of sensory exotic anticipation

Conservatively free from hate
and terror
against closed
and clothed
covered winters
of hibernating
siloed dissociation

Feeling morbidly anxious
in win/lose capital hierarchical
political economies of scarcity,
shame,
humiliation,
loss and suffering,
death and disease
hidden under layers
of indecent respectability.

Naked EarthTribe mammals
notice a normally positive communicating
interdependently robust
multisensory species
not so LeftBrain foolishly confused
to distinguish between
transcendent radiant SunLight
and nurturing love of God’s healthcare,
voiceless
and most effective
when sleeping
and singing
and speaking nakedly.

Sometimes,
not often enough,
talking cooperative co-therapists
encourage our wounded naked child within
to let go
of idolizing LeftBrain capital value supremacy.

Life does not normally
neuro-systemically
unfold only from the neck up
and out
to other clothed-down
talking heads,
preferring to pretend
we did not all begin
as nakedly sexual-sensory Emperors
and Empresses
and sometimes transgenderally
and/or bicamerally,
in-between communionators.

Underneath our camouflage
of believing feelings,
positive and negative
and various degrees of in-between
naked hope
and silent despair,
should follow reason

We can still remember
root sensory truths
of feelings anticipating
LeftBrain dominant thoughts
contemplating severance,
dissociation,
Either/Or proper
prim challenges
to Both/And non-binaries,
Truth v Beauty
an alien cover-up
against multicultural
inter-religious
intersectional diversity

Where lives
our greatest peaks of joy
and valleys of nakedly wounded despair,
our intuitive resonance
and cognitively contemplated dissonance,
our resiliently divine
polypaths toward multi-regenerational
win/win potential

To sing out
and in,
widely
and deeply,
LeftBrain universally
and RightBrain unitarian
nakedly healthy integrity
appreciating fully developed talk therapy

Celebrating health
and safely sufficient EarthMothers
quietly amused
while silently singing
star spangled banners
invoking linear reasoned words
encircling RightBrain
naked
birthing
wet warm feelings

For all our world-staged leaders,
left and right
and nonbinary in-between,
naked as jaybirds
underneath all our cloth-closed
furs
and hair
and multiculturally wealthy skin.

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Why Meaningful Space Heals Purposeful Time

Why did you think then
and
Why do you feel now

You are OK to park here?
drive here?
breathe in here?
stop breathing out here?
love here?
live here?
eat here?
defecate here?
urinate here?
peak here?
fall apart here?
exercise here?
sleep here?
practice here?
reflect here?
act here?
heal here?
destroy here?
appeal here?
repeal here?
unravel here?
reweave here?
fornicate here?
make love here?

Play here as now?
Work here, and now?
Demand here, more now?
Invite here as now?
Initiate here, and now?
Conclude here is also now?
Breed here as now?
Feed here, and now?
Devour here, more now?
Regurgitate here feels now?
Learn here, as now?
Teach here and now?
Meditate here now?
Preach here is now?
Prophecy here will become back there?

Exhort here as now?
Impress here for now?
Repress here against now?
Suppress here was also now?
Oppress here loves now?
Invest here and now?
Divest here as not now?

As compared to there?
As part of liberally rooted
thinking Now
conserving felt back Then.

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BoneDeep Lonely

Imprisoning textures
and routine lectures
in loneliness,

“your own fault”
“not Other’s loss”

blame
shame
dipolar co-arising

Loneliness effacing
cognitive/affective reason
and denying access
to more social future seasons

Including primal memories
of self-appreciation
self-sufficiency
communication resource-fullness,

And yet,
and yet,

Beneath such reasonable busyness,
even when I can sustain
opulent MeWe identity,

Even so,
even so,

EgoWe remains curiously distinct,
courageously Not Other,

Embracing
peak biosystemic health,
abstractly known
falls short of panentheistic lust
specifically touched
sensory
and sacredly sexual
mystery

Mysterious loneliness sees,
smells,
hears,
tastes,
appreciates
deeply depreciates
absence of fully embodied
love touches
of verbal sound,
of nonverbal skin
hair
fingers
toes
and other shyer shows.

Loneliness knows opulent warm textures
and peak sensory experiences

Efface more theoretical reasons
win/win
for co-empathic healthy seasons

Of nurturing resonant,
full-embodied resilient,
Self/Other recombinant
transubstantiating
panentheistic full-color wealth,

PolyPathic
PolyPhonic
PolyCultural
not yet climate loneliness

Including multicultural SelfAppreciation
BioOrganic SelfSufficiency
CoOperative resource-fullness.

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Seeking Assurance

I am sad
and need reassurance
this choice was not bad
at the time of searching
Home’s new-found voice,
and is not bad
now,
and will not be bad
and sad
in my shortening future.

Diminishing now
into year by year forecasts,
no longer this seventieth decade
by assured next decade
sensing less reassured choices
may matter no longer than month
by sad and glad
life insurance payment
month.

When will I seize
my last happy budding Spring?

Will I recognize Her
when She whole-sum comes
to spread Her good
choice
seeds?

I am mad
to have purchased
a distressed property condo
and need soothing
by a distressed New England
rusty industrial historic community
on a distressed EarthTribe continent
on a distressed Earth crust
wet with rising
and thickening
sickening salt water.

I need way more
regenerative EarthHealth
systemic reassurance

Some better organized cooperative ownership,
stewardship,
management,
organic gardening,
co-invested harvesting
multicultural
and polyculturally robust
nonviolent communication.

I need expanding green
ecofeminist bicameral network
reassurance
I won’t die alone and sad
distressed
traumatized
chronically stressed
clinically depressed
politically repressed
economically Patriarchal-Capitalist suppressed
into win/lose arguments
competitive consumer markets
retail sales
on formerly sacred offering plates.

I feel sad
Christianity
and Islam
and Judaism
are so often for sale
to the lowest
capital survivalist fear-mongerer,
monocultural anthro-supremacist,
anti-godly
StraightWhiteMale
historically royal privilegedest.

I feel bad
that nonviolent communication,
trusting in HealthyDemocracy dialogue
more than SicKleptocracy debate
to divide and separate,

That Compassion Deep Learning Therapy
is seldom applied
to Presidential Cooperative Dialogues,
to BiPartisan Green EcoPolicy Conventions
for healthiest international
continential
national
state
county
and/or local levels
of organizing our EarthTribe CoOperative Habitats,
organically co-invested
like any healthy regenerative body
property
mind
soul
nature
systemic antiracist spirit

Not quite so distressed
as this condominium association
I invested in last year
and foolishly graduated
into a successful election
to a kinda right wing
real estate fascist
clearly not green cooperative WOKE
executive board of toothless
so unsmiling
sad
mad
feeling bad
Patriarchal-Capitalist Directors

Expecting CondoMinions
to hold our breath
till cost-ineffective budgets
stop overheating
and exploding toward bankruptcy,

Systemically unravelling
while absentee owners
thoughtlessly protect their polished sharpened nails
admiring their gleaming hard right reach
toward God’s great individualistic inspiring destiny
in this RealProperty Land
where cash
and Straight White Patriarchs
are historically-correct
monoculturing Kings

Feeling climate casualty sad,

Needing reassurance
next year’s profits,
and preferably next quarter’s,
will continue to outpace
egregiously inflated
and taxed socialistic costs.

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