I hope to visit next Sunday
on a warm
sunny
early PeaceGiving afternoon
Outside with my wounded Daughter’s
extending therapeutic family
with win/win playful
and richly resonant intent
Inside her new
young
empowering
and cooperatively enlightened
Thankful
mind-full music
and muse dancing
mythically
mysteriously
majestically joyful home.
Some body
wants some thing
some space
some time
some Other body’s place
Some individual
ego-incorporated
organic wealth
health systemic
mindbody wants to resonantly thrive
to resiliently survive
Some body
cannot compete with BusinessAsUsual
resolve
against trauma-induced Need feelings
with sufficient therapeutic compassion thoughts,
co-investment plans,
co-operating dialectical designs
To accept denial non-responses
to transparently
vulnerable
sacred polycultural
inter-religious
health/wealth invocations,
EarthGoddess reflective
resonant
resilient invitations
into peace
restoring EarthHealth
systemic justice.
Some body
wants what?
For what health
wealthy felt resonant reason?
Why can’t we gratefully accept
history’s tone deaf manipulations
economic oppressions,
political suppressions,
polyvagal dissonant
neurosystemic repressions,
LeftBrain overpowering
militarized
commodified weapons
of unenlightened
Great White Father
patrilinear capital competitions
Left hemisphere dominant
pedagogically verbalized
ecologically secularized
theologically desecrating
wounding
divisive monotheistic impressions.
Some body
needs to become empowered
through our shared depression
panentheistic oppressions
Further disabling already trauma compromised
lifetime resonant health
is never also pathologically dissonant
internally imploding
absence of indigenously resilient
ego/eco-systemic embodied
bilaterally resilient wisdom
Musing,
integrally fusing,
left hemisphere cognitive verbal dominance
suppressing right hemisphere interdependently
intuitively felt inside synergetic Voices
Indigenously wrestling
with sacred singing and dancing
spirit/nature
mental/physical jubilant choices
Panentheistically sacred
healthy democratic
ergodically resonant harmonic
bi-ionic co-binary
mind/body energy
Compelling Truth/Beauty
Yang/Yintegral
bilateral
binomial
bipartisan co-arising
light/power co-reinvesting
in seven regenerational
EarthHealth Muses
For humane ego-centering
divinely ecosystemic
inside wise resonant muse
spoken word resilient inside Voices
For outside sacred music
restoring healthy inter-connecting
eco/theo-logical choices
For abundantly non-oppressive
non-violent communion co-passion
Green resilient health/wealth
co-investing life
for love of natural nondualistic
Yet non-zeroistic
nonviolent Taoistic
indigenous wisdom
Of some body
wanting some thing
some sacred place
some health caring space
for expanding indigenous wisdom
Cooperatively co-governing
Yang/Yintegral
co-pedagogical
muse-elegant
integrally resonant
right brain prominent
eco/theo/egological
Some body
wants some passionate thing
some sacred space
some inspiring time
some Other inspiriting body’s
MeWe cooperatively resonant
bicamerally resilient
co-empowering music
muse
moving on
graced place.
I know the difference
between cooperatively intended sympathy
and solidarity of empathy
more easily articulated
by identifying sympathy’s antithesis
as dissociation.
Sympathetic feelings
may be captured by:
Twinkle twinkle
little star
how I wonder what you are
from afar
As co-empathic compassion by:
Twinkle twinkle
big bright star
now I see just who we are,
new enlightening depths
mutually ajar.
Like the difference
between pornography
and regenerative
sexual ecology,
Asking for a thesaurus
for synonym wealthy choices
does not help
if my standard of healthy success
hopes to spin and weave
a co-arising dipolar chorus
Lyricizing analogies between theoretical God
and experiential Love
inviting our polyphonic
evolving metaphoric
spirit sympathetic
for EarthTribe’s polypathic
healing reeling
revolving metamorphic
wealthy rocking
nature co-empathetic
Enough to know the difference
between cooperatively intended sympathy
and solidarity of empathy
more fluidly articulate
separating sympathy’s antithesis
as silent
and neglected disassociations.
Music practice,
when I was a wounded child,
felt too redundantly mundane,
yet never merely quite ordinary,
especially within a band
or chorus learning environment
For restoring spiritual
mental
natural health,
compassionately co-invested.
Later,
as an adult wounded child,
I repeated this same
redundantly mundane
Business As Not Quite Usual
multicultural community mediation practice
reassuring ritual
Especially within a sacred
indigenous
nonviolent nature/spirit communication
health optimizing Win/Win integral remuneration
expanding EarthJustice progress
processes not win/lose patriarchal culture
please get it off my chest
still struggling with capitalist questions
How do multi-mediating clients
harmonically co-invest?
Musicians musing EarthHealth remediations
feel free to sing out loud
our EarthMuse restoring inclinations
recycling dipolar co-arising precipitations
by winning outside GoldenRules
for cooperative muse
outside music camp vacation
ecotherapeutic anticipations
Left credible
theoretical
And Right awesomely
experiential
Together transubstantiating
integrity’s potential synchronizing
principles of indigenous reverse
spirited nature bi-harmonizing
Natural music’s symphony
enspiriting muse epiphany
extending back and forth
in and out
down and up
Left EarthPowers
and Right SkyLights
healing non-pathology
Dancing
RingSinging
nondualistic co-winging
Thoughts of Muses
feeling
moving
EarthSystemic Music.
Why do partisan social activists preach
so much about growing a more equitable society
while doing Business As Usual
While environmental activists student teach
with us
to develop a more synergetic EarthTribe?
Dynamically spiraling fractions
of potentially integral energy
win/win cooperative
and win/lose disruptive
Against peaceful eight octaves
of eight
is one hundred per day
full-octave spectral revolutions
during bilateral peace-sentry nights
DoubleBinary
for fractal 4 = NonZero ReGenerative
indigenous spacetime dynamic
century sensory wisdom
Integrity’s sacred RightBrain ReWeaving Potential
to Climax Reset
for yet another Business
As Naturally Usual
Fibonacci Octave-Neural Outcome
Holonic Spirited day
Ecstatically filled
with intersectional FractalGroup
primal family
Organic in/out-sided experiential
WinWin
Holonic LifeHealth Play
With regenerate pattern
synergy rhythmed
ribboned
spiraling bilaterals
of health structure maps
for fractal collaterals
like sacred integral
territorial DNA
Redeveloping another dynamic
experiential
pedagogical
eco/theological envelopment
of Music,
Myth,
and MetaPhonic
MetaPhysic
MetaPathic
MetaPhoric
bicameral
historical euphoria
LeftBrain seas
in 3/12
three dimensional
hourly and daily
temporal space
pace
While RightBrain hears
in 4/4 sacred surfing fractals
for annual
seasonal un/redevelopment
cooperatives
Deep RightBrain interweaving
binomially thoughtful maps
with flowtrend feeling
integrity territories
DoubleBinding
dipolar co-arising
regenerative four-seasoned
structured time
For healthier pedagogical maps
deep RightBrain
interdependently sacred connected
by transparent vulnerability
ability to recommunicate
resistance to monoculturally marginalizing
autistically ghettoizing
mental hospitalizing
unhoused
unhinged OTHER populations
Oppressed remains
for cooperative peer-educated persistent
monocultural domination
of middle class straight white
PatriCapitalist AnthroSupremacy
AND, in this polycultural win/win
therapeutic cooperative
co-passionate resistance,
we thereby restore public
and climate health education systems
engaging in wealthier deep learning
So, oppressed Earth’s great climatic health
returning
as polyculturally woke
fractured fractal wounded wealth
EcoTherapy for re-educating
history’s English privileged classroom
for unstraight
unwhite
un-monotheistic
un-vested
discommunioned
traumatically suppressed people,
for oppressed organic
living
integral planning and implementing
secular purpose
and sacred meaning systems
more favorably impressed
by Teacher Mother Eartha
Dynamically spiraling fractions
of potentially integral
octaves of harmonic energy
win/win resiliently cooperative
and win/lose
degeneratively disruptive.
Since retirement
I have gradually become more disappointed
with watching
and listening
to performers,
to on-screen entertainments,
to emotional yet disembodied hypnosis,
to vicarious fascinations
now suspiciously corrupt
Performance watching
becomes a cheaply vacuous substitute
for real life engagement
in compassion with hope;
Or even social disengagement
in disdain
with chilling cynicism.
I feel drawn out of retiring
and into some healthy perspiring
in a fluid multicultural river
watering compassion,
Steering clear of a tangle of wires
and technology
feeding isolated despair.
Mindless entertainments
are probable on screen
and possible reading choices too
Feeling guilty as I age
leaving way too much
for future generations
to undo.
Too needy
and wounded
and busy protecting privacy
Projecting charismatic fame
to blame
and shame
for all my ambivalence,
doubts
dark nights leaning into fear
to risk more
than breathing through another episode
of the Mary Tyler Moore
USA middleclass white folks
entertainment
without engagement
Show
HeartChoice,
the Why
of my prayers,
invocations,
anxieties,
deep learning anticipations
Music of Integrity
throughout compassion’s timeless
walking wounded prayers
Felt inside Win/Lose violent history
of uncivil suffering
mystery
of Either/Or non lullaby
Discord rooted and stuck
in fundamental lack of soul
for multicultural flowing courage
swelling BothNature/AndSpirited lungs
and throats
and tongues
and bicameral hearts
and bilateral hands
discovering capital heads
in copassionately curious root
HeartChoice
compelling well-sung
HeadVoice,
the What of my prayers,
invoking lyrics
Win/Win bicameral health/
wealth of vocal ecopolitical analysis
advocating Golden Ruled individuals
Witnessing trauma’s global light
shedding shadows
whispering ecotherapeutic local power,
Enlightened mystic minds
within empowered bodies,
Balancing egos
within harmonic neuro-ecosystems
spiraling binomial
double binary dynamics
healthing HeadVoice
co-invested wealthing
HandReJoice,
the How of my active prayer
as dancing DNA regenerations
choreographing bilateralized experience
that social-psycho consciousness
is not first a matter of unsung healthy faith
but of primordially felt resonant wealth experience,
through co-empathic copassionate music practice
Singing staffed ribbons
inscribing vibrato octaves sung
well-rung resonance
both multicultural
and nonviolent,
Both nutritional
and win/win cooperative communal
ego/eco-therapeutic corollary chorus
resounds
Searching out resilient myths
of beauty’s truthful history,
thought as felt
co-empathic mystery
Unfolding Head
and Hand
and Heart
TriPolar bilateral communication
of vastly deep healthy wealth
long-term resilience
speaking up for WholeEarth Open
Radiant FullSpectral Light
and SoundPower Systems
For achieving the How
of our cooperative
co-invested operas
and spoken word projects,
Beauty prayers
hummed in mythical well-being
vibrating therapeutically together
Growing less isolation nightmares
and “Fix Apartheid SundaySin For Us”
empty prayers
invoking militarized self-righteousness
and other dystopian
Straight White privileged
AnthroSupremacist
LeftBrain Dominant
universal nation
patristic capital invocations
advocating
Either EgoWins/Or Eco-Loses
ZeroSum
Closed NeuroSystemic
Devolutionary W/L AnthroGame Theory
Cognitive/Affective dissonance
socio-psychological trauma
chronically stressed
disintegrative miseducating losses
outweighing cisintegral muses
natural/spiritual extended peer
re-education
health/wealth
muse dynamic systems
Avoiding unhealthy prayers
for unwealthy
unwise vocalizations.
I’m behind a dull white Chevy sedan
developing a lived-in look
while waiting for a greener light
With more than sufficient time
to read two rather ragged bumper stickers
in radical red,
relentless white,
and smoky blue.
The left side message
right in front of my resting wheel
reminded me of my waiting shame
that Jesus had to die
because of my personal sins
for which no one else
could even be partially
pulled out to blame
Only confirming
my bad-self flame
burning along with
a ZeroSum Win now
to delay Losing later
our all-in financial
and partisan lame game
Selling out to our competitive patriarchal
hierarchical shame
of predative corporate Christian Capitalism,
which is what remains
of Cooperative Economics
after squeezing all natural
indigenous spirit wisdom
out of wealth
is health optimizing life.
If only I were less selfish
and lazy
about mediating good-faith
healthcare co-investment cooperatives
as I move along
through each nonviolently communicating
day and night
Bringing me back to the bumper sticker
on my right wing
reminding me,
There is room left
at the Cross for me
Which immediately feels threatening,
ominously judged
and found collectively guilty
for my personal lack of faithful
healthy Soul,
big shortages in potential win/win co-investments
like gratitude for PolyCultural GreenHealth Communions
wherever I might stumble into them again
acting like We care
about health wealth resilient Us.
So, I’m tragically predestined
to climb onto the same rugged cross,
[and why is our cross always so iconically “rugged”
rough and primitive
ragged and wretched
manly and rapacious?
Why never graceful,
flexible,
poignant
transformative
potentially metamorphic
compassionate?]
Losing today
to maybe survive until tomorrow morning’s
StraightWhite God
declares redawning
punishing
timeless omnipotence
to judge all my tomorrows.
Yes,
there is a room for me
at the patriarchal foot
and the capital head
of threatening
punishing mortality
inflamed by oppression
of LeftHemisphere dominant
StraightWhite PatriCapital
anthro-divine individualistic
monotheistic supremacy
Worshiping healthy SunEnlightened humanity
by denying a wounding Cross
we have win/lose ZeroSum created
and recreate each day
between each nightmare
against sacred Earth’s polycultural communioning
reunioning
reweaving
win/win NonZero Soul
optimizing sacred Integrity’s
ecological
economic empowering
EarthWealth
Of a love so radically liberal
Jesus could get more democratically down
off our CapitalistCorporate cross
And then
I’m suddenly no longer behind a dull white Chevy sedan
developing a lived-out look
while waiting for my greener light.
Go ahead
Dare to invite him
to a climaxing fall-colored picnic
To read you his obituary for himself
and for you,
subject to future updating
round perspectives
free for changing
still-evolving revolutions
Then,
my retrospective therapeutic turn
to introspectively review again
past traumas
of EgoSpection
surrounded outside
by his contextual EcoSpectral Spectrum Spectives
warm and cool,
freezing and redhot
climaxing traumatic knots
Not to out loud trust
speaking these Interior Obituary Inspections
about myself
and also His Exterior FullSpectral ReInspected
vulnerable truths, as I would heal them
through more transparent healthy wealth
of mutual compassion
slowly moving forward.
Then,
while opening the picnic basket
and our impassioned historic mouths
to speak of our possible future
re-amending revolution,
We take in all we can become grateful
for receiving now
here,
in this sacred dining
graced reperspective place
through our correlational experienced time
space within this eternally nutritious
nature seen and nurture heard
compassionate communion
grace
In this
our eternally momentary
yet fully spacious
nonzero zoning sacred space
For further IntroVersive Speculation
Exterior AdVersive SpecuElation
RetroInversive
CoReVersive Spectator Meditations
Spectacularly vulnerable
IntroAdversive
SpecCumulative
SpecUlative Reflections
On MeWe personal health
is also our cooperating political wealth
to socially empower
and culturally enlighten
economic incorporating cooperation
with nonviolently positive
psychologically therapeutic
nontraumatic communication
WinWin v WinLose
our polyvagal wavering way
OK
but inviting more friendly
cooperatively co-invested
Left/Right DiPolar ReInSpections
reigning in co-passioning consciousness
of win/win co-relational banalities
cognitive/affective rebalancing
thought/felt binomialities
nondualistic wisdom
indigenous Left/Right
redeveloping naturally spiritual
embodied mind realities
Indi/ExtraForming Genius
genous
generous
regenerate
Ego/Eco-ReIntroductions
ReInductive outflowing consciousness
ingrowing rememory
outgoing
MeWe reflowing
NonZeroZones
of inside/outside double-boundary baskets
and tongue-speaking lungs
on a picnic for nonviolently recommunicating
our CoPassionate RetroSpectives,
autumn harvest
obituary perspectives
Of two separated
yet still married gay men
in our sixties,
with memories as a Southblack/Northwhite couple
and as parents
of four wounded
gratefully adopted children
of color
and diverse genders
and gender preferences
and transgender questions,
Longing to live
in a global climate perspective
of universal empowering healthcare
and unitarian eco-outside green respectives
multiculturally woke
enlightened consciousness
yang outside health
is also yintegral inside wealth
Of polyculturally green ecosystems
producing healthy multiculturals
ego/eco-loving
NatureEarth-ReSpirited
EcoFeminist Win/Win
cheers and chills
for this
our RetroSpective
CoEmpathic
ReUnion.
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