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Loving Jose
Yes, Jose,
this is another love letter
from anthroprivileged me
to LeftBrain dominant you
for multicultural us.
I’m still here
sinking into my deep blue camp chair
with feet resting on a weathered
wooden platform
for my monastic tent
Now folded
and masterfully squeezed into its storage bag
like a fat green sausage
with a thick
black fly zipper,
secure,
awaiting it’s next orgasmic coming out
to camp and play.
And you,
warm and glistening
listening you,
are still driving
west toward this transition
Saturday’s bittersweet sunset.
Perhaps already lonely
thinking
of what
and feeling whom
lies ahead
while all else feels left behind
Another week of adventure lost;
another week of memories gained
Yet memories have grown cacophonous
while adventures in knowing
new frontiers
grow old as shrinking Earth
grown bodies
Fading hope to feel
taste
see
hear
smell
touch abundantly enough
for this full life
experiencing love
quenched time
Comparing future now to back there then,
wishing we could have us all
warm and pleasant
in our head,
heart,
bed of intimacy
without embarrassing
premature limits,
boundary issues,
health precautions.
You tried to apologize
for not asking more
about my wounded kids
And I did not think to apologize,
but wonder, now, that I didn’t,
for not asking how you are feeling
and dealing
post prostate cancer
Remissions
feel like uncertain transitions,
undemanding admissions
both healthy opportunities
and diseased risks
lie beyond this day’s journey
toward Albany.
Perhaps you,
like me,
fear
and already feel
loss of intimacy
imagined
yet not touched,
thought
but not appreciably,
healthy needed
but not safely found,
sacred bound
for joy’s immense integrity.
When I walked into our group’s enclosed porch
this past Sunday
for my first check-in circle,
your first facilitation,
I thought of my former boss.
You look and sound
like Bishop Tafoya,
when he was your age
and I was half your age.
I had trouble
shaking this sage off.
It helps
that you sing
with warmth and passion
in fulsome baritone,
as the good Bishop
decidedly did not.
Nor could I imagine him
dancing with a white scarved fan
with integrity
flirtatious machismo
joyfulness
deeply resounding playfulness.
Do you have a type?
I wonder
Are you familiar with mine?
Those romantic,
erupting into erotic,
miracles of preference
we cannot control
or calm our appetites
to accept
AND appreciate,
anticipate
those with us
here and there
in and out of Gayla 44,
after and before
now heading west
away from east.
So much to hide,
to learn,
to unveil,
to set aside
for graceful aging,
and to warmly embrace
for compassioned wisdom
felt together,
rather than silently,
less sacredly,
apart.
The Center’s lunch bell rang
and now has gone
Absorbed by quiet shushing
and rustling
high in evergreens
baking in Mama’s summertime
weekend of commerce
and less commercial passions,
traffic rituals,
Pre-empting ancient natural liturgies
of sea,
flowing water
and strong mountains
inspiring bonfires
bond-fire between rising
and falling phoenix
conjoining
co-investing
multi-generational passions;
daddies and sons,
masters and slaves,
tops and bottoms,
poles and holes,
straights and rounds,
dipolar co-arising
Riding forward home
to what continues repurposing why,
reworking hidden meaning
as yet unredeemed
in sensory Business As Usual
Backward east
returning promises
of safe and healthy
bright happy new dawns
transcending broken hearts,
troubled mind’s
loss of time’s
most cherished values
Love’s integral compassions
resting first
returning last
Already
I miss you
ready to miss us.
Scientific Artists
Scientists,
like health focused democrats,
have universally applicable intentions
when designing research questions.
Artists,
unlike capital-endowed elitists,
enthuse over unitarian themes
of balance and beauty
when designing interactive responses.
Egos,
like healthy ecosystems,
polyculturally thrive
where integrity evokes
joyfully compassionate
souls
Scientifically left exploring purposes
for and of
artistic right meaningful
sacred feelings.
NonViolent Spaces
Where all humane souls repent
of contempt
for our EgoSelf
against our EcoOthers
And celebrate,
or at least commend,
express gratitude for,
our inner enlightened
and empowered
co-passionate communication,
dialogue,
discernment
Bilaterally
and multiculturally informed
by
of
and for
global climate health
and polycultural wealth
of peace.
Holistic Choices
There probably are some psychotropic meds
helpful with win/win rerooted thinking
reconnecting within feelings,
positive and negative
But meth
and alcohol
and heroin
and depression
and anxiety meds
are not among these.
Nor are behavior management practices
hoping to fade out robust addictions
to substances
and victim spiritualities
against healing
without replacing shame
and blame
and self-loathing
with regenerative health
is also natural/spiritual wealth
ego/ecosystemic
thinking Left and feeling Right
solidarity systems
of compassion
for wounded
MeWe timeless
co-identity.
MeWe wants to live
in green eco-centric identity
humbly not anthrosupremacist,
instead multiculturally loving
with fully polyvagal,
deeply positive polyphonic,
widely polypathic
integral possibility
Here being
also Now becoming
enlightened thought Left
and eco-empowered Right
bilateral deep and wide healthy feelings
friendlier with mushrooms
or cannabis
or carefully calibrated LSD
or even Molly
All better choices than alcohol
and allies
for love rerooting
a more expansive
MeWe life
Resilient resonant recovery
lives and loves in-between
positively felt conviction
and negatively experienced condemnation
Contempt,
and wounded appreciation.
Despair,
and active hope.
Loser traume
and Winner ego/eco
MeWe
bicamerally communicating therapy.
A difference between
monotheistic organized religious formation
and interdependent
inter-sectional spiritual experience:
Religion LeftBrain dominantly teaches
that Elders have the exclusive wisdom
to define and prescribe Jehovah’s
self-righteous love
for autonomous
wounded soul
Me
While naturally spirited RightBrain
MeWe feelings
reconnect with ElderEarth
inclusive peak experiences
to refine and describe
EarthMother’s timeless love
As life within interdependent
reconnecting MeWe
dipolar co-arising NonZero BiPartisan Zone
Full and Empty
compassionately wounded
and rewounding panentheistic Souls
Healthy
strong
opulently flowing
non-anthrosupremacist
co-passionately non-violent
non-zero interdependent
communal peak natural/spiritual experiences
Of actively convicted hope
in timeless face
free of MeWe condemnation.
Free for unconditional
co-passionate
timelessly resilient
warm regard,
and joy;
don’t forget the natural passion
of spiritual compassion.
Gifted Doorways
“Grief can be a doorway to love.”
Robin Wall Kimmerer, Braiding Sweetgrass
Grief can open toward gratitude
As loss can open doors to access gain
As trauma can open hearts
to therapeutic brains
As neglect can foster curious compassion
As depression
can incite active
co-empathic impressions
As double negative sociopathologies
can notice doorways
to positive psychologies
As double-binding
dualdark entropy
can open space
for positive double-binary energy strings
of co-empathic
multiculturing time
As isolating sadness
can open doors
to love’s transcendent gladness.
When Resisting Danger
My GreenLeft side
resists AngryYang
win/lose competing AngloPowers
for making money
commodified
secularized MonoTheistic
world conquering views
Supporting GodGiven economic rights
to colonize sinners,
more easily divided
from the AnthroHerd
when not white
not straight
not male
While my RedRight inside
recovers from ancient wounds,
frightened
angry
disappointed
sacred sad absence
of Holy Yintegral
Win/Win cooperative
EarthTribe co-investments
In
By
Through
Of
From
Sacred ecological nurturing
pan-sensory
systemic bicameral co-passion
Liberally nurturing AnthroWealthy love
consuming EarthIntegral values
co-arising healthy newborn life
Like sunlight above
is to Earth dust
lust
must
bust
crust below
LeftGreen consciousness
of previous peak experiences
Rooted in regenerative
sacred
supernatural is also spiritual subliminal
inter-religious multicultural values
Are green/red ultraviolet positive,
unless disvalues
or misvalues
Are not not unvalues
unconscious
unknown
unloved
uncherished
ungifted
undivine
not humane,
unbecoming
To my emergent GreenLeft side
sense of healthy EarthTribe
indigenous integral balance
Resisting AngryYang
win/lose competing elitist AngloPowers
for making money commodified
secularized MonoTheistic
world views
exclusive of PanenTheistic
EarthCare opportunities
for compassionate
therapeutic communication.
When UnGifted
“A gift is different from something you buy, possessed of meaning outside its material boundaries. You never dishonor the gift.” Robin Wall Kimmerer
A social gift,
a gift for compassionate verbal
and nonverbal communication,
a healing gift,
is different from personal cash investment,
Possessed,
sometimes haunting, gifts
with sacred meaning
timelessly transcending
secular
egocentered
anthrosupremacist
monopolistic double standards,
double gifted/ungifted boundaries.
Healthy inter-religious
interdependent
creolizing polycultures
societies
nation-states
restorative justice systems
regenerative green peace networks,
never dishonor whole-sum gifts as tools for
and not weapons against
Trashed as ballast
for Great Straight White Father’s
unfortunately necessary wars,
originally sinful threats,
collateral human resource damage
of the also-rans
ungifted
unpowerful
disposable
Justified despite thereby losing environmental health
and losing active hope
for resiliently gifted human peace.
It is harder for an unstraight
unwhite
unmale nonbinary child
to emerge from genderphobia
feeling sensually gifted
neurosystemically cherished
wanted as is
than it is for a gifted matriarch
to sing and dance
feeling cherished
(and not marketed)
in transcendent eyes
of a God-needled gatekeeper.
A wounded gift
is different from some Thing
we try to buy
because multicultural integrity
is too high a climate health price
for Patriarchal
Corporate RedRight Capitalists
to stop hoarding Earth’s
Cooperative BountyCircled
Multiculturally Valued Gifts.
A sacred Blue/Green non-binary child gift
asks something of us
not quite so RightRed dominant
mishanding healthier non-binary sway
toward bicamerally balancing intelligence
Taoistic
Zeroistic
WinWin Game Theoretic
and Organic Systems Therapeutic
nonviolently gifted communicators,
green EarthTribe full-sensory educators,
ecofeminist theologians,
poetically prophetic ecologians,
compassionately multiculturally proficient
as not not gifted Positive You
Tipping straight up
as down dipolar gift appointed
Me/SystemicWe
multiculturally therapeutic
co-empathic resonance
PolyCultural EarthJustice resilience gifts
have always 1/0 binary DNA spiraled
through YangStrength/YintegralFlow
Sun enlightening/Earth empowering,
LeftGreen/RightBlue seasoned
red sky boundary reasons
for morning mourning warning
while red sky at night
dimly follows,
sailor’s gifted delight
East yintegrally dawns
on each cooperative living system
throughout Her resilient emergence
to this YangNow/YinHere
Speaking/Deep Listening
bipartisan healing opportunity
To reconnect
and reverse monoculturing powers
spoken in Yang v Yin competitive sexualized dissonance
transposed to sensory LeftGreen/RightRed
ultraviolet neurosensory confluence
Panentheistic
synergetic goddess senses
for regenerative religious gifts
and resonantly co-empathic
sensory-sexual win/win shifts
communed through health-systemic trust
in cooperative
pay back Earth forward thriving democracy
Built
developed
gifted
in cooperative win/win ownership
alternative economies
ecologies wherein those thriving
with the most nutritional value
in autumn’s harvest Earth-gift season
are those most generously delighted
to share next spring’s seeds
and nuts,
Roots
and winter’s roosting eggs
as widely gifted
and deeply co-invested
as possible
To reassure each gifted Other
that our intended wealthy climate
and personal ego healthcare chances
are way win/win way
better together
than win/lose ungifted
unwanted
unlovely drifting apart
Toward Lose/Lose nihilism,
ecopolitical genocide,
militantly RedRight fascist dominant
Whole EarthSystemic ecocide.
But, at least
no one will ever force RedRight you
to reconsider queers
and transexuals
and ecofeminist women
as if, just perhaps,
also sacred gifts
Or, at least not reconsider giftedness
of anyone you know was,
or is…
You know…
that OTHER wounded
ungifted
ungraced
curiously displaced
In MotherEarth’s healthy
regenerating gifted
Wealthy Life is Love Revival.
Presiding PResidential Properties
Why do Presidents
work out better
safer
healthier
when they insist on remaining
persist in reclaiming
active grassrooted residents?
Cooperative property administration health values
are rooted
in eco-cooperative wealth
PolyCultural Values
from regeneratively safe experience
with resilient
and resonant,
CoPassionate Left/Right
West/East
Capital/EmBodied
Ego/EcoSystemic
bicamerally therapeutic
polyvagal EarthTribe
neurosystemic balance
While recovering
from LeftBrain capital presiding dominance
we begin to explore
RightWing hot red prominence
as too anthrosupremacist,
dissociatively white male straight-line monotheistic,
sadistically against ecofeminist cooperatives
left smirking,
rolling eyes
and roiling panentheistic ears
silently against monopolistic colonists
armed and ready to engage
lose/lose military weapons
Before reconsidering
healthier and green systemic
polycultural resilience
Wealthier
nonviolent bicameral communi-nations
reconsidering vaguely integral
fractal
dialectical
4-Square spiraling
interactive spectral notions
Healthy democratic
win/win game engaging
religiously multicultural health
and strategically appropriate safety
In economically green
ecological administrations
teaching polycultural governing resonance
Of Both/And
not-not positive
dipolar co-arising co-alternatives
explored through grassrooted
therapeutic win/win anticipation
Does more than equal
Either/Or unmusical competitions
LeftBrain dominant
pointing anxiously downstream
toward lose/lose deep
dark anthrosupremacist
narcissistic
dissociative
Straight Western WhiteMale
climatic monoculturing trauma
history of dark Earth Days
not so greenly healthy
or safely wealthy
post-industriously
Immersed in presiding
over LeftBrain
increasingly RightWing
competitively dominant
win/lose narratives
devoid of Sacred EarthTribe
recreation stories
Ignoring prehistoric songs
and dances
engaging pre-verbalized
indigenous DNA systemic
co-governing structures
Dialogical
fractal presidential patterns
regeneratively
residentially restructured
Building
and rebuilding resilient
polyvagally systemic win/win
strategic playground wisdom.
Fiddler’s Womb
If I were a poor woman
I would dance and sing
through basement boogy woogy bars
all these days and nights
of EarthTribe healthy men
Winning
not measured in applause
but absorbing painful bunions
in glad support
of Earth’s healthiest worn-out pause
Performing songs with peace
inviting massive choirs
composing mother muses,
matriarchs of deeply felt integrity
dancing EarthDay’s cause.
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