My most important priority
for personal inside health care
is polycultural outside
EarthCare
Environmentally cooperative
divine health caring enlightenment
empowering humane safe
sufficient wealth care.
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Orthodox Experiences
I was bruised by dogmatically non-evangelical
Christ monotheistic Jehovah judgmental bad faith
of divine powers
equally entitled
to generously create love
and selfishly act out of jealousy
divine punishment for unfaithful sins
of worship omission
and secularizing commission
Prescribed by the inspired
and kleptocratically negotiated
Greek
and Latin
and English transubstantiations
of AnthroSupremacist visions
speaking
and singing
and dancing
in white male dominant translations
Royal capital is holy
next to divine monopolistic inspiration
of presumably omniscient sacred values
captured by scribes
and conserved by councils
of presumably straight white orthodox
literate males
representing ecclesial royalty
Featuring Jewish Saul
turned Christ Active Revivalist Paul
writing self-governance purification letters
suggesting that ecclesial rituals
of a polytheistic sensual nature
are the opposite
of our most monotheistic spiritual
yet HolySpirit EarthMatriarchal mindful
sacred panentheistic experiences.
I am also more metaphysically resonant
as a YangNatural/YinSpiritual co-passion Taoist
believing through deep listening
to my (and possibly our)
deepest restorative regenerous justice
Yang/Yin co-operative communication intentions
throughout male/female co-investing reproductive
cause-effect linear days
and co-empathic
regeneratively resilient
lunar recircling nights
CoPassioning
yintegral humane sexuality
as our deepest,
highest
and best sacred sensory practice
positive synergy practice
health wealthing practice
till we get ourselves
Yang in and Yintegral out
depolarizing balance
resiliently Left/Right
co-empathic
resonant dialogical praxis
Bodhisattva
co-messianic
co-passionate Left/Right
internal/external communionation
practice
verbally positive thoughts
and metaphysical theories
about nonverbal healthy felt
nonviolent physical feelings.
The Trauma Prevention Department
Don’t want to be stuck
in the Trauma Prevention Department.
Don’t want to work that hard
on dogmatic compartments
for politically correct CAPITAL INVESTMENT
governments
over-investing in cautionary
conditional
chronic win/lose mistrustful
competitive dissonant miscommunications
and excommunication
which is counterproductive
for best Trauma Prevention practice
Of mindful-civil cooperative warm regard
AND co-investments in
EarTherapeutic Community Resilience.
I do want resilience to be free minded
in a compassionate
healing
and attentive way
To re-awake,
at least in the intimate privacy
of my own imagined MusicTherapy video,
a more youthful
possibly kinda lustful
want and need to sing and dance
For some extravagantly hot romance
inspiring love songs
To MotherTrees
practicing Earth mindful
sacred MoonDance motion skills
Chill
No nasty military commodified drills
for Trauma Perpetuation
Reviving soulful sensory want to play
win/win economic and political
peak experiences
all day
Often on some water shore,
a river valley waiting with anticipation
for just this one last gasp more
economically correcting
by power and light reconnecting
Unconditionally positive warm
well-moisturized humane bodies
co-invested
in co-operative
co-empathic passions
for universal health
and unitarian EarthTribe safety
Is probably not more
win/lose competitive
LeftBrain dominating monocultural worship
of monotheistic AnthroVerbal Supremacy
afraid to listen and speak nonviolently
about our need to deny
our apparent desecrating vocation
propelling EarthMatricide
Which is why I am feeling overwhelmed
and don’t want to be stuck
in the Trauma Prevention Department
So, I was wondering
could you direct me
to the Restorative Resilience Department?
It must be
I fear
some small wayside closeted
indigenous wisdom compartment,
probably dusty
from lack of use
during the monotheistic hegemony era
blessing straight white industrial
and commercial
and agricultural
and financial
and labor forced predations.
Restorative Resilience Department…
Not sure if that would be the Psych Ward
for Trauma Management
or Public Health and Safety
My constituents are MotherTrees.
Do we have any Public Health and Safety plans
or programs
or policies
or procedures
or practices
to restore their neural root
and branch resilience?
I ask
because I know the therapists
and administrators at the Psych Ward
and they don’t have a clue
about resilience planning.
Way too busy
managing trauma
anxiety
depression
chronic stress
overwhelming the Trauma Prevention Department
Which is why I’m feeling stuck,
not having a lot of luck
finding anyone who gives a…
outside the apparently missing
Restorative Resilience Department
of Mindful Corrections
and more positive redirections.
Why I Am Here
At the Planet Gym
embodying my best business
when suddenly I wonder
Why am I here?
repeats
and repeats
in my wandering ear
And what magic
might appear
Isn’t that queer?
Not WHY am I here
with these Straight People
because this overpopulated question
may obscure other
quieter
ambidextrously resourceful directions
less shaded by fear
of robust diversity
I suppose
But, what can I hear
about why am I here?
and not over There
on the Other side
What two-sided relationships
would I need
to become fully here today?
and all seasons yet to arrive
in this sacred home of People
Plants
and PlanetEarth
With gratitude,
I suppose…
but, Why am I here
again?
Cannot mean
only those purposes and means
asso-sedated with my home address
and sometimes needy
sometimes hostile
[downright spankin mean]
neighbors
More creature comforts,
certainly
AND we search for sacred meaning
inside
more intimate
Spiritual enlightenment
perhaps shyer,
timid
early childhood Loser-Trauma
Drama messages
win/lose valuable
Vulnerable communications
with imperfect win/win transparent closets
Hiding chronic stress histories
of anxiety
longing for sacred peace,
or even just a secular piece, you know,
now and again
For chronic stress,
anxiety
Longing for peace
or restored ego-resilience,
or at least a restored recliner
Happiness, and a marketable craft
and EarthMother teaching skills
For relearning not sad gladness
in hope,
joy
in anticipation,
gratitude
for opportunities
to co-invest
in always interesting neighbors
In the Planet Gym
mindbodying
our best health business.
Anticipating Diversity
Diversity explores
both resonant and opposing positions
with nearly predative anticipation
And such perversely curious
reverse revisioning diversity deplores
with monoculturing anxiety
quietly crossed
and boldly violated boundaries
of personal
and familial
and municipal
and EarthTribal
indigenous integrity
Sacred space expands mindfully perceived
unless this Business As Traumatically Usual place
is too lose/lose dark
and I am too win/win blind
to keep faith with dimming starlight
Celestial Glitter Rivered Ways
majestic
yet ominously silent Spirits
of ancient silvered sentient bright
Yet momentary mortal time
feels reflective light received
sufficiently reassuring
mythically alluring
for transient transportive pleasure
and tenderly insufficient
for full-colored organic measure
of integrity’s potential Paradise.
DisOrdered Sons and Fathers
May all sacred,
but not quite omnipotent,
fathers learn this day
as we impatiently correct
our stress-disordered sons
That respect is earned,
so maybe disrespect is too
positive and negative layered
for and against authority
for and sometimes restlessly against
repeating Business As Usual
white middle-class dadisms:
You snooze
you lose
May apply to your lethargic
chronically anxious
thuggish
couch-surfing
cannabis-fed son
And yet feels counter-intuitive
for babies
and us great grandads
who need our outside rest
away from commercial
too lit up
and loud
and relentlessly plastic
inhumane degradations
In such a rabidly anxious hurry
to wait for inevitable pandemics
and genocide,
floods
hurricanes
tsunamis
forest fires
drought
dry river beds
famine
insomnia
rabidity
Taking a snooze
feels like a healthy alternative to:
capitalist narcissism
anthropocentric monotheism
monoculturing nationalism
painful survivalist isolation
demented diseases
species extinctions
anthro-supremacist
safety and defense-oriented males
on a bad day
in a depressing moment
Become
yackity yack disrespectful
feeling privileged to rightwing exclusively define
“real [and not indefensively stupid] men.”
Yet quietly hiding
under these sacredly respected
and secular unrespectful unsuspecting layers
of diverse manhood hues and cues
and patriarchal cultures
Capital invested climates
prefer cooperative integrity
over dormant faith-based respect
and creatively traumatic disrespect
and unenlightened
stress-triggered unrespect
dis-integrity
Desecrating sacred solidarity feelings
learned today
as synergetic need/want supportive
communication systems
sometimes impatiently correcting
my pre- and post-traumatic
stress disordered father
son.
Confusing Fusions
What’s my point?
I often ask
too seldom
Where’s my circle?
Good days are right
as bad feel wrong dark night
And what’s our peak communication point?
Where were we when I last remembered?
you Here
me Now
positively co-invested relationship
bilaterally unnumbered
Light shines in cooperative circles
I quickly exclaim
with delight
too seldom
more forgetfully relents
my dark descends
Past points
not worthy of epic warm melodies
yet unworthy of cryptic cold antitheses
Of tipping points
to purge Yang divisive causes
against resiliently brilliant
Yintegral effects
unbounded round
Unstuck spiraling in-between
celebrating cooperative approaching peak comedies
avoiding trauma speaking narratives,
decelerating uncompelling
disappointing unpointed tragedies,
disjointed lack of co-relational sense
desecrating reproductive round
continuous romance,
encircling warm lights
empowering eager tipping points
Repeat again,
What’s my point?
I often say
too seldom
Where’s our highest
and widest
and deepest
unconditionally warm circle?
Why do knowledge
and information
always have at least one unquestioned point?
While wisdom
unfolds in muse mysterious
warm
and win/win welcoming
round wombed circles
of integrity’s most sacred
deepest sensory
healthy wealth potential.
Empowering LifeStories
What is the main difference
between the life time of a star
and your personal trauma history?
Could it be for you,
as for me?
How long we take
to get from regenerative beginnings
in dark caved holy humble
BlackHole wombs
to degenerative desecrations
and/or therapeutic inside/outside
resonantly peaceful
light empowering ends.
What is your main difference
between personal liberation
from inside traumatic deliberation
AND outside avoiding condemnation?
At all inhibiting costs to Self
prohibitive costs to Others
disposable property costs to sacred MotherTrees
and other indigenous
sentient
residential non-taxpayers
Not to become confused
with Trumpian
“Vengeance is StraightWhiteMaleCapitalist Mine!!!”
All Narcissistic Mine!!!!!!!!!
which is the white privileged noise
of a NON-indigenous
parasitic
residential non-taxpayer
Who does not know the main difference
between the life time of a star
and His monotheistic personal trauma history.
Working With Theories
I’m working on this Systems Theory
All existing formal religious traditions
and informal spiritual experience
of Great Sacred EcoLogical Transitions
[e.g. Blue Holocene to
Green AnthroScene]
Originally,
through our divine monotheistic
and/or polytheistic
and/or atheistic naturalistic
shared one root curiosity system
of healthy resilient enculturing nutrition:
“I’ll believe it
when I can see it,
or hear it,
or maybe safe to smell it,
but probably not safe to taste it,
feel it
Feel spiritually interested
and/or naturally disinterested
in my own personal sensual peak
and valley inside experiences,
yet also our professional education
and empowerment-driven
unconditional integrity
of warm cooperative
co-invested win/win therapeutic intent
Born of body/mind neural root systems
and delivered for
restoring wounded sacred Earth’s
indigenous Physical Resilient HealthSystems
are also MetaPhysically Resonant
Mental Win/Win Synergetic FaithSystems
ReInterReLigionReFlecting
Yang/Yin BiPartisan Balancing
Natural Economies of Resilient Health Justice
also produce Spiritually Resonant Wealth
of Peace
AnthroPrivileged,
but not competitive ZeroSum;
more Whole Open Holistic
green cooperative
FatherSun
LeftBrain dominant
verbal enlightening
do not emerge from
Closed MonoCulturally Defensive Systems
dipolar co-arising
Sacred Organically Receptive MotherEarth
RightHemisphere prominent multisensory
indigenously nature/spirit rooted
natural economic nutritional health
systems:
cooperative Win/Win
positive sacred co-relationship thrival
robustly complex networks
win/lose survivalist competitive
ecopolitical apartheid corporate transactions
lose/lose negative desecrating trauma-despair
chaotic anti-communion fading egosystems
bipolar not-not polynomially unbalanced
degenerating
Sacred MotherEarth
spiritually panentheistic
naturally synergetic
ergodic co-balancing energy
positive-1/not negative-0
AnthroPrivileged bicameral balancing health care
neuro-sensory communication systems
Remembering
matriarchal ancient-lined
ringed
circling
spiraling birthing
baptismal waters
within universal
unconditional
unitarian co-empowering
Original Win/Win EarthMother
peak emergent health is wealth
warm and wet womb
formed and flowing
integral spacetime rebalancing
1-Yang/0-Yintegral co-balancing
Whole Open HealthSystems
incubating mutual warm regard
For bilateral sacred enlightened peaks
umbilically reconnecting
co-empowering valleys
Panentheistically still lurking
in all current quietly mindful
through past nutritional faith-based traditions,
this quiet cooperatively co-invested hope
against all win/lose treasons
of win/win healthy resilient
love reasons
PolyCultural positive perception
was originally rooted in
natural food and elimination
and reproductive
ecological resilient co-operating systems,
organisms,
biospheres surrounding ego-core identity systems,
plants and living planets.
Sure,
in this more modern monotheistic branch
of ancient faith traditions
on our Tree of Sacred Indigenous Knowledge,
predative privileged light
and evangelical right
to identify
quantify
define and refine
percentage of God’s sacred
humane individuation
As compared against
a monoculturing GoldRuled Standard
StraightWhiteMale supremacist
LeftBrain nouned
monotheistic renouned right to control
exclusive sacred narratives
of divine light’s full manly power
to control all warm nutritioning
water co-gravitating ReSources
Lurking quietly
in poetry and psalms
and parables
of matriarchal sacred history
Rooted in nature-based
oral traditions,
psalmody
indigenous nondualistic wisdom literature
Not quite so over-invested
in militarized religious war events
witnessed
and victimizing
in potential win/win ways often ignored
by global ecological history
To write down mythology
and passion narratives
and bodhisattva cooperative
green co-invested
restorative justice healing ceremonies,
passion story telling
Vulnerably personal
and yet transparently professional
ego/ecosystemic open
natural mindbody healthcare
resilient history
iconic, sometimes ironically,
of spiritual eco-panentheistic
indigenous wisdom
Gaian wealthcare synergetic
ancient EarthGoddess integrity
of neuro-organic resonant mystery
Still playing with Her win/win
faith-based resilient
EarthJustice theory
Trauma-informed remains
for explaining to a win/win undamaged child
wondering, in face of emergent ecocide,
why would sacred MotherEarth
think it was a good highest and best use
of valuable organic real estate
to over invest in AnthroPrivilege?
So, I’m playing with this win/win
restoring healthy
wealth co-optimizing
empowering and enlightening
Yang/Yin bilateral ego/eco-resiliently felt
brilliant win/win re-connecting
neurosystemic ancient thrival
organic systems history
of AnthroPrivileged
positive co-relational
lurking sacred mystery theory.
DisEngaging Privilege
ReEngaging Integrity
How might the ego-narrative
of a sacred Tree
speak most profoundly
of old growth economic
and political
environmental trauma?
How might MotherTrees
avoid sacred Self-serving
by secularizing Other-deserving
separating and unequal
StraightWhiteMonoTheisticMale privilege
to punish
disturbing chronic anxiety
approach/avoid issues of mind/spirit integrity
about being personally fed and bred
through not healthy best separate,
but more co-related,
and not a sustainably healthy organism
or wealthy unequal organization
AND [more saliently sacred]
A historically patriarchal-capitalist
LeftBrain verbal monoculturing
anthro-supremacist vendetta
against the unconditionally warm co-passionate
communion communication
expected of a MotherTree
in a healthy, robust forest
Constantly repurposed
and mined
and pumped
and glorified,
grasped
and let go,
squeezed in
and freely exhaled,
to embrace
and release
Other’s Mother MinoriTree narratives
To discover what Her AnthroTree words
and nomials
variables uncovered
and co-relationships
recovered
positive and negative correlations
balanced and rebalancing
exclamatory peak
and declamatory valleyed phrases
Her ecocidal non-applause pause
might betray
negative core EarthLife feelings
emerging slow-grown
Anthro-panentheistic
inter-religious
multiculturing
creolizing
co-passion
And monotheistic despairing loneliness
of self-love EarthLoss of Life
eternal isolation
Of love and monoculturing hate
and fear and polycultural rebate
Of Win/Win surprising Aha! peak experiences,
ecstatic and/or exotic and/or erotic,
and Win/Lose frustrations
and sadness
about kinda stupid malevolent competitions,
while prying for more therapeutically peaceful
outcomes.
How might the TreeEgo’s trauma narrative
disengage from ecocidal Lose/Lose despair
to search for deeper roots
toward Earth health care
through restoring therapeutic justice
and cooperative peace repair
Restoring ego/communal
bilateral
bipartisan
cooperative TaxPayer-Ego/Eco Justice
Embracing universal warm
unconditional health care values
Discovering
uncovering extended pre-historical family trees
recovering from Othered long-suffering
win/lose
sawdusted up
stress-ringed
drought and buggy matriarchal histories
Suffering win/lose servants
shading EarthTrauma blisterings
To recover systemic win/win health care
forest re-constitutional optimization
and co-invested resilience
in this inter-religious polyculture
of multiculturally co-rooted
deep learning CoMediators
She may hear
what AnthroTribe is feeling
and She cares about our empowerment
and S/He is curious about
our potential sacred meaning
co-invested
enlightenment
of a MinoriTree’s Trauma
Therapeutic ReHashed
Smashed EarthHistory.
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