Sometimes,
not often enough,
I connect with all the good Ones
who grow so much in me
And
when we re-member these times
lost in right now space,
We gather no grand finale harvest
But remain so very grateful
for whom We have been
and where We have gone
and when We might romp once again
before this time’s curious end.
Bending just, and unjustly, around
life’s next grateful
fateful
corner,
Zero summing all these great Ones
who grow so much in graceful We.
Could what we believe
is our neurological humane nature,
growing up
and cooperatively out
from LoseMe/LoseWe depressions
about ourselves
and our subculturally dynamic environments,
toward WinMe/LoseWe capitalistic patriarchalism,
toward WinMe/WinWe nurturing co-empathic communication,
Also feel
as if theologically new ancient redblooded spiritual
flowing up
and cooperatively out
ecological green/blue energy
growing from retributive injustice guilt and shame
toward WinEgo/WinEco absorbing compassion,
ego/eco-political EarthTribe healing
healthy nature of wealthy spirituality?
Could what we believe
is our positive/negative multi-regenerational
psychological internal nature
Have grown from
our ecological prime EarthMother Attachment,
flowing divine ZeroSum individuating energy
growing from discontinuous detached WinMe/LoseWe
post-partum dark experience
toward Win/Win eco-political healing
green new deal healthy
internal/external nature
Of wealthy holistic healing
health/wealth multicultural
multigenerational
multi-pathic
polyphonic
meta-euphoric experience?
For naturally aged old bodies,
new age spirituality
may bring to mind
Natural AND spiritual co-creative tensions
between regenerative positive empowerment
and degenerative negative dark,
yet still warmly wet newborn,
womb-like metamorphic attachment memories,
Continuous recycles of re-generate life
and de-generating deaths,
Wins
and losses,
Healthy days
and wealth uneased nights
Free of hoarding ego privileges
embedded in Earth’s blue/green
cooperative
ecosystemic timeless
multiculturing senses
Of natural old ages
giving way to continuous
dipolar co-arising
appositional/oppositional
bicameral
cooperative/competitive
naturally spirited
new-green/old-red sages.
My RightBrain analogical mind
becomes frustrated with my digital
binary either 1 or 0
monocultural dominance,
privilege,
ego-supremacy
of YangOne over YinZero,
Which reacts to all health issues,
personal and political,
economic and environmental,
neurological and psychological,
sociological and globally polycultural,
as if they are bipolar win/lose inevitable,
assuming competitive evolutionary capitalistic models
of regenerative healthy nutrition market reality,
Rather than also dipolar nuanced win/win
analogical
ecological
theologically co-redemptive
holistic nurturing both/and opportunities
For multiculturally
non-violently mediating health-wealthing communication
with restorative peace and justice outcome resilience,
Robust dipolar co-arising resonant markets
bicameral global Taoist
NonZeroSum integral nurturing
cosmic co-gravitating communion mapping
of Yang LeftSpace
in 4D Yin RightTime
seasonally revolving
spiraling
BiLateral ReWeaving
of continuously win/win SpaceTime
Which looks
and feels
like polyphonic waves
of DNA ultra-nonviolent
multiculturing regenerativity
to me.
It feels fascinating
that horny voracious passions
dissipate in the presence of ego-centered fear
of pain and suffering
and ego-defeating loss,
disability and predative performance anxieties,
wounds,
death,
short-term through permanent
degenerating energy,
absence of active hope
for future holistic integrity.
In this time of climate degeneration
fear and cultural distancing need,
frustrated leftbrain dominant
StraightWhiteMale monoculturing horniness
looks culturally privileged like,
sounds prejudicially like,
feels and touches sacred EarthMother like,
smells and multiculturally
creole tastes like
manically monoculturing
predative redmeat energy states
of fear-and-anger inducing rabidity
rather than restorative green regenerative passion
for multicolored
trans-generational
testosterone/estrogen
yang/yin
pansexual win/win
inclusive cosmic integrity
Of cooperative green/blue energy
power
EarthPeace compassion.
One of my several disabilities
of personal knowledge
through experience
and, therefore, empathic intelligence,
is to know what estrogen-driven “horniness”
might feel like,
look and sound like,
taste and smell like.
Gay men require alternative
deviant paths
toward green/blue/red
ultra-nonviolent
cooperatively owned
and perpetually self/other-managed
multiculturally mediated
open WholeEarth systemic
ecofeminism.
I suspect a primal contrast
between an empty holed
deep chakra longing for compassionate relationship,
rather than a pole-addicted belonging
to assertive plundering
the newest available warm wet
unholy hole,
might be one way
of contrasting secularized patriarchal privilege
with matriarchal holistic submission
to eco-political windy waves
of increasingly rabid aggression,
unilaterally pleasure polarized
and further polarizing capital-headed dominance
of debate horniness
rather than dialogue compassions.
Which brings me to my strong ability,
outgoing,
discontinuously flowing,
capacity to feel and know
smell and taste testosterone-driven “horniness”
of re-membering experience,
although not necessarily that well re-ligiously contemplated,
reflecting on how I might re-connectedly improve
continuous, rather than discontinuous, win/win outcomes
and avoid future win/lose disasters
of sexual
sensual
sensory
spiritual/natural conscious practice,
compassion practice,
passion practice
until I get testosterone/estrogen horny us
at least imaginatively balanced,
Left dominant red
and right recessive green/blue
states of humane-peace/divine-justice
bright toned passion
Because that, “passion”
and power
and positive/negative energy,
may be sense-synonyms
for “horniness”
felt and known,
Ergodic balancing exterior structured
cognitive spaces
and
Ionic harmonic interior flowing
affective revolving nonbionic-binary
irrationally felt
positive longing
and negative belonging
empty passioning times
Whether testosterone
or estrogen
or some bisexual multicolored culture,
some multicultural environmental combination
of these two
become one ego/eco-rooted
in cosmic polyphonic
polypathic win/win energy democracy,
EcoPolitically seen
when compassionately heard,
EcoBiologically felt
when passionately touched,
SocioNeurologically tasted
when co-empathically smelled
With win/win informed/exflowing gratitude
cooperative testosterone/estrogen attitude
Compassionate multiculturing global energy
of sufficiently bicameral
disciplined powers
Non-violently mediated integrity
deep learning opportunity
Even while facing manic
ego-centrically runaway rabid
capitalistic
patriarchal
heavily testosteroned
dominating
privileged
narcissistic
horny
prickly
polar passions of great unraveling
unease
about climates of potential
integral health/wealth
lost to yesterday’s EcoPolitical disease.
Bertrand Russell
was intrigued by systems theory,
appalled by systemic racism
within himself and others,
corporations and churches
not recognizing each other’s wisdom
also found in temples and synagogues
and community investment banks
and poor houses.
He was also interested in political philosophy,
power of aristocrats
anticipating growing personal economics
despite offering no respite
to green/blue democratic EarthLovers.
A contemporary of Einstein’s,
who shared Russell’s political philosophy
and perhaps his interest in 4Dimensional
prime NonZero-entropic space/time
co-arising dipolar bilateral systems,
Russell writes,
“The reason physics has ceased to look for causes
is that, in fact,
there are no such things.
The law of [unilateral linear] causality
is a relic of a bygone age,
surviving, like the monarchy,
only because it is erroneously supposed
to do no [win/lose, either/or leftbrain dominant reductive] harm.”
Here, Russell’s parenthetical analogy
betrays his political philosophy
favoring natural/spiritual green co-arising systemic democracy
of We The Healthy MultiCultural People
causing and effecting
monoculturing
narcissistic aristocratic collective fantasies,
anthropocentric Naked Emperors.
Causal systemic power travels down to up,
like root systems toward flowers,
nutritionally before,
secondarily, communication flowing top to down,
like seeds embedding in Earth’s co-invested future
multiculturing fertile soil
bearing multi-regenerational anticipated win/win fruits,
Dipolar co-arising in polyphonic apposition
more normatively nurturing
than win/lose bipolar challenges of monoculturing,
too aristocratically self-delusional
short-term empowering aggressors
leftbrain straight white western male predators
on organic polycultural matriarchal fields
of nature/spirit win/win systemic energy
for which each individual ego
was EarthMother sacred
eco-politically born
For growing systemic
democratic cooperative green energy,
power,
empowerment,
enlightenment
of integrity’s systemic multiculturing potential
for climate health,
internally spiritual ego
as externally natural eco-systemic.
Anxiety pulls toward distraction
delusion
un-communication
As anticipation pulls toward absorption
in monoculturing illusions
and/or polyculturing illustrations of interdependence,
miscommunication
and/or bilateral,
or even multicultural communication,
The Earth’s rapid climate degeneration,
now rolling out faster with private transport
and industrialized meat and poultry farming,
and longer with artificial light
and factories birthing plastic products
all night,
moves into a revolutionary height
of global anxiety,
democratically felt
But aristocratically denied
by win/lose devolutionary monocultural leaders
not familiar with win/win revolutionary
polycultural outcomes
multicultural incomes
multigenerational regenerators
meta-morphic appositional (not win/lose oppositional)
dipolar (not bipolarized)
co-arising (and co-gravitating) feelers
thinkers
meditators
grassroots permaculture designers
restoring down to top
AND top to down non-violent communicating justice mediators,
All healers of toxic subclimate
and monocultural win/lose
either/or leftbrain dominant thinking,
are also, at our best,
bicameral ego/eco-systemic anticipators
of win/win global green peace
New through indigenously experienced win/win raptures,
Heaven as Earth organic gardens.
I wonder if
what Buddhist classic meditation teachings
refer to as “attachments”
and “aversions,”
a Western medical doctor
might label with different words,
such as addiction
and dissociative diversions.
In both frames
negative illusions may be recognized
and appreciated
as deep opportunities to learn;
Negative delusions are not accurately cognized
and are depreciated
as too risky
not to repress
and hide
from any therapeutic
transporting
transparent (not self-shaming)
and vulnerable (not self-blaming)
communication
with our contemplative EgoTherapist within
and our medical-model EcoTherapists without.
Positive illusions,
attachments and/or addictions,
may be accurately cognized
as sensory attractions,
Whether smells and/or tastes,
touch and/or feelings,
sight and/or sound,
eco-reception and/or mind/body communication,
exterior and/or interior,
May have potential
to therapeutically transport
away from addiction
and toward less ego-obsessive attraction,
and away from self-serving,
potentially predative, attractions
to positive sensory pleasure,
cooperatively intended
hoped
faithed
loved,
eco-politically
and personally
and bilaterally
and bicamerally healthy wealth
of becoming completely satisfied
sufficient
simple
centered in HereLeftYangSpace/NowRightYinternalTime
and in past sensory satisfying memories
and in future images
imagination of pleasures
climatically encompassing
all of the above.
Addiction to cooperative multicultural
multigenerational
regenerational
and bicameral
bilateral peak sensory experiences
could be a healthier opportunity
than addictions to competitive ego-monoculturing
and mono-atheistic
and autonomous predator/prey
sensory risk ambivalence
Where things don’t necessarily smell
or taste inviting,
don’t necessarily feel grateful to touch
or feel inside my mindbody,
don’t necessarily transcendently transport
when compromised win/lose beauty seen
and ambiguously uninviting truth heard,
falling short of healthy co-addiction
to Earth’s vast multicolored wealth
of sensory ultra-nonviolent
compassionate
EarthTribe Yintegrity.
Are you,
or have you ever been,
a Trumpist?
Asks the Restorative Justice Committee
inviting an open discussion
with Christian evangelicals
about their new green global loyalties
And how this anticipation
of restoring justice
through green/blue climates
and unred-undominating cultures of peace
has been influenced,
or not,
by EarthPatriotic repentance.
In hindsight,
said a representative
of the StraightWhiteMale Clergy Association,
I first began reflecting on,
“Who is my social capital competitiveness
willing to sacrifice,
to actively or passively bully,
shun,
ignore,
disempower,
leave behind as a ‘loser’
so I could more clearly emerge
among my monoculturing peers
as an orthodox redmeat ‘winner’
a God of Retributive Justice emulator,
judge,
blamer and shamer,
violent miscommunicator,
win/lose evolutionist
of a discontinuously transcendent
slowly degenerating undivine EarthView.
Willing to sacrifice
and capitalistically bully Earth Her sacred Self,
in my shunned silent closet
focusing on a rapturous Heavenly climax
after the straight white Father’s great self-righteous
rapacious red rage.
Which is something rather punishingly different
and anxiety reproducing
as compared to anticipating
a green EarthBound Rapture
catalyzed by healthy democratic empowering
and cooperatively enlightening restoration
of ego/eco-therapeutic EarthJustice.
What, of your own potential integrity,
internal multicultural interests
and faith-filled curiosities,
is your current internal monocultural win/lose efficiency
for hoarding currencies of social success markers,
such as “annual six figure income”?
I’m not sure I understand your question.
Is our household income over $100,000?
Am I a faithful federal military-industrialized taxpayer?
Yes, of course.
What and whom are you willing to leave behind?
How do your faith communities shut out awareness
of other green restorative currencies for success,
such as integrity,
multicultural, multigenerational neighborhood social synergy,
win/win commitments to inclusive consciousness,
to transparent authenticity,
to vulnerability
willing to risk personal honesty
about closeted red deviancy,
feelings of undemocratic evangelical supremacy?
I’m hoping those are rhetorical questions?
Oh ye of little green faith
inadequate to anticipate opportunity
to more deeply learn
who we are becoming
as an interfaith multicultural health wealthy family,
a global neighborhood communion,
a diverse mutually absorbing ultra-nonviolet community
free of dreaming up more red fear
and blue/green free for transparent cooperative curiosity
and win/win co-empowerment
and holistic open systemic co-enlightenment.
Now who’s bullying
and overpowering
and not effectively communicating
so much as competitively evangelizing?
Who and what do your religious dogmas
exclude from grace
that your spiritual and natural cultural interests,
your attractions and anxieties
would include as stretch goals
for better health communication
which includes respectful listening more
and disrespectful preaching less?
If you wouldn’t mind,
could we turn your question around?
How are eco-political you,
and how have we forever audaciously become,
MultiCultural Therapeutic Communicators?
gdill52 