I hope to visit next Sunday
on a warm
sunny
early PeaceGiving afternoon
Outside with my wounded Daughter’s
extending therapeutic family
with win/win playful
and richly resonant intent
Inside her new
young
empowering
and cooperatively enlightened
Thankful
mind-full music
and muse dancing
mythically
mysteriously
majestically joyful home.
I know the difference
between cooperatively intended sympathy
and solidarity of empathy
more easily articulated
by identifying sympathy’s antithesis
as dissociation.
Sympathetic feelings
may be captured by:
Twinkle twinkle
little star
how I wonder what you are
from afar
As co-empathic compassion by:
Twinkle twinkle
big bright star
now I see just who we are,
new enlightening depths
mutually ajar.
Like the difference
between pornography
and regenerative
sexual ecology,
Asking for a thesaurus
for synonym wealthy choices
does not help
if my standard of healthy success
hopes to spin and weave
a co-arising dipolar chorus
Lyricizing analogies between theoretical God
and experiential Love
inviting our polyphonic
evolving metaphoric
spirit sympathetic
for EarthTribe’s polypathic
healing reeling
revolving metamorphic
wealthy rocking
nature co-empathetic
Enough to know the difference
between cooperatively intended sympathy
and solidarity of empathy
more fluidly articulate
separating sympathy’s antithesis
as silent
and neglected disassociations.
Music practice,
when I was a wounded child,
felt too redundantly mundane,
yet never merely quite ordinary,
especially within a band
or chorus learning environment
For restoring spiritual
mental
natural health,
compassionately co-invested.
Later,
as an adult wounded child,
I repeated this same
redundantly mundane
Business As Not Quite Usual
multicultural community mediation practice
reassuring ritual
Especially within a sacred
indigenous
nonviolent nature/spirit communication
health optimizing Win/Win integral remuneration
expanding EarthJustice progress
processes not win/lose patriarchal culture
please get it off my chest
still struggling with capitalist questions
How do multi-mediating clients
harmonically co-invest?
Musicians musing EarthHealth remediations
feel free to sing out loud
our EarthMuse restoring inclinations
recycling dipolar co-arising precipitations
by winning outside GoldenRules
for cooperative muse
outside music camp vacation
ecotherapeutic anticipations
Left credible
theoretical
And Right awesomely
experiential
Together transubstantiating
integrity’s potential synchronizing
principles of indigenous reverse
spirited nature bi-harmonizing
Natural music’s symphony
enspiriting muse epiphany
extending back and forth
in and out
down and up
Left EarthPowers
and Right SkyLights
healing non-pathology
Dancing
RingSinging
nondualistic co-winging
Thoughts of Muses
feeling
moving
EarthSystemic Music.
In the beginning
of individual first NoelNights
taking our great climatic breath,
All each of us possesses,
and is possessed by,
is sacred EarthMother
Humble shepherdess
singing vast compassion’s angelic empowerment
of great rebirth
giving enlightenment.
We each represent
remember
recreate
this first EarthJustice health communion
Wealth journey
into last and final Solstice
ChristMassive Eve
invoking universal health care giving
predicting local uniting harvest
of resilient wellness wealth
As we cooperatively push our babies forward
in silent carriages of active hope
to resist a dispassion climate
apartheid climax,
deadly stillborn
Wherein all that remains
of future warm breath generations
are shadow moon
and fading starlight
coldly witnessing
no angels singing
on high
nor below
what was our living
breathing MotherEarth
Now, this day,
still seeking and finding here
first empowering
and last enlightening
Dark and final climaxing
sacred co-empathic
passion storied climate frights
Of first/last bright night’s
final warm music intent
to breathe healthy co-passioned
co-arising journey flight
Breathing in
then together out,
Up
then back down
Western YangFull pride
and Eastern Yintegral Empty slide
dark
final restoring night
of Earth’s synergetic Solstice,
compassion’s resonant story
Greatest journey
patronage over-sold
yet never dark dopamining
seratonin angel told.
Why do partisan social activists preach
so much about growing a more equitable society
while doing Business As Usual
While environmental activists student teach
with us
to develop a more synergetic EarthTribe?
HeartChoice,
the Why
of my prayers,
invocations,
anxieties,
deep learning anticipations
Music of Integrity
throughout compassion’s timeless
walking wounded prayers
Felt inside Win/Lose violent history
of uncivil suffering
mystery
of Either/Or non lullaby
Discord rooted and stuck
in fundamental lack of soul
for multicultural flowing courage
swelling BothNature/AndSpirited lungs
and throats
and tongues
and bicameral hearts
and bilateral hands
discovering capital heads
in copassionately curious root
HeartChoice
compelling well-sung
HeadVoice,
the What of my prayers,
invoking lyrics
Win/Win bicameral health/
wealth of vocal ecopolitical analysis
advocating Golden Ruled individuals
Witnessing trauma’s global light
shedding shadows
whispering ecotherapeutic local power,
Enlightened mystic minds
within empowered bodies,
Balancing egos
within harmonic neuro-ecosystems
spiraling binomial
double binary dynamics
healthing HeadVoice
co-invested wealthing
HandReJoice,
the How of my active prayer
as dancing DNA regenerations
choreographing bilateralized experience
that social-psycho consciousness
is not first a matter of unsung healthy faith
but of primordially felt resonant wealth experience,
through co-empathic copassionate music practice
Singing staffed ribbons
inscribing vibrato octaves sung
well-rung resonance
both multicultural
and nonviolent,
Both nutritional
and win/win cooperative communal
ego/eco-therapeutic corollary chorus
resounds
Searching out resilient myths
of beauty’s truthful history,
thought as felt
co-empathic mystery
Unfolding Head
and Hand
and Heart
TriPolar bilateral communication
of vastly deep healthy wealth
long-term resilience
speaking up for WholeEarth Open
Radiant FullSpectral Light
and SoundPower Systems
For achieving the How
of our cooperative
co-invested operas
and spoken word projects,
Beauty prayers
hummed in mythical well-being
vibrating therapeutically together
Growing less isolation nightmares
and “Fix Apartheid SundaySin For Us”
empty prayers
invoking militarized self-righteousness
and other dystopian
Straight White privileged
AnthroSupremacist
LeftBrain Dominant
universal nation
patristic capital invocations
advocating
Either EgoWins/Or Eco-Loses
ZeroSum
Closed NeuroSystemic
Devolutionary W/L AnthroGame Theory
Cognitive/Affective dissonance
socio-psychological trauma
chronically stressed
disintegrative miseducating losses
outweighing cisintegral muses
natural/spiritual extended peer
re-education
health/wealth
muse dynamic systems
Avoiding unhealthy prayers
for unwealthy
unwise vocalizations.
“I believe in the sun
even when it is not shining”
I remember someone recently resaying
what has long lain unsaid
inside my paradoxical head,
When asked if I believe in God,
I don’t know what to say.
I might not believe in your God,
at least on my worst
pain-darkened day.
And,
I seem to believe in my own
only in those rare rain-free moments
healthy ego- and eco-gratifying
When I am having a climax heart
and head
song
and dance remembering
re-ligioning
reconnecting EarthMoment
Shared with at least one Other,
perhaps for our first through last time
in this
our day of sacred synergy
Sustaining
surrounding
celebrating a yellow morning
mellow sunrise
promising this wealthy day
without soggy rain
As we prepare to health harvest
warmly fragrant sun-dried hay
I quietly say
So, there is a God,
after all.
“And I believe in love
even when there’s no one there.
And I believe in God
even when he is silent.”
These two additional beliefs
feel like one Relief Belief
to my bicameral head choice
and heart voice.
For it has often been said
and felt
that God is love
Especially when
Matriotic HolySpirit of Love
doesn’t act like a Patriarchal Fool
And, by that,
I reference my own sociopathology
of privileged entitlement
monoculturally over-invested
in capitalist Straight
White
Earth Predations
Colonizations
Extractions
Rapaciousness
But,
my most courageous inscriptions
of whispering hope
often not felt enough
sacredly chosen silence
in spaces between
my LeftBrain dominant
distracting notes
Where my own AnthroSupremacism
falls vibrantly listening
to responsively hear
Elder MotherTrees
sigh
and breeze
Silently praying
for strong rooted
cooperative integrity
Within this organic Green Communion
forest of hands on
generating regenerous Hope.
Note:
Pandemonic Hope is part of a series of theological reflections offered to and from the All Souls Unitarian-Universalist Choir in New London, Connecticut.
“Inscription of Hope” was composed for the Nebraska Choral Arts Society and Children’s Chorus by Z. Randall Stroope, in conversation with a Russian Folk Tune. His lyrics are drawn from an inscription on cellar walls hiding Jews in Cologne, Germany, during World War II. Stroope’s own 1994 reflection on the significance of these words, in this Holocaust pandemonic context, “Hope was all they had to hold on to; hope was their only bridge to a brighter [nonviolently restoring justice] tomorrow.”
LeftBrain ponderous
Dominant Voice:
When did fear
of Straight White God’s traumatic punishment
for our sins
and for the Patriarchal/Capitalist sins
of our soiled soul Fathers;
RightBrain Felt as
Positive Health EcoChoice:
Overwhelm our love
for therapeutically restoring
sacred Earth Peace
and humane/divine
cooperative
co-invested Green Win/Win
Eco/Theo-Logical Justice?
Back in Eighth Graded Class
of StraightWhiteMale English privilege
I learned all healthy narratives
must have at least one
of these three tension intentions:
Like sacred mythic prayers
and fables invoking
poetry and soulful
gospel anthems
Of StraightWhite Man v AnthroOther
Or StraightWhite ManBody v EgoCentric Self
Or StraightWhite ManSpirit v Earth’s Sacred/Carnal Nature
I was disappointed
with the LeftHemisphere narrow-mindedness
of these three Either/Ors
which my RightHemisphere
could more deeply hear
as monocultural lack
of inter-trinitarian
Both HumanTrauma and DivineTherapy
in integrity’s polyculturally inclusive
compassionate Earth Communion.
I thought I had seen and heard
lack of heart resources
among AnthroSupremacist early philosophers
and scripture righter downers
instinctively suppressing liberally democratized
polycultural health-systemic
polypathic compassion communicating
polyphonic harmonic resounding
polyvagal neurosystems
most actively hoping health
among win/win economically enlightened
and politically empowered EarthWomanists.
I’m sure I still can feel touched gratitude
for more healthy democratic attitude
co-governing cooperative green co-investments
in EarthMother climate
and family healthcare,
public
and domestic,
global
and local nutritional wealth conservation,
Economically bright
and politically right
ecologically tight relationships
lead
and feed
theologically mighty cooperative reflections
Politically correct
replete with regenerative
healthy co-redemptive
win/win poyculturally meditative
mediation strategies seductive
among win/lose monocultural predatives,
Encouraging, perhaps, a cannabis sedative
and easing up on alcoholic dissociatives
drunk from win/lose evolutionary theories
of AnthroSupremacy Wins Earth’s wealthiest superlative
despite stumbling into humbling wounds
of multi-degenerational EcoCide
A more Left/Right Wing balanced
evolutionary race theory of white supremacy
unbalanced
mentions intrinsic narrative tensions
between peaceful intentions
and male militaristic
colonizing
enslaving
proprietary
patrilinear monocultural domination
going way back through HiStory
Toward brighter indigenous lights
of early monotheistic SunGod Worship
preferring healthier transparent light
and wealthier vulnerable win/win
co-sensory empowerment
Among prehistoric
preverbal family groups
extended kin
PanEnTheistic
early regenerational DNA co-relatives
of wavey Time integrity
and atomic faced Space
bicamerally synergetic
PolyHealth fed
and EcoWealth watered
compassion’s
co-binary extension
InBetween Yang’s Open ZeroZone
and Yintegral NonZero
soulful bicameral response
along polypathic lines
with polyphonic ringing
spaces
harmonic singing
For panoramic
epic textured narratives
of faithful AnthroSupremacists
learning how much we BlueSky love
and GreenEarth worship
our own
personal
Ecofeminist
Green empowering
Indigenous GrandMothers
who lived and died
long before verbal language
LeftBrain robust enculturation,
and Eighth Grade English
privileged class.
Once within eternal Time
a coffee ground
of full-spectral
spacious consciousness,
Might sink in cold water cups
Yet rise to surface in warm oil sublime
joyously buoyant juice
Happiest to float atop
a hierarchy of divinely positioned selection
station
static inquisition
Yet again,
to an individual
free and woke coffee ground,
What is out
and up on top,
In StraightWhite
Patriarchally privileged position,
Is, yet again,
What is down
and inside repositioned
eco-conscious remission
into deep learning privilege
co-arises all our history’s
revolutionary
ecotherapeutic
subdued
immersed consciousness
of dualdark mystery
Universal EarthTribe unitarian
deep health through surface
sufficiently buoyant
wealth,
Ego/Eco Systemically
indigenous wisdom
This coffee ground up
is also ground down
perspectives in-between full
consciousness
of unconscious empty
spiraling dynamics
revolving revolutionary
wisdom
NonZero conscious Zones
NonDualistic
DiPolar CoArising
basic bilateral
polypathic space
Is also felt polyphonic
in temporally respiring
harmonic octaves
Of ecologically regenerative health
double-4fractal prime DNA systemic
Double BiNomial
RedYang
coffee ground’s individual sinking strength
is also buoyant yintegral consciousness flowing
1 nomial moment is to 0-triangulated space
Open Exponential double-binary
therapy-thought/trauma-felt Times
consciously capital bicameral
ego-dignity/eco-integrity binomial
bilateral development
As EgoIdentity
embodies organic multi-regenerative
decaffeinated grounds of Health
empowering Yang BiLateral FullConscious Wealth
Left
Of Wisdom’s Right
EcoSystemic
FullSpiraling
Inspiring ReVolutionary
PolyTheistic
ReGenerous Solutionary
Enlightening yintegral polyphonic
deep ungrounded feelings
Intro/Retro CoInvested
win/win strategic resource
CoInfested
DNA 4-fractals of EcoConsciousness
universal/unitarian
space/time communitarian
left/right bilateral creolian
west/east nonsectarian
north/south repairian
secular/sacred dipolarian
dignity/integrity bipartisans rock
and roll again
CoffeeGround consciousness
naturally PatriCapital up
may be more buoyantly multicultural
Yet no more than equals
not not PolyCultural Communion
down deep
Or up top soon becomes degenerative
unconsciousness,
Lack of win/win rebounding
away from Business As Usual
StraightWhite PatriCapitalist
LeftHemisphere
slick oily
and juicy dominance
Once again on this water drenched
bad
depressing
lack of EarthTribe consciousness day
Preferring deep dark
polycultural
democratic
ego/eco-systemic
health/wealth global conscience
Singing
and ringing red sky climate warnings
yet again
against deep pools
of eroding PatriCapital
sufficient for full EarthTribal
deep root health-chakra consciousness
CoffeeGrounds rerooting
in nondualistic indigenous wisdom theory
that theological experiences
of our Great Immanent
Imminent MotherEarth Spirit
Are doubly rooted
In ecological ecosystemic co-investments,
In EarthTribe’s BluSky enlightened radiance
resiliently floating in compassionate love
with GreenEarth empowering
Health/Wealth Integral
bilateral self/other conscious
GoldenRule
up/down
in/out
ego/eco win/win Ratio
Balancing NonSectarian ReLigious Resilience
of full open-systemic copassionate
bicamerally co-empathic
verbally thought
and nonverbally felt
nonviolently communicating
integral health/wealth consciousness
Once within eternal Time
a coffee ground
of full-spectral
spacious consciousness,
Might sink in cold water cups
Yet rise to surface in sacred oils
of sublime
joyously buoyant
woke up
deep and wide compassion
juice.
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