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January Calendar

Opening a new 2019 calendar,
January unveils an Arctic Wildlife Refuge view
of glaciered mountains
behind a frozen river
surrounded by bedrocks
grey and bleak black
and rusty brown.

The Wilderness Society caption
claims this as our “treasured landscape
that the indigenous Gwich’in people” name,
proclaim?
“Sacred Place Where Life Begins.”

Rather than
The same old frigid and barren secular place
where any decent life
could only abruptly end
in hopeless frozen defeat.

This juxtaposition seems to capture essential compassionate v narcissistic
human destinies of choice.

Both Wildlife Refuge views
could be valid,
but the indigenous birthplace choice
to see opportunity
feels more integratively useful,
more communion sustainable,
resilient, rather than bitterly brittle.

The Dalai Lama teaches,
and presumably practices,
as have other messianic/bodhisattva re-creations,
a distinction between empathic pictures
and compassionate stories.

Empathy may associate with RightBrain feelings
of happiness and despair,
ecstasy through hopeless disenchantment,
with some Other
past,
present,
future,
human,
animal,
plant,
planet…

Compassion is more about LeftBrain planning
what I, we, cooperatively together
walking in newborn, reborn solidarity
will do to heal wounds, minimize risks,
and more resiliently sustain sacred opportunities
for unborn future life.

Empathy opens windows,
pictures,
landscapes,
refuges,
sanctuaries toward proactive
cooperative co-passion.

Practiced,
informed,
experienced,
trained,
educated,
supported development of co-responsibility,
integrity,

Synergetic vulnerability,
matriarchally cooperative wombs,
open life to empathy,
co-empathy,
eco-empathy with wounded and therapeutic lifelines,
compassionate rebirth conquering narcissistic pre-death

In 2019,
2020,
and so on.

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Compassion for TeleMarketers

I’m still waiting for my first automated rifling phone call,
Scripted to begin:

Hello Gerald Oliver Dillenbeck!
What would you like to health invest in this wealthy day?

So I could answer with
Compassion, even for telemarketers
of narcissistic death technologies.

I’m still waiting for Donald John’s first non-automated
non-violent internal recall:

Hello Donald John!
What would we,
NorthAmerican democratic residents
and global Allies of Earth,
like to health invest in with you?
Pursuing WinWin outcomes,
today and every compassionate day and night
to lead by following deep silent “we” listening.

To let go of ego’s Narcissus fascination
To grab hold of reborn EarthMother compassion,
co-operative enchantment,

To uncover even more patience with mutual disenchantment,
disdain,
To discover loyalty to domestic and international non-violence,
To recover choice to avoid aggressive WinLose
and nihilistic LoseLose strategies
in blind and deluded bad faith
that short-term loss of nutritional sufficiency
is essential for eternal redemption.

Artifacts of steadfast compassion,
polypathic
polyphonic
multi-nomial
have never been found
in seeds of violence,
monotheistic or polytheistic
and all realistics in-between
elitism and compassion for narcissism
within and without,

Sometimes grieving for ignorant foolish sins and sinners
and sometimes briefly triumphant, manically ecstatic,
despite inevitable losses
to demon death.

Newborns bond most robustly without such fears
yet,
and most resiliently when matriarchal compassion
is not unduly compromised
by aggressive patriarchal corrections,
violent domestic warnings,
threats to defer and extinguish a positive
healthy
compassionate primal relationship.

MotherEarth,
Green Goddess Gaia,
AnimaMundi,
Holonic MatriarchalSpirit,
when newborn
and revolving toward future mature networks
of organically sustained lifelines,
experienced Her just-right sacred sanctuary space
and perpetually revolutionary NowTime
in FatherSun bright
and darkly outside night

CoPassion of a personal planet-wide resilience,
Her familial nature Spirit
historically emerges
from this compassionate positive light/dark nondualistic balance
more prominent than merely nurturing patriarchal narcissism,
cultural dominance,

Until YangLeft finally sleeps
longing to reconnect within YinRight’s dualdark matriarchal compassion.

Sacred or secular cooperative outcomes of compassion,
like health and climate care,
can be narcissist seen as ego-building experience.
Narcissism is not only egotistically privileged
but politically distorted against democratic principles
of nature/spirits, co-operative.

Autonomy of EgoManiacal obsessions
ignores both interdependent nurturing root systems
and future flowers of compassion’s healthy redevelopment,
healing narcissism’s past aggressions.

Gaian compassion,
EarthMother co-operativity,
EcoFeminist resilience,
personally salvific evinced
by historic political empowerment
in those days before a dangerously toxic distinction arose
between economic and ecological compassion,
One calling for more capital co-investment
and the other calling us toward global communion.

When HeteroSapiens were yet a NewBorn species,
a glint in Golden Ruler CoPassion eyes
of FatherSun
with MotherEarth’s cooperative light
already empowered ecotherapeutic compassion.

Meanwhile,
I’m still waiting for my first personal phone call
to begin:

Hello Gerald O Dillenbeck!
What would you like to compassionately invest in
this personal and political co-operating day?

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Compassion’s Silent ReCreations

Who or what created interdependent you?
Earth revolutionary love relationships
of ego/eco-passion.

Who, what created copassionate Earth?
Wave revolution of co-gravitating nutritious Time.

Who, what created co-arising Time?
CoPassioning Space,
measured in sacred Earth revolutions
co-revolving tipping points,
Prime ZeroPassion interdependence,
ultra-non-violet pre-generativity,
enthymematic synergy,
potential for health integrity,
universal holistic compassion
flowing silent curiosity to ask

Who or what had matriarchal compassionate courage
to create and develop non-narcissistic You?
For and from all Earth’s copassionate timeless Time

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Permanent Sanctuary School

I came to AllSouls
looking for permanent sanctuary.

Sanctuary,
not only from a Rumpian absence of
civility
and non-violent trust
and integrity
and compassion,
but also pro-actively for an orthodox health eco-school
for learning to secure these passioned gifts
through cooperative
pro-active
co-arising practice.

A permanently green sanctuary for integrity
is asking too improbably much
from some,
like myself,
so wounded by cultural mendacity
of growing up intrinsically disturbed
by absence of heterosexual norms,
or masculine values,
or competitive-aggressive dreams
to too whitely overpower,
dominate,
occasionally to violate black extinctions matter
perhaps most of all sacred opportunity Nows.

YinSpirit degeneration in an early homophobic home
in an evangelical white nationalist church
in a rural white patriarchal school,
in a competitive capital over-priced
and cooperative communion under-valued economy
prepared to support even fairly rabid infestations
of white nationalist patriarchalism
competing for Friends With Rich Benefits Office,

Offices perpetually short-term re-investing
in re-election
into more supreme short-term process degeneration
against conserving peaceful health,
instead perpetually at war,
non-sanctuary automating convenient violence machinations
transporting us far away from original democratic ZeroZone nation,
ruled by a non-sectarian God of Compassion

To invest in universal human courage to Trust
unitarian green sanctuary Integrity.

In this AllSouls Cooperative Sanctuary I feel protected
from competing commercials
of anti-communion Holidays,
of Christmas
without SilentSolstice Advent Nights.

I see communal investment in health sciences
for truly wealthy outcomes
mental and physical,
like yin and yang
spiritual and natural,
internal and environmental,
sacred and secular,
inducing co-passionate deductions,
feeling thoughts,
universal wealth and unitarian health educators
mentoring co-passioning balance,
EgoYang dominant
only if also EcoYin prominent.

Nutritional ArtFlow of dipolar co-arising integrity,
peaking and valleying waves

Vulnerable to courageous health
and cowardly resistance
sometimes transportingly yielding into ecstatic,
co-acclimating wealth.

Flowing integrity,
fragile,
too enchanted for permanency,

Wounded synergy regaining effluent health
through nutritional investment change
into nurturing solidarity,
organic communion
fluid yin-flow nutritional-nurturing sanctuary.

More of a unitarian art–
Less of a universal, permanently orthodox,
health deductive-only science.

HomeZone, for AllSouls,
in-between what we choose to sing and dance together,
integrity of non-violent health sciences
also reflectively speaking and walking experimentally together

Everyday remaining
on and in this green sanctuary,
perhaps not universally permanent
but not chaotically temporary,
opaquely ambiguous, either.

Universal YangHealth Science
co-arising Unitarian YinNutritional ArtFlow.

Together, potentially integral
timeless invitations to trust wounded diversity
of fragile polypaths
toward rainbow’s end of nutritional deductive inductions
into everyday curious green and non-violent courage
ultra-violet
artistic science developing sanctuary,
not well written
yet deeply experiencing exegetical
dipolar
integrity,

Secular/sacred,
transubstantiating communion,
eco-political integrity
non-violently cooperative,
co-gravitating
universal deductive Now
unitarian inducing Here
as sanctuary Love
absorbs timeless wounded Fear.

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Housing Homeless Souls

Warm with camaraderie,
Filled with extending family eyes
kindly accessible as two-way inviting cameras,
Cooperatively good-humored, sometimes gently critical,
never intentionally mean or ugly,

A healthy communion home
can unravel
becoming an emotionally barren
silent
hidden asylum
for codependent inmates afraid of change,
serving one-way camera time
until someone
someplace better comes along,

Then sacred Earth becomes easier to see
filled with side by side homeless souls
too often becoming houseless bodies
feeling wanderlust
for pilgrimages belonging back to earliest weeks
of breast-fed codependent memories.

But, solidarity of deep educational intent
to learn and teach,
to experience and co-mentor
cooperative extended family communions,
warm bicameral communities,
peaceful healthy sanctuaries,
not mere small-ego claustrophobic silent silos,
can lead to growing healthy eco-homes
and eco-schools
and eco-villages
and eco-nations
amid multi-eco-cultures
built by loyal EarthTribe sacred communions
of everyday integrity enchantment,

Two-way, multi-wei, camaraderie,
co-operative well-being
rooted back in breast-fed humane/divine misty memories
matriarchal/patriarchal,
spirit/nature,
ego/eco-passions non-violently invited
and responsibly shared.

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Advent Research

1. Surface,
respect,
and record current health beliefs,
valid and invalid,
useless and useful.

2. Ask “Do these mental models help us make the health we want
right now?”
Are they optimally effective,
integral,
mutually resonant?

3. Stimulate alternative,
diverse,
polypathic views about health experience past,
present,
future projected.

4. Develop a wealthy vision of what communion you want now
by integrating mental health models
supporting optimal future wealth
of cooperativity–
mental and physical,
spiritual and natural,
emotional and rational,
inductive and deductive,
theological and ecological.

5. Conduct, and learn from,
health dependent/wealth independent experiments,
competitive Win/Lose
Cause/Effect research,
and health-primary/wealth-secondary value maps
cooperative Win/Win cause-effect models
surfacing health/wealth intent,
respecting secular/sacred practices–
cooperative
transparent
vulnerable
intimate empowering communication strings
ego/eco-enlightening.

Extra health/wealth credits:
Invest year-end time revisiting validity
and utility
of personal
and familial identity models.

During Christmas Dinner,
Who are you?
Who are we together and apart,
both healthy and not quite so much?

What are the most significant secular and sacred events
of your life, so far?

Which of these ecstatically happened to you
more than you carefully planned to facilitate their unfolding?

And which unveiled themselves
enchantingly vice versa,
planned by self with others
for your mutually wealthy nutritional experience?

And which seem to transcend any competing,
distinguishable Source,
sacred or otherwise?

What future plans do you expect to implement
on behalf of your self
and other’s healthy wealth
of significant cooperative developing futures?
For compassion,
wealth of nutritional wisdom
mutually given and received.

What communion of healthy friendship do you most anticipate
with all EarthTribes,
all ZeroZone Souls past,
and not yet born,
and not yet full health reborn,
not at all unlike your enchanting healthcare optimizing self?

Journeying into love as non-competing
non-violent peace
fulfilling healthy secular/sacred
left/right bicameral holonic integrity.

 

Note: Numbers 1 through 5 inspired by David Peter Stroh, “Systems Thinking for Social Change”

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Rudolf the Ginger ReignDeer

Rudolf is mysteriously born in a manger
with a flaming red nose,
and eyes,
and ears,
and hair,
everywhere.

Gingers are rare
among his DeerTribe
as is his empathic capacity to know he is going where,
how to get there,
and about how long it could take
regardless of direction
or increasingly massive winter storms
as Earth’s dark final Solstice
ominously approaches collapse,

The opposite of Rapture
for all evangelists
and good news prophets
with politically correct monotheistic
retributive justice revenge passions
of a patriotic white nationalist
bitter wind nature.

Up until now,
Santa has relied on his GPS
especially for crossing polluted and rising oceans
and massively expanding deserts
where no people could live and prosper.

But, as the North Pole continues to melt
and winter night storms cover most of the northern hemisphere
Santa’s GPS joins the landfill,
unreliable for crossing ocean-size blizzards
and continental sand storms.

He consults his ReignDeer
in the Transportation Department.

After considerable non-violent discernment,
and a lot of back and forth with the Health and Safety Political Department
and the Communication and Marketing Correctness Department,
they recommend Rudolf to Santa
To see if he might be able to help guide his sleigh
of healthy gifts
despite Rudolf’s apparent deviant health issues
and his probable wealth of empathic internal voices
and his presumed challenges of politically incorrect humility.

Frankly, Rudolf is a bit queer,
especially when the sun lights up his nose
to the vibrant color of a red-hot coal.

So Santa asks Rudolf
if he might lead the way through growing storms of violent winds,
freezing ice and blinding sand.

Not by myself, he replies.
This is too much weight to bear
with flying sacred grace,
But if we might find
and teach
and listen to others with these same gingerish gifts,
then we might develop a leadership team
to fly far more than sufficient health resilience
for winter storm night skies
and shaking roofs.

Santa also asks Rudolf if he has any questions,
So Rudolf inquires about health and safety insurance
sufficient to cover Santa’s global transportation risks
and communion gifting opportunities.

Santa thinks this an unusual question
from young and apparently robust Rudolf,
but also a wise one
far beyond his ginger years.

Rudolf wonders if these health issues
came from his maternal grandmother
who may have been a violently violated ginger
but he had known her only after she turned silver
sparkling as a star

Twinkling warnings
of this post-millennial final Solstice,
when political aspirations for global healthy happiness
trails and travel
shrink to survival opportunities
activating more modest aging hope
to at least avoid catastrophic climate storms
of unsurpassed violence,
politically incorrect chaos,
tidal streams bereft of faith
in everyday sacred gifts.

Santa,
perhaps also of red-nosed ginger Tribe,
feels reassured by Rudolf’s hope
for health-optimizing faith,
both humanely non-sectarian
and divinely balancing ancient patriarchal mists
of wealthiest commercial night vision
with matriarchal transporting trends
toward gifting communal friendships,
strength and flow
for growing climates of political
and economic integrity.

Won’t you guide our sleigh of life tonight?

Yes, Rudolf replies with healthy glee,
especially at this messianic Solstice time
of this, my ancient ginger life.
How could we do less communal wealth
than actively hope for this night
and everyday health
of ginger polypath enlightening gifts?

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Cheerio ImagiNations

Imagine,
for the two thousand and twentieth time,
Yang is hierarchical upside power hungry
from above,
authorized to prey on those yins below,
however resiliently they may pray.

Yang grows politically overpowering strengths
of an autonomously omnipotent god,
pejoratively associated with patriarchy,
and ethologically connected with Bucky Fuller’s “convex”

So, of course,
Yang’s inevitable intuitively appositional co-arising correlate,
Yin is found hiding within reverse-hierarchical solidarity,
security from within economic nutritional FlowPower
associated with matriarchy,
sometimes pejoratively ecofeminist,
wiki,
excessive Green EarthMother solidarity,
assertive B-ness,
ambiguously pangender,
threateningly bisexual,
And ethologically “concave”

Inside Yang again,
repetitiously ad nauseum,
This thought loop could put anyone to Yang/Yin sleep,
I would humbly presume,
while munching on ambiguous, slightly sloggy,
whole whatever wheat cheerios with honey lips
and goat milk this medicated morning slips.

Yang with yin healthy
refines balance wealthy
feels like left with right nutritious mindbody
Bicameral Now fulfills Wondrous Here
as Space takes and talks up all my Time
to be thinking about something even bigger,
and more awesome

Like Yang’s corollary
Spacelessness absorbs all Timelessness,
somehow the opposite of the CompetingGod Fallacy,
inductively feeling
deductive cognitioning
conditioning so long as I remain committed
to WinWin spacious ways
and timeless means
of cooperative GoldenIntegrity Principles.

All this sacred inside energy
with secular outside integrity
is distracting when trying resiliently
to yang by restoring yin power flowingly
my way through this life story’s healthiest for all trajectory

Earth’s life history unravels
ethological unfolding
of a bilaterally nutritious,
reverse-hierarchical root system
actively and reactively nurturing trunks, then branches above
and closer
as reviewed from a northern tree
down south point of view

Wherever resides both LeftYang with RightYin fertile functions
West advocating for Eastern underground cooperative climate principles
inductive with deductive Golden Rights with Left
against pathological past Yang-dominant eco-climate wrongs.

OK,
Time to rinse this cereal bowl
and grow more cooperatively in to Left/Right bicameral space
With just sufficient ego/ecotherapeutic balancing RealTime
for 4D polypathic HealthTime
as measured by universal/unitarian
green sanctuary
nutritional care giving and receiving principles

For Restorative Justice standards
found in WiseElder Times
of Permacultural Design

For yangish ego-systems
absorbed in healing Earth’s eco-climate
with reparations of focused peace
and healthy diet quiet.

I need more romantic adventure
in my imagined sacred communion
of non-violent peace
as a more healthy balanced climate system
breakfast.

We could work on crunch-time principles
But, please, in a dignified way
that properly reflects your imagined status
as a graceful polypathing wise north-prominent GreenElder
re-centering soulful 2020 eyes
on faithful west
through loving south
through hopeful east.

Oh, I get it,
stop hanging around in wild Western competitive economies
quite so patriarchal cowboy much,
to head back romantically South.

Especially in the winter.
It’s good to migrate bipedal communication.
Keeps us uncomfortably wondering
what mysteries yin-south might nakedly unveil,
unweave against white nationalist paranoia,
fear-mongering industries of violent
capitalistic
ballistic profit.

Hmmm.
Wonder how this cereal circle bowl and silver spoon
were washed
baptized
and rightly left on Earth’s therapeutic fabric
to dry my climate trauma,
to health this timeless mist,
GodHereHead without discarding Goddess inside Now

Self authorized to prey distractedly on lowly yins
inside and below,
however effluently we may breakfast pray
for better bicameral health/wealth focus.

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Deep Learning Organisms

Quantities of words and numbers
are thought appropriate for educational systems
Win/Lose productions,
competitive factories,
winner takes all capital-invested industries.

Qualities of feelings and intuitive health sensory relationships
are experientially appropriate
to deep learning ecological systems,
WinWin producers and consumers,
cooperative organic wealth,
mutual winners taking and giving loving health-care vocations,
meanings,
purposes,
robust ecological process theologies.

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Mechanical Flies in Organic HealthSystems

In Systems Theory
there hides a transparent bias toward positively resilient systems

And there hides an unfortunate bias toward magically created
mechanistic systems

Competing in hierarchical global networks
empowered from sublime Above
and from Outside
domination by missionary zealous soldiers,
LeftBrain elitist owners
and their diabolical industrialized worker flies,

Including a few elite wiser and smarter predative inventors
of ever-better and faster and convenience-enhancing mechanical systems
for burning limitless positive energy
to worship on the alter of business-like industry;

Unlike synergetically balancing Earth,
our intellectual WholeSystem integrity-balance exemplar,

Earth icon of organic superego
cooperatively self-governing good healthy climates–
sacredly interdependent systems,

Heard and health-watched and wealth-languaged
back in animistic days
of humane/divine nature-spirit nondualistic philosophy-religion,
spiritual-natural extended family trust relationships

Suffering from loud nightmares
prophesying and professing future awe-enlightening
mechanistic Rapture harvests
of all unripe ego eggs
still unworthy of full competitive life,

Distracted by disassociated threats,
by pathologically non-performing autonomous Fail-systems
headed terrified away to Lose economic thunder
and Lose empowering potential integrity
and Lose ecological trust relationships
and Lose theological opportunities for future communion
and Lose natural spirit synergy,
and Lose spiritually deadening nature v spirit subclimates,
absence of environmentally re-empowering karma.

Secular commodified mechanical systems
become distracted by graceful
truthful
trusting
integral animistic love,
healthy active WinEarth to WinEgo positive outcome trajectories
for one globally healthy
organic
permaculturing system
Restoring polypathic justice
to divinely humane ZeroZone SystemSouls,

Reweaving formative forests and rivers and oceans
into re-connecting green EarthMother,
healthy Gaian EcoSystem
and Her season-fractal subsystemic
non-mechanical climate healers
of organic growth
and resilient
polypathic
healthy wealth development.

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