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Coming To OneSelf

“And when he came to himself”
Luke 15:17

In another millennial time and Chinese/Russian place,
Taoism began as aphorisms and poetry
about political philosophy,
articulating a bicameral tension
between Conservative Yangers,
a patriarchal caste-preserving universe
of monotheistic empire builders,
and Unitarian Progressive Yinners, WinWinners,
a matriarchal cooperative
polycultural
panentheistic
integrative network of nurturers

(the longer the list of descriptors,
the less important history would prove us to be
cooperatively undifferentiated
empty of any sectarian-deductive labeling,
and anthropocentric framing function)

Hence, everyone knows the principles of Interdependent Yang
and not Empty Yin,
and usually metaphorically associate them with Male
and not FeMale,
and Positive and not Negative,
yet few have economically and/or politically defined
the governing power of +1 and -(-0) Tao.

We have the Tao of most every thing
and not no thing,
without necessarily being clear
about what the primal cobinary Tao
adds,
and doesn’t necessarily subtract,
to most every win/win governing identity.

In another millennial time
and New England and Baltimore place,
Reverend Channing proposed to replace the Holy Trinity

With God
the monotheistic LeftBrain Dominant
patriarchal EgoFather
[not EcoMother],
wearing universal regenerative credentials
of historically recognized effectiveness

And
with a pantheistic
RightBrain Unitarian
matriarchal OverSoul
of Grace
and Flow
and Karma
and Gaia’s not (0)-Sum Prime CoBinary Synergy
of ecologically integrative potential
becoming win/win hypostatically united
With God…

[repeat from “With God…” above]

All four Muse sisters co-arising cooperatively together
in ecopolitical health
and bicameral safety Paradise
of DNA with RNA Solidarity in fractal-nutritional seasons
with reasons actively supporting regenerative health,
Original CoBinary Win/Win Tao Intent.

A monotheistic-preserving
Winner v Loser evolutionary model
of mutually assured degeneration
and pantheistic-liberating
WinYang/WinYin ecological model
of regenerativity.

It is this Unitarian -(-0) Elder RightBrain OverSoul
that Reverend Julian Jaynes explores
as how we are prodigal son and daughter
and transient transgender transparent
anthropocentric Egos

and
OverSoul Atman PolyPaths of EcoConsciousness,
Prodigal Unitarians
progressing Ego-belonging minds
and safe body conservationists

Playing Win/Win with LeftBrain ego-centric
ecological discernment
of hypostatically cooperative
Gaia Hypothesis evolution

Rather than BusinessAsUsual LeftBrain idolatry
of competitive capitalistic dissociations,
and concomitant Protagonist v Antagonist violence
in the name of anthropocentric peacemaking

And pathological lack of long-term consciousness
in the name of cobinary eco-climates and ego-cultures
of and for healthy democratic freedom,
optimal protagonist/antagonist liberating safety,
nurturance,
regenerativity,
polypathic polycultural polyvagal systemic integrity.

“…[T]here is something else to be observed
as you study your own [bicameral cobinary] nature.
It is a something of supreme importance….
Suppose you observe in your daily [anthropocentric] consciousness,
now one,
now the other
asserting itself in thought and behavior;
who is it,
let us ask,
who is it
or what is it
that does the observing?”

Polypathic ego/eco-consciousness
of time’s ecologically regenerate v degenerate flow,
resonantly cobinary
and too often chaotically Left v Right
Yang-Crown v Yin-Root chakra dissonance.

“Are you not conscious of still another [Elder RightBrain pantheistic] self,
larger [deeper?] and more inclusive than the others,
that seems to be standing outside watching them,
counting them,
criticizing them,
applauding them [us]?”

OverSoul,
Atman,
Holy Spirit/Nature
holonic matriarchally co-passionate face
of Father Patriarch LeftBrain languaged,
Brahma’s hypostatic Tao
of Gaia;s cobinary win/win hypothesis.

“Who is it that wonders?”

“There are times when you fall so completely into the possession of one
of these smaller [anthropocentric-preserving] selves ,
that you lose all consciousness of the one watching [co-passionately listening] outside.
It is only afterward that the presence of the [actively curious] watcher
is seen and felt [perceived and received].
There are other times
when the [bicameral +1 v -(-0)] watcher
seems to be on the [winYang v LoseYin 0-sum] guard all the time,
and while the lesser [non-anthropocentric root-caste] personalities are having their way,
is continually sounding the word of [caste-preserving] rebuke
or [caste-liberating] encouragement….
You may call it [pantheistic] conscience,
or moral [polycultural] sentiment–
anything you please.
I like to give it the name I have already used
and call it the real
or the larger [bicameralcobinary YangLeft/YinRight] self.”

A rational Gaia panentheistic+1 = -(-0) belief
in an Original CoBinary Hypostatic Union
could be theologically universal “watching”
with regard to root source
of divinely empowering intelligence.

Earth’s anthropocentric watchers
of universally pantheistic ecological relationships
polyculturally progresses
across all win/win pronoia unitarians.

Resonantly inside as reiteratively outside,
rooted feelings below as crowned thoughts above
before +1 Space after -(-0) Time
positive as double-binding negative
Yang as not not Yin
Win/Win prodigiously polycultural.

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Fading Figments

Deep sleep
seems to be a figment
of my ruminating imagination

Just as my sex life
seems to be a fading figment
of my dark penetrative
and glad light receptive
co-passionate imagination

And trauma
feels like a figment
of my Master Knows Best addictive history
limiting legitimate compassionate love
to exclude all my body’s wrong
but feels so right
sacred places

Thinking I am a bit queerly curious
about integrity’s 1/0 bigenderal
iconic Taoist co-governance
for health care
giving Light
receiving wealth share
Power

Dipolar Co-arising
convex-1/concave-0
bilaterally co-passionate hot potential

Regenerating ego-1/eco-0 co-empathic mindfulness
appreciating timeless win/win balance
yang-1/yintegral-0 cooperative

Co-invested
since before indigenous wu-wei messages
SunRadiant Light/Earth DarkMoon Powers

Deep wound
whole wombed Black Hole
not-not 0 = +1
holonic co-balancing non-systems
felt pursuing win/win grace

Wind
a penetrating figment from above
seems to become flirtatious
with deep and wide
creation-bearing seas
yearning
churning pregnantly below

Where troubling sleep
becomes a figment
of deprived
traumatized
self v other
win/lose chronic
“Always Lose” re-imagination

As colored in
between white supremacist lines
Black Hole sacred figments
of timeless wounded blues
empty of champion crews
for compassionate thrival news.

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ReGenerating ReVolitions

Warm holes
anticipating slick poles

Wet holes
embracing warm poles

Bipolar linear dark division
flowing downriver nurture valleys
Dipolar round visions
forming mountainous spiral hierarchies
naturally uprising

Ecofeminist journeys inward
Egofatherist conquests
growing outward
and upward

Deep waiting
vulnerable black holiness
before highest transparent
widely diverse
best practice polarities

Wet warm birthing wombs
then dry cold dying tombs

Worm downward holes
wet upward trying poles

Wet yintegrity holes
engaging just right yang poles

As 0
embraces 1
organic revolution.

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Dark

Dark chances,
unhealthy and unsafe trauma
HiStories

Degenerating predative dogmas
not wanting to let go of ballistics
even for dawning light’s sacred promise
to grab full-immersion hold
and heal dark mythologies
lose now and again later ecologies
repeat rehearsed
inside-only voiced
dark passion narratives

Speaking out alarmed Betrayal
from those you were taught to Trust–
[it was Her job!
I have an unconditional contract
on a warm wet naturally wombed
and spiritually unwounded
birthright!

Defying Other’s Anger
about my gift-economy Hypocrisy
about my sacred Golden Rule restriction
win/win positive aspiration,
invoked by nature’s spiritual
Hippocratic Oath
to at least do no damage
losing trusted breath in
so losing full breath back out
again
and again
and repeat breathlessly again.

My own most difficult,
occasionally traumatic,
distressingly long, slow
letting go transition

Feels almost inevitably headed
for natural health-Lose
spiritual health-Lose
despair

Unless we all keep trying our best,
not just me
cleaning up your mess
to suffering servant impress

All us AnthroPrivileged victims
aware of traumatic over-populated
rabid traumatic
and pandemic health risks,
and runaway
emerging PTSD
and dementia
and suicide
and matricide
and ecocide

Make it almost impossible
to respect ourselves
yet not fear
retributive justice officers
and judges
and monolithic Yang-Jehovah

Dispensing punishments and fines
and shame
and blame
where the only obvious victim
I can see
is me.

My dark protagonist continues
to be victimized,
even now in aging memories

Every day past light
leads, at dusk,
to dark future
leads, at dawn,
to soon past light…

Yet my attachment to enlightenment
encourages me to disregard
co-arising dipolar dark empowerments
bicamerally re-associated

Yet awkwardly, sometimes
with high-risk trauma histories
monoculturally LeftBrain
EgoCentric predative Yang

AnthroPrivileged Voices
stuck on healthy and safe past orthodox
value systems
personal
and economic
and political
and separate and unequal
bi-sensory
and anti-sexual competitive dogmatic traditions

Not spiritually or naturally learning
so not wanting to let go
even for dawning light’s healthy promise
to grab resilient hold
and heal dark
post-traumatic lose/lose
zero-sum global
ecocidal winterish nightmares

Dipolar co-arising
unconditional warm sun rising
well-moisturized
copassionately co-invested day dreams
and horizontal dances,
core-chakra interpersonal win/win
exercises
nonviolent practice
practice
practice

Until we get our cooperative peak experience
sacredly awesome
and restorative ecojustice
left and right again

BiLateral
BiCameral creolization
in timeless tides
of over-swelling
regenerativity

Not quite
so bleakly alone
trapped in silent screaming stark
Dark.

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UnAppreciated Americans

Our President
here at the local nonpartisan association
also appreciates Americans
he has never met
or heard
or smelled

Not to mention out to get
never ever tasted,
at least without informed consent,
or vulnerably seen
or transparently felt
with copassioned
trauma-free intent,
yet not actually met,
just yet

And
I am confused
that our President would feel
he needs to say this,
as if appreciating Americans
were a partisan platform
advocating politically
and economically unusual
universal health
and safe global wealth
resiliently inclusive policy priorities

Sacredly patriotic
EcoMatriotic regard
for nutrition-based
economic historical
poly/mono-culturing
cooperative/competing
wu-wei YintegralPower/YangLight
sacred/secular
transubstantiating neuro-sensory
WinWin/WinLose/LoseLose
co-mediating
eco-political communication systems

I readily concede
I could be wrong
but I can at least imagine
Donald Trump
feeling and believing,
although jaded
disappointed
and dispassionately,
that he appreciates
all those NonWhite
NonStraight
NonPatriarchal EcoFeminists
he has never met

And would just as soon
not change his monopolistic bliss
to CounterCulturally encounter Othering
dark ignorance,
just yet.

I don’t know if it is a positive
or negative coronary corollary
to further extend
this metaphoric analogy

Yet Trump,
unlike Biden,
could never get
a multiculturally gifted American
he has not yet met

But I would bet
it would be hard to vet
EarthTribe residents
too healthy to ever regret
not having had the pleasure
of meeting many Trumpian Americans

Cold greetings
likely best to forget
we all come from somewhere

Matriarchally sacred
as an interdependent
health care safety net
includes imaginatively appreciating

All those Others Othering
unfertilized good eggs,
and thus not yet met.

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Therapeutic JustUs

Lori Gottlieb
describes mental health mediators
and dream translators
prescribing more cost-effective therapeutic questions:

Who am I?
What do I want?
What’s in my natural health/spiritual wealth
bilaterally balancing way?

What do I want more:
to autonomously control
OR
to be part of some monopolizing,
possibly monotheistic, Thing
bigger than egocentric Me?

May morph
more effluently co-therapeutic
than affluent expertise advice
into:
What do I want
to safely control
AND YET ALSO
be part of some EarthTribe
polyculturally intelligent Relationship?

Healthier
more inclusive
and indigenous
and holistic
and organic
and resilient
than excluded
and punished
and wounded
and thereby imprisoned
and victimized Me

And my LeftBrain capitalized dominance
affluently attracts Gottlieb’s rational health
and safety questions
about wounded AnthroEgos

AND my RightBrain effluent impressions
of slow-growing ecopolitical affluent feelings
grow improved for win/win cooperative global thrival
midst monoculturing win/lose competitive survival
of local health and safety therapeutic improvement
as a resilient panentheistic stress-reducer
organically connected cooperative management
re-connecting
iEarthTribe inter-religious narratives
sacredly inviting
more effluent trickles
and streams
and rivers
and oceans
of EarthTribe living
loving indigenous waters

Descended from prehistoric
more polytheistic
matriarchal cooperative economies
of co-invested local democratic
domestic energy

Tipping toward Tao balanced
bilateral co-governance
healthy communing nutritional cycles
and recycles of ecofeminist
fertile restorative justice
regenerative healing wombs
also asking:

Who are sacred We?
feeling
when we most effluently
fluidly feel
and formatively think?

What does bicameral MeWe intelligence want?

What’s in our ancient monotheistic
anthrocentric
LeftBrain dominant
encultured win/lose dissociative
wounded
traumatized
stress-triggered
climate anxiety

Rabidly emergent RightWing
punishing
and excluding
and victimizing
denial of anthropocentric harm
and fundamental EarthHealth despairing
Lose/Lose polyvagal
neuro-systemic
binomially dissonant
+P v -NP
EitherLeftOrRight unbalanced
+1/-(-0)
BothLeftAndNotNotRight rebalancing
co-therapeutic Way?

Yang affluent
AND
Yin effluent

Ego/EcoTherapeutically
restoring personal secular Justice
AND BICAMERALLY COMMUNING
panentheistic
co-empathic sacred Peace

And maybe a little joy
now and then
becoming more faithfully
inclusively
restoratively
resonantly
resiliently
regeneratively frequent

Bicamerally communioning
co-arisingly dipolar
nonzero open
sacred
integral
WholeHolyHolonicEarth

Systemic eco/theo-logical
trust in therapeutic
not RightWing anthro-elitism
embracing
EarthTribe restorative justice
public health affluence
is also resilient sacred peace
public safety effluence,
reformatively reflowing political ego/eco-integrity,
co-empathic panentheistic compassion.

Unlike our left-hemispheres
taught
and monoculturally
RightWing capital over-invested
win/lose zero-sum assumptions,

Truly therapeutic
EarthTribe resilient polycultural wisdom
is more of an effluently joyful
Eastern bodhisattva peace-growing process
than an affluently measured
messianic critical judgment event

Which I believe
is what the New Testament
good news of Jesus narrative
is ego/eco-systemically
all Holy Nature/Spirited about
indigenously peaceful
Truth affluent
and sacred Beauty effluent,
definitely not RightWing
LeftBrain dominant,
wisdom.

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EnRiching Sacred KinShips

Be kind to others
As you would have even your ecopolitical enemies
and win/lose ZeroSum competitors
be kind,
feel kinship,
speak kindly,
listen cooperatively,
take turns co-investing in win/win solidarity
with ecological empowering
enlightening interdependent Us.

Be not unkind to
or against Others
As you would not have even your Lose/Lose
non-ecological monoculturing,
out of control,
beyond healthy curiosity,
runaway wealthy StraightWhiteMale privileged,
RightWing negative Patriarchal Capitalists
become un-ecologically unkinned
against you

With the nearly unforgiveable audacity
to camouflage
patriotic nationalism
with anthrosupremacist rights of Earth ownership
to remain stubbornly win/lose
against healthy matriotic ecological views
of cooperative co-empathic integrity

As also Green CoPassionate wants and needs
for polypathic communication

Refining win/win messages
healthy choices
wealthy voices
that regenerative democratic energy
is not necessarily not PatriarchalCapitalism degenerative

RightWing Yanged-out meanness energy
does not yet equal Yintegral Green LeftWing
exponentially spiraling synergy

As Yang equals not not ecological Yintegrity
exponentially squared

As EarthSpace that kindly matters
is also not not resilient Time
ecologically ex-potentially squared
in-formationally cubed
and kindly spiraling health dynamic
co-relational wealth

Is not quite the same
as either proving
or disproving
That controlling PatriarchalCapitalism
reversed through principles
of both polyculturing and communal
healthy root systemic wealth
begets necessarily ecological kind co-relationships

Not bipolarizing out of control
not judging
disapproving
criminalizing
punishing
taking win/lose revenge
blaming with leftbrain verbal dominance,
overpowering by shaming right mindbody
neuro-sensory
co-passionate prime non-zero kind attachment

Zone of internal
polyentheistic nondenial of divisive secularizing turmoil
inviting WholeEarth Tribal co-investments
re-memeing
cooperative Green Indigenous EarthWomanist
kind memories of PolyCultural Communalists

Who really just don’t have time
for all that nonsacred
monotheistic PatriarchalCapitalist sin
and mean ignorance.

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Feeling Old and Lost

I noticed just yesterday
while glowering about something else
now already
once again
forgotten…

I seem to have lost my good-sensed humor
along my stumbling
isolating internal say

Toward this red STOP! sign
searching for a different way

To find a new Earth center
for healing active hope,

To sing new scales of joyful
sad sharp focus

Performed more locally
and possibly reformed less reflectively
mesmerized by fame’s monopolistic grope.

This new reselective time
Less silently reserved
Less anxiously depressed
Less repressively suppressed.

Each morning’s dawn warning
to worship at new altars

Renewing robust octaves of communion
encompassing organic green nutrition

To redesign all creatures here below
more positive above
good-humored love
with timeless passions
hilariously sensed together
yet tragically shoved
apart.

If I were not so sweet sixteen
prepared to restart home’s immigration scene
again for my first time,
what would I rechoose to do
becoming compassion’s singing rally
with rainbow hearted allies?

If I were thirty-three,
my age of messianic crossfire
for all to red angry
horrifying see,
what would I choose to resurrect again?

And why would this revoiced
rechoiced healthier community
support potentiating integrity
with more robust good humor
this well-timed passed over
and back around
on sacred wellbeing ground?

If I were twice
my god’s reflective age
revived,
what would we joyously choose
to re-member
as half-life good golden sense
for revolving salvation’s humor?

For this tragic comedy
of tumorous migration
anxiously anticipating
integrity’s full ZeroScores
restoring just right species

All together one predation
praying for exterior relations
more integral summations
than humorless,
silent rumorless
quiet aging absence
of eternal sad-paced mercy,

At least sufficient for noticing,
just yesteryear
while glowering about something else
now already strange sadly queer,
once again forgotten.

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ReCounting Wounding Costs

I know what it costs
to parent a tyrant
24/7
52 weeks/year
and yet avoid judging,
feeling guilty,
self-blaming shame
for all I am not sufficient,
yet.

I remember learning curious distinctions
between genuine remorse
given, when LeftBrain verbally requested,
yet without RightBrain capacity
to feel even the least caring difference
between natural brown girl
and spiritual white light shame

Self blame
for why that dinnerplate
smashed so frighteningly
against my dining wall
as if my fault
my adopted child’s sense
of dad-adapting ownership,
or even complexly confusing
bipolar mixed
temporal-historical management messages
about imaginary aggressive causes
predicting unprecedented economic
and political family “out of the blue behavior,”
random effects,
effectively nurturing attention,
non-neglect,
more brown person privileged

Lack of win/win communication
not always transparently verbalize-disabled
and vulnerably, verbally examined
much less non-violently communionated.

Not until I 24/7 learned
such great sociopathic lose/lose
unfortunate chronic mental health events
are non-violently but impatiently stressed,
restrained perhaps
with short-term shunning
and close the safe-space door
temporarily dissociating–
no win/win co-adoptions
of dad-adapting co-empathic nonverbal behavior
accessible right leftbrain autonomously here
and rightbrain interdependent win/win now

Sending myself to my own private room
to re-imagine win/win multicultural remediations,
and positive psychology
ecology
neurological system restoring dreams
of Paradise Not
NonZero Souled Green
new deal rapturously global Peace
climaxing during my own aging green health inhaled
and re-inhaled
exhaling peronal EarthWealth
for feeding more resilient green summer leaves

Restoring
as Recommitting solidarity
as rebreathing solitude
reweaving

Recreating
redeeming
regenerating
re-ligioning
re-connecting
re-storing
re-integrating EarthGreenPeace
organically healthy medication
meditations
win/win Earth compassion practices
of good faith health system restorations

A little lighter thought
and more empowering feeling
active movement practicing
and even miming felt co-empathic needs
eco-politically green cooperative polypathic
EarthTribe Justice,
multiculturally polyphonic
non-verbal Language
not not double-positive co-binary

By pretending I am sociopathic her
10-year-old gay white male EarthMother
doing the best s/he patriarchally privileged can
campily dipolar Both/And re-enacting
what it might feel like
for the not so gayly old white mashed
patriarchally provisioned potatoes
to hit the battered ungrateful wall
clearly devoid of proper heterosexual
aggressively dominant appreciation
for warm buttery white unskinned

Smash! against the senseless floor,
wounded
mashed
bashed
smashed in a fetal curled up defensive mess,
writhing
and theatrically moaning,
one eye on the microphonic
monopolistic Voice of NonChoice
and the other on the bicameral rediscernment

Until she smiles.

Demands I rise again,
right here,
left together co-present now
ZeroSum terrified morally unsafe
reverse transitioned
so she can hug my steady white grand dad neck,
kiss my hope in “side with me, too”
and smarm my win/win resiliently hopeful forehead,
leaving her actively curious mark
on her brown-skin unmasked safe
and healthy communal territory,

Organic ego-gardening green deeding dad,
cooperative as win/win healthy
wealthy democratic Paradise

Which comes out leftbrain verbally,
“Can I maul your head?”
also might mean,
post critical non-cooperative climate event,
“Could we together head
toward the mall,
and co-invest in accessories?
Maybe makeup, soon? not soon enough?
which could only be rightHere/leftNow

A hair salon?
Something actually important
to a real brown-skinned bipolar egofeminist first person
sometimes critically living
in a reversed effects before narcissistic causes
world win/lose
zero-sum bottoms up
redhot
angry trapped wounded child view.

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If We Could

Should I stay
or could I go?

Would you stay
if you could?

Must ego stay as healthy planted
or is it compassionate safety time
to yet again
Great Transition onward?

Not necessarily upward

Would wild indigenous Wisdom stay
if s/he logos/mythos interdependently could?

Yang yintegrating
Truth beautifying
Win winning
Ego eco-therapeutic
indigenously natural spirits
spiraling

Should I healthy stay
and could we safely go?

Would you resiliently stay
if we could choose
our most resonant day?

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