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Therapeutic Trauma

TransGender Women of Color, have the advantage
in a white male dominant culture,
have an advantage
for finding therapeutic tools
for awareness of marginalizing
traumatic business as usual
weapons against Earth’s universal health care.

Just as RightBrain co-investors
in sharing traumatic fear
and therapeutic love feelings
have the open awareness advantage
in a LeftBrain dominant tragic/comedic
ZeroSum
closed-system
degenerating
entropic
misanthropic monoculture

Cooperatively finding Left/Right win/win co-operative
resonant potential
where Republican wealthy capitalists
must live unliberties of dissonance
with all that great spiritual leaders
have taught
about compassion
experiencing nonviolence
and sacred integrity of co-empathic
co-investment narratives in
and on
and under
and above
Whole OpenSystemic Earth.

I wish there were more middle-range,
more passionate mediation space,
more sacred forgiving pace,
less racing
avidly terrified of insufficient
human profit place,

A more comforting
short-term purgatory
between RightWing
“Vengeance is Mine”
saith The SWM Lord

And quasi-liberated LeftWing
“Seize Our Feminist SelfServing Day”

Ignoring spacious win/win potential
sharing stories
of when our species
has best grabbed hold
of Self/Other Empowering Ways
to co-operate humane multicultural
interreligious integrity
with EarthPatriotic polycultural
interdependent synergy

No longer ignoring,
but rather inviting,
our potential,
historical,
polycultural loving
and curious,
engaging,
mysteriously regenerative
EarthEmpowering Nights

Reflecting stardust bright
comforting integrity,
agreeing to agree
with therapeutic loving peace
personal stories
politically empowering

Engaging cooperative embrace
with constant curiosity
rather than settling for saving face
midst mindless mediocrity

Settling for another story
of anxious loss
and fear
that not only I don’t count,
but we don’t matter

When traumatic win/lose risks
outweigh therapeutic win/win
co-passionately cooperative,
curiously co-empathic
opportunities.

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Punishing Silence

Do we choose silence
not only as a tool
for self-protection
when speaking
our latest chapter stories
feels unsafe?

But also stern silence
may become a weapon
to ward off apathetic enemies
of our straight
hopelessly white
monotheistic
monopolistic
patriarchal capitalist
enemies

Who would not seem to care
to love us
more than we ourselves
can love them
as part of us
right now
left multiculturally
and ecofeminist
silenced here.

As you go
and liberally grow silent,
I may quietly
then traumatically
hear,
as isolating time
sticks ominously by,

“I am not your constant un-masked friend,”
and, thereby,
an ominous self-fulfilling prophecy
emergently erupts
in punishing response,

“I cannot remain
your therapeutic good-times,
vaccinated against silent unease,
healthy
co-empathic musing friend,”

To trust when skies grow silently dark
and night descends
beyond despair
to safely share
stressed Trauma

Itself first felt ray
of restoring justice promise
despite this loss of salvific
passioned hope.

Prosperity losses steal
from future compassion
already while first silenced weapons
dream denying
relentless truths of suffering
lack of healthy opportunity
to speak our fears
out loud
with those who trust
our trembling tears.

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Parenting From Integrity

Parenting defiant trauma
attached to both hurt child
and wounded parent
needing to continue
co-invested relationships,
positive and constant,
without breaks
in healthy communication,
direct
and, if possible,
playful

Counteracting fear
that both TraumaChild
and I
will pressure ego-me
to choose a Win
for Self
to lose relationship
by distancing from Other;

To choose Me
over We.

I want to choose both Defiance
and Deep Listening
playing win to win together
co-passionate,
positive,
healthy communication

Frustrated by
Lose-Draw-Win
triage decision-making

As if emotionless withdrawn
leftbrain dominant communication
could out-perform
actively hoping
for contagious resilience,
resonant companionship,
mutual enjoyment,
bonded courage,
cultural curiosity
re-educating accurate empathy.

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Sacred Musings

If muses
have sacred meanings
deeper
and before secular evolving purposes,

As vocations
are to painful employment,

Then what music
would
could
should we prefer outside
to health care inside
digest?

Together peaceful
in resonance

Deeper
and before traumatic
warring
wearied
worn out dissonance.

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Small Powers Everywhere

This little light of mine
I’m gonna let it shine

Wide and longing
for committed dialogue
not surrounded
by elitist debate,

Win/lose games,
Zero-sum asinine assumptions
requiring ego-infested shadows

Resisting win/win opportunities
of healthy
democratic dialogue

Between constituencies,
residents sufficiently humble
to become students together
and unschooled
unprofessional parents
and not totally enlightened teachers
and investigative staff
and neighborhood enquiry co-investors
in this democratic
nonpartisan
Thermos On Thames Experiment.

Where the School for Daily Integrity
hosts community resources
co-engaging win/win resolutions
producing cooperative educational opportunities
to practice
practice
compassionate praxis
nonviolent communication
to restore EarthJustice,

Where co-investors co-invite
contributions around ecofeminist friendly circles
just close enough for everyone
to hear all respected neighbors
who will not be Othered

Because we are learning,
through this pandemic of anxiety,
to anticipate more than climate floods
and fears,

Both risks
and opportunities,
dissonance
and resonance,
chaotic cacophony
and complex symphony
entrusting our capacity
for resilient health and safety
co-governance.

Not another negative
Business As Sadly Usual
competitive ZeroSum game
of wounded ego-survival
until some future small light day
still dimly hoping for big bright
ecosystemic
polycultural
multicultural win/win robust community

Co-mediation
co-operation
co-invested co-dominions
engaging spring EarthDay celebrations

Of locals feeling active hope
and mutually earned trust
predicting environmental ideas
for healing Earth’s injustices
blighting compassionate
nonviolent communication,
which would be more transparent,
risking tender lights
for growing better humored
kindness

Where silence of executives
administrators
managers
means they are deeply listening
for how we can empower each other
through heartfelt consent

And cold dark silence melts,
no longer resisting Truth
to continue postures
of professional
authoritarian
legalistic
quarterly profit-preserving business
without also recognizing long-term threats
of flooding rivers
and subzero icy windstorms.

Straight white patriarchal privileged
incorporated silence means resistance
to sharing inclusive powers
with autonomously dimming lights

Rather than unveiling
wide and bright kindness moving
away from monocultural
either/or debate,
repressing fears about surviving future floods
fears
and famine

Rather than inclusively hoping
to thrive
with good humored faith
in INTEGRAL MARKERS
of democratic health
calling for this circle
to embrace trust-rebuilding
co-empathic engagement

Feeding
and watering each individual’s strengths
and cooperatively held assets
rather than punishing our weaknesses
of fear and anger,
passive mistrust
and active distrust

Further afflicting executive professional disadvantage,
dissociations
dividing shadows
weapons for continuing
White Patriarchal privileged
and disempowered
and unenlightened
talking Heads of lined up Authority

Speaking down,
darkly withholding honest
well-lit encircling dialogue
about our shared health
interactive safety
compassionate wealth
anticipations through actively
engaging transparent dialogue

While sitting around our annual fire circle
celebrating songs and dances
of green ecofeminist healthy lights
inviting yet another safe spring thaw

Inspiring this engaging light of ours
to let our best divine co-dominion
co-investments shine.

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Climate Change Ain’t Progress

In Shaker Heights, Ohio,
founding fathers co-invested in:

Change doesn’t happen
without planning

This, despite
unstraight
unwhite
unmale volatile experiences
feeling sometimes victimized
and sometimes blessed
by unexpected weather transitions,
despite feeling like vulnerable chameleons,
despite feeble farming
in narrowing spaces
between floods and famine,
despite more often feeling:

Plans were made to be changed,
a euphemism for:

Your plans are disempowered
to become downsized,
disinvited,
excised.

Planning change
feels as privileged as LeftBrain dominance
which need not pause to listen
and remember
more fear-inducing personal experiences

Violent change predicting health
and wealth losses,
wild absence of planned control
like HIV
and COVID-19,
global pandemics
and climate change
erasing EarthTribe’s
presumed polyculturally healthy
future symbiotic ego/eco-systems.

If sinister change,
including global pandemics,
feel suspiciously planned to you
then please rediscover
your LeftBrain anxious conspiracy theories
as a weakness

Rooted in Straight-White-Male
incorporated executive academic privilege
to have disproportionate learning resources
to research,
and plan more exclusive progress
in your family
and work
and economic
and political history

More successful
than chronic disenfranchisement,
monocultural marginalization,
psychological depression,
feminist political repression,
economic suppression,
win/lose competitive corporate colonizing
oppression–
all tragic unprogressive forms,
not therapeutic changing flows,
of mundane traumatic pathology.

Change
for LeftBrain dominant speakers,
does not always sound like
Progress
to RightBrain prominent listeners.

Ambiguity about personal capacity
to empower therapeutic change
can also be heard
when I “deserve”:

to stay home
(paid or unpaid?)
when I’m sick

to give voice
(listened to or ignored?)
to my transparent truth

to be housed,
institutionalized,
hospitalized,
incorporated,
resourced,
employed by patriarchal capitalists,
healthier,
loved for who I could become,
with explicit contractual conditions
for rewarded positive
(more than punished negative)
regard.

If we have too seldom deserved
merits
more than demerits
in our own salvation/demonization
invitation/extrication experience,
then we grow quick to notice
“change” comes in positive
and negative future plans

As “progress”
can be progressive cancer
and climates of disruption
more than polyculturally inclusive choice
of love
and not fear,
of compassion
and not violence

For too many of Those People,
For global EarthTrauma
climate change,
what follows Patriarchal-Capitalist plans
for next quarter’s progress
is frightening absence
of eco-political integrity,
Business As Planned Usual
degenerating
toxic chaos.

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Deep Earth Listening

Earth can hear you
better when invited
to wisely engage,
to co-invest in healthy experiences
and wealthy images
of our mutual care
and strained
constrained neglect.

She watches
as you wonder
again

If humanity
fully defines what Earth’s animals are
together on our best Earth Day
because our DNA roots grow back
into prime sacred relationship
of win/win balanced oxygen
synergizing hydrogen.

She invites us to stop
degenerating toxic alternative universes

Loser egos inside
eco-asystemic losses

Chaotically swirling
against organizing organic life

Wiped out by industrial ammonia
and disempowering bleach

Like acidic agents of Orange
with pits
and poisons
of privileged pukey Peach.

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Fiddler’s Womb

If I were a poor woman
I would dance and sing
through basement boogy woogy bars
all these days and nights
of EarthTribe healthy men

Winning
not measured in applause
but absorbing painful bunions
in glad support
of Earth’s healthiest worn-out pause

Performing songs with peace
inviting massive choirs
composing mother muses,
matriarchs of deeply felt integrity
dancing EarthDay’s cause.

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Healthier Questions

What is my great anticipation,
active hope,
passion,
at this time
in my compassionate life,
in this EarthTribe
sacred place?

Perhaps nothing more,
nothing less,
than to discover
and daily rediscover
neighbors
leaders
teachers
parents
adolescents
children
asking this same health and safety question
in this same integral
and beautiful
nonviolent communicating Way.

What is our great anticipation,
active healthy hope,
wealthy passion
at this time
in our co-passionate lives
and livelihoods
on this EarthTribe sacred planet?

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DeepLight Heartedness

Noetic integrity
of LeftHemisphere verbal dominance
represents polypathic resilience

With poetic empathy
of RightHemisphere nonverbal harmony
co-arising polyphonic resonance

Together contributing to our
ecologically enlightened,
politically empowered,
bilaterally co-engaged worldview
of EarthTribe fabled sentience
and pre-historic experience

Just as a deep interpersonal connection
of deep noetic understanding
occurs when an individual person feels
what another person feels,

When sacred organic individuals
know ourselves as more than merely secular
dissociated yet sacredly incorporated
experiences of communion
more than merely competitive
win/lose managing to survive,
commodified by elite investors,
owned by struggle,
used by a runaway supremacist system,
rented for capital-driven purposes
consumed with getting ahead.

By analogical comparison
poetic RightHemisphere prominence
of IndividualYang identity
within social Yintegrity
actively seeks
and thereby finds
deep democratic interspecies dialogical connections,
reverse historical reconnections

And noetic polypathic understanding
that a humane person,

physically organic
with global muticultural health intention
to reactivate historical multi-regenerations
of deep sacred learning,

holistically win/win incorporated,
reconnected,
indigenously religioned,

feels what another neurosensory organic creation
re-creationally feels

both RightHemisphere resonant harmony
and LeftHemisphere resilient integrity,

both sacred
and secular,

both flowing cosmic interrelationship
and strong bilateral
ego/eco-systemic
noetic/poetic
polypathic/polyphonic
bicameral integrity.

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