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Fears of Abandonment

I feel you need
and want me less
than I need
and want you,
and like you,
or how about exclusively
peculiarly
curiously love you?
adult with mature adult,
embracing EarthTribe perennial invitation
into nutritious co-habitation.

And yet I fear
we both would rather invest ourselves
in most any distraction,
entertainment,
idle gossip,
idol worship,
other than this sacramental relationship
of me with
and for you,
and you
with and for me.

Not despite all our decades
of competing foolishness,
but learning together through all our beat down
hidden longings
to feel safe daily respite;
to feed sacred partnered
sanctuary feelings,
covenanted thoughts

Of epic everyday co-investors
with no sacred or secular,
divine or profane assets
held in dualistic
disassociated reserve,
just in case life doesn’t work out safely together
better than unsafely apart.

When sacred love conquers all defensive fears
and secular competitions in anger
overwhelm needy greed
and selfish envy
with transparent invitation,

When daily love rules not just left-brain corporate commodity identities
but also pervades our cooperative right-brain sanctuary
of primal relationship feelings,
deep learning connection,
compassionate attachment,

Then our mutual root system
and garden,
our forest of emotions,
our home plate defensive motions,
our core incorporations
for not abandoning compassionate Earth
as we know and love
all Her multiculturing incarnations
of co-empathic relations
further refine Golden Rules and Ratios,

Health-passion, slow-grown
co-arising emergent ecstasies,
co-gravity emoting climax,
epic wonder,
awesome win/win integrity.

Feeling cooperatively needed
wanted
heard
appreciated
through slow-grown nurturing ego/ecosystems
mutually-held invitations
to love all EarthTribes,
life forms
as EarthMother has win/win loved you
and me,

All Souls of regenerations past,
present,
future.

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Recycling Values

Values and disvalues
absorbed through communication
of felt relationship,
absence of connection,
hopeless excommunication.

The Left bereft
Brain justified,
ratioed,
commodified,
diversified,
tooled,
weaponed for rational utilitarian consistency,
reified verbal logic
of neurological systemic Spirits,
feeling co-related events,
critical memories
epic predator/prey histories

Recalling ecologies of sensory attachment/detachment,
felt experience networks of virtual spiraling health values,
virtuously co-arising felt re-experience ecosystems,

And viciously degenerating
unraveling disvalue cycles,
pre- and post-cycles,
recycles

Feeding healthy value feelings,
unhealthy disvalue memories
back
and back
and back to when Space first felt Earth’s shift
balancing bilateral TimeFlow
for virtuous communication

Ego in Here listening kindly
within EarthTribe’s perpetually felt spirals
of revolving Now light,
Then dark…

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Too Long Past Due

What’s the point of suicide
when I feel already dead inside?

Too long past due
pulling breath’s last plug
last gasp
last primal scream
for and against capital colonizing campaigns
but acted out in dizzying silent mime,
rumored to be a scary thing
this last big surrendering event
before unconsciousness
of changing time
marching inevitably forward
and backward,
out
and back in
until no more back
or in.

But what frightens this fading identity most,
No one will know a difference,
notice I’m different,
least of all
decaying from within
me.

Already unconscious
subconscious,
merely skirting conscious life
precedes flirting with absence of awareness,
burning bridges
pulling life plugs
turning out my lights
already too dark to hear
fear memories
too alarming to feel
images
too disarming to care for power
for light

Too defining
future past experience
enlightening
too long
refining
past due
healing
organic capital investments
ourselves
too long overdue.

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Liberating Perfect Pride

In a perfect world
maybe everyone would have opposite and same sexual attractions,
ambiguously passionate attachments
of compassion’s resiiient arousal.

On a perfectly sanctified Earth,
maybe every species would incarnate only opposite sexual attraction,
attachments of passionate ego-arousal,
male dominant belonging in predation
with female receptively longing prey,
monogamy as exclusive
as monotheistic worship,
monoculturally privileged love,
uniformly felt
structured
in dyadic great nature v spirit divides
between Yang/Yin sexual energy,
faithfully dipolar co-arising,

Rather than endless partisan debates
about which of these healthy freedom
proud visions will unfold
with further commitment to cooperative win/win deliberation,
co-passion,
ego/eco-planning,
structuring health optimal nurturing wealth futures,

Perhaps we could join in double-blind solidarity
to recreate this Earthly Paradise
of compassionate integrity
in all relationships,
all curious and courageous internal/external conversations
consciousness and subconsciousness and unconsciousness
from mother-infant primal
on through international co-passionate eco-politics?
And then listen and watch
for which sensory-neural miracle unfolds?

Maybe in win/win Heaven
of our active empowering imaginations,
what looks like internal either/or sexual politics
also comes to feel like external both/and sensory investment.
What feels globally nutritional
also grows personally healthy.

Maybe if we invest less
in predicting who will win,
males or females,
straights or bents,
whites or blacks,
[patriarchs or matriarchs,
yang or yin,
left or right,
north or south,
west or east,
uniformity or unity,
totalitarianism or liberalism,
divine salvation or humane sacrifice,
fragmentation or integration,
apartheid or cooperative co-ownership,
cognitive polypathic speakers or emotive polyphonic listeners,
win/lose or win/win cultures,

We might, instead,
walk in heuristic cognitive
and emotive
solidarity toward recreating
a more win/win experiential
sensory
co-relational planet,

Where left-brain health is re-conjoined
with right-brain sacred wealth,
trusting timeless regenerations of life
will evolve such radically profound sensory passions,
that these two great options
remain both curiously
and courageously to-gathering
integrity’s sensual-neural non-mendacity,
longing’s eternally changing belonging.

Like DNA’s fractal seasonal structure
of bilateral appositionals,
in which adenine’s spring adventures
never touch guanine’s autumn undevelopments,
just as cytosine’s full emotive climax
never speaks bilaterally without
thymine’s winterish understory
co-passionately 4D listening
for polynomial either/or’s
becoming sensory valued
with interdependent not-not polyphonic
ambivalent
ambidextrously harmonic
profoundly integral scaled and circled feelings
longings
for Earth’s DNA health-wealth spiraling vocation
belonging within MotherEarth’s paradise vacation,

Sensory experiences in curious thymine
rooting for left-hemisphere dominant
and courageous cytosine
seeding right-sensed bilateral co-prominent.

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Who I Am Right Now

Who are you?
he asked perpetually, patiently
because I invited him to do so
until our time for contented me
to discover his diversely integrated/fragmented identities,
stories,
critical acting
and singing
and dancing
and warring
and terrorizing
and confronting events
right now,
and in past network iterations
and throughout future synergetic neural regenerations
of lifeline transgenerational memory.

Who are you?

I am an interdependent neural-systemic journalist,
a witness hoping to WinWin reconnect
with cooperatively invested communion ego-courage
to know and appreciate you,
your inhabited past
and echoing future
and my own best regenerative green sanctuary ego-self.

Who are you?

I am curious
about your enchantment
with interdependent neural webs
of communication,
toxic and therapeutic,
between humane capital heads,
comparing and contrasting green economic and nutritional co-investments
in democracy, not privilege,
usually cooperative,
but sometimes dissonantly suffering competing bodies
longing for relief
from EarthTribe’s WinToday to LoseTomorrow mortal enculturations,
wounding marks of perpetually anticipating tensions
about who we are
and are not yet
together.

Who are you?

I am future cooperating courage
to believe our WinWin dreams
and needs,
our hopes
co-arise positive and negative feelings
for and of, against and fleeing from,
green optimizing sanctuary communion
communities,
families,
hearts and minds
restoring polypathic neural democratic trust
communi-nonstatic
creolizing
vulcanizing resilience
between what we think and feel and resonantly say
and where we choose to use
our therapeutic hands and feet,
left dominant minds
punishing and restoring health-right holistic bodies,

Interdependent therapeutic webs
of natural body and spiritual minds
bent toward co-passionate green-means-healthy-grow relationships,
non-sectarian
non-partisan
non-violent
non-apartheid
non-privileged patience
with partial WinWin green sanctuary communions

Actively hoping for EarthTribal DNA interdependent stringing messages
within EarthPlaced integral HereNow messengers
listening, then gratefully speaking
Namaste.

Now it’s time to turn this listening/speaking table,
Who are you?

Then, for a later session,
How are we resiliently green cooperative communicators
communing communion communal
compassionate sanctuary together?

And,
please avoid terms like
communistic communalist
because that raises all sorts of toxic
anti-social isolating unkindness and impatient paranoia
and misunderstanding of original WinWin democratic motives
moving toward green social well-being prosperity,
as if liberality of love
could toxically threaten conservational green therapeutic defenses
found in robust democratic webs of deep resilience
rather than patriarchal fake-walls of privileged resistance.

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Playing Old Maid Players

“To have Clarity of Intention means to align oneself with the clear and single-pointed purpose of that [regenerative] impulse itself. And the way that alignment occurs, in a [bicameral] human heart and mind, is that the intention to [co-]evolve becomes more important [and obvious and ubiquitous] than anything else in this [living ecosystemic] world.” Andrew Cohen, “Evolutionary Enlightenment”, p. 111

Life is like a game of Old Maid.
We co-arise the cards and hands
we have been dealt
and have dealt ourselves
facedown,
we have gifted and been gifted.

So now you know,
we made that Old Maid shirt and tie
now in your hand,
just means its your time to wear them
until they find some other happy hapless guy.

Love is like a game of Wise Elder.
We co-arise our carded hands
dealing mutual subsidiarity to co-gravitate together
facedown forward,
faceup backward through time’s transactional memory,
gifting to and fro.

So now you know,
we made this Wise Elder shirt and tie
at hand,
just means its our Time to help you wear them
until we find some other happy hapless ego-soul.

To have Clarity of Intention
is to align oneself with equanimity
to each moment’s co-arising Old Wise Elder Maid
cooperative Win-Win game.

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Not-Not Rhythms

If two mistakes are not better than one
then why do two negatives equal a positive?

Why does not not peace
not equal justice?

Who does not not dying
not equal fully cooperative living?

Why does not not fear of future or anger about past
not equal love for this present moment?

Why does not not now
not equal heavenly eternity?

Why does not not you
not equal me?

Why does not not motivated
not equal co-redemptively determinated?

Why does not not way out there
not equal way deep co-operating ecology?

Why does not not sin of omission
not equal grace of solidarity commission?

Why does not bad karma
not equal really good karma?

Why does not not yet dead
not equal still fully alive?

Why does not not my way
not equal the best highway?

Why does not not
not equal Yes Yes!?

Why do not bad nightmares
not equal really good dreams?

Why do not not monocultures
not equal fully climaxing beloved polycultures?

Why does not negativity
not equal sufficient positivity?

Why does not not night
not equal day?

Why does not not go
not equal stay?

Why does not not live
not equal decay?

Why does not not devolutionary dissonance
not equal revolutionary livedance?
“Not not.”
Who’s there?
“Guess.”
Guess who?
“I guess you?”

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