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LoveWar of WorldViews

YangLeft: Those still capable of right thinking,
as our more civil
humane reflections
on bilateral political
and economic investment experience,
sometimes cooperative
and democratically co-invested,
but usually just BusinessAsUsual
life remains a win/lose dis-integrity
compromising
ZeroSum political disempowering game
competition.

YintegrityRight: Sweety,
thanks for honorable mention
of integrity, green democratic felt
internal health
actively hoping and acting
activists and not soully pacifists
for, and not just against, its opposite,
external ungated free
for interdependent future
health and safety regenerations…

…EcoFeminist green health/wealth
systemically flowing out
this last minute rambling mention,
in your amusing
by the biway highway
bipolarizing way…

…but you cannot expect win/win conversion
using win/lose dissociative verbal structures
when what we all multiculturally hope for
is just some everyday…

…Green CommonSense;
a LiveGod
is not an EvilDog…

…Dawn becoming LightPower
is not Dusk becoming DualDark
in our ZeroSum MonoPathing Zone

YangLeft: Sorry, I lost my linear rational place.
What were we not actually conversing about?…

Oh yes, neurological
analogical health wealth
cooperative, not competitively dueling, systems,
trans-communicating

Yintegrally Right Behind: Ecological wealth networks
of interdependent green sacred communion
co-investment.

Autonomous Yang: No, I can’t be
bipolarizing RightWing
full-frontal attack
anxiously anticipating…

This is a topic much too big
for mere Yang beginners,
hoping to understand
why we are not yet win/lose winners…

The problem of Live-Evil bitheism
among lonely Loser sinners
in my monotheistic
patriarchal
polynomial world
rational view
Left neurologically well endowed…

With overwhelming individualistic
verbal dominance,
often obsessed with defending
retributive blame and shame
capitally entitled patriarchal systems…

Either defensive RightWing safety
or wrong
my Great NotTransitioning ReActionary Way
or highway,
among enlightened monotheistic
capitalistic
retributive nonmercy
evolving win/lose secular world-view minds
developing without WholeView Earth souls.

Yintegrity Psalms: Too big or small,
too short-term or tall
this way you think to call
our Great MonoTheistic Fall
as I recall
has nothing to do at all
with my polytheistic ecofeminists…

…are seldom found
worshiping at an inside Mall…

…When outside rages red
with wild multiculturing colors
0-range Fall.

Yang: I remain steadfastly against
your polytheistic integrity
of PanTheistic Green/Blue Goddess

Yin: As I recall
our past dipolar co-arising
co-invested consensus
for binomial
bipolar both/and nuanced in/exformation flow
of EvilDog powers,
reversing double-bind beauty flowers
for LiveGod’s bicameral ecofeminist Light…

…sounds and sight
beyond disparities
of light and night,
flight and fright,
fight and might,
rite and bite,
wrong and right

Yang: I suppose propose
what feels polynomially multicultural to you
could also appear binomially cathected,
mutually oppositional trends
and bilateral structures
merging into polarizing reductive obstructions
to monotheistic
capitalistic
patriarchal
cognitive v emotive monopolizing
Ego/Eco disassociated Me.

Yin: Worshiping a positive Goddess of Blue/Green AquaLight
and terrified of equivalent binomial dark red powers
of Evil EcoFeminists not…

…not equals not
lose to lose
double-negative
so equitably positive health/wealth bicameral
win/win multiculturing
poly-entheistic We

YangLeft: Speaking and listening
nonviolently poly-pathic
co-passionate GoldenRules
egopatriarchal-ecofeminist ways
and biways
systemic left-right yintegral…

…rivers of mountainous Tao strength
Yang

Yintegrity: positive LiveD
is not unhealthy negative DeviL…

…right brained God
would not act like
a left-brain dominating Dog…

As polytheistic cooperative dipolar health systems
do not grow more monoculturing competitive wealth.

Yin: OK, much better Yang, dear.
I feel not only recognized
and heard,
but positively anticipated
and economically appreciated…

…co-enlightened
and co-empowered,
co-redeemed
co-arising
co-revolutionary…

…co-operative

Yang: Those still capable of thinking
co-responsibly
could be feeling eco-feminist favored
by cameral merging polynomials
are equally enlightened by
not not creolizing polynomials
bilateral neurological
win to both/and win
healthier
structurally resilient systems
and safer ego/eco-systemic
conjoined compassioning wealth

Yintegrity: There we go…

…patriarchally competitive verbalizing
consecutively linear again
always needing to speak last
profoundly and summatively
and “from above” transcendently lost
like the young voice
of a benign but lonely isolating God

Yang: We love us together
more than sever those other people
apart?

Yin: Yes,
this question mark helps…

…how about ego-privileged
pathologically angry down and inside…

…potentially speaks out flowingly
up for ecosystemic healthy communication?

Yang: We are so brilliantly divine together

Yintegral Summation: …and so dully inhumane
bipolaring appositionally apart from…

Yang: Having the last summation verb.

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ReCounting Wounding Costs

I know what it costs
to parent a tyrant
24/7
52 weeks/year
and yet avoid judging,
feeling guilty,
self-blaming shame
for all I am not sufficient,
yet.

I remember learning curious distinctions
between genuine remorse
given, when LeftBrain verbally requested,
yet without RightBrain capacity
to feel even the least caring difference
between natural brown girl
and spiritual white light shame

Self blame
for why that dinnerplate
smashed so frighteningly
against my dining wall
as if my fault
my adopted child’s sense
of dad-adapting ownership,
or even complexly confusing
bipolar mixed
temporal-historical management messages
about imaginary aggressive causes
predicting unprecedented economic
and political family “out of the blue behavior,”
random effects,
effectively nurturing attention,
non-neglect,
more brown person privileged

Lack of win/win communication
not always transparently verbalize-disabled
and vulnerably, verbally examined
much less non-violently communionated.

Not until I 24/7 learned
such great sociopathic lose/lose
unfortunate chronic mental health events
are non-violently but impatiently stressed,
restrained perhaps
with short-term shunning
and close the safe-space door
temporarily dissociating–
no win/win co-adoptions
of dad-adapting co-empathic nonverbal behavior
accessible right leftbrain autonomously here
and rightbrain interdependent win/win now

Sending myself to my own private room
to re-imagine win/win multicultural remediations,
and positive psychology
ecology
neurological system restoring dreams
of Paradise Not
NonZero Souled Green
new deal rapturously global Peace
climaxing during my own aging green health inhaled
and re-inhaled
exhaling peronal EarthWealth
for feeding more resilient green summer leaves

Restoring
as Recommitting solidarity
as rebreathing solitude
reweaving

Recreating
redeeming
regenerating
re-ligioning
re-connecting
re-storing
re-integrating EarthGreenPeace
organically healthy medication
meditations
win/win Earth compassion practices
of good faith health system restorations

A little lighter thought
and more empowering feeling
active movement practicing
and even miming felt co-empathic needs
eco-politically green cooperative polypathic
EarthTribe Justice,
multiculturally polyphonic
non-verbal Language
not not double-positive co-binary

By pretending I am sociopathic her
10-year-old gay white male EarthMother
doing the best s/he patriarchally privileged can
campily dipolar Both/And re-enacting
what it might feel like
for the not so gayly old white mashed
patriarchally provisioned potatoes
to hit the battered ungrateful wall
clearly devoid of proper heterosexual
aggressively dominant appreciation
for warm buttery white unskinned

Smash! against the senseless floor,
wounded
mashed
bashed
smashed in a fetal curled up defensive mess,
writhing
and theatrically moaning,
one eye on the microphonic
monopolistic Voice of NonChoice
and the other on the bicameral rediscernment

Until she smiles.

Demands I rise again,
right here,
left together co-present now
ZeroSum terrified morally unsafe
reverse transitioned
so she can hug my steady white grand dad neck,
kiss my hope in “side with me, too”
and smarm my win/win resiliently hopeful forehead,
leaving her actively curious mark
on her brown-skin unmasked safe
and healthy communal territory,

Organic ego-gardening green deeding dad,
cooperative as win/win healthy
wealthy democratic Paradise

Which comes out leftbrain verbally,
“Can I maul your head?”
also might mean,
post critical non-cooperative climate event,
“Could we together head
toward the mall,
and co-invest in accessories?
Maybe makeup, soon? not soon enough?
which could only be rightHere/leftNow

A hair salon?
Something actually important
to a real brown-skinned bipolar egofeminist first person
sometimes critically living
in a reversed effects before narcissistic causes
world win/lose
zero-sum bottoms up
redhot
angry trapped wounded child view.

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InExhaustible ComPassion

Solitude
not impatiently exhausted
remains open to nonviolent solidarity
through multiculturing Earth communication,
within reflective self
and without
in active dialogue with nature
spirited Other remuneration.

As yang-strong
solid regenerative nature
engages and co-invests in more
and better compassionate humane
divine experience

As objective secular outcomes
blend yintegrity within
without subjective secularizing intent

To optimize green ego-health
and blue eco-sacred
co-invested safety;
An EarthCommuniy of communities
practicing social-economic Solitude
can be regenerative,
an omni-potent
poly-pathic
non-egotistic
eco-feminist
healthy and safe place

Strong Yang-power mounted
within Yintegrative well alliterative rivers
shivers
quivers
slivers
through bilaterally flowing ZeroZones

Full of timeless NonZero
times undefinable potential,
future wealth
planted in solidarity
of now unfolding
prehistoric
indigenous green/blue EarthWombs
of and for
reweaving memories.

Active solidarity
within eco-responsive solitude,
full and empty
impersonal when co-impassioned felt
and needed safe wealth
is health
proper communication seasons

Inexhaustibly solitary
nonviolent political community
of co-investing economic green communions,
regenerating solidarity
re-membering compassionate nonhistoric nurturing experiences,
polypathically rational outcomes

Objective
through anticipating ego-health reflective
eco-wealth intent

Of communal solitary souls
full and ego empty
NonZero Zoned reflective
subjects inexhaustibly objective
passions
compassions
exhaustibly solitary
solidarity.

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SunLight SolAttitude

When my solitude
silently stands in sunlight
radiating GoldenRule enlightenment
and rational empowerment
through windows dawning bright,

A sharp shadow line
vertically cuts across my bridge
and brow of smell and seeing senses,

InBetween left within shadow
and right without radiance,
narrow sides of double-bonded Truth,
curious and hidden Beauty.

Right eye clearly articulating
bright prominent sight
dominantly lit up height
for best resonant enlightenment

Is blinded by bright
to not fight
automatic rays deflecting night,

While shadow Left,
not yet overpowered
with Right red-eyes blinded punishment,
benighted verbal authority,

BiLaterally
yet integrally knows he she sees
seas
and seasons dipolar co-arising contrast
best as starkest
never darkest
win/win economic dawning options
of BothLeft/AndRight gold radiating rain
in droughts known
through beatified non-pain,
bicameral light regained,
empowered feelings unslain

Again
full bicameral stereo polyphonic,
Radiantly healthy thoughts
not verbally sustained
without dark ultra winnings
winging out and in reimaged, full
golden silent solidarity
mountain-rivered,
ego-system eco-quivered,

Belonging to Earth committed bright
compassion soul
ZeroZone of full
new partial shadows
in light rememory,
undelivered solitude
for health safe night

When my solitude
silently stands in sunlight
radiating GoldenRule enlightenment
and rational empowerment
through this window just now dawning bright.

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Love’s Vulnerable Pedestrian

Taoists recognize
all outside exposed inside egos
feel watched
when walking through
a new or, some stressed times,
even a long familiar
housed human eco-habitat

But some of us feel marginal,
suspected,
anxious about being judged
and shamed
and blamed
for assumed insufficiencies
at aggressively playing monoculturing win/lose
Straight
WesternWhite
Patriarchal
eco-political games

And sometimes we feel anticipation,
privileged multicultural excitement
and active hope

That the multigenerational family
moving in next door
will have kids our win/win needy age

Still health/wealth co-empathic
feeling ego/ecosystemic healing memories

Of past
RedYang/GreenYintegrity walking
waking small revolutionary
repurposing
transportive
transcendent communion experiences

ReStorying Earth’s polyculturing just Ways,
PolyPathic Means,
CoMediations of health-felt cooperative experience

In Ego/Eco-Pedestrian NonZero Zones
of active co-mediation,
win/win strategic and healing game designers
bilaterally co-passioned,
walking along 1/0 binomial
double-binary
boundaries

Anticipating ego/eco-systemic
compassionately progressing
communions.

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Red Green and Blue

Red grows politically angry
about wealthy society’s conspiracy
to keep my ego away
from health’s abundant wealth.

Blue spreads out
economically fearful of anger’s power,
my own loss of leftbrain control,
most times less,
sometimes more
than terrifying competitive victory,
unhealthy monopolization
of light and power,
wealth accumulated
by neglecting
postponing
preempting HaveNot wishes,
accelerating Earth abusive investments
of a powerful
and punishing
highly narcissistic
inhumane
pissed off
judgmentally quivering society,
blatantly unsustainable.

Green ecological relationships
remain hopeful
the conjunction of two polarizing
paralyzing negatives,
anger and fear,
like two negatives
equaling a positive,
will produce healthier wealth,

Not more political envy
and economic greed;
but heavenly peace
and nonviolent EarthJustice.

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Progressive Health Intentions

The opposite of pain
is not ease.

An apposition of ease
is ecstasy.

The difference between pain
and pathology
reflects transparent
appositions between gaining ease,
green global peace,
and health caring ego-individuations
aiming past win/lose easy privilege

Straight white patriarchal
leftbrain ego’s verbal encultured supremacy
capitalistically communicating tolerated ease
with win/lose
cognitiveLeft/affectiveRight
eco-politically painful dissonance

And yet in-between
win/win tipping points
dipolar co-arising narrow Ways,
Yang left secular health power
embracing sacred wealth light
right/reverse-left interdependent web
of green cooperative
ecofeminist life Yintegrity

Of win/lose impatient tolerance’s complexity,
a nonzero zone
heuristic both/and anticipation
of win/win green cooperative health benefits
for wealthy ego/eco-systemic balance
rebalance
prebalance
anti-balance
disbalance
misbalance
violent lose/lose
through compassionate win/win
bicamerally cross-communicating

The opposite of ego-recentering pain
is not ecosystemic win/lose
chronically competitive unease
about further predative,
patriarchal,
dissociative apartheid,
monoculturing degenerative weedpatch experiences,

Slipping toward vague discomfort
with pain and distant
yet inevitable
autonomous ego mortality.

An appositive win/win reverse
of egocentered anthro-supremacist
leftbrain dominant disease
of chronically assuming
presuming to WinEgo
ZeroSum logically requires
Losing EcoHabitat health optimization
for all Earth’s Others

Is not yet Win/Win Yang/Yin
green cooperatively eco-political
global climate of healthy democracy care
sharing ecosystemic ecstasy
with individual ego identity
refined within systemic integrity’s
EarthEcstasy Green EcoPolitics

Also becoming personal
cooperatively preferred EgoClimate
of Earth’s sacred green/blue paradise

Resilient for future regenerations
compassionately re-communicating
local through global
green peace potential.

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AnthroCentric Pandemics

Global pandemics,
like egocentric panics,
present a crisis
of EarthSystemic preventive health care

Revolting against
overpowering economic extraction,
overwhelming weapons against EarthTribe habitats
preserving resilient human green capital reinvestment
in self-disciplined scales of reproducing
voluntary overpopulation degeneration
to extend anthro survival time
to embrace EarthTrival win/win space

Committed to local green communal needs
ecologically enlightened
and economic Whole GreenBlue Earth empowering
long-term resilient win/win viral passions
for restoring EarthJustice,
Green multiculturally cooperative Peace

Gospel messages
advocating Beatitude tools,
not bad attitude weapons
orthodoxically leftbrain aimed
to punish everyday ignorant sinners

Pandemically conspiring to kill,
or at least deeply wound,
green polycultural health seasons
of ego/eco-systemic bicameral wealth

Of positively viral insight:
To lose StraightWhite patriarchal
leftbrain treasons against bicameral mental health
to continue embracing fundamentalism’s win/lose
monetized salvation
through competitive self-redeeming egocentricities,
is like winning a short-term
yet chronically stressful battle
to lose our long-term leftbrain dominant war

Against compassionate
winLeft/winRight interdependent contagion
of and for
even more
ego/eco-politically green health
polycultural outcomes.
co-invested viral communication.

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Earth’s Needed Victory

Yes, President Trump,
“Our Country needs a victory!”

On this,
we are all multi-party agreed.

Some of us recognize
the only direct route to this national success,
economic and political and social and cultural,
is united in our stated urgency,
“Our Earth needs a health victory!”

Others don’t.
And you would distract us
with your confused world view,
in which the boundary between your own ego
and our shared national
and planetary ecosystems
are too pathologically fuzzy
to meet even the minimal standards
of Reality TV.

Wiser leaders
have learned to be silent
and go on quiet retreat
when such serious personality disorders
rear their unfortunate
undemocratic capitalistic
straight white patriarchal
supremacist heads.

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Yesterday’s UnManifest AV Destiny

Today’s unvaccinated experience
within
and upon natural spiritual Earth
is yesterday’s clearly
most purely
manifest destiny.

On the other hand,
what tomorrow’s post-pandemic destiny
will most healthy manifest
cannot be rooted
in other than silent gratitude
for currently positive deviant,
healthy ecological,
economically co-invested
multiculturing democratic
socio-economic empowering
capital wealth

Manifestly,
even liberally, win/win obvious
to future regenerative communicators,
preserving
protecting
providing
provisioning
previsioning AfterVaccine restorative
HealthSystem History

Our most ego/eco-logically healthy destiny,
her and his most manifest polypathic wealth
absorbed therapeutically
co-redemptively
silently this late sacred Earth enlightening
empowering dusk

Of co-manifest ecosystemic destiny
to preserve health and safety
resilient history
of natural/spiritual
indigenously bicameral
interdependently multiculturing humanity
born of EarthMother’s
most sacred light
and deep flowing power manifestations

TheoEco-logical
HeavenlyWind spirit manifestations
resurfacing
yesterday’s Deep EarthWater
bio/geo/eco/ego-culturing climate health destinies

Naturally manifest
Here Becoming
Now also spiritually feminist

Grateful reborn health
conserving wealth
of safely liberated AV Being.

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