Dillen and the DMV

TO: CT Department of Motor Vehicles Commissioner, Chief States Attorney, Attorney General

FROM: Dillen Dye’s Employer


RE: Some apparent non-compliance with the Americans With Disabilities Act; common courtesy, civil respect; freely accessible pursuit of health, happiness, and prosperity

I don’t know where the States Attorney Officers and the administrators of the Department of Motor Vehicles (DMV) were hiding when the Americans With Disabilities Act issued regulations protecting us from things like bullying, intimidation, failure to disclose information, discriminating to the disadvantage of those who have more than their fair share of disadvantages pursuing those values our Constitution explicitly mentions as meriting our mutual protection.

One of my employees now has a five year troubled history with Officers of Other People’s Peace and the DMV. The latest episode is a denial of his application for a Work Permit, submitted with a nonrefundable $100 application fee, which he can ill afford, especially given this denial requesting the great privilege of driving himself to work during the duration of his currently suspended driver’s license.

How his license became suspended is a long and troubling history of miscommunication between DMV and State Attorneys who seem to assume it is their job to represent the healthiest interests of everyone in the State except the one resident they are currently fleecing, but also troubles between Dillen’s hyper-deficited mind and right foot.

A quick skim of the American With Disabilities Act might cause reasonable people to take the position that Dillen should either receive the Work Permit that the State Attorney told him he would get if he would simply bother to apply, or have his application fee refunded. After all it does seem difficult to justify he received fair value for his $100 investment in a public system that has at best ignored, and at worst messed with, his private system, getting through each day and night without further suicidal ideation.

This past May, the State’s Prosecuting Attorney was a surprisingly happy young person, probably not all that long a member of the Bar, and it was getting late in the afternoon on a perfectly lovely late Friday afternoon. She came close to begging Dillen to pay a bargain basement reduced moving violation fee of just $400 if he would just agree to cancel his date with the apparently beleaguered, and perhaps not in such a great mood, judge. In fact, if he would sign up for a guilty as charged notice going to the DMV, so they could suspend his license yet again, but not to worry because they would surely jump out of their collective skins to give him a free pass to drive to work and school whenever he needed, because after all we are all good people and we want those good things to be happening in your life, if he would sign up for this line of bullshit right now, she would knock off another $100 because she could see he was such a cooperative kinda guy and wouldn’t it be nice to get out of here and enjoy the rest of his day, if not maybe quite so much his life?

She didn’t mention any problem about now having 7 violations on his DMV record so investing $100 in the Worker Permit application would be delusional, at best. She didn’t mention that AfricanAmerican 20-year-old Dillen, driving a beat-up looking van in a rather lavishly comfortable ecopolitical environment, had cars in front of him and behind him also going 45 mph, but apparently he was the only one unaware he was driving on a suspended license, because, after all, how could the DMV send him a notice through the mail that would actually get to him—although email would have most certainly worked—due to his nomadic ways.

So, yes, Dillen has more than three moving violations, but probably would not, if he had been told, upon his first Suspension, that he could apply for a Work Permit to drive despite Suspension. This was news to him, as he was about to begin his third Suspension, although he has yet to receive his first Suspension Notice.

Apparently no one, except perhaps the person whose digital signature appears at the bottom of the Denial?, knows about this three strikes and you are out of a $100 non-refundable application fee. He saw no notice specifying possible reasons for denial. Nothing in red, or even black, ink saying: WARNING, If you have four or more moving violations do not waste your money!

Yesterday, Dillen had an appointment with yet another State Attorney. This, a few hours before receiving the denial notice from DMV. When Dillen told him that he was waiting to hear back from DMV about his application for a Work Permit, this Attorney too was remarkably sanguine, saying something like “Look, you have no DUI on your record, we want to get you on the road for work and school.” So they continued his case, hoping this latest Suspension would be over, license restored, and Dillen could move on, put this self-propelling mess behind him.

Dillen, State Attorneys, and I are all surprised and disappointed to learn of this covert restriction on issuing Work Permits. And I am his employer. Or was, but now that he has no way to get to work or pay his rent, I suppose my reaction was supposed to be: Well, who’s next?  I believe you should give him his permit or at least refund his extorted application fee. What utter stupidity to increase homelessness and risks of serious mental health issues when we could simply issue more Work Permits!

Not to blow this out of all reasonable proportion, but to add larger and longer perspective, this denial of Dillen’s application for a Work Permit is only the latest episode in his five-year troubled history with driving safely and responsibly as part of his moving into independent adulthood profile. Dillen’s level of sensory-neural challenges and his motivation to live a reasonably accommodated life, without intimidating-bullying Police Officers and inscrutable labyrinthine DMV communication issues, and fee extortions that could not possibly pass any discriminatory effect legal challenge, are concerns we might all approach with better implemented concern and integrity.

Other than that, I hope you are having a blessed day.


Gerald Dillenbeck




Keeping Americans Safe

A prayer for God to bless America
is also a reminder of traditional political mindfulness,
basic awareness of our economic investments in security.

First, no one “keeps” this confederation of uniting states,
unless we let them.

Second, prayers for sustaining safety assume the U.S. is safe now,
and/or implies concern that we are at risk.
There are many ways to become ecologically
and economically
and politically
and culturally
and physically
and mentally
and spiritually safe and unsafe.
We are each on a continuum of health v pathology
as individuals,
as is each of our States,
as is this Nation as a whole ecopolitical system.

Third, “America” refers to two continents,
one to the north and one to the south.
A U.S. safety and health security measure could both be
and not be
appropriate health and safety policy
and procedure for this quartile of Earth.
It seems to me we are heading in an ecologically unraveling,
and therefore increasingly unsafe, direction,
more immediately for our coastal nations and, yes,
still somewhat united States.

Fourth, “safe” for and from what and why?
Traditional conservative minds tend to exegete the Preamble to the Constitution
and perhaps even the Declaration of Independence.
Here we read that we are united in healthy pursuits of happy prosperity.
We also read we are uniting with freedom
to articulate a multicultural relationship with God,
free of dominating,
power-over controlling religious-political constraints,
and economic leverages or punishments.

Preferably no inquisitions for bowing to the East.
If we all did,
then God might see the humor of AnthroCentrists
bowing and worshiping toward each Others’ rear ends;
Find it good and proper
and call us a full polyculturally wise day
mutually inviting humility.

Does separation of religious from self-governance declarations and constitutions
intrinsically grow tension with our desire to be safe
for ecopolitical prosperity?
This was, and perhaps remains,
a radical social experiment,
in part because religious systems,
institutions of intended regenerative self-perpetuation
toward safe and healthy governance
throughout Time’s eternities
is the nutritional stuffing of political powers over
and powers with,
powers under and powers without.

The multiculturing of a shared safe and healthy politically powerful Teleology
is not ecologically equivalent
is not educationally equivalent
to the dumbed-down secularization of U.S. society and culture.

We both under- and over-sell our political ecology of multi-enculturation
as purging ourselves of faith and empathic trust in each other,
faith in Earth’s creative cooperative health and multigenerational sustainability;
Bleaching such faith out of public discourse,
especially public education,
and most especially out of deep listening-learning mindfulness
about our own uniting states of ecopolitical trust
and mistrust
and learned anthrocentric distrusts,
our positive faiths
and negative ego-ethnocentric prejudices
within our interior landscapes
and across the North and South American Natural Landscape
of a remarkably ecologically co-evolving, polyculturing, dynamic-revolving Earth.
Such science and education can only predict closed-system entropy,
while nature-spirit deep learning comprehends open-systemic co-empathic loves, integrities, nondual truths as symmetrical beauties,
multiculturing evolution of Time our regenerational transgenerational selves.

To keep the U.S. safe from absence of health
through ecological learning from past successes and mistakes,
to keep us healthy for future generations,
which is your priority?

1. Aiming deadly and toxic ballistics at whoever we currently consider aliens
and rabid infestations inflicting terror outside our own boundaries, or
2. Aiming health as ecopolitically cooperative policies and procedures
at the aliens and rabid infestations within our own skins,
and stated boundaries.

Medicine Men,
preachers and teachers,
shamans and seers,
saints and messiahs and boddhisatva warriors,
mystics and gurus,
even motivational speakers
and Anger Management therapists
throughout the history of languaged culture itself
have looked into our futures
within every color and multicultural creed
to remind us we will become positively known for our regenerational love,
our evolving capacity to cooperate,
as generously and gratefully as ecopolitically possible,
until no monoculturing terrorist would choose to live in his lesser environment of fundamentalist exclusions of nurturing-fertile matriarchy,
such as that co-mentored with Gaia as Earth-BioSystemic EcoPolitical Intelligence,
Regenerative Health.

Our best health and safety American offensive for positive change on Earth
remains as always
a multiculturally integrative loving ecopolitical internal constitutional defense.

We already declared our interdependent political will to grow freedom
from supremacist nationalistic-religious tyrannies
against the good cooperative multicultural nutritional faiths of our co-evolving Elder Tribes.

We have already written a Constitution for co-arising nondual states of mutual-enlightenment,
for multicultural ecopolitical health and safety and prosperity outcomes.

We just need better practice.
Our lack of adherence to our own cooperatively shared nature-spirit traditional ideals
threatens further climatic
overly-competitive, ballistic distrust
and monocultural devolution, disarray, dissonance, decay.

Keeping Earth safe
may be a monotheistic mandate.
If so, we become one united state of being free
for further multicultural evolution of health
and globally inclusive climatic safety.

May our multiculturing God
continue to bless all our North and South Americans
to bless all our polyculturing healthy cooperative EarthTribes.





PermaCulture Revolution Power

Perhaps your political trust,
like mine,
erupts from economic experience
of co-empathic fuels,
empathy another word for nutrition,
and nutritionally ravenous investment
in Basic Trust,
measures empathic resonance
on a resolving outcome scale
of healthy self-optimizing
self-dissembling pathology.

Between these two negatively correlated,
polynomial spacetime tipping points
with notnot polypathic truth in beauty,
yang with yinyin waves
inbetween lives this ego incarnating space,
networking nest,
multicultural recreative mess.

Can I trust in union of self-optimizing eco-nations
to draft Earth’s Declaration of Nutritional Interdependence?
to compose our Cooperative Political/Economic Union’s
EcoLogic Constitution?
planning to harvest CQI Health and Safety PolyCultural Networking Standards
for post-revolutionary global-climatic impact.

Do we cooperatively trust enough
to co-redeem our PermaCultural Bill of Earth Rights
as if all lives and deaths matter?

Is this land of freedom-from power
balancing freedom-to co-empathically empower
co-arising mutually cooperative subsidiarity?
this place of globally interdependent gift-ego-forward opportunity
to share in AnthroEarth’s regenerative sacred vocations
political and economic,
social and postmillennial Tribal,
optimal self-replicating,
cooperatively nutritional,
fertile flow of rivers,
seas of polyculturing edible forests
with meadows of rippling ripe grains
greeting Eden’s River
of clean baptismal flows
through each heart and mind as body.


Health Plan Upgrades

Imagine busy corporations
with political and economic healthy outcome missions,
like yourself maybe,
or perhaps your temple or church or favorite Earth Day nonprofit,
or your garden club or growing family,
as incarnate evolving Traditions
with EcoSystemically Struggling Cultures,
within individual Ego-identities,
but also expanding out into wider political-economic systems.

Each EcoSystemic Corporation
familiar with both cooperative health
and more dissonant pathologies,
struggling against anthro-elitist assumptions
not appropriate within Earth’s health care plan,
co-arising with cooperative contractual assumptions
shared by all DNA/RNA EarthTribe Residents
with polycultural dialects
and polypathic rhythms,
resonantly harmonic truth as beauty,
(0)-soul ReGeneration as PositiveSelf StoryTeller Corporations.

Imagine corporate incarnations more like flowers on
and in
and through
and of
and for a kosmic tree of healthy life and pathological death,
wishing we could up our cooperative grade
to healthy futures safety,
both political and economic,
as ecological balancing, of course.

Imagine Capital
as Time’s EarthCommons investment in cooperatively bicameral minds
with corporately co-operative organic bodies
unfolding these Creation Stories through the eternally nondual present moment
of ecoconscious bilateral,
not yet past and not yet future
measured as solar-fueled bilaterally coarising light.

Wealthiest capital cooperative heads
bicamerally echo with healthy mind cooperative investment practices,
intentions moving toward interdependent EarthTribe Corporately inter-nested,
mutually invested, network bodies
with cooperative economic as ecologically and ecosystemically regenerative
of evolution’s co-investment in healthy WinWin SpaceTime,
Origin of (0)sum RNA/DNA political and economic ReInvestment Capital.

Commodification of time’s health value
is a quantitative abstraction
culturally rooted in our regenerative health values
including ecologically cooperative economic bodies
with political-capital heads
WinWinning networks for polycultural health and safety
of UniversalEarth,
as Holonic IntegralOther,
as Holonic Self-regenerate therapeutic outcome designers
and planners
and co-mentors and lovers,
icons of ecotherapeutic health as cooperative polycultural wealth.


ReConnecting Conscious Natures

About this “reconnecting with Earth”
environmental business,
my great start to recall,
how healthy life felt and smelled and tasted
and sounded and dynamically reverberated
as an infant still in EarthMom’s warm womb,
producing manna’s heaven,
perfectly organic nutrient values and commodities
as required by regenetic menu instructions
for health and safety of me,
this eco-baby.

Born with enculturing transformational
erector-convex-ecosystemic directions,
for transforming EarthEgo’s alternative identity,
sucking and breathing in eco-individuating nutrients of evolution
to exhale rich compost for resynthesis
of Earth’s co-habitators,
spirit-nature breaths of eco-atmosphere,
seasonal functions interior and exterior,
within Ego as without Eco
co-gravitating love as life frequencies
and eco-functions.
bionically dipolar information
as positive concaving strings of health-trends,
over ex-functional, irrational,
yet still primally co-related
double-negative bound Time
convexing eco-consciousness.

I prefer my home and family buttoned
primed to diastatically absorb and invite,
more embryonically enriching polyculture
rather than too wild and disorderly,
disheveled and irrationally negative,
messages sent through pathological cultural high risks
of unbalancing competing dissonance.

I prefer natural ordered spirit polyshades and primal dialects,
communication and eco-tempered communicants
discovering poli-economic regenerative vocations,
freely invited to follow sequential-cooperative WinWin rules
of grace, and not so much bad karma,
nutrition-producing permaculture principles
with polyculturing nutritious love of healthy outcomes.

I have been hurt by too much wild
struggling against my too much gay male
by fear that loss of homophobic strength
struggling with fear and anger
about my too-wild sensuality
might self-recruit toward loving bisexuaity,
if only vicariously,
imaginatively as sensual positive,
to love me as my mindbodies
are Left and Right entwined content.

Fear hates poly and/or meta-sensuality,
cannot comprehend co-arising co-gravitation
without ego-anthro anger boundaries of LeftBrain supremacy;
fear to open trust’s door to boundless mindbody love
for other bicamerally balancing processors of lovely health,
just like yours.

Too wild
these fears and angers scare me,
preferring my home and family
polyculturally buttoned-formed
to optimally unleash
our full-polypathic wild
balancing freedoms toward political empowerment
of ecological bilaterality,
Time’s safely inclusive becoming,
with freedom from economic disempowerment
of full DNA/RNA Tribal Health and Safety.

If Yin functions Time’s evolutionary intention,
then Yang forms Spatial will to practice
encouraging three-dimensional cooperative plans
unfolding 4D RealTime WinWin Tree-structures
of evolution incarnating health and therapy
to regenerate bi-functional transformation,
growth of healthy wealthy echoing-reiterative love,
dearth of “other”;
Yin-Elder Right’s intended Maternal Time
and power to balance flow,