I appreciate the popular democratic intention:
Equality for All.
I might appreicate a more specific,
but perhaps no less populated,
intention:
Equality for all victims
survivors
outlying thrivers
of Straight White Patriarchal privileged
mentally unhealthy Trauma.
I wonder if a more wholesome masculinity
is a renewed ecofeminist
panentheistic health care face
of past Patriarchal-Capitalist
ZeroSum Closed System
unfortunate RightWing embrace
in the face
of global glooming ecocide.
If your peak experiences
have led to some mature sexual spiritual vocation
Beware, such engaging vocations
are best as special event avocations
Yet unconditionally applied
with win/win nonzero sum
whole open systemic
warm regard.
YangPole/YinHole alacrity
CoEmpathic integrity
sanctity
both lusty and luscious,
sweaty and sweet,
empowering and enlightening,
mountainous and valleyed,
pulsating and holy,
secularly impassioned and sacredly compassionate
LeftBrain engorged and RightBrain engaged
Liberating loud wonder
and Conserving silent awe
Remember the Sabbath
to keep it holy
free of Shoulds.
A should-free cathedral
of intimate athleticism
romantic
exotic
ecstatic
euphoric
erotic
Exhausts this sabbath light
at long last
widely dawning deeply stronger
and resiliently handsome
dark as night
In virtuously enlightening response
to Saturnight’s weekly exorcism
annihilating
exhausting
expiring
Yet another weekday week
weak slow-groan degenerjism
Darkly precipitating
sweaty penetrating night seductive mares
aggravating
congregating
irritating
neighing
sedating
constipating
All my life
I’ve been waiting for you
my Sunday not not should
embrace every daytime athlete
with unconditional
warm felt regard
Up on two feet
with spiritually natural intent
of sabbath hot passions
including,
but not exclusively hoarding,
frontal poles
and backside holes
Balancing sabbaths neurosensory integrity
extending virally out and virtuously circling in
stretching strength
of bilateral heart pumps
and lung inflations
and limb elations
stretching Sunday loves
and bipartisan 1 plunging into 0
every polynomial weekday
binomial cooperative
co-invested
convexly concaved
not-not straight but spiraling round
wholesome inside/outside balance
In co-empathic sabbath passions
free of shaming Others
preaching teaching virginal should not
remember SaturNightMare’s
BlackHole peak experience
anticipating this new athletic Sunday Service
ReMembering
ReIncarnating
ReLigioning Sabbath
to keep it holy
free of Othering Shoulds.
Flying free
in rooftop ecstasy
Raptor’s wings direct
with feathered pins strong, erect
swelling mountain chests
then wings
brought safely down
protecting Earth’s
most sacred wounds.
Standing Yang
with wings wide spread
Left then Right
rebalancing
Bent over filling in Yin’s flow
extending gratitude for out
bold attitude brought back in
for more sincere
out wanting more
more
more sacred practice
mindful praxis
moving axis
Practice makes Yang
with Yin
happy together once again
in this million hole
with pole
extravagant excursion
upstream North
growing deep down South
flowing in/out surfing mouth
Dancing round root chakra
river source
to up reach
down stream right
to left dividing swings
gone sacred South
River’s needy mouth
to feed
time’s seas
of timeless pirate peaks
opposing valleyed surf
inhaling exhaled needs
Healthy seasons too tidal full
swelling now and why and how
toward empty skies
Anthrocentric light
invites this ecocical night,
upstream
patriarchal might
toward down wombed times
round cycling source
of Great White Father fright
Root wise spread out predation
penetrating river’s source
shifting toward rich mountain rivered valleys
flowing up
then down White streaming pole
with Black uncovered silenced hole,
designing doublebinding
God-dressed nature’s inspiring views
Inviting dawn’s
past sunrise dance
sweeping light
round downstream
falling failing
EarthTribe’s meager
flowing sacred
rivered night
Flying free
on rooftop ecstasy.
Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
I must learn to trust
Earth’s future more
Both Father Sun’s timeless
rounds of enlightenment
and Mother Earth’s
codependent rhythms
regenerating rich
empowering
soulful soil
And this trusting more
impels healing trauma’s lessons,
surviving hale and hearty lust
for too RightWing earned distrust
Unenlightened AnthroElitism
within our CommonEnglish languaged voice
while dismissing other naturally iconic sounds
and physical sights,
sacred smells
and mental tastes
Feelings that matter more
than mere white privileged noise
degenerating ego v eco-other
for mere win today
lose survival tomorrow
Much less anthro-resilient healthy
this RightFright Yang v yin militaristic
narcissistic AnthroSurvival
And we could also regenerate
more Yang/Yintegrally together,
rediscover strong and sacred Beauty
peak experience passions
CoInvested integrity’s historic
win/win therapeutic revival,
future multiculturing
verbal and nonverbal
compassionately thriving
and not merely nonviolently surviving
1/0 double-binary bipartisan polypaths
polynomial +1P=(-,-)0P, Tao wu-wei bilateral balance
0/1 cisbinary communication’s
deepest
and most peak
health (1 Universe)
wealth (0 Full/Empty Synergetic Ego/EcoBalancing)
bipartisan ecopolitical health care potential.
That is where we left off yesterday;
and today let us reconsider a related question
about more personal peak experience outcomes
of a health care bipartisan co-governing system.
First, we notice that robust polycultural systems
of win/win thrival
will always be negatively correlated with
exhausted monocultural failing Lose/Lose chaos
despair
trauma
chronic stress
degeneration
death
entropy
lack of any imaginable and/or remembered system
Re-articulating integrity’s most sacred,
and sometimes sexy,
peak regenerative experiences
Feeding our LeftBrain need for EitherYangly Yes
Or TooYinnish Yes and not yet know
Consistency with prior experiential
labeling of penetrating history.
What are our universal characteristics
defining and refining caring systems?
Sounds like we may be speaking nonviolently
of spacious and NowTimed compassion
and co-investment,
and active curiosity.
That works for me,
so let’s go one LeftBrain dominant step
further into verbally defining
what we might all agree
we win/win intend
to successfully differentiate
our health care resilient thrival systems
from our pathological uncare
unfelt lack of any non-degenerative
LoseLose chaos
entropy
despair
trauma
chronic ego/ecocidal
lack of unconditional
warm regard,
retributive blaming
and shaming
straight white monotheistic
monopolizing core panentheistic values
monoculturing neurosystemic despair
depression
oppression
full-spectral Win/Win suppression
of integrity’s compassionate
warm and caring
systemic potential
This recontextualing process
follows an ecological perception principle (EPP)
that it is not polyvagally possible to imagine
or remember ever feeling a caring system
that could co-incidentally be nonverbally noticed
much less defined
or even moderately refined
as any something
or non-peak co-relationally felt event.
Lack of warm unconditional win/win
sacred panentheistic regard
may feel as chronically anxious
as trying to re-imagine
an uncaring entropic
cold as a closed
non-systemic
vacuum of exflowing
information.
What we are capable of appreciating,
deeply rooted in ecological
and biological experience,
are Caring Systems
and not uncaring non-systems.
To define systems feels challenging
because systems, including organic
and Whole
and Open
and Universal Healthy Caring Systems,
all feel so overwhelmingly
and perhaps sacredly comprehensive,
synergetically complex.
Within your own neurosystemic framework,
maturing,
robustly thriving,
perhaps even enjoying elegant
and/or multiculturally exotic
and/or polyculturally erotic
peak Aha! Win/Win
Yang/Yintegral co-balancing experiences
As appositionally contrasted
against a monochromatic win now to lose tomorrow
or win EarthHealth Care Systems tomorrow
by sacrificing AnthroWealth Care Systems today
False dichotomies
nurture chronic trauma,
fear and retribution,
fire and thunder,
conspiracy theories,
like the witchhunt
or the devil
made me addictively
and obsessively,
sometimes violently,
sometimes greedily,
sometimes abusively,
sometimes neglectfully,
always anthro-narcissistically
think it
say it
do it to Eco-You
Lose/Win Dissociated
from interdependently nurtured
and anti-spiritually natured
independent Win/Lose surviving
Ego-Me
Here
in cooperative home
and Now
in my 71st revolutionary round
Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
deep and widely learning
to trust Earth’s curiously sacred
and courageous
peak health
and valley of integral wealth
win/win health care systemic
Yang InFormation
and Yintegral OutFlow
Networks of not-not
double-binding neurosystemic apposition,
sadly anxious
and gladly anticipating more nonviolent dialogue,
less win/lose zero-sum debate
for and against future’s EarthTribal WinWin gains
rethriving positive regeneration thoughts
Less conservatively unbalanced
degenerative negative
anti-eco/pantheo-logical feelings,
Ego Monotheistic Nature v Eco PanEntheistic Polycultural Spirit
More resident of EarthCare Global Peace Systems
cooperative, so not just competitively capitalistic
ecosystemically co-invested in continental/oceanic balance,
so less win/lose survival of one sovereign entitled nation
Or species
straight white male privileged
LeftBrain verbally dominant
anthrosupremacist win/lose or lose/win
karmic conspiracy anxious theories
Not yet anticipating
more deeply integral possibilities
Health caring systems
invite LeftBrain integrity’s inclusive
secular-1/sacred-0
ecotheistic EarthTribe
interreligious multiculturing wealth
caring compassion systems
Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
sharing trust
in EarthTribe’s health
wealthy ecofeminist future.
There’s much to be said,
without diplomacy,
said the Queen
to her Bear
In favor of ancient
transparently royalist wisdom,
“Don’t even look at me.
Either you got it,
or you didn’t!”
Either you get it
or you don’t
And I most certainly do!
rumbled Her Bear
to his Queen.
And yet,
said his Queen
to Her Bear
I feel something
must also be said…
A proclamation!
of win/win consorts
and copassionate co-investments
and mutually satisfying
CoInfestments!
roared Her Bear
with his Queen
Proclaiming cooperative economics
of love
Her most Royal
Peak Experiential
Universal HealthCare Decree
Which even the ElderPriest found long-winded,
“That’s my sacred,
not quite so sensory,
ecosystems territory,
Sister.”
To which the Queen
most regally replied
as if She had not just been conversing
with a nearby Straight White Trucker
Not the way we do it!
unless you have wandering issues
with your patriarchal vocation,
added Her Wondering LoverBear.
If I had an IQ of 17,
would this be normal?
My son,
with cerebral palsy,
no language capacity, no LeftBrain ability to read or write
or speak using linguistic tools,
with no hint of verbal or violent dominance issues,
has an angelic peace-loving IQ
in the 17 ballpark
On several behavioral measures of IQ
(does he have a swallow reflex?
Does he flinch
if his toe is pinched
or his foot is tickled?).
For him,
this IQ is normal,
when he’s feeling healthy,
relatively free of trauma
(including social
and political
and economic
and ecological
and theological
and biological, etc.),
Having a good win/win cooperative,
synergetic,
unconditionally warm regarding day.
And, for me,
his IQ seems normal,
or he would not be
the magnificent young man I know
and love
and care for
and listen to,
As he most times sits in silent
(hopeful bliss?)
Yet sometimes roars his verbal agency
to be seen
with unconditional warm regard
and heard with warm and sacred prophecies,
Our indigenous EarthTribe time
will never be less wisdom
than restoring ecojustice
compassionately co-invested
healthy and safe enough.
To prepare for final cosmic breath
exhaled
echoing first breath
inhaling
waiting to exhale
pausing for Earth’s final soliloquy
To terminate all humane
and inhumane relationships
Commitments
and lack thereof
Obligations
and assets
Risks
and opportunities
To clean up any risks
of disenfranchising anomalies,
coloring too wildly
outside monoculturing lines;
to do no harm
and feel most helpful
for future regenerations
To choose to say goodbye,
farewell
with loving kindness,
warm regard for myself
and kindred Others
To not grasp and cling and hide
due to fear of personal loss;
to embrace sufficient curious courage
even in these last darkening days
To engage in the exit process as deeply
and fully
as I engaged in my birthing process–
neither of which involve my total control
of my most intimate and integral situations;
both of which involve some range of choice-making
sometimes
especially regarding property
and especially NOT regarding interpersonal relationships,
dipolar co-arising
win/lose risk and win/win opportunity,
life as love
in fast and slowing lanes
and recycling seasonal circles
To optimize health,
safety,
joy,
release,
freedom for Self and Others
in this final preparation for Great Transition
To minimize trauma,
stress,
anxiety,
depression,
sadness,
claustrophobia,
stuckness
To let go gracefully
with emotional intelligence
To not get lost
in loss
To warmly embrace
my turn to speak
and sing
and dance
and possibly communicate
has passed
To clear a sacred space
and sufficient time
for Others to listen
more compassionately together
than falling carelessly apart.
It’s weird
and sometimes wild
living with a non-LeftBrain verbal dominant
aspiring child,
now young adult
I find myself waiting for him
to nonverbally connect
and correct me
about my patriarchal domineering
economic and political ableist sins
of RightBrain felt omission
from commercial value
and, perhaps worse,
my passionately sacred co-messianic
self-responsible
unconditional co-enabling
sins of RightBrain depressive
trauma approach/avoid
ambivalent
obsessive/compulsive
commission
and reiterative recommission.
And
he never disappoints
going to the right
felt point
Could no more lie
or steal
than feel envy
fueling greed
for tomorrow’s self-sufficient hopes
and egocentric dreams
At night
when we sleep,
if not before
then after an overpowering seizure
He can explain to me
No ancient spiritual 1 experience
could be other than HereNow natural 0 feeling
linear and yet circular
regeneratively enspiraling
Without LeftBrain dominant
defensive weapons
1 protagonist neither can
nor would
nor should
retool and lavishly display 0 word voices
outside inadequately disabled numeric language
for nonverbal co-passion’s inside images
Sensory receptive memories,
cause-effect singular explanations
and co-arising circular narratives
of co-redemptive recycling
spiraling vicious
and virtuous
negative 1 bipolarity
and not-not positive non-0 dipolarity
co-arising appositional circles
Not divorcing physical Nature
outside abled bodies
from not just metaphysical
Spirit inside minds
Deep listening back through neurosystemic compassion
wet and warm
and dispassion
darkly parched and cold
bilateral multicultural
multigenerational
poly-paradigmatic
panentheistic
enthymematic health and safe feelings
making and remaking
neurosystemic distinctions
Integrity’s RightOriginal Mind
passion for outside health
and safe internal wealth
co-regeneration
Win/Win default
poly-passioned balance
bilateral
Ego Yang Verbal Left
stern deep-voiced patriarchal
sacred co-passioning
Eco Yintegral NonVerbal Right
pre-bicameral Taoist humming
indigenously outflowing
growing wise CoPassion
For positive-health EarthMother
warm comforting wet wombs
sacred surrounding
positive-wealth AnthroChild
co-operatively panentheistic
wild
belly laughing co-empathic passion
Internally sung and danced
oral wu-wei wisdom traditions
of body/mind
nature/spirit
out/inside formation
flowing co-relational balance
synergetic harmony
symphony
resonant integrity
Grows wiser pre-verbal
cooperatively positive health
than multigenerational
disabling apartheid nightmares
of polypathic abuse
and monoculturing neglect
Anticipating inside/outside mortal
-1/-0 lose/lose
universal cold
and feverishly hot tremors
predicting dark disuniting trauma.
It feels weird post-peak,
and sometimes wild,
continuing to sacredly aspire
to merit this gift
RightMind panentheistic survival
of LeftBrain talking
ego-monotheistic thriving
exclusive AnthroSpeaking salvation stories
Living
and apparently dying
repeatedly
with a non-LeftBrain verbal prominent
aspiring child,
now contentedly sleeping
in compassionate comfort
and organically warm
sacred joy
Hopefully
dreaming that we feel pleasantly weird,
sometimes provoking wild belly laughs,
feeling free outside a LeftBrain verbal dominant
label,
name,
+1 inside v -0 outside frame
EitherSacred Or SecularizedDisEnfranchisedOther
possibly unhealthy and unsafe
win/lose competitive imbalance
Preferring
RightMind prominent
warm and wet wombed compassion
emerging -(-0) inside/outside +1
equitable development dreamwork
emergent compassion conversations
Weird
and sometimes wild
living within a non-LeftBrain verbal
monoculturally dominant
Instead,
a more Here/Now
timelessly balancing
copassioning moment
of in/out-digenous
resiliently peaceful wisdom
To choose soulmates
health wealthy
and wisely
As they choose
to dream with you.
I was bruised by dogmatically non-evangelical
Christ monotheistic Jehovah judgmental bad faith
of divine powers
equally entitled
to generously create love
and selfishly act out of jealousy
divine punishment for unfaithful sins
of worship omission
and secularizing commission
Prescribed by the inspired
and kleptocratically negotiated
Greek
and Latin
and English transubstantiations
of AnthroSupremacist visions
speaking
and singing
and dancing
in white male dominant translations
Royal capital is holy
next to divine monopolistic inspiration
of presumably omniscient sacred values
captured by scribes
and conserved by councils
of presumably straight white orthodox
literate males
representing ecclesial royalty
Featuring Jewish Saul
turned Christ Active Revivalist Paul
writing self-governance purification letters
suggesting that ecclesial rituals
of a polytheistic sensual nature
are the opposite
of our most monotheistic spiritual
yet HolySpirit EarthMatriarchal mindful
sacred panentheistic experiences.
I am also more metaphysically resonant
as a YangNatural/YinSpiritual co-passion Taoist
believing through deep listening
to my (and possibly our)
deepest restorative regenerous justice
Yang/Yin co-operative communication intentions
throughout male/female co-investing reproductive
cause-effect linear days
and co-empathic
regeneratively resilient
lunar recircling nights
CoPassioning
yintegral humane sexuality
as our deepest,
highest
and best sacred sensory practice
positive synergy practice
health wealthing practice
till we get ourselves
Yang in and Yintegral out
depolarizing balance
resiliently Left/Right
co-empathic
resonant dialogical praxis
Bodhisattva
co-messianic
co-passionate Left/Right
internal/external communionation
practice
verbally positive thoughts
and metaphysical theories
about nonverbal healthy felt
nonviolent physical feelings.
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