I appreciate the popular democratic intention:
Equality for All.
I might appreicate a more specific,
but perhaps no less populated,
intention:
Equality for all victims
survivors
outlying thrivers
of Straight White Patriarchal privileged
mentally unhealthy Trauma.
I wonder if a more wholesome masculinity
is a renewed ecofeminist
panentheistic health care face
of past Patriarchal-Capitalist
ZeroSum Closed System
unfortunate RightWing embrace
in the face
of global glooming ecocide.
Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
I must learn to trust
Earth’s future more
Both Father Sun’s timeless
rounds of enlightenment
and Mother Earth’s
codependent rhythms
regenerating rich
empowering
soulful soil
And this trusting more
impels healing trauma’s lessons,
surviving hale and hearty lust
for too RightWing earned distrust
Unenlightened AnthroElitism
within our CommonEnglish languaged voice
while dismissing other naturally iconic sounds
and physical sights,
sacred smells
and mental tastes
Feelings that matter more
than mere white privileged noise
degenerating ego v eco-other
for mere win today
lose survival tomorrow
Much less anthro-resilient healthy
this RightFright Yang v yin militaristic
narcissistic AnthroSurvival
And we could also regenerate
more Yang/Yintegrally together,
rediscover strong and sacred Beauty
peak experience passions
CoInvested integrity’s historic
win/win therapeutic revival,
future multiculturing
verbal and nonverbal
compassionately thriving
and not merely nonviolently surviving
1/0 double-binary bipartisan polypaths
polynomial +1P=(-,-)0P, Tao wu-wei bilateral balance
0/1 cisbinary communication’s
deepest
and most peak
health (1 Universe)
wealth (0 Full/Empty Synergetic Ego/EcoBalancing)
bipartisan ecopolitical health care potential.
That is where we left off yesterday;
and today let us reconsider a related question
about more personal peak experience outcomes
of a health care bipartisan co-governing system.
First, we notice that robust polycultural systems
of win/win thrival
will always be negatively correlated with
exhausted monocultural failing Lose/Lose chaos
despair
trauma
chronic stress
degeneration
death
entropy
lack of any imaginable and/or remembered system
Re-articulating integrity’s most sacred,
and sometimes sexy,
peak regenerative experiences
Feeding our LeftBrain need for EitherYangly Yes
Or TooYinnish Yes and not yet know
Consistency with prior experiential
labeling of penetrating history.
What are our universal characteristics
defining and refining caring systems?
Sounds like we may be speaking nonviolently
of spacious and NowTimed compassion
and co-investment,
and active curiosity.
That works for me,
so let’s go one LeftBrain dominant step
further into verbally defining
what we might all agree
we win/win intend
to successfully differentiate
our health care resilient thrival systems
from our pathological uncare
unfelt lack of any non-degenerative
LoseLose chaos
entropy
despair
trauma
chronic ego/ecocidal
lack of unconditional
warm regard,
retributive blaming
and shaming
straight white monotheistic
monopolizing core panentheistic values
monoculturing neurosystemic despair
depression
oppression
full-spectral Win/Win suppression
of integrity’s compassionate
warm and caring
systemic potential
This recontextualing process
follows an ecological perception principle (EPP)
that it is not polyvagally possible to imagine
or remember ever feeling a caring system
that could co-incidentally be nonverbally noticed
much less defined
or even moderately refined
as any something
or non-peak co-relationally felt event.
Lack of warm unconditional win/win
sacred panentheistic regard
may feel as chronically anxious
as trying to re-imagine
an uncaring entropic
cold as a closed
non-systemic
vacuum of exflowing
information.
What we are capable of appreciating,
deeply rooted in ecological
and biological experience,
are Caring Systems
and not uncaring non-systems.
To define systems feels challenging
because systems, including organic
and Whole
and Open
and Universal Healthy Caring Systems,
all feel so overwhelmingly
and perhaps sacredly comprehensive,
synergetically complex.
Within your own neurosystemic framework,
maturing,
robustly thriving,
perhaps even enjoying elegant
and/or multiculturally exotic
and/or polyculturally erotic
peak Aha! Win/Win
Yang/Yintegral co-balancing experiences
As appositionally contrasted
against a monochromatic win now to lose tomorrow
or win EarthHealth Care Systems tomorrow
by sacrificing AnthroWealth Care Systems today
False dichotomies
nurture chronic trauma,
fear and retribution,
fire and thunder,
conspiracy theories,
like the witchhunt
or the devil
made me addictively
and obsessively,
sometimes violently,
sometimes greedily,
sometimes abusively,
sometimes neglectfully,
always anthro-narcissistically
think it
say it
do it to Eco-You
Lose/Win Dissociated
from interdependently nurtured
and anti-spiritually natured
independent Win/Lose surviving
Ego-Me
Here
in cooperative home
and Now
in my 71st revolutionary round
Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
deep and widely learning
to trust Earth’s curiously sacred
and courageous
peak health
and valley of integral wealth
win/win health care systemic
Yang InFormation
and Yintegral OutFlow
Networks of not-not
double-binding neurosystemic apposition,
sadly anxious
and gladly anticipating more nonviolent dialogue,
less win/lose zero-sum debate
for and against future’s EarthTribal WinWin gains
rethriving positive regeneration thoughts
Less conservatively unbalanced
degenerative negative
anti-eco/pantheo-logical feelings,
Ego Monotheistic Nature v Eco PanEntheistic Polycultural Spirit
More resident of EarthCare Global Peace Systems
cooperative, so not just competitively capitalistic
ecosystemically co-invested in continental/oceanic balance,
so less win/lose survival of one sovereign entitled nation
Or species
straight white male privileged
LeftBrain verbally dominant
anthrosupremacist win/lose or lose/win
karmic conspiracy anxious theories
Not yet anticipating
more deeply integral possibilities
Health caring systems
invite LeftBrain integrity’s inclusive
secular-1/sacred-0
ecotheistic EarthTribe
interreligious multiculturing wealth
caring compassion systems
Too many times sadly
too seldom gladly
sharing trust
in EarthTribe’s health
wealthy ecofeminist future.
My Black God
is real as I could imagine
worrying about defective White People
vulnerable to skin cancer
and fading water-front real estate values
in His traumatic WhiteWashed Anthropocene.
My Black God
is strong as I could imagine
on my luckiest bipolar day
and lustiest bipartisan night.
My Black God
is Source and Soul
and, hopefully, humane
ReSource and RePurposing Spirit
(But, you know…
not necessarily always
business as usual Vanilla)
My Black God
celebrates sacred peak experiences
wherever these may be
nonviolently communioned
and found,
perhaps briefly bound,
with mutually informed consent
to insatiable surprises.
My Black God
holds no boundaries
to multicultural curiosity
about every co-passionate touch,
brown smell,
EarthMan tasty
randy thoughts
with age-appropriate visual stimulation,
simulations deep resounding
regeneratively physical
and mental wealth
of how Father’s Time flies
when having fecund fun
robustly resonant
overglowing
peak neurosystemic spasms,
rhythms,
punctuations,
postures,
positions
and cooperatively friendly repositions
climate and cultural adjustments
hoping for resilient regenerations
My Black God
of universally poignant
urgently cooperative physical health
aerobic exercise
verbal and not so much talking stretch
horizontal
and sometimes vertical dance
and compassionately cooperative care
not the least bit trauma giving
is also best climax receiving
sacred communion.
My Black God
follows this sacred Yang gift,
however briefly,
with holistically restored
unconditional warm regard
sacred sexual peace,
Informed and OutFlowing JustUs Justice
received and given,
driven toward
My Black God
of compassion’s AnthroScenic period
of ReStorative Justice
after a whole lotta
NonViolent Sacred,
sometimes flirtatious and sexy,
Communication.
Brown satin
and warm latin passions
unveil to reveal
a powerful white black tool
Polyculturally vulnerable
enlightening school
Multiculturally transparent
empowering rule
For reforming privileged sensory
thoughts
And reverse-flowing predative sensual
feelings.
If I had an IQ of 17,
would this be normal?
My son,
with cerebral palsy,
no language capacity, no LeftBrain ability to read or write
or speak using linguistic tools,
with no hint of verbal or violent dominance issues,
has an angelic peace-loving IQ
in the 17 ballpark
On several behavioral measures of IQ
(does he have a swallow reflex?
Does he flinch
if his toe is pinched
or his foot is tickled?).
For him,
this IQ is normal,
when he’s feeling healthy,
relatively free of trauma
(including social
and political
and economic
and ecological
and theological
and biological, etc.),
Having a good win/win cooperative,
synergetic,
unconditionally warm regarding day.
And, for me,
his IQ seems normal,
or he would not be
the magnificent young man I know
and love
and care for
and listen to,
As he most times sits in silent
(hopeful bliss?)
Yet sometimes roars his verbal agency
to be seen
with unconditional warm regard
and heard with warm and sacred prophecies,
Our indigenous EarthTribe time
will never be less wisdom
than restoring ecojustice
compassionately co-invested
healthy and safe enough.
Warm holes
anticipating slick poles
Wet holes
embracing warm poles
Bipolar linear dark division
flowing downriver nurture valleys
Dipolar round visions
forming mountainous spiral hierarchies
naturally uprising
Ecofeminist journeys inward
Egofatherist conquests
growing outward
and upward
Deep waiting
vulnerable black holiness
before highest transparent
widely diverse
best practice polarities
Wet warm birthing wombs
then dry cold dying tombs
Worm downward holes
wet upward trying poles
Wet yintegrity holes
engaging just right yang poles
As 0
embraces 1
organic revolution.
A problem with breath-focused sitting
eyes hooded
closed down sensory receptor meditation,
in my peak omnipotent mindful experience
This inside passive form of seeking resilience
presumes we consistently care
about furthering our
health care vocations,
organically sacred to some,
merely biological to more chronically traumatized
emotionally challenged
by histories
of neglect
and/or multigenerational mysteries
of emotional/verbal
physical/nonverbal abuse
disregard
bullying
The opposite of nonviolent communication
to restore egojustice
and repair trauma damage
to panentheistic
yintegral ecopeace
Which is the opposite
of monotheistic
yang-supremacist ecocide
As enlightened resonance
of Sun Worship
is to dark dissonance
against Earth empowering
resilient Win/Win
health care meditation systems,
physically active
and metaphysically robust movement,
music,
mindful,
therapeutic empowering
co-passionate peak neurosensory
resilient inside/outside
meditation systems
for enlightening
co-empowering
exhausting, but not manic,
exhilarating, but sustainable
intense, but not anxious
anticipations of time-sufficient
left/right bicameral
thought/felt resiliently sacred
restorative justice
Organic co-passioning
timeless warm round
expansive light empowering
all forming and flowing
inter-religious interconnections
in-between natural/spiritual regenerations
of co-operative
co-governing
co-mediating
co-invested ecopolitical
robust and resilient
EarthTribe peace.
Don’t want to be stuck
in the Trauma Prevention Department.
Don’t want to work that hard
on dogmatic compartments
for politically correct CAPITAL INVESTMENT
governments
over-investing in cautionary
conditional
chronic win/lose mistrustful
competitive dissonant miscommunications
and excommunication
which is counterproductive
for best Trauma Prevention practice
Of mindful-civil cooperative warm regard
AND co-investments in
EarTherapeutic Community Resilience.
I do want resilience to be free minded
in a compassionate
healing
and attentive way
To re-awake,
at least in the intimate privacy
of my own imagined MusicTherapy video,
a more youthful
possibly kinda lustful
want and need to sing and dance
For some extravagantly hot romance
inspiring love songs
To MotherTrees
practicing Earth mindful
sacred MoonDance motion skills
Chill
No nasty military commodified drills
for Trauma Perpetuation
Reviving soulful sensory want to play
win/win economic and political
peak experiences
all day
Often on some water shore,
a river valley waiting with anticipation
for just this one last gasp more
economically correcting
by power and light reconnecting
Unconditionally positive warm
well-moisturized humane bodies
co-invested
in co-operative
co-empathic passions
for universal health
and unitarian EarthTribe safety
Is probably not more
win/lose competitive
LeftBrain dominating monocultural worship
of monotheistic AnthroVerbal Supremacy
afraid to listen and speak nonviolently
about our need to deny
our apparent desecrating vocation
propelling EarthMatricide
Which is why I am feeling overwhelmed
and don’t want to be stuck
in the Trauma Prevention Department
So, I was wondering
could you direct me
to the Restorative Resilience Department?
It must be
I fear
some small wayside closeted
indigenous wisdom compartment,
probably dusty
from lack of use
during the monotheistic hegemony era
blessing straight white industrial
and commercial
and agricultural
and financial
and labor forced predations.
Restorative Resilience Department…
Not sure if that would be the Psych Ward
for Trauma Management
or Public Health and Safety
My constituents are MotherTrees.
Do we have any Public Health and Safety plans
or programs
or policies
or procedures
or practices
to restore their neural root
and branch resilience?
I ask
because I know the therapists
and administrators at the Psych Ward
and they don’t have a clue
about resilience planning.
Way too busy
managing trauma
anxiety
depression
chronic stress
overwhelming the Trauma Prevention Department
Which is why I’m feeling stuck,
not having a lot of luck
finding anyone who gives a…
outside the apparently missing
Restorative Resilience Department
of Mindful Corrections
and more positive redirections.
As she lays down her blue brush
in a blue-trimmed cream
dream stone basin
of darkening water
She realizes
inside voice has been thinking
about double negative paradox
as -x/-y
can’t win pathology
Of way too much Patriarchal Capitalist
dogmatic Business As Boorishly Usual,
monochromatic
monopolistic
monocultural
monotheistic
Describing
and prescribing her
BusyMess
is cruel
cold
calculating dismissal
disregard
don’t matter
Let her splatter!
while he eats
his white survival cake
Mindlessly unwoke
to future predative
desecration issues
promoting and marketing
trauma-inflation corporations
inviting frequent-flyer
evangelically missioned Narcissists
Who probably don’t think much
of a universal peak salvation experience
yet do feel deeply united,
maybe even energetically synergetic,
about their own sacred memories
of EarthMother’s original Win/Win
multi-colored co-invested
warm wet unconditionally cooperative
co-relationships
Through time’s changing
hue and culture and cry
LeftBrain verbally emerging
too dominant
Thereby, curiosity remains difficult to contain
to deeply listen for feelings to explain
this sound and sight for blue brushes
tinting her slowly turning water
growing
blueing
flowing sadly
back through Patriarchal
Capitalist
anthroprivileged time
Emerging blue
and grey
darkening ecocide.
Dark chances,
unhealthy and unsafe trauma
HiStories
Degenerating predative dogmas
not wanting to let go of ballistics
even for dawning light’s sacred promise
to grab full-immersion hold
and heal dark mythologies
lose now and again later ecologies
repeat rehearsed
inside-only voiced
dark passion narratives
Speaking out alarmed Betrayal
from those you were taught to Trust–
[it was Her job!
I have an unconditional contract
on a warm wet naturally wombed
and spiritually unwounded
birthright!
Defying Other’s Anger
about my gift-economy Hypocrisy
about my sacred Golden Rule restriction
win/win positive aspiration,
invoked by nature’s spiritual
Hippocratic Oath
to at least do no damage
losing trusted breath in
so losing full breath back out
again
and again
and repeat breathlessly again.
My own most difficult,
occasionally traumatic,
distressingly long, slow
letting go transition
Feels almost inevitably headed
for natural health-Lose
spiritual health-Lose
despair
Unless we all keep trying our best,
not just me
cleaning up your mess
to suffering servant impress
All us AnthroPrivileged victims
aware of traumatic over-populated
rabid traumatic
and pandemic health risks,
and runaway
emerging PTSD
and dementia
and suicide
and matricide
and ecocide
Make it almost impossible
to respect ourselves
yet not fear
retributive justice officers
and judges
and monolithic Yang-Jehovah
Dispensing punishments and fines
and shame
and blame
where the only obvious victim
I can see
is me.
My dark protagonist continues
to be victimized,
even now in aging memories
Every day past light
leads, at dusk,
to dark future
leads, at dawn,
to soon past light…
Yet my attachment to enlightenment
encourages me to disregard
co-arising dipolar dark empowerments
bicamerally re-associated
Yet awkwardly, sometimes
with high-risk trauma histories
monoculturally LeftBrain
EgoCentric predative Yang
AnthroPrivileged Voices
stuck on healthy and safe past orthodox
value systems
personal
and economic
and political
and separate and unequal
bi-sensory
and anti-sexual competitive dogmatic traditions
Not spiritually or naturally learning
so not wanting to let go
even for dawning light’s healthy promise
to grab resilient hold
and heal dark
post-traumatic lose/lose
zero-sum global
ecocidal winterish nightmares
Dipolar co-arising
unconditional warm sun rising
well-moisturized
copassionately co-invested day dreams
and horizontal dances,
core-chakra interpersonal win/win
exercises
nonviolent practice
practice
practice
Until we get our cooperative peak experience
sacredly awesome
and restorative ecojustice
left and right again
BiLateral
BiCameral creolization
in timeless tides
of over-swelling
regenerativity
Not quite
so bleakly alone
trapped in silent screaming stark
Dark.
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