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Resilient Peak Experiences

Gayla Speak Experiences
promote healing events
not intended to contribute to trauma
drama narratives.

Stories we tell
and trust
and thrust
and softly smile about
when we dare to leave
our stiff
stiffling closets.

RedYang
universal dominants
friendly feasting
with BlueYintegral
unitarian intent

Together praising massively thick
and deeply embedded polarities
of nearly omnipotent
erect and hard patrimony
loving MotherEarth’s holy matrimonies,
compassion

Transcending monotheistic challenging attitudes
failing to question long-term outcomes
of dubious commercial
graphic success,
LeftBrain dominant anthrosupremacism
on top
of Others,
unstraight
unmale
unwhite.

YangPole hot resilience
cannot sustain
without YinHole warm
wet
passionately inviting
fully dilated resonance

WuWei balance
of divinely favored Versatility
engaging neurosystemic respect
for healthy work and play shop sharing,
nakedly transparent
vulnerable wealthy caring
for integrity’s warm
unconditionally impassioned
potential

To not feel bought
and sold,
short-term rented
or long-term leased

Instead both offering
and receiving
Pole/Hole equity
co-empathically felt
and touched
by peak impassioned
sacred communion values

Wanting therapeutic fairness
to eliminate all mundane
no talent
no appreciation drama
in our cooperative
pantheistic sex lives
loves
lusts

Creating
and recreating,
spreading
and retightening,
a cooperative
healthy
sacred nutritional space

For rethinking our peak
orgasmic win/win experiences
when we felt mountainous
rolling climaxes
and deep valleyed seizures
flowing out
and out
encompassing peace

Lost in ecstasy
present to awesome YangPoles
and wondrous Yintegrity.

Scenes sensory developed
from natural roots
seen through spirited hearts

Longing to both host
and guest,
give
and receive again

Through joy of warm memory
and sad loss of peak intensity,
elation
despite risk
of subsequent depression,
transcending invitations
and farewells

Domesticated LeftMind enlightenment
and Wild RightBodied empowerment
together
reproducing root systemic Yintegrity
of natural health
and spiritual safety

Trauma prevention
by means of
Therapy optimization,
flowering Yang/Yin
Pole/Hole
Top/Bottom
curious dipolar co-arisings
of co-empathic consciousness

Erect conservation
engaging liberation,
Orthodox monotheistic worship
and Heterodox panentheistic communion,
Monocultural hot Redness
and cool Green
polycultural awareness,
Anthro-autocracy
and EarthTribe-democracy,
Monopolistic cathedrals
and EcoFeminist sacred outdoor space,
Good-humored human hypocrisy
and health-wealthy divine integrity

LeftBrain’s fascination
with both trusted Pole
and beautiful Hole
satisfies
as either lonely Pole
or isolated Hole
could not

Trained by anal-rejecting
well-endowed envying
anthrosupremacists
to achieve best
and brightest light
through patriarchal-capitalist means
and SWM privileged ways

To bless our
RightBrain indigenous
wise bicameral hearts,
re-membering
and re-imaging
double-binding
co-arisings

Both Pole and Holistic
And Win/Win nondualistic
peak climatic experiences

Yintegrally therapeutic,
so Yang trauma free
resilient wellbeing narratives
for holistic Holes
and panentheistic Poles
wherever we may sniff
and search
and find
co-gravitating dipolarities

Enlightening Left-Dominant
and empowering Right-Recessive
wise healthy wealth
of well-formed
fluid Paradise.

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UnWorded Rituals

Glow morning warm
hugging
sleepy scalp and face embrace
outside sacred pink
yellowing fragrant dawn

Without fear of fading dark
or death
or sin

Welcome in
naked foot massage
pressure memories of walk
on stretching strings

Hang on
for this new day’s feel good dance

Lay back
tummy up
butt and back below

Angel face
reflecting innocence of trauma
from hands on humane touch
empowering health
warming arms to shoulder soothing skin,
lightly felt wealth of recreation

Back
then front,
up
now down,
back and forth

Soft slapping rhythms
to these wellness rhymes

Songs we sing;
your turn,
now mine.

Signs of tender touch
engaging passioned humors
triumphant
or traumatic,
soothing
or sad
frightened
angry
mad,
invoking sacred rage.

Warm touch patterns
never scalding hot

And vocal rituals
nonviolent communion
accessible
to enable all
creatures lost
and small.

Two brown cartons
at dawn of light
and one at parting dusk
just before dream-filled night

And two more.
One at early bright
and one at brightest warm
as I’m sure you’ve noticed
five from dark through light

In our well-seeing
daily weaving care,
visible signs
for sacred wonders
and silent wealth care voices

Warmly embracing
inclusive sentient choices,
enabling these shared songs
our therapeutic rejoices
of out loud sounds
while feeling communion’s dancing touch

Even more sacred,
profoundly aware
without verbal dominance
these soulful sounds
whispering our glancing
waving
circling sights
inside outsized well-sung voice
enabling healthy care,
empowering well-felt choice

Togathering
this glow morning hug
warm waking mindful scalp
and spirit face embrace.

Without fear of fading dark
or death
or sin

Note: This piece speaks to me of health care giving and receiving with those whose passions, powers, well-being and communication strengths are more RightBrain prominent, because they cannot feel LeftBrain entitled.to EarthCare privilege.

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Supreme Dreams

Regenerative health opportunities
engage divinely omnipotent passions
omnipresent copassions
omnisciently felt cooperative intent
of co-invested green panentheists

Systemically,
necessarily whole organic
synergetically requiring
dipolar co-arising round corporate risks
of eventual degenerative time lines

To project and prepare sufficient safe space
and healthy multi-generational time
for subsequent recreative iterations,
sacred economic exchanges,
co-empowering transactions,
resilient nonviolent communication relationships

Transubstantiating
win/win health systemic
optimal EarthJustice
trauma prevention
enlightening bodymind
EarthTribal resilience
of co-invested empowerment.

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Who Is “I”?

I have a body,
own an organic body,
yet I am a mindbody
as ego’s inside identity
embraces outside systemic context

Communication
with my body
yet a communing mindbody
inter/intra-communicating organism

Musician
within my body
yet a musing
win/win healthy
resiliently co-resonant MindBody
spiritually led
yet naturally following

Consciousness
my sacred mind has a secular body
yet ego
is also a sacred ego/eco-logical body,
depending on whether you perceive Self
as in toward out
and/or from outside
toward inside courageous
and curious ego

At least on our better days
and in peak trauma-free moments
of win/win co-empathically enlightened
empowering spiritually natural co-investments

Co-operating
sacred mind
de-segregating organically safe
and healthy

Inter/intra-communicating
bicamerally balancing
win/win compassion’s bodhisattva,
transparent mind’s vulnerable body
for resilient EarthTribe communionation.

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Enabling Empathy

It’s weird
and sometimes wild
living with a non-LeftBrain verbal dominant
aspiring child,
now young adult

I find myself waiting for him
to nonverbally connect
and correct me
about my patriarchal domineering
economic and political ableist sins
of RightBrain felt omission
from commercial value
and, perhaps worse,
my passionately sacred co-messianic
self-responsible
unconditional co-enabling
sins of RightBrain depressive
trauma approach/avoid
ambivalent
obsessive/compulsive
commission
and reiterative recommission.

And
he never disappoints
going to the right
felt point

Could no more lie
or steal
than feel envy
fueling greed
for tomorrow’s self-sufficient hopes
and egocentric dreams

At night
when we sleep,
if not before
then after an overpowering seizure
He can explain to me

No ancient spiritual 1 experience
could be other than HereNow natural 0 feeling
linear and yet circular
regeneratively enspiraling

Without LeftBrain dominant
defensive weapons
1 protagonist neither can
nor would
nor should
retool and lavishly display 0 word voices
outside inadequately disabled numeric language
for nonverbal co-passion’s inside images

Sensory receptive memories,
cause-effect singular explanations
and co-arising circular narratives
of co-redemptive recycling
spiraling vicious
and virtuous
negative 1 bipolarity
and not-not positive non-0 dipolarity
co-arising appositional circles

Not divorcing physical Nature
outside abled bodies
from not just metaphysical
Spirit inside minds

Deep listening back through neurosystemic compassion
wet and warm
and dispassion
darkly parched and cold
bilateral multicultural
multigenerational
poly-paradigmatic
panentheistic
enthymematic health and safe feelings
making and remaking
neurosystemic distinctions

Integrity’s RightOriginal Mind
passion for outside health
and safe internal wealth
co-regeneration

Win/Win default
poly-passioned balance
bilateral

Ego Yang Verbal Left
stern deep-voiced patriarchal
sacred co-passioning
Eco Yintegral NonVerbal Right
pre-bicameral Taoist humming
indigenously outflowing
growing wise CoPassion

For positive-health EarthMother
warm comforting wet wombs
sacred surrounding
positive-wealth AnthroChild
co-operatively panentheistic
wild
belly laughing co-empathic passion

Internally sung and danced
oral wu-wei wisdom traditions
of body/mind
nature/spirit
out/inside formation
flowing co-relational balance
synergetic harmony
symphony
resonant integrity

Grows wiser pre-verbal
cooperatively positive health
than multigenerational
disabling apartheid nightmares
of polypathic abuse
and monoculturing neglect

Anticipating inside/outside mortal
-1/-0 lose/lose
universal cold
and feverishly hot tremors
predicting dark disuniting trauma.

It feels weird post-peak,
and sometimes wild,
continuing to sacredly aspire
to merit this gift

RightMind panentheistic survival
of LeftBrain talking
ego-monotheistic thriving
exclusive AnthroSpeaking salvation stories

Living
and apparently dying
repeatedly
with a non-LeftBrain verbal prominent
aspiring child,
now contentedly sleeping
in compassionate comfort
and organically warm
sacred joy

Hopefully
dreaming that we feel pleasantly weird,
sometimes provoking wild belly laughs,
feeling free outside a LeftBrain verbal dominant
label,
name,
+1 inside v -0 outside frame
EitherSacred Or SecularizedDisEnfranchisedOther
possibly unhealthy and unsafe
win/lose competitive imbalance

Preferring
RightMind prominent
warm and wet wombed compassion
emerging -(-0) inside/outside +1
equitable development dreamwork
emergent compassion conversations

Weird
and sometimes wild
living within a non-LeftBrain verbal
monoculturally dominant

Instead,
a more Here/Now
timelessly balancing
copassioning moment
of in/out-digenous
resiliently peaceful wisdom

To choose soulmates
health wealthy
and wisely

As they choose
to dream with you.

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Learning From Loss

The hardest losses
are those too late to repair
what has been win/win time lost
to despair

Just as love
cannot co-arise
where fear grows
fully uprisen
a prison
predicting anger’s nearby
impetuously apprised
surprise.

So too,
Freedom cannot thrive
where addiction has hard helped
us feel we are not softly worthy
to survive

“Loser” labelled struggles
with addiction
cannot feel free of affliction
nor can giving in
to addiction’s short-term affections,
powers to feel escape
from personal
and communal,
economic
and political,
monocultural
and monotheistic
OverPowers

Social judgment,
blame
and shame,
co-detachment
non-communication
developing hard
stiffly cold silent screaming
excommunication

Depressing loneliness
isolation
self-ostracization issues
win/lose closeted
fear-based shame defenses
against Old School GoldenRule
loss of co-invested love
offenses.

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Dark

Dark chances,
unhealthy and unsafe trauma
HiStories

Degenerating predative dogmas
not wanting to let go of ballistics
even for dawning light’s sacred promise
to grab full-immersion hold
and heal dark mythologies
lose now and again later ecologies
repeat rehearsed
inside-only voiced
dark passion narratives

Speaking out alarmed Betrayal
from those you were taught to Trust–
[it was Her job!
I have an unconditional contract
on a warm wet naturally wombed
and spiritually unwounded
birthright!

Defying Other’s Anger
about my gift-economy Hypocrisy
about my sacred Golden Rule restriction
win/win positive aspiration,
invoked by nature’s spiritual
Hippocratic Oath
to at least do no damage
losing trusted breath in
so losing full breath back out
again
and again
and repeat breathlessly again.

My own most difficult,
occasionally traumatic,
distressingly long, slow
letting go transition

Feels almost inevitably headed
for natural health-Lose
spiritual health-Lose
despair

Unless we all keep trying our best,
not just me
cleaning up your mess
to suffering servant impress

All us AnthroPrivileged victims
aware of traumatic over-populated
rabid traumatic
and pandemic health risks,
and runaway
emerging PTSD
and dementia
and suicide
and matricide
and ecocide

Make it almost impossible
to respect ourselves
yet not fear
retributive justice officers
and judges
and monolithic Yang-Jehovah

Dispensing punishments and fines
and shame
and blame
where the only obvious victim
I can see
is me.

My dark protagonist continues
to be victimized,
even now in aging memories

Every day past light
leads, at dusk,
to dark future
leads, at dawn,
to soon past light…

Yet my attachment to enlightenment
encourages me to disregard
co-arising dipolar dark empowerments
bicamerally re-associated

Yet awkwardly, sometimes
with high-risk trauma histories
monoculturally LeftBrain
EgoCentric predative Yang

AnthroPrivileged Voices
stuck on healthy and safe past orthodox
value systems
personal
and economic
and political
and separate and unequal
bi-sensory
and anti-sexual competitive dogmatic traditions

Not spiritually or naturally learning
so not wanting to let go
even for dawning light’s healthy promise
to grab resilient hold
and heal dark
post-traumatic lose/lose
zero-sum global
ecocidal winterish nightmares

Dipolar co-arising
unconditional warm sun rising
well-moisturized
copassionately co-invested day dreams
and horizontal dances,
core-chakra interpersonal win/win
exercises
nonviolent practice
practice
practice

Until we get our cooperative peak experience
sacredly awesome
and restorative ecojustice
left and right again

BiLateral
BiCameral creolization
in timeless tides
of over-swelling
regenerativity

Not quite
so bleakly alone
trapped in silent screaming stark
Dark.

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Silent Conspiracy

My car-ride silence
is not judging you;
maybe me,
but certainly
and more generously
unconditionally not angry
or shaming
or blaming
you for unpardonable sins
against sainted me.

With you in a powerless passenger seat
and me in a self-punishing driver’s
need to alone defeat
our unshared lonely demons
darkly frightened and angry
terrified trauma
repeat
repeat
repeat

Frozen in this mystical dark
threatening night
mile after agonizing
coldly silent mile.

Self judgment
for addictions to bright pleasure
to glaring peace
to sacred wombs
remembering comfort and joy;
and warmly quiet compassion
listening, hopefully,
for what you can not say
gratefully yet today

Until you are ready
to speak your overflowing feelings,
positive
and negative,
manic
and depressive,
conflicted in-between
comically up
and tragically down,
cooperatively spiritual
and competitively natural,
warm mind wants
and searing body needs

Your trauma narrative
and our therapeutic hopes
and win/win dreams
for terrifying partnered glory.

My silence
is not cold,
not condemning,
but warmly curious

To hear,
and thereby hope to help heal
less silent
more shared sided by side
struggles

Together co-arising
mostly compassionate wars
against past and present unhealthy addictions
passions

Empowerments
and disempowerments,
unconditionally warm
and sacred enlightenments
and calculating cold silent
and severing secular endarkenments,
retributive competitions
and restorative cooperations

Playing quiet conspiracy games
of who can hold his voice longest
and most sadly,
and how we warmly hold
our compassion choice
more gladly

For healthier peace
and wealthier best
Tragic Comedy Drama
in a daily soap opera
series

Of critical
trauma risks
and therapeutic opportunities
throughout this long bad day

Driving not only
lonely in a cold conspiracy
of silence;
more of a warm compassion context
for restoring
and restorying
nonverbal heart communion

Reweaving what you once said
or thought
or hoped
or feared
that time heals all wounds

Except incapacity to remember
how you got them
and how much they cost
us.

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TransGendered Upgrade

Imagine the protagonist
in your messianic adult
ego-story of therapeutic development
is a Father,
And your antagonist
is FeMale Othered,
more second class
poor in Enlightened Spirit
for commercial grade empowerment

Left behind by win/lose competitive
thus self-defensive
power hoarding monotheism
with AnthroPrivileged face
and exclusive sacred grace.

Now,
reverse imagine
to remember your protagonist
warm, wet-wombed empowering
by nurturing Mother,
And your antagonist,
a self-defensive Othering
Father Narcissist.

Notice how our internal Protagonist expectations
images
memories
hopes and fears
ambitions and careers
significantly change
between expected Male v Female overpowers
mono-egotistic
to dominate personal
and political
and economic
and LeftBrain dominant
educated capitalist enlightenment.

Now,
also notice,
if we dare,
our internal Antagonist concerns
and Othering win/lose issues,
including self-protective sensory tissues,
balancing in-between
respected Female/Male cooperative
win/win transcendent cooperative powers

TranSubvstantiating indigenous wisdom
of co-invested supreme secularized Yang
and sacred serene Yintegral co-empowering Protagonists

Expounding
and mentoring
ecofeminist green therapy
far beyond mere StraightWhite NonPolitically InCorrest
nor sacred PanEntheistically True
Trusted

CoEmpathic Red and Blue
Cooperative Green-Capitalized Transcendentalists
mindful

That all EarthTribe organic residents
came from some sacred place
Matriarchal.

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