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A Year Ago

About a year ago,
as the COVID pandemic
seemed to subside,
then swell,
happily ebb
and yet impatiently flow

About a year ago
I was noticing cold autumn nights
bringing first frost
to my metal windowframes
and to my post-surgery tired back
and neglected aging heart.

Outside corner unit 315
my view to the south
of brownfield industrial waste
not salvaged
when converting this condo place
to residential co-invested space.

Outside all our interior doors,
a CommonsGrace ignored
for at least a decade of degeneration
now accelerating divestment
by investors seeking rental profits

And also by resident owners
who could not feel certain
that others felt shamed
by a stained
and torn carpet,
elevators that sometimes worked,
cracked and vaporously blind windows,
dilapidated doors,
impending rot
and gloom
and financial doom.

Now
a year later
our parking place
awaits demolition,
to become hauled away
dismissed
disposed of,
further disgraced,
to be repurposed
refaced
in some future highway
graveled trace.

A year later
our communication grace
is in transition
from feeling alone
victimized by our own hired hands
and by our Commons Governors
indulging an economy of capital scarcity,
patriarchal politics
of executive privilege,
an implied theology
of StraightWhiteMale
monotheistic exceptionalism,
as if godly wisdom comes down
only from an enlightened professional high,
and not from within
our sacred ecofeminist administrators
teachers
mothers
grandmothers
sisters
at least as swell.

Co-invested in cooperative
win/win resolutions,
ecologically reconnecting EarthCare constitutions,
health and safety non-prostitutions,
Yang strong and Yintegral flow
of bicamerally balancing institutions,
mindbodies for longterm healthy democracy,
transparent bilateral trust

Nonviolent communicators
cooperatively planning
and priority budgeting
to heal our side-by-side loneliness
by reconnecting cooperative care
for EarthTribe Wisdom:
a formerly healthy
polyculturally wealthy
sacred planet,
a multiculturally inviting property
for growing edible and ornamental plants
and health-minded wealth-embodied people,
enlightened LeftBrain strong and vital
empowering RightBrain co-empathic flow
of root
and gut
and sacred peak experience feelings

While planning not just to survive
our individual autonomous lives
but also to thrive
through EarthCare
for at least another 7-Regenerations
of healthier healing LeftBrain
ecological co-relations
and safer sacred RightBrain
panentheistic
EarthMatriarchal
co-empathic re-connections.

Our individual victim histories
of patriarchal-capitalism
now repurposed
to help heal our co-invested residential experiences
with PolyCultural Communion,
rejoining planet Earth’s great transitioning
climate of health and safety enterprise

Rather than hiding in self-judgment
and Othering shame
for moving in
to unhealthy and unsafe
historic property demise.

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Grave Feelings

I rediscover organic errors
hidden in co-gravitating
love language.

Gravity is easily noticed
as Apple falling toward Earth;
less visibly conscienced,
experientially remembered,
as co-gravitational
co-relational intent

As Apple’s ego-gravity core
falls drawn toward sacred Earth’s
Mothering womb
smothering tomb
once more
returning toward deeply divine
anthrosupremely verbal
overpowering EarthTribe core gravitas soul
slowly soaring
back down and out
into globally nutritional
seasonally appropriate
co-invested ecological
co-operative 7-regeneration
co-investment

From which this same sacred
co-gravitating Apple
dialectically
binomially
bilaterally
double-binary
co-empathically
historically
polyculturally potentiated

Organic life loves
win/win love
is not lose/lose
not not hate

Against continuously emerging
win/lose further obvious irresolutions

Like why we know Yang 1 Positive
dipolar co-gravitates
with Yintegral 0 Negative

Yet does not oppositionally
defiantly ignore
positive polynomial language
statements
events
narratives

Co-gravitating equitably Yang 1 Positive
balanced with not not Yintegral 0-squared

P=NP appositional
but not oppositional,
at least and at best,
not yet
[N] enthymematic multicultural
Both/And’s “not yet”

Not cogravitating dissonance disorder
climate stress
community exceptionalism distress
childhood win/lose stressors
wounds
losses
chronic anxiety

Not not P
unveils integrity’s potential
both/and right hemisphere
secular/sacred EarthMother
indigenous nondualistic wisdom
of integrity’s co-passioning
universal potential passion

When P also embraces
Left Hemisphere’s Patriarchal Capital
co-gravitating memories
of mountainously enlightening SunGod
erupting Win/Win
polynomially holistic Communion
Creolization
TranSubstantiation

Deeply empowering Right Hemisphere’s
dualdark immortal EarthMother soul
womb
tomb
soil
gloom
EarthTribal co-gravitating
absorbing
emerging future healthcare
regeneration
revolution

Gravitates toward gravitas
wellness-seasoned wealth
integral P=(N)NP

Polypathic Yang 1+
redefines, refines
(N)P not-0 exponential
indigenously wise GoldenRule
co-relational win/win
is not win/lose,
Both/And dipolar co-gravitation
is more than Either 1 Or 0 bipolar
intelligence

Co-gravitating win/win co-operative
Humane-Infant/Sacred-EarthMother

Original CoGravitational Win/Win Attachment
is not Original Lose/Lose Detachment Sin

Against Ego/Earth double-gravitating
decontextualized absence
of resilient co-gravitas peak experiences
with bicameral Yang/Yintelligence

Rediscovering LeftBrain dominant
Either/Or reductive Win/Lose errors
hidden in co-gravitating
RightBrain Both/And
language of dipolar co-arising
passion mountains
and deep [Not] not valleys.

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Profound BiCameral Empathy

Inclusion
births Integrity,

As Equality
bows to Equity,

As Acceptance
longs, yet, for Appreciation,

As Sympathy
hopes for Empathy,

As being Autonomous
moves toward becoming
profoundly Democratic,

As multicultural Awareness
embraces warm Inclusion…

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Rules of Engagement

For tonight
celebrating 163 birthdays
among the three of me,
my husband,
and oldest son’s May birthdays
within four days of each other

For tonight
unestranged,
and, if we each prefer,
for the remainder of our lives
more together,
less apart

We are here to understand
and express appreciation
for and with each other,
not to fix anyone’s misunderstandings
or positions
or perspective
or ignorance
or sin
against God
or Country
or common sense,
or love for each other,
or all of the above.

That way,
if we get confused
about which of these

White God
Red v Blue country
or common sense

Pillars of economic and political wisdom
we have so shamefully violated,

It doesn’t matter
because we’re not going to try
to understand Othering tonight

And, if you prefer,
for the remainder of our co-invested lives
more together,
less apart.

If you want feedback
about Past or Future You,
please ask
Because, for tonight,
we are here together
to hear how you are feeling now
about appreciating abundant you
as you are

And about appreciating us
as we are

And any memories of our past
we can revisit
with full integrity
appreciating you
as part of us–
your Me
as our interwoven We.

So, if you want feedback
about how and what you are doing
and not doing,
about who you are becoming
or not becoming,
you will have to ask.

If you get feedback
you cannot appreciate,
at least as yet,

Please, let’s help remind each other,
calmly and kindly,
that giving unsolicited feedback,
including how to solve your stupid problems
for you,
violates our rules for tonight
and, if you prefer,
for the remainder of our lives,
more together,
less apart.

These rules apply to you,
about yourself,
and about us,
and include me,
about me,
and about us.

I invite your kind
and calm reminder,
and my own
this night to appreciate
and celebrate who I am
as I am
and who you are
as we are
compassionately co-invested

Without judging ourselves
or Others

Without shaming ourselves
or blaming Others
for what we have failed to understand
and to express co-passionately,

To water our flowers
and rewarm our best days,
and not feed the cold dead weeds
of our worst days
before this our night
more together,
less apart.

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Seeking Assurance

I am sad
and need reassurance
this choice was not bad
at the time of searching
Home’s new-found voice,
and is not bad
now,
and will not be bad
and sad
in my shortening future.

Diminishing now
into year by year forecasts,
no longer this seventieth decade
by assured next decade
sensing less reassured choices
may matter no longer than month
by sad and glad
life insurance payment
month.

When will I seize
my last happy budding Spring?

Will I recognize Her
when She whole-sum comes
to spread Her good
choice
seeds?

I am mad
to have purchased
a distressed property condo
and need soothing
by a distressed New England
rusty industrial historic community
on a distressed EarthTribe continent
on a distressed Earth crust
wet with rising
and thickening
sickening salt water.

I need way more
regenerative EarthHealth
systemic reassurance

Some better organized cooperative ownership,
stewardship,
management,
organic gardening,
co-invested harvesting
multicultural
and polyculturally robust
nonviolent communication.

I need expanding green
ecofeminist bicameral network
reassurance
I won’t die alone and sad
distressed
traumatized
chronically stressed
clinically depressed
politically repressed
economically Patriarchal-Capitalist suppressed
into win/lose arguments
competitive consumer markets
retail sales
on formerly sacred offering plates.

I feel sad
Christianity
and Islam
and Judaism
are so often for sale
to the lowest
capital survivalist fear-mongerer,
monocultural anthro-supremacist,
anti-godly
StraightWhiteMale
historically royal privilegedest.

I feel bad
that nonviolent communication,
trusting in HealthyDemocracy dialogue
more than SicKleptocracy debate
to divide and separate,

That Compassion Deep Learning Therapy
is seldom applied
to Presidential Cooperative Dialogues,
to BiPartisan Green EcoPolicy Conventions
for healthiest international
continential
national
state
county
and/or local levels
of organizing our EarthTribe CoOperative Habitats,
organically co-invested
like any healthy regenerative body
property
mind
soul
nature
systemic antiracist spirit

Not quite so distressed
as this condominium association
I invested in last year
and foolishly graduated
into a successful election
to a kinda right wing
real estate fascist
clearly not green cooperative WOKE
executive board of toothless
so unsmiling
sad
mad
feeling bad
Patriarchal-Capitalist Directors

Expecting CondoMinions
to hold our breath
till cost-ineffective budgets
stop overheating
and exploding toward bankruptcy,

Systemically unravelling
while absentee owners
thoughtlessly protect their polished sharpened nails
admiring their gleaming hard right reach
toward God’s great individualistic inspiring destiny
in this RealProperty Land
where cash
and Straight White Patriarchs
are historically-correct
monoculturing Kings

Feeling climate casualty sad,

Needing reassurance
next year’s profits,
and preferably next quarter’s,
will continue to outpace
egregiously inflated
and taxed socialistic costs.

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Less Challenging Dances

I find it easier
and, admittedly, more fun
to climb through tough terrain,
piles of leaves,
loose rocks,
debris,

If
and when
my goal is not to push sweaty through
by force of independently superior will,

But
to dance
with EarthTribe’s diverse
and miraculous co-creations,
sometimes feeling monstrous,

While marching
up our co-arising
complexly gorgeous,

Some might say “athletic”
hill.

And, when more still,
too quiet to dance,
advance,
transport myself
from points A
through fully alphabetized Z

I sit with members
of my inter-connecting choir
to sing my solo
inside dialogues
and depressingly competitive debates

Rituals of stuck
in ambiguous refrains
and angry rounds
of songs I’ve come to care for
yet fear to unload out loud

Taking turns
to catch up
and on
and on
without permitting any advice
ever
regardless of how unilaterally wise,
nor comment
before this circling non-dialogue
completes the time allotted
for this therapeutic day
of deeply listening monologue.

And then my dance
begins inside
as sung by curiosity.

Open ended,
round and full of comprehensive stretches
across all open intersectional space
and sufficient
efficient
inter-connected time
to rhyme our stories
sung in resonance
of universal therapy
for uniting traumas.

But curiosity
does not predict
responses right
and wrong
or either serenely left
or redly fight.

Curiosity draws
us out toward undiscovered
yet felt recovered
resonance
reconfirming choirs of angels
singing Earth’s therapeutic climates
of bravely danced
resilience.

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School Bored Theories

Twenty-two
and our School Boards
are hoppin

Madly divided
’bout race
and white saving face
in-between fashion shoppin.

Dear Red and Blue
School Board Candidates,

Regarding Critical Race Theory
that ignores our own lack
of multiculturing experience,

Perhaps a primally significant reason
we have issues
discussing racial divisions
throughout historical seasons
of revision

Textbooking Straight White Patriarchal treasons
against EarthTribe’s polycultural humanity,

Sacred celebrating multicultural divinity
once felt as synergetic
universal Beauty,

Continues to divide
and conquer
our best LeftBrain schooled dominions
is because rich violent red
patriotic bloodshed
is difficult to own
within our own fascist
unmatriarchal histories

Of capitalized ownership
and encultured Earth corrupting
supremely anthro-worshiping
lack of healthy eco/theological
green stewardship
through co-empathically felt
relationship.

Red candidates predict
Critical Race Theory
becomes a cynical prescription
for an inevitable future
of win/lose
zero-sum unfolding

Continuing Business As Usual
White versus Black
reverses White,

While Blue candidates refocus
on Critical Race personal experiences
of historical individuals
investing in divested
separated
divided communities,
privileged versus unprivileged
polarized nations,
degenerate climates
of active distrust
in our apartheid studied past,

Not to prescribe an inevitable future
of rightwing supported hate,
but to describe our win/lose racist past

To inform a therapeutic win/win potential future
humanely balanced,
multiculturally healthy
for our democratic
planetary future.

Twenty-two
and our School Boards
are hoppin

Mad
divided ’bout race
and white saving face
in-between fashion shoppin.

Well, your Mama Eartha’s rich
and your Papa’s Sun
shines bright enlightenin,

So, hush co-despisin,
don’t you,
won’t you try?

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War Crimes

War crimes
against nations
are like pandemics
against people

And our neighborly places,
homes,
nests
and burrows,
organic host bodies
and soil
and living waters;
sacred spaces,
cathedrals for worshiping integrity
of health
becoming synergistically wealthy

Unlike militarized campaigns
against public health,
devoid of respect
for sacredly shared peace
and EarthJustice

Full of monoculturally diminishing
demolishing
destroying

Virally spreading across widely inclusive victims
of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
unable to contemplate
our own Critical AnthroRace and Gender Experience
of abuse and neglect
including people,
but also plants,
and our biosystemic
formerly healthy planet.

PTSD is an equal opportunity unemployer,
bringing long-term mental/spiritual health issues
to police,
militarized soldiers
following nationalism’s Patriarchal-Capitalist
apartisan line
of war propaganda
more invasively effective
for diminishing humanity
through inciting anger
and inviting fear

Ignoring tools for peace-making
through nonviolent communication
actively hoping to restore
climates and cultures of justice,

To engage public health democracy
for environmentaql peace
and robust integrity

Regenerating
polycultural EarthTribe wealth

Secretions of polyvagal sacred neural memory
prescribing anciently indigenous health
is also EarthWealth
re-engages peace
through polypathic wisdom

Preferring resonantly polyphonic peace gardens,
resilient wilderness sanctuaries,
sun-drenched surf sounding beaches

Hunting grounds,
vacation
and recreations destinations
for seagulls

Unfamiliar with war
and PTSD
and crimes against healthcare.

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What Is Peace Worth?

I wonder what happened
to deep metric learning

That The Autocratic Man
who cannot even run his own corporation
to benefit a healthier planet
certainly does not know how
to preside over executive functions,
economically empowering
and politically enlightened,
of a safely co-invested Nation.

I wonder what happened
to deep metric learning

ZeroSum rooted Open,
not Closed,
for interdependent systemic business
and transparent cooperative reflection

Both, together, more culturally resistant,
and organic health resilient,
for cooperative historic dialogue,

For feeding and watering
economic deep learning co-investment
and democratically engaging health
flow across timeless eternity
of Earth’s great transitioning
health is green wealth care
regeneration

As contrasted to Yang-Capital strength
of 1-based Closed
entropic
win/lose
zero-sum systems

Requiring EgoCentric dissonant metric assumptions
that autonomy of Either 1-Me
is full spectral empowered
or 0-We is null
and void
and devoid of potential light,
degeneratively nihilistic.

Patriarchal-Capitalist win/lose metrics
favoring RightWing sufficient strength
to survive our endless fear-mongering
through nationalistic war propaganda
is less optimistic
less important
less healthy
less safe
more risky
less Truth also speaking Power

When LeftBrain rabidly exhausted
with evermore StraightWhite industrialized
patriarchally competitive win/lose evolution
toward loselose devolution
sulks in silent
passive-aggressive
non-resolution

While Win/Win Open Systemic
cooperative compassion
stands aside,
waiting for voices
remembering how
to listen for cooperative empowerment
and not so much competitive
absence of RightBrain
artistic
and humane Both/And
nuanced balance
of EgoRisks
for EcoSystemic
Integral democratic Days

And sleep fulfilling Nights
revisioning co-passionate Charters,
engaging Schools
of healthy democratic thoughts
with feelings
co-empathically astute,
acute Both/And bicameral
contextual intelligence.

I wonder why 1 Positive
strong
systemic
rational Polynomial
still mysteriously equals
double-negative not(not)
dialectically null
and devoid of positive content
0 square rooted polymathic
student-teacher

Actively reflecting
under Earth’s regenerously divine
Bod hisattva healing tree

On and for and of
inside double-binary resonant
polypathic
integrally polymathic
neurally polyvagal
dialectical resilience.

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Tasty Democratic Health

Tasty democratic roots
are made of trusted vines

Healthy democracy
does not chronically debate
derail indigenous theocracy
diminish pursuit of individual liberty
to co-invest in political
and religious
and sexual powers
of cooperatively focused light
polyphonic harmony

But does compassionately refine
individual human freedoms
to do whatever successful private investors
and elite asset owners
can easily afford to self-define
anthro-divine

To monoculturally become
whomever the almighty
divinely White privileged
CAPITAL monotheistic
LeftBrain PATRIARCHALLY empowered,

but not bicamerally
democratically enlightened,

individual wants to self-righteously
hoarding ego-infested,
mistrust conserving
secularizing
formerly sacred regenerativity
including ecofeminist Gaian goddesses

Indigenous wisdom
of cooperatively owned
and managed Gaian EarthMother experience
valuing healthy wealth
of abundant co-inhabiting care.

A healthy democratic co-investor
does not aspire
toward merely individual capital
exclusively growing wealthy
ego autocracy,
monotheistic plutocracy
retributively punishing kleptocracy
fallen educational consumers
of ignorantly de-contextualized pedagogy
miseducating for further patriarchal supremacy

Heading toward further scarcity
of capital wealth
hoarding plutocracy
anti-global organic health care,
planetary climate wealth share.

But a resiliently healthy
multiculturally trusting compassion,
liberally liberated from egocentrism,
from RightWing anthrosupremacy,
from fantasies of omnipotent capacity
to avoid natural organic suppressions
of all those actively distrusted
increasingly polarized Others

Win/Lose competing
rather than Win/Win cooperating
to establish universal power,
unitarian light,
and Yang/Yintegral democratic energy

Polypathic restraints
against competing for monopolies
over-invested in stock-infested cash
against Earth’s sacred
natural/spiritual/physical/mental
cooperative trusting health

Harmonic wealth subclimates
of richly regenerative
bipartisan trusted
economic ecosystemic brilliant light
politically empowering
HealthTrust co-governing
EarthJust restorative resources

Refined by Earth’s historical experience
sprouting tasty democratic wealthy roots
made of regenerating healthy vines.

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