I hope to visit next Sunday
on a warm
sunny
early PeaceGiving afternoon
Outside with my wounded Daughter’s
extending therapeutic family
with win/win playful
and richly resonant intent
Inside her new
young
empowering
and cooperatively enlightened
Thankful
mind-full music
and muse dancing
mythically
mysteriously
majestically joyful home.
My RightBrain disconnected
oft neglected
cerebral gooey problem
is an up front noticing
then forgiving
part of LeftBrain rebalancing
then reconnecting
natural/spiritual
noncompetitive dual-
patriarchal-
capital-
bipartisan-
bipolar-isms
Over riding
striding nondualistic
nonviolent
co-passionate eco/theo/dia-logical
indigenously panentheistic
resonant experience
Detoxes statically
statistically
three dimensional
dominantly predative
systematic
monotheistic disempowering
monopolistic unenbrightening
monoculturally dull and frightening
transcendent
non-fractal prime dimensional
fourth revolutionary
spiraling regenerative
extending health
wealthy logic
Not so sunny
or funny
as inter-religiously green
polyculturally woke
and multiculturally seen
LeftBrain healthy identity resilient
is also
RightBrain wealthy integrity
resonant
Best praxis
dipolar co-arising axis
for spiritual muses
of co-passionate natural music
For regenerating EarthTribal health
is also
resiliently felt safety
wealth
BiCamerally intelligent
therapeutic re-solving integrity
more peacefully elegant
for great therapeutic
win/win co-passionate potential
As found
sadly unwound
in original RightBrain disconnected
and neglected problems,
Prickly deductive wealth
engaging gooey inductive health
newly just now rewound
more elegantly profound.
Some body
wants some thing
some space
some time
some Other body’s place
Some individual
ego-incorporated
organic wealth
health systemic
mindbody wants to resonantly thrive
to resiliently survive
Some body
cannot compete with BusinessAsUsual
resolve
against trauma-induced Need feelings
with sufficient therapeutic compassion thoughts,
co-investment plans,
co-operating dialectical designs
To accept denial non-responses
to transparently
vulnerable
sacred polycultural
inter-religious
health/wealth invocations,
EarthGoddess reflective
resonant
resilient invitations
into peace
restoring EarthHealth
systemic justice.
Some body
wants what?
For what health
wealthy felt resonant reason?
Why can’t we gratefully accept
history’s tone deaf manipulations
economic oppressions,
political suppressions,
polyvagal dissonant
neurosystemic repressions,
LeftBrain overpowering
militarized
commodified weapons
of unenlightened
Great White Father
patrilinear capital competitions
Left hemisphere dominant
pedagogically verbalized
ecologically secularized
theologically desecrating
wounding
divisive monotheistic impressions.
Some body
needs to become empowered
through our shared depression
panentheistic oppressions
Further disabling already trauma compromised
lifetime resonant health
is never also pathologically dissonant
internally imploding
absence of indigenously resilient
ego/eco-systemic embodied
bilaterally resilient wisdom
Musing,
integrally fusing,
left hemisphere cognitive verbal dominance
suppressing right hemisphere interdependently
intuitively felt inside synergetic Voices
Indigenously wrestling
with sacred singing and dancing
spirit/nature
mental/physical jubilant choices
Panentheistically sacred
healthy democratic
ergodically resonant harmonic
bi-ionic co-binary
mind/body energy
Compelling Truth/Beauty
Yang/Yintegral
bilateral
binomial
bipartisan co-arising
light/power co-reinvesting
in seven regenerational
EarthHealth Muses
For humane ego-centering
divinely ecosystemic
inside wise resonant muse
spoken word resilient inside Voices
For outside sacred music
restoring healthy inter-connecting
eco/theo-logical choices
For abundantly non-oppressive
non-violent communion co-passion
Green resilient health/wealth
co-investing life
for love of natural nondualistic
Yet non-zeroistic
nonviolent Taoistic
indigenous wisdom
Of some body
wanting some thing
some sacred place
some health caring space
for expanding indigenous wisdom
Cooperatively co-governing
Yang/Yintegral
co-pedagogical
muse-elegant
integrally resonant
right brain prominent
eco/theo/egological
Some body
wants some passionate thing
some sacred space
some inspiring time
some Other inspiriting body’s
MeWe cooperatively resonant
bicamerally resilient
co-empowering music
muse
moving on
graced place.
Music practice,
when I was a wounded child,
felt too redundantly mundane,
yet never merely quite ordinary,
especially within a band
or chorus learning environment
For restoring spiritual
mental
natural health,
compassionately co-invested.
Later,
as an adult wounded child,
I repeated this same
redundantly mundane
Business As Not Quite Usual
multicultural community mediation practice
reassuring ritual
Especially within a sacred
indigenous
nonviolent nature/spirit communication
health optimizing Win/Win integral remuneration
expanding EarthJustice progress
processes not win/lose patriarchal culture
please get it off my chest
still struggling with capitalist questions
How do multi-mediating clients
harmonically co-invest?
Musicians musing EarthHealth remediations
feel free to sing out loud
our EarthMuse restoring inclinations
recycling dipolar co-arising precipitations
by winning outside GoldenRules
for cooperative muse
outside music camp vacation
ecotherapeutic anticipations
Left credible
theoretical
And Right awesomely
experiential
Together transubstantiating
integrity’s potential synchronizing
principles of indigenous reverse
spirited nature bi-harmonizing
Natural music’s symphony
enspiriting muse epiphany
extending back and forth
in and out
down and up
Left EarthPowers
and Right SkyLights
healing non-pathology
Dancing
RingSinging
nondualistic co-winging
Thoughts of Muses
feeling
moving
EarthSystemic Music.
In the beginning
of individual first NoelNights
taking our great climatic breath,
All each of us possesses,
and is possessed by,
is sacred EarthMother
Humble shepherdess
singing vast compassion’s angelic empowerment
of great rebirth
giving enlightenment.
We each represent
remember
recreate
this first EarthJustice health communion
Wealth journey
into last and final Solstice
ChristMassive Eve
invoking universal health care giving
predicting local uniting harvest
of resilient wellness wealth
As we cooperatively push our babies forward
in silent carriages of active hope
to resist a dispassion climate
apartheid climax,
deadly stillborn
Wherein all that remains
of future warm breath generations
are shadow moon
and fading starlight
coldly witnessing
no angels singing
on high
nor below
what was our living
breathing MotherEarth
Now, this day,
still seeking and finding here
first empowering
and last enlightening
Dark and final climaxing
sacred co-empathic
passion storied climate frights
Of first/last bright night’s
final warm music intent
to breathe healthy co-passioned
co-arising journey flight
Breathing in
then together out,
Up
then back down
Western YangFull pride
and Eastern Yintegral Empty slide
dark
final restoring night
of Earth’s synergetic Solstice,
compassion’s resonant story
Greatest journey
patronage over-sold
yet never dark dopamining
seratonin angel told.
HeartChoice,
the Why
of my prayers,
invocations,
anxieties,
deep learning anticipations
Music of Integrity
throughout compassion’s timeless
walking wounded prayers
Felt inside Win/Lose violent history
of uncivil suffering
mystery
of Either/Or non lullaby
Discord rooted and stuck
in fundamental lack of soul
for multicultural flowing courage
swelling BothNature/AndSpirited lungs
and throats
and tongues
and bicameral hearts
and bilateral hands
discovering capital heads
in copassionately curious root
HeartChoice
compelling well-sung
HeadVoice,
the What of my prayers,
invoking lyrics
Win/Win bicameral health/
wealth of vocal ecopolitical analysis
advocating Golden Ruled individuals
Witnessing trauma’s global light
shedding shadows
whispering ecotherapeutic local power,
Enlightened mystic minds
within empowered bodies,
Balancing egos
within harmonic neuro-ecosystems
spiraling binomial
double binary dynamics
healthing HeadVoice
co-invested wealthing
HandReJoice,
the How of my active prayer
as dancing DNA regenerations
choreographing bilateralized experience
that social-psycho consciousness
is not first a matter of unsung healthy faith
but of primordially felt resonant wealth experience,
through co-empathic copassionate music practice
Singing staffed ribbons
inscribing vibrato octaves sung
well-rung resonance
both multicultural
and nonviolent,
Both nutritional
and win/win cooperative communal
ego/eco-therapeutic corollary chorus
resounds
Searching out resilient myths
of beauty’s truthful history,
thought as felt
co-empathic mystery
Unfolding Head
and Hand
and Heart
TriPolar bilateral communication
of vastly deep healthy wealth
long-term resilience
speaking up for WholeEarth Open
Radiant FullSpectral Light
and SoundPower Systems
For achieving the How
of our cooperative
co-invested operas
and spoken word projects,
Beauty prayers
hummed in mythical well-being
vibrating therapeutically together
Growing less isolation nightmares
and “Fix Apartheid SundaySin For Us”
empty prayers
invoking militarized self-righteousness
and other dystopian
Straight White privileged
AnthroSupremacist
LeftBrain Dominant
universal nation
patristic capital invocations
advocating
Either EgoWins/Or Eco-Loses
ZeroSum
Closed NeuroSystemic
Devolutionary W/L AnthroGame Theory
Cognitive/Affective dissonance
socio-psychological trauma
chronically stressed
disintegrative miseducating losses
outweighing cisintegral muses
natural/spiritual extended peer
re-education
health/wealth
muse dynamic systems
Avoiding unhealthy prayers
for unwealthy
unwise vocalizations.
“I believe in the sun
even when it is not shining”
I remember someone recently resaying
what has long lain unsaid
inside my paradoxical head,
When asked if I believe in God,
I don’t know what to say.
I might not believe in your God,
at least on my worst
pain-darkened day.
And,
I seem to believe in my own
only in those rare rain-free moments
healthy ego- and eco-gratifying
When I am having a climax heart
and head
song
and dance remembering
re-ligioning
reconnecting EarthMoment
Shared with at least one Other,
perhaps for our first through last time
in this
our day of sacred synergy
Sustaining
surrounding
celebrating a yellow morning
mellow sunrise
promising this wealthy day
without soggy rain
As we prepare to health harvest
warmly fragrant sun-dried hay
I quietly say
So, there is a God,
after all.
“And I believe in love
even when there’s no one there.
And I believe in God
even when he is silent.”
These two additional beliefs
feel like one Relief Belief
to my bicameral head choice
and heart voice.
For it has often been said
and felt
that God is love
Especially when
Matriotic HolySpirit of Love
doesn’t act like a Patriarchal Fool
And, by that,
I reference my own sociopathology
of privileged entitlement
monoculturally over-invested
in capitalist Straight
White
Earth Predations
Colonizations
Extractions
Rapaciousness
But,
my most courageous inscriptions
of whispering hope
often not felt enough
sacredly chosen silence
in spaces between
my LeftBrain dominant
distracting notes
Where my own AnthroSupremacism
falls vibrantly listening
to responsively hear
Elder MotherTrees
sigh
and breeze
Silently praying
for strong rooted
cooperative integrity
Within this organic Green Communion
forest of hands on
generating regenerous Hope.
Note:
Pandemonic Hope is part of a series of theological reflections offered to and from the All Souls Unitarian-Universalist Choir in New London, Connecticut.
“Inscription of Hope” was composed for the Nebraska Choral Arts Society and Children’s Chorus by Z. Randall Stroope, in conversation with a Russian Folk Tune. His lyrics are drawn from an inscription on cellar walls hiding Jews in Cologne, Germany, during World War II. Stroope’s own 1994 reflection on the significance of these words, in this Holocaust pandemonic context, “Hope was all they had to hold on to; hope was their only bridge to a brighter [nonviolently restoring justice] tomorrow.”
LeftBrain ponderous
Dominant Voice:
When did fear
of Straight White God’s traumatic punishment
for our sins
and for the Patriarchal/Capitalist sins
of our soiled soul Fathers;
RightBrain Felt as
Positive Health EcoChoice:
Overwhelm our love
for therapeutically restoring
sacred Earth Peace
and humane/divine
cooperative
co-invested Green Win/Win
Eco/Theo-Logical Justice?
Prayers,
sometimes lightly lyrical,
slyly satirical,
self-conscious,
ego-
and anthro-chosen folk
transcendently
yet personally
individually woke,
and sometimes full embodied
passions in Praise Him!
shout out
Echo in-
voking round resonance
with all Earth’s eternal
regenerating lively
lovely resilience.
Prayers
express “I feel”
so invoke “I want,
even actively need”
Trust Statements
Or,
prayers are LeftBrain dominant
performances
of True v False
Health v Pathology
internal v external
enlightening transcendent thoughts
v empowering emotional support,
Reason v Passion Stories.
“Lordy, Lordy
I sure do hope
for active Sunday hope
that Donald Trump
will someday,
although probably not this day,
enjoy a long
and healthy
and unusually quiet,
cruelly serene,
claustrophobically private retirement
into suffering
and mental anguish
over all his many sociopathological
sins against natural
and spiritual,
physical
and mental,
embodied and mindful health care
giving
by receiving
copassionate
co-invested communion.”
In this prayer,
what does grandmother Eartha feel?
Lack of sufficient hope
for robust and healthy redemption,
maybe sadness about humanity’s great fall
into partisan disunion,
probably chronic climate anxiety,
in which She betrays
and is betrayed by
fear of RightWing AnthroSupremacy.
Meditations
on red sky climate warnings
nonverbally remind MeSheWe
together invoke nonviolent polypaths
leading to polyphonic
lyrical and PraiseHim!
for what we all,
with thriving rich resilient souls,
wish for
An unusually quiet,
serene,
private retiring redemption
From Old Testament
PatriCapitalist
Nothern White epic histories
of colonization
We nearly all AnthroSupremely invoke
deep EarthTribal fears
of our own BusinessAsUsual corporate
systemic
nationalistic
white cracker violent
discommunications
And we are all dearly angry
about lack of sufficiently empowering
and enlightening retirement funds
and redeeming facts,
Spiraling polynomially spacious circles
of polyphonic prayers intoned
entombed beyond eternal silence
peacefully polypathic
Invoking
“I feel lyrical” performances
and I need more than mere divine performance
embracing deep Nature/Spirit flow
ing widely polypathic
“Praise Him/Her, We Two!”
Wu-wei extending conscious
polyculturing healthy conscience
continuing compassion’s
discontinuous
EarthPeace Prayer.
I’m behind a dull white Chevy sedan
developing a lived-in look
while waiting for a greener light
With more than sufficient time
to read two rather ragged bumper stickers
in radical red,
relentless white,
and smoky blue.
The left side message
right in front of my resting wheel
reminded me of my waiting shame
that Jesus had to die
because of my personal sins
for which no one else
could even be partially
pulled out to blame
Only confirming
my bad-self flame
burning along with
a ZeroSum Win now
to delay Losing later
our all-in financial
and partisan lame game
Selling out to our competitive patriarchal
hierarchical shame
of predative corporate Christian Capitalism,
which is what remains
of Cooperative Economics
after squeezing all natural
indigenous spirit wisdom
out of wealth
is health optimizing life.
If only I were less selfish
and lazy
about mediating good-faith
healthcare co-investment cooperatives
as I move along
through each nonviolently communicating
day and night
Bringing me back to the bumper sticker
on my right wing
reminding me,
There is room left
at the Cross for me
Which immediately feels threatening,
ominously judged
and found collectively guilty
for my personal lack of faithful
healthy Soul,
big shortages in potential win/win co-investments
like gratitude for PolyCultural GreenHealth Communions
wherever I might stumble into them again
acting like We care
about health wealth resilient Us.
So, I’m tragically predestined
to climb onto the same rugged cross,
[and why is our cross always so iconically “rugged”
rough and primitive
ragged and wretched
manly and rapacious?
Why never graceful,
flexible,
poignant
transformative
potentially metamorphic
compassionate?]
Losing today
to maybe survive until tomorrow morning’s
StraightWhite God
declares redawning
punishing
timeless omnipotence
to judge all my tomorrows.
Yes,
there is a room for me
at the patriarchal foot
and the capital head
of threatening
punishing mortality
inflamed by oppression
of LeftHemisphere dominant
StraightWhite PatriCapital
anthro-divine individualistic
monotheistic supremacy
Worshiping healthy SunEnlightened humanity
by denying a wounding Cross
we have win/lose ZeroSum created
and recreate each day
between each nightmare
against sacred Earth’s polycultural communioning
reunioning
reweaving
win/win NonZero Soul
optimizing sacred Integrity’s
ecological
economic empowering
EarthWealth
Of a love so radically liberal
Jesus could get more democratically down
off our CapitalistCorporate cross
And then
I’m suddenly no longer behind a dull white Chevy sedan
developing a lived-out look
while waiting for my greener light.
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