My family
remembered now
and in our projected
integral future,
in this eco-political body
of spirited
natural Earth,
Birthing
and dying,
regenerating
and degenerating,
easing
and diseasing,
healthy
and pathological,
good humored
and bad hearted,
Unconsciously contemplating,
co-template-recreating
cooperative memorable days
and deep matriotic nights.
There is only integrity
of time’s potential,
regenerative
more life enlightening
than degenerative,
death darkening,
disintegration
entropic,
absence of integrity.
There is only health
of Earth’s potential,
regenerative wealth
more empowering
than impoverishing, punishing
diseased,
uneased,
absence of ease,
nonviolent spirited peace
restoring spiraling natured justice.
Ego forms into a spoke
person’s vocation
As eco-political wisdom
flowers form a wheel.
Ego
is to left brain universal dominance
as unitarian eco-habitat
is to elder right hemisphere prominence.
Ego
is to internal wealth
as cooperative Economics
is to external health.
Ego
healthy roots
from resonant compassion,
co-enlightenment;
EcoSystems
wealthy flower
in resilient communion,
co-empowerment.
Ego
is to power of day
as Eco
is to moonlight’s
fluid night.
Ego
is to patriarchal Yang
as Eco
is to womanist Yin.
Ego
is to competitive,
yet integral, Truths
as Eco
is to cooperative Beauty.
Ego
is to dance
as Eco
is to music.
What are differences
and similarities
between suspicion
and superstition?
One seems rooted in natural
and sinister
causes.
The other in spiritual
and ambiguous
pauses
and becauses.
Although suspicion
could be about grace,
causes of anonymous compassion,
yet of a physical
and natural
source–
Probably not metaphysically
spiritually
resourced.
Whether suspicions
and superstitions
are of negative
or positive
or ambiguously curious intent,
may have more to do with what we can hold
and invite
with an open hand
and mind
Than what we feel we must grasp
and autonomously own;
extract from living Earth
for mere ego-serving purposes.
What differences
and similarities
co-arise
between anxiety
and anticipation?
What are differences
and similarities
between being a spoke
and becoming an organic part
of a revolutionary wheel
revisioning 20/20 climate climax
An ambiguous
tipping pointed health legend
for global regenerations
of wealthy superstitions.
Communion does not approach dawn
to vilify our most public egotistic victims
and predators.
Who would it help
to dismiss, with terrifying labels,
iconic
reproductions of sacred history?
But, global legends
contain lessons
for our interdependent
deep cultural learning.
What is a Western Messiah,
an Eastern Bodhisattva?
A wise leader
who sacrifices personal health
safety
enlightenment
immediately transcendent empowerment,
on behalf of those left behind,
poor in spirit,
wounded in nature,
fractured in mind and body.
So, an AntiChrist
is self-serving,
a worshiper of mammon,
a capitalist pig,
if you prefer,
although this feels unfair
to the contented
peace-loving reputation
of healthy pigs.
An AntiChrist
would weigh the value
of personal
and corporate quarterly,
and annual,
and election term profits
more heavily
more selfishly
more anti-Christian
more anti-Islam
more anti-Buddha
more anti-peace
more anti-health
more anti-compassion
than the value of aging lives
most transparently vulnerable
to this post-millennial Virus.
No naturally healthy
and spiritually wealthy
and religious person,
whether disciple of Christ
or follower of Mohammed
or contemplative with Buddha
or ecofeminist as yin-faced Laotse,
could look
and listen
and feel
and think
with cooperative integrity
to discover restorative fruits
of the Holy Spirit
and/or indigenous HolyWind
in the Nationalist Republican
and narcissistic Capitalist Trump
administration
Competing against multicultural campaigns promoting
Love,
faithfulness to wealth of health,
hope for conserving Earth’s living safety,
gentleness,
kindness,
long-suffering patience,
goodness,
integrity,
meekness,
peaceful democratic compassion.
By our active love for Other,
for the immigrant,
the sinner,
the pagan,
for even those who are privileged
and intolerant supremacists
and bullies,
are we known as not AntiChrists.
None of us can prove
by salvific action
or fruitful compassionate deed
that we are redeemed Christians.
But all of us can disprove
by unhealthy degenerative divestments,
by selfish actions,
by pathological misdeeds,
by violent and intentionally misdirecting words,
that we are unredeemed AntiChrists;
Not that I believe Biden
and the not green and non-violent enough Democrats
are likely to invite,
much less multinationally enact,
the global healthy wealth Second Coming
of Earth’s peaceful rapture.
Health brings freedom to live
intentionally
resplendently
maturely
resonantly
integrally
regeneratively
compassionately
resiliently
kindly.
Freedom is personal,
but also social,
political
but also economic,
ecological
but also theological.
Health requires freedom from addiction
to beliefs:
Some people are born to rule
and own Earth,
while others are born to be serfs
and slaves,
laborers
and frightened/angry addicts.
Some people are born
to be born again,
while others are born
to be unredeemed,
idol worshipers,
poor,
sinners.
Some straight males are born to be White
Evangelical Supremacists,
while others are born
to be Other.
Some people are born to extract
from healthy Earth
as they choose to expand personal
and corporate materialistic “wealth”.
Others are born to be entertained by,
and sometimes envious of,
these violent stories
of capitalistic rape
and plunder.
Multicultural dreams of inclusive democracy,
expanding throughout all cooperative economic strata,
encompassing all politically engaged genders,
all nations and tribes,
all positive energy systems
to regenerate a global health network
of wealthy freedom
for all interdependent creatures
globally here below,
and those who fly,
and revolve,
and generate light
power
energy,
These are ancient
indigenous dreams
of non-addicted trust,
non-dualistic Truth,
polycultural free-trade outcomes
for EarthDwellers,
EarthPatriots
EarthLovers
EarthSabbath Worshipers.
Regardless of age
gender
race
left-brain dominant enculturation,
colonizing violent history,
capitalism’s win/lose supremacist games,
energy’s zero-sum secularizing theology,
degenerative ecological fears
and angry
unfree
fossil fuel addiction,
consumer-driven overpopulation,
lack of freedom to sleep safely,
to live healthy outside
in familial communion
with Original Sacred EcoFeminist Earth,
etc.
The Dali Lama,
born to sainthood?
a view I doubt he would support,
says his religion is kindness.
Perhaps his spirituality
resonantly respects EarthMother’s kindness
and unkindness–
much easier to do outside
than inside a dimly addictive
unfree temple.
Interesting
that Christian theologians
have traditionally agreed
God is unchanging
Because steadfast in love,
loyal in omnipresence,
faithful to omnipotent powers,
all with regenerative intent.
Yet Eastern philosophers
look at these same healthy
safe
empowering traits of Earth’s complex
cooperative
regenerate nature,
and see,
and/or hear,
organically sense,
this universal enlightenment
unveils a metaphysical reality
of sacredly relentless Change.
God is as unchanging
as transient thoughts
and feelings of complex compassion,
responding to Nature’s strength
through flexibility,
unconstant evolution
through constant revolutions of Earth
and all Her interdependent Tribes,
Forms,
Functions,
Flow.
Western patriarchal
capitalistic concern
about a changing God of love
and retributive justice
and unEarthly peace
in a rapturous Heavenly future
may include issues of confusion,
miscommunication
between Nature’s complex cooperative Relationality,
and secular Theories of Relativity.
If everything is relative
to everything else,
then morality,
health,
safety of unchanging natural
and spiritual principles
become shifty,
unreliable,
unpredictable,
potentially dissonant,
evil,
degenerative,
pathological,
dissociative,
terrifying,
terrible
more than terrifically co-relational,
cooperative,
loving,
uniting through mutual flexibility
more than uniform
through unchanging orthodoxy.
But, Eastern nondualistic theory
is rooted in multicultural nonviolent experience
of fluid Relationality,
compassionate cooperativity
of constant win/win healthy natural change
which does not suggest nihilistic chaos
of space v time
or mass v energy
Instead,
constant nuanced regenerative relationship
of time equals space-cubed proportionality,
Zero polyphonic energy
regenerating One
polypathic co-relational Universe
Naturally within
and spiritually surrounding
Earth’s constant/correlative
enlightening co-empowerment.
“The key to finding a happy balance
in modern lives
is simplicity.”
Sogyal Rinpoche, Tibetan Book of Living and Dying
A health wealthy key
to finding empowering balance
is synergetic simplicity.
Cooperation is simple
where competition is more complex.
Synergy restores peace;
dissociative energy punishes past injustices.
Complex synergetic patterns are beautiful;
chaotic entropic enervation is darkly dissonant.
Synergetic simplicity invites integrity;
capitalistic competitions consume
and produce self v other unraveling.
Integrity empowers further courageous curiosity;
dissonance disturbs past aggressive discouragement.
A wealthy health power
exploring integrity
embraces compassionate simplicity.
Growing up in twentieth century USA,
without a recent immigrant history,
nor a Native American indigenous heritage,
just another in-between victim
of Straight WesternWhite Male privilege,
I recall a smirky fuss
about Eastern mind/body connection,
pseudo-science,
nondual
nonviolent
inscrutable
paradoxical
unrealistic philosophy,
meditation as if medication.
It did not occur to me,
in my enthusiastically extractive
and exhausting youth,
that in the East,
Buddhist and Taoist teachers
might have indulged
in a smirky fuss
About Western mind v body disconnection,
secular science severed from sacred arts,
dualistic divine spirit v corrupt nature theology,
just war theories
rooted in retributive justice theory
instead of restorative peace experience;
body medication
without mind meditation.
In my more enthusiastically inclusive
and creative-tensioned age,
it occurs to bicameral mindbody me,
that Eastern ecosystemic connection
is also Western ego-recentering compassion,
experienced by Left-dominant hemispheres
as felt by Right-prominent
mind/body biospheres,
Searching for why binomial structures
religiously emerge from organic co-relational nomials,
dynamic spirit/natured variables,
inside/outside co-determinate sociables,
analogy,
theological ecology.
Polynomials,
western polypathic autonomous variables
and eastern polyphonic relationships,
Earth double-binding polyvagal dancing bodies
wrapped around,
and developing through,
revolving polymorphic minds
equally not not polynomially independent,
free,
liberated,
communal saints
and divided sinners.
Wake up grumpy
tired
much older than yesterday.
Day fifty-seven,
an irrationally
not nice
non-round number,
since defiantly challenging daughter,
with the contextual right-brain unhealthy intelligence
of a sociopathic alligator,
last came home from school
or anywhere without me.
Remembering her school’s response
when I suggested her six-hours-per-day aide
five days per week
not be switched out every week
or two.
She doesn’t do well with transitions
including interpersonal change,
lack of power to control
a significant Other’s time
to stay
and go.
While aware this is an issue,
their larger concern was burn-out.
Aides couldn’t tolerate the intensity
of her hostility
and constant need
need
need for attention,
for food,
for distraction,
for action,
for…
Wondering how the best of her school supporters
would feel after 228 consecutive
six-hour shifts
Without any supervisor
capable of reassuring me
or him
or her
or them
or us
of how many more to go
without adequate social distancing
within our lumpy quarantine space.
No possible reassurance
or warning
we’re just getting started,
about to end,
over the hump,
or not so much,
actually.
Perfect.
Definite only about feeling humped out
and jumped in
lack of ease,
sucked out potential for unguarded rest.
Feeling sorry for myself,
yes,
but also for her,
and for all of us
who have taken risks
to give long-term care
where receiving care in response
is not a reasonable
or compassionate
expectation of hope-filled ways,
faithful truths,
loving lives
Quietly waking up grumpy
in unsolidarity
unsolitary confinement.
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