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Seasoned Health Reasons

We could widely perceive reasons
for healthy win/win spiritual relationships
and deeply feel seasons
developing wealthy cooperative natural sacraments
growing nutritional food
and natural fuel
and nurturing fertility

Becoming therapeutic fruit
of nonviolent communion
when ego traumatized nature
let’s co-passionately go

Of ancient AnthroSupremacist
monotheistic Capitalist
win/lose degenerative
zero-sum games

Condemning all sacred life networks
to ecocidal lose/lose death

Of Golden Ruling Gaia,
blue/green revolutionary
birthing deep round wombed empowerment
fertilized by richly robust
solar-seasoned
polyculturally polypathic
panentheistic health wealth experience

Deep inside peaking
and wide outside valleyed
ego/ecofeminist depolarizing
spiritual-reasoned/natural-seasoned
health-wealthy economic enlightenment,
ecologically nutritional
empowering
co-invested

So MeWe can widely perceive reasons
for healthy win/win relationships
and deeply feel seasons
of wealthy cooperative sacraments
growing polycultural food
and polypathic fuel
and polyvagal fertility
and polyphonic fantasy.

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Claustrophobic Center

Much has been felt
then written
about loneliness at the top

Less written,
yet perhaps far more often felt,
about claustrophobia in the center.

Problems with delegation,
boundaries,
predictable timelines,
responsive management focus,
follow through performance,
competitions to be heard
listened to
appreciated

Nonviolent calm
peace,
by contrast,
invites resiliently harmonic
win/win expansive
sublimely integrating
synergetic intention,
anticipation
slowly pushing out
and fading rabidly frenetic
anxiety,
chronic stress,
unmitigated win/lose trauma histories.

Integrity’s potential,
and not universal win/win perfectionism,
delivers resonantly happy,
wholesome,
healthy,
contented wealthy outcomes,
ecologically reconnected
with mythos
and eros
and ethos
and aesthetics
of panentheistic Paradise Promised

Is not perfectly comprehensive control
of a punishingly comprehensive
self and other governance system
felt as loneliness
near a constantly threatened
egocentric top

Of a patriarchal
capital-infested
win/lose zero-sum monopoly game
of Seize My Autonomous Day

Without unconditional regard
for EgoSelf as primal mentor
of what we look like,
versus what we feel like,
at the top of our AnthroPrivileged lives
without perfect GoldenRule encircling love.

A healthier democratic trust
for expansive EarthTribe circles
of co-empathic investment
may outdoor ease
our anxious indoor claustrophobic disease
fearful of disappointing
both authority figures
and our relentlessly needy constituencies

Angry at loss of privacy,
settling for less than sacred communion experience
within EarthTribe’s full sung range
of polycultural voices

Multiculturing choices
to feel and grow better,
healthier,
safe wealthier together
than dancing,
singing solo apart

On a stage
with a too bright ego spotlight
narrowly glaring at my own soul-embodied
godlike protagonist

Either against my own claustrophic circle
of followers
or standing alone at the supremely pompous top
of those already Othered
and thereby lessened–
followers,
sheep,
rather than cooperatively informed collaborators
steeped in Earth’s sacred
indigenous wisdom
and Sun’s enlightened
whole open systemic focus.

I suppose integrity’s co-empathic potential
for both/and nuanced
warm inviting cooperative regard
might be a contagiously viral
win/win alternative ecofeminist view

Anticipating cooperatively re-integrating
re-connecting
ecological mythic enrichment
of epic Here/Now
epistemological Body/Mind
eternal Life/Love
curiously interdependent Truth/Beauty
restoring Mundane/Sacred
bicamerally balanced
Paradise Lost

In EarthTribe wounded circles,
traumatized,
but not yet broken

While much has been autonomously felt
then written in self-isolation
about uneasy loneliness at the top
and diseased dismay
in a viciously shrinking circle
of traumatic climate despair.

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Blank Page Syndrome

Blank page syndrome
feels like full page longing
to be done with some work project
that will not slowly grow worthy
of my time
and certainly no captivated reader.

I feel victimized,
tortured, actually,
by blank page syndrome

Where I want to feel some opening
and rewarding opportunity
and not dull risk
of further unnoticed failure
to richly
and wisely communicate
warm and wild communion.

My blank pages
demand content
spilled across blue horizontal lines
with a red left side vertical
demanding

Demarking where orderly thought correctly begins
to unfold top left
unfurling cause effectively
sequentially
toward right bottom

Yet Left dominance
overpowers Right feelings prominent
circling and recycling
whirling and spinning
spiraling out of win/win control
re-membering risks
of nontransparent failure
falling brawly short
of both peaceful Truth
and vulnerable Beauty.

Yet a bleakly black blank canvas
with no red
or blue bicameral communion rules
or tools
feels most frightening
intimidating of all
unbalanced
anthro-privileged
vaporous calls

My
“I can’t draw,
or sketch,
or paint,
or write,
or sing,
or dance,
or speak out woke”

Can’t preach
or teach inside voices
ignoring outside echoing choices
to evoke
childish dreams,
daydream schemes
to become Earth’s greatest love
of blank paged warm regard
for how we flew
and walked
and swam
and grew to Here embodied
meets Now compassioned mind

Greatest
deepest
widest
trusted EarthBeauty
dipolar co-arising
all scared yet sacred Time’s unfolding

Win/Win regenerative
peaks and valley sand
defining ecstatic
aesthetic lines
refining intimate circling graced spaces
etched throughout
neuro-systemic elegant
multigenerational potential

Not not synergetic journeys
deeply and widely
back and forth
out and inside
polyculturing communion

While staring at this straight lined
and otherwise white privileged
square-cut manufactured page

Holding my green health hope
and content contented circling pen
praying for worthy inspiration.

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EarthBeauty Passions

To follow our most transparent Light
To lead the most deeply vulnerable Soul
To accompany Beauty’s most trusted Bright

This compassionate communication quest,
like positive psychology’s best
and whole open systemic theories
about all our most synergetic rest

Resists negative
prejudicial
Retributive Judgment
of EgoSelves and EcoOthers

While positively promoting
TransParency
and VulnerAbility.

NonJudgment,
like NonViolence,
feels far weaker
than positive healing communication powers
of ComPassion.

Yet ReStorative CoPassions
do not seem to co-arise
to the enlightenment potential
of TransParency
or the empowering powers
of VulnerAbility.

This potentially positive Trinity
feels like an almost Holy
Whole
Holonic Triune Truth

Like Yellow sunlight’s TransParency,
Love’s Blue oceans of deep rooted
nurturing
VulnerAble panentheistic Soul,
Luscious Red flaring flames
of passionate EarthBeauty

Perhaps ComPassion
is less about humane contentment
and more about divine Beauty,
red-blooded EarthPatriotic Joy
enthusiasm
vitality
viral win/win contagion,
peak sensory-sexual experiences,
red skies of dawn’s climate vulnerable warming
warning
AND dusk’s multiculturally transparent delight

Invoking PolyCulturing CommunioNations
in a more tripartite egalitarian wisdom
full spectral communicating with,
and for, Beauty
Transparency
Vulnerability

And the greatest of these
is the Beauty of all three
redefining a Whole Open Communal Spectrum

Extravagant
exotic
erotic
intricate
intimate
infinite
sensuous
sensory
incendiary
incomprehensible
ecstatic
elegant
handsome
handfulls
of gorgeous nonviolet
win/win conversive
lose/lose reversive
vulnerably restorative
transparentylregenerative
EarthParadise Passion.

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A Year Ago

About a year ago,
as the COVID pandemic
seemed to subside,
then swell,
happily ebb
and yet impatiently flow

About a year ago
I was noticing cold autumn nights
bringing first frost
to my metal windowframes
and to my post-surgery tired back
and neglected aging heart.

Outside corner unit 315
my view to the south
of brownfield industrial waste
not salvaged
when converting this condo place
to residential co-invested space.

Outside all our interior doors,
a CommonsGrace ignored
for at least a decade of degeneration
now accelerating divestment
by investors seeking rental profits

And also by resident owners
who could not feel certain
that others felt shamed
by a stained
and torn carpet,
elevators that sometimes worked,
cracked and vaporously blind windows,
dilapidated doors,
impending rot
and gloom
and financial doom.

Now
a year later
our parking place
awaits demolition,
to become hauled away
dismissed
disposed of,
further disgraced,
to be repurposed
refaced
in some future highway
graveled trace.

A year later
our communication grace
is in transition
from feeling alone
victimized by our own hired hands
and by our Commons Governors
indulging an economy of capital scarcity,
patriarchal politics
of executive privilege,
an implied theology
of StraightWhiteMale
monotheistic exceptionalism,
as if godly wisdom comes down
only from an enlightened professional high,
and not from within
our sacred ecofeminist administrators
teachers
mothers
grandmothers
sisters
at least as swell.

Co-invested in cooperative
win/win resolutions,
ecologically reconnecting EarthCare constitutions,
health and safety non-prostitutions,
Yang strong and Yintegral flow
of bicamerally balancing institutions,
mindbodies for longterm healthy democracy,
transparent bilateral trust

Nonviolent communicators
cooperatively planning
and priority budgeting
to heal our side-by-side loneliness
by reconnecting cooperative care
for EarthTribe Wisdom:
a formerly healthy
polyculturally wealthy
sacred planet,
a multiculturally inviting property
for growing edible and ornamental plants
and health-minded wealth-embodied people,
enlightened LeftBrain strong and vital
empowering RightBrain co-empathic flow
of root
and gut
and sacred peak experience feelings

While planning not just to survive
our individual autonomous lives
but also to thrive
through EarthCare
for at least another 7-Regenerations
of healthier healing LeftBrain
ecological co-relations
and safer sacred RightBrain
panentheistic
EarthMatriarchal
co-empathic re-connections.

Our individual victim histories
of patriarchal-capitalism
now repurposed
to help heal our co-invested residential experiences
with PolyCultural Communion,
rejoining planet Earth’s great transitioning
climate of health and safety enterprise

Rather than hiding in self-judgment
and Othering shame
for moving in
to unhealthy and unsafe
historic property demise.

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Bruising Words

Words too often have rough edges,
bloody histories,
lines more defined
than relentlessly imaged cliffs,
worshipping sacred sunlight shades
of high hazards

Coveted risks
more than needed opportunities
to hard wall wail against wild creations
unmoved by words
without animated calling
longing
belonging
or wooing wilderness

Offending worded weapons
seducing well-schooled tools

Sounds with edges
and without

Opening and closing
edgeless sighing pause

Slowly awaiting surf’s slow
slurried
soft
slavish turn
to reach for shores
absorbing thoughtless
sand-grained
edges.

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Grave Feelings

I rediscover organic errors
hidden in co-gravitating
love language.

Gravity is easily noticed
as Apple falling toward Earth;
less visibly conscienced,
experientially remembered,
as co-gravitational
co-relational intent

As Apple’s ego-gravity core
falls drawn toward sacred Earth’s
Mothering womb
smothering tomb
once more
returning toward deeply divine
anthrosupremely verbal
overpowering EarthTribe core gravitas soul
slowly soaring
back down and out
into globally nutritional
seasonally appropriate
co-invested ecological
co-operative 7-regeneration
co-investment

From which this same sacred
co-gravitating Apple
dialectically
binomially
bilaterally
double-binary
co-empathically
historically
polyculturally potentiated

Organic life loves
win/win love
is not lose/lose
not not hate

Against continuously emerging
win/lose further obvious irresolutions

Like why we know Yang 1 Positive
dipolar co-gravitates
with Yintegral 0 Negative

Yet does not oppositionally
defiantly ignore
positive polynomial language
statements
events
narratives

Co-gravitating equitably Yang 1 Positive
balanced with not not Yintegral 0-squared

P=NP appositional
but not oppositional,
at least and at best,
not yet
[N] enthymematic multicultural
Both/And’s “not yet”

Not cogravitating dissonance disorder
climate stress
community exceptionalism distress
childhood win/lose stressors
wounds
losses
chronic anxiety

Not not P
unveils integrity’s potential
both/and right hemisphere
secular/sacred EarthMother
indigenous nondualistic wisdom
of integrity’s co-passioning
universal potential passion

When P also embraces
Left Hemisphere’s Patriarchal Capital
co-gravitating memories
of mountainously enlightening SunGod
erupting Win/Win
polynomially holistic Communion
Creolization
TranSubstantiation

Deeply empowering Right Hemisphere’s
dualdark immortal EarthMother soul
womb
tomb
soil
gloom
EarthTribal co-gravitating
absorbing
emerging future healthcare
regeneration
revolution

Gravitates toward gravitas
wellness-seasoned wealth
integral P=(N)NP

Polypathic Yang 1+
redefines, refines
(N)P not-0 exponential
indigenously wise GoldenRule
co-relational win/win
is not win/lose,
Both/And dipolar co-gravitation
is more than Either 1 Or 0 bipolar
intelligence

Co-gravitating win/win co-operative
Humane-Infant/Sacred-EarthMother

Original CoGravitational Win/Win Attachment
is not Original Lose/Lose Detachment Sin

Against Ego/Earth double-gravitating
decontextualized absence
of resilient co-gravitas peak experiences
with bicameral Yang/Yintelligence

Rediscovering LeftBrain dominant
Either/Or reductive Win/Lose errors
hidden in co-gravitating
RightBrain Both/And
language of dipolar co-arising
passion mountains
and deep [Not] not valleys.

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Riding Sixties Shotgun

I was in the shotgun seat
in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed straight as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
hunting down our commercial whitebread
heavenly ThriftMart,

Wanna be a WalMart
but not Southern enough,
somehow,
to withstand straight-male competition
in fluent White Privileged culture
favoring evangelical
monotheistic
monoculturing AnthroSupremacists

Kinda like
patriarchal-capitalist
anal-retentive pathological trauma
homophobic nature v panentheistic erotic spirit
kinda unenlightened Left unhealthy
and disempowered Right unsafe colonizing wealth
win/lose hoarding
apartheid community trauma dissociative
chronic supremacist anxiety disorders
degenerating unhealthy inside whites only classrooms
contrasting this all black and brown summer outside classroom
feeling shared healthier and safer hearts.

School would soon reopen.
We were on our way to buy
back to school
shirts and jeans,
and whitey tighties
and Elvis Presley-worthy
and 3rd grade new classmate
Arturo Hernandez
disturbing white T-shirts.

A warm August mid-western
urban day
for us white family farmers
traveling East
when a dark-skinned gorgeous boy
my same eight years of age
riding his bike
right out along a cracked
and broken
tree-lined sidewalk
with other kids around
playing hot hopscotch
near a sun-baked naked curb.

He looked over.

With my window down
I felt
and smelled
his shared fragrance
for a moment brown eye to blue
so improbably in love with
you
are who I was made for.

Maybe we could become
boyfriends
and then old-school married
naked together, sometime
someday
somewhere
by accident
discovering we both explore pleasure
favored with him brown-eyed beautiful above
and me under
blue-eyed wide ginger
passionate red-curly-headed
MeWe luscious
wrapped around his waist,
both wanting to give
and to conceive

As I can mostly missionary
dimly historically remember
sounds,
dim sight,
and fertile smell
when her egg
was open-whole systemically
fertilized by spraying Yangstrong
sperm informing
incoming
integral potentiating
seed
and feed
and breed
and bleed
and need
and divine peaking deed

He drove racing athletically
just to tie
our metallic bronze-skinned Ford
sedate, seats six, sedan
on his battered red bicycle
3-speed

His only helmet a handsome head
full fuzzy, yet glossy,
glistening in noon-day summer’s seismic sun,
crow-black
tight-curled
gracious gotta-touch it
play with
feel him

His warm wet scalp massaged,
his salty lips tasted,
his breath and nether sacred
dualdark parts
breathed in
absorbed
until my breath nearly stopped

Then he fell behind,
and was gone
until I met you

And there he was
this eight year old glamorous
brown-skinned boy
now grown
into his handsome thirties

Wanting me
to love him,
and only him,
to worship if I want,
as will he
in sacred
1/0 double-Taurus
1960’s HolySpirit co-passion
for playing only win/win peak hotness
co-governing robustly resonant
co-relations

Reparations
if you will
then so will I
GoldenRule give with you
what all StraightWhiteMale
patriarchal monotheists
would most fear
slatternly given away
in lust for men of color
in that unimageable
thighs spread needy open
way

LeftBrain dominantly win/lose
either/or zero-sum competitors
Left v Right polynomials
reweaving Left-with-Right bicamerals
polyculturing communion, not monoculturing competition,
creolizing, not colonizing,
cooperating, not hunting down
for a profitable military-industrial
LeftBrain dominant
ecopolitical kill

Not yet nightmarish anxious climate imagined
when I was eight years old
in our Ford’s shotgun seat
back in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed unstraight white
male as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
distracted by our up and outing
cold cash is sacred manna
ThriftMart.

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Omniscient EarthMother

Back in my fading youth,
when teenage peers
monopolized my only monotheistic worldview
we trusted
to emerge with matriarchal Beauty health
and patriarchal Handsome wealth,

I learned to speak,
at least in public,
as if I were omnipresently heard
by my gracious GrandMother

When we were both sharing
our best GoldenRule win/win day

And not our worst win/lose day
veering angry
and/or afraid
into another traumatizing lose/lose nightmare
of defiantly oppositional
and claustrophobic disorder

On my felt repressive part
and, on her sacred Elder part,
“Trying to talk some sense
into your empty head.”

Now, at the other
more grandmotherly
end of this long
emerging communion narrative,
I listen to sacred MotherEarth
before speaking
within Her sacred omniscient
indigenous wisdom hearing

As transgenerationally transparent
enlightened
and ecowomanist vulnerable
co-empowering

As win/win ego/ecosystemically possible
on this cooperatively co-invested best
GoldenRule day

Less perniciously haunted
by dark win/lose shadows
of last night’s lose/lose traumatic
patriarchal-capitalist
loner anger
lone ranger
rabid stranger
nightmares

Going way back
to my fading youth
when teenage peers
monopolized a monoculturing worldview
I never trusted
as sufficiently compassionate
for resilient EarthMother Beauty.

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Left Getting Right Off

“The left hemisphere’s assault on our embodied nature
is not just an assault on OUR bodies,
but on the embodied nature of the
[sacred EarthMother]
world around us.”
Iain McGilchrist, The Master and his Emissary, p. 440

The WhiteMale monotheistic privileged hemisphere’s attack
on regenerative co-passion
was already our unwell
under-enlightened Way
by time’s orgasmic peak ReGeneration.

With rising eroticism,
as might be sacredly anticipated
shifting balance bisexually in-between
right BeautyFull panentheistic Health
and left HandSum enthymematic
Holy Open Systemic Wealth

Growth in neuro-erotic feeling
sensual integrity’s surfing in
and out potential
peak transubstantiated co-passion

Not so much reciting LeftBrain dogma
and re-opening more sensual
sacred holonic,
panentheistic
holy worship
wonder
awe

By contrast with monotheism
equating homophobic White AnthroGod
with conserving ZeroSum competitive justice
against Both/And co-operative panentheists
feeling MotherEartha’s energy
empowering all integral
win/win erotic
exotic
quixotic
handsome informed Yang
beautiful outflowing Yintegrity
wu-wei sacred co-relationships.

Western white homophobic monotheists
decline their own panentheistic ecofeminist spirituality
denying monoculturing force
post-millennially decapitating

White patriarchal capitalism
withering emasculated away
with advancing global
panentheistic sacred synergy,
enthymematic secular awareness
inflaming climate anxiety
is neither healthy
nor safe
nor wealthy
nor compassionate
nor 1/0 sexy.

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