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Hold Me

Hold me.

Hold me one last time
within your strong brown arms
and red-blooded heart.

Hold me to your chest
so fierce with lovely loyalty,
warm inclusion
not yet chilled by my exclusion.

Hold me this one last time
remembering all our years
and glad times before

Shading from memory
aching days and nights alone
without passion’s touch
on skin
in heart
beneath belonging mind
longing to live more fully in this body
worthy of graced embrace.

Wrap your arms
and legs around me,
your breath
and sweat secure me.

Hold me one last time
before I go
where we cannot again
feel ourselves together
warm skin to warm
too thin.

Hold me for our love
and not our loss.

Hold me this one last time
forever.

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TransForm Nations

I’m not out to change my world
or yours,
but I do believe we are in this world together
to refine our cooperative health status,
to resolve our climate traumas
for more resilient economic relationships
and global politics of mind
and local body ecotherapies.

I am thinking of not even being in any more
for those who merely pray for climate peace,
as this is too anthropocene triggering for me.

I need commitments for active co-investment
inspired by cooperative co-passion pleasure,
not just any change,
not just competing
capital-infested
anthropocentrism,
but bipartisan re-visions
of unraveling irreligion
that is our sacred EarthBody Right
to resonantly liberate AnthroMind Left.

Keep your cultic rites of hero worship
to your cowardly self, please.
Show me some smart
compassionate political
cooperative economic
WholeEarth holy mind choices
and organically embodied plans
for extending therapeutic landscapes,
internally passionate and externally pleasing,
not more escalating heated climate exchange
but revolutionary resonant refinements
of polyculturing synergetic embodied health,
multiculturing democratic mindful wealth.

I’m not out to change the sacred world;
I am totally in for healing organic Earth
born of and dying for all reconnecting
organically polytheistic
climatically co-impassioned
peak re-ligious experience
regenerators.

Earth’s multiculturally animated Tribes and Species,
polytheistically formed
interdependent love systems
and polyculturally reformed
EarthOrganic life networks
regenerating healthy democratic principles
of resonant EarthBody symphonies
and resilient AnthroMind sympathies.

I’m too old for more mindless apartheid competitions
and yet never too young for more mindful co-passions
of sacred MotherTree enlightened
organically empowering
crown/root co-intelligence.

I’m not out to change you or me
but I’m in for restoring healthy relationships
with ecosystemic We
within peopled neurosystemic me,
with sacred EarthTribe
within our co-passionately pleasing
blue-green peace full wealthiest Home.

Don’t talk to me about reform
repentance
revenge
restoring law and order
until you reveal how you have managed
owned
transformed your personal corporal carbon co-investments
in EarthMother’s economic and political campaigns
to revive how our future together
might thrive a more global 1/(0) cobinary carbon footprint
as a regenerative +AnthroMind/-(-)EarthEmBodied
neuro-sacred/eco-organic
compassionate/co-pleasing
bicamerally co-intelligent species,
instead of a tedious Business As Usual
traumatically overpopulating
degenerative
falling apart race toward autocratic hate.

We’re an anthro-evolving teapot
long and thin.
Egos are our handle
whole EcoEarth our spout,
sacred ecology spiraling out.

When we get all steamed up
LeftEgo’s brain shouts liberally down
while Tipping EcoRight positions recover in
healthy life forms
wealthy love flows
liberation out
conservation in

Not out
to change our world,
while growing faith we are in
this sacred EarthTribe
organically together.

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Tao of Healing Peace

Which comes first?
asked Justice Sage
of Peaceful Muse

Divinely inspired Peace
or Humanely expired Passion?

For amusing organic bodies
inspiring sage minds
perspiring pronoia purposes

While DivineSage minds
worship HumaneMuse bodies
anticipating deep sacred meanings

Unveil organic unitarian Muse purposes
flowing toward
prevailing universal sacred Sage meaning
peace forms

Pronoia Gaia’s hypothetical paradox
Gnostic God’s metaphysical orthodox

How could SageMind remember anticipating
organically resilient purpose
without MuseBody religiously conjoining
sacredly resonant meaning?

Why would democratically organic bodies
reproduce belonging
autocratically sacrilegious minds
seduce longing

For sacred AnthroSage inspiring Peace
love songs refueling
Organic EarthMuse perspiring Passion
justice dances restoring

Which sacred longing first
comes organic belonging last?
asked peace perspiring MuseBody
inspiring SageMind passions.

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Powers of Enlightenment

I’ve noticed our Republic’s
IrReligious RightWing Tree of Life v Death
reacts to root-systemic problems
as if oak strong branches
lifted to majestic worshiping heights
of crowning supremacy
need not be concerned
with watering
and feeding democratic roots
of nutrition
nursing organic trust
and nurturing EarthMother empowerment.

Such behavior feels less organically intelligent
than a sacred Tree of MotherEarth

More like a gang
of Bully Putin Pulpits
and capital addicted TrumPublican Puppets
with upset expansive stomachs,
boundlessly hungry eyes
and private paranoid parts,
and irritatingly irreligious deaf ears

Trying to feed
from entitled top,
trickling down to lowly
leftover
humiliated bottoms,
what we must primally breed
and seed
from deep down
communing democratic trust inside

Roots musing down
and communicating in
to feed organic communion up
and sacred community out

Conserving crown to root neurological tree-systems
resonantly nurturing
harmoniously liberacious crowns
both/and
win/win
organic/sacred
resiliently conservational root systems
interdependently
inter-religiously
empowering/enlightening communion.

Not quite so angry
with enfeebled branched-out leaders
and not mad
with anemically sad internal conspiracies
and bad dis-investment habits
rather than glad co-investment skills

for resolving which top bully,
devouring all challenger bullies,
will next be crowned King
of trauma-riddled TrumPublican triumph

Trumped-up singing:
It’s my party
and you’ll cry
when I want you to.

Meanwhile
democratic grassroot systemic wisdom
burns and blows
drowns and starves

Degenerating patriarchal migraines
and not regenerating grains
of deep-rooted integrity

to feel multicultural health
trust
truth
beauty
pleasure
wisdom
compassion
loving kindness
pronoia peace

courageous polycultural curiosity
about interweaving wisdom
of inter-religious root systems.

Liberating resonant crowns
and conserving resilient roots,
bipartisan integrity of a wealthy
healthy
EarthMothered Tree.

Or so it seems to me
noticing our disunited Republic’s
troubled Tree of CrownHeavy Life
reacting against healthy multicultural democracy

Deaf
to wilderness voices of dying forests
coral reefs
oceans
topsoil
shrinking polar caps
glaciers
rivers

EarthMother’s unenlightened crown of thorns
and disempowering trunk of sorrows,
man-privileged monotheistic
irreligiously and monoculturally wrong
ecocidally desecrating
anthropocentric maladaptive root-trauma

cannot resiliently support
TrumPublican crown drama.

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ReCentering Domestic NonViolence

This brisk, sunny March morning, I return from delivering my son to his adult daycare van.

Upon opening The Norwich Times, I delight to read the new Center for Safe Futures “will be taking a huge step forward in how well we can serve the growing number of our neighbors who need help with domestic violence…”

After reading the article, I am delighted about this significant half-step toward a more integrated and holistic service structure to improve safety and well-being outcomes for victims and survivors of violence, assault, stalking, physical and verbal hate-crime abuse, black-market sale pricing for using powerless and unheard and unseen and uncared for human bodies commodified to provide third party capital profits, and other disturbing forms of predative trauma.

Violently polarizing drama threatens trust in neighborhood-felt survival, and our civil, compassionate community thrival, every time we hear, and, god forbid, exhaustively watch depressing, national history-making news brought to us by our uncivil, wounded and wounding retributive criminal justice systems; uncaring, unhealthy, and certainly not holistic empowerment systems for nonviolent reconciliation.

My colleagues on the Norwich Youth, Family, and Recreation Advisory Board have become used to my eagerness to celebrate half-steps toward win/win strategic restorative peace while simultaneously sternly reconsidering our missing nonviolent communication step away from retributive win/lose justice systems. World wide webs pitching prey against predator, cultivating my despair about polarizing dissociative drama rooted in divisive demonizing trauma systems that do not empower resilient health and safely resonant domestic wealth.

Down near the bottom of the first front-page column I read, “Service providers and community partners will work together to break the [systemic trauma] cycle of violence and abuse.” Wow! Now this is an unexpected good news mission statement!

On second thought, it does echo messianic scriptured messages about the Christian Prince of Peace’s salvific mission, and that, so far, feels like an aging, poor in spirit, and increasingly despairing half-empty step toward downsizing EarthJustice expectations for global nonviolent peace and justice.

In my wild decaffeinated morning meditations, this eagerly anticipated aspiration, to break the win/lose bonds of systemic trauma, reminds me of a huge covenant change proposed for discussion at All Souls UU, in New London.

“We covenant to dismantle racism and all forms of systemic oppression.” I wonder how we would practice such powerful “Beloved Community” passion. How could our faith communities help break the vicious cycle of violence, abuse, and emotional neglect fueling neurosystemic trauma?

Perhaps Restorative Justice and Peace Reconciliation practices of nonviolent communication could empower transparent and vulnerable dialogue between defendants and predators, so often brought together and stuck together by addictive codependence–which feels safer, and economically healthier than aching loneliness, emptiness, hopelessness, despair of punishment, shame, blame, Othering judgments that we do not merit unconditional warm regard.

My own therapeutic feelings of hope, informed by Multicultural Community Mediation, focusses on safer and healthier and emotionally wealthier compassionate relationships. Empowering intention and win/win designed retention I cannot find in this article. It misses a redemptive half-step that could prophetically declare we will not tolerate the “vengeance is mine” heresy that perpetuates future victimization. Excommunication brought to us by judicial and police systems inciting weaponized trauma among those voted least likely to succeed by disassociated peers.

Is it reasonable to hope this Center for Safe Futures, and all the best intervention and prevention practices advertised by an expanding Family Justice Center model may be fully baptized in the peace-making waters of Restorative Justice?

Will domestically healthy and safe mission statements survive the ribbon cutting to become resiliently saved from past systemic trauma sins of our Straight White Patriarchal fathers?

I guess I’m still waiting, as my acidic coffee stomach turns cold with impatient curiosity, for some other brilliantly brighter good news front-page article announcing the multiculturally grand virtues of neurosystemic trauma-informed therapeutic projects to ReCenter Healthy Bodies and Safe Mind Wellness Futures.

Compassionate futures that restore virtuous communion circles of therapeutic repair–and not viciously retributive, accountability trauma hierarchies continuing to promise more efficiently enlightened from-above services, still half-stepping toward managing a universally disunitarian pandemic of dissociative despair.

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Tao of Resilience

Better together
than falling apart.

Inside I sigh
between sad traumas,
mad bad dramas
fading together
when not
not
not thought and felt glad

Better left together
than falling
falling
falling right wing apart

Outside we cry
for health balanced justice
restoring wealth
amongst resilient us,
becoming enlightened
and left-right co-empowered.

Better communion together
healthier together
wealthier yang-strong union
together co-passionate becoming
learning
knowing
feeling

Better together
than falling
falling
failing Sun’s spirit
reversing Earth’s nature,
bright light
slighting shadow showers
of EarthTribe powers,
roots failing
despairing apart

Inside against outside
ego against eco…
apartheid

Returns better together
better inside together
better outside together
than falling inside
against outside
apart.

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Morning Rounds

I woke up this morning
wondering where I was last night
when this morning,
a glint in my mind,
before wandering how I last got home
here from last night
again

Hoping
without probable gumption
maybe if I figured transport out
and in
I might have a clue about why
I woke up yesterday morning
wondering where I would end up last night

And just before last night’s end
when this morning couldn’t yet answer
any endtime circling questions
I wondered how I arrived
at this tomorrow
differently
and the ecocidal same

Approaching win/win play
and avoiding win/lose AnthroSupremacist work

Before becoming fully present
to yesterday’s disempowering promise
once curiously engaging
resilient win/win more

Sacred listening nighttime deeper
and multicultural trauma-prevention
daylight wider
long-term cooperative
co-invested ego resilience
following my most resonant
win/win sacred ecosystemic
re-entry Tao of brilliant
nonviolently communicating
inside/outside balance

Of morning rounds
perilously in-between lose/lose
nightmare traumatic despair
and win/win delight
daytime therapeutic repair.

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Orthodox Experiences

I was bruised by dogmatically non-evangelical
Christ monotheistic Jehovah judgmental bad faith
of divine powers
equally entitled
to generously create love
and selfishly act out of jealousy
divine punishment for unfaithful sins
of worship omission
and secularizing commission

Prescribed by the inspired
and kleptocratically negotiated
Greek
and Latin
and English transubstantiations
of AnthroSupremacist visions
speaking
and singing
and dancing
in white male dominant translations

Royal capital is holy
next to divine monopolistic inspiration
of presumably omniscient sacred values
captured by scribes
and conserved by councils
of presumably straight white orthodox
literate males
representing ecclesial royalty

Featuring Jewish Saul
turned Christ Active Revivalist Paul
writing self-governance purification letters
suggesting that ecclesial rituals
of a polytheistic sensual nature
are the opposite
of our most monotheistic spiritual
yet HolySpirit EarthMatriarchal mindful
sacred panentheistic experiences.

I am also more metaphysically resonant
as a YangNatural/YinSpiritual co-passion Taoist
believing through deep listening
to my (and possibly our)
deepest restorative regenerous justice
Yang/Yin co-operative communication intentions
throughout male/female co-investing reproductive
cause-effect linear days
and co-empathic
regeneratively resilient
lunar recircling nights

CoPassioning
yintegral humane sexuality
as our deepest,
highest
and best sacred sensory practice
positive synergy practice
health wealthing practice
till we get ourselves
Yang in and Yintegral out
depolarizing balance
resiliently Left/Right
co-empathic
resonant dialogical praxis

Bodhisattva
co-messianic
co-passionate Left/Right
internal/external communionation
practice
verbally positive thoughts
and metaphysical theories
about nonverbal healthy felt
nonviolent physical feelings.

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Growing Healthier Hopes

For measuring fleeting successes
of punishing policing justice,
we have overly relied on recidivism rates
in response to curiosity about
How to decrease crime.

For enjoying compassion
of restorative
healing justice,
we rely on win/win mediation
to grow deep resonance
and widely resilient integrity

In response to curiosity about
How to increase health
and safety
and happiness
locally egotherapeutic
and globally ecotherapeutic.

Retributive justice
fails a healthy and safe
wellness society
as it continues to punish
and excommunicate wounded
win/lose damaged criminals.

Meanwhile
community-based visions
for restoring wellbeing
equity
justice
become increasingly effective
and resilient
as parents
and teachers
and leaders
shift our victimization focus
from CRIMES, violent and/or financial,
to healing victims of TRAUMA

Personal
and systemic,
political
and economic,
locally genocidal
and globally ecocidal.

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Lessons Partially Learned

Parents
and teachers,
economic program
and social service leaders,
government administrators
and legislators,
listen up
and downstream

We too often act
and feel
the reverse is more quickly
and convenient
through rigid control,
or at least should
or could
or would like to be enlightened true
more than disempowering false:

Empowering cooperative ownership
arrives slowly
but resonantly
and more resiliently
through enlightened cooperative management
experience
and win/win resonant tenure

And not so much the other
entitled
and self-righteous
stress
and vindictive trauma
competitive way around
treading heavy capitalism’s survival
of the wealthiest
defeating thrival
of our healthiest
trusted ways abound
to cooperatively manage peace
that we would justly hope
to EarthTribe own
into safest perpetuity

A trusted indigenous wisdom franchise
to retrain
and re-educate parents
and teachers,
empower economic programs
and enlighten social service leaders,
self-governing cooperative administrators
and legislators,
listening up
and downstream
for cooperative management systems
supporting lives never autonomously owned
and always sacredly zoned
for interdependent trust

Empowering cooperative management
systems
for enlightened cooperative
organic network peace
and restorative justice
building
inviting
engaging
immersion

In win/win joyful play
all night
and day.

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