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Getting To Old

I often hear,
“It’s tough getting old.”

I never hear
“It’s tougher not getting old”
because, I suppose,
those who might have spoken
from personal experience
are no longer with us.

I am becoming too familiar
with aches
pains
losses
loneliness
of ageing alone

All of which invite
my thought,
“It’s tough staying old”

And happy
healthy
unconditionally prosperous
elder wise
mindful
fully engaged
compassionately warm
win/win resilient

Anticipating this sufficient day
more than anxious
about tomorrow’s losses
pains
solitary encroaching disabilities,
dark nights.

That said,
staying old
feels much easier
and lighter
and brighter
and curiously mightier
than fighting
vying
trying to stay young.

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EcoFeminist Wisdom Theory

I’ve been warmly remembering
your peak solidarity experience
shared joyfully

When you suggested
in a state-wide wisdom circle
that your cooperative advocacy circle
might feel more robust
and become more strategically
and resonantly effective

If and when
local communities more intentionally share
their current municipal Trauma Prevention challenges

And, in this ecocidal anthrosupremacist sharing,
invite restorative eco-justice co-investors
into a temporary circle of special project alliance
subcircles

So that local win/lose trauma issues
rise briefly,
and with local/state-WinWin co-empowerment intention,
to collective verbalized consciousness

Just as state and nation-wide governance issues
are now normatively communicated
down and out to diverse branches
to help describe
(not so much LeftBrain SWM dominantly prescribe)
what our state-wide alliance leaders
and policy experts
and natural/spiritual public well-being
ecopolitical resilience planning gurus
have prioritized
for cooperatively co-invested health
and sacred safety of MotherEarth.

Our most inclusive strategic priorities
for this next four green regenerative
nutritious
nurturing
satisfying
restoring cooperative EarthPeace seasons
of organic kindness growth
through healthy robust democracy
co-invested networks.

I have been noticing
how these up and down
in and out
co-operative
bilateral balancing hierarchies

Also co-passionately communicate
both at peak
and in local valley
toward win/win accomplished
nonviolent communicating
active-hope
resilient verbally-abled leaders
nonverbally experiencing co-invested
compassion

And also,
as you took an acceptable risk
and verbally LeftBrain suggested,
Also feedback from down
and out
toward other Win/Lose entrenched systems
of retributive eco-injustice
engaged, and frequently enraged,
co-passionately communionating
ecofeminist win/win strategic network hunters
and gatherers
togathering this state-wide sacred circle
for monoculturally predative Trauma Prevention
through healthier and safer
eco-resilience planning legislation

Which may feel like the warm co-invested
organic wisdom
of any nurturing
Elder cooperative MotherTree

Virtuously circling up from Her sacred grassroots
information to Her Yang-solidarity Trunk
Root NonZero
Whole-Organic Chakra Zone;

Also in reverse,
re-circulating radiant FatherSun in-formation
solar-bright deep Trunk seasonally enlightening
omniscient yintegral deep
locally embodied root-systemic meaning
both down and up
in and out
through to Her sacred
same Yang/Yin Trunk

Flowing Yintegral feelings
co-empathically down
toward that bicameral balancing network
root system 0-root chakra

Virtuously win/win recircling
bilateral ego-branch/eco-root network systems
leaf and seed recycling
bi-hemispheric co-operating
MotherTrees

Enlightening from-above sacred gifts
for empowering MotherEarth’s
rich fertile democratic soil
co-passionately co-invested
within cooperative Earth-network governance

Of Wisdoms’ virtuous win-up/win-down
healthy democratic
nonviolent circles
for ecopolitical co-governance,
branch and root
co-invested alliances
and project self-organizing sub-allied
resilient
and resonantly strategic co-investments

Trauma Preventive
strong and flowing
nonviolent-communion circles
yang-led and warm yintegral
liberal-peak branching
from conserving-valley
loving kindness roots
resonating Tao-governance circles

Warmly remembering
this peak solidarity experience
shared joyfully
after our last
state-wide alliance circle.

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Empowering LifeStories

What is the main difference
between the life time of a star
and your personal trauma history?

Could it be for you,
as for me?

How long we take
to get from regenerative beginnings
in dark caved holy humble
BlackHole wombs
to degenerative desecrations
and/or therapeutic inside/outside
resonantly peaceful
light empowering ends.

What is your main difference
between personal liberation
from inside traumatic deliberation
AND outside avoiding condemnation?

At all inhibiting costs to Self
prohibitive costs to Others
disposable property costs to sacred MotherTrees
and other indigenous
sentient
residential non-taxpayers

Not to become confused
with Trumpian
“Vengeance is StraightWhiteMaleCapitalist Mine!!!”
All Narcissistic Mine!!!!!!!!!
which is the white privileged noise
of a NON-indigenous
parasitic
residential non-taxpayer

Who does not know the main difference
between the life time of a star
and His monotheistic personal trauma history.

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Transition Town Time

It was E. B. White
who famously lamented

Waking each morning
feeling prevented
from improving
his worldview experience

Or waking each morning
feeling joy
for improvements made
during views of Earth
sacred smack in Her
other wise dead head
inexperience

Or something
probably not so involved
but with the same
missing the potential
for

Waking each morning
committed to enjoy improving
my co-invested worldview
sacred health-humored
wealth of experience.

But not in a preachy
judgment way,
more of a cosmic beauty
sacred green holonic
kinda open wholeEarth systemic
sort of win/win play

More trauma-informed
by advocates
for green cooperative
deep learning non-violent communication
ecofeminist EarthTribe Day
and Transition Town Time
for restoring resilient EarthJustice.

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Bottoms UpRising

Nothing grows naturally
or resiliently,
and certainly not perfectly,
from the top down
or from the outside in

Including pyramids
and sustainable nutrition economies
and healthy
organic
democratic systems.

Some things
that do grow virally
from outside in
and/or over-powering
top down:

autocracy
cancer
kleptocracy
pyramid schemes
viral colonies
capital expansionism
invasive species
toxicity
pollution
trauma

I once spoke at a condominium meeting
about cooperative democratic values
for self-governance

Advocating for transparent
and inclusive choicemaking

And grassroots community maintenance

And social
and skill-sharing events

Sweat-equity
and time/talent exchange
cooperative economies.

The condominium’s attorney,
whom the large majority of members
were about to terminate
along with the autocratic landlord
investor board chair
who hired him
to come to this annual meeting
and explain,
rationally
and legally,
why the residents could not do
what they wanted to do,
which was mainly to get rid
of him
and his organized trauma
straight-white-male Patriarch,

This smug condominium attorney
stood up
when I had finished
to lecture members
and correct me
about we actually do not live
together in a co-invested democracy;
we live in a from-above Republic.

He was slyly speaking
at both the local condo level
and the national corporate
capitalized Republican level

Because, he continued,
unit owners have elected leaders
given exclusive authority to vote on
governance issues
that the uninformed
and unelected laity
lack responsibility
(and possibly
StraightWhiteMale capacity)
to decide.

He misjudged his audience.

This republican authority from above
and from outside
power-over totalitarian business,
rather than power-within democratic empowerment,
was precisely the problem
this meeting had been organized
to resolve,
by democratic recall.

The attorney had his power analysis
backward.

If we are,
in our core
root residential membership
a healthy
and actively cooperative
win/win intentional
health-is-social-wealth
democracy FIRST
FOREMOST
FOUNDATIONALLY

The grassroots of our self-governance
are more likely to elect empowering
and enlightened republican leaders
with a resonant
and resilient
empowering within view
valuing transparency
and multicultural inclusion

For sustainable local
and global choice-making
from the integral
happy
synergetic
robust top

The celebrated envy
of all our benign
and collaboratively empowering
neighbors

Noticing with multicultural wonder
and polycultural awe
that nothing grows naturally
or resiliently,
and certainly not perfectly
or sacredly
or democratically,
from the top down
or from the outside in.

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A Year Ago

About a year ago,
as the COVID pandemic
seemed to subside,
then swell,
happily ebb
and yet impatiently flow

About a year ago
I was noticing cold autumn nights
bringing first frost
to my metal windowframes
and to my post-surgery tired back
and neglected aging heart.

Outside corner unit 315
my view to the south
of brownfield industrial waste
not salvaged
when converting this condo place
to residential co-invested space.

Outside all our interior doors,
a CommonsGrace ignored
for at least a decade of degeneration
now accelerating divestment
by investors seeking rental profits

And also by resident owners
who could not feel certain
that others felt shamed
by a stained
and torn carpet,
elevators that sometimes worked,
cracked and vaporously blind windows,
dilapidated doors,
impending rot
and gloom
and financial doom.

Now
a year later
our parking place
awaits demolition,
to become hauled away
dismissed
disposed of,
further disgraced,
to be repurposed
refaced
in some future highway
graveled trace.

A year later
our communication grace
is in transition
from feeling alone
victimized by our own hired hands
and by our Commons Governors
indulging an economy of capital scarcity,
patriarchal politics
of executive privilege,
an implied theology
of StraightWhiteMale
monotheistic exceptionalism,
as if godly wisdom comes down
only from an enlightened professional high,
and not from within
our sacred ecofeminist administrators
teachers
mothers
grandmothers
sisters
at least as swell.

Co-invested in cooperative
win/win resolutions,
ecologically reconnecting EarthCare constitutions,
health and safety non-prostitutions,
Yang strong and Yintegral flow
of bicamerally balancing institutions,
mindbodies for longterm healthy democracy,
transparent bilateral trust

Nonviolent communicators
cooperatively planning
and priority budgeting
to heal our side-by-side loneliness
by reconnecting cooperative care
for EarthTribe Wisdom:
a formerly healthy
polyculturally wealthy
sacred planet,
a multiculturally inviting property
for growing edible and ornamental plants
and health-minded wealth-embodied people,
enlightened LeftBrain strong and vital
empowering RightBrain co-empathic flow
of root
and gut
and sacred peak experience feelings

While planning not just to survive
our individual autonomous lives
but also to thrive
through EarthCare
for at least another 7-Regenerations
of healthier healing LeftBrain
ecological co-relations
and safer sacred RightBrain
panentheistic
EarthMatriarchal
co-empathic re-connections.

Our individual victim histories
of patriarchal-capitalism
now repurposed
to help heal our co-invested residential experiences
with PolyCultural Communion,
rejoining planet Earth’s great transitioning
climate of health and safety enterprise

Rather than hiding in self-judgment
and Othering shame
for moving in
to unhealthy and unsafe
historic property demise.

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Feeling Anxious

When I feel anxious,
threatened,
endangered by mortal loss
of an immortality
never organically promised
for perpetual pleasures of compassion,

When I feel anxious
aging toward permanent disability
before my Wise Elder fruition
returns to brain fog
from which I came
in embryonic form
and flow
and function,

When I feel anxious
about unmerited,
or,
even worse,
merited infamy
as my destiny
rather than fame
fortune
flowering time,
what do I need?
want?
crave for pleasure
purpose
practice
praxis
just protocol
performance
peace persistence
proper procedures,
and, perhaps,
sacred organic meaning?

When I feel anxious
do I need
deep verbal and non-verbal connections
to those who share a home
with still embodied me?

Do I want reconnections
with healthy neighbors
co-cultivating an intentional
conscious
aware
woke
win/win curiously active
healthy and safe
green eco-political community?
resiliently resonant communion?
co-passionate communication network?

Does my own internal RightHemisphere
need healthy and safe communion
while my own activist LeftHemisphere
wants to restore justice
through nonviolent communication
between multiculturally informed,
prescient win/win community mediators?

Do I seek fellow hearty
and healthy Me/We sighted
and cited
home-sited organizers?
committed, yet playful, musicians,
political poets,
cooperative co-investors
in healthy democracy
resilient
resonant
buoyant EarthTribe advocates
combining party lines
for win/win strategic thrival

When I feel anxious
do I also need
to solitary write
or sing and dance,
or hum
quietly alone
with no witness
but my own?

When feeling anxious
slowly turns
to considering curious anticipation
beyond dark dread,
must I always remain quite so shy?
about intimacy,
hesitant to publish internal dialogue
free of censoring
potentially consensual fear
about patriarchal capitalist
investments in LeftHemisphere
white privileged
straight male dominance
as the healthy-safe opposite
of conspiracy theories
and transcendently divine
dogmas justifying inhumane
punishments.

When I feel free
to anticipate
our safe and healthy
EarthTribe future,
do I seek
Polycultural Cooperative Investments?
formed by Elder Indigenous Mind,
panentheistically sacred memory
co-empathically robust
health speaking
nonverbally felt
deeply resilient
nutritious
deep nurturing
positive socio-psychological
eco-political
multiculturing wealth.

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DoubleBoundary Issues

Climate change
does nearly
but not neatly cover up
discomforting complexities
of losing polyculturally rich ecosystems
like transportive air and water
and sacred communion
of sovereign feasting nations

Not really dealing with unresolved issues
like economic boundary chaos

Between each of four regenerative
and degenerative
annual cycling seasons
EarthTribal

Awareness of Spring enlightenment
fertility rooting up from inside
and outside
co-arising
dipolar self/other
regenerative consciousness

DoubleBinding inter-religious healthy arts
and natural wealth economic sciences

And, thereby, empowering
warming
increasingly toxin-laden
atmosphere transport patterns
from Northern MeltDown
spiraling out to equatorial
creolizing
indigenous

Both/And Consciousness Boundaries

BiHemispherically curious
about South summer yangness
balancing North winter yintegrity
co-spirating up and down
deep learning
tidal streams
of resiliently sweeping
churning
flowing
surging redundance

Implied Boundaries
of atmospheric current complexity

Moving around low-lying
beach bound co-habitations
land-bound
water-fed
nation-states

Competitively embroiled
in monoculturing
anthrosupremacist economics
apartisan inside debates
as if outside climate degeneration
invites us to take our matronly
regal time
with win/lose unelegant assumptions
of Earth’s inevitable demise

Rather than speaking out
for polyculturing health,
for EarthTribe’s Whole Green Peace,
ReStorying Win/Win Strategic Games
for CoOperative Justice

As co-passionately conceived
and resiliently relieved
of all those unsightly
and unseemly stress lines
moving away from
eco-political HealthWealth
optimizing Ego/EcoSystemic
EarthTribe patriotic consciousness

Of Ego’s consensual
EcoSystemic Boundaries

Provoking overheated polar climates
changing Mother Eartha’s cover
dancing complexities of losing
polymathically rich double-binary
ClosedYang and OpenYintegrity
1 and 0
dipolar co-arising
communion of Green EarthTribe’s
indigenous natural/spiritual
nondualistic both/and wisdom issues

More ecofeminist cooperative
than patriarchally competitive
unresolved ambiguity
about dissonance
between rational research thoughts
like science
and intuitively felt
arms of communion
co-empathy
co-investment
co-operative co-passion

Especially about unresolved
boundary chaos.

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Senior Screen Time

Since retirement
I have gradually become more disappointed
with watching
and listening
to performers,
to on-screen entertainments,
to emotional yet disembodied hypnosis,
to vicarious fascinations
now suspiciously corrupt

Performance watching
becomes a cheaply vacuous substitute
for real life engagement
in compassion with hope;

Or even social disengagement
in disdain
with chilling cynicism.

I feel drawn out of retiring
and into some healthy perspiring
in a fluid multicultural river
watering compassion,

Steering clear of a tangle of wires
and technology
feeding isolated despair.

Mindless entertainments
are probable on screen
and possible reading choices too

Feeling guilty as I age
leaving way too much
for future generations
to undo.

Too needy
and wounded
and busy protecting privacy

Projecting charismatic fame
to blame
and shame
for all my ambivalence,
doubts
dark nights leaning into fear
to risk more
than breathing through another episode
of the Mary Tyler Moore

USA middleclass white folks
entertainment
without engagement
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Trumpian Weeds

If my Trumpian weed patch could talk
I’m sure he would say
it’s past time to capitalize our stay

“We’re taking over,
spreading out,
patriotically proud of blatant
rather than tribally latent
monocultural colonizing intent
to deculture
corrupt
win/lose zero-sum compete
from straight white patriarchal strength
to punish ecofeminists,
to violently revenge
exploit
disempower sacred
unenlightened polypathic grace;

Not just our practice,
but our unpeaceful
LeftBrain dominant
reductive
divisive
straight white Trumpian
patriarch-privileged policy
against global wealth
of democratic health.”

Imagine our healthiest ecosystemic experience
could respond
with LeftBrain empowering
enlightened words
and memes
and re-connecting memories:

“We cherish you
as and where you breathe
and root
and flower right now
in this robust polycultural intent
of our own organic lifetime
blue/green cooperative
outside/inside
above/below
sacred/secular
light/power
Heaven/Earth healthcare system.

As for your TrumpWeed internal fear
and external anger voices
for aggressive win/lose practiced choices,
try to channel
and co-invest in Gandhi
and MLK, Jr
and nonviolent EarthMother more,
if you would expand our creolizing,
not colonizing, mission
to do your economic ecological
and political win/win share
to Make Earth Healthy
Wealth Again.”

If my Trumpian weed patch could respond
I’m sure we would say
it’s past time to re-invest
in our healthiest resilient
cooperatively governed stay
to win/win play
all eudaemonia purposive day
and hedonia seeding night.

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