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Fear of Failure

I know you don’t want to hurt
or even disappoint
me

And I know you don’t want to hurt
yourself.

Yet still your shame
and self-blame hurt

Your self-judging
punishing closet frame
suffocates our transparent life
my caring curiosity craves,
and mutual vulnerability
our sharing courage braves.

Addiction to feeling happy
is not free
and connected to sensory satisfaction
nor to ego significant gratification
and certainly not natural and spiritual bilateral wealth
of healthy feeling substantiation,

Which, as you know,
I also recognize as body and mind healthy
choice voices.

Before you even small voice object,
I also recognize you may feel natural
or spiritual choice
has nothing to do with driving off
without “goodbye,
see you safely soon.”

If no physically tolerable choice
of resources to feed serotonin
and water dopamine,
I know, from years of isolated,
neglected experience,
how frightening loss of lonely ego-powered control
can feel.

Speaking not of choice,
but inside swatting interminable Voice
never still
until you self-shame
and blame
hiding hurts
and unfree frames
us both,
unhappy you,
not Here,

And me
loving enough for Us,
not yet Now

Still worrying
what will voiceless nonchoice happen
disempowered There
and unenlightened Then
suddenly Amen

Our silently uninvited End.

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UnWeaponed Education Tools

Sacred health
is also secular green wealth
integrity
is a Taoist
non-zeroist yang/yintegral
inclusive tool for progressive social ecology

Collaboratively informed with co-arising
co-gravitating
co-empathic
co-passionate
multiculturing processes
of cooperative interreligious
inter-reconnecting
intersectionally recommunicating theology.

This bicameral balancing re-education project
for developing healthy organic communication
reweaves RightSide cultural wealth prominence
with LeftSide climate health dominance
for and of all interdependent
inter-communing embodied minds

Deep and wide listening and seeing,
feeling and touching,
smelling and tasting
sensory-neural polypathic systems

Are our empathic metacommunication ego systems
re-connecting
re-ligioning internal nutritional economic exchanges
with external communication sensory networks
experienced across a health/wealth variable range
from projecting Lose/Lose
violent outcomes
through protecting Win/Win
nonviolent incomes.

Nutrition’s neuro-sensory integrity messages
respond to ecologically resilient health relationships
and EarthJustice energy democratization,

Win/Win nonzero-zone cooperative games
for repurposing inclusive polycultural values

Progressively communicating
nonviolent green communions
transubstantiating
theologically resonant wealth
developing
tools that cannot become
misinforming
weapons
against fluid wealthing
that cannot become walled

LeftBrain dominating minds
resisting WholeEarth open systemic matters
favoring multicultural education
supporting economic ecological prosperity
as polytheistic theological RightMind pleasure

Nonhedonistic Yang
scientific paradise
deep listening
cooperative learning
hidden within polypathic Yintegral
grace grateful
promise

Of metaphysically sacred wealth
is also secular health,
EarthIntegrity’s great transformative potential.

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Curious UnChosen Gifts

To my StraightWhiteMale
right-wing
left-brain
monoculturally dominating brothers,
and your antifeminist glamorous
amorous womanly allies,

You have not yet heard me,
if you only hear my resistance,
sharing my non-culpable experience
with non-choice of gender attraction
and gender identity.

It’s not only that my queer gender identity
is not my fault,
because not my choice;
but also my gender identity
and sensory-neural attachments, as also true of yours,
are my sacred gift.

CoArising identity and CoGravitating attraction ,
like awareness and consciousness,
are not just heavy social responsibilities,
but also enlightened
and empowering opportunities.

We’re not legitimately known by who
or what
we hate and hurt;
But we can be redeemed by who
and what
we love and heal.

We may have no more choice
about who
and what
and when
and where
and why
and how we love,
than choice to respond with awe and wonder,
or boredom and disdain,
to Earth’s natural enspiriting Beauty

Of dawn
and dusk,
spring
and autumn,
ocean
and mountain
restorative reconnections

Which feel both Healthy
and True,
of the deepest
and highest
and yet safest resilient
and resonantly robust multicolored wealth
of nonchoiced
unfaulted gifting grace.

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UnOrthodox Grace

Unorthodox grace
is not limited to restoring healthy face
that your queer sexual wealthy place
is not your disgrace;

Deviation from hetero-statistical means
is your sacred gift
from EarthQueen

Outstanding difference
is not only
and always
your heavy depleting responsibility;
but also your socially enlightened
and culturally empowering opportunity.

We are not illegitimately unknown
and excommunicated
first and foremost by seed planters
overruling births that could not feel more legitimate
to those innocently born
and those giving graced birth
through organic solidarity–
graced labor rights
of compassionate re-creation.

We are also not legitimately known
by who or what we hate;
But we can become redeemed
by who and what we love.

We may have no more choice
about who
and what
and when
and where
and why
and how we express love
than choice to respond with awe
and wonder,
or boredom
and disdain,
to Earth’s natural inspiring
holistic spirited Beauty
Truths of trusted grace

Revisited each dawn and dusk,
each spring and autumn,
each ocean surf and mountain breeze,
each deepening sea and elevating land,
each plant and harvest,
each beginning and ending
empowering light and dark muses

Of graced beauty
which feels racing true
and recasting healthy,
of the highest
and deepest EarthMother legitimacy,
for safest
universally uniting resilience,

Resonantly robust
multicolored wealth
of unorthodox mind
embodied grace.

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Parts and Holes

“You are a part of me
I do not yet know”
claims interdependent Valarie Kaur

And I wonder,
Is she speaking to me?
Or rhetorically asking any stranger
except me,
already known
because I feel her same unitarian way
already grown

Ego/Eco-centering balanced
symmetrically integral
as a social individual

And not so much economically
and politically privileged,
lethargic,
overfed
and drowning in domesticated leisure
overgrown inside
ruminating infamous monoculturing nightmares.

I hope Valarous curiously speaks
quietly yet surely
with hope tomorrow
having turned from overly familiar
anthro-privileged yesterday,
still a part of haunted
and blessed me
I do already know
less optimistically,

And I am awed
inside this great faith transition
and timeless merciful humor
passing by a personal premonition
tomorrow may be already written
rhymed,
numbered and counted,
bought and sold,
accounted yet too messily empowered

Speaking in a language learned
by well-hearted healthy hope
in new starlight
night promised memories

Premembering to continue regenerating
indigenously wise Earth
continues writing
and restructuring DNA recultured feelings
on this beautiful and precious known landscape
formed from yesterday’s most cooperative subclimates,
collaborative EarthTribe economics
empowering intersectional politics

Whose future energetic numbers
are embedded in prime multitudes of creative
and recreative organisms

LeftBrain labeled history
and RightBrain Win/Win
future bicameral integrity
Blue/Green EarthCommon Squared
enlightenment poly-rhythmically
empoweringly commodified
in yesterday
and tomorrow’s Yang Yintegrity
unitarian
universal knowing
cognizing
recognizing

Prime NonZeroZone space
and polyculturing time
eco-deductive and theo-inductive
spatiaLeft/TempoRight felt
compassionate 4D-fractal regenerative co-relationships

Restoring polypaths
between wealthy unknown tomorrow
and healthy felt yesterday
was today
tomorrow’s
short-term memory
statically sustainable
in this sadistic stuck satiation
silent station.

Here
and Now
my internal doomsday fear
against more global Loser queer
anthropocentric eco-politics over valued
while EarthTribe organisms
also die to Lose
tomorrow’s anthrosupremacist
dipolar eco/theo-logic
unhealthy in/unwealthy out
disvalues

Do not sanctify,
in fact, desecrate,
any cooperatively owned timeless corporation,
any intersectionally eating and living
giving and taking organism

Any numeric
iconic One-plus balances
(not-not) negative dipolarity
in a NonZero binomial development zone
for systemic health

Not from reading
memorizing
reiterating God’s one true holistic wealth
mathbook,
as if calculating
and deducing LeftBrain verbal communication
were the last alone apartheid Word
of yesterday’s final bottom zero-lined zone
not also tomorrow’s
Trust as Yintegral Beauty

In a WholeEarth
universal Open EcoWomanist
EgoPatristic SubSystem
choosing tomorrow’s healthiest win/win game

Fulfilling Her HistoEcological
Multicultural Health
promising today’s remediation
for resilient Blue/Green Wealth,

A part of tomorrow
I could not yet feel
alone
a part of me
I do not yet anxiously know
how to anticipate.

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Listening for GodWords

I don’t know,
S/He said,

(right winged left
exhaled downstream
past everyone’s egopaled head)

If God is dead
and also much too Capitalistic,
LeftBrain dominant hegemonalistic

(like water to a philosophical shark)

If God is straight
and white
and a patriarchal supremacist accountant
calculating monoculturally ambitious values

Then maybe also monotheistically antagonistic,
or at least apathetic,
about polyculturally healthy
ecopolitical womanist wealth,
without apartheid walls.

Surely not both,
disempowering abuse
and unenlightened neglect,
that couldn’t be,
replied S/He
choosing His verbal LeftBrain voice

(Either/Or reductive,
conservative,
reactive,
sometimes deafly patriarcolonizing)

stressed by harmonic Both/And resonance
and timelessly reconnecting RightBrain choice

(polycultural ego as ecotheistic).

S/He thinks
God must not be

an angry white capitalist old man
in the sky
to vengefully judge
and win/lose evolution justify
historic cash reparation millions
of Winning CapitalBuilding patriotism,
so Lose unempirically marginalized
brown-skinned Goddess Worshipers,

S/He feels
God must not remain
an Original Natural Law Judge
too comfortably drinking
from homophobic
xenophobic waters,
issuing AnthroHomoSupremacist decrees,
dogmas against win/win indigenous
body/mind health care issues
exceeding His own RightBrain
multicultural mediating experience
with brain dead and yet body alive
expertise.

S/He multiculturally senses
God must not prevail
as a MonoCapitalist Banker
abusively over-investing in right wing
lose/lose ecopolitical,
Earth terrorizing,
violent communication conflicts,

S/He polyculturally postulates
Win/Win God could also feel Goddessness
if not so theologically upset and disrespectful
when healthy natural women
wear short-sleeved political shirts
and long-legged economic pants,
and when two natural men
have holy spiritual sex
with each Other,
and not with
(abusively punishing
Straight Judge
violently shaming and blaming)
Him.

S/He remembers
Goddess could also know
how He feels
competitively monotheistic dead,
or at least asleep,
with a secular/sacred vocation
inherited from abusive
and/or neglectful
patrilinear designs from Above

SunGod LawGiver
enscriptured by Straight White Hims
cannot be Yintegral Hers,
not Queer BlackGaian Goddess scribes,
ecstatic worshipers,

(not quite so much dogmatic
dualistic
ecopolitically privileged reconstructionists)

indigenous fire-circle dancers,
recycling Full and DualDark
light night empowerment Wonderers,
awesome enlightenment Wanderers…

But, instead choosing only to become
this DeathCulture God
of StraightWhiteWesternMale Crusaders,
Fight makes Right jihadists,
colonizing inquisitors,
misogynists,
homophobes,
evangelical Capital-gaining pastors,
fundamental dualists

(violently abusive nature survivalist
against Spirit neglectful unthrivalist),

against ecowomanist enlightened empowerment.

S/He reconnectively learns
to this EarthDay
deep win/win regenerative mysteries
of His LeftBrain win/lose universe

(of Either/Or reductive ego monopolitics)

Win/Lose competitive
mono-LeftBrain anthrotheistic
StraightWhiteMale CapitalBuilding patriartick
with punishing judgmental authority
to damn multiculturally undressed
lack of punishing codes

Shunning
and imprisoning
and enslaving
and monetizing neuro-reproductive behavior
of all ego-sensory EarthTribes
engaged in violent through compassionate
interconnected multicultural communication
and religiously nutritional neuro-sensory systems

(for sacred health enlightenment
and secular safe empowerment,
S/He said
hopefully
before SunGod is BlackHole
lives splattered dead).

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Healthy Soil

Healthy Earth soil
restoring therapeutic justice
for contented health-seeking systems,
peacefully compassioning
nonviolently communicating souls,

Wanting empowerment
and empathic enlightenment
but needing non-nihilistic,
not competitively denialistic,
not reductively deductive monopolistic
capitalistic over-plowed illness
outweighing cooperative wellness,

More open to culture
and climate conversations,
recreative co-optations
advocating health and safety
for our NonZero Zone designing
and developing
and deliciously soiled sacred Souls.

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Catholic Daze

I recall
from Catholic seminal
seminary daze,

Frocked monastic gaze
vowed nerve-systemic chastity,
self-sacrificing poverty,
political obedience
to a Great StraightMale Master
of God’s paradise reclusive House
filled with sacred humane
Men’s Room Only vocations.

Yet I experienced these three
Green Commons commitments
in reverse Taoistic
NonZeroistic chronology
of sacramental EarthCentric interest:

Without fully embodying
sensory-neural obedience,
trust
good faith
good humor
LeftBrain healthy secular Truth
as also
RightBrain safe sacred Beauty,

Then poverty of spirit
is a bitter
exploitive pill to
MonoCapitalistically swallow
before too many competitive weeks
and months pass anxiously by

Without neuro-sensory chastity
invoking my healthy regenerative compassion
only when informed
by universal climax wealth experience
of sacred
nature-spirited poverty
of co-invested
co-infesting
cooperatively creolizing Light
and Power;

Theologically ecological poverty
of StraightWhiteMale divinely-endowed
anthrosupremacism
could best be re-invited
into WinWin cooperative co-investment
when transparently vulnerable
through healthy matriarchal prime Attachment,

Further reinforced
by post-pubescent
sensory-neural sacred climax
worship
and praise,
silent awe
and verbalized
and verbalizing
and reverberating wonder,

Obedience to Taoistically balanced
ego-patrilinear LeftBrain verbalized
through nonviolently, multiculturally felt
wants,
healthy co-invested thrusts,
trusts,
truths

As also EcoWomanist
RightBrain sacred felt silence,
integral reception

Green cooperative unitarian communion

Deep listening for empowering
sacred information
inhalation

Also enlightening
dusty secularized disobedience,
pathological need for win/lose subservience,
posturing as win/win obedient
Earth Healers,

Regenerative repairers
of active nonzeroistic healthy ego-hope
from EcoMotherly masters
vowing past
and present
and future
green/blue EarthWealth
revolving compassion.

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Sacred v. Commercial

What is your opposite
for SACRED?

for sexually unscared
unscarred
unscrambled?

SECULAR, I suppose.

Secularization
sounds like desecration,
As sanctification
sounds divinely cooperative,
loving,
and not quite so punishingly competitive

Like win/win eco-political Game Strategies
to optimize and sustain healthy
co-governing polycultural outcomes,
nonviolently,
therapeutically,
restoring mindful peacefulness.

I wonder if we could see
our ego/eco-centric Golden Rules
a new green nonviolent
and cooperative
and regenerative WAY.

But, to do this
with multicultural paradigmatic LIFE consistency,
where outside natural TRUTH enlightenment
feeds universal interfaith synergy
waters inside spiritual empowerment
breeds sacred polyculturing integrity
of comPASSION STORIES,

What
and where
and when
and how commodified
commercialized
monetized mammon
is, thereby, not sacred win/win
because disempowering
and win/lose competitive,
punishing capitalism
and colonizing predative default,

Not a polyculturally healthy climate
as also multiculturally optimizing
global wealth

Speaking with bicameral WORD awareness,
bilateral co-empathic nonverbal consciousness,
binomial cooperative ego/eco-passion empowering
polypathic
polynomial
polymathic NonZero-Zone

Prime CoBinary Relationship
LIGHT is to dualdark ENERGY
as 1.00% universal YangLife pregnant fullness
is to 0.00% Yintegral ElderRight wombed emptiness,

Earth’s original LIFE SACRED world view
dipolar co-arising
this PRINCIPLE OF VALUE REVERSION:

AnthroSupremacist
win/lose competitive commercialization,
criminalization of natural win/win
cooperative sensory ECO-MATRIOTIC pleasure
Womanist Great InterFaith Green ReTurning
to COOPERATIVELY-OWNED PARADISE.

While it is too late
to avoid a traumatic Sixth Extinction,
we have just stewardship SACRED RIGHT enough
and EITHER/OR COMPETITIVE LEFT
cooperative win/win LIGHT SPACE opportunity
for bicameral co-invested empowering TIME

To EARTH GOLDEN RULE WIN/WIN
our ecological and theological,
secular and sacred,
human natural sense systems
and divine spiritual neurological networks

To both avoid Earth’s Great 7th
win/lose devolving into nihilistic
dualdark lose/lose EXTINCTION

By win/win RESURRECTION
planning Great Wild 8th ReGeneration
and resilient
healthy
global
multicultural wealth

Of our already at hand
InterReligious Environmental Justice
sacred ECOWOMANIST
WOMBED GREEN GARDEN
pregnant with INTEGRITY

Sacredly cooperative
a nonviolent bit more than merely reductively secularized
commodified into greater and smaller anthro-privileged values
colonizing ego/anthro-patriarchal
GOD Capitalistic envy
jealousy
CLIMATE PATHOLOGY of
STRAIGHT WHITE MALE MONOTHEISTIC SUPREMACY.

SACRED
is to multicultural integrity
as SECULAR
is to monoculturing disintegration,
dissonance,
decay,
demonization,
criminalization,
disempowering aggressive communication
unenlightened lose/lose-trending starvation
drought
climates of extinction,

MonoCultures of expanding
capitalistic hoarding
extraction
excavation
commercialization
and lose/lose
DEAD CLIMATE
burned out decay.

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Aldo’s Note to Future Generations

Aldo Leopold recommended
to would be ecotherapists
that we deeply learn
to “think like a mountain”

At life summit and death ebbing
silent scales of health
becoming
and polyculturing wealth
being burned
and drowned
and starved
and dried out

For a monotheistic capital harvest Season
of winterish waiting

To see this anxious
and anticipating balance
of natural revolutions

Through forest and meadow and grasslands
recycling
repurposing
revolving
evolving mountainously reliving EarthSpace.

Yet, I also hear a further commendation
to would be singing egotherapists

Also deep learn to feel
and dance like a river
of upstream toward downriver time
of Earth’s unraveling
traveling nutrition
tunneling trunk tide recommunication

Flow trends predicting new later recycling
resurrecting
resuscitating opportunities
to empower sacred polyculturing health
of Earth’s enlightened multicultural wealth

For and of
from and yet also before
future regenerating flow,
Earth Health and Justice
to go

Around again
recommending ecotherapists
river deeply feeling
rethinking
like Earth’s spacetime mountain,
true empowering strength
and enlightening beauty
flowing reconnections.

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