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Seeking Assurance

I am sad
and need reassurance
this choice was not bad
at the time of searching
Home’s new-found voice,
and is not bad
now,
and will not be bad
and sad
in my shortening future.

Diminishing now
into year by year forecasts,
no longer this seventieth decade
by assured next decade
sensing less reassured choices
may matter no longer than month
by sad and glad
life insurance payment
month.

When will I seize
my last happy budding Spring?

Will I recognize Her
when She whole-sum comes
to spread Her good
choice
seeds?

I am mad
to have purchased
a distressed property condo
and need soothing
by a distressed New England
rusty industrial historic community
on a distressed EarthTribe continent
on a distressed Earth crust
wet with rising
and thickening
sickening salt water.

I need way more
regenerative EarthHealth
systemic reassurance

Some better organized cooperative ownership,
stewardship,
management,
organic gardening,
co-invested harvesting
multicultural
and polyculturally robust
nonviolent communication.

I need expanding green
ecofeminist bicameral network
reassurance
I won’t die alone and sad
distressed
traumatized
chronically stressed
clinically depressed
politically repressed
economically Patriarchal-Capitalist suppressed
into win/lose arguments
competitive consumer markets
retail sales
on formerly sacred offering plates.

I feel sad
Christianity
and Islam
and Judaism
are so often for sale
to the lowest
capital survivalist fear-mongerer,
monocultural anthro-supremacist,
anti-godly
StraightWhiteMale
historically royal privilegedest.

I feel bad
that nonviolent communication,
trusting in HealthyDemocracy dialogue
more than SicKleptocracy debate
to divide and separate,

That Compassion Deep Learning Therapy
is seldom applied
to Presidential Cooperative Dialogues,
to BiPartisan Green EcoPolicy Conventions
for healthiest international
continential
national
state
county
and/or local levels
of organizing our EarthTribe CoOperative Habitats,
organically co-invested
like any healthy regenerative body
property
mind
soul
nature
systemic antiracist spirit

Not quite so distressed
as this condominium association
I invested in last year
and foolishly graduated
into a successful election
to a kinda right wing
real estate fascist
clearly not green cooperative WOKE
executive board of toothless
so unsmiling
sad
mad
feeling bad
Patriarchal-Capitalist Directors

Expecting CondoMinions
to hold our breath
till cost-ineffective budgets
stop overheating
and exploding toward bankruptcy,

Systemically unravelling
while absentee owners
thoughtlessly protect their polished sharpened nails
admiring their gleaming hard right reach
toward God’s great individualistic inspiring destiny
in this RealProperty Land
where cash
and Straight White Patriarchs
are historically-correct
monoculturing Kings

Feeling climate casualty sad,

Needing reassurance
next year’s profits,
and preferably next quarter’s,
will continue to outpace
egregiously inflated
and taxed socialistic costs.

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DoubleBoundary Issues

Climate change
does nearly
but not neatly cover up
discomforting complexities
of losing polyculturally rich ecosystems
like transportive air and water
and sacred communion
of sovereign feasting nations

Not really dealing with unresolved issues
like economic boundary chaos

Between each of four regenerative
and degenerative
annual cycling seasons
EarthTribal

Awareness of Spring enlightenment
fertility rooting up from inside
and outside
co-arising
dipolar self/other
regenerative consciousness

DoubleBinding inter-religious healthy arts
and natural wealth economic sciences

And, thereby, empowering
warming
increasingly toxin-laden
atmosphere transport patterns
from Northern MeltDown
spiraling out to equatorial
creolizing
indigenous

Both/And Consciousness Boundaries

BiHemispherically curious
about South summer yangness
balancing North winter yintegrity
co-spirating up and down
deep learning
tidal streams
of resiliently sweeping
churning
flowing
surging redundance

Implied Boundaries
of atmospheric current complexity

Moving around low-lying
beach bound co-habitations
land-bound
water-fed
nation-states

Competitively embroiled
in monoculturing
anthrosupremacist economics
apartisan inside debates
as if outside climate degeneration
invites us to take our matronly
regal time
with win/lose unelegant assumptions
of Earth’s inevitable demise

Rather than speaking out
for polyculturing health,
for EarthTribe’s Whole Green Peace,
ReStorying Win/Win Strategic Games
for CoOperative Justice

As co-passionately conceived
and resiliently relieved
of all those unsightly
and unseemly stress lines
moving away from
eco-political HealthWealth
optimizing Ego/EcoSystemic
EarthTribe patriotic consciousness

Of Ego’s consensual
EcoSystemic Boundaries

Provoking overheated polar climates
changing Mother Eartha’s cover
dancing complexities of losing
polymathically rich double-binary
ClosedYang and OpenYintegrity
1 and 0
dipolar co-arising
communion of Green EarthTribe’s
indigenous natural/spiritual
nondualistic both/and wisdom issues

More ecofeminist cooperative
than patriarchally competitive
unresolved ambiguity
about dissonance
between rational research thoughts
like science
and intuitively felt
arms of communion
co-empathy
co-investment
co-operative co-passion

Especially about unresolved
boundary chaos.

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Less Challenging Dances

I find it easier
and, admittedly, more fun
to climb through tough terrain,
piles of leaves,
loose rocks,
debris,

If
and when
my goal is not to push sweaty through
by force of independently superior will,

But
to dance
with EarthTribe’s diverse
and miraculous co-creations,
sometimes feeling monstrous,

While marching
up our co-arising
complexly gorgeous,

Some might say “athletic”
hill.

And, when more still,
too quiet to dance,
advance,
transport myself
from points A
through fully alphabetized Z

I sit with members
of my inter-connecting choir
to sing my solo
inside dialogues
and depressingly competitive debates

Rituals of stuck
in ambiguous refrains
and angry rounds
of songs I’ve come to care for
yet fear to unload out loud

Taking turns
to catch up
and on
and on
without permitting any advice
ever
regardless of how unilaterally wise,
nor comment
before this circling non-dialogue
completes the time allotted
for this therapeutic day
of deeply listening monologue.

And then my dance
begins inside
as sung by curiosity.

Open ended,
round and full of comprehensive stretches
across all open intersectional space
and sufficient
efficient
inter-connected time
to rhyme our stories
sung in resonance
of universal therapy
for uniting traumas.

But curiosity
does not predict
responses right
and wrong
or either serenely left
or redly fight.

Curiosity draws
us out toward undiscovered
yet felt recovered
resonance
reconfirming choirs of angels
singing Earth’s therapeutic climates
of bravely danced
resilience.

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Strategic Considerations

Maybe it’s just me, hanging around with nonviolent communication students and teachers too much. But,

Always the big, “BUT”

But,…maybe AND is more appropriate.

And, if Putin’s big concern is to spoil Ukraine’s hunger to join NATO, then a full military assault seems maybe counterproductive, killing women and children, bombing bread lines and schools. Wouldn’t that kind of thing be why Ukraine is looking for NATO alliance, because of concerns that Putin and his overpaid Generals might forget that carrots are more effective than sticks when you are trying to persuade less wealthy, and more hungry for safety, people that your big stick next door isn’t an unfortunate event threat to their carrot crops and tops, and all those other greens and blues and even reds; who seem to have a peculiar affinity for ballistic sticks, even when spoons of sugar are so much less expensive, less damaging to well-manicured nails, and landscapes. The important classy stuff making up a delicious series of more fortunate events.

When I was trying to persuade those bratty neighbor children that they need not gang up against my less-affluent kids, it didn’t occur to me to lob grenades over the fence, instead of suggesting a pizza party. But maybe that was mainly because I was hungry too, for food, and health, and safe nonviolence.

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Punishing Silence

Do we choose silence
not only as a tool
for self-protection
when speaking
our latest chapter stories
feels unsafe?

But also stern silence
may become a weapon
to ward off apathetic enemies
of our straight
hopelessly white
monotheistic
monopolistic
patriarchal capitalist
enemies

Who would not seem to care
to love us
more than we ourselves
can love them
as part of us
right now
left multiculturally
and ecofeminist
silenced here.

As you go
and liberally grow silent,
I may quietly
then traumatically
hear,
as isolating time
sticks ominously by,

“I am not your constant un-masked friend,”
and, thereby,
an ominous self-fulfilling prophecy
emergently erupts
in punishing response,

“I cannot remain
your therapeutic good-times,
vaccinated against silent unease,
healthy
co-empathic musing friend,”

To trust when skies grow silently dark
and night descends
beyond despair
to safely share
stressed Trauma

Itself first felt ray
of restoring justice promise
despite this loss of salvific
passioned hope.

Prosperity losses steal
from future compassion
already while first silenced weapons
dream denying
relentless truths of suffering
lack of healthy opportunity
to speak our fears
out loud
with those who trust
our trembling tears.

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Interview With A Narcissist

I need to know
if you have seen
or heard anything from me
or about me
that would cause you to hesitate
to hire me full-time
for the next sex worker
and spiritual director
and financial co-investor
position

Opening up
on your personal
and political empowerment team.

I would also like to know
if you have seen and heard,
tasted and smelled,
felt and touched
anything positive
compelling
engaging about me

That would discourage you
from firing me
from my current part-time position
enabling your fears of losing me
to some better
bigger
more powerful,
possibly even somewhat more enlightened
and less angry,
narcissist.

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Forgiveness

Forgiveness,
like trust
and repentance
and the salvation of heroes
slowly getting back up,

Forgiveness,
of Other
and others
and self,

Forgiving
is not instant,
like a package of oatmeal
or grits,
because growing
and regrowing trust
is a process,
like growing flowers,
blossoming in their
and our own
best time for resilience,
regeneration,
restoring beauty
and peace

Forgiveness,
like repentance
and the win/win salvation of souls,
isn’t all or nothing,
except in those climatic moments
of anger,
when it is nothing,
and except in those climatic moments
of joy,
when it is all

When we are fully engaged
in trusting this place
investing this time
within win/win EarthTribe
mundane sacramental life

Just right
for getting back up

What’s left
for giving Other
yet another chance
to not screw us up.

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Peak Experiences

NonViolently listening
contentedly
conveniently
is not too much

Communing
courageously win/win
curiously co-invested
in contagiously copassionate
communication events

Writing
and discussing
reflecting
and sharing
conversing
and dancing
while singing
and nonverbally musing
moving outside
as inside
Golden Rules
of and for revolutionary
peace actions
cooperative intentions

And reactions
while deep listening
win/win contentedly
mindfully speaking
remembering
reconnecting
healing
singing
musing
conveniently Self not Othering
optimizes health Nature’s eco-
political care giving

Is also care receiving
wealthy panentheistic
Holonic Soul

Inside and
outside
co-passioning serotonin
dopamining
self-perpetuating
MeWe climax

Where copassionate listening
blooms MeWe contentment
fading doubts
while conveniently entertaining
when both fully experienced
and reflectively engaged
in bilateral exterior/interior
objective/subjective
natural/spiritual
body/mind care

Of ecosystemic nutrients
nurturing ego centers
root chakra informed
core balanced resonance

Peacefully reaching
for self-extending
perpetually resilient
co-relational climax

Win/Win eco-self
not Othering
dialectically integral
optimization

Spiraling
revolving
bicameral
bilateral
binomial
double-binding
co-empathic awareness

Peeking out
while Peaking in
creasingly extended
app
earances

NonLanguaged communion
NonScarcely commodified
NonViolently impassioned
self-NotOthering
communications
MeHere/WeNow
bicamerally re-educating

Peak Experiences
nonviolently deep listening
contentedly
conveniently sure
of future’s nondualistic
health is wealth systemic
passionate generosity.

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Might Be An Isn’t

So,
she autistically
and powerfully
said,

One me
plus one you
makes two

And we two
minus one me
leaves you one

Which feels like not
quite enough
for ego sufficiency

But one whole lot more
than zero deficiency

Because Dr. Seuss sings
of zero BirthDay rings
and EndDaze spirited non-things

“If we didn’t have birthdays,
you wouldn’t be you.
If you’d never been born,
well then what would you do?…

Why you might be a WASN’T!
A Wasn’t has no fun at all.
No, [s]he doesn’t.
A Wasn’t just isn’t.
[S]he just isn’t present.
But you…You ARE YOU!
And,
now isn’t that pleasant!…

If you’d never been born,
then you might be an ISN’T!
An Isn’t has no fun at all.
No [s]he disn’t.
[S]he never has birthdays,
and that isn’t pleasant.
You have to be born,
or you don’t get a present.”

And sacred co-prescience

One me
plus one you
makes two,
and now
aren’t we pleasant
co-present?

Note: Dr. Seuss quotes are from “Happy Birthday To You!”, 1959, when I was celebrating seven sacred birthdays.

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Strength We Find

Some body
wants some thing
some space
some time
some Other body’s place

Some individual
ego-incorporated
organic wealth
health systemic
mindbody wants to resonantly thrive
to resiliently survive

Some body
cannot compete with BusinessAsUsual
resolve
against trauma-induced Need feelings
with sufficient therapeutic compassion thoughts,
co-investment plans,
co-operating dialectical designs

To accept denial non-responses
to transparently
vulnerable
sacred polycultural
inter-religious
health/wealth invocations,
EarthGoddess reflective
resonant
resilient invitations
into peace
restoring EarthHealth
systemic justice.

Some body
wants what?

For what health
wealthy felt resonant reason?

Why can’t we gratefully accept
history’s tone deaf manipulations
economic oppressions,
political suppressions,
polyvagal dissonant
neurosystemic repressions,

LeftBrain overpowering
militarized
commodified weapons
of unenlightened
Great White Father
patrilinear capital competitions

Left hemisphere dominant
pedagogically verbalized
ecologically secularized
theologically desecrating
wounding
divisive monotheistic impressions.

Some body
needs to become empowered
through our shared depression
panentheistic oppressions

Further disabling already trauma compromised
lifetime resonant health
is never also pathologically dissonant
internally imploding
absence of indigenously resilient
ego/eco-systemic embodied
bilaterally resilient wisdom

Musing,
integrally fusing,
left hemisphere cognitive verbal dominance
suppressing right hemisphere interdependently
intuitively felt inside synergetic Voices

Indigenously wrestling
with sacred singing and dancing
spirit/nature
mental/physical jubilant choices

Panentheistically sacred
healthy democratic
ergodically resonant harmonic
bi-ionic co-binary
mind/body energy

Compelling Truth/Beauty
Yang/Yintegral
bilateral
binomial
bipartisan co-arising
light/power co-reinvesting
in seven regenerational
EarthHealth Muses

For humane ego-centering
divinely ecosystemic
inside wise resonant muse
spoken word resilient inside Voices

For outside sacred music
restoring healthy inter-connecting
eco/theo-logical choices

For abundantly non-oppressive
non-violent communion co-passion

Green resilient health/wealth
co-investing life
for love of natural nondualistic

Yet non-zeroistic
nonviolent Taoistic
indigenous wisdom

Of some body
wanting some thing
some sacred place
some health caring space
for expanding indigenous wisdom

Cooperatively co-governing
Yang/Yintegral
co-pedagogical
muse-elegant
integrally resonant
right brain prominent
eco/theo/egological

Some body
wants some passionate thing
some sacred space
some inspiring time
some Other inspiriting body’s
MeWe cooperatively resonant
bicamerally resilient
co-empowering music
muse
moving on
graced place.

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