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Another Storm

Another storm threatens to come in,
feeling my responsibility
for uncaring
and unresponsive history

Fearing you
more than loving us

Setting out your pails
and plastic tubs
to catch cold
and dreary drips

Impaled remembering
past wet enemies
becoming darker spots
as moisture threatens,
building mold untold
as yet
by angry lips

Dripping windowed frames
and ceiling fixtures
of your felt losses
not equally carried
by more comforted me
opaque with tender crosses

Buried
in how lonely
love can feel
hidden in Earth’s evolving top,
improbable to see

Our together threatening
leaky roof may drown,
which you would have fixed
some months ago,
if you could do so
on your own.

This storm pauses
and brighter rays suggest
a sun still shining
behind dark uncivil distress

Clouds could uncover
our disassociation,
poor and hovering
coveting a sun-drenched nation

Calculating our cost in cash,
but not in minds and bodies
to stop stormy smothers
of inside raining
draining issues,
deep core tissues
thundering crash

Warning we must get this done
before another wild wet storm
fearing you
more than loving us,
undone

Darker clouds build to leak again
while I explain why
you still can’t trust me
to invest in unstormed peace

A contenting roof
unconditionally done

So all EarthTribe
can safely put away our pails
and nails,
defensive weapons,
buckets,
overflowing pans
and spans of climate panic

Now rumbling receding thunder
of fearing you
more than loving us

Turns toward replacing damaged health,
repriming stains repainting wealth
of more warmly wild respect
while together musing
about who is bare surviving
and is not thriving
with what prestorming care,

Remembering who is dry
and fair
and prosperous
and why
we fear this tragic storm
more than loving weathered warm.

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A CoInvested Intervention

A multicultural proposal
for a bipartisan Intervention,
not to be confused
with drilling a nervous root canal.

  1. I take responsibility

What I am feeling
about myself.

What I believe I need
for my health
and safety.

What I want
from you.

Then
What you are feeling
about yourself.

What you believe you need
for your health
and wealth of thriving resilience.

What you want
from me
to support your journey.

  1. I embrace curiosity

What I am feeling
about you.

What I believe you need
for your health
and thriving sense of safe resilience.

What I want
for you.

Then
What you are feeling
about me.

What you believe I need
for my health
and safe resilient wealth.

What you want
for me.

  1. We support compassion

What you are now feeling
about us.

What you believe we need
for our here and now health
and co-invested wealth.

What you now want
from and for
us.

Then
What I am now feeling
about MeWe communal Us.

What I now believe we need
for longterm resonant health
and resiliently balanced
mindbodied wealth.

What I now want
from and for
sacred
co-invested
Us

Doing win/win better
than addiction to avoiding
and then angrily drilling
yet another nervous root canal.

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The Mural Project

Education Secretary Ellen,

Some of us
on the EarthCare Team
and also the Transport Solutions Committee
for special projects
are wondering
and, frankly, hoping

Your green STEAM students
and teachers
might research,
design,
and help residents paint
a historically accurate
AND polyculturally exquisite
series of murals

On our two-tiered
upper, more transcendently hopeful,
and lower, more historically faithful,
retaining walls

After our crumbling concrete parking pads
and steel-framed industrial artifacts
are hauled away
with respect and gratitude
for future repurposing

Our Transport Solutions
and EarthCare Elders
hope to use this transitional moment
to divert water runoff
to north and south bermed
and graceful descent
down toward our sacred RiverGaia,
rather than continuing to run
race
to disgrace our wet unhealthy basement

Thereby diverting soiled water stains
from historic runoff narrative face
retaining walled epic paintings,
perhaps combined with etching,
to tell a true and beautiful tale
about this sacred place
where we live
and work,
garden
and enjoy our EarthCare classroom
residence,
inside and outside

As did indigenously wise
Elders before us

And RiverGaia
learned Her future shape and flow
from ancient predative
cold
relentless icey white glaciers,

As will future natural construction
and deconstruction regenerators,
Thermal students
of green STEAM polyculturing Elders,
including co-invested us

Learning new Truth
and old Beauty Stories

Of how EarthCare givers
and health-care receivers
survived mistrust
to compassionately,
nonviolently
exquisitly thrive together
more better
than apart.

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UnConditional Curiosity

S/He has heard something
somewhere
somehow
about sacred ecology

Wondering if this might capture
her own personal
and political
co-arising consciousness
empowering
overflowing feelings
for deep systemic theology

Unconditionally regarding
Gaia’s original ienlightened liberating
and empowering conservational intent,

Embodied health
co-arises spiritual wealth
as resilient polycultural synergy
of robust ecosystems
proclaims resonant multicultural integrity
of unconditioned wonder

That S/He has felt something
maybe someone
somewhere
somehow
co-operating sacred ecology.

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ReEducational Curriculum

As if EarthTribe global health
and climate safety
liberally and conservationally
mattered:

Pedagogical Core Needs
Manifest integrity’s neuro-sensory systemic
sacred potential,

In Living Soil Systems
In Healthy Water Networks
In Optimizing Food/Fuel CoOperative Win/Win Global/Local Economies
WithIn Fresh Clean Air/Energy
For Conservational Comfortable BodyMind Shelter
for Surviving
And Safety
for EarthTribe Thriving.

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Resilient Redemption

Probably few of us
have capacity
to see ourselves
as both Angel
and Demon.

Many of us
have had the experience
of demonizing
and punishing ourselves
for sins of the past
extending into our present
festering
unresolved trauma.

Hopefully many of us
have also had the experience
of forgiveness
and saving ourselves
from sins of the future
because someone shared with us,
in some effective way,
that nothing
is always your autonomous fault

If only because
no organic creature,
anthro or otherwise,
is born
or can survive
radically autonomous
from non-ego centers.

Personal identity
follows interpersonal
ecosystemic individuation
developmentally
causally
and effectively.

I hear healing opportunity
in this responsible
yet not solely responsible
both/and way of consciousness

As well as traumatizing risk
of denial,
too cheap self forgiveness,
too easy hiddenness
of our secret
most private
feelings of guilt
about harming another

Both intentionally
and without malice,
accidentally.

A woman’s reluctant decision
to abort may feel unresolvable
between angelic win/win desires
and demonic win/lose fears
and angers

As might
her reluctant decision
to buy a gun
and several ominous rounds
of deadening ammunition

To protect herself
and her children
from traumatic demons
at her flimsy door

Not considering
her lack of experience
with braver angels
hoping to reassure her.

Therapeutic angels
may also wait,
curiously
and impatiently,
outside that same door,
searching for health’s
most wealthy bell
to dispel
shared dark shadows

In-between silent demons
we abhor
and sacred angels
we redemptively adore.

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Chaos Into Synergy

Synergy erects God’s love

In Ego’s supremacist face,
in wounded hearts,
in monoculturing
monotheistic minds

Of economic
and political Chaos

Sun enlightened Synergy
resurrects God’s omnipotent
resilient compassion.

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Economic Wounds

My capital investment wounds
don’t define me;
they refine MeWe
into Earth’s green peace
win/win strategic barrier
beyond which lies win/lose
and EarthLove v AnthroLife
nihilistic
entropic lose/lose
co-arising degenerative gravitation

MeWe have become
tragi-comedically
Me v We
on this good Earth
healthy and safe timeless
ReGenerative Day.

Trauma refines my humanity’s
risks
as Therapy defines EarthTribe divinity’s
co-operative economic opportunities
in Earth-Eden’s Peace

Where trust in healthy spacious Truth
refines
what Beauty
wealth slow-grown defines

Like sacred trinitarian space
in dipolar co-arising
green Anthro/Earth
recommunion peace-filled time.

My self-appreciation,
and Other non depreciation, assets
regenerate
whole-sum holonic gifts
to redefine MeWe,
and not Me v We;

Strategically played Win/Win
nurturing healthy nutritious wealth,

Refines my depression impressions
inhibiting repression
disempowering right-integral mind
suppression
from and yet also toward
unenlightened
unhealthy
unsafe silos
of neglected Me
against oppressed We.

My greatest appreciations
are my slow-grown co-invested wealth songs
and spoken word resonant health choice
voices

EarthMother’s cognitive/affective
double-binding verbal/non-verbal intellectual properties
invite curiosity about personal/political reflections
on and in
EarthTribe’s economic ecological compassion

WholeEarth
healthy Me
and safe-We assets,
impressive win/win gifts
for restoring EarthJustice

One timelessly nonviolent moment
in empirical
global
universal
systemic spacetime

Transcending embodied MeIdentity’s
inevitable mortality,
physical/mental dichotomy,
Lose/Lose end-time unverbalized lobotomy

Severed from EarthTribe’s cooperative-ownership
democratic healthy trust experience
within boundless sacred win/win curiosity,
personal/political nonanimosity,
ecological enculturation
of divine ancestors,
Whole Open Systemic
NonZero SkyYang/EarthYintegral Organic
organically and spiritually
nutritiously nurturing

Indigenous wisdom
defining/refining
panentheistic win/win
ecopolitically cooperative
bicameral experience

Liberal NonZero Soul
regeneration revolution
free from slow-growing mistrust
of cognitive/affective dissonant stress
about chronic
EconomicConserving
ClosedOff ZeroSum
degenerating AnthroOnly Revenue

Longing for long-term familial
resilient competitive capital
win/lose degenerative
bare survival of the predative wealthiest

Absence of win/win regenerative
therapeutic
cooperatively-owned
impressive ecological
economic green co-arising values.

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Rules of Engagement

For tonight
celebrating 163 birthdays
among the three of me,
my husband,
and oldest son’s May birthdays
within four days of each other

For tonight
unestranged,
and, if we each prefer,
for the remainder of our lives
more together,
less apart

We are here to understand
and express appreciation
for and with each other,
not to fix anyone’s misunderstandings
or positions
or perspective
or ignorance
or sin
against God
or Country
or common sense,
or love for each other,
or all of the above.

That way,
if we get confused
about which of these

White God
Red v Blue country
or common sense

Pillars of economic and political wisdom
we have so shamefully violated,

It doesn’t matter
because we’re not going to try
to understand Othering tonight

And, if you prefer,
for the remainder of our co-invested lives
more together,
less apart.

If you want feedback
about Past or Future You,
please ask
Because, for tonight,
we are here together
to hear how you are feeling now
about appreciating abundant you
as you are

And about appreciating us
as we are

And any memories of our past
we can revisit
with full integrity
appreciating you
as part of us–
your Me
as our interwoven We.

So, if you want feedback
about how and what you are doing
and not doing,
about who you are becoming
or not becoming,
you will have to ask.

If you get feedback
you cannot appreciate,
at least as yet,

Please, let’s help remind each other,
calmly and kindly,
that giving unsolicited feedback,
including how to solve your stupid problems
for you,
violates our rules for tonight
and, if you prefer,
for the remainder of our lives,
more together,
less apart.

These rules apply to you,
about yourself,
and about us,
and include me,
about me,
and about us.

I invite your kind
and calm reminder,
and my own
this night to appreciate
and celebrate who I am
as I am
and who you are
as we are
compassionately co-invested

Without judging ourselves
or Others

Without shaming ourselves
or blaming Others
for what we have failed to understand
and to express co-passionately,

To water our flowers
and rewarm our best days,
and not feed the cold dead weeds
of our worst days
before this our night
more together,
less apart.

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When UnGifted

“A gift is different from something you buy, possessed of meaning outside its material boundaries. You never dishonor the gift.” Robin Wall Kimmerer

A social gift,
a gift for compassionate verbal
and nonverbal communication,
a healing gift,
is different from personal cash investment,

Possessed,
sometimes haunting, gifts
with sacred meaning
timelessly transcending
secular
egocentered
anthrosupremacist
monopolistic double standards,
double gifted/ungifted boundaries.

Healthy inter-religious
interdependent
creolizing polycultures
societies
nation-states
restorative justice systems
regenerative green peace networks,
never dishonor whole-sum gifts as tools for
and not weapons against

Trashed as ballast
for Great Straight White Father’s
unfortunately necessary wars,
originally sinful threats,
collateral human resource damage
of the also-rans
ungifted
unpowerful
disposable

Justified despite thereby losing environmental health
and losing active hope
for resiliently gifted human peace.

It is harder for an unstraight
unwhite
unmale nonbinary child
to emerge from genderphobia
feeling sensually gifted
neurosystemically cherished
wanted as is
than it is for a gifted matriarch
to sing and dance
feeling cherished
(and not marketed)
in transcendent eyes
of a God-needled gatekeeper.

A wounded gift
is different from some Thing
we try to buy
because multicultural integrity
is too high a climate health price
for Patriarchal
Corporate RedRight Capitalists
to stop hoarding Earth’s
Cooperative BountyCircled
Multiculturally Valued Gifts.

A sacred Blue/Green non-binary child gift
asks something of us
not quite so RightRed dominant
mishanding healthier non-binary sway
toward bicamerally balancing intelligence

Taoistic
Zeroistic
WinWin Game Theoretic
and Organic Systems Therapeutic
nonviolently gifted communicators,
green EarthTribe full-sensory educators,
ecofeminist theologians,
poetically prophetic ecologians,
compassionately multiculturally proficient
as not not gifted Positive You

Tipping straight up
as down dipolar gift appointed
Me/SystemicWe
multiculturally therapeutic
co-empathic resonance

PolyCultural EarthJustice resilience gifts
have always 1/0 binary DNA spiraled
through YangStrength/YintegralFlow

Sun enlightening/Earth empowering,
LeftGreen/RightBlue seasoned
red sky boundary reasons
for morning mourning warning
while red sky at night
dimly follows,
sailor’s gifted delight

East yintegrally dawns
on each cooperative living system
throughout Her resilient emergence
to this YangNow/YinHere
Speaking/Deep Listening
bipartisan healing opportunity

To reconnect
and reverse monoculturing powers
spoken in Yang v Yin competitive sexualized dissonance
transposed to sensory LeftGreen/RightRed
ultraviolet neurosensory confluence

Panentheistic
synergetic goddess senses
for regenerative religious gifts
and resonantly co-empathic
sensory-sexual win/win shifts
communed through health-systemic trust
in cooperative
pay back Earth forward thriving democracy

Built
developed
gifted
in cooperative win/win ownership
alternative economies
ecologies wherein those thriving
with the most nutritional value
in autumn’s harvest Earth-gift season
are those most generously delighted
to share next spring’s seeds
and nuts,

Roots
and winter’s roosting eggs
as widely gifted
and deeply co-invested
as possible

To reassure each gifted Other
that our intended wealthy climate
and personal ego healthcare chances
are way win/win way
better together
than win/lose ungifted
unwanted
unlovely drifting apart

Toward Lose/Lose nihilism,
ecopolitical genocide,
militantly RedRight fascist dominant
Whole EarthSystemic ecocide.

But, at least
no one will ever force RedRight you
to reconsider queers
and transexuals
and ecofeminist women
as if, just perhaps,
also sacred gifts

Or, at least not reconsider giftedness
of anyone you know was,
or is…

You know…
that OTHER wounded
ungifted
ungraced
curiously displaced

In MotherEarth’s healthy
regenerating gifted
Wealthy Life is Love Revival.

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