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Resilient Peak Experiences

Gayla Speak Experiences
promote healing events
not intended to contribute to trauma
drama narratives.

Stories we tell
and trust
and thrust
and softly smile about
when we dare to leave
our stiff
stiffling closets.

RedYang
universal dominants
friendly feasting
with BlueYintegral
unitarian intent

Together praising massively thick
and deeply embedded polarities
of nearly omnipotent
erect and hard patrimony
loving MotherEarth’s holy matrimonies,
compassion

Transcending monotheistic challenging attitudes
failing to question long-term outcomes
of dubious commercial
graphic success,
LeftBrain dominant anthrosupremacism
on top
of Others,
unstraight
unmale
unwhite.

YangPole hot resilience
cannot sustain
without YinHole warm
wet
passionately inviting
fully dilated resonance

WuWei balance
of divinely favored Versatility
engaging neurosystemic respect
for healthy work and play shop sharing,
nakedly transparent
vulnerable wealthy caring
for integrity’s warm
unconditionally impassioned
potential

To not feel bought
and sold,
short-term rented
or long-term leased

Instead both offering
and receiving
Pole/Hole equity
co-empathically felt
and touched
by peak impassioned
sacred communion values

Wanting therapeutic fairness
to eliminate all mundane
no talent
no appreciation drama
in our cooperative
pantheistic sex lives
loves
lusts

Creating
and recreating,
spreading
and retightening,
a cooperative
healthy
sacred nutritional space

For rethinking our peak
orgasmic win/win experiences
when we felt mountainous
rolling climaxes
and deep valleyed seizures
flowing out
and out
encompassing peace

Lost in ecstasy
present to awesome YangPoles
and wondrous Yintegrity.

Scenes sensory developed
from natural roots
seen through spirited hearts

Longing to both host
and guest,
give
and receive again

Through joy of warm memory
and sad loss of peak intensity,
elation
despite risk
of subsequent depression,
transcending invitations
and farewells

Domesticated LeftMind enlightenment
and Wild RightBodied empowerment
together
reproducing root systemic Yintegrity
of natural health
and spiritual safety

Trauma prevention
by means of
Therapy optimization,
flowering Yang/Yin
Pole/Hole
Top/Bottom
curious dipolar co-arisings
of co-empathic consciousness

Erect conservation
engaging liberation,
Orthodox monotheistic worship
and Heterodox panentheistic communion,
Monocultural hot Redness
and cool Green
polycultural awareness,
Anthro-autocracy
and EarthTribe-democracy,
Monopolistic cathedrals
and EcoFeminist sacred outdoor space,
Good-humored human hypocrisy
and health-wealthy divine integrity

LeftBrain’s fascination
with both trusted Pole
and beautiful Hole
satisfies
as either lonely Pole
or isolated Hole
could not

Trained by anal-rejecting
well-endowed envying
anthrosupremacists
to achieve best
and brightest light
through patriarchal-capitalist means
and SWM privileged ways

To bless our
RightBrain indigenous
wise bicameral hearts,
re-membering
and re-imaging
double-binding
co-arisings

Both Pole and Holistic
And Win/Win nondualistic
peak climatic experiences

Yintegrally therapeutic,
so Yang trauma free
resilient wellbeing narratives
for holistic Holes
and panentheistic Poles
wherever we may sniff
and search
and find
co-gravitating dipolarities

Enlightening Left-Dominant
and empowering Right-Recessive
wise healthy wealth
of well-formed
fluid Paradise.

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Sacred Grows Integrity

Natural Sacraments

Emerge from what sacred center,
committed to integrity’s potential
become more resilient,
and not fragile

More nature-soul evolving
Earth’s deepest
widest
longest
roundest
mountainous
dark valleyed sacraments
of light and power.

Gandhi regenerated
humane love lives on
and
inhumane hate
abuse
bigotry
patriarchal colonization
do not.

Even lesser losses
tend to shadow fade
across therapeutic rememorizing space
and laws of positive passion

Bodhisattva ruling
warm wombed pregnant co-attachment
across unconditional win/win
peak messianic experience
of panentheistic timeless time,
wonder of light
awe of deep dark power.

“It gives me ineffable joy
to go on
trying to prove that”
love lives on
where hate cannot.

Gandhi,
affirming integrity’s sacred meaning
cooperates with therapeutic bloom,
and not hate’s Loser doom

Win/Lose uncivil wars
and internal traumas
and Othering 0-sum competitive history
of disintegrating ecopolitical hostility
cannot destroy
our NonZero root chakra Soul

Curiously
constantly
resiliently
resonantly inviting EarthJustice

Peace within
as without
only one orthodox way to live
yet a legion of ways to die,
biologically
ecologically
politically
economically
spiritually
naturally
unnaturally
unspiritually

ZeroSum Capitalistically
yet
pregnant NonZero Soulfully

Sacred Round Integrity
embracing Secular Civil Equity
as universal passion
invites unitarian compassion
as beloved
as bilateral breathing
love-life rivered
shivered
shimmering…
anticipating warm empathic regard.

This personal, intimate project
of becoming fully humane
holonically reflects Earth’s divine project
into panentheistic Spirit’s nature:
integral EarthTribe transcendence.

From what pantheistic soul
does inter-religious commitment
become more therapeutic,
and less traumatic?

Healing intimately transcendent potential,
Sacred Integrity’s naturally spiritual,
Earth conservationally liberal
universal life–unitarian love
healthy multisensory
peak experience
merging resilient
Bodhisattva synergy
of EarthTribe sacraments.

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Empowering Voice

It seems to me,
declared the preacher
to the distracted music Teacher,
that sacred MonoTheism
smugly explains
and exalts AnthroOwnership Privilege
to ordain,
buy and sell
Earth health-care rights.

It may sound to we,
sang the woke musician
refraining
and training Her preacher,
that rabid AnthroSupremacy
explains,
and expects a cooperative
bipartisan resolution to
the colonizing historical problem
of Straight
WhitePrivileged
monotheistic
monocultural
monopolistic WealthCarelessness
about Trust
and Integrity
and Compassion

As if our Original Prime Relationship
was Win/Lose traumatized,
punishing experiences of vengeful justice

Divinely jealous
and autocratic intent
of a tyrant society
terrorist military
dogmatist dignitary
fascist ecocidal obituary.

Going in the opposite direction
compassionate
win/win co-invested
ecopolitical co-erection
sounds like the more pleasant
and health resilient
green wealth
peak sacred experience
co-arising dipolar emergent
win/win selection.

Which is why,
revised the preacher
with the music Teacher,
a universally individual CreatorGod
is made in the imaginative image
of AnthroSupremacy

LeftBrain verbal dominant
baritone-bass resonant sacred Privilege
to pursue economic monopolies
and political patriarchal rightwing societies
and sensual/sexual binary monocultures
and religious monotheistic autocracies

Hierarchies of power
empires made of golden ManStrong
Might/Light resilience
gone somewhat flat
of integrity’s best health-wealth
less dour and sour
green/blue sacred fresh
neurosensual
Open Whole Black Sacred potential.

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Spiritual Vocations

If your peak experiences

have led to some mature sexual spiritual vocation

Beware, such engaging vocations

are best as special event avocations

Yet unconditionally applied

with win/win nonzero sum

whole open systemic

warm regard.

YangPole/YinHole alacrity

CoEmpathic integrity

sanctity

both lusty and luscious,

sweaty and sweet,

empowering and enlightening,

mountainous and valleyed,

pulsating and holy,

secularly impassioned and sacredly compassionate

LeftBrain engorged and RightBrain engaged

Liberating loud wonder

and Conserving silent awe

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Dark Fruit

Strange Fruit choreography
speaks to me of seeing
and smelling

this strange evil fruit
of hatred
and bigotry
and fear

and straight white man
perpetual menace.

Choreographing trauma
only infrequently translates the words
of DarkHole poems

Rhetoric hoping to carry
the emotional shock of evil awe
and dark timeless burdens

Terrifying wonder
as perceived
within this Strange Fruit Dark VerbalView

Rather than the more interior non-verbal feelings
of profound inhumane disarray,
division,
hate climates
and monocultures

of straight white monotheistically judgmental,
capitalist-driven,
commodification
and disposition
of semi-domesticated talking animals
live stock,
breeding stock,
slave labor

Too smart for their well-endowed britches
and es

Strange Dark Fruit,
the enslaving racist face
frantically encircling
straight white fascism
in full flagrant,
strange southern fruit,
industrially resilient horror.

Strange Fruit Anthropocene,
with polyculturally felt choreography
of ecopolitical
disempowering/unenlightened
monochromatic lack of appropriate appreciation for color,
and drama,

and with way too much
Patriarchal-Capitalist
monotheistic
StrangeFruit trauma.

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Servicing The Man

What looks sexy
and aesthetically pleasing
on Society’s well-endowed Page

May not feel so hot
when StraightWhite Daddy’s capital-headed
fornication
leads toward Great White Father’s abortion
of global green forests
and blue skies
and sun-warmed water
EarthCare

Cosmic polarizing predations
against holy spirit invitations
results in an EarthTribe clearance sale

Beginning with AnthroSupremacist churches
and synagogues and temples
and spreading to
national outside natural polar imbalance

Repressing inside spiritual
holy
dark wombed
shaded
creolizing cathedrals
of remembered co-attachment

Patriarchal greed
for punishing EarthMother panentheistic pleasure
could bankrupt ocean-front insurance companies,
financial loan institutions
now borrowing on Daddy’s borrowed
colonizing monotheistic
monopolistic
monoculturing LeftBrain
verbal anthro-privileged intent
to rapaciously thrive,
win/lose conquer
this self-imposed survivalist
bipartisan competition game

Punishing those who would trespass
against the Royal King’s
vulnerable
transparent
passionate
root BlackHole sacred chakra.

Transgressions against Patriarchal profits
long and widely capitalized
heads of strong-rooted colonial estates
minds
with bodies sensate
sedate
sensual

Sometimes olive oiled
salivating
loined
oiled with sexy

Deep and thick rooted round chakra tools
for health-wealth care
including Daddy’s root chakra
responding warmly
to unconditional neurosensory
WhitePrivilegedPole/BlackNeedyHole
integrity

Inviting a more resiliently brilliant
ecofeminist EarthTribe therapeutic tool
balancing peak and valley neurosystemic restorations
for preventing further ego/ecocidal
dogmatically straight
LeftBrain monotheistically privileged
anthromale invasive polar Yang
overpowering defensive round sound Yin,
x-out v. y-in chronic
EarthTribe anthro-hypertension

Related perhaps
to the Royal view
that my sacred God’s root chakra
shouldn’t stink,
much less respond
with transparently warm
and unconditional
no poles or parties barred
regard

For compassionate
peak experience memories
going way back
when Yang sentient SunFather
warmed and lit up
EarthMother’s sacred
BlackVolcanic Holy Spirits
of healthy wealth integrity

Enlightening
bilaterally co-empowering

What looks sexy
and aesthetically pleasing
on EarthTribe’s pantheistic
Yang/Yin stage.

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Appropriately Polite Company

It seems maniacal,
Black Rabbit Hole easy
kinda sleazy
to sexualize every thought

And, yet,
all too easy
to desexualize
to decontextualize
multisensory feelings
deep and widely organic
roots from ancient EarthMother wisdom

Sometimes polycultural transparency above
conjoining multicultural vulnerability below
give peak orgasmic conversational sway

To passion’s Left/Right co-balancing day
of protruding Yang verbal dominance
seducing Yintegrity’s river-valleyed
eagerly inviting pre-verbal
pregnant wombs of co-invested
cooperative win/win interests
in peak and valley neurosystemic
indigenous traditions,
spiritedly natural

Seldom known to partisan politics
and weaponized capitalistic
colonizing rapacious prominence
of patriarchal nationalistic populism

As if, somehow,
matriarchal EarthTribe integrity
of deeply thought/felt hearts
with womanist
deep valley ecopolitical minds
were less morally appropriate
than indecent ecocidal exposure.

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Exit Strategy

To prepare for final cosmic breath
exhaled
echoing first breath
inhaling
waiting to exhale
pausing for Earth’s final soliloquy

To terminate all humane
and inhumane relationships
Commitments
and lack thereof
Obligations
and assets
Risks
and opportunities

To clean up any risks
of disenfranchising anomalies,
coloring too wildly
outside monoculturing lines;
to do no harm
and feel most helpful
for future regenerations

To choose to say goodbye,
farewell
with loving kindness,
warm regard for myself
and kindred Others

To not grasp and cling and hide
due to fear of personal loss;
to embrace sufficient curious courage
even in these last darkening days

To engage in the exit process as deeply
and fully
as I engaged in my birthing process–
neither of which involve my total control
of my most intimate and integral situations;
both of which involve some range of choice-making
sometimes
especially regarding property
and especially NOT regarding interpersonal relationships,
dipolar co-arising
win/lose risk and win/win opportunity,
life as love
in fast and slowing lanes
and recycling seasonal circles

To optimize health,
safety,
joy,
release,
freedom for Self and Others
in this final preparation for Great Transition

To minimize trauma,
stress,
anxiety,
depression,
sadness,
claustrophobia,
stuckness

To let go gracefully
with emotional intelligence

To not get lost
in loss

To warmly embrace
my turn to speak
and sing
and dance
and possibly communicate
has passed

To clear a sacred space
and sufficient time
for Others to listen
more compassionately together
than falling carelessly apart.

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Enabling Empathy

It’s weird
and sometimes wild
living with a non-LeftBrain verbal dominant
aspiring child,
now young adult

I find myself waiting for him
to nonverbally connect
and correct me
about my patriarchal domineering
economic and political ableist sins
of RightBrain felt omission
from commercial value
and, perhaps worse,
my passionately sacred co-messianic
self-responsible
unconditional co-enabling
sins of RightBrain depressive
trauma approach/avoid
ambivalent
obsessive/compulsive
commission
and reiterative recommission.

And
he never disappoints
going to the right
felt point

Could no more lie
or steal
than feel envy
fueling greed
for tomorrow’s self-sufficient hopes
and egocentric dreams

At night
when we sleep,
if not before
then after an overpowering seizure
He can explain to me

No ancient spiritual 1 experience
could be other than HereNow natural 0 feeling
linear and yet circular
regeneratively enspiraling

Without LeftBrain dominant
defensive weapons
1 protagonist neither can
nor would
nor should
retool and lavishly display 0 word voices
outside inadequately disabled numeric language
for nonverbal co-passion’s inside images

Sensory receptive memories,
cause-effect singular explanations
and co-arising circular narratives
of co-redemptive recycling
spiraling vicious
and virtuous
negative 1 bipolarity
and not-not positive non-0 dipolarity
co-arising appositional circles

Not divorcing physical Nature
outside abled bodies
from not just metaphysical
Spirit inside minds

Deep listening back through neurosystemic compassion
wet and warm
and dispassion
darkly parched and cold
bilateral multicultural
multigenerational
poly-paradigmatic
panentheistic
enthymematic health and safe feelings
making and remaking
neurosystemic distinctions

Integrity’s RightOriginal Mind
passion for outside health
and safe internal wealth
co-regeneration

Win/Win default
poly-passioned balance
bilateral

Ego Yang Verbal Left
stern deep-voiced patriarchal
sacred co-passioning
Eco Yintegral NonVerbal Right
pre-bicameral Taoist humming
indigenously outflowing
growing wise CoPassion

For positive-health EarthMother
warm comforting wet wombs
sacred surrounding
positive-wealth AnthroChild
co-operatively panentheistic
wild
belly laughing co-empathic passion

Internally sung and danced
oral wu-wei wisdom traditions
of body/mind
nature/spirit
out/inside formation
flowing co-relational balance
synergetic harmony
symphony
resonant integrity

Grows wiser pre-verbal
cooperatively positive health
than multigenerational
disabling apartheid nightmares
of polypathic abuse
and monoculturing neglect

Anticipating inside/outside mortal
-1/-0 lose/lose
universal cold
and feverishly hot tremors
predicting dark disuniting trauma.

It feels weird post-peak,
and sometimes wild,
continuing to sacredly aspire
to merit this gift

RightMind panentheistic survival
of LeftBrain talking
ego-monotheistic thriving
exclusive AnthroSpeaking salvation stories

Living
and apparently dying
repeatedly
with a non-LeftBrain verbal prominent
aspiring child,
now contentedly sleeping
in compassionate comfort
and organically warm
sacred joy

Hopefully
dreaming that we feel pleasantly weird,
sometimes provoking wild belly laughs,
feeling free outside a LeftBrain verbal dominant
label,
name,
+1 inside v -0 outside frame
EitherSacred Or SecularizedDisEnfranchisedOther
possibly unhealthy and unsafe
win/lose competitive imbalance

Preferring
RightMind prominent
warm and wet wombed compassion
emerging -(-0) inside/outside +1
equitable development dreamwork
emergent compassion conversations

Weird
and sometimes wild
living within a non-LeftBrain verbal
monoculturally dominant

Instead,
a more Here/Now
timelessly balancing
copassioning moment
of in/out-digenous
resiliently peaceful wisdom

To choose soulmates
health wealthy
and wisely

As they choose
to dream with you.

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Orthodox Experiences

I was bruised by dogmatically non-evangelical
Christ monotheistic Jehovah judgmental bad faith
of divine powers
equally entitled
to generously create love
and selfishly act out of jealousy
divine punishment for unfaithful sins
of worship omission
and secularizing commission

Prescribed by the inspired
and kleptocratically negotiated
Greek
and Latin
and English transubstantiations
of AnthroSupremacist visions
speaking
and singing
and dancing
in white male dominant translations

Royal capital is holy
next to divine monopolistic inspiration
of presumably omniscient sacred values
captured by scribes
and conserved by councils
of presumably straight white orthodox
literate males
representing ecclesial royalty

Featuring Jewish Saul
turned Christ Active Revivalist Paul
writing self-governance purification letters
suggesting that ecclesial rituals
of a polytheistic sensual nature
are the opposite
of our most monotheistic spiritual
yet HolySpirit EarthMatriarchal mindful
sacred panentheistic experiences.

I am also more metaphysically resonant
as a YangNatural/YinSpiritual co-passion Taoist
believing through deep listening
to my (and possibly our)
deepest restorative regenerous justice
Yang/Yin co-operative communication intentions
throughout male/female co-investing reproductive
cause-effect linear days
and co-empathic
regeneratively resilient
lunar recircling nights

CoPassioning
yintegral humane sexuality
as our deepest,
highest
and best sacred sensory practice
positive synergy practice
health wealthing practice
till we get ourselves
Yang in and Yintegral out
depolarizing balance
resiliently Left/Right
co-empathic
resonant dialogical praxis

Bodhisattva
co-messianic
co-passionate Left/Right
internal/external communionation
practice
verbally positive thoughts
and metaphysical theories
about nonverbal healthy felt
nonviolent physical feelings.

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