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Fear of Failure

I know you don’t want to hurt
or even disappoint
me

And I know you don’t want to hurt
yourself.

Yet still your shame
and self-blame hurt

Your self-judging
punishing closet frame
suffocates our transparent life
my caring curiosity craves,
and mutual vulnerability
our sharing courage braves.

Addiction to feeling happy
is not free
and connected to sensory satisfaction
nor to ego significant gratification
and certainly not natural and spiritual bilateral wealth
of healthy feeling substantiation,

Which, as you know,
I also recognize as body and mind healthy
choice voices.

Before you even small voice object,
I also recognize you may feel natural
or spiritual choice
has nothing to do with driving off
without “goodbye,
see you safely soon.”

If no physically tolerable choice
of resources to feed serotonin
and water dopamine,
I know, from years of isolated,
neglected experience,
how frightening loss of lonely ego-powered control
can feel.

Speaking not of choice,
but inside swatting interminable Voice
never still
until you self-shame
and blame
hiding hurts
and unfree frames
us both,
unhappy you,
not Here,

And me
loving enough for Us,
not yet Now

Still worrying
what will voiceless nonchoice happen
disempowered There
and unenlightened Then
suddenly Amen

Our silently uninvited End.

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Dubious Miracles

My EarthMom used to stand easy
at our kitchen sink,
looking out across our fertile backyard
vegetable garden,

Rising from humbly short
but brilliantly red/green
bodhisattva radishes
inside white but spicy,
not the least bit sweet privileged
and vanilla nonperformance,

To the back soldier rows
of sweet yellow corn,
husky green
and stalky tall
militaristic Northern erections
toward seductive southern sunlight,

While my WaterBearer
SeedPushing
WeedPulling Mom
leisurely savors cold well water
drinking away thirst
from her misty blue metal cup.

One summer hot afternoon event,
yet this time industriously revisited
until deeply worn into sacred meaning,
without turning toward me
or any other optional consumer audience,

She reconsiders the Messiah’s most mysterious miracle,
to her open,
but first and last questing, mind
was turning well water
into wine.

“I’ve tasted patriarchal wine.
I don’t believe it’s an improvement.”

While I didn’t say it,
but I admit thinking it hungrily unfit,
I’m not so sure about those capitalist wafers either.

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Peak Communion Addiction

When struggling with addiction
to uncontrolled
and biologically controlling agents
and competitive outside agencies

Earth is helpful in mentoring patience
with failures of humane self-control
to extend,
feed and water
and grow mindbody wealth
of unwalled health.

So, when possible,
as possible,
extend your compassion
away from impatience
with your own owned egocentrism,
from which we all LeftBrain dominantly suffer,
and, instead, turn toward actively felt RightBrain
curiosity

About understanding your addiction cycles,
addictive relationships
vacillating in-between fear and anger
over inadequately safe and nourishing
cooperative humane attachments,

Like, for instance,
the primal neuro-sensory positive
happy
healthy resonant co-empathic
co-relationship you ego-shared
with your original eco-EarthMother
red-blood empowering

And enlightening green MotherEarth cooperative
co-invested
co-passion.

This active curiosity
about your own history of feeling lonely,
unwanted,
detached,
shunned,
marginalized-marginal
unnecessary
dispurposed,
depressed

Is not where
and when
and how you might also remember feeling
curiously connected,

High seratonin
and deep dopamine enriched,
resonantly and resiliently climaxing
health optimizing ego/eco-mother
bilaterally enlightened connection

Re-connection to our Universal Sacred Promise
of each integral Ego’s portentous meaning,
secular purpose,
re-connection to pre-historic memories
of perfectly compassionate nature inhaled
and spirit exhaled

Naturespiralation warm and active
high and deep
light empowering internal/external
natural and spiritual
scientific and aesthetic
Truth and Beauty

Here and Now
resiliently co-climaxing
curious impressions

Of secular addictions
to sacred resonant re-attachment.

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Choosing Happiness

Tonight I heard a terminally cancered
yet not cancelled
singer songwriter say
“I can’t wait for life to not be hard
before choosing to be happy.”

She spoke well from her own experience
and I remain moved,
but also curiously confused
about physical v mental
hardness.

For someone with chronic depression
or suffering from loneliness,
chronic climate anxiety,
lack of nonviolent
and actively compassionate communication,
pathological attachments,
monocultural self-depreciation,
transparent and vulnerable dissociation,

For someone profoundly missing
resonant and resilient
spiritual and natural healthy wealth,
mental and physical,
sacred and secular,

Our primary suffering
includes not having ego-empowering
and cooperatively enlightened choices
to be happy,
nor healthy.

Although, perhaps more individual choice
can be slow-grown
to positively engage EarthMother’s outside nurture
with robust healthy integrity,
intent,
cooperative investment practice,
courage,
active curiosity and hope,

Lurking,
hanging out,
furtively searching around dark mystic
re-connecting sacred corners
for co-empathic compassion,
light,
power,
sufficient win/win energy
not feeling outside alone
as also inside lonely,

Not feeling heterosexual
as also homophobic,
any more

Or less than I can
and will power
to enlighten health wealthiest opportunities

Here as Now engagement
is not over There and Then war
against PatriarchalCapitalist PC Them v Healthy Us

Left spatial seen
and heard consecutive Right deductions,
temporal happiness reductions,
felt and touched cumulative inductions
of each ego LeftBrain dominant voice
is not hopelessly PC alone
bereft of ecosystemic RightMind
felt Here/Now happy
healthy EarthMother’s solidarity choice.

To choose existential EarthHappiness,
sacred celebrating sacramental joy,
divine con-celebration,
is to choose to extend
and embrace polyculturing health

InsideSpace as Outside PC Time,
Ego as part of Earth’s healthy resonating
WholySpirit inspiring
to choose optimizing integral AnthroWealth
of ego/eco-resilient compassion

PhysicalHere/MentalNow
throughout Earth’s integral
Space/Time well-being,
with flashes of healing happiness
leisurely breaking through
like dawn seducing sunlight.

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Green HumanEquity

If you were to economically invest
in polyculturally healthy ecology

And politically co-invest
in multiculturally wealthy theology,

Then you and we
thou and me
might responsively respect
wealthy co-invested integrity
to reproduce healthy co-empathic engagement.

We wealthy lives
are not egocentrically about competitive security
garnering famous
nor infamous
apartheid places within
and without verbal histories
recreative narratives
prehistoric memories

All about cooperatively winning Earth’s most healthy space
in SolarSystemic,
and somewhat smaller scale
time and space restoring
wealthy health optimizing
win/win ecological strategy

Which is to simply reiterate,
AnthroBiology is equal to individual ego passions
as EarthEcology co-arises
multiculturally living pre-historic nonverbal
on through historic verbalizing,
sometimes singing and dancing,
resonantly and resiliently chancing
EarthTribe compassionate synergy
potential integrity
ionic and iconic equalizing energy,
natural and spiritual,
bilateral and bicameral.

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Moaning Out Meaning

The meing
and mining
and mowing
and moaning
and meaning of life
could not be so different
for girls and boys,

She and he and s/he speaking indifferent
hearing purpose

Enlightening wealthy spirit mess
empowering healthy nature nest,
polyculturing Earth’s most profoundly beautiful
and resiliently truthful
nonviolent EarthPeace future
empowering health investiture

And sacred enlightening safety
for all EarthTribe duty
regenerating mature
degenerating immature
fighting integrity’s great green
transpositional culture.

Future meaningful prediction
depicting past prehistoric light
and power
and energetic meaning redaction

Of Heavenly boys and Earthly girls,
surfing oceans and organic lands,
raining waters in fertile soil
expiring seeds and inspiring eggs
of bicameral toil

Consciousness of EarthTribe’s meing
mining
moaning for more cooperatively resilient
co-empathic
compassionate post-sacred meaning

Contextually integral
polypathic sensory synergy,
multiculturally cerebral
polymathic energy
in meing
and down mining
and out mowing
and deep moaning
and wide meaning
of love’s co-passioning potential.

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Pope Francine’s TransLaudato

If Laudato Si’
were written by Pope Francine
and not me
replacing Pope Francis’
root anthrosupremacist choices
with similar
but more nuanced
and multiculturally inclusive choices,
cooperatively healthy premises
might further enlighten
to resolutely empower
a rather more transubstantially engaging
creolizing catholic haute cuisine.

110. The LeftBrain dominant specialization

belonging to industrializing
commodifying technology
makes it difficult to see
the larger restoring health justice picture,
ecofeminist designed more circular,
less straightly white bright male

Fragmentation of EitherRight/OrWronglyLeft knowledge
proves purposeful
for reductive
concrete nonorganic applications,
And yet straight white Northern predative male privilege
often leads to a loss
of healthy creolizing appreciation
for our catholic global open ecopolitical system,

For the spiraling distress/destress dynamic relationships
in-between fully articulated Left
cognitive dominant paradigms,
about things,
for reductive commodification
By ignoring RightMind ecofeminist prominence
supporting broader
multigenerational temporal health horizons

Which remain LeftBrain irrelevant
to this quarter’s financial profit report.

This very RightWing dominant ecopolitical fact
makes it hard to find adequate ways
of solving and resolving
more complex health systemic problems
in today’s StraightWhitePatriarchal
AnthroLives Matter Most
in a monoculturing monotheistic worldview,

Particularly problematic
are environmental health problems
and capitalist
patriarchal
monopolistic divestments
starving Whole OpenCatholic EarthTribe solidarity,
gated apartness against the lower caste poor
and non-anthroprivileged;

These problems cannot be therapeutically dealt with
from a single monoculturing
monotheistic StraightWhiteMale perspective
or from a monopolistic fragile field
of ecopolitical egotheistic privatized interests,
investments,
market control,
and multimedia access.

A science which would offer autonomous LeftBrain solutions
to the great health transition issues
of how to restore Earth Justice
would necessarily have to take into health and safety account
the data generated
and regenerated by organic ecowomanist fields
of ecological healing relationships
and theological SacredEarth knowledge
of co-redemptive worldview rebirth
and stewardship,

Including interreligious
creolizing catholic philosophies
and multicultural social ethical engagement;

But, this is a difficult
polytheistic
cooperative feminist economic revaluation habit
to Left/Right bicamerally acquire today.

Nor are there genuine economic enlightened
and politically empowering
democratic energy ethical horizons
to which one can secular/sacredly appeal
for ecosystemic resilient/resonant healthy balance.

StraightWhiteMale dominant life
gradually becomes a surrender
to pathological win/lose situations
conditioned by Either technological capital-endowed machines

Or organic mindbody health and safety
not viewed as the principal capitalist key
to the patrilinear meaning
of monotheistically endowed existence.

In our concrete global climate pathology situation
confronting Black TransGender Wealthy HealthLives Matter
for restoring EarthJustice,
there are a number of LeftBrain
RightWing dominant symptoms
which point to what is toxic absence
of interreligious dialogue,

Such as environmental degradation,
chronic desecration anxiety,
a loss of the win/win purpose
of multicultural joyful life
and of cooperative,
well-humored,
multigenerational matriarchal domestic
local healthy resilient community living.

Once more
we see that transparently wounding anthrosupremacist realities
are more financially important
than global health ideas,
regenerating polyculturing procedures,
ecofeminist healthy wealth policies,
permaculturally integral designs
inclusively engaging
nonviolently catholic communication
sharing robust well-being
re-connecting ecological
re-ligioning theological
anthro-womanist worldviews

If Laudato Si’
were Caring for Earth
by Pope Francine
and not bicameral me
creolizing catholic haute cuisine.

Note:

110, Laudato Si’, On Care for our Common Home, by Pope Francis

“The specialization which belongs to technology makes it difficult to see the larger picture. The fragmentation of knowledge proves helpful for concrete applications and yet it often leads to a loss of appreciation for the whole, for the relationships between things, and for the broader horizon, which then becomes irrelevant. This very fact makes it hard to find adequate ways of solving the more complex problems of today’s world, particularly those regarding the environment and the poor; these problems cannot be dealt with from a single perspective or from a single set of interests. A science which would offer solutions to the great issues would necessarily have to take into account the data generated by other fields of knowledge, including philosophy and social ethics, but this is a difficult habit to acquire today. Nor are there genuine ethical horizons to which one can appeal. Life gradually becomes a surrender to situations conditioned by technology, itself viewed as the principal kay to the meaning of existence. In the concrete situation confronting us, there are a number of symptoms which point to what is wrong, such as environmental degradation, anxiety, a loss of the purpose of life and of community living. Once more we see that ‘realities are more important than ideas’.”

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Primal LoveWombs

What is your ego’s original,
centrally embodied ZeroZone,
and yet sacredly ancient NonZero Universal
prime relationship with organic EarthTribe?

When still in your mother’s warm
co-habituating womb.

At least attached,
but probably committed
to win/win health/wealth
ecowomanist compassion,
if not outright and left biological addiction,
solidarity of Left/Right minded
late-emergent
co-relational image imprinting

This is exclusively not my LeftBrain dominant
ego’s mindbody growing
cancerous ZeroSum monoculturing experience,

Devoid of neuro-sensory winSelf/winOther love,
enriching joy and well-fed prosperity,
economic ecosystemic nutritional value,
nonviolent communication
cooperatively restoring ego/eco-normative peace
through bilaterally interdependent EarthMother Justice,

Lest we forget,
we are not the only creatures
emerging from ecofeminist wombs,
eggs,
seeds,
MotherTree win/win
multi-regenerationally interconnected
re-ligiously multiculturing nuts,

Space/time enscripted unfolding DNA
health/wealth fractal form and functions
of originally nonviolent developmental communication,

Nutrition,
bicameral cooperative education,
ecowomanist original NonZero Prime CoRelationship
promising integral health/wealth
interdependent
lifetime/EarthSpace consciousness.

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UnWeaponed Education Tools

Sacred health
is also secular green wealth
integrity
is a Taoist
non-zeroist yang/yintegral
inclusive tool for progressive social ecology

Collaboratively informed with co-arising
co-gravitating
co-empathic
co-passionate
multiculturing processes
of cooperative interreligious
inter-reconnecting
intersectionally recommunicating theology.

This bicameral balancing re-education project
for developing healthy organic communication
reweaves RightSide cultural wealth prominence
with LeftSide climate health dominance
for and of all interdependent
inter-communing embodied minds

Deep and wide listening and seeing,
feeling and touching,
smelling and tasting
sensory-neural polypathic systems

Are our empathic metacommunication ego systems
re-connecting
re-ligioning internal nutritional economic exchanges
with external communication sensory networks
experienced across a health/wealth variable range
from projecting Lose/Lose
violent outcomes
through protecting Win/Win
nonviolent incomes.

Nutrition’s neuro-sensory integrity messages
respond to ecologically resilient health relationships
and EarthJustice energy democratization,

Win/Win nonzero-zone cooperative games
for repurposing inclusive polycultural values

Progressively communicating
nonviolent green communions
transubstantiating
theologically resonant wealth
developing
tools that cannot become
misinforming
weapons
against fluid wealthing
that cannot become walled

LeftBrain dominating minds
resisting WholeEarth open systemic matters
favoring multicultural education
supporting economic ecological prosperity
as polytheistic theological RightMind pleasure

Nonhedonistic Yang
scientific paradise
deep listening
cooperative learning
hidden within polypathic Yintegral
grace grateful
promise

Of metaphysically sacred wealth
is also secular health,
EarthIntegrity’s great transformative potential.

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TransCuriosity

That’s queer!
said transculturing Curiosity,
peering out Her sacred big-boxed window
panes of misty white fog
gently covering her view
of upstream tiding River’s
mysterious grey
reverse time flow

Sometimes,

OK, really too often,
I could use more courageous exercise

But, Other times
I’m more content, inviting compassionate awareness
of Earth’s queer tidal rivers,
surfing sacred oceans
surrounding anthropocentric privileged Kingdoms

Patristic Empires already capable of replaying WinWin
with both holy bicameral Hands
of better monetized Nature/Spirit Balance
blue/green indigenously wise reconnection
ComPassion ReEducation.

I tire of ageing while standing
inside here now still gazing outside
where all my best copassioned sexual imagination
interdependent neuro-sensory anticipation/anxiety
intersectionally unfolds,

Usually remarkably nonviolent
normatively win/win
without anthropatriarchal
StraightWhiteWesternMale
upstream privileged
reactions against TransIntegral EcoFeminists

My own uncurious RightBrain oppressed nudging
invites for healthier win/win both/and non-shunning
longs to divest of over-capitalized
RightWing patristic
LeftBrain queer dominatrix
curiously demented
EarthBound ManiFestering
GodWord Judging Justice
finds SacredEarth Rapture
compatible with TransMatricide.

MultiGenerational deep learning
ecosystemic education invites these curious Both/And
rivers of misty
RightBrain foggy felt mysteries
nuancing questioning comments
feeding and breeding
nonviolent multiculturing responses

My cooperatively owned QueenCuriosity
anticipates Win/Win cooperative dragging outcomes
predicting ecopolitical transregenderal,
scientifically inclusive,
collaborative communication research
and nutritional transitional change

For climatic rivers of resilient health
multi-tipping up and downstream points
inhaling
while already anticipating
transubstantiating win/win exhales
of re-inspiring recorrections,
great and small transtherapy
for blue/green health education
supporting our best
and brightest,
empowering
and enlightening wealth.

Curiosity naturally thirsts
for enspirited inspiring examples.
Let’s see…
Here (Laudato Si’, #102)
Pope Francis strategically asks,
“How could we not acknowledge the work of many
scientists
and engineers
who have provided alternatives
to make development sustainable?”

Strangely,
my simultaneous queer curiosity
invokes indigenous Nature/Spirit
felt trans-reversion Both/And also asks

How could healthy EarthMothers not acknowledge the work
and Win/Win strategically cooperative play
of many deductive
LeftBrain dominant exploring
capital-starving corporate scientists
and transcultural communication engineers
cooperatively designed mediation empowerers
facilitators
meditators
knowledge follows deep feeling teachers
nonviolent communicating parents
ego/eco-systemic trans-therapists

Who have, together, already provided
way more anthro-supremacist
over-capitalized patrilinear
monoculturally combative alternatives
to make militaristic
inhumane ballistic
LeftBrain On/Off technological Natures
-overpowering-
BothCause/AndEffectiveness co-arising organic-transpiraling Spirits;
thus, degenerating more unsustainable
inhumane
StraightWhiteWesternMale ecopolitical overdevelopment?

“What kind of skills will he or she need
in order to get a job,
understand what is happening around him
or her,
and navigate the maze of life?”
cooperatively researches
and competitively publishes
Yuval Noah Harari
titling 21 Lessons
for the 21st Century
in “Education” (p. 266)

Also transregeneratively asking,
to my troubled embodied
sensory-neural informed mind,
respiring information
and expiring transflowation,

What kind of multicultural communication skills
and polycultural nutrition systems
and health/wealth education networks
will we transcendently feel
and cooperatively want
in order to interconnect with EarthTribe’s win/win
cooperative EarthJustice trans-restory
gracefully co-inviting
sacred pro-blue/green healthy life vocations,

To understand what is locally happening
globally still fog-enshrouded grey around
upstream tidal pushing Him
and within downstream flowing Her

To win/win trans-remediate
co-facilitate
this multi-regenerational
complex space/time big-boxed maze
of co-empathic bicameral love is trans-cerebral life
as hate is apartheid death

In this secular LeftBrain HereSpace
and sacred RightBrain NowTime
yanged yintegrity,
blue/green unitarian
TransCuriously Substantiated Universe…

Still almost back to NonZero
Queer!
said transculturing Curiosity,
peering out Her sacred big-boxed window
silently suffering
grey fog-recovering panes.

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