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Treasuring the Educator

A former friend of mine
tricked me into becoming
something I am not

The volunteer President
of our condo association,
a position I clearly cannot afford
midst trifling disassociations.

We were starting our Autumn tradition
of arguing about next year’s budget
which typically continues
until we recommend something utterly preposterous
to our membership
which they will certify
remains inevitably inept
and fail to ratify.

As usual
I had brought my manicure
and pedicure kit
and was just starting to work on my nails
when I noticed our Treasurer
became more animated
whittling his thick stick
as he became more concerned
about what residents are losing

More than interested
in what resilience we all might gain
by cooperatively discussing
what we hoped to win
by remaining together to complain
rather than lose
by fostering further
whittled down polarization,
debate,
predative Patriarchal Capitalist
zero-sum economic games
not for the faint hearted to explain
and weak-nailed to refrain,
furthering our political apartheid
without EarthJustice
therapeutic rebate

Our parsimonious Treasurer
operates from a presumed strategic position
of holding Aces
in all four empowered
and enlightened suites,
empirical voices,
win/lose trumping win/win choices:

  1. Legal institutional document authority
    which provokes a yawn,
  2. Political membership voting power
    with an 88 to 5 majority
    on his oppressive side,
  3. Economic responsibility
    to our tax and fee paying majority
    with neglected cuticles, and
  4. social-cultural expectations
    for rational
    Straight White Male privileged
    self-interested
    capitalist business behaviors
    like playing golf
    and paying lap dancers
    to do what I would gladly do for free
    if I could avoid these dreadful
    defeating meetings.

While switching to my feet,
I also noticed
our tax-payer responsible Educator
vigorously responded
while vehemently knitting two
and furiously purling three

She moves away from
prior win/win positions
favoring therapeutic strategies
when she votes against
a loan for beat-down residents
to fix our leaky
crumbling corporate problems

Rather than abstaining
because now,
unlike last week,
she has become unclear
about whom
and possibly why
the Treasurer
and the Accountant
and the Bookkeeper
will debit just the 88 Residents
or the 5-vote School
for improvements
exclusive to the residential side
of our sadly governing equation.

I also notice
our scarf-knitting Educator
has moved away from supporting
a win/win trade formerly championed:
White Mansion for the School
and Glass Factory for the Residents

Now she contests this even-steven
to invest in another strategic competition,
win/lose backpedaling,
now claiming disproportionate future values
for bargaining,
debate positioning,
repolarizing
while she rips out yet another ribbing row,
another year too ripped off
not grow

Perhaps,
one day in our dismal future
we will see where this might go

More cooperatively thawing
drawing toward win/win center
for indigenous sacred wisdom values:

  1. licit equity of whittling natures
    and knitting medicine spirits,
  2. politically crafted co-empathy,
  3. economic health-nailed co-investments, and
  4. socially therapeutic
    restorative justice
    favoring win/win strategic right
    and left-handed
    and footed
    health is polyculturing wealth
    communication

Because clearly this night
we are not having our best
multicultural non-fright
cooperative mediation
of momentary delight

Wherein we retain well-manicured focus
on what we anticipate
moving forward more beautifully together
rather than lost in whittled down anxiety
about what we will never support

For lack of egocentric
anthropocentric
monotheistic
monocultural predative gain

As our corporate Treasurer’s win/lose strategy
to some better deferred peace day
EarthJustice regain
without all our polarizing
hocus pocus

To retain a more regenerative win/win wedding
less autonomously win/lose divorced

More cooperatively
and therapeutically discussed
of course
while I re-examine my left pinky
with absent minded disgust

About a now former friend of mine
who tricked me into becoming
some hang-nailed treatment
I am not.

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Peak EarthWise Regard

Elder indigenous RightBrain
peak win/win resonant experience
is not ego-centric
because interdependent organic systems
are not monopolized by anthropocentric
LeftBrain monotheistic dominance.

RightBrain prominent ecstasy
fulfills win/win co-invested play
of ecologically interdependent
sacred cooperative polycultural wu-wei
democratic energy neuro-systems
secular health Left
embracing sacred wealth integrity
reforming bicameral elder Right
polytheistic polyvagal
ancient communication networks

Commonly held by organic life and death
multi-regenerational
EarthTribal panentheistic inside/outside views

Ego-inside spiritually introverted subjects
also Eco-Other natural co-empathic objects

Objectives
of Right/Left bicameral
peak win/win experiences
not autonomously egocentric
because EarthTribal identities
are not peculiarly anthropocentric
as is monotheistic
monopolistic
monoculturing win/lose LeftBrain dominance

Worshiping anthro-exceptional world views
like Straight White Corporate AlphaMale
historical privilege
as compared to cooperative
co-empathic
co-invested
sacred polycultural ecofeminists

Engaging peak natural/spiritual
nondualistic grace
of bicamerally balanced ecofeminist
vocations and vacations

Advocating total co-investment
in nonviolent communication
for restoring peak experiences
of EarthPeace, empowered right
is also EarthTribal Justice, enlightened left.

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Claustrophobic Center

Much has been felt
then written
about loneliness at the top

Less written,
yet perhaps far more often felt,
about claustrophobia in the center.

Problems with delegation,
boundaries,
predictable timelines,
responsive management focus,
follow through performance,
competitions to be heard
listened to
appreciated

Nonviolent calm
peace,
by contrast,
invites resiliently harmonic
win/win expansive
sublimely integrating
synergetic intention,
anticipation
slowly pushing out
and fading rabidly frenetic
anxiety,
chronic stress,
unmitigated win/lose trauma histories.

Integrity’s potential,
and not universal win/win perfectionism,
delivers resonantly happy,
wholesome,
healthy,
contented wealthy outcomes,
ecologically reconnected
with mythos
and eros
and ethos
and aesthetics
of panentheistic Paradise Promised

Is not perfectly comprehensive control
of a punishingly comprehensive
self and other governance system
felt as loneliness
near a constantly threatened
egocentric top

Of a patriarchal
capital-infested
win/lose zero-sum monopoly game
of Seize My Autonomous Day

Without unconditional regard
for EgoSelf as primal mentor
of what we look like,
versus what we feel like,
at the top of our AnthroPrivileged lives
without perfect GoldenRule encircling love.

A healthier democratic trust
for expansive EarthTribe circles
of co-empathic investment
may outdoor ease
our anxious indoor claustrophobic disease
fearful of disappointing
both authority figures
and our relentlessly needy constituencies

Angry at loss of privacy,
settling for less than sacred communion experience
within EarthTribe’s full sung range
of polycultural voices

Multiculturing choices
to feel and grow better,
healthier,
safe wealthier together
than dancing,
singing solo apart

On a stage
with a too bright ego spotlight
narrowly glaring at my own soul-embodied
godlike protagonist

Either against my own claustrophic circle
of followers
or standing alone at the supremely pompous top
of those already Othered
and thereby lessened–
followers,
sheep,
rather than cooperatively informed collaborators
steeped in Earth’s sacred
indigenous wisdom
and Sun’s enlightened
whole open systemic focus.

I suppose integrity’s co-empathic potential
for both/and nuanced
warm inviting cooperative regard
might be a contagiously viral
win/win alternative ecofeminist view

Anticipating cooperatively re-integrating
re-connecting
ecological mythic enrichment
of epic Here/Now
epistemological Body/Mind
eternal Life/Love
curiously interdependent Truth/Beauty
restoring Mundane/Sacred
bicamerally balanced
Paradise Lost

In EarthTribe wounded circles,
traumatized,
but not yet broken

While much has been autonomously felt
then written in self-isolation
about uneasy loneliness at the top
and diseased dismay
in a viciously shrinking circle
of traumatic climate despair.

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Riding Sixties Shotgun

I was in the shotgun seat
in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed straight as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
hunting down our commercial whitebread
heavenly ThriftMart,

Wanna be a WalMart
but not Southern enough,
somehow,
to withstand straight-male competition
in fluent White Privileged culture
favoring evangelical
monotheistic
monoculturing AnthroSupremacists

Kinda like
patriarchal-capitalist
anal-retentive pathological trauma
homophobic nature v panentheistic erotic spirit
kinda unenlightened Left unhealthy
and disempowered Right unsafe colonizing wealth
win/lose hoarding
apartheid community trauma dissociative
chronic supremacist anxiety disorders
degenerating unhealthy inside whites only classrooms
contrasting this all black and brown summer outside classroom
feeling shared healthier and safer hearts.

School would soon reopen.
We were on our way to buy
back to school
shirts and jeans,
and whitey tighties
and Elvis Presley-worthy
and 3rd grade new classmate
Arturo Hernandez
disturbing white T-shirts.

A warm August mid-western
urban day
for us white family farmers
traveling East
when a dark-skinned gorgeous boy
my same eight years of age
riding his bike
right out along a cracked
and broken
tree-lined sidewalk
with other kids around
playing hot hopscotch
near a sun-baked naked curb.

He looked over.

With my window down
I felt
and smelled
his shared fragrance
for a moment brown eye to blue
so improbably in love with
you
are who I was made for.

Maybe we could become
boyfriends
and then old-school married
naked together, sometime
someday
somewhere
by accident
discovering we both explore pleasure
favored with him brown-eyed beautiful above
and me under
blue-eyed wide ginger
passionate red-curly-headed
MeWe luscious
wrapped around his waist,
both wanting to give
and to conceive

As I can mostly missionary
dimly historically remember
sounds,
dim sight,
and fertile smell
when her egg
was open-whole systemically
fertilized by spraying Yangstrong
sperm informing
incoming
integral potentiating
seed
and feed
and breed
and bleed
and need
and divine peaking deed

He drove racing athletically
just to tie
our metallic bronze-skinned Ford
sedate, seats six, sedan
on his battered red bicycle
3-speed

His only helmet a handsome head
full fuzzy, yet glossy,
glistening in noon-day summer’s seismic sun,
crow-black
tight-curled
gracious gotta-touch it
play with
feel him

His warm wet scalp massaged,
his salty lips tasted,
his breath and nether sacred
dualdark parts
breathed in
absorbed
until my breath nearly stopped

Then he fell behind,
and was gone
until I met you

And there he was
this eight year old glamorous
brown-skinned boy
now grown
into his handsome thirties

Wanting me
to love him,
and only him,
to worship if I want,
as will he
in sacred
1/0 double-Taurus
1960’s HolySpirit co-passion
for playing only win/win peak hotness
co-governing robustly resonant
co-relations

Reparations
if you will
then so will I
GoldenRule give with you
what all StraightWhiteMale
patriarchal monotheists
would most fear
slatternly given away
in lust for men of color
in that unimageable
thighs spread needy open
way

LeftBrain dominantly win/lose
either/or zero-sum competitors
Left v Right polynomials
reweaving Left-with-Right bicamerals
polyculturing communion, not monoculturing competition,
creolizing, not colonizing,
cooperating, not hunting down
for a profitable military-industrial
LeftBrain dominant
ecopolitical kill

Not yet nightmarish anxious climate imagined
when I was eight years old
in our Ford’s shotgun seat
back in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed unstraight white
male as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
distracted by our up and outing
cold cash is sacred manna
ThriftMart.

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Designing for Healthy Beauty

PermaCulture DeSigners
of sacred spaced places
could commune with timeless
PolyCultural Beauty Consultants
I suppose.

HealthCare Consultants
with compassionately enlightened clients
want to co-invest their peak experience wealth
in slow growing indigenously humane health
and conservational safety
survival of the WinWin fit-
in-to-flow-out-
and-not-not-in-again
Open Whole systemic
green ecological
psychological
multiculturally co-mediating
slow-grow regenerating
global co-empowerment

Within each locally/globally win/win equitable plan
cooperatively contracted and managed
relationship between a Designer
and a NonZero Zone dynamic system
of emergent properties
lies an exponentially wealthing
ego/ecosystemic potential
for Wealth and Beauty optimization
worth more self-governing capital-effectiveness
than the sum of their/our constituent parts

Capital-minded,
compassion and healthy beauty endowed,
sharing visions
for cooperatively installed
and polyculturally occupied
synergetic
resilient Whole GreenBlue
Self/Other Governing Systemic

Open dynamic spiraling
interdependent inter-religioning
panentheistic energy networks
for ecopolitically LeftBrain enlightened
and RightBrain co-empowering
indigenous polychromatic wisdom
and health-wealthy Beauty

Goals
objectives
cumulative synergetic 4D spacetime
naturalBody/spiritualMind
double-boundary wu-wei lines,
seasonally regenerative nutritionYang-nurtureYin
spiraling recycles of natural resources
and spiritual communication capital
reinvestments.

Only clients
with nutritional health
and nurturing beautiful wealth
peak inspiring local investment goals
for EarthTribe’s global cooperative
need bother to contact
our polycultural Wealth and Beauty Consultants

Which excludes no one
not at right-now death’s portal,
because even mortally wounded survivors
hope to CoOperative EarthCulture thrive
when we no longer need worry
about mere win/lose climate survive

Regardless of income,
health,
beauty,
we are perennially engaged
in annually
and diurnally regenerating
sufficient humane health
and divine panentheistic safety
to survive local and global environmental trauma,
sacred EarthMother polluting,
and anthrosupremacist predation challenges
at this critical peak transition
PolyCultural Communication moment
in whole open GreenBlue Systemic EarthTribe
resonant
resilience-seeking
enterprise

Co-consulting to optimize
global mindspace beauty
in local-body polyculturing trusted time
for peak root
through gut
through capital head experiences
in permacultural community health
and safety
eco-therapeutic sacred communication
co-mediating compassionate design

As FatherSky enlightens bright blue trusted futures
and MotherSoil empowers
peak investment re-entry
into rich dark-fertile beauty
Truth in Passion pasts.

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UnConditional DisRegard

Unconditional disregard
sounds similar to my issues
with Straight White Male
AnthroPrivileged MonoPolistic
property developers

Taking a contract out
against caring for healthy soil
and resiliently protected access
to a wealth of water,
yet something less than flood waters
and super hurricanes.

How is unconditional disregard
not not also a local choice
for retaining a systemic health
is also wealth
gestalt?

Co-arising equivalently dipolar
LeftBrain healthy egos
and RightBrain wealthy ecosystems
recreating unconditional positive
not disregard for EarthCare?

How far
and wide
and deeply intimate do you care
to see
and speak
of where you dare to cum?
and go?

In our shared unconditional
regenerative regard narrative
from nascent egocentrism
to wellness-matured ecosystemic consciousness

Where unconditional health
is an ecologically positive
polycultural regard
and wealth is a biological not negative
Earth-patriotic capital co-investment
future EarthTribe regenerations

Unconditionally co-regarding
bicameral
bipartisan
ego/ecopolitically cooperative
win/win co-investments
in unconditional sacred/secular regard.

How deep do unconditional regard
root systems need to emerge
into health
and safety thrival
exploring more than win/lose
this quarter
this year
raw and naked survival?

To see
and speak
what any ignorant narcissist
can remember
of indigenous neurosensory experience

We all enjoy a sacredly ecstatic peak experience
potential to break through mundane side
by predative sideness.

We share so much more potential
than autonomously taking a perfect
non-conditioned disregard
for slow grown eschatological dumps
to seed Earth’s polyculturally panentheistic
nonviolent communing

Healthy and safe
unconditionally regarding
secular soil
and sacred win/win peak experience toil
to not spoil
what MotherEarth
needs to rear Her
unconditional warm self and Other
regarding future regenerations

ReMembering
Safety and self-optimizing
health care
are also unconditionally
well regarded
organic
sacred wealth share.

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EcoGovernance Notes

Give as you can co-invest green,
Receive as you need,
Be all we are cooperatively becoming.

A deep root chakra foundation
of healthy polycultural life,
positive/negative mind-embodied
consilient unstrifed life
is far more than pre-death
in win/win whole open systemic
EarthTribe regenerative/degenerative networks
supporting transportively cooperative pedagogy
through mental/physical
spiritual/natural
theo/eco-logically integral
sacred/secular potential
green resilience.

Universally unitarian egos
co-passionately speaking up
and out
for and from
polyculturally polyphonic joy
regenerate sacred celebrations
of interdependent energy
positive/negative
one full and open
zero not empty and not closed
co-binary wu-wei energy
of TaoZen
nonzero zones
for global health-wealth care
kindness
gratitude
compassion
integrity of wide ecological purpose
and deep theological meaning.

Whole Open Systemic CulturaList:
Mono
Poly
PanEntheistic
Womanist-Feminist
Patriarchal
Green
Red
Blue
Turquoise Spiraling Spectral
Color
Black/White Bi
Full/Empty DiPolar
WuWei Trans
Octave-Fractal Holonic
NonZero WinWin
ZeroSum WinLose
Open
Closed
Holonic
Holy
Whole
Health
Multi
Sacred
Secular
Academic
Cognitive
Intuitive
Technology
Information
Organic
Democratic
Autocratic
Kleptocratic
Colonizing
Creolizing
Conservational
Liberal

Patristic traditional choices
for conserving sequestered wealth
through retributive justice
hierarchical systems
may re-member
re-connect with older
womb through tomb
EcoFeminist health liberation
for restoring cooperative peace
and resilient global justice
global ecosystemic governance
networks of co-passionate binomials.

EarthTribe resiliently
and resonantly organizes
around nonviolent communication experiences
of win/win health/wealth optimization
supported by whole open pedagogical
creolizing
multiregenerational systems
bicameral
bipartisan
bilateral polycultural co-remediation.

Pursue ecotherapeutic NEEDS
taking on CHALLENGES of win/lose risks
communicating with nonviolent skill RESOURCES
for win/win OPPORTUNITIES

Win/win open whole resilient criteria
for cost effectively achieving
Health/wealth optimizing systems:
Green REVITALIZING
Ego LeftBrain EFFICIENT
EcoSystemic RightBrain COMPASSIONATE
Health/Wealth nondualistically IMPACTFUL

Whole open revolving EarthTribe
neuro-sensory
visual-audio
smell-taste
touch-feel bilateral systems
seem to prefer outdoor
green STEAM classrooms
for deep learning multicultural
EarthGoverning
work and play
study and meditation
song and dance
plant and harvest
dormant and peak
nondualistic co-present
co-passionate communication

To give as we can co-invest green,
Receive as we red-blooded need,
Be all we are cooperative blues becoming.

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Deep Estuaries

Behind Summer’s fullness
richness,
nutritional and nurturing sunlight
empowering bounty

Lies another deep
darker sacred truth
of EarthTribe’s inevitable mortality,
death
loss
cosmic stress
universal trauma

MonoTheistic distrust,
disaster,
despair
of patriarchal supremacy

MonoPolistic colonizing,
divisive,
aggressive,
violent,
rapacious,
racist,
sexist
climatic pathology

MonoCulturing Straight Western Male
historic white
protagonist light

Against deep dark green
ecofeminist
co-passionate
co-empathic
co-arising bicameral
panentheistic empowering
harmonic mindful balance.
EarthTribal enlightenment.

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Resilient Redemption

Probably few of us
have capacity
to see ourselves
as both Angel
and Demon.

Many of us
have had the experience
of demonizing
and punishing ourselves
for sins of the past
extending into our present
festering
unresolved trauma.

Hopefully many of us
have also had the experience
of forgiveness
and saving ourselves
from sins of the future
because someone shared with us,
in some effective way,
that nothing
is always your autonomous fault

If only because
no organic creature,
anthro or otherwise,
is born
or can survive
radically autonomous
from non-ego centers.

Personal identity
follows interpersonal
ecosystemic individuation
developmentally
causally
and effectively.

I hear healing opportunity
in this responsible
yet not solely responsible
both/and way of consciousness

As well as traumatizing risk
of denial,
too cheap self forgiveness,
too easy hiddenness
of our secret
most private
feelings of guilt
about harming another

Both intentionally
and without malice,
accidentally.

A woman’s reluctant decision
to abort may feel unresolvable
between angelic win/win desires
and demonic win/lose fears
and angers

As might
her reluctant decision
to buy a gun
and several ominous rounds
of deadening ammunition

To protect herself
and her children
from traumatic demons
at her flimsy door

Not considering
her lack of experience
with braver angels
hoping to reassure her.

Therapeutic angels
may also wait,
curiously
and impatiently,
outside that same door,
searching for health’s
most wealthy bell
to dispel
shared dark shadows

In-between silent demons
we abhor
and sacred angels
we redemptively adore.

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Economic Wounds

My capital investment wounds
don’t define me;
they refine MeWe
into Earth’s green peace
win/win strategic barrier
beyond which lies win/lose
and EarthLove v AnthroLife
nihilistic
entropic lose/lose
co-arising degenerative gravitation

MeWe have become
tragi-comedically
Me v We
on this good Earth
healthy and safe timeless
ReGenerative Day.

Trauma refines my humanity’s
risks
as Therapy defines EarthTribe divinity’s
co-operative economic opportunities
in Earth-Eden’s Peace

Where trust in healthy spacious Truth
refines
what Beauty
wealth slow-grown defines

Like sacred trinitarian space
in dipolar co-arising
green Anthro/Earth
recommunion peace-filled time.

My self-appreciation,
and Other non depreciation, assets
regenerate
whole-sum holonic gifts
to redefine MeWe,
and not Me v We;

Strategically played Win/Win
nurturing healthy nutritious wealth,

Refines my depression impressions
inhibiting repression
disempowering right-integral mind
suppression
from and yet also toward
unenlightened
unhealthy
unsafe silos
of neglected Me
against oppressed We.

My greatest appreciations
are my slow-grown co-invested wealth songs
and spoken word resonant health choice
voices

EarthMother’s cognitive/affective
double-binding verbal/non-verbal intellectual properties
invite curiosity about personal/political reflections
on and in
EarthTribe’s economic ecological compassion

WholeEarth
healthy Me
and safe-We assets,
impressive win/win gifts
for restoring EarthJustice

One timelessly nonviolent moment
in empirical
global
universal
systemic spacetime

Transcending embodied MeIdentity’s
inevitable mortality,
physical/mental dichotomy,
Lose/Lose end-time unverbalized lobotomy

Severed from EarthTribe’s cooperative-ownership
democratic healthy trust experience
within boundless sacred win/win curiosity,
personal/political nonanimosity,
ecological enculturation
of divine ancestors,
Whole Open Systemic
NonZero SkyYang/EarthYintegral Organic
organically and spiritually
nutritiously nurturing

Indigenous wisdom
defining/refining
panentheistic win/win
ecopolitically cooperative
bicameral experience

Liberal NonZero Soul
regeneration revolution
free from slow-growing mistrust
of cognitive/affective dissonant stress
about chronic
EconomicConserving
ClosedOff ZeroSum
degenerating AnthroOnly Revenue

Longing for long-term familial
resilient competitive capital
win/lose degenerative
bare survival of the predative wealthiest

Absence of win/win regenerative
therapeutic
cooperatively-owned
impressive ecological
economic green co-arising values.

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