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Dark

Dark chances,
unhealthy and unsafe trauma
HiStories

Degenerating predative dogmas
not wanting to let go of ballistics
even for dawning light’s sacred promise
to grab full-immersion hold
and heal dark mythologies
lose now and again later ecologies
repeat rehearsed
inside-only voiced
dark passion narratives

Speaking out alarmed Betrayal
from those you were taught to Trust–
[it was Her job!
I have an unconditional contract
on a warm wet naturally wombed
and spiritually unwounded
birthright!

Defying Other’s Anger
about my gift-economy Hypocrisy
about my sacred Golden Rule restriction
win/win positive aspiration,
invoked by nature’s spiritual
Hippocratic Oath
to at least do no damage
losing trusted breath in
so losing full breath back out
again
and again
and repeat breathlessly again.

My own most difficult,
occasionally traumatic,
distressingly long, slow
letting go transition

Feels almost inevitably headed
for natural health-Lose
spiritual health-Lose
despair

Unless we all keep trying our best,
not just me
cleaning up your mess
to suffering servant impress

All us AnthroPrivileged victims
aware of traumatic over-populated
rabid traumatic
and pandemic health risks,
and runaway
emerging PTSD
and dementia
and suicide
and matricide
and ecocide

Make it almost impossible
to respect ourselves
yet not fear
retributive justice officers
and judges
and monolithic Yang-Jehovah

Dispensing punishments and fines
and shame
and blame
where the only obvious victim
I can see
is me.

My dark protagonist continues
to be victimized,
even now in aging memories

Every day past light
leads, at dusk,
to dark future
leads, at dawn,
to soon past light…

Yet my attachment to enlightenment
encourages me to disregard
co-arising dipolar dark empowerments
bicamerally re-associated

Yet awkwardly, sometimes
with high-risk trauma histories
monoculturally LeftBrain
EgoCentric predative Yang

AnthroPrivileged Voices
stuck on healthy and safe past orthodox
value systems
personal
and economic
and political
and separate and unequal
bi-sensory
and anti-sexual competitive dogmatic traditions

Not spiritually or naturally learning
so not wanting to let go
even for dawning light’s healthy promise
to grab resilient hold
and heal dark
post-traumatic lose/lose
zero-sum global
ecocidal winterish nightmares

Dipolar co-arising
unconditional warm sun rising
well-moisturized
copassionately co-invested day dreams
and horizontal dances,
core-chakra interpersonal win/win
exercises
nonviolent practice
practice
practice

Until we get our cooperative peak experience
sacredly awesome
and restorative ecojustice
left and right again

BiLateral
BiCameral creolization
in timeless tides
of over-swelling
regenerativity

Not quite
so bleakly alone
trapped in silent screaming stark
Dark.

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First PolyPathic Relationships

Ranking best
health and safety options,

Our Project Team revisits potential resources
directions
options Win/Win inclusive,
Win/Lose defensive,
Lose/Lose mutually degenerative destruction

Outcome predictions
responding to long-experienced yields
of sacred organic relationships
and secular mechanized Other
and Lesser Things

not always Capitalized Thoughts
with clarifying labels, explicit
but sometimes nonverbally
felt dissociative
fuzzy
disturbing
implied
OtheringThings

Starting at deepest top
of each sacred day
and life yield:

  1. Positively nurturing increase with use,
    like win/win intended
    unconditionally regarding
    warm compassionate communion
  2. Loss when not used,
    like dormant muscles
    for sacred curiosity about win/lose trauma narratives
    and therapeutic restorative justice
    and interdependent peace
    with co-invested inventions
    to flex dipolar co-arising
    secular-mind/sacred-body
    co-nurturing opportunity
  3. No definitive gain or loss
    LeftBrain dominant Business As Usual
    despite repeated obsessive/repulsive
    approach/avoid
    win to lose strategic overuse,
    predicting overshot fear-based retributions
    colonizing
    imprisoning
    punishing
    criminalizing
    kleptocratic,
    autocratic judgmental
    seedy shame
    needy anthropocentric frame
    weedy blame
    toxic degenerating systems
    monocultures
    monotheistic
    post-industrial colonizing
    RichKings like Gods
    RightWing christian capitalist
    StraightWhitePatristic exploitive
    overheated sacred-spirit v desecrating nature
    Good is never Evil
    as God anticipation is never Devil addiction
    climates of fear-based competition
    between sacred protagonist prophets
    and desecrating antagonist profits.
  4. Destruction when used
    like Business As Winner v Loser Usual Players
    seduced by hate and anger,
    reduced by violence,
    toxic chemicals,
    vengeance,
    simmering neglect
    LeftBrain defensive hypocrisy
    and not RightBrain liberating transparency.
  5. Lose/Lose ego- and eco-systemic pollution
    degradation when used
    and bullish over-used,
    like anthro-supremacist
    monotheistic
    StraightWhiteMale labeled
    LeftBrain verbal privileged pretensions
    monochromatically monopolistic,
    narcissistically over-dramatic
    trauma triggering sleep deprivation
    depression
    root chakra sensory repression
    lack of positive impression , trauma
  6. Of 1. Instead of starting with exclusive Win/Win therapeutic intent,
    which Increases with exercising
    and stretching
    unconditionally warm regard
    extending multiculturally compassionate
    sacred historically informed cultures
  7. Yielding resilient communion in seven sacred/desecrating ways
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Narcissists Unanimous

I might feel grand
aspiring to omnipotent
omniscience

Whereupon omnipresence
might feel less necessary,
or even possible,
or desirable

In a secularized
reduced
dissociated apartheid,
sacred Us v sinful Them

An omnipotently inflammatory place
for every Other individual thing
and all Other routine
and orthodox Things,

Omnipresent capital events
in anonymously rational
linear
fundamentally dualistic frames

Either sacred Me
or secularized You
will win our antagonistic win/lose
evolving worldview news

Preferably reduced from
supremely anthro-privileged
down deep into
my ego’s highest omnipotent potential
best win/win omniscience sacredly encircled
to ubiquitously favor
least global cost
and most localized efficient
ego/eco healthcare
resonant balance

In a way not omnipotently possible
nor omnipresently invited
nor yet omnisciently compassioned

If only we were more adept
at losing win/lose
and playing win/win
Gods and Goddesses,
OmniPresent Icons
and OmniPotent Idols

Inviting sacred Gaian EcoFeminist spaces,
omnisciently omnipotent places,
unconditionally disregarding
LeftBrain Iconic Narks
Phallic Idols,
profit prophets
for Narcissists Unanimous.

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Pequot River Land Trust

Once,
or twice,
maybe thrice,
surely not
not fractal

A clan of crazy ecofeminist
conspired with an 88 unit residential castle
in a historically converted
colonial-red brick bad building

With a sometimes soggy south wall school,
but not a pool

With a toxic Brownfield
to the South
disempowered
and a healthy playfield
to the North
enlightened

Overlooking Connecticut’s Pequot River,
We plotted
and mystically strategized
in sibilant circles
of reinvention

Without pretention
And also, sometimes,
without hearing much retention
of what silent Others
might, more paternalistically
have disinterestedly said
about corporate kleptocracy
of our home planet Earth

Distracted by paternalistic
colonizing over-shoot
into capital hoarding
closed and toxic dgenerating
anthrosupremacist extraction systems
of economic and politically chauvenistic
apartheid sponsored disintegrating health care
giving is also cooperative receiving
win/win resiliently therapeutic systems.

Our panentheistic worship patterns
are nuanced sacred eco-logia
subtle
avoiding dogmatically fundamental
unwoke and unwelcome absence
of over-investing
in disempowering communal Yinside DoorMats,

Externally oppressed
by prickly but ineffective predators
wiping their StraightWhite Privilege
to bow to Mammon’s narcassistic
monotheistic
bedeviling superpowers

For, eventually,
enlightening LeftBrain verbalized prejudices
against sacred RightBrrain muted
yet co-empathic trust for feelings

Of both blue sky
and green forests
co-investing with Mother’s re-membered
communal ecofeminist transporters
and nonviolently communicating
great and small transitioning
transubstantiations

Left and Right bilateral
human health balanced brilliance
relies on MotherEarth’s sacred wealth
ecoministerial resilience
of indigenously wise
ecotherapists
sharing and caring
for our tilling tools

EcoLogians
strategizing in Earth patterns
breathing in resilient eco-systems
of light
to breathe out ego-recentering networks
of win/win co-invested power

CoMediation thriving yet again
until EarthMother’s last breath rasp
echoes Her first
majestically fluid EarthTribal gasp

Win/Win Whole Open Systemic
left-ego/right-eco
in/out-side bipartisan health values

Collectively lost
momentarily and pandemically pausing
in Non-0 reverse-time
double-boundaries of sacred mythos
and secular logos
paradoxing double-negatives
equal appositional co-arising positives

Both True and Elegant
as +Positive PolyNomial Open Whole Systems
equal= -/- PolyMathic DiPolar Balancing Resolution
as +1 = -(-0-squared) CoBinary NonZero Resilient Win/Win Equity

When LeftBrain exponentially triumphant
when all bilateral hands are dealt
in positive fractal squares

In Holonic PresenceSpace
delightfully empowering
One universally panentheistic
circling
recycling
spiraling
inspiring
inspirating living planetary flow

Of eternally sacred,
and ergodically regenerative
timeless moment positive energy
reclaims not-not wu-wei
flow to grow
healthier together
than degeneratively apart
trying to remember
if this is laxative night.

More resilient,
don’t you think
empowering
and often feel
enlightened?

So, we co-invested
a People of the Pequot LandTrust
nonprofit association
for historical preservation,
including mindful practices
of Indigenous Ego/EcoSystemic
Resilient Wisdom

Unconditionally regarding,
re-communing free of StraightWhitePatriarchalCapitalist trauma,
cooperatively re-investing
for WuWei Resilient Earth-empowering outcomes
secular/sacred cultural balance,
Left/Right partisan creolization
for healthcare optimization,
+1/-(-0) ecopolitical equity

YangHealth equals Yintegral NonZero Systemic Wealth
for regenerative
usually cooperative
fair-weather days
engaging in multigenerational health governance
through wu-wei Pequot Rivered
Yang/Yintegrity
seeking up/down river
BiCameral PolyNomial Balance.

We took our Resilience Project Theory
to the Clay Math Club
supported by systemic panentheistic theology
of wise crone
Golden win/win Resilience Rule
applied organically
for ego/eco-logia health care
wealth received designs
in nonzero-sum metric balance

Where six of One,
for reasons slightly beyond
LeftBrain reductive incomprehension,
feels, rather LeftBrain precisely,
yet also RightBrain systemically,
like half a dozen of Non-0
stands in for Other times
and double-binding
mythic fractal octaves
in duo-decimal months
light/dark appositionally co-arising

Like breathing in lightenment
to breathe out dark intensely felt
and unconditionally regarded
ego/ecologically balancing

BiPartisan love of health
is not in competition
with compassion
for restoring EarthJust
global peace

At least win/win intentionally,
As our wise old transeregeneereators,
grey and white haired gardeners
reflect sun’s light
while digging yet deeper
more Resilient Organic Projects

Projecting goals in soil
and soulful LandTrusts
for historic Beauty
preservation of Rivers
and healthy EarthTribe’s Green/Blue inspiraling
panentheistic living
breathing in and out Planet

Earth
Where our LandTrust indigenous designs
take us back
where S/He started

Our 0-Zone
most valuable resilience assets
are a healthy Pequot River
and our wealthy nutritional
health care giving
and receiving
breathing in and re-seeding out
soil

And sacred ecofeminist
panentheistic Non-0
Open Whole Systemic
wu-wei Taoistic,
indigenously wise
deep listening
trauma anthroprivileged LeftBrain informed
souls for ego/eco-balanced
therapy

Isn’t trauma
as +1 Whole Holonic HealthSystem
is not -0 Closed Claustrophobic
chaotic entropic
degenerative
viciously deteriorating
genocide
matricide
suicide
ecocide

Lose/Lose global climate trauma
is not Win/Win universal
cooperative restorative justice
theory
informing nonviolent communication
intention
and health/wealth optimizing care
personal
and interpersonal experience.

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MotherEarth’s Resilience Project

So, Mother, where do you get all your creative ideas?

Outside, of course.
I’m not known as MotherNature for nothing
after all Earth’s regeneration
is too often said
and too seldom done
with unconditional regard
for our Green Vegetation Tribes.

OK, that almost made sense
in a dizzying
circular
self-reflective kind of inappropriate
way.

And, if I might also add, even though you asked about where,
perhaps a more interesting question is,
When do we get all our most resilient health
and safety
ideas?

For me,
all my best indigenous green creation wisdom
comes to me at night,
in dialogue with my GrandMother Moon.
She waxes and wanes,
breathing in full sensate blue seas
of surf, ebbing and flowing
exhaling and inhaling
verbal thoughts and nonverbal feelings,
noticed outside
and also perceived inside,
communications verbal and nonverbal,
aggressive and nonviolent,
competing against dawning light
and cooperating with dusk’s wiki co-empowerment,
disempowerment,
un-empowerment,
re-empowerment,
pre-empowerment
like light/dark phases of a round
spinning
spiraling
inspiring
spirited full systems
co-reflective moon.

Why did you get involved in this Resilience Project?

Well,
you deeply know
what traumatized PatriarchalCapitalists warn:
Follow the green money.
And,
the MatriarchalCooperativists advocate,
sometimes cleverly win/win mediate,
leading with sacred circles
of communal power,
aware of FormativeHere greeting FluidNow
space-time body/minds
sometimes positively waxing,
before negatively waning,
and in-between

Not not appositionally co-arising,
co-invested
co-empathic Self/Other Golden Rules
of double-binding co-relations
positive and negative
tipping poignant outside/inside balance,
precessive/recessive,
inhaling/exhaling systemic
resiliently projected/rejected resonance

For being outside Here
and becoming inside more healthy Now
is also wealthy
eternal Polynomial Positive
equals Not(Not Polynomial)
bilaterally co-empathic synergy

Now surfing sensate seas,
inhaling strong verbal forms of present Being
Fullness to also exhale nonverbal flows
of still Becoming
MotherEarth’s resilience project

Projected and rejected
and wu-wei in-between
waxing resiliently strong Yang
and waning
not not resonant Yintegrity.

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Disability’s Wisdom

Moderation in all metaphysical
and physical declarations
and implementations
of RightWing
LeftBrain dominance.

ImModeration in self
as also Other
love.

Moderation in all things,
except continuously flowing integrity

Reforming
and propelling
compassionate universal regard.

Passionately love wisdom
that diversely
and re-contextually regards
win/win positive co-arisings
and win/lose negative correlations
to bilaterally become felt
knowing integral
bicameral
polycultural
polypathic
polyvagal
polynomially pleasing praxis.

Unconditionally practice
ecological praxis

Contextually
and spatially
temporally expanding consciousness
into eco/theological contemplative
enabling arts,
spiritual nature-living
indigenous
nondualistic deductive/inductive
exhaling/inhaling wisdom

Peak sensory nonviolent performance
of co-passionately experiential theology
becoming our inside sacredly held Truth
and radically democratic inclusive Trust
and diversely unobtrusive multicultural Beauty
of everyday unconditional neuro-sensory regard

In which win/win anticipation
co-empowers
and co-enlightens
other bicameral win/win MeWe
co-empathic abilities
living exotic bodhisattva healing lives

Teaching us metaphysically
and physically re-establishing
re-framing
re-seating
re-walking
dancing and re-singing
trauma histories
of our together felt
therapeutic horizons
of deep integral meaning.

Peak metaphysical experiences of loving
mystically become body fulfilling
right-brain acts of health becoming
fully alive

Compassion
is a right-brain artistic
and left-brain analytic
integral mind/body process
nonviolent

Engaging win/win trusted horizons
of panentheistic Beauty
and trusted Truths

Reveal a synergetic
cooperatively energetic
multiculturally accessible praxis

Responding to challenges
with our joyful “Yes”
to inter-related
win/win
is better
and healthier
and wealthier
and wiser
than settling for win/lose
paralyzing life
is better than lose/lose
mortal despairing
global climate challenges.

Punishing economic
political
social injustice internally contradicts
resilient health care
like an unconditionally
cooperatively regarded “No Way!”

To lack of sacred enabling integrity
which lose/lose traumatizes
decontextualizes
marginalizes
imprisons
destroys

Compassion’s unconditionally flowing
reforming polytheistic love

Is life’s bilateral
metaphysical potential sanctity,
dignity,
enabling wise integrity
regardless of physical abilities
and left-brain dominant
verbal articulation
enabling communionation
capacities

To write about
moderation in all metaphysical
and physical declarations
and implementations
of RightWing
LeftBrain dominance.

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Therapeutic JustUs

Lori Gottlieb
describes mental health mediators
and dream translators
prescribing more cost-effective therapeutic questions:

Who am I?
What do I want?
What’s in my natural health/spiritual wealth
bilaterally balancing way?

What do I want more:
to autonomously control
OR
to be part of some monopolizing,
possibly monotheistic, Thing
bigger than egocentric Me?

May morph
more effluently co-therapeutic
than affluent expertise advice
into:
What do I want
to safely control
AND YET ALSO
be part of some EarthTribe
polyculturally intelligent Relationship?

Healthier
more inclusive
and indigenous
and holistic
and organic
and resilient
than excluded
and punished
and wounded
and thereby imprisoned
and victimized Me

And my LeftBrain capitalized dominance
affluently attracts Gottlieb’s rational health
and safety questions
about wounded AnthroEgos

AND my RightBrain effluent impressions
of slow-growing ecopolitical affluent feelings
grow improved for win/win cooperative global thrival
midst monoculturing win/lose competitive survival
of local health and safety therapeutic improvement
as a resilient panentheistic stress-reducer
organically connected cooperative management
re-connecting
iEarthTribe inter-religious narratives
sacredly inviting
more effluent trickles
and streams
and rivers
and oceans
of EarthTribe living
loving indigenous waters

Descended from prehistoric
more polytheistic
matriarchal cooperative economies
of co-invested local democratic
domestic energy

Tipping toward Tao balanced
bilateral co-governance
healthy communing nutritional cycles
and recycles of ecofeminist
fertile restorative justice
regenerative healing wombs
also asking:

Who are sacred We?
feeling
when we most effluently
fluidly feel
and formatively think?

What does bicameral MeWe intelligence want?

What’s in our ancient monotheistic
anthrocentric
LeftBrain dominant
encultured win/lose dissociative
wounded
traumatized
stress-triggered
climate anxiety

Rabidly emergent RightWing
punishing
and excluding
and victimizing
denial of anthropocentric harm
and fundamental EarthHealth despairing
Lose/Lose polyvagal
neuro-systemic
binomially dissonant
+P v -NP
EitherLeftOrRight unbalanced
+1/-(-0)
BothLeftAndNotNotRight rebalancing
co-therapeutic Way?

Yang affluent
AND
Yin effluent

Ego/EcoTherapeutically
restoring personal secular Justice
AND BICAMERALLY COMMUNING
panentheistic
co-empathic sacred Peace

And maybe a little joy
now and then
becoming more faithfully
inclusively
restoratively
resonantly
resiliently
regeneratively frequent

Bicamerally communioning
co-arisingly dipolar
nonzero open
sacred
integral
WholeHolyHolonicEarth

Systemic eco/theo-logical
trust in therapeutic
not RightWing anthro-elitism
embracing
EarthTribe restorative justice
public health affluence
is also resilient sacred peace
public safety effluence,
reformatively reflowing political ego/eco-integrity,
co-empathic panentheistic compassion.

Unlike our left-hemispheres
taught
and monoculturally
RightWing capital over-invested
win/lose zero-sum assumptions,

Truly therapeutic
EarthTribe resilient polycultural wisdom
is more of an effluently joyful
Eastern bodhisattva peace-growing process
than an affluently measured
messianic critical judgment event

Which I believe
is what the New Testament
good news of Jesus narrative
is ego/eco-systemically
all Holy Nature/Spirited about
indigenously peaceful
Truth affluent
and sacred Beauty effluent,
definitely not RightWing
LeftBrain dominant,
wisdom.

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From the Resilient Ones

Do not give in
to lethargy
and despair

And do give joy
to recreation
and compassion

Despite stained underwear
in need of repair

Do not lose faith
in what
and whom
you can touch naturally
yet seldom feel spiritually

Do not lose hope
when you must:

hear healing voices
without embodied choices,

smell as present therapeutic being
yet losing taste
informed by past becoming trauma,

understand integrity’s truths
but never know synergy’s beauty,

listen for compassion
from Mother’s sacred womb
yet seldom solely speak
of outside
and for inside
loving souls

With regenerative issues
in-between not negative 1’s
and positive ecopolitical 0’s
brilliantly full
joyfully up
invested outside
yang natured
secular polynomial,
and yet sacred polytheistic,
exegetical nutrition narratives
of how we have globally become
unconditional compassion

Regenerating polyvagal neuro-systemic voices
of win/win
more than win/lose
more than lose/lose
consciousness
of indigenously wise choices
for resilience.

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Grave Feelings

I rediscover organic errors
hidden in co-gravitating
love language.

Gravity is easily noticed
as Apple falling toward Earth;
less visibly conscienced,
experientially remembered,
as co-gravitational
co-relational intent

As Apple’s ego-gravity core
falls drawn toward sacred Earth’s
Mothering womb
smothering tomb
once more
returning toward deeply divine
anthrosupremely verbal
overpowering EarthTribe core gravitas soul
slowly soaring
back down and out
into globally nutritional
seasonally appropriate
co-invested ecological
co-operative 7-regeneration
co-investment

From which this same sacred
co-gravitating Apple
dialectically
binomially
bilaterally
double-binary
co-empathically
historically
polyculturally potentiated

Organic life loves
win/win love
is not lose/lose
not not hate

Against continuously emerging
win/lose further obvious irresolutions

Like why we know Yang 1 Positive
dipolar co-gravitates
with Yintegral 0 Negative

Yet does not oppositionally
defiantly ignore
positive polynomial language
statements
events
narratives

Co-gravitating equitably Yang 1 Positive
balanced with not not Yintegral 0-squared

P=NP appositional
but not oppositional,
at least and at best,
not yet
[N] enthymematic multicultural
Both/And’s “not yet”

Not cogravitating dissonance disorder
climate stress
community exceptionalism distress
childhood win/lose stressors
wounds
losses
chronic anxiety

Not not P
unveils integrity’s potential
both/and right hemisphere
secular/sacred EarthMother
indigenous nondualistic wisdom
of integrity’s co-passioning
universal potential passion

When P also embraces
Left Hemisphere’s Patriarchal Capital
co-gravitating memories
of mountainously enlightening SunGod
erupting Win/Win
polynomially holistic Communion
Creolization
TranSubstantiation

Deeply empowering Right Hemisphere’s
dualdark immortal EarthMother soul
womb
tomb
soil
gloom
EarthTribal co-gravitating
absorbing
emerging future healthcare
regeneration
revolution

Gravitates toward gravitas
wellness-seasoned wealth
integral P=(N)NP

Polypathic Yang 1+
redefines, refines
(N)P not-0 exponential
indigenously wise GoldenRule
co-relational win/win
is not win/lose,
Both/And dipolar co-gravitation
is more than Either 1 Or 0 bipolar
intelligence

Co-gravitating win/win co-operative
Humane-Infant/Sacred-EarthMother

Original CoGravitational Win/Win Attachment
is not Original Lose/Lose Detachment Sin

Against Ego/Earth double-gravitating
decontextualized absence
of resilient co-gravitas peak experiences
with bicameral Yang/Yintelligence

Rediscovering LeftBrain dominant
Either/Or reductive Win/Lose errors
hidden in co-gravitating
RightBrain Both/And
language of dipolar co-arising
passion mountains
and deep [Not] not valleys.

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In and Out CoPassions

I could know no Self
without an Other

We could have no Child
without an EarthMother

No Ego
without an Earth-bound EcoSystem

I could understand no male
linear formation dominantly prominent
without a co-responding female circling
inflowing/outgrowing concomitance

I could not know severance bipolar
of either/or discursive logic
without feeling round wombed dipolar
environmental both/and nurtiuring
spiraling
revolving
seasonally developing
ecologic

I could not form
positive 1
if not for inflowing/outgoing
co-passionate
co-invested
binomial
not not 0.

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